AM I DOING ENOUGH? ANOREXIA RECOVERY - VLOGMAS 5, 6 + 7 - BRADY'S BIRTHDAY, FOOD FREAK OUT

YAAAAY! I finally got around to editing what we did on the 5th, 6th and 7th!
Brady turned 13, I ate lots of pasta, Satara made cheesey muffin scone things and I completed more challenges of course!
Also I talk out my thoughts and face stupid fears. Calling yourself out gets easier the more you do it, but it is still so weird to realise that what I think is not always right or true!
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[@StonerMorrison]

you can see the animation coming back to you and your personality and its awesome to see. So proud of you

[@Rawan-kd9vq]

There’s something so beautiful and addicting about your channel, I couldn’t stop watching your videos for the past two days. Your family is so genuine and great, and you have a beautiful sweet personality and your videos are so raw and honest. I hope you achieve your goals sweetheart and I hope you’ll do well and recover. Wishing you the best Christmas ever. -R

[@Mai-mh5gj]

You are a really strong and beautiful girl. I like that you are honest about your struggles. I can't help thinking that you should consider if/how you want to continue making content when you are fully recovered (do you want the channel to be about food? about your life? about mental health?). Otherwise it may become an obstacle for your recovery because you may end up feeling that people are only watching because they are interested in your disorder and that you have nothing else to offer. And I really believe that you DO have something else to offer. Best wishes.

[@murdermostdownunder3562]

You are doing so so so well! And you look so much brighter already! As someone who has been where you’ve been, I can tell you it’s not easy but it’s so worth it! You deserve the happiest life and you’re taking the the best steps towards it! Keep positive and look after yourself girl xoxo love from Australia

[@tiferettsubara812]

I just love you, I can’t even explain how much your personality screams strength and just such gorgeousness

[@jizeruchan07]

just subscribed cause I love how positive you are in every video, wishing you the best beautiful! 💖

[@teocanmetin5828]

I'm on this journey with you Elzani!! Let's keep going.

[@cortroxx85]

Absolutely love you and your family and your channel! I’m so glad you’ve had quick growth in your subscribers! And every single one of them is rooting for you, as am I. I think this was a great idea to document your journey to wellness, and it’s something completely different than what’s out there now. I don’t think there’s an actual channel (besides yours) documenting the treatment of anorexia. It’s amazing to get an inside look of your struggles and triumphs! You totally have the will and I know you will succeed one triumph at a time, doesn’t matter how big or small. I also love how you include snips about how you argue with yourself inside your head about food. I know I had no idea how complicated this mental illness is. Anyway I think this comment is long enough, but I’m rooting for you all the way, and am looking forward to see how you overcome the Christmas dinner challenge! Love you girl ! You totally got this, and hopefully you will become a role model and inspiration to other people suffering from this terrible illness Merry Christmas from the states! xoxxx

[@romanceisthis]

What a nice video. Your family seems so tight knit and supportive. Seeing the funny talks between you and your sister and mom makes me smile. Your personality is endearing and I’m so glad you can open up to your mom. I have mental illnesses as well and I see myself in you the way you’re excited to live life and interact with your family and really dive deep into experiences asking questions and talking and describing. I was very quiet with depression and anxiety for years but now starting to recover I find myself doing this as well to reassure myself and hear others opinions but also to open up my own boundaries of anxiety with speaking and feeling. Your life is so relatable and you are inspiring me to move forward. 😊 maybe I’ll even make my own videos 🧚🏼‍♂️

[@marinajee07]

I don't even know you but I'm so so so so proud of you! You are an amazing strong woman, beautiful inside and out. Keep it up girl, you're gonna get through this 💖💖💖

[@YasminA-jm9zs]

You sound so much happier and you look great. There’s life coming back to you! I’m so happy for you. Please keep strong!

[@cassidyjane1862]

you’re doing so well! I’m happy to see you challenging yourself and accomplishing so much! 💛💛

[@Kay-hl9zu]

I just found your channel and all I can say is wow. You are brave and strong! Keep on doing what you are doing. Your communication with how you are feeling and desire to still do better for yourself is truly inspiring. It has reminded me how I have to keep trying daily to improve my self love. Thank you :)

[@laurak893]

All your family has such a good relationship with food and eating whatever they want and your getting there elzani!!

[@JoJo-vg9sj]

Oh hun your really are so strong!! Keep fighting xx

[@indiac-c9700]

Love these vlogs. I was waiting for it to be uploaded! ❤️❤️

[@BiebersCake]

just found your channel and I think you're doing amazing and love seeing you smile! can't wait for future content

[@mgal6234]

Slow and steady...you’re doing great!! Love and support from Florida! 💕

[@funnynina1]

IM SO PROUD OF YOU GOD BLESS YOU! YOU LOOK GORGEOUS!

[@junelynch8988]

You have to be so proud of yourself and you are such an inspiration to others 😊

[@summerhumble9386]

When the older dog was slipping I died ... sooooo CUTE WOW !!😸🙀🙀🙀

[@jaytheimpalerr]

You are a badass woman and you are doing amazing! I just found your videos last night and I'm watching them all. You've got this!!! :) Sending you so much love. P.S. - Love how your mom describes everything as "divine", what a great word!!

[@ellynash4922]

It's unbelievable how well you are doing. Xxxx

[@ari_luvs_music]

Subscribed. You are an inspiration. Keep posting about your journey. You’ve got this.

[@hannap8052]

I love your hair! It's so long and such a beautiful, unique color!

[@megankoh762]

rooting for you!! u go gurll!!!

[@ryanthomas7500]

I just want to say that I've recently discovered your youtube channel and you are looking so much happier and healthier nowadays compared to your first video ! I am so unbelievably proud of you and I hope you are proud of yourself too. Its so brave of you to be sharing your story and you are helping so many others by posting your incredible videos. Keep it up !! xx

[@Mimmisigridsdotter]

The cat looks soooo sad, i love that fluffyface 😍😍😍😍

[@ffiontill5924]

You’re an inspiration 💗

[@superash4u578]

I'm so happy that you are doing better

[@leoniemalone7949]

You can be so so happy about having such a sooo cute Mum 😍 Oh and I am really proud of you Elzani ❤️

[@kausexxx]

You are doing great! Keep up the hard work 💕😉

[@beautifulbabygirl9126]

i don't know you but i love to see you happy this is a beautiful thing

[@mar-d5809]

im weird to, you are so inspiring to me.. there is others on youtube who i detest... you got my respect elzani

[@libellule-rf2hn]

You such a nice person🤗and so cute💗💗 you deserve to be happy😘😘keep doing what you do❣️ well done😘😘😘

[@beautifulbabygirl9126]

your hair is so longg!!! !i love ittt

[@paigecollier8217]

1 for sorrow 2 for joy 3 for a girl 4 for a boy 5 for silver 6 for gold 7 for a secret to never be told Magpies ^^ TRUTH

[@russianbluecat]

SO PROUD

[@arty04]

Happy birthday Brady!! ❤🤟🏻🐕🐶

[@Abbyravenclaw92]

You’re glowing 😍😍😍😍😍

[@roastpotato2892]

Your sister was such a savage when you asked to make Christmas biscuits 😂

[@summerhumble9386]

Are you eating 3 meals a day now ? That pasta looks so yummm so jealous

[@shahroura1453]

Great video keep going 😊 you are amazing

[@rubysimi3375]

I love you. And I wish you the best. You are so beautiful. Keep the good work up!!! 😊😊

[@annasophia1330]

Kitty!!! I see cute fluffy kitty! And cute fluffy doggies! Animals are really awesome

[@glorial.5461]

ur doing so good!!!!!!

[@jakiazhhabzgstaruiszjjzg3165]

Stay amazing and safe !

[@evian.777]

omg what breed are both of your dogs? they’re absolutely gorgeous 😍

[@Demi.d3mi]

I had that same taylor swift shirt lol ur awesome. And your cat is so damn cute!!!!

[@underthestarsoverthemoon4259]

I hate eating out. Only time I eat out is with my boyfriend and I can’t stand it. My anxiety could get so bad. He understand it and I always tell him to ask the person if we could have a booth seat because I feel more secure in those. And I also like to sit in a seat with my back to the other people(if I can) eating instead of facing them.

[@CupcakeBla]

I'm so confused how was Satara able to just know immediately what note you sang this is crazy to me 😂

[@nataliedawn5105]

what restaurant did u go too? x

[@Guilfreefoods]

I’ve never heard of about “reheating rice”.. why tho? I reheat EVERYTHING 😂 but i always use glass container to reheat food..

[@ThanasisThomas]

you are soo sooo soo beautiful i hope u read this

[@laurak893]

I can see that you craved a lot of chocolate in recovery when I was in recovery I craved chocolate sooo much too I would get a bunch of chocolate bars and eat them

[@Crocs4cats]

Brady is so cute❤️

[@BB-ux5wd]

Keep up the good work.

[@IcedOatMilkLatte]

6th of december! That was filmed on my birthday!😆😄

[@JoJo-vg9sj]

I love cheese scones too 😂😂

[@burnedflowers141]

That sounds horrendous 😂

[@TheTaylan1993]

We reheat everything...love microwaves

[@rouslalkafaje9474]

i love youuuuuuuuu

[@monicasabogalgomez8174]

My birthday is also 5 of December

[@cassie5101]

You are doing great keep up the good work.! But try and start eating more protein, that will help you get stronger and looking like a "Snack"!

[@aaaaa-zx1fk]

How much siblings do you have?

[@rose-lz1sv]

Why is she saving her choc bar wrappers?????

[@amymclellan583]

Why do you save your chocolate bar wrappers?!??!!! Please start trying to break some of these behaviours. I used to be like you but got a lot better xx

[@DanaJunkin]

Amy McLellan it’s just a thought but maybe she’s keeping them as a part of her recovery. In her challenging anorexia rules one of them was to eat a 100 gram bar every day. Maybe she’s using it to keep going or she’s keeping them to keep us up to date on her progress?

[@cestlaphie]

She's eating cheesy pasta. I think she's trying lol.

[@underthestarsoverthemoon4259]

Like someone else said it’s probably so she can look back and remind herself that she ate it. She can beat anorexia.

[@olivierbilodeau1952]

10:09 AHAHAH

[@CoffeeMonkey17]

I love your grandma 😝 does she live with you?

[@SH-to8sh]

i'd say she does

[@LayanMalhamrani]

13:22 just going to put it there.

[@missdemeanour3664]

❤️👆🏼

[@nomoreprozleft]

New to the channel... Im wonder, is she gaining w8?

[@laurakate4489]

Very very slowly!

[@aaaaa-zx1fk]

Why peoepl say you can't reheat rice

[@SnoWhiteSally]

They say it carries bacteria when you reheat it.

[@katiejones6370]

If it was cooked fresh, fully cooled down (cold water is good for that), and kept in the fridge. Then cooked up to as hot a temperature as possible, then it’s okay. But it is high risk

[@sylveemoonfaye8533]

Man im hungry now lol

[@arty04]

Buttercream is too sweet for me. Ugh

[@maggieverschut8872]

Okay bish nobody ask

[@danielaolivera622]

It seems like she won't eat something unless her mom eats more

[@karencanispeaktothemanager5340]

STOP SMELLING YOUR FOOD

[@ilikeyoutube836]

STOP TYPING IN CAPS