The Hardest Video I've Ever Had To Make | Barrett Pall

[@BarrettPall]

We all have family problems, but I chose to share mine for those who are afraid to share those, and feel as if they are alone. XO

[@tlarkymabel8497]

Barrett Pall You are an amazing person. :)

[@BarrettPall]

Tlarky Mabel means so much. you are too my friend!

[@MrTimi96]

You're so strong and a true inspiration. I love this and I love what you do. :)

[@kimananaevitian2865]

Thank you for sharing your personnal life like that. It takes a lot of courage to say it to other people. You're such an amazing person Barrett. Stay strong my friend :)

[@jadeheart95]

+Barrett Pall Thank you for having the courage and love to share yourself and your story Barrett. I know you made a difference in someone's life, if not more than one person. I recognize your soul and much of your story as both mirror my own, and as an empathic person myself... I can see that you are very empathic as well. Thank you for being the beautiful person you choose to be in a world where that's not always a choice made by many. I see you, I appreciate you, and love flows when the heart glows....and you Barrett have a beaming heart.

[@ericsteveo]

Your like a diamond all the pressure you went through made something that shines and sparkles

[@BarrettPall]

Steve Olson never thought of it like that, but I like the metaphor. Thank you!

[@melodyyoung5293]

Steve Olson ooh i like that

[@raymondbraun]

Thank you for sharing your story, Barrett. You are such a strong person and I'm proud of you and everything you have overcome. So much love to you.

[@BarrettPall]

Love you

[@dylan660]

I'm so glad I came across your channel a couple months ago.. I've never really had role models in my life but hearing your words truly inspires me. I can never thank you enough for how much your videos speak to me and how much they continually help me through ANY situation. Keep on keeping on Barrett, thank you for everything.

[@jayclaremia9381]

You're the definition of admirable.

[@blizzlenizzle]

I can relate to this so much. Thanks so much for opening up about this Barrett.

[@iustus_]

Ciao. This video has had a very positive impression on me. I am grateful Barrett for the fact you made and shared this video. Your speech and delivery is so authentic and natural I could listen to you all day. I wholeheartedly agree our parents we do not chose. I have started to find gratitude with my parents now as I have gotten myself to a good place. I start to think that there limited experiences affected their ability to be good parents. I'm making peace with it I felt a lot of raw emotion and empathy for you watching this video. Thank you kindly for sharing. It's very admirable and it helps more than I can express in words.

[@ywai1987]

You are an inspiration. Thank you for sharing your story.

[@freehell7]

You're really really brave to share this to the world.

[@BarrettPall]

Aniff Najib I feel it is my responsibility. Thank you for listening.

[@jordanperez6145]

Wow. This made me feel less alone. Thank you. Thanks for telling something true. I hope good things come your way!

[@JbNyC1000]

Barrett, I watch all your videos and I thank you for being so raw and truthful but mostly happy and uplifting. But this video I had to leave a comment. Looking at your fb/Ig you would think you had an amazing upbring but for you to open up to the world and share your utmost deepest truth,,,wow this vid had me in tears. I have gone through many of the same struggles with my family that you shared and probably a bit darker. I don't want to get to deep but I can't say thank you enough for sharing this. I look up to you. You are an amazing soul. Thank you for being you!

[@joegalloway3528]

Barrett Pall As a Loyal Fan/Friend that's has been here since the start I find this a hard watch as it makes me upset To see you down a little bit. However looking at you now and what you made of yourself is incredible love you Barret X

[@BarrettPall]

🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻

[@unknownterritory2204]

This video is not depressing at all. It is uplifting and courageous. You are such a valuable role model. I hope that viewers of this video will be inspired by you to put their lives and goals in perspective and deal with the baggage of family issues in the constructive way that you have found for yourself.

[@petert1634]

you rock for posting this one. I have so much respect for you....and a tear in my eye! 👏✌

[@BarrettPall]

Peter T It means so much to hear such nice things. Thank you!

[@husastra]

So so so beautiful!!! That's what I love about KZbin - that you can show and share your fears, hardships or secrets and talk about what really moves you. Thank you so much - what a great lesson in how to meet the world with an open heart!

[@BarrettPall]

husastra only heart to have is an open one

[@MJ-nk9nw]

Thank you for sharing your kindness and your open heart with us. Your positive life inspires. There's not many of you!

[@Zeyev]

Thanks for sharing such a difficult story. It made me realize how fortunate I was to grow up in my family. Yes, my parents had faults. But they were the ones to encourage me to come out when they understood how unhappy I was. Big hug.

[@naterudamas3495]

I need a Barret in my life... Meaning someone who understands and I can talk to. It's hard to be the one going through things like this. But it's an eye opener

[@jeremyruggles4747]

Because of, or in spite of, your past, what an incredible human being and man you have become. You continuously come every week with positive messages that are from the heart and I think inspire those who watch your videos. Thanks for sharing Barrett.

[@BarrettPall]

Jeremy Ruggles Thank you for such kind words, and thank you for taking the time to listen to my stories and love.

[@kbaii6253]

In all honesty Barrett, I look up to you in all of your videos. They're so raw and pure and relatable. But this one in particular literally made my eyes start balling up with tears and its because of how I feel like in another life we were friends, and people like us .. we know what's up and we just get it. But when we're going through stuff, we have to understand that life isn't perfect. You have to learn to wipe your own ass. Period. It's not that complicated. But I wanted to write this on here because I feel like I'm going through exactly what you went through,,, and it sucks. But you literally changed my perspective on life. Lol and this is just an 11 minute video you know?? Imma play it every time people or life get in my way just to have the encouraging words back into my head again. Cause they're so true and honest. Seriously, Thank you

[@chucksipes4911]

You are not alone Barrett. Many of us (me too) have had a troubled youth of which all of it was caused by ineffectual parents. This was brave of you and I related to all of it. In the very near future, I am going to set up a KZbin account and start a weekly Vlog like yours. I am 75 and have a whole bunch of things to share - gay things, life things, and mostly as you are discovering early in your life - those things you need to own and the rest of them that can be discarded. Excess baggage. Thank you for your video. I love your site and visit every time there's a new video from you. Keep up the good work!

[@MrTimi96]

This is so strong. You are so strong. I totally could relate to a lot in this video. Especially the part with the dad. My relationship to my dad doesn't even really exist anymore. I learnt that it's most important to hold on to people and stuff that keep you going and keep you positive. No matter how much the other people might need you. If they don't keep you happy in life and just take your energy without giving anything pisitive back you can't maintain the friendship/relationship with that person without killing yourself inside. In general the whole situation is so important to talk about. Plus it really shows how amazing you can still turn out no matter what you start up with in life. You're a true inspiration and you are so gorgeous. xx

[@mikebluet]

Hey Barrett, thank you for sharing all that you shared. I can relate on so many levels with the situation that you went through and still going through with your parents. I'm actually living home with my parents now. While I was in college, I got emotionally drained from my parents telling me about the lies, adultery, and other things. As the children of our parents, we care about them. I would get so stressed out. My outlet was socializing. I socialized so much that I didn't even care about my classes or studies. So because of this, my grades went down and now I'm home to take online classes and build up my GPA. I only have one more year left. When you said that you don't have to keep any toxic relationships in your life, you spoke the truth! I love my mom, I do. She has a sickness that keeps her down sometimes. Ever since I was young, I could always talk with her. I told her a lot of my deepest darkest secrets. However, she does have the tendency to be controlling and bossy. My dad is very quiet but there has been a lot of personal lies that he told to my mom and the family. My dad has used about two of my college refund checks (each over $2,000) and haven't even paid me back. One time last year, he asked if he could borrow $20 and I said sure. He paid me back the $20 but then said, "Glad I paid you back the $20, now I don't owe you anything". Sorry I'm ranting now haha. While you were talking there was so much that reminded me of my situation. I agree also with you that if you continue to do what you need to do, you will get out of bad situations. I have been watching your videos for a few months now. You always speak from the heart and that is what connects with a lot of people. I'm 23 and I'm strong. I too am thankful for the positive people in my life. Bravery sharpens bravery. I'm proud of you Barrett. You are brave.

[@BarrettPall]

Mike Blue we have the power to change our own lives not others, so we must focus on building ourselves up, and then try and help others when we are stable.

[@mikebluet]

Barrett Pall Thank you man. I agree that we must focus on building ourselves up. On strong foundations. This will give us sturdy ground and stability to help others. I do hope to help a lot of people one day. I want to spread my message and start a revolution of confidence and self-love. :)

[@BJ-fv6ws]

You are a sweet, kindhearted person who has shared so generously with us. When all of us share our vulnerabilities, it connects us. I love you for the very good person you are. I hope that you truly have moved on to live your life free to soar and fly.

[@8boutch]

Yes Barrett, you're right, when we look at you or we see what you are, we probably think you come from the perfect family and I was almost shock to hear this. However the fact that what you did with your life and became this beautiful, intelligent and strong young man by yourself is amazing. I have no son myself, but I would be really proud to have a son like you. I wish you much more wonderful things in your life, you surely deserve them.

[@jakeweaver8246]

So brave uploading this. Love your videos💝

[@TheJuly48]

Thank you for being so honest with us. I watch your videos since the beginning and I think you're just so inspiring. Watching your videos give me confident, thats so crazy. I always try to be more like you cause your just such an loving person and you don't focus an hate and negativity both things that I sometimes do. You keep it real. I really enjoy yout videos and keep being the kind, lovely person you are.

[@Boudster]

What passed is in the past. Looking back in time would only open unhealed wounds. You must be SO PROUD of yourself because all what you had growing up, made you the amazing person that you are now. I've had troubles growing up as well. I even had a worse experience than yours. I've given up on life in every way. Until this one day, I seriously don't remember how, I discovered your Instagram page which lead me to your KZbin channel, and ever since then, you've been such a true inspiration. And honestly, you've given me hope, and that's all what I've ever needed to keep fighting. I see so much similarities in our personalities. You're the person that I look up to now, and I wish to turn out to be just like you. A true thanks from the depth of my heart. Ed. :)

[@adamwilliamboettger]

Much of your journey resonates with my own, especially that of growing up in a toxic and difficult household. You are a beautiful soul and I tell you let love be the frontrunner in your life. I join you in this. Thank you for sharing

[@knurdisms]

This might not be your most fun video but it's definitely your best, and most important. It shows you're a beautiful man, inside and out. Respect!

[@unc907]

so proud of you. I'm sure it's been hard but thanks to bring this issue to the attention especially to young people that are mostly suffering the comparison with a stereotyped family. as you said: you're not alone.

[@jrrod2310]

Wow! Love your depth and ability to connect. We need more guys like you in our community.

[@codydonaugh]

Wow, that was a very good video. I am amazed at how vulnerable and open you were in this vide. You should be proud of yourself for being able to open up so much.

[@MyReddragon76]

Your are stronger mentally, emotionally, spiritually & physically than ever before. Life's struggles & it's challenging obstacles will never end for us. It will keep beating us down until we can't get back up no more but we must keep moving forward. Other people may have had far more difficult struggles & may help the rest of us to realize what doesn't kill us, will make us stronger. Remember, their is no success with pain. That principal applies to everything in our lives.

[@BarrettPall]

Dave Kim all so very true!

[@bluboy4ver2]

You are so smart and lucky for coming out the way you have, most people don't learn half of what you have learned in their entire lives. This was amazing to hear and so real, thank you for sharing your experience and setting a great example.

[@cliffbeasley8303]

Thank you for sharing your life. I feel like I missed just being a kid because of some issues in my family. It's tough to have so much put on you at a young age. It's good to be able to talk about it though. Wishing you the very best!

[@tommyflorida9204]

I love watching and listening to you. Thank you so much for sharing.

[@ddramos7997]

You are an amazing human! Your videos always touch my heart. Thank you for being so honest and brave.

[@jrrod2310]

Definitely soulful perfection in all your inperfections. You're a gem, truly cut like a diamond. Beautiful treasure. Are you real, where have your been?

[@LacosteAlain]

you are one of a kind because most if not all the youtubers are so superficial but not you in anyway ...you could surely be because you are so so BEAUTIFUL in the outside but you are as beautiful in the inside and evenmore....you are so inspiring Barrett ! I dont know if you owe to your parents, life, experiences the way you are now but let me tell you that you are REALLY blessed by....GOD ! You forever fan...Anthony x

[@BarrettPall]

Anthony Montreal Means so much, thank you!

[@g.elliott4789]

You are an amazing spirit Barrett. . .avante!

[@maudale]

So sorry to hear about this! Even though you cant compare your problems to someone else's, I didn't realize how easy it was for me in so many ways. thanks for sharing

[@haydenstarnes7385]

I absolutely love this video and love how you are so genuine and present in the moment! I've been going through a different time in my life recently and your videos have been a strong impact for me! I've been watching and commenting on nearly all your videos.. (it's only creepy if you let it be lol) but seriously they all have had such a positive influence on me in so many different aspects! I myself have been told many times I am an old soul and have been asked how I stay so positive but, sometimes we all get in our own heads! I'm glad that you post these videos because it's so helpful to have such a positive, genuine person to turn to with the click of a button! Thank You I really appreciate and love your videos! YOU'RE AMAZING!!!

[@edwelty]

Thank you for sharing your difficulty with your parents. I had a very rough relationship with my father.

[@TrudyPatootie]

Barrett.. One of my favorite expressions that I keep close to my heart is.. " Everything will be OK in the End.. If it is NOT OK ..it is not the end.. " You will make it honey.. I am so sensitive myself. Cancer the crab who goes into her shell when hurt. But I have also learned over the years that Sensitive people are also sensitive to the needs of others.. You just keep doing you.. Cause you are a good person.

[@davysuisse]

I exactly had the same awareness as a child like you experienced. I do think this is what makes us beautiful inside and outside. Nice to see someone who faced the same issues. Peace out, Davy

[@elcangryo]

wow. this is so crazy and weird. I almost cried not because it was sad or anything but on how accurate and alike our lives have been growing up. like it is so weird even the "started working at 14" idk I got creeped out at how everything you said matched with my life, you just somehow are much more open and can explain your feelings well... But anywho I just hope everything is better now. I see when you uploaded this so it is almost a year since this and I just started following you yesterday so do not know much about you all I can say it is that I can see how sweet of a person you are through this video but I just hope everything has gotten better with your parents, your life and with you finding yourself as a person and like you tell the people that follow you just know that you, (yourself Barrett) are not alone and you also have people who love you and who relate to you and who appreciate the passion and the sincerity you put into things. Have a great day !! xx -Bayron

[@garysakakihara9389]

Barrett, thank you for sharing your life story. You've gone through some very rough experiences during a time in your life when things should have been care free. Unfortunate as these early hardships were , at your young age you were strong and wise . Dispite these hardships you survived and became a wonderful,warm, caring, successful person, Your future road of life. most likely will have a few potholes in it, but you now well prepared to navigate this road. Wishing you much success and health.......

[@OLDS98]

Powerful video. Just know you touch people by your truth with the truth. It is not until the truth is revealed that things do indeed change for others because they can relate to you. I understand about the toxic family things totally. That is why I got away from my relatives a long time ago. I hear you on that guilt trip part too. I can only imagine how hard it was to record this knowing the truth is out there. You will be just fine. Look at your life now. Look at who you are and the experience.

[@filg]

U r a wonderful guy

[@tvilling023]

Hey Barrett, Hats off to you buddy, it need a lot courage to express your true emotions in front of whole world, but you did it so totally to encourage and motivate others, You are a true Hero

[@locasiare]

I have so much respect for your openness It made me cry I think you're a very nice and good person 😯👍

[@ІгорКо-ъ6б]

Dear Barrett, it was one of your best videos and it touched me so much. I understand you very well, for I´ve made a similar expierience with my own family and I´m so gald that you could share your pain with us. Stay strong, I pray for you.

[@ivanvanburen1966]

I think I just fell in love, this was such a sweet and sincere video.

[@richardhutchison1406]

Barrett,, can I tell you how much I can relate to your video. I listened in amazement to the similarities you and I have experienced as young men growing up in dysfunctional families. I guess that the hardest part was having to be the one who had to make the adult decisions as a child. You are an inspiration to me and I am sure to many others. It truly brought me to tears. I know what you mean when you said that the moment that you could talk about your family problems without guilt or shame because that does not define who you are. I suffered extreme physical and verbal abuse. I don't know how I kept my sanity. It of course cost me in a very personal way in a relationship that was 18 years long that ended because I could not share details about the way that things were when I was brought up. That wall never came down and I was afraid if it did that he would have not understood or even worse seen the reasons for my isolation and unease without explanation about things. Keep up the good work. God bless from Nashville, TN.

[@sethf4385]

What a beautiful story Barrett ❤️ One thing is certain: change. Luminous clouds eventually retreat after a thunderous storm when the sun eventually shines again. Don't worry. Life isn't always sun-rays and rainbows. It's those difficult life experiences that inspire us all to overcome our life's challenges we all encounter. I absolutely loved your heartfelt video. Please keep being the positive, genuine, and sensitive person you are. We need more role models like you in the lgbtq community. Thanks 😊

[@okimlistening2u]

Barrett, no one who has an insight into human nature would ever watch your videos and still believe that you have had an easy life. So much to say to you, but I will just put it into two of my favorite quotations which are sent from my heart to you: "Out of adversity comes the call to greatness" and "Every counselor needs a counselor." I'm here for you, bro, let me know when I can help...................Ray

[@johnting4718]

Hey Barrett , I am from Hong kong Asia, I just watched this video, I want to let you that I was praying for you all along, have faith and let God handle everything for you. I believe you and your family relationship will be restored and stay strong. Don't give up!!

[@theycallmebn8999]

wow ... You are such a strong an amazing person! Thanks for sharing this

[@deertaro8758]

It is really good for you and for others that you finally were brave to share your personal family history. I think you had a dificult time, but those experiences don't stoped you to find your way as and adult person. Congrats for your words, because are so inspiring to those people who need to move on from a toxic enviroment and bacame a stronger person as you are. Best wishes! XOXO.

[@Exclusive3003]

I admire you being so candid with us,but i know how you feel,im at a point in my life where i look at others my age and look at mines and ask why me? But for me i suppose its for a reason but dealing with sickness in my family i feel that hopefully itll get better,but thank you for sharing a true sweetheart and i hope that your life goes so great for you Barrett,keep your head up.

[@cnicrhea]

Relatable realizations and upbringing. Thanks for sharing, I think it is courageous when one can share their story, it shows a level of authenticity some people have no ability to reach. I am happy to see there are others out there doing right for themselves. Looking forward to watching more of your videos ;)

[@mrzoukdotcomzouklambadaboo8212]

Your self sufficiency will change oneday, you've been well trained to be kind, I was always trained to be of service to the family. You are a beautiful and smart man so you will work it out.

[@johngreene6534]

thank you for sharing Barrett, i life can be hard, you are a awesome young man, thank you

[@joshuaraifman4530]

Wow this is incredible and inspiration. When I move to NYC, it would be wonderful to meet you man!

[@eleanormulindi-king]

This is the most inspiring video I've seen on KZbin. Thanks for sharing.

[@omaralmarshoodi6662]

OMG .. like my story (crying 😭) so proud of you much much love ❤️

[@jesesco101]

Thanks for sharing. I hope your relationship with your family gets better. Thanks for just being you. #Positiveoutcomesonly

[@rockiecheng3090]

Thank You Barrett for sharing your story!! I feel we need more people like you in this world to reveal the truth of what's going on in your life:)

[@willa6166]

You're so brave. Thank you for sharing your story. XO Don't forget that your wonderful and amazing. And beautiful!! I'm a big fan, love you.

[@BarrettPall]

William Colon Thank you William for following along, and sharing the love.

[@willa6166]

You're welcome Barrett. Anytime!

[@ParvaizRaja]

You got to know that nothing is more important than that you feel good in life! As freedom is the basis of life and joy is the purpose of it! Leave others out of the equation and love and appreciate yourself and others unconditionally. Meaning what others do, think or say shouldn't effect your perspective of you, them or life in general! Much love

[@MaikaTruong]

I love you for this video. I can relate 100% to this. Thank you.

[@tmicheletti100]

Stay strong. You have accomplished a lot considering your upbringing.

[@alexberg5037]

your video moved me to tears... thank you for sharing it....take care....

[@bmrousnr]

Beautifully done! Sharing helps everyone.

[@nicklasa7072]

I ´m proud of you to talk with us about this

[@gary-qq4xx]

Very brave sharing, much respect. Can relate to much of your story. Thanks for sharing.

[@sterlingw.3575]

You. Are. Amazing.

[@knowuthrume]

May you be at peace. Sometimes, the experience of what we don't want inspires us and motivates us to move in the direction of that which we do want and that which is more in line with the ongoing expansion of Life. Being born into a severely dysfunctional family has been a great opportunity for me to develop awareness, compassion and intuition. I think of everyone that I've met as teachers; I learn about myself through my experience with them and, more often than not, move on. I don't repeat the same course in school just because I appreciate and value the teacher. Attachment, "longing" to be with someone or something, is not synonymous with "love". Love is about accepting, non-judgement and not asking another to change. Love doesn't require close proximity or physical/emotional intimacy; sometimes letting go of and moving on from a valued teacher, parent, sibling, or friend is the greatest act of love for yourself and others. I deeply appreciate all of the experiences, even those that are unpleasant, but I understand that clinging the people involved isn't the end goal. Take what you've learned and mined and focus your energy on cultivating the relationships and experiences that in harmony with your deepest desires. Thank you, for the very engaging and personal video. May you be at peace with which ever path(s) you take.

[@libraken]

Thanks for sharing your story, Barrett, it resonated with me. For me, it stopped at emotional parentification (even though we had our share of money woes as well), so I can only imagine how hard it must have been to experience instrumental parentification as well. I admire your tenacity and positivity as I must admit that the latter one especially was always a tricky one for me to find and hold on to. Hopefully your parents' divorce will, in time, bring them (and you) opportunities to reflect and grow, as it did my parents. And then there might be a time when you can forgive them and (I don't know if this will make sense yet) yourself so that you can find a new peace of mind. Much love, Kx

[@BarrettPall]

libraken I 100% understand your sentiments and agree. Ive forgiven myself a lot over the years, and I am sure more will come. I have also forgiven them and only want them happy however that doesn't necessarily mean with me there. Thank you for the kind words, and thoughtful comment. xo

[@DJBlindSpot-DJNarrow-DJWide]

Hi buddy appreciate all of this, just know you are not the only caring sensitive person in this world, I am too, love you Barrett.

[@imrekrisztiankovacs5513]

i feel you man! we had a same kinda childhood and at the age of 30 I still struggle because of that but I want you to know that you are awesome and you should be very proud of yourself!!

[@Sivag-fh6ps]

Hi Barrett , really touching video , and wish all de best

[@marykatherine4080]

Thank you pall we love you! 🤗 It also made me realize the reality of life..

[@invth]

You have done so well - my experience with my family was quite close to yours, the only difference I grew up in Estonia and my very first boyfriend was an American living in Estonia (the greatest love of my life also we are not together we still best friends for life -20 years now and still in touch and I go and see him in NYC every year) I pulled through so much shit and abuse from parents and the world and will never forget that immigration guy in JFK who just didn’t care). Well, living now in London UK - so grateful for being alive and safe and having the most amazing job in the world, traveling the world in s private jet and all that started with my father calling me names, and you pray and cry and ask god for help and then you know - it’s only you who is there for you. So grateful for all that. Thanks for the vid bud, We’ll survive everything, happy and healthy. Big hug. A.

[@diegor2502]

Awwwww, it's ok!, what matters now is that you are an amazing man who know how to change people's life's!

[@BarrettPall]

diegophobic #blessed

[@pettheawesome1565]

i almost cant believe how ur life was uncannily how mine is now. i relate to so much of this it made me cry. i recently realized that if i want to get to where i want to be in life then i have to work on myself and improve myself. idk if i will even go to college, but i am studying for a scholarship :). Your story wasnt depressing at all! Its in an inspiration to me. i already know i will one day get to where i want to be, but u are a confirmation its possible. Thanks Barrett :). I hope you're living out everything you dreamed for. Subscribing immediately!

[@xyourfrienddannyx]

Barrett this was beautiful :') i love you so much

[@paul8926]

You seem like the coolest person ever! How can your parents ever criticize you? Sometimes, life doesn't make sense at all.

[@kevinb6207]

You are a courageous and intelligent man! Some don't figure this stuff out until much later in life. Congrats on saving your own life. You are most definitely worth it.

[@parishermes9834]

I discovered your channel two hours ago and I while I was going through the vids I was hmm this is similar and this...then I feel the same about my family and when I had 23 I collect courage to say I am going to find a better life and still I feel bad BC they are as that...and I cried...I understand...

[@ericturner9476]

Omg. I so relate to this video. You are so amazing.

[@thetrailhiking-jeankaleb2858]

beatifull video man, relate to it so so so much. ,Thankyou. xxxxxx

[@efremmanassey8328]

Hey Barrett, I’m somewhat overwhelmed now, after watching your video - your hardest video. You are what my mum would have called an ‘old soul’. This is someone who has had many prior lives and is now of a great inner depth, whose purpose is to come back to Earth and help other people here. (Of course, I don’t know if you are open to that idea. It’s okay either way..) The point is, that after tremendous mental/emotional pain, you have protected your light of love, and you can now hold it high to become a beacon of hope; of guidance to others. You can show them a path around the sharp rocks and chasms of the cruel ignorance of man. You can show them how to love themselves. I feel that your life hardship will really make you strong and that your sincere heart will indeed inspire many. I am 54 years old. Im a gay Australian guy living in Sydney. I came out at 33 after the acute sorrow of a failed marriage to a woman. To declare that I was gay was the best bloody thing that i did. When I was a youth no one would even talk about being gay. Now, our country has just legalized same sex marriage. We have come a long way and we are all living in momentous times, my friend. But there is still much work to be done in terms of inner and outer acceptance. I no longer listen to what people ‘say’ about God or His shadow, religion. I meditate on deep questions and quietly await an answer to come from within. Barrett, I asked why we are born gay in a heteronormative world. I felt that I got a distinct answer: We are here to show people that to accept difference (esp in such a sensitive area as sexuality) is the right thing to do. This is how we grow and increase our love. With true acceptance of people who are different we brighten as souls. When acceptance arrives, the darkness of prejudice begins to vanish. Thus all people of (perceived) major difference are here to help their human brothers and sisters evolve. Not only are we gays, transgenders, and queer others as worthy as everyone else - we are an actual blessing for humanity. We are the catalyst for the lifting of human consciousness. And last but not least, I love you. I send you a hug from my heart over the vast, yawning seas.I think you are a beautiful person. Even though we may never meet, I count you as dear to me. May your heart be ever joyful, Efrem Manassey.

[@Madsci1]

Trying to find confidence after hard times is rough but you have to keep trying.

[@MrJoKARM]

Dear Barrett, You are such an educated and well brought up man. But more precisely so rich and pure with your soul that I am completly inspired by you. I think saying thank you is the very least that I can say for your amazing ability and talent. Your videos makes me smile, cry, inspire, make me feel good about myself. I wish I could have giveen you a big hug and cry together lol. Life isn't perfect but only once you are able to take the negativity and change it to something positive, that's the real achivement one can reach! And you my friend made that happen! You are such a positive ray of light! Wow I wish I could have the 1% of your positivity! Anyways without taking too much of your time, I'm sending you a gigantic hug and lots of love. May the Almighty keeps pouring his unconditional blessings upon you and may He guide you throughout out your journey of Life. With most kind and sincere regards, One of your thousands well wishers Joseph

[@BarrettPall]

jo KARM Sending hugs back xo

[@davidmusikreha]

i send to you lots of love and lights on your soul and your heart from mine from Paris because i'm french , but don't continue to identify yourself by your past , past it's a bag of information to grow up like you really to be , trust me i had a really hard childhood ... and a horrible family but i'm ok deeply now . and you know what you deserve the best just because you are a beautiful soul , lots of universal love on you and on your incredible life that you build every day by your choices . friendly . Samuel

[@michellaliberte]

I can relate with what you were going through with your parents. I'm still having problems with my parents so after I tried many many many times to please them, to make them proud of me and hoping that they would understand me and accept me for who I am, I've decided to stay away and keep my distance to avoid that toxic relation. I don't need them to be happy. I dont want them in my life anymore. They were not very good parents to me so it's over. I have closed the door and I feel much better since then.

[@jesusarizmendi0223]

your story resembles my story in some ways so i thank you for sharing this i know if i was you i wouldn't be able to share it. thanks again

[@barbaralobato3180]

I'm so sorry to hear this. Everyone deserves to have a healthy childhood and that means not only having food, a house, etc., but to live in a kind environment where people love and respect each other. I know how you feel because I've had a similar experience while growing up. On the one hand, you feel grateful because there are families way worse than yours, but on the other hand it feels like you're trapped in a hostile situation in which you have no power to do anything about. Negativity is a constant in your life. It's even worse for the fact that it is inside your home, which should be a safe place. On top of it, you said your mother was ill for a long time. That must have been just awful, I'm so sorry -- I hope she is better now. But I like to look for the silver lining and I think I am wiser now and, when I decide to start a family, I will do it knowing how to be the best mother for my children and how to provide everything for them, not just material stuff, but love, comprehension, sympathy, tolerance, respect and a peaceful home. Hope life will just go better and better for you. You are a lovely person and you deserve it.