19 Days Since my Husband Suddenly Died - Mom of 8 Kids

Video diary of my mindset 7 days after laying my husband to rest. He suddenly passed away July 16, 2023. Now I am a widow of 8 young kids (the oldest being 20 years old).
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Recently my husband of 20 years and biological father of our 8 children suddenly passed away (on July 16, 2023). Adjusting to the sudden trauma and shock has been the hardest thing we have had to go through in our entire lives! Our 8 children spent their whole lives having their father by their side at home, guiding them. Now this grave loss has caused a ripple affect not only in our daily lives, but financially, as well as emotionally, and a great looming uncertainty.
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[@blondeferalgirl]

Your little one looking up at you, gently rubbing your back. What a blessing she is.

[@Nope-NotToday]

Are you kidding?? A child that age should be carefree, and not comforting her crying mom

[@tyeishaleisure]

It’s not that little one’s job to console her mother. That’s not ever a child’s job.

[@Lee_Anne123]

Also PLEASE PLEASE for the sake of the children put them in school!!! They deserve to have an education

[@Momof8kids]

Victory starts high school next year, and I am thinking of restarting Passion and Deity next year also. They did go to school before the pandemic.

[@christinapither6963]

Why would you make a pact that you wouldn’t remarry? That’s your husband trying to control you from beyond the grave. He should want you to find happiness again when the time is right.

[@rachelr.n.3563]

Control, control...that's all it was all about

[@kleedasantos3236]

Right. That's so wierd. That's no "pact".. That's him making sure she's never happy again🙄 if he really cared about her he would've wanted her HAPPY, not alone and a single mother for the rest of her life. He had already lived his life, he almost lived just about to the average male life expectancy, he KNEW she would end up all alone sooner than later.🙄🥴

[@loisroberts2216]

Life is for living please rethink cause when someone tell you not to remarry they are not for your Good well being. I know u loved him life with out him will be hard he is all you know. But when we are left beside are life keeps living and I would love to see u find someone to share your life with kids will come and go but you need to enjoy life laugh love . my heart goes out to you sweetie. Much love just think. Ok

[@loisroberts2216]

Please reach out to your family u need them even a call a talk.

[@loisroberts2216]

take your sons advise it a new start it takes time your life not over you are very young and you are pretty never give up.

[@clare1971]

She may not know what is going on, according to you, but trust me she will pick up on the vibes

[@pamd4068]

Empress is much smarter than you give her credit for. Look at her little face as she's listening to you talk about dying and depression and every few minutes you say she doesn't understand this at all. Also, it's odd to me that you seem to really favor empress. When she acts out you let her get away with everything whereas the other kids you don't. You have a small baby why isn't he in your arms he truly wouldn't understand what you're saying. The older kids should be watching Empress. I don't understand this.

[@hawaiipommom.1306]

You have the rest of your life as well, Rosalie. There is no need for you to make a pact of never meeting someone one day. If your husband truly loved you, I believe he would want you to be happy.

[@artgirl67]

I absolutely agree... please don't turn off your heart to the possibility of having a companion again someday....

[@Ohboycommentsection]

If the roles were reversed, I can safely say that her husband would've remarried in a matter of months. So many do. The odds are against her with her 8 kids, poor finances, lack of education, no work history...step right up fellas

[@Scoly34]

You should absolutely allow yourself to find love again when you are ready. Everybody needs somebody. You shouldn’t be alone the rest of your life. Your husband shouldn’t have wanted you to suffer from loneliness.

[@Momof8kids]

He didn't, it was a comfort to him to know that I wouldn't be alone and that I have our children.

[@Scoly34]

Well, it is true that with so many children, you will never be alone.

[@reneerix3607]

I wish I could hug u so bad . I lost my husband in 2007 with one small child. Your doing amazing.❤I never believed time heals but I’m living proof it does. I’m remarried and very happy.

[@Momof8kids]

That is wonderful that you found happiness again, I am glad for you. Thank you for your kindness and encouragement, it means a lot to me and I wish you the best.

[@kitandsons173]

Aww, the sweet baby wiping your tears. May God help you all.

[@standup2982]

You will be happy again. You've already come on leaps and bounds since you filmed this. Don't look too much into the future right now, but be present. You're doing great 👍 👏

[@Momof8kids]

Thank you so much for your encouragement, I appreciate it and wish you the best.

[@cupcakesonrainydays]

Your daughter there on your lap knows everything. She sees your tears and feel your broken heart. I understand what you are feeling is brutal. Your heart longing for your husband. His age didn't matter then and it doesn't matter now. You love him now as you did then. The lord will help you mend your broken heart. You are stronger than you think. We can see you are coping well enough with your little ones. Luckily you have your older children to help. You guys will see in a years time how you progressed. You cant see it now because you are so heartbroken. Get your strength from the lord to continue. Take it hour by hour and just do your best.❤

[@lorielynn2]

You are doing a wonderful job momma!

[@kristypaul8067]

Your in my thoughts and prayers guys

[@pamd4068]

It's been 4 months since his passing. She has been doing a lot better and She has been doing activities with the kids and they look showered and happier. Keep up the great work Rosalie. Your kids pick up everything that they see and feel. As I've mentioned, my childhood was dysfunctional because of an unstable house. I really think it would do your kids good if they went to school and had schoolmates and are able to be kids. I know if I didn't have that growing up and I was in the house full time and didn't have social interactions i and my 5 siblings would not be doing as great as we are. I'm now almost 60 years old, the middle child. It's the best thing you can do for your kids and it will give you room to breathe and feel capable of tackling each day. Please consider it.

[@Momof8kids]

Thank you for sharing, my teenagers go to high school and see their friends outside school. The little ones have friends on the street that they play with. Thank you for your encouragement, I appreciate it and wish you the best.

[@judithbutler9695]

I’m so deeply sorry for your loss. My mom who was a young widow found comfort in routine. Cleaning, eating, resting, getting outside. I’m hugging you. You taught me something today. You have a purpose. ❤❤❤❤❤❤🙏🏼

[@Rnnurse2023]

@@Momof8kidsyou stated in several previous videos “we don’t have friends “ , you’ve stated this more than once.

[@clare1971]

I acknowledge the fact that you are struggling but I really think you ought to film alone not in front of the children no matter how old

[@aprilhaywood3306]

I believe that the dream you had with him was him coming to say hi and he is fine ❤

[@67countrygirl]

My prayers are always with you those babies will be fine and she’s so cute and loving ❤❤❤❤

[@jackmedcalf6254]

You have done so well. You have all those children and you are able to give them so much love, even in such a difficult time. You are such a strong and special person. Bless you. Sending positive energy your way.

[@Kiymee]

Empress your so loving and empathetic. She knows everything momma bear. She knows her sweet mommy is so sad. Girl do whatever birthdays YOU want. You deserve a birthday as well. A good girls weekend. If we all lived closer girl we would have your back! We are pulling for you! Passion is your twin Rosalie! I wish all kids acted so loving and compassionate.

[@karenlane7239]

I’m so sorry for your loss 😢it will be hard but keep the faith & you will get through this 🙏

[@jlcollins7673]

Your oldest is older than you when you started dating a 50 year old. Does it make you see things differently when you look at your child? Does it help you understand things from your parent's perspective now?

[@sharonhoward884]

I agree, I would ask her what she'd do if her 18 yr old son told her he'd met a 40yr old woman and they're getting engaged because she's pregnant. It's the same thing no matter how you look at it.

[@pamd4068]

Or if her daughter Passion in 13 years started dating a 50-year-old man how would she feel? It's always harder when it's the daughter, rather the son dating an older woman. I can totally understand how her parents would be outraged and Rosalie I'm sure it is understanding of that too. It really is perspective if you put blinders on you don't see it, You just think how can my parents turn on me. Well.....

[@RitaBRuby]

Hi Rosalie, You might not be able to see it yet, but you're making good progress. You are blessed with your children! Oh, how lucky you are! You, too, have your life ahead of you. You're still very young. The adorable child you are holding in this video couldn't be any more beautiful. She pats you on the back, because she senses your sad emotions. Cheer up, you have a lot of joy, happiness, and love ahead of you.

[@Momof8kids]

Thank you Rita for your comforting words, I love it. Your kindness is really appreciated, wish you the best.

[@16CENTS561]

Grief takes time. Be gentle with yourself and get some counseling for added support. Try not to make long term decisions right now.

[@user-js9gn2hw9s]

Omgggg she doesn't know what's going on, BUT she really does, in her own spiritual way. Has anyone else not noticed at 12:14, that little hand up and down on her mother's back consoling her through her tears? Children know more than we give them credit for❤

[@martegulbrandsen1308]

I saw it too. I feel for this mom, But she need help,and help to how to best talk to her children about their loss. The child absolutely understand! It so strange mom doesn't realize that! It's so obvious in the video. Get help, and do not keep showing your kids online during these difficult times. I don't mean to be hard on you, but you do not think straight now, I understand, grief is so so hard. But there are a lot of creeps online, who can abuse the situation, if they get to any of your kids, if they know a lot.. Or friends of them can tell them their dad has passed, and you may regret it one day too, if any of your children see you told the whole world, before them. Please take care Mama. Get help !

[@fay8687]

Poor kids

[@tyeishaleisure]

Yes I noticed. Such a sweet empathetic little girl, but it’s not her job to console her mother. I mean this in in the nicest way possible but children aren’t emotional support. She needs to do grief counseling not just for herself as the mother but for her kids. Children are not built to their the weight of a parent‘s big complex emotions. That will lead the problem later if she doesn’t take the appropriate and healthy steps to deal with her grief.

[@stamez48]

I don't know what it's like to lose your spouse, on the 25 th day of November it'll be 3 months since my oldest daughter was murdered and it's the worst pain in this world to feel I'll be praying for you and your 8 children God bless you stay strong and keep your faith so God will be with you always

[@junebuchholtz287]

❤

[@Momof8kids]

I am so sorry for your pain. Thank you for your prayers you are so kind. God is by your side... Sending you lots of love.

[@Asmrsleep1975]

Keep on being a great Mom❤ You are doing an amazing job!!

[@sylviacarlucci1203]

Rosalie, there is no time limit for grief. You will have good days and terribly hard ones. Give yourself grace. Allow yourself to feel what is truly natural. Keep your focus on your kids and take it one day at a time. I do think that you should not isolate yourself from others. You should welcome friendships. You're human and need emotional support that your children are not capable nor should they have to, provide. I am praying that God gives you the strength to get through each day. Remember you are loved!

[@melissamaebillings3743]

I'm so sorry to hear about❤ stay strong and remember to always pray to God when you start feeling weak and sad.... I know how hard it is being a single mom.. stay strong for your kids... Sending prayers your way

[@RachaelGenX]

He married you when he was 50. Was he married previously? You promised him you wouldn’t remarry when you were 20? Nah. 40 is just the start of life. Anyone who loves you doesn’t want you to be miserable for the rest of your life. You’re ONLY 40, not 140.

[@bridgwll]

You don’t make decisions when you are still grieving. In the end you have to think of what is best for you.

[@tanyajustus6966]

You are doing a great job with your kids keep up the good work i know you can get through this

[@joannebenson3956]

That baby girl on your lap knew every word you were saying! How did she know to say bye at the end unprompted??? It's her birthday and she should be celebrating no matter your feelings sorry but that's how I feel poor baby girl 😔🎂

[@Momof8kids]

We didn't delay her birthday because of my mood, it was because I was exhausted and wanted to do a better job of celebrating it. Many families delay birthday celebrations for their children until the weekends.

[@Rnnurse2023]

@@Momof8kidswho would attend if you have no family of friends other than her siblings ?

[@Momof8kids]

@@Rnnurse2023 As I said in the video I was going to make her birthday cake. I also said we have our own celebrations which requires some kind of preparation.

[@louloufrechette]

I am so sorry for your lost. It’s a good thing that you allow yourself to express your emotions. I would just love to be closer to you, just to lend you a hand. I know it’s difficult, being alone with 8 kids, but if you could do something everyday just for you, anything that brings you a little joy, it could help you going through your grieving. Could be a hot bath, taking the time to drink a coffee or tea, go for a walk, take an hour to read, whatever will please you. It doesn’t need to be expensive at all, and it really helps. I’m thinking of you a lot, and you’ll see, one day at a time, life will be easier. Take good care of YOU and your children!

[@kristiestanley614]

Your doing wonderful momma❤ praying for you and your children.

[@lynnemt]

Dear Rosalie, I see the growth in you since this video from August. Be proud of the woman you are and rejoice with your children on the path you are taking. I am sure you are still very sad and lonely, but you are putting one foot in front of the other and doing the best you can. I don’t know if connecting with family is a route you want to take, but maybe sending a note to let your family know about yourself and your children might serve as an icebreaker. I will keep you and your children in my prayers

[@Momof8kids]

Thank you Lynne for your kind encouragement and prayers, sending you love.

[@MissingOurMissingPod]

@@Momof8kids hang in there Rosalie. You seem like such a kind, lovely person & my heart just goes out to you. I wanted to add that I, too, have seen a lot of growth in your videos & the way you interacted with your kids when carving the pumpkins & while out trick or treating was beautiful & heartwarming. It is obvious you all love one another very much. I do hope that you can get out & maybe see a bit more of the world or make some friends if you want to. KZbin can be a good community for that, too, if you choose to go there. I know it probably still feels really raw & scary at times, but you’ve got this & you will get through it. I’m sure part of you didn’t think you’d be able to get to November when this first happened, but you have! You should be so proud of yourself & I believe your husband would be proud of you as well. Keep doing what you’re doing.

[@lindastjohn2543]

That is a great idea and I agree

[@mirandabinmore3233]

I do too. Hence my comments to her. The change is huge. Her life is only just beginning. She will see it soon as she continues to grow and heal not only from her husbands passing but from the control of which she lived under

[@lovechild6103]

Abuse beyond he have no right.

[@michiganjfrog5714]

Hang in there Rosalie. You are doing what needs to be done. It's hard to say what will happen 5 or 10 years from now. Let me know if you received the subway card in the mail. If you received it OK I might try to send another a bit closer to Christmas. Thanks, Bonnie

[@Momof8kids]

That is so nice of you Bonnie, I will let you know. Thank you for your compassion and I'm sending you love.

[@karenligus8224]

I'm so sorry for your grief Rosalie. Your husband is your partner in life so it's natural to miss him terribly. As you raised a family together, you will continue on that journey in your own time. Good and bad days. Your children love you and will help you get through it. Don't be so hard on yourself. You need time to adjust to this major change in your life. Much love!

[@debbiejohnson7025]

Well sad Karen ❤️❤️❤️❤️👍

[@xzAllisonxz]

I'm so sorry momma, Rosalie. I can't even begin to imagine the pain and grief you're going through. My heart goes out to you. You're doing amazing despite this hurdle. Don't pay any mind to the negative comments, you just keep doing your best and everything will come together for you and your children. Hugs from New England, USA!!

[@angieshepard9801]

Why would your late husband expect you to be alone for the next 40 years? He obviously knew he would pass way before you so he thinks that you didn’t deserve to have a partner again to go through life with? That’s very selfish of him to ask that of you. It sounds like you were brainwashed. The house is clean now you need to get yourselves, cleaned, and haircuts for your children and start living again. Yes, I lost my husband suddenly as well, as a matter fact, today would’ve been his 59th birthday, however he would never have asked me to live the rest of my life alone without any help or companionship. Your children will grow up and move away, and then you will be totally alone

[@ashleygill7018]

Why was this posted three hrs ago and you commenting 40 minutes ago when he died months ago and you've already posted this video? Why post this today with that big title saying it's been 19 days when it has been months since he passed. It is manipulative and misleading.

[@kathleencrews3329]

I am also a widow… I lost my husband 2014.. the pain will never go away.. do you learn how to cope with it.. it does get easier🙏

[@VABeachgirl-np8iw]

❤ Dear Ms. Rosalie, I am so glad you are still making videos. May God comfort you. I remember more about my life at age 4 with my parent's than you realize. My dad was having an affair and I remember the conversations, my mom's reaction etc... please know your children will know and remembetr this. Please have hope. You, as the leader of the family now, can change anything, in time. You are grieving. Maybe consider putting all your children in school. That way, you can use that time to take care of yourself. Take one day at a time. Please give latitude for yourself. Don't worry about not having a big deal for her birthday. Again, do not be hard on yourself. You are going through a huge stress, please be kind to yourself. ❤ Angela

[@user-zt6yr9wh7j]

Yes, kids have big ears.

[@sharonhoward884]

I remember when I was four. More importantly it's right now that matters. This little girl understands what's being said even though she may be unable to process what it means in it being a finite thing. She could believe he'll come back, kids that age often do. All children deserve to be told the truth in an age appropriate way.

[@VABeachgirl-np8iw]

Rosalie, I am hoping today you are doing okay. My grandma did not get out of bed for a long time after my grandpa passed away. Be proud of anything you do today. Grief sucks.❤

[@tonyafromgeorgia3519]

It’s still fresh, You recorded this video back in August and this is nearly the end of November now, perhaps every day is getting easier. You’ll always miss him, you’ll always remember him. You’ll have to be the one to decide if you’ll allow happiness into your life again, in your future. No one can decide that for you. You deserve to be loved and cared for, that doesn’t mean someone will ever take your husbands place. It just means you are left here on this earth and as long as your here, you deserve to be happy, what ever that looks like to you! You seem to be adapting to your new life without your husband, from recent videos. We wish all the best for you and the children! 😊

[@Dawn2727]

U saying the little girl doesn’t know what’s happening….. ohhh yea she does she may not kno details or what the word’s actually mean but children know much more than you think they do!

[@simplysandee6281]

I know how it feels to lose the one you loved so dearly. I lost my husband 23 years ago. Allow yourself to go through the wave of emotions that come. Getting your feeling out definitely helps to heal your heart. Don't be afraid to reach out to professionals. There is no shame in getting help. Be kind to yourself. Yes you have kids that need you but you must take care of yourself first and foremost. If you are ok, your kids will be. You are not alone. You are cared about. Healing just takes time.

[@sweetirishgirl8685]

Rosalie you are doing a great job with your children. You are a great mom. Don't let anyone tell you otherwise. God has you and he take care of you. Sending prayers and love 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

[@melissaharding8102]

You haven’t lost your husband completely.. You have 8 kids that is a part of him.. It’s like when you hug y’all’s kids you are hugging a part of him… You may think something as simple as combing the kids hair, giving them (the little ones) a bath or cooking them something to eat . You are taking care of part of him.. When you feel low and alone remember you have a very important part of him with you. That part is y’all’s children.. He didn’t leave you alone..❤

[@Momof8kids]

Oh, you are so right Melissa. It was a comfort to him that I wouldn't be alone when his time came (just because he was a lot older). I know they are a part of him but I didn't think about it in the context you mentioned. That is a wonderful way of looking at it and am so glad you shared it here. Thank you, and I hope other people read it who can benefit from your insight as well. Wish you the best, always.

[@pamd4068]

Melissa, I was thinking the same thing. I love how you put it so eloquently. Pour the love into the kids they created together.❤

[@melissaharding8102]

@@pamd4068 Great minds think alike… lol

[@sparkygrl8557]

Honey sending you a big hug and prayers for you and your family.💙💙💙

[@Dana-Britt]

Rosalie when you were describing your dream, it brought tears to my eyes because I could feel your sadness and I too, understand how hard grief is. Dreams brought me a lot of comfort while simultaneously breaking my heart because you feel close to them for second but then, you realize they're gone again when you wake up. My emotional pain was so intense, it almost felt like a physical pain deep within my chest. I just wanted to tell you I understand and I am praying God gives you strength. ❤

[@Momof8kids]

That is exactly how it was for me too! Thank you for sharing and for your prayers. Bless you and hop God gives you strength too. Sending love your way.

[@EliPeterova]

Posílám Vám sílu a objetí, jste silná žena ...opatrujte se..Posílám pozdrav z Czech republic z Prahy 👋🇨🇿❤🙏😇⚘

[@Pink_143_6]

You’re still in raw grief. My husband passed suddenly as well and I committed myself to raising 3 children. I too lost my soul mate and you’ll never get over losing your love but you will adjust to a new normal. I too thought I’d never have another relationship. My heart was all for my husband until someone told me my heart will always be big enough not to replace my husband but to make room in my heart for others. I had to lean on my faith so much to grieve and it helped. It’s been 20 plus years since I lost my husband and honestly I miss him just as much as the day we lost him. I know one day we will meet again and oh what a glorious day that will be. I still dream of him often and many times feel his presence wrap around me. ❤. It was difficult raising children alone but you’ll find the strength. When situations become overwhelming as they often do , don’t be afraid to ask for support. That was very hard for me to do but I realized others wanted to help even if it was to babysit. I continued to work and although one income always felt like I was still behind the 8 ball, we made do and always had food on the table, a roof over our heads and clothes on our backs. Most importantly we had love for each other and faith to lean on. In time you’ll process the path you’re on as far as being more manageable. Please don’t ever think your days of fulfillment is over. You still have decades ahead of you and many chapters to complete. I know your husband is looking down and wanting you to be happy and to go on with a happy life. I wasted many years feeling guilty if I even talked to a man. You made vows till death do you part. Your husband is in eternal rest , love and happiness where he is and you shouldn’t have to sacrifice your earthly happiness for anyone. You still need time to adjust to a new normal. It’s not a race. Time will heal not completely but enough for you to venture forward and you’re worthy of living the rest of your life with purpose that includes just not your children’s happiness but your own. It won’t make sense now but in time you’ll process through and see just how far you’ve come 🌷💕

[@deniseanderson6404]

My deepest condolences lifted up in prayers for You All 🙌👐🤝♥🙏

[@sunshinecindy570]

There are so many stages to grieve. Please get a little outside help. Sending lots and lots of prayers your way. 🙏🏼♥️🙏🏼

[@rachelr.n.3563]

Cutting your family off because they didn't approve of a 50 year old man getting their 19 year daughter pregnant and kept her pregnant is just sad! You need to put your daughter in another room when you film... She doesn't need to hear you talking about things and crying. She's smarter than you think! Take time for yourself, when you want to film have your older son watch the little one

[@tinastaples]

I’ve accidentally been watching her since the supposedly husband died,there’s something very very off with this woman and I’m not buying it

[@surpriseme4275]

He was 50 when he impregnated a 19 year old.

[@Nope-NotToday]

He was already 50 yo😮

[@terriprobst4680]

@@tinastaplesher husband passed away mid July and he was significantly older than she is. I think he was a controlling man and she loved him so much that she wanted to please him. I was rough on her when I first started following her story. She is doing so much better now and taking better care of the children and the house is much cleaner . I don’t want to see these kids exploited for money for videos . I think she needs to reach out to her family. Forgiveness needs to be made and these kids need to be with family and grandparents ❤

[@robynholliday4794]

Please stop judging this young woman. She’s doing her best managing her life without her husband. Who are we to judge?

[@Patty-jj4en]

I’m so sorry for your hurt.

[@laurahernandez-bd4vr]

You will be ok. You’re a caring, sensitive, wise person. You are stronger than you realize.

[@daisy7141]

I asked a nurse when will the pain of mourning stop because she had lost her daughter. She said it takes about two years. She was right. Mourning is normal and crying heals. When I revisited the area where we use to live, I couldn't take it. I pulled off the road and sobbed and sobbed. It will take time to heal, but you will heal. ♥

[@Momof8kids]

I am so sorry daisy. I can't image how horrific it must have been. Sending you both love, thank you for sharing.

[@daisy7141]

@@Momof8kids I was blessed in a sense at the point I realized my husband was not good to me in many ways. I think it was God's way of pulling me out of the deep mourning. So, horrific yes at first, until I realized the truth. Everyone's story is different. Your family members should realize you need help and help you any way they can. You really need the help right now.

[@xdaisyflowersx7204]

I don’t think the nurse was right to put a time frame on how long pain from grieving lasts. It can take people a lot longer than 2 years. I lost my mam 5 year ago and my partner 3 year ago and it still hurts me every single day. Everyone is different it never goes away you just have to learn how to adjust without them being there. Take care Rosalie🤍

[@daisy7141]

@@xdaisyflowersx7204 I think you are correct. In my case I mourned two years over a person that treated me bad. Why, I don't know? I was buffaloed in my opinion. Sometimes it takes time to see the truth. If I had,been treated well, then that might have been different.

[@KellyGM8813]

❤❤❤Big Hugs!!!!

[@firefly6027]

Wishing you and the children the best, Rosalie. 🙏❤

[@Lacroixmakeupartist]

Falling in love again after the loss of your husband,can bring you so much joy. And more important....your kids too. Don't take that away! Grieving is so so hard...and needs time...and a good way of dealing with it. Find support in each other...and stay honest to your sweet kids. They deserve that. Make a small altar for your husband...but also for yourself and the children. It will help you and them enormously. Communicate...keep communicating with eachother The whole world drives on communication. That sufficiently indicates how important that is. You are doing so great...you are such a strong woman. Keep up the great work!! I wish you strenght! 💐💪🏼🍀

[@stephaniekinghorn2051]

sending love hugs and prayers to you and your family love from aussie xo

[@leeanneporter3119]

Hope your ok praying you feel better take one day at the time focus on the kids ❤️

[@DeeIsFierce]

You and the children need therapy ❤

[@darlenelollar925]

I agree there

[@lynnscruggs8105]

Rosalie, you are still so young and you can have that love again. Please don't close yourself up to meet someone who could make you happy. You will be in my thoughts and prayers 🙏 ❤️

[@brigit2470]

Don't worry about the rest of your life today. You are going to have many many wonderful events to come. Watching your kids grow and see them become adults, get married and have families of their own. You never know if a man might just enter your life and be someone wonderful. Just focus on each day and enjoy those beautiful children you have. That alone is such a wonderful accomplishment.

[@pamd4068]

Growing up my mom dealt with depression and mental illness. I was probably 7 years old. Maybe six and I'm one of five siblings. My mom took us to House of pancakes and decided at breakfast. She was going to tell us this is her last day of living. She was contemplating suicide. I don't think she realizes the impact that was on us even though we were so young. It has scarred me and my siblings. She didn't take her life. She still alive. She got counseling but you need to realize your kids are smart and they're here for at least 40 more years of your life. You need to make it the best you can and don't put this impactful information in their brains. It will stay with them forever. Turn it around now. Get canceling if you need to. It sounds like you really need to and I'm sorry you're so sad and you're going through it. They deserve the best from you. You can do it! I hope you get the help you need. You have a little ones and big ones that you've created relying on you. The older ones can help some but don't put all that pressure on them either. Good luck you can do it.

[@dropdeadDeb]

Leave her alone seriously she not long lost her husband. You just don't jump to it after a few months. They are all grieving and it comes in waves. It's not like she is hiding in bed and neglecting the kids. All I see is a mother surviving the best way she can for now and in time it will get better.

[@izzieahmx]

Crazy, your husband manipulated from grave, you deserve to find love and support, happiness ❤

[@leegregory3974]

Rosalie your grieving, there's no time limit, your heart heals but the hole is always there, and even when you start feeling like the gloom is lifting it creeps in and you'll have moments, your strong your handling all the legalities, I been there! I know it's hard but you should look into a grief group, I'm positive the older boys would be fine watching the younger ones, you need to have breaks and take care of your inner self with others who understand. If you don't like it don't go back but think about it. Sending hugs hang in there allow yourself to feel sad . I've buried a husband, a son, sister and father along with many others, I feel sadness every day but I keep going till it's my time to be called home. Your not alone and have lots of living yet, you have many who care about you xx

[@cynderella5627]

Take it one day at a time. Find a therapist online to help you get over the worst part. It's easy in your grief. I lost my 38yo son 3 years ago. The hurt changed me. Keep your eyes and faith in God to help. Not sure the reason but in God's eyes your allowed to move on with your life. Learn to drive. It will do so much for your self esteem. Your older kids will want to start their life. I say all this out of love, compassion and hope for you.❤

[@TheMimiof7]

Mom, please rewatch this video and notice how your precious daughter was rubbing your back and looking up at you. I know you posted that it had been 19 days since your husband’s passing. That’s still very early in the grieving process to know how your life is going to turn out. There is a lot of life for you and your children to experience. You will find peace and happiness again. There may or may not be marriage in your future….but you can find happiness. Your little children are going to feel happy when mom is happy. Prayers and blessings to you and your children 🙏🌷💖⭐️

[@tyeishaleisure]

It hasn’t been 19 days. It’s been three months going on four. She’s uploading videos after the fact.

[@TheMimiof7]

@@tyeishaleisure She’s just now posting some videos that she did after her husband passed away. She is not posting her videos in order.

[@Momof8kids]

I filmed this previously, but couldn't post it.

[@Momof8kids]

That is why to prevent confusion I put the dates at the start of the videos.

[@paisleykix]

💔💖💖💖hang in there. Sending love.

[@realeyes212]

We all live different lives & it's not for us to judge or moralise the different choices people make. We may not understand their choices. We may not like their choices. But, we are able to be kind. We are able to be respectful and we are able to respect the choices people make, devoid of judgement & emotion. Grief, anger, love and vulnerability... all look different according to one's personal realm of experience. The way I love or grieve may not be how you'd grieve or how you love. And that's what makes us unique & interesting. Remember this. I think that this event is Rosalie's metamorphosis - she's learning about herself & navigating her way through unfamiliar territories like grief, and single parenting. Her vlogging is her catharsis. She's discovering her inner strength and she'll come out the other side: wiser, stronger, independent. And there'll be fewer tears and more laughter and she'll always have memories... Much love to you, Rosalie. ❤

[@vickieflanigan4678]

Prayers

[@mariaparker318]

Listen sweet woman. If you find someone and fall in love remarry. I know for a fact he controlled you just by the way he talked to you. Don’t stop living! There is life beyond death. I wish you and your children the very best.

[@Momof8kids]

A lot of people think he was controlling, but I looked to him for guidance. Thank you for your caring, wish you the best too.

[@mariaparker318]

@@Momof8kids you have to find guidance in yourself. I’m not speaking bad of him . I just noticed he always had to have the last word.

[@motherocean3170]

My God, I just watched your video again and I feel so horrible for Empress. The way that she is looking up at you and trying to figure out why you are so sad is heartbreaking. You should know that she, and ALL of your children, will wonder what they did to make mommy cry. They see you, they hear you, and they take responsibility for your negative emotions. It is your responsibility to make your children feel safe, secure and happy. They are not there is listen to you! Just look at how Empress is examining your face as you feel sorry for yourself. She is wondering what she did. SO sad for her.

[@I-serve-you-tea]

You are very harsh. I came from a family of 7 kids. My parents often let us in on what was going on, including that my mom could die before i was 10 yrs old. I heard this when i was 5 yrs old. Was it easy? No. Did it teach me anything? Yes. I learned compassion. To call her grief over her husbands death as “feeling sorry for yourself.” is dismissive and mean.

[@motherocean3170]

@@I-serve-you-tea I am harsh because I do not like this woman's husband and she has not denounced his sick racist/white supremacist beliefs! YOU can support that if you want to, but I never would! What I offered is TRUTH and wisdom about how she is hurting her children. THEY are the ones that I care about. THEY are the ones who deserve gentleness and support. THEY are the victims of this mother's bad choices. And WHY would she post a "sympathy fishing" video several months after the man has been put to rest? She is obviously looking for more attention and handouts for free. She IS feeling sorry for herself when she involves her innocent children in her video creations! HER CHILDREN DO NOT DESERVE THIS. She should be talking to adults without her young babies in the room!

[@I-serve-you-tea]

@@motherocean3170 it is underhanded that you accused me of supporting white supremacy Wtf? I never said a word about it and neither did you until this last response. I live right by where George Floyd was murdered. Trust me i do not support WP or racism. I am new to watching all of this. This channel is new to me and i have seen things that concern me. I meant what i said and only what i said. You can add on whatever you want to twist my words but that is all it is, you twisting my words.

[@LoverofSunflowernBees]

You didn’t take child psychology so please be quiet , your also mot a doctor!!!!

[@LoverofSunflowernBees]

@@motherocean3170WELL she doesn’t need your comment it’s not KIND it’s like you lack empathy and Education please get yourself some help! You could be more compassionate when leaving comments! Offer to give her positive advice but you don’t like her husband so get lost it will probably be much better for you!

[@wandabuchanan2798]

You will adjust I lost my husband a year ago I still get my days we’re I cry and I still miss him so much and I fill lonley sometimes it gets easier every day

[@Momof8kids]

I wish you the best Wanda, you must be a strong woman. Thank you for sharing, sending love your way.

[@Dawn2727]

My best advice to you is always remain honest with all of your children! And urself

[@Deniset72]

Your never alone, you have all your Beautiful kids there. If I didn't have my girls, I would have never got through the loss of my Dad, I still haven't. It never goes away but it does get easier. I have been watching your Videos for a while now and we are actually Neighbours 😊 I'm thinking of you all ❤

[@Momof8kids]

Thank you Deet, I am sorry about your dad. You sound like a remarkable woman. Thank you also for sharing your story with me, Bless you.

[@MissingOurMissingPod]

Rosalie, I really hope you are doing better. Grief is extremely difficult (been there multiple times) & you won’t always feel like everything is a black hole. I mean this with all the good will in the world, but please don’t believe you *must* be alone like this. Your kids are wonderful & I have no doubt they take most of your time, but please, please, please consider going out & meeting new people. Not even to date-just to make new friends. Also, I don’t know if your family lives nearby, but please consider reaching out to your mother & anyone else you may have. I am a few years younger than you & live in the United States, but if you want someone to talk to that isn’t just a faceless person on KZbin, leave me a note. I’d be happy to listen via phone or FaceTime. (I am female!) I’ve been through quite a few losses in the last couple years & have had my struggles. All I can say is your life is not over. It will look a bit different & it will continue to change, but you will adjust. It will always be painful in some way, but you learn to live around it even though you don’t “get over” it. Sending you a hug & hope that a few months out things don’t feel as much of a black hole.

[@Felicity2121]

What a lovely comment 💕

[@sylviamiller9047]

😢❤ prayers for you and your family God bless you and comfort your heart and keep you always thank you for sharing your story your journey

[@charlottemiller961]

Rosalie, you are being so brave and strong! You can do this with the help of God and your kids! It might help to start keeping a diary of what you are feeling.

[@mommybrainandcoffee]

you are strong.

[@sandiedrew4086]

Hi RosaLie, I hope that you are doing well. I think about you all the time and wish you all the best. Keep us posted on how you are doing please as we really do want good things for you and your family. ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤😊

[@Momof8kids]

Thank you Sandie, you are so kind. Nice to hear from you. I will be posting a new video soon, hoping to get it done by tomorrow afternoon. I am also doing a mega transformation in a few rooms of our home and can't wait to show you when it is done. Best wishes.

[@sandiedrew4086]

I am looking forward to your next video. It sounds awesome.

[@Momof8kids]

@@sandiedrew4086 the major undertaking is not done yet but there will be a different positive video in the meantime.

[@sherryl1275]

Moms are made to carry all the burdens an feeling right....sorry ur so sad...hugs to u all Ur baby is rubbing ur back she's all the things u need to help u through....look in the eyes of ur babies an ur husband shines through them little faces

[@westcoastlass]

You deserve love and happiness. I think you should be open to finding love again down the road when you've healed.

[@farmlifewithrenee]

I do hope you reach out to your family

[@rosemarrypolack5708]

That was so sweet how your daughter was comforting you by stroking your shoulders. You can bake a cake some other time❤ She will be a good mother daughter friend when she is an adult😊

[@Momof8kids]

Aww, that is so sweet of you to mention that. Thank you Rosemarry, take care.

[@rosemarrypolack5708]

@@Momof8kids You are welcome 🙏

[@kimwalter6341]

Your little girl is so precious. It is actually good for your kids to see you being sad. It lets them know it is okay and normal to feel that when you lose someone. Not saying you have to have huge breakdowns in front of them, but crying is to be expected after such a huge, personal loss. I also hope your older kids do not try to be strong because they don’t want to upset you. Please let them know it is okay to cry about their dad being gone if and when they feel the emotion.

[@sheilacarter7875]

Rosalee you are still a young woman your life is far from over.This video was not long after your husband died so l hope a few months on you are feeling brighter.Its still early days, have you thought about seeing a grief counsellor where you could talk about how you feel, it might help.You could let out all your feelings, maybe get in touch with your family.There might come a time now you are alone when you might need outside help.All those years back l am sure they had your welfare at heart when you were young and with a man twice your age of course they were concerned.Wishing you well and you do have a future life is not over yet for you 40 is such a young age.

[@simplyme4756]

Try not to think to far ahead you are still in grief time has a way of letting us see things differently take it day by day the children are the most important task also give yourself some grace as the saying goes the sun WILL come out again blessings to you and your beautiful family ❤❤

[@lisanaylor7058]

Keeping you & your children in my 🙏..God has a plan for you.. Have Faith everything will work out for you....

[@jaymacarlisle5457]

Noone knows how long they have to live. You have to try to live it the best and find happiness and love if so be it. You're little girl sees more than you realize. Kids are extremely intuitive especially with their parents. You should reach out to your family. In times like this you need family and friends to help get you through it. Praying for your grief and strength but I wouldn't shut down the possibility of love again someday ❤

[@TheTuesday11]

ATTENTION ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ This video was made MONTHS AGO!!!! She uploads old videos without sharing that the video was recorded months ago. 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏

[@lamp0070]

The horror!

[@jessiehermit9503]

My husband was found dead today. We had been separated for 3 years, married for a total of 6 years.

[@devoncopley9296]

🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽 God is good .take one step at a time. Praying for you.🙏🏽❤️👼🏾

[@verad3213]

You are too young to say you will never marry. You deserve happiness.

[@maryc7830]

Bless your heart. I agree you shouldn’t have the kids in the room when you’re talking and crying to the camera. But I also believe you didn’t realize it. Stay strong mama. We all love and care about you. God bless and have a wonderful weekend. ❤🙏🏻❄️☃️❄️

[@Dtp249]

Hi, new sub! you are still blossoming in life 💕stay strong we are here with you! Pretty little girl with big brown eyes

[@Momof8kids]

Thank you for the encouragement, I means a lot to me. Best wishes.

[@ACanadianBee]

Rosalie im not here to judge you but please...please .. think of how your moments of emotional bursts is and will impact your children for the rest of their lives. Don't record youtube videos when any of the children are around even if it means waiting until night when they are all asleep. Im sorry for your loss and grief but my heart breaks for your children who witness all these emotions.

[@dropdeadDeb]

So you never show emotions in front of your children ever? How does her crying and grieving damage her children? Seriously how do you think her children will react in life to sad situations if their own mother never showed any emotion or sadness. It's normal and not going to hurt the child who lost her father and if mom is crying it's alright for that little one to show her loss as well, by talking about her father and crying for the loss.

[@amypearsall]

Hi. Just an idea: Since you are posting these videos a few months late, it might be more clear if the title read something like, 'A Look back: 19 Days...' I certainty hope you don't, at 40-yrs-old, consider your life over and reconsider holding yourself to that promise to not ever remarry. The Bible doesn't, and the traditional wedding vows don't, hold you to that; 'til death do you part'. Eventually, as you continue to process, you might decide to 'private' some of the the more personal videos. I hope you consider getting counseling both for yourself and your children.