A Day as an Alcoholic: Trapped in Addiction - The Consequences of Long Term Drinking

[@stevencurry215]

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[@DebbieMcgoldrick-f7u]

Please can you help me?

[@GETT1NLOTS]

Your most powerful video yet. I'm on day 24 and trying so hard to stay sober.

[@stevencurry215]

Thank you …you’re doing so well Thank you for subscribing & for your support 👍

[@danielknowles8760]

Hi, if you relapse don't beat yourself up. I've realapsed many times over past 10 years. Also don't just stop, get a reduction plan, also the gym is good on my way there now 😊

[@paulcresswell2279]

It's a tragic and lonely existence. The worst thing for me is im watching my bests friend go through it .

[@stevencurry215]

Hi Paul ….it was extremely lonely & felt more isolated as time went on I hope your friend can turn things around 👍

[@paulcresswell2279]

@stevencurry215 me too steve.

[@honestmicky]

Thanks Steven for today's powerful message. Today the weekend starts and when i was drinking, Friday started a 3 day 24/7 binge. I was soooo sick on Monday. And the addiction in me would promise never to drink again. And i meant it. Until Wednesday rolled around and i completely forgot how awful i felt both physically and emotionally. Love your great helpful channel mate ❤

[@garyfaulkner1480]

Your a good man micky❤

[@stevencurry215]

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[@stevencurry215]

You have come a long way Micky ..well done 👍❤️

[@honestmicky]

@garyfaulkner1480 How are you doing today Gary? May i ask, do you use a wheelchair or can you get around without one?

[@garyfaulkner1480]

@@honestmicky ive only been diagnosed for 3yrs mate. Im on medication which is working ok at the moment so im able to get around fine. Unfortunately there is no cure so maybe in the future it may come to using a wheelchair. Hope you well sir💜

[@paulh2126]

I was only five minutes walk from the bottle shop but the anxiety was so bad that I would get mountains of boxed wine delivered. When I got sober, one of the first things I did was to self-ban myself from all of the delivery services and told the lady at the local bottlo to not serve me again.

[@stevencurry215]

Hi Paul this anxiety we get is crippling it is not addressed enough by the Medical professionals

[@NickEnnis-km1ik]

The anxiety is insane , so debilitating.

[@saraivatoledo1842]

"Forcing myself to go out ". That phrase is me as I type this. A week today since I had my last drink. Feeling extremely empty and vulnerable. I forgot how to be outside without alcohol ,,,as a matter of fact, I have no idea who I am without alcohol.

[@dylannicks1146]

Being outside with drink is basically like not having been out at all, brain learns nothing new about itself or others

[@stevencurry215]

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[@stevencurry215]

This is so me …that is exactly the way I was ..

[@MarkJones-w9d]

Good luck with everything 👍

[@garyfaulkner1480]

Keep fighting sara plz...god bless you ❤

[@maryangel2701]

This is my life now 😢 everything you said and everyday I wake up and it's starts again it's ruining everything in my life and slowly killing me..... I feel so trapped and hopeless

[@garyfaulkner1480]

Mary, there is a future for you, take it easy, one day at a time, reduce the booze, and focus. Its not easy but you can and will do it. Weve all been there and were still here now sober..god bless you ❤

[@stevencurry215]

Good advice Gary 👍

[@stevencurry215]

Hi as Gary says ..there is a future you can recover xx

[@sallychandler7859]

The lies, the sneaking about, worried my partner would find any bottles. Hiding my guilt, forever brushing my teeth. Drinking anything by the end. Falling flat on my face in the middle of the day. That was a low moment. 109 days sober, and what a difference, it's like the difference between heaven and hell.

[@garyfaulkner1480]

Your a strong woman sally..god bless you❤

[@sallychandler7859]

@garyfaulkner1480 thank you. I was a desperate woman believe me.

[@garyfaulkner1480]

@@sallychandler7859 weve all been there sally but you showed great strength and courage. So glad all is well 💜

[@stevencurry215]

Great message 👍

[@stevencurry215]

Well done …Keep strong 💪

[@williamsmiler184]

I just came across this video. I'm into my second bottle of port and no food. In the Scottish highlands with no heating or hot water etc. I have plenty of food in here, and that is what is keeping me alive. Anyway mate, I have subscribed, because your video here resonated so f***** hard. Anyway

[@garyfaulkner1480]

Keep fighting my friend ❤

[@stevencurry215]

Thank you my friend…. Please keep in touch..keep chatting.. it will help you 👍

[@sarahlaver-holland9931]

Your story and images of how you ended up in your flat should go on Alcohol adverts like they’ve done with cigarette packaging. I’ve heard your story many times and still find it so shocking, just so glad you found the strength and determination to be sober. Hats off to you Steven

[@stevencurry215]

Appreciate this Sarah, hope you’re well 👍

[@TheMissymoo100]

I agree with you - I think they should get Steve to do some video's similar to those very sobering ones they did for smoking....I don't see what the difference is between the two...equally cigarette boxes are now absolutely covered in warnings...dire ones...that makes the packets looks ugly and downbeat..and yeah alcohol packaging still looks colourful, bright, glam and tempting.

[@dilwich]

Remember that when you're in full addiction your brain has been hijacked by alcohol and it's not the real you.

[@stevencurry215]

Very good point 👍

[@timothyfoulkes6576]

Steve you are a very decent man ....I am not dependent but was drinking quite heavy..your videos have opened my eyes ..I now have maybe 3 pints at the weekend and that's it ...thank you ❤

[@stevencurry215]

Good to hear…so pleased I can help Please subscribe & keep watching 👍

[@stanleycostello9610]

My bed slats weren't broken, but I did piss the bed several times. Waking up with a hangover, my shorts, sheets, mattress and comforter were soaked with my own urine. When I finally got sober, the first thing I bought was a new mattress and bed clothes.

[@stevencurry215]

Me too …new bed ..all new sheets furniture the lot Hope you’re well 👍

[@SoberStart42]

Hey Steven, Im on a new channel but I have seen all of your videos under my personal account, I respect you immensely. a 6ft 3 guy in the police in london, thats such a stature to hold and yet alcohol brought you to your knees and almost killed you. its so powerful. Im 42 and alcohol dependant, lost my wife and the house is on the way, 27yrs of drinking, Im thankful for your channel and story because I didnt see a way out or any kind of fix, I have health issues but im not as bad as you were (yet) Im using your story to brighten mine, I will post my first video tomorrow, seeing other people in these situations and watching them come out alive is invaluble, Thank you brother.

[@stevencurry215]

Hi good luck with your channel 👍 Please subscribe & keep watching..I will check your content out when you’re up & running 👍

[@garyfaulkner1480]

It really is an awful existence steve. Im sure i speak for everyone when i say im so glad you survived to bring us this fantastic channel helping other folk to beat the demon drink. Your strength and courage will rub off on people and spur them on to sobriety...god bless you sir❤

[@stevencurry215]

I appreciate this Gary ..it means a lot to me ..we are building a strong community of people who are becoming friends and mentors…long may it continue ❤️

[@dylannicks1146]

20 days sober today, still finding places that smell of pee from when I’d be wasted and go in bottles rather than the bathroom.. wow lol

[@stevencurry215]

You are getting there ..well done 👍

[@theordinary1175]

Very well done. Piss bottles lol. I've done some filthy stuff. I remember your Christmas post. Pat yourself on the back my friend. Keep at it 💪

[@dylannicks1146]

@@theordinary1175I truly appreciate you remembering, hope you’re well too

[@theordinary1175]

Im really glad youve stayed sober. Keep at it. If youre having a high from being sober, you could start to feel a bit depressed. Just maje sure you keep pushing through and life will get so much better. Did you make any apologies after Christmas mate?@dylannicks1146

[@jamesmorleyjmor5003]

good man i admire your honesty Thanks .

[@stevencurry215]

I appreciate that!

[@dianneengelen3138]

Your doing a great job x

[@rm5694]

Alcohol Messages on packaging should say Quit Drinking Alcohol it kills like the cigarettes packets, Heart Attacks ,Strokes etc etc etc You're end up in prison on the streets etc etc and list goes on.

[@Simon-u9l]

Thanks for sharing your insights Stephen and experience you may well save a life or two along the way and the very minimum its a ton of inspiration, kudos to you sir.

[@micktaylor7641]

I was dependant, then recovery and relapse, it can be controlled but its a very fine line,i reckon avoid the hair of the dog and actually eat and be fully sober before having another drink, the shakes are terrifying, everyone can see it

[@stevencurry215]

Hi Mick ..great message 👍

[@ANationalAcrobat-qj2dl]

I could never have another drink. I won't even risk a shandy or that alcohol-free beer just in case I get the taste for it again. It frightens me to my core that I might get the taste for it again. I only ever drink either tea or water now.

[@lesliekime7567]

In 1991 £5 could buy 8 cans of lager, £5 equivalent today is £13.40 well over the cost of buying a 10 pack and closer to an 18 can case.

[@stevencurry215]

100% 👍

[@paulcresswell2279]

Personally I think it's disgusting these drinks companies will deliver to your house.18yrs ago at the peak of her alcoholismand just before she died the local off licence would deliver to my mum (overcharging her for the priviledge )as she was too sick to go there herself.

[@stevencurry215]

@@paulcresswell2279 I agree …it’s hideous what these companies get up to

[@garyfaulkner1480]

Sad story paul...god bless❤

[@paulcresswell2279]

@garyfaulkner1480 it almost broke me tbh. Thanks for the comment gary it really does mean alot bro.

[@paulcresswell2279]

@stevencurry215 They must have known .

[@garyfaulkner1480]

@@paulcresswell2279 your a good man paul, dont fotget it💜

[@danielknowles8760]

This video really relates to the problem I had as it was a long term dependency. The long term ones are usually highly psychological and are using alcohol to supress something that is usually nothing to do with alcohol at all, so for example 4 years ago I needed psychotherapy/trauma informed therapy for something unrelated to alcohol but I wasent aware I needed it until I had 4 months of it last year. After that, it was like I just snapped out of my dependency overnight and said "I don't need to do this anymore", I had one or two relapses since tbh but got through them. But now the main thing is staying away from it that's gonna be the hard part.

[@garyfaulkner1480]

Keep fighting dan ❤

[@micktaylor7641]

I have been an alcoholic for 25 years, i am 52 now and look terrible, i have managed to hide it well until recently, only lost one job over it,a constant battle of recovery and relapse, it gets worse everytime,i am working but not making much money, I fell down the dangerous path of brewing my own lager,i added extra sugar so i believe it is quite strong,i find if i avoid the hair of the dog i have some sort of control, once the shakes start it is a total nightmare, very important to keep the food situation going on,i have been known to go five days with no food whatsoever, plays havoc on the digestive system

[@garyfaulkner1480]

Keep fighting mick..you can do this ❤

[@stevencurry215]

👍

[@kenmcdonald3963]

Thanks Steve. Were you exclusively a lager drinker or did you move on to wine or shorts at any point ?

[@stevencurry215]

100 lager or Guinness ..tried shorts & wine but not for me What was your tipple

[@kenmcdonald3963]

@@stevencurry215 I was mainly a lager and Guinness drinker initially, the wine came later. I tried my best to stay away from the spirits. Keep up the great work Steve. Your message is changing people's lives. You also come across as very genuine and authentic. People can relate to you.

[@Gen_Alek]

I drink about 2 days a week when I do, I have about 15 pints though

[@stevencurry215]

Probably 15 is a little too much … but you have control of it 2 days a week is not an issue Thank you for subscribing & please keep chatting👍

[@emmabarrett9951]

Sounds like a living hell, cant even begin to imagine😢 did you not manage to eat anything all day?

[@stevencurry215]

A rarely ate….i went down to 9 stone in weight 60kg i am over 6 ft tall Malnutrition…Horrific

[@emmabarrett9951]

@stevencurry215 so sorry to hear that:(

[@quantum5652]

It’s deceptive the way it creeps up on you. As you say, few if any set out to become an alcoholic or to destroy themselves with drink. However it can and does happen and the way it happens is insidious and dark. I guess the exact turning point is different for each person and varies, and is there a specific point even? I don’t know. I suppose it’s that cumulative habit over years and at some indistinct point it catches you and then it’s there. The longer you leave it the worse it gets. Things like this are not taught in schools and I think they should be. 🙏

[@andrewjohnstone9931]

Hi Steve , r u still on medication or are you off all meds ? Also how often do you drink 0% larger etc ? Andy

[@stevencurry215]

Hi Andy …no medication fit or 2 years .. I have some 0.0% most days Hope too are well 👍

[@MarkSilvester-g3j]

I can associate well - only difference is I would start on a litre of Vodka at 5 am until blackout. I’ve had 5 detoxes in 2 years. Been sober since first week this year. Spent New Year in detox.. age 64. Amazingly my blood readings are ok for liver?? I’m on Antabuse now.

[@jimmyfusion-c7b]

Really powerful!! You obviously hit real rock bottom and to see you today hopefully will give people in this position today an example to show that it is possible to change your life for the better! Inspirational!!..

[@stevencurry215]

Thank you jimmy ..please subscribe & share the channel to help spread the word 👍

[@anthonyharty1732]

Wake up have a strong 9% cider for breakfast followed by another one. Get in the pub at 10 am. Carry on drinking, then start talking crap to anyone who is listening. Become louder and a nause. Carry on like that all day, go to other pubs, annoy people all day. Then finally go home fall asleep and do the same thing tomorrow and all week. That is one day of a type of alcoholic, there are many different ones.

[@Simon-u9l]

And then think you had a good social day out and "think" you have lots of "good friends".

[@anthonyharty1732]

@ Yes, drink certainly distorts the thinking, that’s for sure.

[@lordbaltar4770]

Gota say that 0.0 Guinness is cracking stuff.....

[@stevencurry215]

@@lordbaltar4770 Good isn’t it? Hope you’re well…please subscribe & share the channel to help spread the word 👍

[@VicFlange]

Steve, what’s your take on Nick Cage’s performance in “Leaving Las Vegas” (1995)..? Thank you.

[@ForTheSakeOfTheSongs]

It's a really shitty life, today, after work (1 day contract) I got a flat tire on my bike and stressed because I couldn't reach the supermarket in time to get my dose. Of course I spent time, effort and money to find an open cornershop... This is slavery, I know it, other alcoholics know it, and the people who make money out of it know it too...

[@garyfaulkner1480]

God bless you ❤

[@ForTheSakeOfTheSongs]

@garyfaulkner1480 thanks

[@stevencurry215]

It’s such hard work being addicted..because we are terrified to stop

[@ImperialCityNord]

ZOOTV

[@stevencurry215]

How are you…please subscribe & keep watching 👍

[@versatilehumanbeing6013]

I am unable to stop intake of alcohol please help me from past few weeks i am drinking everyday please help me

[@dianneengelen3138]

Have you tried a AA meeting . Or go to your go. I know it’s a horrible way to live. Unfortunately you have to want to stop. You can do it. I was a daily drinker, vodka. I’m not sober. I really hated myself. Just stop one day and keep going one day at a time. Do not stop suddenly if you have been daily drinking, get meds to come off alcohol safely. Wishing you the best of luck. D. x