Do I Regret Transitioning/Top Surgery??? - A RANT

[@MxMorphling]

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[@theharshtruthoutthere]

kzbin.info/www/bejne/iWWkZ62kjM-cqbM kzbin.info/www/bejne/pmfEdWiuq9-Knsk In reality of what you are dealing with is both: childhood traumas (we all have these) and having got hurt from life in general. Sadly, we all are raise up in illusions and to believe in differed illusions. Starting to NOTICE SATAN IN DETAILS = LIFE CHANGED FOREVER. Cause once our eyes and ears are truly open, it is becomes almost impossible to close these again and take a step back into our slumber. Our “waking up” is made easy even by our enemies, the master of the freemasons, satan himself, give us all a clue, through 2 names: Albert Mackey and Manly P. Hall. Seek out these qoutes, these 2 have told. (it`s always have been about READING BIBLE, PRAYING AND EXPOSING FREEMASONRY). Yes, we all are called to be sober minded : Titus 2:6 | View whole chapter | See verse in context Young men likewise exhort to be sober minded. Romans 8:6 | View whole chapter | See verse in context For to be carnally minded is death; but to be spiritually minded is life and peace. James 1:8 | View whole chapter | See verse in context A double minded man is unstable in all his ways. 1 Peter 5:8 “Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walketh about, seeking whom he may devour:” It is heart-breaking to hear, what you think and say about CHRIST, for HE is the one who came to set an example of how to live, and He was the only one who were WILLING to die for us. That is the ultimate love and also what REAL CHRISTIANITY is all about: BE WILLING TO GIVE UP YOUR LIFE FOR THE SAKE OF OTHERS. and no, here ain´t meant commit suicide or get yourself killed. What is meant here is: have not a mindset like the freemasons have, for they do think that they are both, godlike beings and can become a god themselves, sadly DECEIVED they are the deepest. baphomet, their god, the one they serve, the false god, BIBLE warns about. Be wise and serve not the old devil, who came to corrupt us all. I truly hope and pray also, that your mind and heart shall go through a change and the hunger for truth/knowledge shall be found in you also, like it were found in me. We are not "just our carnal bodies", no, we are all SPIRIT beings also. Created in 3 part. SPIRIT + SOUL + BODY. To keep my comment small enough i rather share some EMAILS with you, to whom you can get contact and have some answers cleared out even more. I may be a little help, but sadly not enough. For even i am still on the walk of learning. All i can say is, what the world says about CHRISTIANITY is not true at all, for they deceive themselves and others by confusing themselves and others with Catholicism - for it is just a religion, a made up story like any other : Hinduism and Buddhism and atheism and new age - erism and i don´t know more the names of many fairy tales. Here are the e - mails: Email me: [e-mail] Email me at [e-mail] email me at biblicaltypology [e-mail] EMAIL ME AT: [e-mail] Still celebrating all the earthly and wicked holidays (xmas, thanksgiving, halloween and more),then you are a FAKE Christian and have not idea what being a CHRIST FOLLOWER aka Christian - truly means. Dear blind soul. THERE IS GOD and there is god, = there is THE CREATOR OF ALL THINGS and there is evil fallen angel, named lucifer also. lucifer, renamed himself a satan and a baphomet, he is the false god, mankind should not serve. lucifer is the master of freemasons. Why don`t you seek out the knowledge? All is OUT THERE. Available. You have a computer and the internet, now learn to used it against satan, not allow him to use it against you. I created 12 playlists and 2 I added along, all of them have good and useful channels with truthful contest in them. Seek ye out all, one soul can seek out. For there is truly a useful information worthy to be found and accept to go on with life and make more informed choices. My own research is close to 300 pages long, therefore, yes, there is (and also as bible speaks about too) the missing knowledge that the whole mankind is unaware of. “If my people, which are called by my name, shall humble themselves, and pray, and seek my face, and turn from their wicked ways; then will I hear from heaven, and will forgive their sin, and will heal their land.” 2 Chronicles 7:14 (KJV) If you think and believed that GOD AND HIS ONLY BEGOTTEN SON: JESUS CHRIST, hates you, Then you know and have a false jesus. The real one LOVES ALL OF US, that`s why HE was willing to lay down His own life. None take it from HIM, He give it up WILLINGLY. Be aware, for false preachers for they do come and : 2 Corinthians 11:4 | View whole chapter | See verse in context For if he that cometh preacheth another Jesus, whom we have not preached, or if ye receive another spirit, which ye have not received, or another gospel, which ye have not accepted, ye might well bear with him. We worry about HUMAN RIGHTS, but the same time don´t see nor understand that: - FREE FOOD, - FREE WATER, - FREE AIR, - FREE ELECTRICITY. All these 4 are also HUMAN RIGHTS. They, the elite, the royals, see us as USELESS EATERS, lets proof them wrong, by not believing their lies. “But ye shall receive power, after that the Holy Ghost is come upon you: and ye shall be witnesses unto me both in Jerusalem, and in all Judaea, and in Samaria, and unto the uttermost part of the earth.” Acts 1:8 (KJV)

[@bombilla_x]

To be honest, i think stopping hormones IS PART of transitioning, i don't undestand why so many people have this binary idea that transitioning = going to super masc body or super fem body (aka having a body like cis people or whatever, or having a "normal" transition). I'm so glad that we have experiences like yours, to make people understand that WE ARE NONBINARY or genderfluid. I think people really doesn't understand what nonbinary or genderfluid is, even inside the trans community. its amusing. I've thinking I'm genderfluid too, i can feel like a guy but sometimes my dysphoria fluctuates and i feel more neutral, so im still thinking if hormones is the right choise for me. But I dont want to be expected to transition the way people think is "normal". I just want to be me, i dont give a fuck.

[@MxMorphling]

Yess it's like Genderfluid is just a label I use for not wanting to conform to just one all of the time but be one or two genders some of the time. Ye I get you, like I'm just me✨

[@derekb4977]

@@MxMorphling I see you as a girl and gender can't be fluid Detrans awareness is important but this insane TQ+++ labels us a cult alot of it is invented online it's a huge cult.

[@alexwitteveen7237]

I just don't understand why people care if you put breastforms on.. if they watched any of your other videos they would know you're fluid, and to me the way you do things makes sense.. it's way easier to add than to take away 😅

[@MxMorphling]

Legit I guess a lot of people are stuck in the binary mindset of one or the other and find it hard to fathom🙃🙃🙃

[@alexwitteveen7237]

@@MxMorphling it's brutal pal. I've been watching your videos for a long time, and it's been really cool watching you grow and get more comfy with yourself and your expression. Hopefully people calm tf down and let you live your best life 🥰

[@yourpalfred]

I'm so sorry you are getting hassled. It's wild to me that you're getting these questions when you say again and again in these videos that you like the versatility of a flat chest. Anyone who thinks you are detrans really has not been listening to what you're saying and how you describe yourself. It's very strange! I'm so glad you're still putting yourself out there and speaking about your experiences! 💖

[@cassiopee318]

I think some people seem to forget that stopping hormones or being androgynous doesn’t mean you’re suddenly cisgender. Taking T and having top surgery was part of your journey as much as stopping T and wearing breast forms. Transitioning doesn’t have to be one certain way forever for it to be valid ❤

[@zabecartowsky4724]

Good for you for being your authentic self. I am non-binary, not gender fluid. I love that we can finally be ourselves and that we don't really have to explain ourselves to others (unless we have a KZbin channel).

[@Gab-cd6zt]

Hey Mx I love your content so much! It’s great to hear you’re feeling happy - that’s really all that matters - that you’re empowered and intentional with your choices. I’m sorry you’re being hassled by some - keep being you, people will love you as you are 💜

[@Yahntia]

It's been a while since I've watched your videos, but this just makes... Sense? I do feel bad for detransitioners though, but mostly because their "allies" are so shitty.

[@MxMorphling]

Yeah like I dunno why people think just cause I'm stopping T means that I'm suddenly a detransitioner. I totally feel bad for em too tho cause there's so much pressure from terfs to suddenly become anti-trans if you detransition when really the community would still support and accept all those people who realised it wasn't right for them

[@Yahntia]

@@MxMorphling Yeah, but to be fair, from what I've seen they've been treated like a PR liability by large parts of the trans community (at least circa 2010 when I was really invested in this topic). It's sad, because they are the margin of error of the trans community, and should feel welcome as such.

[@hannahroedder936]

I've been on HRT for about 18 months and pass as female when I want, but for safety, at times, I can still pass as male if I wear a loose top, say when a workman I do not know is coming over and I'm home alone. My deeper voice is getting harder to do though, and this probably won't work post FFS.

[@zakbrand7354]

I'm So sorry you're being hassled. Shouldn't be your being who you are and they should be happy for you.

[@Ao456kl]

Congratulations on your uni graduation. 🍾🥂🎉🎈

[@crystallcatt]

Thank you for talking about this too. iirc I also asked a similar thing LOL but I was pre-top surgery back then, now I'm post top-surgery and I can safely say I don't regret it. In fact, just how I expected, I feel more comfy even in femme outfits now. Though I do get the bit of wanting to have detachable boobies instead LOL Anyway I'm glad you talked about the detransition topic as well. I hate how often transition is viewed as equaling being on HRT. Some people (like you or me) go on HRT and then stop, some stay forever on it, some never go on it, and all of those choices doesn't make one any more or less trans as long as one still identifies as trans (or enby). After all, being trans is first and foremost about feeling comfortable in our own bodies, however that may look like!

[@Meeko4eve39]

JUST A HEADS_UP: THIS IS AS MUCH OF A RANT AS THE VIDEO IS! READ AT YOUR OWN RISK ;) Honestly, unless someone actively started to say that they have come to the conclusion that they are not in fact trans and that they are actively making an opposite direction detransition/retransition to identifying, presenting and living as their assigned gender at birth ... Unless they actively describe and identify themselves as a detransitioner/cis... no matter what steps of (medical and/or social or even legal) transition they take/don't take/redirect ... if they don't declare themselves a detransitioner/cis, then they're NOT a detransitioner/cis and people gotta stop projecting their own assumptions onto you or other trans/nonbinary/genderfluid folks! It's also not that hard IMHO to get the idea that having had top surgery gives you the freedom to pick and choose how you wish to present yourself. Like, now that you've had top surgery having breasts is OPTIONAL rather than forced on you all the time without being able to opt-out when you need to for your own comfort/mental well-being. The only other option could have potentially been being dependent on having well-fitting binders for the rest of your life. And it's not like binding - even when you follow all the safety guidelines - is necessarily any less risky than going for top surgery instead... For someone like you (genderfluid/nonbinary/pangender) I imagine your medical transition, especially top surgery in particular, just kinda gave you back some of the freedoms of expression that we kinda all have as kids before we go through either a T-dominant or E-dominant puberty. Kids are kinda comparatively blank slates, which is why trans kids who transition when they're quite young really don't even need hormones to transition in a way that lets them be recognised as their actual gender identity; usually choice of clothes, name and hair cut pretty much just allow them to be seen for who they really are. Which is also why a good chunk of trans people actually DON'T realise that they are in fact trans until they reach puberty. Especially with parents who aren't super strict with forcing gender norms on their kids (at least until puberty). Because both their bodies AND their social environment up until that point allow them to exist in ways that don't cause them loads of distress for the time being. Obviously, there are still kids who do still have significant amounts of distress anyway. But I think even for those kids not having gone through puberty YET is still a much better status quo. Anyway. With top surgery you've kind of just put yourself closest to the position of legitimately being born a shapeshifter who really can, as you've expressed, change their body/appearance with the snap of their fingers. Which is also why, even when you use the nowadays often outdated, narrative of being trans meaning that you were "born in the wrong body" you could easily apply that narrative to a genderfluid person because who of us is naturally born in a body with actual shapeshifting powers??? And who of us is assigned genderfluid at birth (or in more funny terms: Who of us is assinged shapeshifter at birth)??? Whatever way you look at it - unless a genderfluid/nonbinary/pangender person declares themselves cis for whatever reason - things like being genderfluid by definition fall under the definition of what transgender/being trans means. And yes, that means that there is such a thing as a nonbinary/genderfluid type of transition, which - just like a binary transition - can but doesn't HAVE to include certain types of medical transition. Which steps each person takes is up to them (and whomever they trust to help them figure out and decide or provide the care they need). Each transition is a personal trajectory. (Jackson Lennon once put it so nicely: BEING trans is not a choice, but how you transition is.)

[@MxMorphling]

^^^THIS says everything I was thinking💜👏

[@spoons2075]

You do you like I always say! Even though i don’t “know you” I like you for you. You are funny as hell! 😎And that’s all that matters to me. Labels are obv a human construct and it can be tough to know what kind of thinking goes with those labels. We all want to be comf in our skin at whatever moment……… I keep saying to make science videos! Or do a video with a relative or friend! There is so much more to you we should see!❤️

[@carterkentboi]

Hey thanks for making this because I needed to hear it.

[@jj-bv3ui]

You do you! 🎉❤🏳️‍⚧️🙏🏻 Relatable content.

[@zeroisnohero5825]

Sending all the love to you!!💞I also have to say I absolutely love your makeup skills! (I’m getting into makeup too as of recently!) ❤️!!, I’m super sorry though that ppl have sent hurtful backhanded comments towards you, you deserve to just express yourself without any explanation!, it’s sad ppl want labels on everything an automatically wanna assume you ‘regretted’ your decisions on your transition journey, rather just be happy for you an supporting you along the way in you presenting in multiple ways!, atleasts this riddles out these snakes of ppl who were only praying on your downfall in your transition journey!

[@MxMorphling]

That's actually a good way to put it tbf, I did realize there were quite a few people who were kinda waiting for me to "detransition" who suddenly were like "thank god" as soon as I stopped T and I'm just like... I'm still trans 🤣 also thanks! Lemme know if there's any video's you'd like me to do about makeup and stuff like that ✨

[@zeroisnohero5825]

@@MxMorphling I’m glad I gave you some insight!!, and OMG YES PLEASE DO MAKEUP TUTORIALS! :DD I’d love to see that!!❤️

[@morgankaya2677]

Ilysm mate 💓

[@MxMorphling]

Ly2 💜💜💜

[@bsrfuchs55]

i think it is good to clarify so that nobody can use you as an example for their ideology. i have seen a detrans woman on youtube who spoke up about terfs using her as an example and that she does not like it and that she will not collaborate with anyone of this community and that she just wants to tell her own story and that's it. i think that is so important!

[@theunboxer3964]

Gender-fluid means for me options. I love options this is just for me more options. I recently came out as gender-fluid.

[@kiyakiya4075]

The way I can relate to this on such a deep level lol I think one thing for me is the chest thing. I want to have a flat chest but at the same time I like dressing feminine sometimes and in those times I would like to have the appearance of breasts. So I wasn’t sure what I should do. But seeing u talk about it it has opened my eyes to how I can represent myself the way I want. I didn’t think about using fake breasts until now. For me I would rather wear fake breasts occasionally rather than wearing a binder occasionally. My goal is to be androgynous with a more masculine frame so low dose T and top surgery are things I really want. And then be feminine when I feel like it. But thank u for sharing your experience because I think a lot of people can relate including myself and it means so much to see people like you share these things, I know it’s not easy at all but thank u so much for your bravery and openness❤️

[@MxMorphling]

No problem at all I'm glad I could help even a lil by sharing my experience ✨✨

[@ayemzu888]

im just so mad at people realise they dont belong in trans community and suddenly turn to making lives of this community harder for some reason just becouse it ended up that its not who they are.

[@meeyamabio4040]

You want them to lie

[@charlie2.048]

@@meeyamabio4040Detransitioners who try and blame everyone but themselves for their choices and try and stop trans people from accessing necessary medical care *ARE lying.*

[@meeyamabio4040]

@@charlie2.048 I'm not here to tell people what to do and what not. I support anyone making choices that make them live their true self (in the acceptable), but I'm against jumping on the trend and people find out it was not what they wanted to only be regretting some irreversible things...

[@SilverQuartz13]

I wish I passed as androgynous, fem or masc at will.

[@the_clumsy_wizard8910]

Hi sorry when referring to you when I'm talking to others is it okay to use they/them? Just wanna double check

[@MxMorphling]

Yeah that's all good!

[@east_coastt]

Happy for you!

[@pjgaillard2567]

You be you 💕

[@joel4541]

ok you had me🤣

[@MxMorphling]

Ahaha imagine I just become a terf 🤣🤣🤣

[@shelteredopal]

I have yet to hear or read anything legitimately convincing about how "gender fluidity" is anything deeper and more profound than a simple outfit and hairstyle change depending on the day. One day I wear my hair up in a hat and wear overalls and boots. The Next day i feel like wearing makeup and a dress. Ok so?? At the end of the day I am still a female and just because I wear something a man MAY ALSO wear, does not mean that im "presenting masculine". This is the thinking that leads you down the path of surgical mutilation.

[@MxMorphling]

I don't think it should be something we need to prove to you, if we say that's how we feel why is it so difficult to just believe us and respect us.

[@quekbridget5988]

its not really that when I wear the masculine clothes I really want to be perceived as a male on that day . then on the day where I want to be perecieved as a woman i dress more feminine and have boobs.

[@texassaxet4893]

did you pluck your eyebrows that way? if not you probably have hypothyroidism

[@Grouch3682]

It’s really weird for you to go online and try to diagnose someone with something. Especially when you don’t know them outside of KZbin vids…

[@texassaxet4893]

@@Grouch3682 i gave them the info and they can do whatever they want with it.

[@miss50020]

The truth and possible harms are radical?

[@markrussell3428]

Do you fear the idea that one day you might begin to feel the desire to have children?

[@MxMorphling]

Why would I fear that?

[@markrussell3428]

@@MxMorphling WOW!! Thank you so much for the response. I find you fascinating and have enjoyed watching you mature and evolve as a person. My question really comes from a couple of rather profound observations which really struck me. Rachel Levine is the highest-ranking openly transgender government official in the Uniter States, she said: “If I had transitioned when I was young, then I wouldn’t have my children. I can’t imagine a life without my children.” That's pretty profound but the singer PINK really seemed to crystalize the point: " When I had a child, I think it softened me to the world... I think it's when I started to really understand myself and understand the world and my place in it." This one gives me shivers. When I look at you I see an amazing person and I wonder if you will reach a point where you might desire children and, assuming that's possible, do you feel you might miss some of those more intimate parts shared between a mother and child. My final thoughts come from Chloe Cole: "The problem with me starting it so young [her transition] is that I couldn’t consent but I couldn’t really fathom the whole picture. I was just a kid”.

[@uarestrong76]

@@markrussell3428 .....you do know not everyone wants kids right?

[@markrussell3428]

@@uarestrong76 Thanks for the comment. There is a lot to that. Ask a 14 or 15 year old and you are likely to get a blank stare followed by an expression of "what?" Essentially unable to conceptualize being a parent. Ask someone older and it becomes more of a selfish response - "not likely" but they can at least fathom what you are asking. Ask someone in the 30s and 40s and there is a sense of urgency as an opportunity is slipping away and the idea of a meaningful life is about more than having the world revolve around me. Ask someone in their 50s...the regret sinks in as a lonely future of an unfulfilled life has settled in. Ask again and you might only get a response from parents given having kids brings meaning to life and actually increases life expectancy. The radical feminists have done a great job of diminishing the value and significant achievement that is motherhood and being a parent. Its rather sad actually.

[@shelteredopal]

​@@markrussell3428true. I think it's foolish to ask a young teen woman if they want to have children because we are not of time period anymore where women are expected to have children as soon as they menstruate. So a teen girl is very much a teenager and is not focused or even aware of the fact that their bodies are made for motherhood. I certainly didn't. I never wanted children until I turned 27 and I am so happy I am expecting my first. True not everyone will change their mind but also a lot of people will, still better not to undergo drastic form changing procedures that can alter your body and never go back

[@english3082]

Basically, male pattern baldness cured your "dysphoria". Also, everybody has some insecurity about their appearance, that's not called dysphoria.

[@janehiltonhilton7424]

In this video I do not know why it is so terrible for you to understand or be close to the word detransition it s like your still being kept hostage by your trans community maybe make new friends whom understand what your going threw ....... it s no fair people are having ago at you in any shape or form/ be who you want to be and stay healthy xxxx there is lots of sexy women with husky voices ....... I can not see any harm in you being fluid just do what makes you happy xxxx

[@Betsy.Ross76]

It's a religion. Surgery and hormones are their "rites". It would be against their religion to denounce those . They cannot be seen by the other converts or members of the community as an apostate .

[@shelteredopal]

Because trans is a cult. There is a lot of doubt from gaslighting they've experienced during their time in the ideology, it became their whole perspective, they are obsessed with everything trans. You gotta be pretty obsessed to be willingly wanting to go under the knife to be a part of this "community". So imagine when your gut tells you it is wrong and you don't want to subscribe to the beliefs anymore, but you are so far deep you don't know how to climb to the surface. You've made friends along the way and then you slowly watch them become your wardens and enemies to your ideology. It's hard and these people need help escaping like you would a religious cult.

[@אורקרואני-צ2מ]

Idiots 🤦🏽‍♂️

[@ilaAlia007]

Your eyes looks like you are confused within yourself. Not sure where to turn to?