BRITTANY DAWN'S TESTIMONY | This is Different For Me

JUSTICE FOR DANIEL ROBINSON PETITION: www.change.org...
PLEASE HELP FIND DANIEL: pleasehelpfind...
LISTEN TO THE PODCAST VERSION👇🏻
open.spotify.c...
YA WANT SOME MERCH? You can buy it here 🥳
represent.com/...
SEND ME AN EMAIL💛 (content suggestions)
[e-mail]
Any links with a ** in the title are affiliate links and I can make a commission from qualifying purchases. Feel free to use them to make your purchase or you can also just use them to see the product and then go back later if you’d rather search for the item independently:
**HydroJug:
www.thehydroju...?aff=12703&AMB&
GET BEHIND THE SCENES OF YT:
**TubeBuddy: www.tubebuddy....
For Business Inquiries Only:
[e-mail]

[@bahena735]

Anorexia has the highest mortality rate when it comes to mental health disorders. She still may be dealing with this, and imo she needs therapy not blaming it on "the enemy."

[@NissaMaezHartman]

..and maybe not prescribe diet plans to other people with disordered eating. That is truly nasty, imo. She should go to therapy and buy it for all the women she harmed with those programs.

[@bahena735]

@@NissaMaezHartman THIS!!!

[@rebecabt6152]

God sees mental health problems as a spiritual problem

[@PersephonetheReplier]

Actually the ED (which many more people have) which causes massive _over_ consumption of food has the highest mortality rate of any mental disorder, and any other illness, in the entire Western world. Just because people want to claim debilitating obesity is somehow a natural state, it's not - and it's a literal form of self harm caused by addiction to food (usually stemming from a need to comfort oneself through eating). MILLIONS of people are being disabled and even passing away from obesity every year, and instead anorexia is put on the 'pedestal' almost as the most tragic mental health disorder. BOTH are equally tragic, but one is a lot more fatal, impacts literally millions of people, and most prefer to pretend it doesn't exist.

[@amandareadsthrillers]

Does it bother anyone else that she says “amen” when she agrees with what Jordan says? I am a Christian but I have never used that in my regular conversations. It’s strange and performative to me.

[@NissaMaezHartman]

It bothers me immensely that she blames everything on demons. She really takes no personal accountability for her own actions. Yes, it sounds like she's had some rough things happen TO her, but it's not an excuse for her lying and bad behaviors. Most people have endured trauma to some extent, that doesn't make them lie, deceive and steal. ' Oh I was broken!' No.

[@BHaney]

Exactly! As someone who does believe in spiritual warfare, it drives me nuts when another person will take every inconvenience or hardship and say it was demons coming after them! Sure, sometimes bad things happen for no discernible reason but just as frequently bad things happen because they’re consequences of her own actions!

[@sashaf7]

Yessss

[@queenc2144]

You did a good job covering this. Ty

[@dw6204]

Agree.

[@sharondisney1637]

Demons are real. They trick us and are the master thieves. Rebuke them in the name of Jesus. And they will flee.

[@emilyparker8922]

There’s something about the way that Jordan sounds like he could not want to be there less that drives me crazy. It all just feels so performative.

[@VisionOfFreedom]

As someone who has struggled with suicidal ideation and had a couple of near attempts similar to Brittany’s, I can empathize with her and would never discredit her story or the pain she went through. However, I HATE the way she said that Jesus said “not you, not today.” This implies that she was chosen by the Lord and was worthy of saving, which leaves family members and friends of those who have lost their lives to suicide wonder why their loved ones weren’t “special enough” to be saved by Jesus in the moment. That makes me genuinely upset.

[@NissaMaezHartman]

We ALL just malfunctioned when she talked about thinking of demons when she pleases herself. 😯😨

[@marleneflanagan7137]

I know I laughed out loud! I thought you'd just go blind!

[@BHaney]

That part really got me 😭💀

[@lindseybarr7664]

She didn’t say she thinks or thought of demons when doing that. She said it opened doors for demonic activity in her life. Let’s not twist people’s words around to fit our own feelings about a person.

[@JOTennisVid]

@@lindseybarr7664 well even that's bullshit.

[@lindseybarr7664]

@@JOTennisVid whether it’s bullshit or not, people lose their validity when they make things up or twist things just because they dislike a person. If you’re right, be right but don’t just make up shit another person didn’t say just because of your personal feelings about someone. It’s annoying and invalidates that person, even if they are right.

[@anonomus8709]

As much as I can’t stand Brittany, it genuinely bothers me how rude Jordan is to her. His passive-aggressive comments are absolutely dripping with contempt. Like, my dude. At least pretend to like your wife. Come on.

[@Danib81000]

Same. It makes me mad because when I have to listen to him treat her that way it makes me feel bad for her 😭

[@nomadichomebody4230]

Hard to believe this is nothing more than an attempt to play victim to escape accountability

[@JustMe-px9qy]

I don’t pick up on that. I think he sincerely loves and cherishes her.

[@sweetstacks3631]

Jordan is so condescending and mean to her. If my husband said those kinds of things to me, I would absolutely call him out. Adding on after listening to her unaliving attempt: I feel for her, because that's a horrible feeling that I've experienced way too much. However, and maybe I interpreted this wrong, but saying she'd go to hell if she went through with it? Holy shit, that makes me furious. My religious mother said the same shit, and it's damaged me so much. My win for the week: I scheduled an eye exam and a psychiatrist appointment! Especially amazing, because I've been in a bad depressive spot for a couple months.

[@Justkelseyagain]

Omg yes!!! I’m so proud of you!! Making those appointments are so freaking hard. You got this!

[@ashlovemore]

Same thing that happened to Brittany happened to me at age 5 (except it was a male friend of the same age). It is called peer sexual abuse and it’s not normal. Child psychologists have found that young children touching themselves is a natural, innate behavior, but young children touching others is a learned behavior. Children who have been abused themselves or witnessed abuse (or pornography) will act out what they have learned on others. It impacted me severely throughout my life so I relate to her about that. I am by no means a fan of hers but I want to validate her abuse story.

[@NissaMaezHartman]

I'm deleting my original reply. I don't think I want my personaltrauma stories floating around on the internet (and frankly, I triggered myself). I don't think anyone would try to invalidate her story; I empathize with her and your struggle , I just wanted to clarify that others are not trying to excuse bad behavior the way she is. She needs therapy to help her cope, not a big audience.

[@thecheekyambipom5730]

Im so sorry that happend girl :( you're so much more than what happend to you and Jesus always loves you no matter what you've done or what has been done to you and you're really goregous!!!! 😁😁😁😁

[@ashlovemore]

@@thecheekyambipom5730 you’re so sweet 🥹

[@marleneflanagan7137]

In my opinion, if Brit's mouth is moving, she lying.

[@BlessedMomfmTexas]

FACTS!! BRITNEY IS A FRAUD. SHE JUST GOT DONE BEING SUED BY THE STATE OF TEXAS FOR A LOT OF MONEY. SHE MAKES ME ILL.

[@ImmaURq]

the way she describes her moments of pain are so cinematic.

[@Outrageous86]

Yes I was struggling with finding a word. Specifically when she talks about depression and suicidal ideation.

[@jenmeyer1960]

She says she lost her management and team once that video from Cassidy went live. Yet in her testimony she claims she was doing it all herself and hiring help never crossed her mind. Any of this is hard to believe.

[@kait3863]

They both sound like they hate themselves and each other. That's really sad, and I hope they can receive real help and get to a better place.

[@amycnews1593]

I just have a hard time believing her. She places the blame on everyone instead of taking accountability for HER actions. I want proof, receipts, etc. Where was this “honesty” 2-3 years ago?

[@cj5021]

My win for the week is loving my new job and classroom that I get to set up tomorrow! Can’t wait to watch the vid B💟💟☮️

[@Danib81000]

I couldn’t agree more. Even the constant reference to “addictive personality” is bothering me. I feel like she’s working very very hard to justify and minimize anything bad she’s done. With this new addictive personality narrative it’s giving her another excuse as to why things aren’t her fault. I honestly feel like a lot of us have addictive personalities and we’re still responsible for our actions

[@mickyo7171]

There is a time when folks realize what they did/said/behaved and a time when they did not realize it.

[@mickyo7171]

@@Danib81000sometimes you just have to say, I did X, and I was wrong. I am so sorry. It’s great if the person accepts the apology, but if they do not, it’s their issue .

[@Danib81000]

@@mickyo7171 I couldn’t agree more. That should havd been her complete statement on the matter. I’m so sorry I let this happen. I’ve learned and I’ve grown from this. And it’s the last I’ll be speaking on it, with the conclusion of the case it’s time to move on. Instead of a 5 part series justifying her actions

[@jjanon2371]

Not trying to take away from an experience that BD found hurtful and traumatic, but to anyone reading this... It is perfectly normal for children (even 6 yr olds) to touch themselves and to be curious about other kids bodies without EVER having heard of sx. Adults must educate their kids about their bodies and about boundaries, so that their kids don't unknowingly cross lines with others, or get taken advantage of. I am so sorry for anyone who went through a phase of discovery very young, whether it was by yourself or with another young friend and who now looks at it as a terrible sin that put you on the wrong path. Also, sx ed, PLEASE!!! Why don't these same conservatives see that teaching their little ones before they even go to school a little bit about their bodies can save them from moments of embarrassment and confusion? It's not going to turn your child into a "sinner". If you do it right it will protect your child and other children from dangerous situations.

[@lollymac2259]

Yes! Thank you. This happened to me twice as a child with 2 different slightly older boys. I don’t think they were anything but curious and I don’t feel damaged. I did grow up and make sure my own kids knew they had body autonomy and nobody has the right to touch them. I feel like she crafts stories out of things that happen to many of us. She does have the right to feel however she does. It just does not come across as authentic.

[@carriepinkduck]

Sleep paralysis is now a demonic attack!? Also, it's not second, third, etc eating disorder. It's one disorder that she has relapsed with multiple times. Therapy and programs can help where religion can't.

[@beckanee]

Bingo! 💯

[@sabrinacalleja7219]

Hey Carrie yes, actually. It can be demonic. It's true.

[@gowest5145]

God can help with an eating disorder. God took mine away and that was over 40 years ago and it has not come back.

[@donkichonky]

I experience sleeping paralysis and the figure I see ain't human or nice. It is this dark entity that tries to crush me and has red eyes and I also believe it is demonic. It is really scary and the only thing that helps is thinking of Jesus and asking for his help but imo anyone can believe what they want. I believe he pulls me out of it and saves me everytime and that helps me. 😊 Hopefully it keeps working for me in the future.

[@jesssnerch]

Well she sometimes looks like a sleep paralysis demon, maybe it’s not BD, maybe it a BDD (Britney Dawn Demon) that took over her body when she was treating her body like an an amusement park.

[@anachoshox1562]

The amount of times they say babe I can't help but think of the dinner party episode of the office 😂

[@sseunni]

THAT ONE NIGHT (ONE NIGHT), YOU MADE EVERYTHING ALRIIIIIGHT 🗣️🎤🎶

[@kiman6]

I would love to hear more about your relationship with Christianity/ religion as well. Hearing you talk about wanting to hear more about Brittany after finding god and all that made me more interested in your journey as well.

[@melissasnotsureaboutthis]

Win for the week: I finished my children’s book!😊

[@alexiabliese8935]

I feel bad for BD like I do for serial killers that have had a messed up childhood. Sad. Bummer. But you’re still responsible for those you’ve hurt. If I don’t take that stance I’m a part of the problem. I’m giving excuses and not empathy. Empathy is not the absence of accountability.

[@VinceOConnor]

"Empathy is not the absence of accountability." Exactly this!

[@melaniexoxo]

Wow comparing her or her situation to a serial killer is pretty disgusting. How is that even parallel. (It’s not)

[@alexiabliese8935]

@@melaniexoxo LOL! That’s what you got from this? You’re as dense as she is. I was CLEARLY speaking abt her not taking responsibility for hurting ppl by coming up with bunk ass excuses. Try again.

[@FeministCatLadySpinster]

I do feel sorry for what Brittany has gone through (though I do suspect she tweeks the stories a bit to make them more "testimony worthy"... but that's just my opinion based on her track record), but part of me wonders if these tearful openings with Jordan are to present herself as a fragile, emotional woman who shouldn't be judged too harshly for past actions.

[@shistyWolf]

I noticed her accent was a lot stronger at the beginning with him

[@fredbarnesjr.1044]

I dont, she knows what she’s doing she’s a sociopath

[@kait3863]

I think you hit the nail on the head!

[@BHaney]

I’m on the same page as you! I definitely have questions about some of the smaller details (like her not owning a Bible in 2019 despite posting clips of her reading from a Bible in 2018 but who knows maybe she got rid of that one at some point) but I’m sure she has gone through difficult things in her life which were tough to deal with.

[@AVx00]

This was perfectly put.

[@pinkysaurusrawr]

The way that she is always always mentioning that Jordan is her biggest supporter gives me off vibes. When we hear Jordan talking about / to her, he is often really not supportive (i.e. beautiful disaster). I have had someone in my life who really tore me down, but I would tell you they were my greatest supporter. It was my coping mechanism for dealing with the fact that someone I loved wasn't treating me right. I may be way off base, but the way these two interact reminded me of that.

[@Justkelseyagain]

I think you’re completely right. She thinks his nasty/backhanded/belittling comments are sweet, funny, and loving. But maybe that’s just how delusional she really is, and if so, makes sense why she was able to follow through with so many awful things for so long.

[@Spugglebug]

Every time they say “babe” back and forth to each other the only thing I can see is Micheal and Jan in “The Dinner Party” episode of The Office 😅

[@megans.6663]

Oh my goooosh. At the end when Jordan started saying “I’m proud of you…” I was like aww at least that’s sweet that he recognizes how hard this was for her… aaand then “that you kept it to 45 min”💀 I died laughing though because I made the same face you did when he said that, B😂 I’m all for the roasting love but there is a time and a place and that was not it!

[@damanipage5990]

I spoke Chinese twice to two different people in order to help them. i was so nervous but inspired to study harder! I've been studying Chinese for 6 years but never been to China.

[@gwendolyncordero2173]

My win for the week. I marinated chicken for the first time and made garlic confit for it also for the first time. And it turned out sooo good 😋

[@AuntJutRuns]

PS: this confession she has about her childhood experience is something a lot of people have experienced after going to a recovery influenced by Evangelical Christianity. Specifically with conversion therapy. They really press people to find an experience such as what she shared and turn it into a trauma. Anyway, this just mirrors what I have heard over and over from fellow LGBTQ people share in Evangelical Circles growing up.

[@Outrageous86]

So odd. My church is Evangelical and they don’t have conversion therapy or press people to have testimonies. That’s awful those establishments exist

[@AuntJutRuns]

@@Outrageous86 I would have to know what evangelical church you attend. Overall, Evangelical Christianity is informed by transformative testimony. It is hallmark. I would guess but can be wrong, it is reframed in your church. Or could possibly be Progressive which is still influenced by testimony and experience. None of this is wrong, on balance but does have large damaging affects on minorities.

[@AuntJutRuns]

@@Outrageous86 and it does suck they exist. They exist and thrive. Just sad.

[@gowest5145]

Evangelicals are not real christians

[@betsywilliamsonasmr]

I am so sad to hear Brittney discuss mental health issues as the devils work and the way her mom handled it. As for the sexual situation she dealt with as a child it seems like she has never really dealt with it. I am sure she won’t but I wish she would seek out therapy. There are licensed professionals who specialize in religious therapy. I am studying clinical psych now and one of my professors not only has a PhD in clinical psych but also a masters in theology. In her private practice she will provide Christian based counseling if that is what the client wants. Also, sleep paralysis is not a demonic attack, it happens when your longitudinal sleep pattern changes. Like if you work over night or rotate shift so the times of day/night you work changes. When science can give you the answer to an experience it is not a demonic attack. Well as a non-Christian I would say there is no such thing. Statements like this are harmful.

[@Outrageous86]

My ex boyfriend used to experience sleep paralysis after many days of drug use. So maybe that is still apart of the sleep pattern changing maybe?

[@andreakevresian1429]

I wonder if these experiences (particularly what she describes as addiction to masturbation, promiscuity, watching p*rn, etc) would have been so traumatic for her were it not for the shame she was indoctrinated into by her religious beliefs. And that doesn't make it any less painful for her, it's just that she's continuing to perpetuate that shame by saying crap like masturbating invites demons into you 🤦🏼‍♀️ ***Masturbation is a normal part of development. In the medical world you learn that that type of self exploration can start as young as 4 years old, and it's perfectly normal. You aren't dirty, you aren't bad, you aren't a sinner because you masturbate.

[@sweetstacks3631]

This! Exploration is normal for kids. If they know something feels good and they're in a safe environment, then they're going to keep doing the thing. I honor the fact that she was affected deeply, but I agree that her upbringing likely had a huge influence on her shame. Along with that, I really wonder if her church took that situation and twisted it into a trauma, or projected that shame onto something that's part of development.

[@shistyWolf]

I had a youth leader say he had an addiction to p0rne. I turned away from the church as a teen. Now, as an adult who has processed their religious trauma (realizing how stressful going to church was because of the judgement and shame from others and the adamant teachings, among other things) I would say that my youth leader probably had a normal curiosity that everyone has, but because it’s a “sin” to explore yourself, he was allowed to tell jr. high/high schoolers that it’s an “addiction” and they should feel shame.

[@DevHazy]

Fact

[@hava4587]

Masturbation and porn got me demons. Having sex with demonic entities in my sleep is not normal. I was only get freed from the torments once I recognized the problem and repented of it! May your eyes be opened to the realities of the spirit realm.

[@maria.x]

She's just as addicted to Jesus (not in a good way) as she was to fitness in my opinion. Her addictive personality is still there, its just addicted to religion and righteousness now.

[@marleneflanagan7137]

YES! this 100%. This happened to my cousin. He kicked a drug habit and picked up a Jesus habit. The Jesus habit has stuck for more than 25 years, so I think he's a lifer.

[@katiephillips1523]

YES. And it will lead to destruction and disappointment. She’s also addicted to attention and cannot fathom a life outside of being online because she wouldn’t be able to get the fix.

[@user-zm4fv3de5c]

Somebody said it. Say it louder girl, thank you.

[@nicnacsnonsense]

I also didn't like the way her story ended with "and then I found Jesus and after that nothing was ever the same again" but for a different reason. To me it just reeks of a way to avoid having to take accountability for her actions. Specifically/especially in the way she describes herself as instantly becoming a totally different person. It feels very much to me like she's saying you aren't allowed to be mad at her or hold her past actions regarding her fitness business against her anymore because she's a different person now. But rather than showing she's different through her actions or even explaining how she came to understand what she did in the past was wrong, her only explanation for how she's different now is just Jesus. (And this isn't to dismiss anyone who did have a literal come to Jesus moment that changed their life for the better; there's just a huge difference between "I had a spiritual moment that inspired me to improve myself and my life with Jesus as my guide" and "I had a spiritual moment and immediately afterward I was a completely different person and everything was completely different forever.")

[@Meganec3810]

Girl your hair and makeup are on point!

[@TaylorX3]

I live by the "philosophy" that: you are not responsible for the things that happened to you but you are responsible to move on. I'm about 3/4 through and so far its her friends fault, the world's/Dallas fault and demonic force fault. At what point is it her fault? Also shouldn't she be grateful for the downfall of the "fitness era" because without that she would still be popping pills, lying and "sheet tumbling"? I feel bad for 6 year old Brittany but not 25 year old Brittany and definitely not 32 year old Brittany.

[@marleneflanagan7137]

My win for the week: We are seasonal campers. We moved to a new campground this year where we know no one. This past Friday our area experienced strong storms. A freak gust of wind blew our camper's awning out of it's brackets an onto the roof. The following morning, a bunch of people we did not know showed up unasked and helped us get this heavy and dangerous awning off our camper roof and wound up again. Then they invited us for Bloody Marys. Amazing!

[@BHaney]

That is so cool they came to help you!! I love when people show up for others out of pure kindness 💛 hope the bloody Mary’s were delicious 😋

[@haleyhopes5774]

As a fellow camper I completely understand just how big of a deal that dealing with an awning like that is! I’m SO glad that people showed up to help like that.

[@marleneflanagan7137]

@@BHaney there's nothing like day drinking after a hard morning's work!

[@marleneflanagan7137]

@@haleyhopes5774 me too! It was a miracle that the awning fabric was not ripped, the cylinder was not bent, the TV antenna was undamaged and the A/C was ok too as well as the roof. One of the bracket arms was damaged, but that's it!

[@daneesledge1626]

“Beautiful disaster”. Dang that’s awful. As someone who is a bit of an ADHD creative whirlwind myself who married a man who finds my quirks cute, I get the idea of being loved not just despite your personality quirks but because of them, but calling someone a beautiful disaster isn’t that. That’s a jab and it makes me sad 11:09

[@kstromm6361]

Her voice is so faked and reminds me of the different voices I put on to teach yoga or to teach barre. And she LOVES the way it sounds.

[@fitpixie]

Because she has proven herself to be untrustworthy, I agree with you that the vagueness to which she tells her testimony makes her authenticity questionable.

[@Autopilot7389]

When Brittany does her apology video in 2019 she says she “had no help had to do it all on her own” but now she’s saying she had management and a team which she lost “in the first 2 hours after the prank video went live” I’m confused??

[@marleneflanagan7137]

Don't be. She's a pathological liar.

[@victorial8764]

Omgosh B. You are so right. The after of becoming a Christian is so important. I almost lost my faith and became super depressed because people told me Jesus was like a magic wand and he isn’t. The Christian life is hard and trusting God in it is not a happy instagram reel. The thing is there is joy in the pain and things we can access and experience in the pain is amazing but there is STILL pain. We are not immune. Thanks for saying that. 😊

[@TheDevilsDaughter47]

I get sooo excited when I leave work and see that you’ve posted a new video, B. I hope you enjoyed your vacation! I hope it was equal parts relaxing and rejuvenating. My win for the week is that I accepted a new job that I start next month! 🥰 Happy Wednesday everyone!

[@NissaMaezHartman]

Congratulations on your new job!! 👏

[@AubsBobs]

I put in my two weeks notice at my current job and am moving to a job with healthier workplace culture :)

[@UdoADHD]

Brittany’s story reminds me why you HAVE to teach your kids about this stuff and to say no and to tell your parents. Kids who have been abused will turn around an abuse other kids. A six year old touching another six year old is huge indication of a problem.

[@pinkysaurusrawr]

You speak about things with such tangible compassion, I really admire it. The way you responded to Brittany sharing the story of what happened in her young childhood - I'm having trouble finding the right words, but it was empathetic in that way that is really affecting.

[@hanatemonstas4485]

Re: Brittany’s “I’m just a poor wuttle thing without my Jordy 🥺” This feels how she gets around the “repentance” side of her past mistakes. Putting herself down and showing how she relies on a man and her husband, compared to her “heathen” self who owned a business and scammed people. The “thanks Eve” is very telling.

[@itsnotrounditsapyramid]

Wow your waves are ON POINT, just started what I'm sure will be a wild video, thought I'd just comment that before I get lost in the vid and forget to say it 😂

[@rachaela5834]

My win for the week is Friday is our 10 year wedding anniversary!

[@marleneflanagan7137]

Happy Anniversary!

[@cinaprncess]

Happy anniversary!!!

[@julessmith7480]

There is one glaring detail missing from her testimony: REPENTANCE FROM SIN! Where is her acknowledgement of being a sinner? That is the sole reason we need Jesus Christ.

[@Melora84]

Don’t forget that she’s yet to apologize and refund the money from the women she’s scammed. All well and good to say that God’s forgiven her, but she still stole money and has yet to make up for it.

[@lollymac2259]

The whisper voice and Christianese comes across as very inauthentic. I’m like you, I need details, the details she gives never match up. You spilled a bottle of hundreds of pills? Was it a Costco size bottle of benedryl? Just none of the little details check out for me. I hope she finds or has a good therapist. I feel like that would be a better spot to work out her problems than the internet. I know counseling has changed my life.

[@stubbs3023]

Whenever she says “the enemy” I am imagining an evil cartoon villain???

[@vanessam3195]

I really appreciate you saying that masturbation is natural, not sinful. We gotta stop shaming children, teenagers, and grown adults for this. Can you imagine being a child who has been touching themselves since before they can even remember, and then later being told that it's sinful, dirty, and affects salvation?! Horrible.

[@elizabethjoy3830]

Jordan is so rude to her. I can’t stand it. I wouldn’t let my husband talk to me like that (he never would). It actually makes me feel pretty bad for her, it’s like she has no idea how she should be treated.

[@kierstenhale763]

Win for the week: (as per usual, it’s about my bebe) little one is now sleeping in her own room, in her crib instead of her bassinet in our room. I only cried a little bit.

[@BHaney]

Aww what a big transition💛 I hope you’re all doing well with it!!

[@caraschwegman5462]

My win for the week is that I got to buy a bunch of stuff for my dorm today.

[@BellaJoASMR]

It’s such a fine line to criticize people’s experiences in this area, but her constant posts (while click baiting that she’s speaking for the first time) just feels like monetized sad-fishing. and just continuing her love of living in her “I’m a victim, always” mindset. It just feels like she’s working to create trauma in her life where it doesn’t exist. And I feel sad that she feels the need to do that (either consciously or subconsciously) to do that for social media content. Thank you for covering these!

[@laurence.d.a]

I audibly giggled when she said that masturbation invites demons in. Like... what DOESN'T invite demons at this point, according to her?! 😂😩

[@cj5021]

My win for the week is loving my new job and classroom that I get to set up tomorrow! Can’t wait to watch the video, B☮️💟

[@SamanthaWendy]

My win for the week is again about my amazing puppy. She's finally fully vaccinated, and we can take her out to explore the world! Just need this Phoenix heat to chill so we don't all die trying to have fun outside 😂

[@carolinedoctor1246]

Random, but your makeup and hair look really pretty today! :D

[@LesleyStancher]

Yessssssss.....

[@jennahart84]

Yes! Her face is ✨ glowing ✨🤩

[@BHaney]

Thank you! ☺️

[@emmaspeight5933]

Ok, I can't actually bring myself to listen to her podcast, the ONLY way it's palatable is for me to listen to you.

[@hanatemonstas4485]

Jordan: *sings* Brittany: Beautiful, babe 🥰 Brittany: *sings* Jordan: Oh GAWD! Make it stop.

[@sadieweldes7253]

I would really like to know what she means by the “Dallas lifestyle”? I’ve lived in Dallas and have family there, and it has some of the most wholesome, kindest people. It also is a very religious city. So I’m super confused by that comment. Also, my high of the week is that my bff turns 30 on Friday and we’re getting dressed up and going out for a nice dinner to celebrate 🎉

[@thetrailwalkers]

Same!! Im in NM and wondered what she meant by this!!

[@saratexas5181]

She must have Sunday brunched too hard?? Haha Dallas is so chill.

[@AmandaPaige71]

My win for the week is being approved for my hip replacement surgery. ❤ I'm ever so thankful and grateful. Now I need the blood work that I had done to come back acceptable to be fully cleared. Fingers crossed 🤞 and palms together 🙏 that happens soon!

[@johanncai5184]

I just discovered you & it was an EASY decision to "subscribe" Loving your content from what I've seen so far!

[@BHaney]

Thank you so much! I’m glad to have you here 💛

[@victorial8764]

Trigger warning: Not going to your parents is normal. I didn’t go to mine at first. My nephew didn’t go to my sister and he is 7. We feel shame and don’t want to tell no matter how much we trust or love our parents. My parents never shamed me. Eventually I told my babysitter and she told my parents. I knew she would but it helped having a middle person. I was 7 and some guy exposed himself to a few of us. Hope he’s in jail. Also, I do believe we invite evil with sin. We give ground to the devil because in sin we are choosing that. The Bible says to train in obedience. It’s more important than training just our bodies. Because obedience produces life here and in heaven. So sin produces death. Constantly masturbating and being promiscuous and dressing half naked for attention from anyone is sad and a hard life for most people. They may say it’s not but their hearts are hardened or they are lukewarm.I’m not perfect but I’ve been studying the word and obedience invites the Lord’s protection and goodness and helps us have a real relationship, we are taught in the Bible if we truly love God we keep his commandments. There is just too much in the Bible for a Christian to be okay with sexual sin. It even says you sin against the Holy Spirit in you and grieve him with it. It is what it is. I want to make love to my fiancée but we decided to stop. To truly invite God into our relationship. NOT been perfect but we are trying. I write that part because I don’t want to be one of those Christians that shame others just speaking the words of the Bible. It’s hard stuff. Surrendering it all and not trying to be cool with everything is not easy. It’s way easier to use worldly wisdom to explain it away. I don’t know what’s up with her but I know she is a baby Christen and it takes a while to realize there are gray areas as well. So all that said please know if you seek God with all your heart HE will tell you what you need to do to be obedient. For her, she wanted to be free from all that. Could be anything for anyone. It’s a personal relationship in Christianity.

[@caffeinatedangel]

I don't agree with Jordan's statement that if she hadn't have been in Dallas, she wouldn't have made the connection with Jesus because of that church. God is BIGGER than our locations, it was evident, He was trying to reach her. He would have found her and met her where she was at, no matter where in the world she was.

[@EveMeansLively]

As an Eve... that opening chat felt a little personal lol

[@bunayaka]

"masturbation invites demons in" some people would love to invite a demon into their intimate sessions LMAO

[@deejbaby]

Me, I’m “some people” 😏😂

[@pinkysaurusrawr]

Brittany sort of brushed past her comment that she would have gone to hell if she had died by suicide, and I was hoping you'd take a moment to address it. I can't imagine being a listener of her podcast who had lost a loved on to suicide, and hearing Brittany basically say that person has gone to hell. I'm not a Christian, and I don't know how most Christians feel about saying something like that, but I find it really haunting and heartbreaking, and somewhat cruel

[@BHaney]

When she said that I took it to mean that she would be in hell because at that time in her life she wasn’t living like a Christian should in her opinion, not that she would be condemned for dying by suicide. Because I heard it that way, I didn’t think to address it but I can definitely see how you heard it the way you did. There are a lot of religious people who do believe suicide is sin though so that could have been what she was implying and if that is the case I HEAVILY disagree with that perspective.

[@pinkysaurusrawr]

@@BHaney Thanks so much for the reply! Your interpretation makes a lot of sense

[@notheothersarah]

Very tasteful commentary

[@wurdnurd1]

Her storytelling reminds me of a Hallmark/Lifetime movie...

[@deannanewman7965]

Idk if it's the lighting, hair, or makeup but you look so pretty and glowy 😍

[@daneesledge1626]

Having worked in evangelical spaces for decades, this kind of testimony used to be so popular but in the end it gives more detail and credit to the enemy than to Jesus. It’s a sensationalized tactic to make the teller the center of the story instead of Jesus

[@openlybookish]

Bingo. Guessing BD is possibly a narcissist.

[@colonelweird]

I don't know a lot about Brittany Dawn, but speaking as a Christian myself, I think there are good reasons to view her testimony in this podcast with skepticism. I can't read her mind, of course, but there are all kinds of red flags here. She combines a tone of sincerity & deep emotion with a lot of jargon from her corner of the Christian universe, but I see very little real vulnerability in her words. The worst sins and traumas she names are connected to very ordinary sexual behavior, but she implies a lot worse happened, but never actually says what that was. But she adds "demons" to the mix, so we should conclude it was really, really serious, right? Yeah, no, I don't think so. The absence of vulnerability means that her account of accepting of Christ never rises above the level of spiritual cliches. And that creates the possibility that she's really most interested in creating an image of piety above all. But if her testimony comes off as possibly insincere, does it nevertheless offer anything of value for listeners? Is it theologically sound? Does it describe the spiritual life as it actually is? Is there anything we can apply to our lives? I think the answer is clearly no. Everything she presents is too superficial to have much value. And as you note, she has nothing to say about the difficulties of living as a Christian after her acceptance of Jesus. And for people going through genuine trauma, or true repentance, I think this kind of testimony would just lead them down a dead end spiritually. But as I said, I can't read her mind. Maybe this really is her version of sincerity. But I can definitely read my own mind, and as I listened to this, it kept shouting in my ear: Warning! Warning! This sounds fake! For whatever that's worth. 🙂

[@DimaRakesah]

Agreed. It feels like she is still performing, but convinced herself it's different this time because of the outside influence of religion. This time she is changing her behavior for god/jesus, not her own selfish wants, so now it's somehow more sincere. I'm not sure she knows how to live without performing for outside approval.

[@colleen.g]

Eww. She reeeeeks of "Ok, but you have no idea: it was so much harder on me to inexplicably, unaccountably find myself in the super sad season of being a total scammer than it was on you to be scammed by myself!!! 😭"

[@amycnews1593]

And honestly, I’d give anything to have a “radical” encounter with Jesus. I feel abandoned and here she is flaunting it, and all the blessings she has... in my opinion.

[@Autopilot7389]

As someone who has followed Brittany Dawn for years. Her “radical encounter” story has changed several time. The location of where it happened and what physically happed is what changes. Honestly i think it’s either a total lie or an EXTREMELY exaggerated story… You have something special that no one else in the whole world does. You’re here for a reason, please be gentle on yourself while you figure out what it is…it took me almost 30 years to discover mine…

[@katiephillips1523]

Not every encounter with Jesus is a Damascus Road moment. It doesn’t lessen the experience of those who had a gentler beginning. Jesus is for everyone.

[@shistyWolf]

I think your curiosity of wanting to know more about the story is totally normal. As long as people are respectful of what others feel comfortable with sharing, there’s no foul. That’s what I tell myself, at least.

[@AVx00]

THANK YOU for saying how masterbating shouldn’t be such a problem. That part just bothered me to hear her say how much in her testimony video when she talks about this about how ‘bad’ she was, how she emphasized on how that was a sin. That’s wrong in so many ways. It’s a natural thing as a human . She was young, and then she did that when she was single, so what. That’s ridiculous to think of that and feel ‘soooo bad’ for it.

[@sabrinacalleja7219]

It's is demonic oppression. The devil can enter in your life in a lot of ways masturbation is natural I know but it's is a sin. Demons DONT want you to believe anything is a sin.

[@kay-bc3vl]

This soft spoken little girl voice she has sound very performative and it makes her story not sound as genuine. Also, she takes no accountability for her actions. She was only going out to eat w men for food because she was “broken”? Mmm no, sounds like you were just taking advantage of people. There are people at rock bottom who have a moral compass enough to not treat people like that.

[@loafiest]

Her comments about modesty give a very "rules for thee, but not for me" tone, whether she intends it or not. The underlying communication there seems to be that when she wears a bikini, it's fine because she knows she's not "doing it for the wrong reasons", but if other people wear a bikini, they're doing for attention and deserve reprimand.

[@daniellejohnson1956]

Also, B, you called it with Jordan becoming "cohost"!

[@schmetterlingxox3096]

I'm no fan of Brittany Dawn but I can relate to her experience. I also experienced sexual trauma as a child and this resulted in daily self-touching well into my adulthood. I would do it whenever I was depressed, sad, or scared, and it was a source of comfort and release for me. This later led to a life where I felt no sense of agency over my body and allowed myself to be used by men repeatedly because I felt that I couldn't say no and wanted them to love me. I thought that by giving them my body they would want to be with me. When God saved me, I too quit self-touching and have never returned to it since. I understand that some argue that it isn't a sin because it hasn't been explicitly stated as such in the Bible. However, it CAN be a very toxic behavior for many that stems from early trauma and opens doors to greater hurt. So, I understand what Brittany means about that behavior opening you up to demons, whether they be literal or mental demons.

[@Fluffybunny233]

Honestly they both talk so slow I can’t stand it I always have to watch these at double speed haha. Thanks for covering her videos ❤

[@foreverwander0320]

The “identity” thing is interesting. Growing up “finding yourself” was made fun of as a “worldly” thing. “Our identity was in Christ” and there was a pre-set list of beliefs and actions that one must have. Questions or deviation were punished. As an adult in therapy I’m realizing that I never really went through the “forming of identity” period that’s supposed to happen in youth. I taught myself that my own conscience was broken (I would feel that something was wrong, but because my feelings were contrary to the beliefs in my family I believed I simply wasn’t “spiritual enough”). I have an incredibly hard time making decisions or trusting myself because I forced myself to to against my own intuition for so long. I would feel “icky” in certain situations but go along with them anyway. It led to some very unsafe situations. Anyway, all that to say the “find my identity in Christ” phrasing always brings up anxiety for me. I’m learning to trust my own inner voice… which as a Christian feels contrary to what I was taught (our wisdom is foolishness etc) but I’m making progress.

[@haydenanderson9912]

Super excited to find a B Dawn reaction channel 😂🤌🏻

[@BHaney]

Glad to have you here! ☺️

[@msriannbakes]

SO sorry you ended up with that corrupt video file... I would have ripped my hair out! Thanks so much for uploading regardless and making it work. I figured something had ended up happening but I'm super happy to hear it was just a one-time thing, because your beautiful face makes the Brittany Dawn rambling much easier.

[@rivendells_shona]

“I suck, you suck, thanks *Eve* “….?!?!? Read Genesis 3:17 or I Corinthians 15:22 lately, Jordan? Romans 5:12? Eve may have been deceived and sinned first, but Scripture clearly and consistently puts the blame on Adam for bringing sin into the world. Know your Bibles well, people! Especially if you want to be a public representative of the faith. 💀

[@lgparker4263]

I think something super frustrating is that even when talking about want to unalive, a moment where she COULD have taken meaningful accountability for what she had done, she didn’t. Like. She was driven to that low place by her own actions. What a beautiful moment of redemption and repentance if she just admitted that. “I WAS scamming people. I was hurting people and it finally all caught up to me and drove me to the darkest moment of my life… and then Jesus saved me. Something I couldn’t do on my own” But she can’t admit it. It’s everyone else fault that she was in that dark deep despair. She’s the victim and she refuses to see how her actions got her there. There would have been nothing to expose if she hadn’t don’t anything wrong. It’s just. So. Frustrating. And people like her are why I question the validity of Christianity… and I’m a Christian 😂 Like. They say it changed them and saved them but then there’s no accountability and they keep on living with a whole lot of hate in their heart towards other people. Idk man. I’m glad she lived. I really am. It’s hard for me to feel bad for her though.

[@saratexas5181]

It took a year or two away from church to realized “struggling with m****rbation” was a really weird phrase.

[@UdoADHD]

She says “I think” about the Bible quotes because there are A LOT of nit picky Christian’s who will comment “ACTUALLY ITS NOT IN REVELATIONS BUT BLAH BLAH” so she says “I think” because she wants to reference the Bible without the zealot backlash

[@sallyostling]

I just sincerely know they are TOTALLY different people when no one is looking. That man has problems and obviously BD is crazy. Her podcast is "chiseled" and called. Please.

[@vanessam3195]

I feel bad for saying this, in case her natural voice really is that timid and tiny, but I HATE the way she speaks like a scared, tiny little bunny rabbit. 😂

[@mikkilynnlarese8312]

Jordan is literally so mean! I get that Brittany isn't the best girl but it annoys me he always puts her down! He just seems like such a dingus

[@catiefayesmith7567]

Your hair and makeup look great! Clearly I'm here for depth

[@openlybookish]

It comes across like a martyr complex focusing so much on the before and only giving a little bit of the afterwards part.

[@RobAGabor]

One of my wins for the week was getting to see the New Zealand band The Beths live!

[@brendaperrottarealtor]

Oh my word. I’m like 5 minutes maybe into her actual podcast (14 minutes on your video) and I’m exhausted. And honestly Jordan sounds exhausted! He’s said in different ways like 4 times to freakin start already. Ughhh she’s so dramatic it’s frustrating.

[@keeleehudson]

Christianity seems like spiritual bypassing. I’ve been in trauma therapy for 3 yrs., and having to face every single traumatic moment I’ve ever experienced has been the most difficult thing I’ve ever had to do. It seems like Christians just say screw the hard work Ima just start worshipping God and He’ll deal w/it bc I’m bathed in the blood of Christ..

[@pituk08]

I wonder… when she throws a stinky fart does she thinks that is demonic? Allegedly 😂

[@caffeinatedangel]

There are a lot of problems with the way Jordan digs at her and accuses her of things - but one of the several things that bothered me about his "free meals" comment was that he made that dig right after they had just finished discussing that she had slipped into her THIRD EATING DISORDER.

[@moonbat783]

I'm very sympathetic, like I'll feel your pain for you. I felt nothing hearing her talk. If any of this really happened to her, shame on me but it was like watching a high school play. Like she knew what is should look and sound like but the emotions wasn't quite there.