1 YEAR SOBER AFTER A LIFETIME OF RELAPSING... (My Raw Story)

[@mike8631]

Watching you on and off for 7 years. I'm so proud of you man. 2 years 1 month for me. It keeps getting better.

[@bignoknow]

Thank you man and THAT’S AMAZING

[@DaDankDude67]

Thank you for these videos man. I'm struggling the same. I'm 24. This gives me so much hope. Everything you say resonates.

[@Metroidman91]

Just remembered you and I was struggling with alcohol when I found you. I'm now sober, I made it 400+ days and had a small relapse period of 2-4 weeks and remembered why I quit in the first place. So I'm now 5 months and 9 days in again and believe I'm done for good. Glad you're making it too!

[@bignoknow]

Thanks for checking in. One day at a time. 🙏🏻

[@jessipete]

I am in recovery & actually found my way here via your Dad’s channel! He seems like an amazing man & you do as well! Thank you for sharing your story & especially for not taking yourself so seriously! Thank you for some nuggets of recovery knowledge that I have never heard even though I’ve been around & back a few times! Congrats on your year & healing! ❤️‍🩹 Namaste! 🙏

[@ericjohnston591]

Thanks for the video, and kudos on a year! I reached a year in Nov 10 of this year and have no desire at all to return to my previously miserable life. Keep it up, brother.

[@janabrown6608]

congratulations for being sober for a year and keep it up! I believe you can do this if you put your mind to it!

[@dennychow1459]

🎉congratulations on 1 year, that's amazing

[@bignoknow]

Thank you so much 😀

[@amandasmith5509]

I wish you all the best Sir. My mother got sober after many years as an alcoholic and she too had a tumor in her intestines. The stomach pain is what sent my mother to the ER. May God protect you and heal you in Jesus Holy Name Amen ❤

[@temprary580]

"I compare the worst in me to the perceived best in you" wow thats relatable. Congrats on the year

[@morgansey]

Congrats Noah!! So happy to see you here again, the greatest strength is being able to get back up over and over after falling down. Proud of you!!

[@franpaszkowski-hood1565]

I met your story in one of my meetings - blue as bruise- I called him the poster boy of AA - sober as a judge - love love your story ty for sharing!!!!

[@hamsterman64]

You absolutely should be a sponsor. There's been so many times you could have given up, but you've always gotten back on the wagon. I'm a lifelong teetotaler with addiction on both sides of the family. I grew up around AA, and both active and recovering addicts. It's a hard life, and people who manage to wrest back control from the addiction demon are endlessly inspiring to me. We're fortunate to have you.

[@XoeCox]

He always relapses. He has been doing this for YEARS. He does not have long enough sober to be anybody's sponsor.

[@ericjohnston591]

I'm sure he has had many people who have given up hope on him; glad you took the time to voice your support - it says more about you than it does him.​@@XoeCox

[@bluecoffee8414]

My mom and uncle both drank next to nothing. They grew up with 2 alcoholic parents. The saying was "it skips a generation" sometimes. Anecdotally, that was true in our case because it came roaring back among my generation in our family.

[@mslauder9280]

He absolutely does not have enough sober time to be a sponsor.

[@travisrolando8205]

Congratulations brotha man! 🎉🎉I'm very very proud of you!

[@michelinaschach2652]

so proud of you man!!!

[@michelinaschach2652]

i’m still in the ditch but with food (i’m in a food addiction program). i resonated sooo much with what you said about looking back and being unwilling to do all of the things you were being told because you felt like there was a different or better way… that’s where i am now and i don’t know how to get to the other side 😭 but i am so happy you made it to a year

[@TRDTalk]

Congratulations brother we are so proud of you 👏

[@DanielAlvarez-sl6yh]

WOW Congratulations and Happy Birthday brother. I think I started watching your channel way back in the day When I was going in and out of aa. Now I am coming up on 9 years Sober and Clean this month 🙏❤️🙏❤️🙏

[@lucidicallos5706]

Your story was very inspiring. I related to your story and different mindsets and behaviour very much. For me it has been shorter, but quite chaotic in that it progressed way too much in terms of how my mental health was affected and how I saw my life and future. For a while, I just kind lived in acceptance with it which now makes me sick, because my brain should have told me to get help, not lean into it, as like you said, it can feel like this twisted best friend. For the past 9 months I have had one month of sobriety, but couldn't handle suicidal thoughts and fell back. However, after that I was able to crawl out of a mentally brutal month of binging and drink maybe 3 - 4 days a week, but looking back, I mean is that even that much better? My life started to fall apart around me even though I wasn't in a dangerous mindset at first. I kinda started to regret everything much more deeply and wrestling with it I think caused some deep issues that I have with myself and caused really bad anxiety that I was a bad person or that other people would see me as fake or negative. That hurt, because I am a person who means well and to not be able to express yourself, it dragged me down. Well fast forwards months and I am feeling a lot better, probably better than I have in years (outside of some days of that sober month) and I'm trying to grab a hold of that and I see myself not enjoying drinking in a way where I just seem to have control now to just not do it alone atleast during the weeks (may drink on weekends for what seem like good reasons, but usually kinda end up like I didn't need to do that). I do have hard times hanging out with friends or being in social situations without alcohol though, so that bothers me. So I feel better, I'm starting to meditate, create a week schedule, be more active and maybe seek help for anxiety and depression. That leaves alcohol. It's just kinda laying there "harmless" at the moment. However after watching this video, I just kinda went why am I not sober if it's still bothering me on even a smaller level? I mean, I have good starting tools for self improvement, but going sober might be one of the keys, as I know the pride it brings and it made me feel more still. This may be my chance to crawl out of a dark hole that I've been in for maybe close to 6 years. I don't wanna risk it by having the winter come, starting to feel self destructive and being like oh I'm knees deep in drinking again and I don't even care (Yeah winter atmosphere fucks with my brain as much as I love it). So yeah a long message, but man if I get bad feelings this next year, I will be able to process them sober in the right ways, not potentially drunk and also drinking is a key factor driving suicidal thoughts ahead for me (ironically my first long binge was a "fun" party that I did to escape those feelings, but just went around the corner and slammed it right in my face). It's good to realize you have had consequences and know bad places and that at the moment removes me from wanting that on some small level, which is almost a new thing for me.

[@positivelastaction3957]

Noah congratulations my man! I gave up alcohol 3 years ago and the first 6 months were pure hell. My body was going through a detox and it was terrible - but what a pay off!

[@familyrig]

Glad I found this channel.

[@jamesbyrne9312]

I feel you are still in love with the rebel image. You MUST love YOU, not the image, if you wanna stay sober! I have this struggle too, not judging

[@Desizgirl3]

Thanks for your honest reporting.

[@everydamnday]

WOW! 1 year! Congrats man! You rock. You are absolutely right. Do hard things. It’s how we grow. It’s how we become resilient. You got this. I’m sure of it now. Keep up the hard work bro. Your future is what you make it.

[@atharris8]

Day 101! SOBER AF

[@bignoknow]

Let’s go

[@marilynmcrobie]

Wow! I'm praying for you and God bless!

[@rickymurray]

I’m two months today 19th, after 5 years of relapses. Currently have a sponsor for the first time and am doing the work

[@AM-nm4oh]

I grew up in an alcoholic home. Congratulations on your 1 year sobriety! I've watched your dad for 10+ years and watched a few of your videos over the years. After seeing the video with the two of you after your surgery, I browsed through your videos. In my experience with addicts, the one constant is the addict. Not sure what your drug of choice was, but I also saw you had a video of porn addiction. Working out seems to be a healthy outlet for you. Many addicts go from one vice to another. Drugs, alcohol, shopping, sex, gambling, smoking, etc. Have you been to therapy to get to the root of your addictive issues? And yes, unfortunately being sober means feeling all of the miserable feelings. I jokingly say that I take my misery sober! I'm not a recovering addict, but still a true statement. Many continued years of sobriety and health to you!

[@lxamexam]

much love brother . thank you for sharing. you are an inspiration

[@mattrkelly]

lets get to two bro 👌

[@jamesbyrne9312]

I had a complete loss of inhibitions too on my first drunken experience, but I remember also being drunk after and people being concerned. Says it all. Its a bad thing

[@markmather782]

Wow, You made me cry 😭. I’ so can relate. I’m so scared of myself and my alcoholic mind. My anxiety hits me hard around 10 am and I give in to the cruel master. I’ve been trying 12 steps but can’t seem to get sustained trackion. You are a true inspiration! God bless your ministry!

[@bignoknow]

I hope you keep trying. You are worth it. Some of us need medical help to get started in the form of detox and rehab. Don't hesitate to explore that option as it can be a game changer.

[@jamieflynn5008]

Oh my gosh!!!!!! This is amazing!!!!!!🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉

[@mikebordner3820]

Great job Sir, Happy for you Noah

[@CMoore8539]

Congratulations on your sobriety!!!💞 Thumbs Up 👍 and shared out.

[@crowneproductions9908]

Wowzers, and I thought I was an alcoholic drinking 7 days a week but only 2-8 (usually 2 on weekdays/work nights and then 6-8 on Fridays and Saturdays). I have cut back considerably but I am not sober, since starting TRT (the reason I even started watching your channel). Always been a functioning alcoholic for the past 15 years (with varying degrees of drinking throughout, never worse than a 6-8 per night although obviously have had more than that in a night back in my early 20s partying with people, but that was many years ago now). I've worked full time, raise a family, even spent the last 5 years of my alcoholism lifting weights 4-6 days a week. A lot of that functioning I would use as an excuse to drink. Both as a reward and as proof to myself that the drinking isn't an issue. I'm at a pretty good point with drinking these days, especially since starting TRT (just not as motivated to reach for the bottle when I'm feeling so great). I have 1-2 glasses of red wine (low ABV sweet wine) with dinner most work nights and then I'll splurge on the weekends and drink a 6 pack or maybe 8 drinks at most but it'll be mostly spread out through the early afternoon to the late evening (switching to water before bed). So I don't really get hangovers and I don't get shit faced very often (every once in a while if we have literally nothing going on on a saturday I'll slam 4 beers or gins in a 1-2 hour period just to get a really good buzz and then sustain that buzz with a couple more drinks over the next couple hours, that's as close as I'll get to shitfaced/outright drunk). Anyways, I hope someday I can completely leave alcohol behind, simply for fitness and because I'm getting older (34 going on 35). I don't feel compelled to quit outright because I've never let alcohol be enough of a problem to stop me functioning like it sounds like you have (never been to rehab, never went to AA, never on anti-depressants or any fancy anti-drinking medications), but it's still a monkey on my back that I'd rather part ways with at some point. Great to hear your story.

[@bignoknow]

Really appreciate the honest share.

[@TUNAdude13]

Congratulations!

[@Zeuskazoo]

Stay vigilant, brotha

[@Amyia14]

Congratulations 🎊

[@dianneengelen3138]

Well done

[@mkaltraaa]

Dr Dan Say on KZbin had a similar struggle. He tried to justify it in many ways. He also got diagnosed with the same disease as you and said that years of heavy drinking was a primary reason for it since it damages the lining in your digestive system. Very happy for you to have found sobriety and can appreciate what a challenge that is.

[@Gary_OC]

That’s a speculative cause of the disease. It can be triggered for multiple reasons. He can not say with certainty alcohol abuse was the definitive cause.

[@mkaltraaa]

@@Gary_OC no its not a definitive cause however there is a strong link between the two. I have watch another person on KZbin that had the same diagnoses and abused alcohol in the same way. They noted it may affect the digestive track in some way.

[@Gary_OC]

@@mkaltraaa Hi. Yes I appreciate there is a danger associated with excessive alcohol consumption and a variety of other cancers. Stomach, liver, colon and rectal. Estimates are 20% - 40% increase risk from some studies. Others also found no direct correlation to alcohol use and colon cancer. Like I tried to imply it’s impossible to identify the trigger. Unfortunately genetic bad luck with rouge cell multipliers are more than often the root cause which can be exacerbated by lifestyle and environmental factors.

[@sampartridge6131]

AMAZING 🎉🎉

[@pageantgrosvenor]

well done. It is so hard to get there.

[@ronwilliams963]

Congratulations

[@PetarLozancic99]

Great job brotha!

[@Esheezy69]

Thanks for sharing

[@bignoknow]

Thanks for listening

[@swiadomosczwiazkowpl]

What is the longest you have been drinking (how many days?)

[@fwdflashwebdesign]

Great man! I watched a video of you haveing cancer, is that you?

[@ducheau100]

Do you think all the drinking caused the cancer?

[@bignoknow]

I certainly think it likely contributed.

[@kathleenspadone4324]

What were your parents saying and doing during your high school drinking days?

[@synthventure]

Wow. Keep it up.

[@Cecy_Da_Mess]

Damn 9/16 is my bday I needed to find u

[@mniezy]

How does your stomach feel now compared to when you were drinking?

[@bignoknow]

Night and day better

[@mniezy]

@@bignoknow thanks! My stomach has been roughed up off and on for the last year!

[@judypoyer8380]

Wow

[@franpaszkowski-hood1565]

I thought you were a friend of Bill W watching your other video-

[@browntrousersmoment]

How much were you actually drinking? Couple beers per day?

[@bignoknow]

I was drinking between 12-16 standard drinks 6-7 days per week usually in a 2-3 hour time frame every evening before getting sober and finding recovery. It was a truly awful existence and I’m thankful every day I don’t have to live that lonely and addicted life.

[@trentonparrish1136]

Congratulations on 1 year sober from alcohol! That is awesome! You have a lot of people that are proud of you including me! You’re truly doing a great job in your recovery! Respect! 🎉

[@StraitjacketFitness]

Wow.

[@doubleBFishing]

Have you ever had your whole body tighten up and hands cramp right up heart racing

[@peterpoc2857]

WOW

[@legs_11.82]

wow

[@ronwilliams963]

Wow

[@judypoyer8380]

Sorry called yu Jason idea of Noah.

[@marcgas3647]

Hoping you understand but I don't believe you. Knowing it doesn't matter whatsoever what I think; however, based on what I've seen, what you've shared with the world, you are not the most honest of people. Sorry for hurt feelings. How many feelings have addicts hurt?

[@lucylou883]

I don’t know why you would write this. Keeping on going with trying to be sober is the only way for it to eventually stick! A year sober Noah - wohoo! I am never more inspired than when a chronic relapser keeps chasing sobriety and gets it!!!

[@temprary580]

Why would he lie about being sober?

[@XoeCox]

This guy has been relapsing for years and years. I hope it sticks, but I don't know.

[@Zeuskazoo]

Wow

[@robertmoreno2765]

Wow