Autism and Change: "First Steps..."

[@lizvanaarde2789]

Am 68, diagnosed at 65 after a lifetime of having been told I am anxious and depressed, who wouldn't be, with such ill-fitting diagnoses. Your channel was a hallelujah, I have at long last found my tribe, thank you Quinn.

[@Autistamatic]

Nice to have you on board😁

[@AJansenNL]

Hearing your wife has ME hit me hard. Struggle upon struggle, for the both of you. I have ME myself. I'm all on my own. I've no resilience left. The thing is, I suspect I might be autistic, but I had to give up the diagnostic process, because I'm just too ill and it's making me more ill. And I'm so confused. What's ME, what's disfunctional upbringing, what could be autism? The irony is, is that if I got a autism diagnosis, I might get more support. Now I have none. But I just don't know how to get there. Sorry for the whine. I hope your channel and projects will thrive. Your thoughtful content means a lot to me.

[@batintheattic7293]

Do you find that trying to figure out which strand of what is connected to which other, and how it all plays out, is too depleting? I've retreated from pursuing an autism diagnosis after my first online meeting with an ADHD therapist (have to go through the ADHD before getting passed over to an autism specialist, apparently) but it took so many contortions and such a long time to get to the stage of having that initial meeting. Getting to that point, I'm saying, was destructive all on it's own. The thing is - I don't need, and you probably don't need either, the official diagnosis more than we need to just know ourselves. It puts me in mind of what might be the main theme of The Wizard of Oz. What real difference do the certificates make? We're still perfectly capable of being skeptical, about our true natures, with or without the certificates. That being the case - why can't we, therefore, know ourselves without having somebody else signing off on it? I think, for me, it was such a fight to get to that first meeting that I had somehow framed the first meeting as the goal. I now wish that all along I'd just had the confidence to say, even to myself, this is the way I am and it's a bit of this and a bit of that (no big revelations) and if my aim is contentment then I'm allowed to pursue it in my own way and in my own time (which is, basically, time - I don't know who told us there had to be two varieties). I'm going to experience 'impostor syndrome' all the time, anyway, because it's a feature of my personality. My best suggestion, for you - if you haven't (aha - seven months late on my part) already tried, is to simply use KZbin to study the various life conditions you think may be affecting you. Look for commonalities and consider any mitigations that are suggested. Try them out. When things make an obvious difference - cement them. Remember you can be more than one thing at the same time (indeed - that's the 'norm'). You can have portions of traits that are considered to be diametrically opposite to each other, too. Maybe, for now, you don't see the modifiers of those traits at play (I mean - how can it be that a person can be really sensitive and empathic but also often insensitive to the needs of others at the same time to the extent that it looks like sociopathy? Answer, I think, it's because they're not at exactly the same time and the social insensitivity is the default defensive mode and sometimes gets disabled in which case.... Whoa. Another massive apparent contradiction is when we are fanatically driven to want routines but, when we think we've made a good one, we resent and defy it into total uselessness - this might be because we are defining what makes one activity distinct from another using erroneous criteria). Maybe avoid the really grandiose and popular 'condition stations'. Popularity is an infection and just because people are giving the likes and the thanks that might be because of the contagious nature of likes and thanks and not because the insights are particularly keen. Of course, the biggest problem might be that without those certificates other people take the position that they are allowed to be inconsiderate. They're probably going to do that, anyway. The struggle may not get any lighter with a certificate. What may make the biggest difference, to you, is that you believe yourself and the consideration comes from inside you. Endeavor to believe yourself every waking moment of every day. You're allowed to pursue contentment without having to have an official escort.

[@the1andonlycjhayes]

Unsolicited advice, but I’d love to see you collaborate with some other autistic creators. To see different generations of people talk about their tribulations and triumphs lays a foundation for those of us looking toward our futures. So many popular creators in the space are in their twenties,and I’d love to hear a conversation across that gap. I’m pulling for you, and will share with family at the very least.

[@dancecommando]

Would love to see Quinn and Ponderful find a way to collab

[@MarekLiska310]

@@dancecommando 100% Ponderful is a wonderful creator [pun not intended]

[@CJenkinsMusicLover]

Agreed, so much ageism and sexism. And not many racialized and/or gender diverse, who we also need to hear from!

[@User-qn1gs1ig4q62]

Collaborations would be cool I've never heard of ponderful but now I've seen others suggest it I'll go look I like purple Ella and Thomas Henley maybe reach out to as many as you can and if they collaborate with you then their viewers will see you and may make their way to this channel as well

[@rosieposy8]

Yes! Yosamdysam and purple ella are fab x

[@CatLady502]

I found you a few weeks ago and was sad realizing you stopped making videos When I seen this new one I clicked so fast! I want to say your videos make me feel PROUD to be autistic. Your work has potential to change so much for us all. I thank you sir for all you do. I will always support this channel in any way I can.

[@alejandro-314]

I find your honest style really refreshing and unique which sets you apart from others creators 😊 everytime I click on your videos I know it's going to be something special and well-thought.

[@andoryuu3]

You offer a very unique voice on the subject of autism. Rational, strong arguments, simple and professional. I don't know if you're religious or spiritual, but I'll be praying for your success. I really believe this content you make is great bridge between the autistic and non-autistic worlds. I hope it continues, but do what you have to.

[@KittyInTheGarden]

Commenting for the algorithm. Your videos are very informative and well structured and I hope this new stage goes well for you.

[@bruce5]

Best of luck Quinn. Real life upheaval comes for all of us, and when it does, it's up to us to make the best of it. Uploading as your schedule permits is fine with me.

[@ArtyAntics]

You nearly had me crying at the end, the thing about vulnerability is it builds connection. I thought you were really brave. I'm sorry to hear about the steaming pile of lemons that came your way. I really hope this works out for you.

[@scottpriest-cg2gd]

You have one of the better autism channels I have come across, I say go for it! Stupid COVID shut my lively hood to, I'm trying to get up the nerve to start some kind of channel myself.

[@Bittagrit]

Just found your channel. I was diagnosed a little over 2 yrs ago at the ripe age of 60. I keep looking for content that is mature, honest and not the 10 things about autism…. Now I’m going to listen to more of your content.

[@melissamoore9709]

I've only started watching your videos very recently, but I get that exceedingly rare and contradictory feeling like I'm interacting with a very dear friend that I've known for ages. I am very likely autistic, and I've come to learn that also pretty recently - ironically, through both an ever growing pile of lemons, and the KZbin algorithm. I suspect that my search for help with a variety of issues triggered it, in retrospect, although it seemed to come out of nowhere. And it's a bit confusing, and causes a lot of different emotions. But just the way you speak calls forth the objectively best feeling of the lot - relief. The relief of having information you've been searching for, and of finding information you didn't even know you needed. The relief in understanding why. I'll keep watching, and learning. I hope you continue to keep teaching. And most importantly I hope that you're well.

[@mortenhappy]

Quinn, thank you for everything you do on this channel.This is THE channel that really helped me embrace, understand and be proud of my autistic self post diagnosis. I am really glad that you've decided to double down on it and I hope this mission will turn out successful. I can imagine so many more autistic lives enriched by both the old and the new prospective content. Keep up the great work and best of luck!

[@ThatWeirdLady2519]

You make amazing, unique videos and you have made a difference. Thank you. I had to step down from my work as an EMT because I couldn't take care of my family and myself and the demands of serving the community. It was the right choice for me. You have to do what's right for you and your family first. May you and your wife be blessed.

[@jeannegarrity5829]

So sorry fpr all your troubles. I want to see you keep going. I've been adding a link to an Autistimatic video in the comments of every autism related video in my youtube feed, including things that I know autistics like. I hope it helps. You've certainly helped me.

[@gregsnow2100]

I love your channel, Quinn. Sorry for all the lemons. Especially the rotten ones. They are the worst. Take the time you need to help yourself. We will all be here when, and if, things settle to a manageable level. Your content really resonates with me and how my mind works. I wish the best of health for both you and Mrs. A.

[@yumartins7872]

Ive gotten to your channel today. Watching your videos nonstop. Why? Because i see me, as a 6 years old, in you now, having all those questions and thoughts about the world. I wasnt weird. I wasnt wrong. I was just autistic. I cant financially help your channel, because the money quotation would made too expensive for me to give you some pennies, but i can say that you also made me smile. Keep going the best as you can.

[@robinlaker]

I wish you the best of luck for the future Quinn!

[@catatheart5659]

Thank you, Quinn, for your hard work and the brilliant way you are able to express things which are, for many of us, nearly impossible to express or to even understand in ourselves. I have benefitted greatly from your videos and will share them with others. I have thought about the odd fact that you have such great content but it seems that you're not as well- known as some others are. I attribute it to what Temple Grandin mentioned-- something like-- that the wheel wasn't invented by the yakety-yaks around the campfire. In other words, your autistic audience may not be so inclined to speak about it (they're usually not the most talkative ones in the group). Of course, then when they do talk, they might come across as dominating the conversation with their special interest. Others who could benefit may have stopped listening... Also, you hit the nail on the head when you listed all the reasons why we might not share your channel with others. Thanks for your channel-- it's very informative and it would be a great shame if you would have to discontinue making content. Be assured you are helping many people.

[@keirapendragon5486]

So much gratitude for all your videos and everyone who's been participating in keeping this channel alive, I've only discovered it in the last few weeks and it's already making huge differences in my life. So thank you all, and thank you so much Quinn!

[@autiejedi5857]

Your life and mine have so many parallels. Yours is the first patreon I've ever joined. So much love to you and the missus! Thank you so much for all you've done and continue to do for our community Quinn! 💜

[@AboveAverageGamer1]

Hey, your videos have personally helped me so much. 27 and undiagnosed but was screened twice for asperger's in elementary, my parents rejected the referral for me to get diagnosed though and raised me allistic. My life long mission to understand myself, society, and others, due to my differences led me to your videos and I learned a lot about myself and am seeking a diagnosis once I can get more money after I get another job (was pushed out the plant w/ severance due to "personality differences", 3rd job where similar things have happened. It's annoying

[@ginnyjanisse1220]

Quinn, I applaud your efforts to put this content out there for everyone. The fear of the unknown you’re experiencing is very, very real to many of us. Best of luck on making the new journey work.

[@Stoitism]

Best of luck to you dude! I'm currently trying to navigate my own "path less trodden" following my diagnosis earlier this year in February so I can empathize with your sense of uncertainty.

[@SlugcatEmporium]

I am so proud of you for not just sharing all you have in this video, but uploading it at all. It sounds terribly vulnerable and scary. hope to be able to join your Patreon someday. I think I found your channel shortly before your first long hiatus, and all of your videos have been a great comfort to me. It is a privilege to get to hear what is on your mind and learn from you.

[@josephmartin1540]

Let the fair wind blow! We have been behind you and expect to share more. Was worried, praying, thinking... takes time. Yes, I think you can do it: one of the reasons I share your videos is because you are so able to explain things! Can't make more words right now. One more step forward!

[@ConstitutionNCC1700]

You changed my life, Quinn, in ways I can scarcely articulate. I am elevated by your subject-matter knowledge. I feel connected to you through your vulnerability. I am entertained by your humor. You will succeed in building a community, of that I am sure. We are pulling for you.

[@neurodiversityalumni]

This is an awesome, heartfelt video! It touches my heart. I'm autistic as well and have found over the years that I couldn't keep a 'standard' job so I was self-employed for several years. It had it's up and downs, but I loved it and I got to keep my own schedule on my own terms. I designed custom homes, I'm now retired. Thank you for all your hard work and all of your excellent content! I discovered I am autistic in my mid 60s (not the mid 1960s). I am 68 and it answered all my questions about why I'm different. Your channel has been a God send to me. Your are awesome! Thank you!

[@michaelyyy2872]

My comment about a songs lyrics - Tin Man, that might be helpful here too. Dewey Burnell (the band America) wrote the song - 'Tin Man'. Below is a quote from Paul Zollo's great article about the meaning of this song - "Though none of his songs were calculated to seem like cosmic messages rendered in secret code in need of translation, they did lend themselves to that function." The listener projects meaning onto the song (lyrics / music) - it depends on what's in your head. For me, this song is about autism and the unseen physical changes brought about by thalidomide. X-ray my head and my facial bones look like a twisted mess that a doctor wanted to saw into pieces and rebuild, so that I could breath properly (I chickened out). These and other aspects of myself have lead to interesting projections onto this song. For example people often point out I'm not in touch with my feelings = Tin Man. But I have felt them, but it takes much longer than a neurotypical person. (Oz never did give nothing to the Tin Man ~ that he didn't already have.) (Lyrics by Dewey Burnell. America)

[@michaelyyy2872]

NB: I used to spin until age 14. I'm 65. They didn't know what to do except to hit me until I stopped behaviors that were different. If I experiment and spin now my head / skull is waiting for the inevitable hit around the head. I still can't shake that feeling - same with other stimming like drumming fingers. I write about this in order to solve the puzzle - what happened to me over the last, 65 years?! Typically, Neurotypicals see me as an opportunity - for them.

[@Cerebrum123]

Your channel has been helpful in figuring out that I was autistic. I was diagnosed last year. I have shared some of your videos in the past in order to help explain what autism is to those who will listen. Given your current situation, maybe you can reach out to some other autistic KZbinrs to see if they can help in some way. Max Derrat, Yo Samdy Sam, and Autism From The Inside might know of some things you can do to help get your channel more views. A collaboration between your channel and one of theirs is also something you might look into.

[@SpencerHunley]

I'm incredibly thankful for the videos you create. I've shared some of my favorites with friends, colleagues and professionals; when they watch, it's like watching them 'wake up'. Your one about your father is very special to me and mine; we've had a less rocky relationship than yours, but it still mattered so much. The fact that you have doubts, know you're taking a risk, and aren't just seeing only the positives is why you are much more likely to succeed. You know what needs to be done, and you also know that we're going to support you as best we are able. You asking feels different than others. It feels genuine, honest, realistic, factual, and not a beg - instead, an open hand for us to grasp as a community. We'll be watching, sharing, and supporting as you make this transition; godspeed, Quinn.

[@annaarampatzis1079]

Dear Quinn, you have taught me and my entire family so much over the years. At different times, your videos have led to discussions and discoveries in our own home. The thoroughness, humour and compassion always shine through in everything you say and they are so appreciated. Thank you for all you have done already. I'll try to do my bit in return and share my favourite videos online (although I'll have to put some thought into the practical side of doing so). More than anything, I hope your plan works out magnificently. All the very best to you and your wife.

[@jedphoenixoflondon]

Your openness, honesty, and vulnerability are truly inspiring, Quinn. Thank you for all your videos over the past few years. Doing what you love, what you're passionate about, as a self-employed person is indeed a big risk. But it's totally worth it. I'm looking forward to seeing more of what the future holds for you, Quinn, and I'm excited about what's in store on Autistamatic. Thank you

[@stephaniet1389]

I'm thankful for what you do here and your videos have not only helped me, but also helped when explaining autism to my family. Take care of yourself and your family. I, and I'm sure many others, will be here whenever you are ready to continue the videos.

[@GN315-pe6ul]

Commenting for the algorithm. I hope everything you need comes to you. Your videos have helped me understand myself so much.

[@AncTreat5358]

I'm 53 like you, Quinn, and became self-identified just this year for autism and inattentive ADHD (AuDHD). I only found your channel about a month ago, and have been working my way through the oldest videos to this point as of today. I wish I would have seen this video in real time, so I could offer support timely. Your videos are deeply personal and moving to me, and you always cover topics that are very relevant. You have a great video presence and clarity, and your editing skills are obviously top-notch. I really hope this focus on Autistamatic will work well for you. To that end, I have recently posted about your channel on my social media of choice: Mastodon. I'm also looking forward to supporting you through Patreon when my very limited fixed income disability money allows. I'm sorry you've had so many lemons come your way these past several years. I hope you are on the cusp of a great, different, future that will be a success for you!

[@agsilverradio2225]

3:15 You don't need heat to make lemonade! I should know, my household has homemade lemonade all the time.

[@clairewatts4934]

I will be watching and engaging with all of your content ❤

[@NickSBailey]

Hope things settle down for you now and glad you're continuing with the channel, the timing seems good with a growing autistic online community expressing things from their point of view, if I'd had only information from doctors and medical books I'd never questioned if I was autistic myself I didn't feel I fitted the typical criteria until I helped a friend do an assessment, and hearing how you and others describe your experiences made far more sense to me, had decades of being told it was just anxiety and depression and wondering why I never progressed with the usual techniques for that but at 50 I hope I can finally move forward. Best of luck with growing the channel it's definitely valued I'm sure it'll exceed what you hope for it, it feels like we're on the edge of getting awareness out there that'll bring more opportunities to people with our qualities.

[@izzyborisretro]

Wishing you all the best! Your videos are amazing: clear, in-depth, and extremely personal. Definitely the best content on the subject I've ever encountered!

[@BlaBlaBlaTheEnd.]

Dude, you are an absolute fucking legend. I appreciate you in an ineffable way xxxx

[@istarigreenman8235]

Hi Quinn, thank you for your lemonade. For the last year or so I have been going through some very deep autistic trauma therapy about things from my childhood (discussion not required). During these sessions with the councellor I would regularly talk to them about your channel, using it to explain to them as an example of what I was getting at. It was both hard and difficult, yet your channel and your videos made it easier to explain. Thank you for what you have done. I wish your wife and yourself the very best for the future, and hope your channel(s) grow 😁

[@treasurechest2951]

I like how the Peopling logo shows 2 faces and then zoom out and there's one face (or an owl). It's hard not to root for you. Your "in this together" vibe makes you unique which sets you apart, in my mind, from the sea of monetizing-priority youtubers. I commend you on this saturated spirit, and best of luck Quinn.

[@Autistamatic]

Thank you

[@millesorger6992]

Quinn, I love your videos! You have helped me so much and I have learned so much from you and your videos. You are exceptional and I hope you will be able to continue to resume your work through Autistamatic. Wishing you much success!

[@AutisticAwakeActivist]

All the best I have shared

[@josephjamfrey652]

Quinn, it's a privilege to be able to call you a friend. I hope you can make this work and I'll gladly support you every step of the way. Your wise words need to be heard by as many people as possible. You are making such a big difference to the lives of so many of us.

[@corriemcclain7960]

I just found you a couple days ago and subscribed because your videos were so clearly and helpful. I'll try to share them (I'm not on social media) and hope this works for you

[@user-yv6xw7ns3o]

I have and will continue to deeply appreciate your hard work and dedication to doing what is clearly helping me and so many others who have found your channel!

[@DisturbsOthers]

Hey Quinn. Good on you. And, good luck to you. 💜

[@tiffanylbacon]

Your channel is a breath of fresh air. Your delivery is understandable. I struggle to explain how I feel and am still learning what is autism, what is ADHD, what is CPTSD, and what is me. Your channel is helping me. Thank you so much.

[@ThePsychoticUnicorn]

Damn, you got me at the end. I was sure I wasn't going to cry... I was wrong. I'm new to your channel, I've only watched 4 videos so far. The first one I watched was from 3 years ago, the "Autism Self Diagnosis & Gatekeeping" one (3 guesses why I was watching that) but I think I'd subscribed by the end of that video. I did so because I liked how genuine and open you seemed (I'm beginning to realize this is common for most ND people, which is so refreshing). I really struggle with talking to people but I really wanted to leave a comment as another reminder to you how important the content you make is for people on their own journey. If it wasn't for creators like you and others that make this kind of content I would still be in a really dark place. I haven't quite found the light switch yet but at least I'm looking now, I hope that makes sense to others as much as it did in my head 🤷‍♀ I also wanted to say that I'm really sorry life has been hard for you recently, I know what it feels like to feel like life keeps kicking you when your down. I truly hope things get better for you in all the ways they can and I wish your wife all the best too. Good luck with the channel and your future projects 🫂

[@kikitauer]

Try to post regularly and as often as you can. It might even make financial sense to outsource editing. Experiment with different thumbnails. Learn what the analytics say and use it to your advantage. Try to come up with the digital product. Collaborate with other youtubers. You can make relatively good income even with about 30k subscribers with sponsors.

[@deniset1714]

Shared! Best of luck Quinn!

[@mrsm6727]

I'm wishing you all the best going forward, Quinn and you have lots of us right behind you. I'll definitely be sharing your videos, it's the very least I can do considering all you are doing, more people need to see your amazing work. Everything crossed for you and your new venture 😊

[@alanguest1979]

Glad to know you're well, hope you keep making "lemonade" for some time to come! I found this video inspirational, since I am trying to set up my own business that has a general aim of helping people aged 50+ who have been diagnosed autsitic through providing them with the information they need. To be honest, I'm struggling, but I think its more down to not knowing what to do since I've never set up a business before! It's difficult for a business novice to know what to ask and who to ask, what I need to know, where to get funding, build up the relevant skill set, etc... Somehow, I would like to think that through learning from fellow autistic/neurodevelopmental people who have set up their own businesses, I think I can get somewhere.

[@BooBooBugalugs]

Only recently found your channel and it is very comforting to losten to you. I've become a Patreon because what you are doing, saying, and creating, resonates better with me than any other autism related content. If it's helping me, then it must be helping others, too. Thank you for providing this content, and thank you for finding it, within yourself, to ask for help to keep your work going. You could easily have just shut the channel and disappeared, like so many of the good ones do. Instead, you made this video, expressed your needs, and gave us the option to help facillitate you keeping this channel going. Thank you.

[@Sirstarfish]

you are literally building a spiritual galaxy of joy, I can feel it. Best most amazing people are those who can bring heaven into the hell that earth can be.

[@oxyuran5998]

Holy f@#&... This one hit me hard. Just the bit at the end, I think I felt every nuance in that short emotional moment. Keep it up Quinn. You're doing great, and thanks for the many videos that helped me verbalize some problems I face during the therapy program I'm in right now.

[@pensidosyroconesyava]

♥️

[@Dizzychick_MN]

Being a caretaker is one of the hardest jobs there is! The fact that you have been able to maintain that for decades is amazing! I wish you all the best and will do what I can to help you. I often wish my pile of lemons wasn't so large. I would be able to give more support to the people on here who have given me so much information, validation, and given me permission to love myself again. Thank you for everything you do!

[@BartzAJohnsonJr]

I don’t feel the need to ramble, as is my way because you already understand so much of who I am. It is of great comfort that I encountered your channel today. I’ve binged will-nilly, but it was the PDA pt 2 that drew me in via the YT algorithm.

[@thewildybeast]

Quinn , very few people can do what you do. The time, the effort the sacrifices and to have the ability to engage your audience, so that they take note. In fact your ability to engage with people,is what makes you so special for our community. On behalf of the people in our community, who can’t do what you do, I say Thank You

[@cathybrand2885]

I’m not one for chatting in the comments as I’m dyslexic and it just takes to much time and effort but after discovering this channel a week ago it’s become my new obsession and after watching this particular episode I felt compelled to tell you how much I love this channel . Wishing you and your family all the best for the future. You are such an inspiration ❤

[@meganstorm3248]

Thank you. I can't begin to say how badly I needed to hear this. Thank you.

[@lysasarah-jaeviolet2072]

Finished watching, now I'm crying! Quinn, I am openly autistic, diagnosed only 3mths ago and turning 50yo this year. I will regularly share your content on my page if it'll help. I love the longer format but have noticed (particularly on FB) people are more likely to share "shorts". If you can magically create 60second clips, it'll travel further quicker. I will champion you 😊

[@sarahgibbons9737]

I only subscribed a couple of days ago as happened across your channel. I found this channel very encouraging and motivating. Since 2020 I've had a lot of challenges and changes and like you I hope to make the best of it.

[@menosproblemos6993]

I've thought about sharing your video or two to my mother. She's a bit curious about how my brain works. Everything's not the same for you and me, but it could give her a general gist beyond what me and she connect to. It's impossible not to miss some things yknow. Sharing a video could spark some question slash conversation for us that helps our communication, and therefor relationship. thanks for the reminder... 10 months before I first saw you X D But ehm.. 10 months since this video uploaded, and you're still going. That's cool. Congrats.

[@joshuamoncreiff3200]

Quinn, I want you to know how much this content means to me and how important it has been in my personal journey. You are making a difference for the Autism community and for the world at large. I love how straightforward your videos are, and I can tell you put a lot of thought into them. I wish you the best of luck for the future, regardless of what that is going to look like.

[@kyleethekelt]

Kia ora Quinn. Wow. Congratulations on standing up. What I really like about your channel is that you don't shower us with words. You give us time to breathe and you talk to us as if you're speaking to each of us personally. Speaking as a former radio broadcaster and Distinguished Toastmaster, That's a mark of a great presenter. It also makes the information you present much easier to understand and swallow, particularly for a 57-year-old mad blind woman who's going through the assessment and diagnosis process for autism. Please keep doing what you're doing, in the way you're doing it. It's raw, real and absolutely authentic with no silly bits (can't comment on the visuals, though). Aroha nui to you and your wife, from Aotearoa (the Land of the Long white Cloud).

[@typhoontim2]

👋 I’m Tim and I’m autistic. I don’t know how to describe what I want to say after watching this video but 💛 and thank you.

[@yoni-in-BHAM]

Yes, yes, I appreciate this channel and I appreciate you. Thank you for being here! 👏🏽👍🏽⭐

[@dus10dnd]

I've been getting more recommendations for previous videos lately, so whatever you're doing seems to be working. I will have to watch your video about your relationship with your father soon. I have always been curious about how other people relate... my father died when I was 5, so I have a very different take, likely, but even so many decades later, it is still as fresh as it was then.

[@Autistamatic]

Thanks for commenting. The video you mentioned is no longer on KZbin, for personal reasons, but I hope you enjoy the other 180 or-so videos still here😊

[@dus10dnd]

@@Autistamatic I was looking and I figured there may be a reason for that. If I can request as a potential topic, I love to get your take on that scoped down to what you think would be something you could handle being online. Or at the very least, maybe just a list of the most impactful words that describe the ideas. I can say that my father's death has been extremely painful for me and I think about it every day. It doesn't help that my mother tried to shelter me from some aspects of it which only left the door open for me to speculate and ruminate over it and question reality. Of course... in the wake of his death, the life ahead of me throughout my childhood was just filled with abuse of all varieties. I think the closest relationship that I have had well into adulthood was when my grandfather died just before the pandemic. Looking back through my post-diagnosis lens, I am fairly confident that both of my grandfathers were autistic. My paternal grandfather took the reclusive route and divorced my grandmother after just a few years (enough time to have 3 children); she still spoke fondly of him up until her death but he just couldn't cope with the stress... he became an alcoholic and died over liver failure. The other grandfather, who I was very close to, had 5 children and many grandchildren. Of all of us (12), he only connected with three of us, and we all turned out to be autistic. I spent a lot of time with him and he would share his hobbies with me: woodworking, photography (he even had a dark room to develop his own photos), and trains. The more challenging part leading up to his death was that he developed Alzheimer's disease. So, I spent a lot of time researching nutrients that he might be deficient in to help him have the best quality of life. It was really difficult visiting him in the nursing home when they finally admitted him. He died the day after his 80th birthday. I felt somewhat at peace, but there was so much I wish I could have talked with him about when he was lucid. I think he influenced more of who I am and how I approach things in my work even though he never used a computer (I am a computer engineer), but I like to take his perspective on craftsmanship with woodworking where he created his own tools and think about the intricacies of things and how to simplify them. Anyhow, thank you for your videos. I really appreciate being able to learn from someone else that I can relate to. I do enjoy many autistic creators' works, but to do think that the way you approach your craft is more similar to how my thought processes work... although I make training videos (not for KZbin) and my PDA really breaks me so many times... plus I don't think I ever "look autistic" as much as I do when I know that I am being recorded (which is a dumb thought, but it is what my mind goes to).

[@pensidosyroconesyava]

Hi ,I’m subscriber for a while, didn’t knew it was a beta test channel, so I am Âûtistic adult adhder, bpd and sooo socialy disabled, the accessibility of your messsage in first person from an expert in psychology, physiology, history and autism is as well informed as history accurate and as it is told in the perfect wording ever so planted, even perfectly justified way to rant to society but in a fine assertive manner, I love that way too tell story cause it’s so “Âûtie”, the universal autistic language in which we recognize each other 🖖 so consider me up to the project, not a patreon type dough (as in life struggle state...)

[@Autistamatic]

Thanks for your kind comments and I'm really glad you find the channel useful.

[@pensidosyroconesyava]

@@Autistamatic ❤️

[@greatmeatball2978]

Man, I wish to become like you one day. Regardless of what you think you should be or what your life should be, I dream of becoming like the current you, right now.

[@1997Jeep]

Quinn, thank you for the effort that you have put in to this channel. I'm sorry to hear about the company restructure, however I look forward to seeing your wonderful work as this channel grows. I went through a company restructure myself late last year, weeks before being diagnosed ASD. It was a difficult time for me & I got a lot of good energy from Autistamatic. Just thinking about "Autistic The New Normal" puts a smile on my face. (BUdS Talking) "Work with us, because BUdS won't BUDGE without us"

[@AutoEngineerVideos]

Thank you, Quinn! You're doing an excellent job and helping many people, myself included. I really appreciate what you're doing, and I'm far from the only one.

[@pardalote]

Thank you Quinn for your courage in allowing us to see your vulnerability. The algorithm was right to direct me your way. It is so refreshing to watch your intelligent, and erudite videos. I draw so much comfort from the knowledge that other autistic people live to face middle-age challenges too! I wish you all the very best with your channel and other ventures. I will help the little bit I can. 🌺

[@nozhki-busha]

I like your direct and well thought out style and enjoy your videos, but your health comes first as do your priorities at home. We will be here when you find the time and understand that you may not publish as often. Best of luck!

[@lysasarah-jaeviolet2072]

So sorry to hear of your dad's passing. Be gentle with yourself as you grieve. And thankyou ever so much for your channel, it brings me so much self understanding plus a new language to help explain myself to other (where I find those willing to listen anyway) ❤

[@mariuszwisla3230]

Go like Temple Grandin. tell them the truth. It'd seem that after we were served too many lemons we have a tendency to turn more verbal, no longer affraid to speak about that unjustice, rage fueling it, confront each lemon and ask to get those rules they want us to obey in writing or they should expect them to be ignored completely. Lemons washing their hands, thinking/saying/insisting It's not my fault you struggle, yet every one of them adds another nail to the coffin they built for people like us. Everyone that's not holding the hammer, holds the nail. hammerheads are bullys around us, and nailholders are all those spectators that would do nothing to stop it. Do they get high watching other's misery?

[@davidhodsall3848]

Thank you for creating the well informed, insightful, and entertaining work that you do here on this channel. To find a place and a person that you can trust means so much to us Autistic folks, as you well know. You have given me personally, and I'm sure so many others, that place. I would also like to thank you, for being yourself on this channel. It is a brave thing to do that. I will let the folks who can appreciate this know, and I will find a way to support your work going forward. All the best, Quinn.

[@SatyaRhythm]

OMG!!! Change I'm going through one or three life changing events and I've been puzzled what on earth was happening and why I couldn't I find my footing? Okay life events hard to handle, but I can adjust for these, the puzzle has been what was the unusual why! Seeing this video it slapped me in the right way. Now I can settle back a little more and work with change... Thankyou Autistamatic ;)

[@francis5600]

Hi Quinn, best of luck going full time you really help me in my role as a carer ❤

[@emmamoore4497]

Thank you for you video Quinn, as horrible as situations like these are, we are compelled to make things better for ourselves, as quite frankly, we've learnt that world doesn't listen to us when we shout for help. I'm gonna ruminate on this for a bit, but eventually I'll figure out the words to chat with our wellbeing team (I have the ear of the HR guy leading it) in my company and see if there's something we could do with firstly incorporating more structured ND content into the program and if there's practicality in signposting your content and supporting you in some way. No guarantees on anything massive but even if it brings more views by signposting your work, the footfall will help build it up more. I've already used certain videos of yours to help managers understand me and also as recommended viewing for newly diagnosed colleagues or their family members just simply because your work is very accessible and easy to navigate all the aspects related to our spicy ASC world.

[@Autistamatic]

Thank you Emma. I try to make my content as accessible to non-autists as it should be to autists for precisely that purpose, so it's gratifying to know that you've been able to make use of it that way.

[@PeteLittle1970]

I was in floods at the end of this. I've shared on my social media and will post a link on our corporate "Neuroverse network". My company is large and has an active disabled and neurodiversity cohort. All I can do is share but hope it'll at least get more eyes on your work. Take care buddy.

[@pensidosyroconesyava]

Pd.. I’m the stay- to -the -end -of -the -video kind on where I have something to learn as small or overwhelming big it may be and do have a every day top list of best autistic creators and Âûtistic advocacy Âûtistic divulgation creators and this channel is my first recomendation every day, so here you will have me mate as every day no eeffort I’m watching every new or some repetition, may be i can start a spanish version 🤔😑naa low dopa

[@BirdKat5324]

I really enjoy your videos. Your communication style is informative, straight forward and seems very sincere and personable. I have been binge watching today.

[@willamthewisp]

Always appreciate your work Quinn. Glad I'm finally in a place to join your Patreon.

[@Autistamatic]

Thank you and good to hear👍

[@АлександрКудрявцев-ы7ц]

wish you all the good! you do give people support and help them feel themselves better! keep it up and hope you will continue run this channel!

[@ArtByStranger]

I've just discovered your channel recently and it's inspired me so much - to be less afraid of myself and others, and especially like this video here to take risks. I'm with you for the long haul and will be sharing with everyone I can. Best of luck and lots of love to you!

[@Craftierthanthou]

Thanks for this latest update! My favourite video of yours (that I've been sharing with friends on FB and via messages is Autistic is the New Normal. I've shied away from a formal diagnosis but pretty much all of your videos have resonated strongly enough with me to share! I've been describing you to people as the Jackson Galaxy of Autism. Maybe one day he'll be the Autistamatic of Cats.

[@yoavbartov2147]

I just found your channel yesterday- already watched over 10 videos and after starting this list became a patreon. I really hope you succeed, your clear voice was comforting and helpful to me as a recently diagnosed autistic adult who happens to be a mental health professional as well. Thank you! And keep up the good work.

[@Autistamatic]

Thank you for the feedback and for supporting me to continue. We all need reassurance that we're doing things right, so it's VERY much appreciated.

[@Bunny01879]

You can easily do it. You have the proof its time. Everything points forward so there isnt a reason not to have faith! Believe the universe always works for whoever works with it!!

[@thekajalflaneur]

Love you so much Quinn ❤ thankyou 🙏 you've changed more lives than you'll ever know. I hope I can follow in your footsteps one day. You inspire me deeply. ❤

[@Autistamatic]

Thank you 😁

[@buttercxpdraws8101]

Nice one Quinn. Excited to see you back ✌️💕🌻

[@linneakortfalt5094]

I really hope you can keep on doing this work. I feel you fill a void that I still haven’t found when it comes to KZbin on autism. There are GREAT creators out there doing similar things, but the way you present facts is unique. I really appreciate how thoroughly you research and the way you go about presenting the facts of autistic life. I myself am not diagnosed (though I think I may be high on the spectrum) but my daughter is. And this helps me understand her, myself and even more so my youngest daughter who has even more autistic traits, but is highly skilled at masking her difficulties. So that being said…could you perhaps do some collaborations with “autism from the inside” or “samdy sam” whom I think have a similar “academic approach” to yourself…though being different enough to still benefitting from your perspective and approach? They might help you reach more people.

[@almostahippie]

Subscribed. My pda has been keeping me from subscribing before now.

[@elaine876]

I have found your videos very helpful while discovering I was autistic. I really hope everything works out and you do get to keep on making these videos. I have a small social circle so it might be a drop in the bucket, but I shared it with my friends. Here's wishing you the best of luck!

[@ko5709]

i looooove your channel and thank you for honesty and vulnerability ❤ i wish you and your wife all the best ❤❤❤❤❤

[@marc_kotze]

that's brilliant! Best wishes, Quinn! 💥

[@hippiekitten420]

Fantastic, thank you for this. I'm going through some burnout and uncertainty. I'm 35 and nearing graduation for coding, and am quite intimidated by the prospect of job searching again after being unemployed for several years following a chronic spinal injury and finally getting a fusion. I dont know how to proceed, as my job history is garbage. Aaah.