The end of this poem completely changed my life. I'm not anxious because I hate life, I'm anxious because I love it.
@miriamschwan78814 ай бұрын
RIGHT???
@MarieFlow10 жыл бұрын
those who never experienced anxiety, will never understand how great this is.
@elizabethbennet47915 жыл бұрын
I KNOW
@aquaearthnfirequ_pinsnsavi1721 Жыл бұрын
No they will not and in my own anxious way of praising this poem for giving me a relaxed breath to breathe I'd say it's too bad! MeAndMyZIATY! Current mood: I just exhaled for the first time in a non-stop 24 hours and till goin and cycle!
@JoshieMadhatt18 сағат бұрын
It's completely spot on. In a way I've never heard before or since. Been rewatching this for years
@___KIT__9 жыл бұрын
Never thought of it as a striving to live. I guess I was too focused on how the panic attacks feel like death.
@elizabethbennet47915 жыл бұрын
your body creates anxiety and perceives them/it as bad because another part of you WANTs to live
@DW43KK12 жыл бұрын
i come back to this poem every few years when my body decides it's time to panic, and every time it brings me immense comfort. i can't say thank you enough miss ferro.
@powerbottomboat11 жыл бұрын
I always start crying at the "because they want so badly to live" bit, because she's right, I want so badly to live, that it, along with everything else, terrifies me.
@elizabethbennet47915 жыл бұрын
funny, im not at all afraid to live im just so tied up in "fixing things" that i have no time or energy left and it's HORRIBLE emotionally to not be free when you genuinely have no fear of it
@jhup47184 жыл бұрын
OMG yes, I totally get it.
@LeahBartlettIsAwesome8 жыл бұрын
"It must be exhausting to want to live this much."
@elizabethbennet47915 жыл бұрын
she TOTALLY fucking gets it
@trose521310 жыл бұрын
As someone who suffers from anxiety this spoke to me in a way that I can't properly articulate.
@Music4Ani10 жыл бұрын
I thought I was the only one
@user-zf1gk3iv3u10 жыл бұрын
Same here! So eloquent.
@JordanElaine810 жыл бұрын
Glad I'm not alone!
@JoshieMadhatt18 сағат бұрын
saaaaaame
@aaronstorm25933 жыл бұрын
I started listening to this poem when I was in high school, the year this video was posted. All these years later I can’t help but keep coming back to it. It’s a tonic for my deeply anxious soul.
@meghan52379 жыл бұрын
This poem made me realize that I'm so afraid to die because I want to live. I crave life and all the beauty that comes with it.
@emmadestruction10 жыл бұрын
Having anxiety myself, this made me cry. Its true! My greatest fear is that somehow everything great my life is will just get taken away.
@janeenj849 жыл бұрын
Damn I tear up EVERY time I watch this. This poem gives me strength and helps so much to know I'm not the only one.
@elizabethbennet47917 жыл бұрын
Me too ((hug)))
@elizabethbennet47917 жыл бұрын
I have bee reading poetry ever since I was a child and this is the only poem I keep coming back to.
@bleedingheart5510 жыл бұрын
I think tears aren't enough. This poem is the most amazing thing that I can relate to that I've EVER heard.
@BadActingWYIM10 жыл бұрын
This has changed me. She has offered me a new perspective I had been looking for. My anxiety makes me want to kill myself all the time but i do whatever I can to stay strong. For my family, my friends and myself. So I try meditation and studying philosophy and that helped a lot. She made me realize that my struggle with anxiety shows just how strong I am and how much good is in my life rather than how weak I am and how crappy things are. i really needed that
@natashaprimus42356 жыл бұрын
Sims4TV same sis same
@summeralwaysxx11 жыл бұрын
with suffering through anxiety myself, this hit home... it was beautiful, i couldnt have found a better way to explain anxiety.
@emrose3338 жыл бұрын
I love all the positivity from the audience before the poem even starts💕
@CiaraMathias11 жыл бұрын
Social anxiety here! And this was beautiful. The last parts about how we anxiety-filled people are full of caring and hope really feels makes me good. It makes me like myself just a little bit more. :)
@watchwrenwander57836 жыл бұрын
I can’t count how many times I’ve watched this since I found it last year. Definitely my favorite poem ever. I cry every time which is a little ridiculous I know, but as someone with multiple anxiety disorders and other mental/chronic illnesses, it just hits super close to home and I love it. “It must be exhausting to want to live this much”
@cindymcglaughlin30910 жыл бұрын
As a person who suffers from anxiety, I can't love this enough. Well spoken. I've watched this more than 18 times, because its so relatable to me
@saigej.5329 жыл бұрын
I love this poem. Makes me feel better about myself. I listen to this on my bad days, thank you Catalina Ferro. Thank you so much
@Nathalie.9999 жыл бұрын
I watched this a couple months ago, and it helped me get over my anxiety by myself, my therapist was so surprised and said I was the strongest person she ever met. I want to get a line from this poem tattoed on my arm so I can remember it forever.
@Checkersss11 жыл бұрын
"you can't be this afraid of losing everything, if you don't love everything first" Amazing.
@isitthatdeeppodcast8 жыл бұрын
Why hasn't she come out with more poetry? Where'd she go? :(
@queenbeeamygee11883 жыл бұрын
This helped me realize that all of my anxieties are about people because I love people so much
@katiehess391910 жыл бұрын
That ending was a punch of reality in the face, so true. So beautiful. I don't know how many times I've replayed this.
@zohragh9374 жыл бұрын
I love this poem so much after all these years it still sends chills down my spine
@racquelilopez7 жыл бұрын
I always come watch this video when my anxiety attacks hit. Thank you for this, you have no idea how much this helps.
@amyclayton83754 жыл бұрын
I saw this poem for the first time about 3 years ago and it changed how I view anxiety. I think, though, that I want so badly to be good and to be kind to others. So I am obsessive when I do something wrong, or when I start to feel like I'm getting in someone's way or being annoying.
@205tigger711 жыл бұрын
this is why i love poetry.
@riley92589 жыл бұрын
i have read through these comments to see if anyone else was crying from relating to this and i realized that most of the people who stated they were crying have anxiety also. this is a powerful poem and i fucking love it.
@xXChinaEyesXx9 жыл бұрын
Even struggling with anxiety attacks for the past 3 years, I NEVER thought of it as me loving what i have (or could have or will have) so much that that is the reason for me being so anxious, so...afraid. I thought that was what it was...just fear. Catalina you are awesome.
@elizabethbennet47919 жыл бұрын
+Chrissy Bella Bingo! "Because you can’t be this afraid of losing everything/If you don’t love everything first"
@MadCupcake3811 жыл бұрын
This is sheer brilliance. I couldn't have summed up anxiety better myself. That is utterly phenomanal !! xx
@penguinpoetmusic8611 жыл бұрын
I first heard this poem about a year ago and I instantly loved it but couldn't figure out why. I thought I was a fairly laid back person. I thought it was normal to cry over a ninety two on a test. I didn't think there was anything wrong with my complete inability to have a conversation with another person. It'd just always been like that. It was weird but I loved the poem so I listened to it endlessly for about a month but forgot it. I just found it again, a few weeks after being diagnosed with anxiety disorder and holy shit is it relevant. What if I fail at life? What if they hit us again? What if it's me this time? This really hits home. I love it so much
@ToastyMcMarshmallow4 жыл бұрын
This is so *real* and it astonishes me every time.
@witchkid838 жыл бұрын
This poem really got me thinking and I love it so much evaluate instead of shaming the mental illness that is anxiety, it binds fighters together and shows us how fucking strong me are
@hiddenpunk29110 жыл бұрын
I watch this so often. It's like a therapy in itself
@rhymeswithorange311 жыл бұрын
The ending to this was so beautiful. So true. I cannot explain how freeing her words were.
@ishtar609810 жыл бұрын
I have never been able to name the emotion that Catalina so eloquently spoke after 2:50. Thank you for this.
@heart5379 жыл бұрын
This is the best thing I have ever watched
@Vero9ka9311 жыл бұрын
The last part hit me like a fucking boulder. The accuracy hit me straight in the face.
@abimburger6 ай бұрын
I come back to this all the time. It’s so powerful ❤
@emmagreen74639 жыл бұрын
I'm not just shy, I have social anxiety. I can barely get out of bed, I'm too busy planning awkward conversations in my head. I believe in the boogey man, he whispers to me each time I try to make a friend. Don't ask me to speak up in class, you're lucky I still show up. In case you haven't caught on, what I feel everyday is wrong. I have the constant worry people don't see me, the happy façade I put on, but they see the shy, antisocial, depressed, stressed, over-worried mess I've become. -j.a.b.
@qandeee9 жыл бұрын
I love this..
@VirtuallyKesi8 жыл бұрын
+Emma Green i feel like i wrote this
@selenaschmidt56518 жыл бұрын
this is amazing
@TrippyVision2203 жыл бұрын
Goosebumps. Every time.
@jamielovesweeping11 жыл бұрын
As someone that has some serious anxiety issues as well, I, personally, could never IMAGINE doing something like this, however reading your post gives me hope. ♥
@EvenxInxDeath812 жыл бұрын
No matter how many times I watch this, I still get goosebumps
@2165630311 жыл бұрын
It's great to know that there are videos like this out there, that will help people feel better about their conditions without making them feel completely alienated.
@starries3 жыл бұрын
dude how does this always make me cry? it's just beautiful.
@bilgisayar198411 жыл бұрын
ever since i learnt the existence of this video i can't stop watching, crying, finding the lyrics, watching again this time with lyrics, crying again. absolutely amazing! 'Because you can’t be this afraid of losing everything if you don’t love everything first, because you have to have a soul-crushing hope that things will get better to be this afraid of missing it.'
@mickeymouseterror3 жыл бұрын
Quite probably the best slam poetry performance ever.
@shtrurtle10 жыл бұрын
Amen, sista. I lived in anxiety too many years. Happy to see it shrinking away in my rear view mirror
@LyndseyLorraine11 жыл бұрын
I no longer see my own anxiety and paranoia the same way. This is beautiful.
@joelletatter40632 жыл бұрын
I have the last lines of this poem tattooed on me- it changed my life that much
@Husqvarnah0112 жыл бұрын
That moved me. Tears rolled down my face at the end
@xJewlz08x11 жыл бұрын
She's explaining that people with anxiety are so anxious because of how much they care. For example, I have an anxiety disorder and I have a debilitating fear of the people I love dying. This is a fear stemming from love. People with anxiety worry about everything because we wallow in life...and part of our fear is being so afraid that we miss out on life while worrying.
@julianne84974 жыл бұрын
"I make insomnia look professional" This is so true for me.
@elizabethbennet47916 жыл бұрын
really needs to be shown to every anxiety patient, mental health professional and loved one of an anxiety patient in the world.
@estelladubose65129 жыл бұрын
That was great. Absolutely great! The ending perspective is so empowering. Thank you!
@asiaderrough9 жыл бұрын
As a person who suffers from anxiety and severe ocd, this is amazing!!! I love her, she gets it. I've always said that I believe I have anxiety because I love life more than others. I fear germs and diseases so much because I don't want my life to be cut short over something ridiculous, I have too much to live for
@desireegonzalez500411 жыл бұрын
I want to thumbs up everyone's comments bc we can all relate to this so much. This is absolute PERFECTION. INCREDIBLE.
@stylinzon10 жыл бұрын
i always sob every single time i watch this, i relate to this so much
@mygoldfisharegold11 жыл бұрын
that was brilliant and 100% accurate, anyone who doesn't understand anxiety just needs to hear what this woman has to say!
@JoshieMadhatt18 сағат бұрын
The absolute greatest poem about anxiety ever written and I will die on that hill
@ErinJudex32 жыл бұрын
10 years later this is still one of my favorite poems
@samjoachim86798 жыл бұрын
Wow that actually made me cry. Thank you I needed that boost of self love for myself and my anxiety
@bilgisayar198411 жыл бұрын
it's been one week and i still have goosebumps and cry... soul-crashing hope keep crushing me!
@tamikaprice788811 жыл бұрын
This is the best fucking thing I have EVER seen.
@kdede1312 жыл бұрын
i have terrible anxiety and this made me feel so much better, i'm so happy this is on youtube. it's good to know i'm not alone.
@daylelynne905212 жыл бұрын
It doesn't matter how many times I watch this, the end makes my breath stop for a moment and I cry.
@catsonmeth111 жыл бұрын
This really makes me appreciate that I was able to, at least partially, get through my social anxiety.
@Emmah12439 жыл бұрын
Thank you so much for this. I can't articulate how much this meant to me.
@tracykiddo45639 жыл бұрын
this poem describes me more than any other poem down to my doctor weaning my off klonopin. I needed to hear this...sometimes I listen to this poem once a week because it's so mind blowing how much I relate to everything. even though I don't want to relate to it. talented woman
@BeckahLaz9711 жыл бұрын
Yes, YES this is what anxiety feels like, and its awesome to hear someone state the reality of the awful disease in such a beautiful way.
@elizabethbennet47917 жыл бұрын
no one on earth goes more quickly and directly to the soul of a mystery and gets it totally correct than Ferro
@29kumquat11 жыл бұрын
Thank you for this. This is more than I've ever been able to express about how I go through life. Thanks, especially for the end.
@Megan20Marie10 жыл бұрын
This was something I needed so bad, I'm glad I watched it.
@EsperamePorFavor11 жыл бұрын
I've had anxiety for years. Always thought I was crazy, now I know what it is. I have huge attacks to where my heart rate is over 200 just because a teacher called on me in class (even though I knew I was 200% correct...). But when I did theater and went on stage, it was like the world stopped. I wasn't me. I was my character. I had no fear. I knew I would do well, and I loved it. I wasn't myself, and that was the best part. I totally agree with you.
@rose360x110 жыл бұрын
I love this so much. Words can not describe how perfect this is.
@andreasstrom401611 жыл бұрын
I wish I heard this back when I was suffering from anxiety. So awesome!
@flowerboy42698 жыл бұрын
4 years later. Probably still one of my favorites.
@elizabethbennet47917 жыл бұрын
I'm obsessively drawn to this poem more than any other, and I've lived a long life full of poems. This truly uncorks my life for me.
@FoxInTheRift11 жыл бұрын
With a battle with anxiety of my own... this was... conflicting to me. Because I don't think I ever realized why I get so anxious until now. Because I want to live and I cling to that because I have a strong love for many things. And it punches anxiety in the face. Because if you love and want to live, why do you let anxiety and panic attacks and nights without sleep destroy you, kill you? And while it is not so simple to get over, it is an idea. It is an idea that can spread and flourish and god bless this video because I can do it. I can get up the next morning. I can go to work. I can enroll in college. I can do these things because they WON'T kill me. NOT doing them will. Not doing them will lead me into a life of shambles and seclusion and it took this simple video for me to realize... Thank you. Thank you, thank you, thank you. Even if it's just for right now... that idea is going to kick anxiety's ass. Amen.
@mollymills8801 Жыл бұрын
i know this word for word. it was the first poem that really spoke to me, so i can't thank you enough
@lucyj549010 жыл бұрын
I can so relate to this! She explained what we all don't know how to put it into words.
@spiriality11 жыл бұрын
Wow. Just wow. This was amazing.
@ThugMuffinification11 жыл бұрын
Having ptsd and anxiety, I've never heard a poem I saw so much of myself in. And I am glad I'm not alone in it.
@LadyGreenDay6911 жыл бұрын
This really hit home for me what an inspirational writer.
@lavalives10 жыл бұрын
sad, thoughtful and true. it's almost a comfort to know i'm not the only one with anxiety - seems so obvious but it's such a isolating illness. if you're reading this and you have anxiety, i'm proud of you
@ashleymay225510 жыл бұрын
I'm proud of you too, it gets better.
@unicornpearlz8 жыл бұрын
this poem has stuck with me more than any other
@Melinator100011 жыл бұрын
i watched it 4 times.. and im going to watch it again and again. what she says is so true and fascinating.... she really has my respect. awesome perfomance
@septemberthornton840910 жыл бұрын
This speaks to me on a very personal level
@malissahyatt24253 жыл бұрын
Battling anxiety right this minute. I've had a hard battle for a month. This poem is my battle cry!!!!!!!!!!!
@mirtasmiddlefinger11 жыл бұрын
"‘What if it’s me this time?’ and I think, wow, it must be exhausting to want to live this much." no matter how many times I watch the video, this is where I begin sobbing. This is perfect.
@kelseyfunkhouser53369 жыл бұрын
This made me tear up. I've never thought of anxiety like this.
@KateryntheGrand11 жыл бұрын
This is seriously the best poem about anxiety I've ever heard.
@robertsmith766710 жыл бұрын
Very good, an often overlooked life affecting condition.
@elizabethbennet47918 жыл бұрын
I love you for honoring us like this Catalina Ferro
@naturallydarling11 жыл бұрын
This is literally perfection. I get chills every time.
@emmagreen74639 жыл бұрын
'Princess of Panic' it has a ring I never thought I would love so much just because it shows my strength in fighting social anxiety, depression, and insomnia. I used to treat those disorders as labels that set me apart for all the wrong reasons until I saw this a month ago. Now, I treat them as things that simply make me stronger, not different or odd or weird.
@deidaraakun9 жыл бұрын
The ending really struck something in me.. I don't think I'm going to be the same after that wow
@jonnya.48117 жыл бұрын
deidaraakun you still the same?
@darkhorse96649 жыл бұрын
You read my soul. That was absolutely phenomenal.
@Zeekatjes11 жыл бұрын
This is the fucking best thing I have ever heard anyone say about anxiety. He describes it perfectly. Finally. Thank you.