Chalk Outlines REACTION - Ren x Chinchilla (Lyme Warrior, Anorexia Recovery Edition)

[@chinchilla_music]

Thank you so much for this amazing reaction. You are so inspiring and warm to watch. Thank for for all the support and love - sending love back🥹🫶

[@BeccaDoss]

Oh my goodness, when I tell you I screamed LOUDLY to my husband when I saw this comment-from the bottom of my heart, thank you so much. For your art, vulnerability, and for sharing your heart and soul via the art of song. I have no doubt you’re going to be a mainstay on several playlists for me, going forward, once I can really experience more of your music. It means more than my words can say to know that you not only took time to watch this, but that you were able to enjoy it. Absolutely humbled. Seeing this notification and reading this comment gave my heart/soul such a huge smile-absolutely perfect thing to see before I head to bed. Thank you.💕🫂

[@palsgraph]

She is special. Such a beautiful soul. She makes me wish I was 30/30. 30 years younger and 30 pounds lighter. LOL ;-) much love

[@MarcelousTV]

You are amazing! Thank you for bringing a smile to Becca. Both of your comments here show the true nature of music and it’s ability to heal! The world needs more of this!!

[@peterbadham1875]

So amazing and friendly that you commented Chinchilla, as Ren does on many reaction videos, you are amazing and an inspiration. You are as well Becca, love to you both xx

[@michaelscarface]

Great performance Chinchilla. Your descants in the final chorus were 🔥👏🏼

[@FrugalShave]

Ren was able to destroy your composure in one line. This is why Renologists love him and why we watch so many reaction videos for his music. We have a need to know that we are not alone in how he makes us feel when we watch his videos.

[@ianhislop6782]

Renologists is a great word.

[@BeccaDoss]

You nailed it, he's definitely mastered the art of connecting humans though his art.

[@pr1m3d]

@@ianhislop6782 I'm hoping Renegades sticks.

[@thetalantonx]

@@pr1m3d Renegades and the Ren-aissance.

[@BillyVatcher]

True.

[@elliottmcneese5769]

"I'm scared of being okay, because all things change." That hit me right in the chest. The honesty and energy between Ren and Chinchilla is amazingly beautiful.

[@BeccaDoss]

💕💕💕💕

[@marijeanurban]

I've been watching Ren and Ren reactions for months and your reactions are my absolute favorite because you are so open, completely vulnerable and relatable just as Rens music is. I appreciate your reactions and you're input. Keep doing your thing and stay strong! ❤

[@slcncr]

Only 3 minutes in, watching you reacting to this is heavy stuff. Cause you seem to be a highly sensitive and very emotional person who obviously has gone through a lot and is still on the long way to healing. I almost feel guilty, voyeuristic when i see you tearing up, your body language. Please know that i very much admire and appreciate you taking this on, it must be an intense experience. But it also seems to me that your reaction videos are some kind of therapy for you. Feeling understood, connected, valued. Thank you Becca for this emotional reaction. I wish you all the best for your healing process.

[@BeccaDoss]

I couldn’t have said it better myself, this whole process is very cathartic and therapeutic to me, and it’s a blessing to be able to see so many people enjoy and resonate with it. Thank you so much for your words, they made more than I’m able to type right now.💕

[@FengshenNL]

Kite, you couldn't have put this into words any better from my side as viewer either. Becca, when I watch these videos of you, I just want to give you a hug. You are an amazing person and I wish you all the best with having to deal with all the pains and hardships of recovery. ♥

[@BeccaDoss]

@@FengshenNL 💕💕💕💕

[@seanemery6019]

Seconded! Becca, rooting for you every day. I'm so happy this resonated so incredibly for you; and selfishly, thank you for sharing yourself with us through this reaction. Ren is so much for so many. Salut.

[@AlanMordue-hx5wv]

@@BeccaDoss You are a brave lady, I am a 59 year old northern Englishman and I amazed by Ren who taps into universal themes, also we are supposed to be "stiff upper lip" over here -I believe in hell now after being through a similar thing to you and him...your honesty is remarkable. I am also a student of Shakespeare (we believe he had clinical depression) and he is so near to the early sonnets, also I see similarities with Beethoven who almost committed suicide at 32 -his art saved him and like Ren is 100% raw and honest in every way.

[@ianevans3106]

Ren is arguably the most important artist of our time, the effect his lyrics have on people for many different reasons is nothing short of phenomenal

[@fibanacci8]

Total agreement. This song truly... catches the light..

[@toddpaul2228]

When you began crying after the first two lines, I immediately began to laugh/cry. I just felt this pure human joy that you made such a deep connection with this artist. It was beautiful.

[@BeccaDoss]

I’ve gotten a couple comments over the past several months where someone immediately calls my entire reaction fake simply because I was moved to tears by the beauty of music. Heck, the opening chords here even BEFORE those 2 lines had me choking up. Which just made those 2 lines, and the rest of the song, even more powerful. Ren has impacted this world in a way I’ve personally never witnessed before (at least not in my lifetime), and I honestly find it impossible NOT to connect with anything he does. He’s masterful at his craft. Really appreciate you.💕🫂

[@rickhammer7204]

It's very clear if someone has lived chronic illness when they hear that line about being scared of being ok. I suffer from POTS and can't help but tear up each time. I love that you smiled during that last chorus. For me this song isn't about the pain and fear, but about the will they find to survive it. To balance on their toes cause they can't help but want to breathe. The small things we find to make it another day and the strength to, even if just for a while, smile.

[@BeccaDoss]

POTS is on my laundry list of illnesses, as well, so I understand firsthand how difficult it can be to manage and navigate, and you definitely know what it’s like to be afraid of being okay. And I’m right there with you, the song seems to be about the pain on the surface, but by the end, I don’t see how anyone can feel anything but HOPE, and reclamation of life, even if from a place of desperation.💕

[@adamb828]

After 4 months of the Ren rabbit hole this song still lives in the back of my mind. He makes music that just holds to the soul. Allows you to feel your sadness but always gives that sense of hope. I’m glad you’ve gotten to experience his powerful art. Try some of his just fun stuff next. New stuff coming soon too!

[@BeccaDoss]

That’s the plan! Taking a break from the super heavy stuff for at least a couple/few videos. Can’t wait! Thanks for the support!

[@adamb828]

@@BeccaDoss I recommend Genesis or Bittersweet Symphony. Then go back to his heartbreaking story and vocal work. Dry your eyes, mate;)

[@cas9065]

@@BeccaDoss I'll vote for Humble or It's Alright. It'll be good to have those ready to rewatch. X

[@TheDougMan]

The above are good suggestions. I also suggest “What You Want” which is fun.

[@SkaterWillsy]

If we're talking fun stuff, losing it - fisher rap retake has to be at the top of that list! Just showing off!

[@shannonwatson8023]

I love how raw and real your reactions are to his music.. I been on a Ren rabbit hole and I can tell you seeing his music touch someone who goes thru it too, it’s refreshing to see you be so full of emotion and empathy when you react!! You are an amazing soul 💙

[@BeccaDoss]

Shannon, thank you so much. Like I’ve told some other people, I couldn’t fake emotion if I tried, so everything that I show is literally the exact raw and real reaction I would have if I were watching the video and listening to the songs by myself without a camera. It’s been a blessing to be able to connect to others through filming reaction videos, and it means the world to me that people are able to resonate with them. Thanks for being an awesome human.💕

[@avdude10]

A beautiful and sensitive reaction to a beautiful and sensitive song. I'm sorry you've endured so much. Stay strong and remember - you will get through this - one day at a time. You're not alone Becca.

[@BeccaDoss]

Thank you so much for the encouragement, we all have our things, I’m just thankful to be able to connect to so many kind souls via this beautiful art Ren creates. I’d say “music,” but it’s so much more than that. Appreciate you.💕

[@clairme_5865]

This has surely got to be THE BEST reaction to Chalk Outlines out there, by far! Like Ren, you are so tough and so open at the same time. Wishing you so much goodness!

[@BeccaDoss]

Wow, that's such a kind thing to say, thank you from the bottom of my heart. So glad you took time to stop by and leave such an encouraging comment. Take care of yourself.💕

[@mdanam]

I may be a little late to your party, but I have been watching almost every Ren reaction video I can find (and there are a lot of them) so it took me awhile to find you. This was one of the most raw and honest reactions I have seen. I have not had chronic physical pain, but I have bipolar 2 which was misdiagnosed for years as unipolar depression. I also went through the experience of having horrible psychiatrists that overmedicated me with things that made the condition worse not better. It literally took me years to find the right combination of therapist and psychiatrist. So a lot of that part of Ren's messaging really resonates with me. Thank you for posting such a vulnerable raw reaction. I've seen Ren comment on a lot of the reaction videos, but this is the first time I've seen chinchilla do that. Both of them are amazing artists, and both seem quite real humble and down-to-earth, as do you.

[@BeccaDoss]

I’m big believer that we make the right connections at the right time, so I think you’re here right on time.😊 I’m so glad you resonated with this video, but I hate that it’s at the cost of enduring so much of your own suffering. I’m so sorry you know this pain firsthand. I’m also really glad Ren’s music has been healing for you-I think we’re going to keep seeing more and more people saying that same thing, he’s really something special. Same with Chinchilla, what an amazing human. Both of them are just top tier, grade A humans and we’re blessed to have them on this earth. 💕

[@mdanam]

@@BeccaDoss I really hope you are healing completely from your challenges. Again, that was one of the most genuine reactions I have seen and I've probably watched over 50 reactors at this point reacting to "HI Ren" alone. Sending love and light your way💖

[@artandcapitaI]

One thing I love about this that no one seems to notice, it seems like she is choreographed perfectly to the room they’re in. Like when she moves around the room, faces the wall, steps back, or faces him as they sing DIRECTLY into each other’s mics, it’s like organically mixing the track using every inch of space and every wall and posture. Brilliant.

[@BeccaDoss]

You are SO right! I definitely got caught up in the emotion and lyrics at that point and didn’t think about that angle, I really appreciate you taking time to type it out!💕

[@bryandavies6930]

Recently I have been bin watching reactions to ren and chinchilla and subscribing to certain reactors. Just watched yourself, and realised that I'm subscribing to the reactors that connect as I do. So I can connect with them. You are an amazing woman thank you as these connections are helping me too. You are a worrier ❤

[@BeccaDoss]

I’m so glad you’re able to connect to my videos, I definitely know what you mean about feeling drawn to subscribe to those who connect similarly to you-I definitely have several people I’ve followed over the years for the same reason, and it’s a blessing to be able to give back to this online community in any way. Connection really is one of our most vital human needs (I say this as someone who vehemently denied this until about a year ago, because it took me until then to find the right group of humans who actually accepted me for ME, so I didn’t feel the need to isolate and avoid them), so it makes my heart glad that you’re able to get any level of connection, too.💕🫂

[@Danandrea919]

You are, by far, my FAVORITE Ren reactor! You GET IT!! God bless you!! We've been blessed with Ren! We are NOT alone! 😊❤

[@AK00777]

Oh my, I saw this thumbnail and was so worried for you but you did great pumpkin, great vid. 😘💕

[@BeccaDoss]

Thank you, I can't tell you how much this comment touched my heart last night (and made me laugh a little, in a great way). Really appreciate your continued support, I'm still floored by the response to these videos. And so humbled and grateful.

[@coolguyhino92]

I cannot put into words just how beautiful soul you are. Tears aren't weakness, they're a reminder of what we've overcome.

[@BeccaDoss]

Thank you so much, my friend. And you said they second part so beautifully well. And as such (reminders of what we’ve overcome), they can help us heal and help propel us forward once we’ve cried the tears we need to cry in any given situation.💕🫂

[@jenniferpaul1832]

I love how you let your emotions go. I have cried to this song many times. its truly beautiful. thank you

[@BeccaDoss]

I’m so glad that you’re able to enjoy and resonate with the emotional side of things. I hope that your tears to this song have at least been cathartic and healing. I really appreciate you.💕

[@aditsu]

Ren's music resonates with everyone, but it's amazing how impactful it can be for people actually going through similar struggles.

[@BeccaDoss]

Absolutely right.💕

[@twiztedhadji3713]

Hi Becca. Out of all the reactors I have watched to Ren's songs you are probably the only person who truly knows what he tries to convey in his performances as you are also struggling with your own demons. It breaks my heart to see your reactions but I learn alot from you about details I miss and it has been therapeautic. You are equally brave to share with your community what you go through. Enough babbling... stay strong because you are also an inspiration and are needed on this platform.

[@BeccaDoss]

I don’t have the words to say this adequately right now, but thank you. This touched my heart in a very deep way during an exceptionally difficult week. I so appreciate you.💕

[@AnaFromTheShire]

The thing I love most about Ren, as I hop from channel to channel watching everyone reacting to him, is how universal his music is. I've watched preachers in tears, housewives, rappers, musicians, therapists, men, women, he moves SO MANY humans on so many different journeys. What an artist. And Chinchilla! Phenomenal talent. Loved your reaction

[@muskattomm]

Your reaction touches my Heart...i can feel the Pain youre gone trough... i can relate very much on this...no one can imagine what it´s like to have that kind of war inside your Head and being scared to be OK... I send you all the love of the universe!!

[@BeccaDoss]

I’m so sorry you can relate on such a personal level, I hate that any of us have to know what this is like, but there’s at least a sense of solace and camaraderie knowing that we’re not alone and trying to take back our lives and find pads of healing and Hope. Sending all the love right back to you!💕

[@jenneper]

Aww Becca.. it really is so cathartic for those of us who have been there. Sending you love and hugs. I'm so glad for this artist but there surely have been a few tears this week. My illness is my weakness as well as my strength. 🙏

[@BeccaDoss]

Couldn't have said it better myself. Thanks Jen. 💕

[@hendrax5889]

what an amazing and profound reaction. I've been searching for someone who perceived this masterpiece the same way i did. Love you.

[@samuelmregister]

Beautiful, honest and raw reaction, Becca! Surely Ren would love this.

[@clintonbrooks534]

Thank you for your honesty, it means a great deal to me!

[@BeccaDoss]

You are so welcome! I keep it as real as can be with these, because I honestly don’t know how to do anything else, so I’m just really grateful people are able to enjoy, or resonate with, it.💕

[@timokugler2244]

Very observant, insightful and articulate. Best reaction to this song I’ve seen. Keep wearing your knowledge and intellect as your armour. All the best on your journey.

[@AlvenmodFoto]

Fellow Renologist here from Sweden, just discovered this amazing young man and your channel and am right there down the rabbit hole with you, can't stop listening to his music and am looking for reactions to these songs withiut end. Your reactions are the strongest I've seen and it hits me hard, I don't personally struggle with illness but my heart goes out to you and I'm right there crying with you and others who suffers like this. I can relate in some sense as I have a family member who is struggling and have been struggling his whole life and I've introduced Ren and your channel to him if nothing else to show him that he's not alone and perhaps he can find some comfort here. I would strongly recommend you watch the "Tale of Jenny and Screech (full version). A piece in three parts (Jenny, Screech and Violet)dealing with domestic violence and the storytelling is just phenomenal, a definite must see...

[@BeccaDoss]

Thanks for taking time to stop by and leave such an encouraging comment, I'm so glad you were able to enjoy and connect with my reaction in any way. I can tell you're a compassionate, empathic person, and I can hear your desire to be able to help your family member in any way you can. Thanks for being an awesome human. (Can't wait to get to that Tales trilogy after I take a break with some lighter stuff)

[@byronroberts2960]

RENegade!

[@danielstover5094]

I love how you are able to understand, relate to, and break down the lyrics so instantaneously. I know Ren's songs are deeply personal to you and mirror your life experiences. Thank you again for opening yourself up to being so vulnerable to help people that may not know completely What is going on and being said.

[@BeccaDoss]

Thank you so much, Daniel!💕💕

[@donald1379]

This song speaks to many of us who suffer mental illness thank for sharing your struggles❤Ren and Chinchilla are amazing.

[@sarahallegra6239]

I get hit by this song too, in the best and most meaningful way. I was looking into a new treatment recently and felt that fear of being ok start to come up before I’d even gotten far into it. Unfortunately it turns out it’s way more expensive than I can manage, so I don’t have to face that fear right now, but I’m having a depressed few days because I let myself get my hopes up for a little while. I imagine you can relate to that. Ren’s music has been helping to coax me through it and your beautiful, honest, raw reaction helped too. I know I’m not alone in this fight at least. Thank you for sharing yourself so openly and freely! It’s a gorgeous song; one thing I like is that while Ren can OBVIOUSLY sing incredibly beautifully, I feel like he’s intentionally stepped back so that Chinchilla takes the spotlight. It feels very gracious of him. Their intimacy and connection is so moving! By the way, I hope it’s ok if I ask, but is your head wrap some kind of ice pack? I don’t think I’ve seen one quite like that but you’ve had it on in most/all (I’d have to double check) of the videos I’ve seen from you, so I thought maybe it was something that helped you feel a little better. Either way, I hope you’re having a good day with extra spoons!

[@BeccaDoss]

I read this comment when you posted it, but was having a rough time myself, so couldn’t give you the reply I wanted to. I’ll try now. I’m so sorry you get hit by the song so hard due to your own experiences. It’s such a hard place to be in. And YES. I am absolutely familiar with the process of looking into a new treatment, having a small spark of hope or possibility, then either not being able to afford it, or not be able to receive it even if you could afford it (but usually we can’t because it’s all EXPENSIVE stuff in this world), only to have it taken away. It’s a roller coaster I wouldn’t wish on anyone, I’m so sorry you’re familiar with the ride. Ren’s music has absolutely been a source of catharsis and healing, for me as well as countless others (like yourself), and that’s such an amazing thing to witness. I do like what you point out about when they’re singing together on the bridge and that last chorus, I think he definitely intentionally lets her shine more on those parts because it adds yet another layer of depth to the whole feel and performance of it all, and she is SUCH special and massively talented artist in her own right! Awesome how it worked out here. As far as the head thing goes: yep! It’s a cold pack! I’ve actually had to wear a cold pack on my head basically 24/7 for 8 years or so, so I’ve gone through a fair number (included typical blue gel ones that I jerry-rigged around my head with a sports headband) it brands, styles, and this brand has been mr favorite, and the brand name is “Headache Hat.” I’ll link their main shop page here, but they’re also on Amazon. The double-row one I’m wearing here is what’s called the “headache halo,” whereas their roginsk “headache hat” of which I’ve had 2, have 3 rows of cubes that are movable and removable as needed. I also have one of the single row wraps, thought I don’t use that one on my head much, and I have their Headache Hat GO, which is also 2 rows, but the two rows of cubes are fixed and all on one sheet, so not adjustable. theheadachehat.com/collections/frontpage

[@sarahallegra6239]

@@BeccaDoss Oh please don’t ever feel like you need to apologize for taking time to respond! It often takes me a while too, especially if it’s something I want to anywhere near in-depth or thoughtful about. You’re all good! Please pace yourself and take the time you need, even if that means not responding, it’s ok! That said, thank you for your empathetic and kind response, you are always so sincere and I love that about you! I’m sorry that you can relate to my problems personally as well though. I was talking to a friend of mine who also has ME and he mentioned someone who was cured, but said that the way they cured themselves was throwing $150,000 at it, just absolutely every treatment available and seeing what stuck. How is that supposed to be doable for a normal person, let alone someone so sick they can’t work? It’s very frustrating. But I’m researching ways to get traction on a GoFundMe campaign and I’m trying to stay hopeful that I’ll be able to try the treatment eventually at least, even if it takes ten years (although maybe it’ll come down in price in that time!). I hope the same for you, that you’re able to try everything and anything that you want. Healthcare is a human right and shouldn’t hinge on how wealthy we are. I’m eyeing countries like Sweden, Switzerland and the Netherlands with envy 😉 Thanks so much for the info about your head wrap ice packs! I had an idea like ten years ago to make a helmet of ice packs to cover your whole head. I never did anything with it, but I think these people had a similar idea and made it better than I could have! I’m so glad these offer you some amount of relief, though of course I wish you didn’t need them at all. I might have to try that out! It’s about to get hot where I live and the heat makes me feel a hundred times worse. This seems like it would really help with that! Thank you again for all the info and your very sweet response! But please don’t ever feel bad if you’re not up to replying, I get it. 😊

[@Outsider214]

I found Ren through reaction video's and I'm so thankful. He is without doubt a remarkable artist. I have to say this reaction is the best I've seen

[@BeccaDoss]

I agree, Ren is absolutely remarkable! So glad you found Ren, and very thankful to have you here.😊 Thank you so much for your kind words, they really mean the world to me. Hope you’re taking care of yourself, friend.💕

[@Dradavic]

You are amazing. This reaction really hit my heart.

[@BeccaDoss]

Thank you, friend. I’m glad you were able to resonate with it. Sending virtual hugs (if wanted/consented).💕🫶🏼

[@stephenlouwbiokineticist4127]

Well done! This was a remarkable reaction.

[@BeccaDoss]

I’m so glad you enjoyed this one, Stephen! Thank you!💕

[@andrewkaldas3337]

5:44 Thank you, I love that you caught this; I am more than thankful that part in him was there loosening that rope. That image of walking around in a floating chalk outline - is so real in what it is describing of the living experience of having been alienated from freely accepting oneself in hope. I honestly can't think of a song that could replace this one for me. Thank you so much for your reaction, honesty, and heart💖 #subscribed for sure

[@BeccaDoss]

I have been trying to think of an adequate response to this all day, and I’m coming up empty handed, because I literally couldn’t have said it better myself. Really thankful you’re here!💕

[@RedWill42]

I intentionally waited on this song to watch your reaction first. In no way do I mean this as a negative towards your struggle, but to see the pure emotion from your own personal experience along with the power of the song, the tears, the huge smiles at the high moments. You make the song as much as Ren does. Always a pleasure.

[@BeccaDoss]

I read this shortly after it came in, but didn’t have the brown power to reply. It means SO freaking much to me that you waited on this one to watch my reaction, seriously, that’s just surreal to Mrs I’m so glad you were able to connect with/feel the emotions I had on display. I always tell everyone, when you see me express any strong emotion, whether laughter, tears, anger, etc., it’s all 100% raw and real, because I am notoriously bad at faking emotion.💕 Really appreciate you, always.

[@Parula06]

Thank you so much for your heartfelt reaction. Checked in after finishing work and - tears, but good ones. Ren brings out the best in everybody he collaborates with, in my opinion. Check out his other piece with Chinchilla, "How To Be Me". Spectacular.

[@BeccaDoss]

Looking forward to it, thanks for the rec AND for checking in!💕

[@P_B_FR]

​@@BeccaDoss little bit of context for how to be me: Ren wrote the song for his friend who had recently committed suicide, and I believe that it's recorded on the same bridge that he did it (I'm not too sure if that's true, but I'm sure someone else can jump in and correct me if im wrong)

[@drew10981]

I've fallen down the Ren reaction video rabbit hole and have greatly enjoyed probably 30 different reactions to Chalk Outlines. Hearing the perspective and interpretation of a wide variety of people from different backgrounds has been incredibly gratifying and educational for me personally. Of those wide range of reaction videos I've never found one that holds a candle to yours. Your deciphering and breaking down of the lyrics and the meanings/double meanings is exceptional. Then with the added very real very personal connection to Ren's own background with your struggles with Lyme disease, I have to say this is by far my most favorite reaction video I've watched yet. You really do help enlighten for people like me who don't suffer from chronic disease, from chronic suffering, begin to understand what that longing for healing, that dreading of healing, feels like. Thank you for putting yourself out there in a similar yet different way that Ren has with his music.

[@elenaorujev3494]

This song hits so very hard - it’s gorgeous and so emotional. I cry every time! Thank you for being so open and vulnerable.

[@BeccaDoss]

Thank you for taking time to stop by-it really is a painfully beautiful masterpiece.💕

[@emilianoserranosouza1991]

Thank you so much,this reaction was awesome!!

[@maxviking3210]

That was powerful . Such an amazing song. I watched so many reactions but this was the best. I liked how much each line means for you.

[@BeccaDoss]

I am SO glad to hear you really enjoyed this one. This is still probably one of my favorite Ren songs, even though I’ve done many more since this one. Thanks for letting me know you appreciate the emotional aspect to my reaction, here. I’m notoriously bad at faking emotion, so everything you see here is 100% authentic reaction to every line, and every word. Thank you so much for letting me know you were able to connect with it.💕

[@AngelaBee_13]

Beautiful reaction. So brave, expressive and articulate 💕

[@tattoodude8946]

With shows like American Idol and The Voice, "the industry" digs for those perfect singers. I will take a singer that breathes life and heart into the music over that any day of the week. Don't get me wrong, both Ren and Chinchilla have amazing voices and technique, but it is the sincerity and emotion they sing with that gives it its power. You can tell - they have been there; they have dealt with issues and had to dig their way out of the ditch. Heart and soul are way more important than perfect pitch with every note. Emotion is conveyed in the way the line is put forth and if the pitch is perfect every time, it loses that. You need the fluctuations and tension and that shaky note that lets us know that you are just holding on. And when someone sings from the heart, as Chinchilla and Ren did with this piece, you just know.

[@BeccaDoss]

I am right there with you. I’ll take emotional and heartfelt over perfectly polished ANY DAY.💕💕

[@citizenxxxxx]

I think that’s one reason why people have reacted with so much emotion and awe. We’re tired of the same old soulless, meaningless crappy music that feels like background noise. Just like everything else these days it’s all about mass production, cookie cutter houses, and pop stars who sing about superfluous things, and show so little passion. I think we’ve been apathetic, and Ren woke us up. We can feel again and I love it!

[@jasonbuckley4118]

i only recently got into the rabbit hole of Ren and the more reactions to Fighters like yourself the more it Resonates with me. Ren has Cleared all Reactors to Appeal all Copystrikes and believe in your words and feelings, he watches alot of reactors so i hope you the much love you deserve from him (he's very humble) i Don't comepletly think you will read the whole thing, But i would appreiate it if you do. Thank you

[@BeccaDoss]

I don’t have the brain power to reply fully, it I wanted to tell you I absolutely DID read every word, and I appreciate you immensely for taking time to share so much of your own story. I don’t take that lightly. It means a lot.💕

[@JonnyBarmCake]

This is the most heartfelt reaction I have ever watched. You are a warrior. I have autoimmune disease l, I have been a fighter for 27 years. There is no cure for what I have. But you are showing the world that we are made to be bent and broken ( Ren lyrics lol) Keep on being you and the world is a better place. Much love and respect from m the UK xx

[@Luke_wait_for_it_marengo]

Like many of us we were not ready for this. Thankyou for this deeply honest reaction Becca. Consider me subscribed.

[@BeccaDoss]

Really, REALLY appreciate your support. Thank you, friend.💕

[@martinelewis2267]

Hi girl, you're right about the performance being so good that people like me who have never suffered from mental illness can feel the pain and the distress you are suffering. I was crying with you, and never again will I see your guys in the same way. Listening to Ren and spending a little time with you is life transforming. Thank You.

[@BeccaDoss]

I’m not exaggerating when I say reading comments like this is life transforming for me-never in my life did I ever think so many people could either understand, resonate, or take new knowledge from things I share. It’s a blessing to be able to connect with so many beautiful souls. Thank you.💕

[@richardatkinson6050]

This has been by far one of the best reactions I've seen, I really wish you all the best

[@BeccaDoss]

Thank you so much, Richard, I’m really glad you were able to enjoy it, and I appreciate your kind words and encouragement so much.💕

[@deniseglenn4691]

Loved this reaction. You are so open and vulnerable. So precious. Thanks for this. 🔥🔥🔥

[@BeccaDoss]

Thank you, Denise, so much.💕💕💕💕

[@julesdufresne7822]

Your reaction is genuine and felt in my heart. Thank you.

[@BeccaDoss]

Thank you so much, friend. I really appreciate your kind words and taking time to let me know you could connect to it. This comment was a gift to read.💕

[@JC-pq4ul]

I just. want to give you a big hug and tell you it will be ok. You are great in what you do and I wish you the best in your health recovery. Thank you for being so honest and sincere with this heart felt reaction!

[@BeccaDoss]

Thank you, JC, that is super kind and encouraging, I really appreciate it! It’s a blessing to know others are able to resonate and connect with what I share. 💕

[@briansmith9072]

Thanks so much for your incredible reaction. I am dealing with a bipolar condition for the last 30 years and this song really hit home. I wish you the very best In all of your struggles. Just by your reaction I and can tell what a special and amazing woman you are. Peace Brian The Dolphin Man

[@SterlingArcher21]

You are so beautiful in your pure emotions through your soul

[@shakesrear9204]

I love your reactions. So many reactors don't know what Ren's talking about in this song. "I'm scared of being OK" could sum up my whole life. I'm going to watch all of your reactions...

[@BeccaDoss]

Thank you so much, I’m really glad you’re enjoying my reactions, but I also hate to know that you understand firsthand what it’s like to be scared of being OK. I’m so sorry that you’re so familiar with that, but I hope you’re able to at least find some solace and camaraderie in knowing you’re not the only one.💕

[@watsonvillian]

It's amazing how big of a smile we can put on when we are experiencing an episode of pain. It took me years after geting off the medical industries nerve medications to unpack all that sorrow and other stuff hidden behind the smile I put on for years.

[@BeccaDoss]

Oh man, I relate to every single word you typed here, and I’m sorry you know that pain all too well firsthand. Thanks so much for taking time to watch and share a little bit of your own story. Connection really does help us heal.💕

[@KernowFishy]

I think being broken in record time is a healthy reaction to Ren. I've never felt understood to the extent that I do hearing his genius.

[@BeccaDoss]

I'm starting to believe you're right. He's definitely one of a kind.

[@gus2747]

Even though Crutch is one of his best videos. It's another heart breaking song . Don't do it for awhile. The same goes for Tale of Jenny and Screech. It's a brilliant video but oh so emotional , tragic and heartbreaking. I know people really like them as do I but honestly they are very emotional and you really should stick with his fun upbeat songs for awhile. The worst one and I don't recommend it at all is Money Game Part 1 It's my least favorite, but Money Game Part 2 is fun and brilliant. A super fun one is called "What You Want" It goes back to Old School music and has a lot of word play, you'll be smiling ear to ear listening and watching it.

[@bjmcmahon722]

Wanted to thank you for your very personal reaction here. Felt like i traveled the journey with you. Quite emotional lyrics and vocals of both #Ren & #Chinchilla ....so good.❤

[@BeccaDoss]

I’m so glad you were able to connect with this one, thank you so much for your kindness. This one is definitely such a special work of art, I’m just thankful I’m able to do any small part in helping others connect to it even more deeply.🩷

[@jontask9997]

Fabulous reaction video Becca. I hope you're doing good. Much ❤

[@endman30]

Love your reaction . I feel for you. I am 65 and died and was brought back thanks to my son. Stay strong please ❤️

[@AndyLongden]

Great reaction! Very intuitive. 👏🏻👏🏻

[@BeccaDoss]

Thank you!! 💕

[@suzannemurnane2714]

I got chills through the entire song. Great Reaction as always! As always, you are in my prayers!

[@BeccaDoss]

I really appreciate the prayers more than words can say, thank you so much for the kindness and support you’ve been showing on these videos, I’m so glad you’re enjoying them! And you’re absorbent right, this one gave me chills the whole way through. So hauntingly, cathartically beautiful, and somehow, simultaneously painful AND hopeful.

[@Stuart_Lonewolf_Holloway]

This one was as heartbreakingly hard and beautiful to watch as I feared. I don't know it feels to fight your fight, or Rens. But I do know how it feels to battle and struggle against a condition that most don't understand and downplay the consequences. It is so encouraging to see and hear other people be as honest, vulnerable and raw as you are. The more we see we are not alone we get the drive to never give up the fight. The fact that I cannot win is not a reason to accept defeat. It is OK to falter or lose ground but do long as you try you are strong. Keep being yourself as a source of encouragement and inspiration. The dance goes on. 🐺❤️

[@BeccaDoss]

"The fact that I cannot win is not a reason to accept defeat." MY FRIEND. You have no idea how much that sentence you typed struck a chord with my heart. I appreciate your whole comment and encouragement, but I wanted to let you know YOUR words made a difference.💕

[@mumblez22]

You are the first person I've seen out of 50+ reactions that got the double meanings of this song. First to understand what he means by "Chalk Outlines" Very refreshing to hear your perspective. If not for the camera I would have started my own reaction channel just to get the actual meaning out there. To bury your self in a smile as to make the world think you are ok when you are not is something I've done throughout life. Also to push it back down with a new habit.. to quit smoking ciggs I smoked weed instead, when trying to quit weed I drank alcohol instead..

[@BeccaDoss]

Thank you so much, I’m so glad you enjoyed it, and I’m glad I was able to deliver on that double meaning. I think those of us that have any similar firsthand experience are more prone to catch that than those who haven’t. Appreciate you.💕

[@kieranhunston8284]

Oh my god, one of the best reaction vids, you get it, you really do, thank you for sharing, not just the video but your emotions, so thank you from the bottom of my heart

[@BeccaDoss]

This touched my soul so much when I read it earlier, Kieran, thank you so very much. I’m very thankful you were able to enjoy this one, I try to be as open and vulnerable as possible, because I figure if I’m dealing with my own crap, the least I can do it be honest and open about it and let others know they’re not alone.💕

[@kieranhunston8284]

@Becca Doss well your certainly doing that, I dint know your situation, but I can tell youv gone through alot, and like us all we all battle daily, depression anxiety panic attacks, paranoia are ny main ones, So ren touches me on so many levels, it's unreal, sure others have spoken/sang about mental health, but most aren't sufferers, like us, so thank you again, iv shown both my psychiatrist and counsellor about ren, both are blown away, both said its given them a better insight to my head heart and body, they no longer throw pills at me and are committed to talking more

[@garychap8384]

Becca, I love watching your reactions to Ren... you're beautiful inside and out, and the way you feel it with all your heart is so wonderful to see. Keep being you. Big hugs from the UK. (+1 sub)

[@BeccaDoss]

So glad you've been able to enjoy them, it means the world to me. Take care of yourself.💕

[@pirobot668beta]

Being 'OK' feels like I found a precious jewel that I must hide away, before 'someone' sees it and tells me it isn't mine to keep. After a while, I learned not to trust 'good days'.

[@BeccaDoss]

Greg, that is a reality I know too well, and one far too many people know too well. My husband and I were actually talking about this very concept earlier this week. It's a hard place to be, but I try to remind myself that "nothing lasts forever...not even this." Which could seem depressing, that nothing good lasts forever, but it also means nothing bad lasts forever, and everything WILL eventually pass, even if it takes a lot longer than we'd like.

[@juliecooper-nm7cm]

Thank you for your honest reaction and sharing so much of yourself. I have been emotionally numbed by life and until discovering Ren’s music it has been over 15 years since I have cried. Your reactions to his songs have touched a chord in me and helped to further my return to humanity that I separated myself from in self defense. You are a strong woman!

[@BeccaDoss]

Thank you greatly, Julie. I don’t have adequate words to explain just how much your comment touched my soul in a powerful way. Thank you for stopping by and taking time to leave a comment.💕

[@AlteredgamingTV]

Coming from someone who suffers from alcohol addiction, this video really hits home, especially the way you've broken it down. And I think that you hit home with a lot of people in that way. So I want to thank you for that

[@BeccaDoss]

I’m so thankful to hear you were able to connect with not only this song, but my breakdown, too. This was one of the first few videos I posted once I decided to go all-in on reaction content for my channel, so I’ve refined my setup and recording process (making sure I rewind to not mess with the flow of things, etc.), and it blows my mind any time I get a comment on one of these earliest reactions because I think it shows just how powerful Ren’s music and message is. Whether I’m sitting on my bed (like I was here), or actually set up in my ‘recording corner,’ or anything else, his music still makes it so people can connect and resonate on a deep, human level, and that is just so freaking cool to me.😊 I’m sorry you’ve had to deal with the beast that is addiction of any kind. I hope you’ve been able to break free, or at least find ways to access that freedom sometimes. I know it’s a lifelong practice to not run back to it, and I’m sending you so much love and compassion as you’re walking that road.💕 Thank you for taking time to leave this comment, I’ve been kinda slow at getting to them lately, due to my own health stuff, but I saw this notification when I woke up and just felt compelled to respond. Hang in there, friend. Even if our battles are different in specifics, we’re all fighting for basically the same thing-freedom from bondage to whatever has us-and there’s at least a sense of camaraderie in that.🫂

[@TeresaFlowery]

I was proper choked up watching your reaction. Such a beautiful song ❤

[@BeccaDoss]

It really is such a beautiful song. I still can’t really make it through listening (or signing along) without crying, myself, much like I did here. Thank you for the encouragement and for letting me know you were able to connect with this one.

[@nightcrawler5696]

When I saw that you reacted to this song, my first reaction was: "Whoo boy...she's not ready for this one." I wasn't...from the lyrics, to the reverb in that hallway, to the chemistry between them, and the emotional weight they're able to portray...oh, my, my...

[@BeccaDoss]

Oh I definitely wasn’t. As you’ll see as the video goes on. Whoa, what a ride.

[@lloyd4301]

Hey Becca, another really insightful breakdown of a Ren song. Had to take a run up to watching this video as I knew it was also gonna be emotional!

[@BeccaDoss]

It was definitely an emotional ride, but I’m glad you were able to enjoy it. Hope you’re taking care of yourself.💕 Taking a little while to watch something you know is going to be emotional is a masterful example of self care.

[@blingbang2730]

This song kicks you straight in the feelings

[@BeccaDoss]

Couldn’t have said it better myself!

[@pjlafleur2804]

Great reaction. I have seen many for Ren. You are the best so far.

[@BeccaDoss]

Thank you so much for your kind words, friend, I’m so grateful for you.💕

[@ydo-bc5wj]

Thank you so much for sharing this reaction, and for putting words to the struggles of chronic illness.

[@BeccaDoss]

Any time. Thanks for stopping by.💕

[@bunnyshredderrl8689]

You are the best! Stay strong! Love your content!

[@jellyfission469]

I've cried alot to this song, but not this much. Beautiful reaction. It must be a trip watching Ren's journey in reverse and relating to it all. Bless you Becca.

[@BeccaDoss]

Thank you, Steve. I’m glad this song has been able to be a source of catharsis for you, as well. I know that’s what it’s been for me. It definitely is a trip watching his journey as he’s finally starting to come through the other side, and then diving back into the bat catalog along with the present day stuff and seeing how it all connects… It’s really been an amazing time. And the relatability gives me chills every time. Really appreciate you.💕

[@PeteAxeShields]

I just knew, after watching your reaction video to HI REN that you would be the first to fully explain the CHALK OUTLINE analogy Becca ..... another beautifully heart felt and powerful reaction. You are a genuinely beautiful soul. God Bless 🙏

[@BeccaDoss]

I am SO glad you were able to watch and enjoy this one, too, Peter, thank you from the bottom of my heart. Appreciate you.🙏💕

[@rat4spd]

What an insightful analysis. It's such an emotional song/ video.

[@tavorzaalelkazam]

You have a truly beautiful soul. And I could not agree more with everything you said. Every time I hear this song it makes me remember all I have been through and am still struggling with.

[@BeccaDoss]

I’m so glad you enjoyed the video, and thank you so much for your kind words. I’m sorry you know the pain and struggle so well, and I’m sending so much love and compassion and hope for peace amidst the chaos.💕

[@kasperorganics-organiccott6881]

I love your reaction. I have chronic pain and been dealing with mental health 4 as long as I can remember. I discovered Hi Ren while waiting for a phone call from my therapist. Quite a coincidence. Or something? Is was pretty intense. I was real sick so I had an excuse to lay in bed all day listening to Hi Ren and watching reaction vids. What a gift he is to the world. I'm a little obsessed. I'm a 66 year old woman. And I'll bet he has fans of all ages. I hope he gets a full recovery, and I hope you do, too. But I know from personal experience that it's not a simple thing with a clear path. I actually kinda hate it when people say "I hope you get better soon." LOL I know they mean well, but sometimes what we crave is to be understood more than to be well-wished. That's why Ren's music has hit me so hard and deep. I'm so grateful to him.

[@BeccaDoss]

I’m not typically a huge believer in coincidence, so I tend to think, when things like yo serendipitously, it’s because there’s a bigger picture at play, and we come across the things we need to see/hear/encounter when we need them. It sounds to me like that’s what happened when you found Hi Ren while waiting for your therapist to call. That gave me chills to read. From all the feedback I’ve seen, he really does have fans of all ages, and all walks of life, and even with our differences, he’s found a way to unify us all around our shared, common humanity, and that’s the mark of a REALLY special artist. And I’m with you, the whole “get well soon” can sting to hear, even if it’s said with the best of intentions, especially if we know we’re dealing with chronic conditions that don’t just go away or get better. I’m glad Ren’s music has been able to help you feel seen and understood, and I really appreciate you taking time to share this here.💕

[@Jlk-rm1jv]

What a brilliant reaction!

[@BeccaDoss]

Thank you so much!

[@Cynthiabecker24]

Stunning review.....Ren and Chinchilla sing so magnificently together. Thanks Becca❤

[@BeccaDoss]

Thank YOU! And they really are a perfect complement to each other when singing. So beautiful!

[@scottlaurenson3390]

Hi Becca...... What you want is what you want..😁😁😁 great up tempo fun hip hop track.... And the Hunger for the best Rapping I have ever heard stay strong 💪 Dr Ren is helping us all 🎼🎸🎶✌️❤️🏴󠁧󠁢󠁳󠁣󠁴󠁿

[@DyvmSlorm]

Your explanation of first reactions at the end is exactly why I can not be a reactor! Hope it's a good week for everyone.

[@BeccaDoss]

Being a music junkie, it’s REALLY hard not to get that instant gratification, but I’ve been enjoying this journey WITH y’all so much I’ve been making myself hold off!

[@mumblez22]

You are an amazing human being for getting through the things you have. I hope the fight keeps getting easier as time goes on. Thank you for reacting to Ren, he needs our support for his recovery.

[@BeccaDoss]

Really appreciate you taking time to stop by and continually be so encouraging with your comments. It's been a blessing to be able to react to his music alongside this community.

[@moonfyps9307]

Only 4 minutes in and I love it already. Raw and pure emotion, just like Ren. Thank you so much for sharing these reactions with us.❤

[@BeccaDoss]

Thank YOU for taking to watch and leave such an encouraging comment!

[@moonfyps9307]

@@BeccaDoss Anytime. :)

[@jamesdodson2022]

This song gets me every time.

[@steveames5797]

My feels and yours appear to be aligned - what an amazing experience. I appreciate your honesty and openness. Cheers.

[@BeccaDoss]

Always nice to know others can resonate. Thanks for stopping by and letting me know. Take care of yourself.

[@kennysoriginalmusicchannel5916]

Great reaction! Crying right along with u.

[@terryadler9655]

The way they stair in to each others eyes while singing is so powerful.

[@BeccaDoss]

Agreed!

[@allybandy3047]

Throwing some universal love in your direction. ♥ Living this song too, and was brought to tears by your understanding of the lyrics. Not everyone gets the depth of pain empathy that I felt from you. In year 19 of my autoimmune disorders and days of bed nesting.

[@BeccaDoss]

You definitely also understand it more than many, and I’m so sorry to hear of your own pain and struggles, I hope you’ve been able to at least find some catharsis in music, because I definitely know I have. I really appreciate you taking time to stop by; take care of yourself.💕

[@andrewkaldas3337]

That phrase "the feeling goes when you draw a chalk outline" illustrates the self-talk in one's own heart but I have to say... The feeling doesn't go anywhere, in my personal experience, without addressing/facing forthrightly/accepting humbly oneself + reality. Your commentary is all excellent ♥️

[@BeccaDoss]

You’re so right. And it takes a lot of time, courage, and trial and error to address those things, and I know many of us (including me) tend to want to give up when it’s taking what we perceive as “too long.” But there is no “right” timeline, there’s only the time it takes, and it just takes the time it takes.💕

[@BrutalDamage]

As a fellow Lyme Warrior, this was the most honest and relatable reaction to the song that I've seen. I've got neurological Lyme which has affected my vision, balance, nausea, and so much more. I'm on year 10 of my journey and boy I relate to every word you said, and every emotion you felt. I had about a year and a half straight where I would have 4-6 hours of panic attacks every day, and was vomiting 3x a day with how bad the nausea was. I'm further along my recovery now but still unable to work, drive, or even wear glasses. Please know that you sharing how you felt has helped validate my feelings. Thank you so much, we will get through this. 💚

[@BeccaDoss]

Oh friend, I am so sorry to hear you know this battle so well firsthand. It’s a hell we wouldn’t wish on anyone. I’m so glad to hear you’re further along in your healing than you once were, and I’m there with you when it comes to Lyme, further along than I was years ago, but I know we’ve still got healing to do, and it’s my hope and prayer you’re able to find that continued healing and can get back to even more of your life. Thank you so much for taking time to reach out and share a bit of your story. I’m grateful to know you were able to resonate/connect with this one, though I also hate knowing that, because I wish you didn’t have to understand it firsthand. But since you did, I’m so glad this World Wide Web brought us together. All of your feelings have always been, are, and always will be valid. And you are definitely not alone, even when I know it can feel like we are. Appreciate you so much.💕💚

[@bohegelundstergaard9983]

Powerful reaction🙏❤️ i wish you all the best today and in the future❤️

[@BeccaDoss]

Thank you! Appreciate it.💕

[@rbbea]

Gosh! It’s amazing to see someone get it completely and connect with the song so well. Take care you ❤

[@BeccaDoss]

Thank you so much, I’m so glad you enjoyed it! Really appreciate you.

[@dominiquejackson6107]

I loved this reaction

[@BeccaDoss]

Dominique, this nearly brought me to tears, thank you for sharing. And I don’t say that simply because you brought up the issue of having difficulty crying over things that you think you “should“ cry over, but I say it because it’s true and I want you to know how deeply you touched my heart by sharing just part of your story. I’m so sorry you know this pain and suffering all too well, and I’m really glad I was able to shine a light on that line so it could take on that deeper meaning for you. I hope you’re able to find continued healing catharsis, whether it’s in songs like this, or in connecting to others who are reacting to and resonating with songs like this, and sharing similar experiences. Thank you so much for your kindness and for taking time to type all that out. I really appreciate you.💕🫂

[@stevenlemons2602]

You are amazing. Best wishes for your future and I hope that it is a bright one. I'm crying right now.

[@BeccaDoss]

Thank you, friend. Take care of yourself.💕

[@donaldmaclellan3998]

Loving your Ren reactions, another great one is patience, I've yet to see anyone react to it. ❤