Hey Ash... Russ from Seattle area here. How do you feel about your ex? Do you want him back in your life? Are you still heartbroken? Please know you are definitely not alone. It took me about 3 to 3 1/2 years to get on SSDI. I was too sick to keep my job or any job so we went on public assistance until I got approved for disability. BTW... I was born and raised in Anchorage. What part? Grew up in Bayshore and graduated from Dimond High. Went to Jewel Lake Church of the Nazarene.