Citizen Soldier - Still Breathing (Official Lyric Video)

Living is a victory when you've been to hell and back.
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[@darksol6668]

You know you're loved when not even a minute in, 30+ people already clicked, and you guys are incredible, you really are. To be through everything you must have and make music to let it out, it's an inspiration. You guys rock, keep up the amazing work!

[@CitizenSoldier]

Appreciate those words 🌬💙

[@zajanahnapoli1688]

@@CitizenSoldier you always do amazing on your songs and they always help me

[@lucifergaming2311]

@@CitizenSoldier every song you make is always getting into my heart so much that I had a cat called Randi and she was my first love that did been driven over by a car when I was away from home so I couldn't save her life and let my left leg be driven over instead so good job with the songs and keep doing a great job

[@lucifergaming2311]

and my cat was driven over around 2018 or 2019 and my thought went to suicide on the day that I did get the bad news from a neighbor so you all do an amazing song job

[@alyssawendigo]

@@lucifergaming2311 I’m sorry to hear that. I can relate to a cat I had a connection to when she passed away in 2021 from starving herself. 💔

[@StormRinger47]

"A broken heart's a brand new start. Tomorrow everything could change." Needed these words today. Thank you.

[@kalamadae]

Same here ❤️‍🩹

[@kanevivi]

Hope your doing ok.

[@Zarabeth9573]

Same

[@ryansparks2359]

That, but what got me the most was "You've had millions of reasons to bend and to break, but you're still alive and that's not a mistake. The war in your head tells a story that's still worth believing, because you're still breathing." That hit me the most I think because of my attempts with suicide in the past because I have terrible seizures literally every day and night. Bad ones. Chose to end my life one day when I was finally home alone. Was taking one last joint when magically, "Would Anyone Care" starts playing on my phone and I just break down. The words...the words I need to here in those moments. I'm 29 and still live with my parents because of my epilepsy. I can't go a day without a seizure and always need help. Makes me feel like a burden and more. Jake and all of CS are a Godsend. They have saved my life twice from suicide when songs just start playing at the moments they're needed. I'm not a man of God like some others are, but that's the closest to magick or some sign that ive ever come across in my life. Kyle, the drummer and artist even drew me up a Phoenix tattoo happily when the band heard of my story and the years I've suffered from them. Literally no life outside the house.

[@Lina-cn1bu]

❤❤❤❤❤

[@Jeff-ft2vo]

My 21 year old daughter struggles with mental illness. She turned me on to this band and its helped her and it for sure gives me perspective of what people go through. Thank you for the music and the message you guys are trying to address. Much love from Texas. Thank you guys

[@floofiepoofie69]

i hope your daughter will make it through, lots of love from poland

[@lillianastorm6985]

"You're still alive and that's not a mistake" This song is another masterpiece!! It gave me serious chills and has me in tears. Thank you guys for everything you do. You've help me, and so many others through the hard times. I can't thank you enough for saving my life through your music. Keep it up 💙💙💙

[@pauladrummond5772]

THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH. YES, I'M STILL BREATHING.

[@Aashbard01]

@@pauladrummond5772I'm glad to here that 🤗💕

[@WillowtheRainFawn]

I shouldn't be surprised at this point that every song ends up a masterpiece. Amazing song and work as always! ❤️

[@CitizenSoldier]

Glad to hear that 🌬💙

[@kingbeast9497]

@@CitizenSoldiervery good thank you

[@Austin_BlueNight_official]

I wanted to end it all a few weeks ago before I discovered his song. After hearing it, I put my knife away and just listened to this song for literal hours. This song, quite literally, saved my life

[@IIneptunite]

Hey, im very glad this song has had such an impact on you! I'm glad you're still here, I admire you for staying strong ❤You can talk to me whenever

[@Steveburger_]

Sent this to a suicidal friend a while back. I remember the video was 4 days old and he was thinking of ending it all and refused to talk to me until I sent him this song. It was an unforgettable night and y'all very well could have saved his life then and there. Love y'all, "Through Hell" is a banger!

[@music_horror]

"You're alive, you survived and the proof is in your pulse" needed those words today, thank you

[@dalewikfors9194]

Stay alive. PLEASE! Keep breathing. Suicide takes much more than just a life! It takes the souls, hopes and dreams of every one that loves you. Rest in peace my dear son, Nick. We miss you and cry everyday, all day.

[@justincapoquian5575]

I've more or less gave up on having a better life, but this song made me believe that there's still hope, as long as I'm still breathing. Thank you so much for this. 💙

[@CitizenSoldier]

Glad the music helps Justin 🌬💙 Much love

[@tracydeyhle4688]

@@CitizenSoldier a Dear friend (who I look at more as family than just a friend) sent this to me tonight through Fb DM. She knows I am going through so very much, that I am just about to say screw it and leave this life even though I would be leaving the 3 grands I love the most (even though they have been told I don't love or want to be around them by daughters boyfriend who is abusive to me as well). Anyway, I've listened to this song 4x already and it gave me the message that I AM HERE FOR A REASON, THINGS WILL IMPROVE, AND SINCE GOD STILL IS LETTING ME BREATH, I DO HAVE A REASON TO PUSH FORWARD. THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THIS SONG!

[@meeksnuu]

"but you're still alive and that's not a mistake" this verse is just,, wow. I almost cried hearing it. You guys are making this year easier for many of us 🖤

[@AvengeMajor]

Some real facts init

[@princess-fd6vm]

"You've been through hell, you blame yourself, a painful past you can't forgive" "You made it through your darkest days" that hit hard for me

[@amberkluttz]

Hit hard for me too.

[@intellectualrebel5340]

It did for me too.

[@Aiden-hv2fw]

same..

[@Aiden-hv2fw]

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[@tony7237]

Another amazing, emotional song that is relatable and outstanding. This is Citizen Soldier, an underrated band that always makes some of the most meaningful songs out there. We all love you Citizen Soldier! 💙

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thanks Tony 🌬💙

[@northwest_photography]

Another artist that I think is underrated and has similar music to citizen soldiers music is neffex

[@elizabethblott4735]

Def underrated. I try to share them with as many people as possible. I wanna see them go huge🤍

[@leonmislo]

Oh man, I gonna cry. This song is just a lifesaver! 🥺 You help so much people to get through there darkest days and this song is another proof for it. Your music is the voice for so many unsaid things in our minds! Thank you so much CS! 💙🌬

[@CitizenSoldier]

Much love Leon 🌬💙

[@TomWhite-ew3qi]

This song speaks so deeply to my trauma and anxiety/panic attacks. I first came across this song as I was nearing the end of my first year in college in 2022

[@Aashbard01]

For those who are fighting, for those who have fought and for those who have struggled, this song is for you May the Lord be with you

[@LegionoftheBlackStar]

Thank you for this one, Citizen Soldier. As I suffer with depression and a personality disorder that left me with severe self-hatred, I always found it truly difficult to see anything in a better light. 15 years of this struggle and I'm tired of it. Deep inside of me, something wants to keep on living. It's the only thing resisting what I call the "Liar in My Head" and its malicious words that put me down. However, I still struggle with doubt that shatters the confidence that I do successfully build. These words of confidence alongside the ones from your song "Irreplaceable" give me the strength to rebuild what I lose every day in my most depressing moments. I'll use them to give me the courage to say no to the Liar in My Head and deny it. I'm still breathing. I'm still alive and surviving into the next day and that is an accomplishment in its own right, especially for someone like me that possessed no hope in living. So, I'll keep on going. I'll keep on breathing into the next day and beyond. Here's to the success of my goals of becoming a novelist coming true.

[@rcarpenter3]

Rock on, bud. You got this, with the power of CS behind you (:

[@sapnarai3139]

God bless you

[@LizA-fx4oi]

Yes we will survive, until we can live again (normal people live we... we survive or exist.)

[@rhiannonbarwick1135]

I also have desperation and bpd and songs like these help. It’s a struggle getting through every day but something inside me wants to keep going

[@erichhesse6853]

Yesterday I had the strongest craving to given in to my addiction. I am an alcoholic and I have been sober now for 3 months and 13 days. Before December I had 10+ years sober. One night, one drink, that's all it took to reset my clock to day 1. All that was to say that your music got.me through it. Thank you.

[@JC-bq3vd]

"You've had millions of reasons to bend and to break but your still alive and that's not a mistake." 🖤💙

[@gregfox1569]

When I heard the first lines of this song in the teaser, I knew this would be special. As someone who several years ago held a gun to his head, there is nothing more special than what this song conveys. I have listened to many of Citizen Soldier's songs, have a t-shirt, but never commented on a song until now. I was a victim of emotional abuse and it nearly killed me. If you are struggling in any way, please listen to this song and find the help you deserve. You are important, you are valid, and you are still breathing. Much love to those who continue to give us this music we can relate to and heal with. You are truly amazing and I am grateful for this music!

[@tracyvilleneuve8990]

I'm happy you are here. Thanks for sharing. I was also mentally abused. Hugs.

[@lucarioflame]

I really needed this badly

[@CitizenSoldier]

Glad the music helps 🌬💙

[@chrismcabee4201]

Such an amazing song!

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thanks Chris 🌬💙

[@moviewatcher7255]

As an aspiring writer, those quotes like, "There's no one else who can write your story" really stick out to me. Sometimes, they're just what I need when I'm feeling stuck in a project. Thank you guys for the awesome music you put out.

[@kirocontoy]

There was this 14 year old that butchered her skin and hair. Abused herself mentally and physically. I took notice of the little signs because the girl was quite good at hiding things. I enjoy making people smile and laugh. Life is too short to be unhappy. Became friends with this little girl and got her to open up to me. She didn’t have any friends and her father constantly yelled at her for little to no reason. Her mom did drigs and was a psycho. Things fell between my sister and the teens dad. A year later I saw the sweet girl at a Xmas party. The sweetheart cried and would not remove herself from my hug. My present was her telling me I saved her life. I had stopped her from killing herself and stop harming herself. My words of wisdom had been taken to heart and the young one has made a complete 180. This song makes me think of that. Makes me think of the friends I’ve lost. The thoughts I held in and sadness of not being able to help them. Makes me think of my own thoughts I push aside. Thank you for such another wonderful song CS. Thank you.

[@mobilemetalvocalcovers5209]

Thank you for your kindness toward that girl. I hope she is ok

[@Aashbard01]

@@mobilemetalvocalcovers5209me too

[@ArmyCSfan]

Each of your songs is very special. Each one has a different background sound , different lyrics and a different tempo.

[@CitizenSoldier]

Appreciate that Freya 🌬💙

[@IAmMoonAstraea]

Been waiting for this song! You guys have been helping me hold on and I can't thank you enough for that. I recently found you through “Would Anyone Care” and have been playing many of your songs on repeat, which I'm grateful to be able to do. ♡ I've even shared your music with my parents and they love it!

[@CitizenSoldier]

Glad the music helps 🌬💙

[@northwest_photography]

I found through thar song to

[@calumcartridge7411]

It was Caroline for me. Gotta love the recommendations, there gems hiding in the rough just like these brilliant people

[@Meekerleak]

As long as I’m breathing… I’m alive.

[@kalyps30]

"You've had millions of reasons to bend and to break. You're still alive and that's not a mistake" always gets to me. So many of your songs get to me.

[@kindracorbridge6118]

This is absolutely fantastic!! I love everything about this song!! The message is awesome and the instrumental intro is amazing!!

[@CitizenSoldier]

Appreciate that Kindra 🌬💙

[@nathanh.9767]

Citizen soldier out here saving my life 🖤🖤🖤

[@CitizenSoldier]

Appreciate you Nathan 🌬💙

[@nadiasssssss99]

Same

[@trudyjohnson9101]

I lost my husband 6 months ago when this song came out. Now I take care of my 75 yr old daddy. I'm watching him slowly decline. I'm still standing! I put out in the universe, love, kindness and compassion. I'm broken but only behind closed doors. 😪

[@baskins579]

This song hits home with me. The past 8 months have been hell, in that time I had a marriage of 13½ come to an end, was homeless for 5 months, lost half a toe, battled MRSA and Covid at the same time, survived 3 suicide attempts, pneumonia, 3 heart attacks, 2 strokes , been in cardogenic shock, 5 broken ribs, a punctured spleen and while in the hospital this last time while in ice was given fentanol and oxycodone at the same time and had to be narcaned.

[@baskins579]

Please forgive any typos as I have little use of my right hand.

[@Jason-go6gc]

There are too few artists today singing about mental illness and trying to uplift people. More than once, I have been close to ending it all. Your music helps more than you realize. Thank you for being a shining light in an otherwise dark world.

[@eavie461]

I have no words... Having felt stuff like being worthless and feeling useless and not allowed to be happy makes this song hit a bit hard. Just thank you 💙

[@MistahSoul]

The amount I relate to these songs is remarkable. Keep it up guys, incredible.

[@CitizenSoldier]

🌬💙

[@Horsemelody1084]

I know right??

[@stephenmcmichael717]

“I’ll never know your pain I’ve never walked in your shoes” Those two lines hit me more then the others because for the past few years I’ve heard so many stories from people who have been though dark times especially a comic book artist who I think been more hell then anyone else I have heard and yet despite that I can’t fully sympathies with them because I have never been thought the pain and suffering they’ve been though. Thank you so much for making this song citizen soldier as I’m 1000% sure this means so much to so many people right now.

[@phdinsimpology]

“You’re on the ledge but not the end.” I think this whenever I feel done with everything🥺💕

[@timothy21teague]

Omg. Another great and touching song guys. Thank you so much!!! Love your music

[@CitizenSoldier]

Appreciate you Timothy 🌬💙

[@brachalevy1363]

I nearly cried when I heard this song for this first time. Someone actually understands me!! ❤ fingers crossed to you citizen soldier. 👏👏

[@Catluver-bk5kj]

I had a plan to end my life last new years. people like you save lives.🖤bless you. 💖

[@autumnbryan6042]

Ever since discovering you guys, I honestly feel like there's finally music I can really connect with and relate to in so many way plus it's always so inspirational. Thank you for making music Citizen Soldier and please keep up the amazing work, it's changed my life and I'm sure it's also changed the lives of many others ❤❤❤

[@BusterAnimations]

Omg, thank you for this song. I struggled with depression and suicide when I was younger. I'm still here but I sometimes find myself thinking, "Did I make the right choice?" This song has reminded me that it was worth it. It was worth seeing my little sis grow. It is worth still fighting. Thank you Citizen Soldier. You are the soldiers I needed

[@LightWolf98626]

I came to a point of my life where I wanted to be done with this world for years. But listening to your songs have pulled me out of the darkness. I can't thank you how much you guys have helped me with your songs! You guys are amazing 🙂

[@adelishope]

I recently found out about your band. I do not know how you do it, but your songs is definitely something that needs to be heard. All words are so right, so bright, so motivating. Listening to your songs, I feel the strength to move on, I hope that everything will be alright. Thank you very much for your songs, for these wonderful feelings, for this amazing power ❤❤❤ You're amazing and you're doing a great job ✨✨✨

[@EternalRiver90]

Beautiful. Especially the harmonizing with yourself at the end... I have tried to stop breathing many times... and I still struggle with wanting to keep breathing but I’m doing my best everyday... Thank you for giving myself and others hope to keep going...

[@meadowfawn937]

Keep going you got this you can do this I believe in you and I'm glad your still here and still breathing 💜💙;

[@EternalRiver90]

@@meadowfawn937 Thank you so much love, that means a lot to me ❤️

[@meadowfawn937]

@@EternalRiver90 no problem I'm here anytime ☺️

[@pedromok7]

MUY BUENOS DÍAS... AGUANTE MI BANDA FAVORITA... LOVE SONG(S), MIS SALUDOS GENTE !!

[@CitizenSoldier]

Gracias Pedro 🌬💙

[@amberlynnepattison910]

I’ve played this song so much my 3 year old niece started singing it and it melted my hurt it was so cute ….

[@kucak7835]

'Still Breathing' lyrics: I'll never know your pain, I've never walked in your shoes I know your life ain't fair, I know it's damn near killed you You've been through hell, you blame yourself, a painful past you can't forgive You had no help but time will tell if it's a curse or it's a gift But if you're still breathing, breathing You made it through your darkest days If your heart's still beating, beating Then you are gonna be okay You've had millions of reasons to bend and to break But you're still alive and that's not a mistake The war in your head tells a story that's still Worth believing, 'cause you're still breathing 'Cause you're still breathing 'Cause you're still breathing If you've been up all night thinking it won't get better No need to wear your scars like a scarlet letter You're on the ledge but not the end, it helped you see another way A broken heart, a brand new start, tomorrow everything could change 'Cause if you're still breathing, breathing You made it through your darkest days If your heart's still beating, beating Then you are gonna be okay You've had millions of reasons to bend and to break But you're still alive and that's not a mistake The war in your head tells a story that's still Worth believing, 'cause you're still breathing You're alive, you survived It's a sign and the proof is in your pulse Brighter stars only shine in the dark You are stronger than you know You are stronger than you know You are stronger than you know So if you're still breathing, breathing (you're still breathing) You made it through your darkest days If your heart's still beating, beating (your heart's still beating) Then you're gonna be okay You've had millions of reasons to bend and to break (you're not dead) But you're still alive and that's not a mistake The war in your head tells a story that's still Worth believing, 'cause you're still breathing

[@alexanderreiter9081]

You have no idea how much I needed this I will never be able to thank you enough

[@CitizenSoldier]

Glad the music helps Alexander 🌬💙

[@carleehall1405]

I have a friend whose sister just unalived herself 3 days ago and hearing that friend cry while telling me broke me deep inside. I tried to be strong for her I wish someone could have been there for her sister. It was hard and hurt so bad knowing what I knew about her.

[@WhispfurYT]

Extend a little love to your friend from me, I know the pain of losing someone you care deeply for, one of my friends committed a while ago, so I feel it

[@wendywilliams1327]

This band speaks what people feel but can't put into words. Got me through the dark days.

[@Wolfraynyte]

I'm shouldering a lot of burdens and responsibilities with not a bright future ahead, I usually just take a deep breath and pull through. I listened to this song many times before, but tonight I ugly cried when it played, I cracked when the burdens were pilling up. I still don't have a positive outlook in life, but after this cry and some encouraging lyrics from this song, I'm still fighting. Thank you.

[@UnpredictableAustin1224]

Definitely needed to hear this today. Such an incredible song

[@CitizenSoldier]

Glad the music helps 🌬💙

[@nicholehale1274]

Beautiful. Wonderful. Perfect. 💙💙💙 "The brightest stars only shine in the dark. You are stronger than you know." 🥰

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thanks Nichole 🌬💙

[@Sammy052]

Your musics are amazing! Please never disappear from our lives. Also to everyone who is reading this comment: you're strong because you're still here. Tomorrow still be better and even if that doesn't happen, one day you'll be rewarded for your patience so don't ever give up!

[@gothfoxgirlAO3]

Every single song manages to make me cry.

[@elizabethcashbaugh]

I love this song. Just what I need to avoid cutting. Thank you Citizen Soldier.

[@CitizenSoldier]

Stay strong Elizabeth 🌬💙 Much love

[@Sheamuscz]

Please don't cut yourself, it only makes everything worse. Stay strong.

[@elizabethcashbaugh]

@@Sheamuscz thank you for your concern. I’m staying strong.

[@CarolMarineMom]

OMG!!!! THEY NEVER DISSAPOINT!!! SO UNDER RATED!!

[@CitizenSoldier]

🌬💙

[@Iamknwownastrouble]

Even at 24 years old and a mother and wife I still struggle with my mental health especially during the postpartum period with depression. It gets hard to put into words what to tell people about how im feeling or how to comprehend what is being told to me a lot of the time but you guys somehow manage to find the perfect words what needs to be said. Great song! 💜

[@kayliahbarnes7949]

This has become my fight song. This song makes me realize that my life is a gift not a curse and the past I had shouldn’t stop me from moving forward. ❤️ Thank you Citizen Soldier

[@brachalevy1363]

I feel u! Keep going strong .... "you're still alive and that's not a mistake..." 💪❤💪

[@LM-fw7ty]

Your songs are always so amazing , don’t know if I should cry or smile 😊

[@CitizenSoldier]

It's ok to cry and to smile 🌬💙

[@angelicaescobar8268]

What a beautiful song💙 I love the meaning behind each song Citizen Soldier releases. Truly what a blessing✨

[@CitizenSoldier]

Much love Angelica 🌬💙

[@lexieestrada8893]

"No need to wear your scars like a scarlet letter" This hits home for me. I have and still struggle with self-harm. But this song makes me feel proud to still be breathing. At 16 years old I faced things I hope no one ever has to. I have taken abuse to spare people I love from it. Share this song with those who are hurting. It's a life changer.

[@ashthesimpking0]

This song is definitely going to be sent to my best friend. We’ve both gone through hell. But he’s been going through abuse from his dad. I haven’t gone through physical abuse. Only emotional. But we’ve been there for each other. He was really close to giving up a few weeks ago. I was there for him to vent. He stayed, because of me. Another great song! 💜💙

[@mobilemetalvocalcovers5209]

Used to struggle with suicidal thoughts during a toxic marriage with a kid involved. This song is a beautiful reflection for me of how far I’ve come and how much I’ve overcome. God bless you guys for using your music to help those who are mentally stricken and carrying the weight of the world. Thank you for helping me with my daily demons through your godsent music 🤘🏼🙏🏼😇❤️

[@jingsilverfang5173]

This song makes me see the hardship that my girlfriend is going through with all the hell she has gone through and everything that she has broke through to keep going. Citizen Soldier's music truly have made really be there to support the love of my life...I wouldn't be here today without the strength of her by my side💕😭

[@meadowfawn937]

I'm glad both of you are alive and still breathing both of you keep going you got this I believe in you both you matter and are loved 💙💜;

[@unholykn1ght92]

As a someone who lives with a person diagnosed with Depression and MFC, i can totally feelf that one. "You are stronger than you know" is what i tell her every time, when she seems to struggle. Iam so glad i came into her life and was able to be the change she needed so bad. For you guys. Keep up this colletion of masterpieces. part 1 was good already but i think Part 2 will outshine it by far.

[@prestondugger3105]

I had a best friend here recently try to end his life...but he made it through ive told him constantly theres a reason why hes still here and hes wanted so thank you for making this song...i broke down in tears listening to it, your music means the world to me and ill always be a fan🙏🙏🙏🙏

[@tristanfearless1189]

I only found you guys like a year ago and fell in love with your music and with songs like "Would Anyone Care" and "Just Be Happy". This one is yet another masterpiece I'm definitely adding to the playlist. Thank you so much for producing music like this, it's helped me through so many dark times for which I'm very grateful ❤ Keep up the amazing work

[@vishwasolanki5399]

Beautiful song

[@phoebereed.]

Gratitude to life's journey... Cheers to God for having you and me here today

[@jessyh.5249]

Citizen Soldier is the most underrated band of all time!

[@skylarangelheart9542]

I don’t know why but I always cry when I listen to their songs. It maybe because it forms feelings into words. Although I don’t have life as hard in this song it still reflects some of what I feel and that’s why I love citizen soldier.

[@heartshinestarburst758]

As a crisis worker, this song gives me a lot of life. I've been feeling burned out recently, but listening to this is soul healing. Thank you.

[@tracyvilleneuve8990]

Thank you for what you do.

[@bethg7026]

This song helped me so much over the last 10 days. My connective tissue disorder flared . I woke up on Saturday in so much pain, everywhere. And then it got worse on Sunday. And then I had to go to work with it - my employee was on vacation so I couldn't stay home. I had an earbud in all week at work to help distract me from the pain and the fear and the rage that my body did this to me and the embarrassment of having to use a crutch at work. And every time I got upset, I put this song on, took a deep breath and kept on going. And at night a few times there were others that let me wallow in my sorrow and cry it out. I've had more intense pain more often than my mind will allow me to remember. But this was just 10 days of unending pain. Not being able to walk at more than a snails pace. Muscles spasming. Gripping my steering wheel hurt. Random nerve pain shooting down my arm. Add on the sore achilles tendon from moving my ankle wrong and the back pain because i lifted my work bag wrong. And even worse than all the pain was the fear that maybe this wasn't a temporary thing. Maybe I moved wrong in my sleep and this time it wasn't just a herniated disc. Maybe this was somehow my new normal. Maybe it was another surgery - which is terrifying because painkillers don't work well for me and surgeries have a high rate of failure for people woth my disorder. In those 10 days, the worst part was the isolation, having no one to talk to about it. My husband isn't good at just listening and empathizing, he just wants it fixed - and there was no fixing this, so he just left me alone in the bedroom and took care of the kids. Some people at work asked me how I was feeling and it was obvious what they expected me to say, so I minimized it and joked about it. One person at work expressed true concern, and I almost cried when I could finally let someone know even a fraction of what I was going through. Music is therapy. Music is distraction for the mind. Music is inspiration. Music is the only way I made it through five days of work last week. Music is a release, as shown by the empty box of tissues by my bed. I finally started getting better this weekend. I'm nowhere near my version of normal, and I'm still terrified that I'm never getting back there. I've never had a flare this long or that intense. But, at the end of each day, I was still breathing. And today, I'm doing more than just breathing. Just not breathing too deeply because the stupid back spasm is still there...

[@iampray3463]

💔Very powerful and encouraging song! I still ask God to apply Isaiah 57:1 to me now…still breathing and the pain is beyond comprehension. Thank you Citizen Soldier.

[@iampray3463]

Lord Jesus during my countless seasons of extreme depression and despondency I have asked you for relief and healing. Your ways are higher than mine. There is a purpose in my pain, yet I constantly rehearse my demise because sometimes my suffering is too intense. Please forgive me for my sins and don’t allow my words to fuel someone else’s desire to leave this life. I thank you and praise you that I am not alone (even though it feels like it). I pray that each person who is struggling from any affliction (s) will cry out to you and that you would respond in a way that they would recognize that you are real and that you are a strong tower and a refuge. Thank you for not allowing me to harm myself. Help me to accept your will and not pursue mine..I love you Lord Jesus. To those who are reading this know that you are loved. Even if your belief is not in the God of the Bible, my prayer is that you will endure and make it through all of your hardships triumphantly🧗‍♂️❤️‍🩹🙏🏾

[@upsidedownsteph]

This so beautiful I can't stop crying (they're good tears) This is a song I wish my younger self could hear. I've been through so much and there's a lot of pain because of it. But that pain reminds me that I here and that my life has meaning. The trauma, the self harm scars, the pain.. It pushes me to continue living and moving forward Thank you again for another beautiful song and thank you for giving me music to lean on I'm my dark days. 💙💙💙

[@CitizenSoldier]

Appreciate you Steph 🌬💙 Thanks for your support always

[@myladynaynay]

If "Hallelujah (I'm Not Dead)" was a ballad, this would be it ❤❤❤ I loved this so much!

[@wanderer5766]

you are good people for having done what you do. I'm in a better place than I used to be now, and building my strength back up to get up and try again, and thank you for being there when I didn't really have much in the way of the support I needed.

[@rae3096]

I'm recovering from a suicide attempt and the line 'your alive and that's not a mistake' got me. Thankyou for so many fantastic songs that are helping me put into words for family and friends what I've been feeling for so long.

[@koltron5564]

I can’t express this enough this is by far my favorite and I cannot say how many things click that is true but this is my only way of saying that this means more than you could ever know . Thank you.

[@CitizenSoldier]

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[@TheNamesRise]

I love everything about this one. It hits every emotion perfectly, and it’s very encouraging!

[@CitizenSoldier]

That was the purpose 🌬💙

[@rylanriley8999]

Citizen Soldier I doubt that you will ever see this but I just wanted to say thank you. Your music has helped me in some incredibly difficult times in my life and I just want to thank you for existing

[@elisabarfuss3358]

I love you guys. I'm proud if you guys and I'm proud of everyone reading this message. 6 to 7 years ago, I almost made a choice that would of been permanent. I have felt guilty for feeling that way and for almost doing it. Your music is what has been helping cope and deal with what I still feel inside. My best friend (like a sibling to me) passed away last September, due to losing a battle with their mental health. I felt lost and numb when I found out. I've listened to your music to help me. Thank you for being there! I still have moments where it's a close call, but I'm still here! I love you all!

[@kevinhollis603]

This one really spoke for me, I'm thankful for my adoptive family, yall and so many more. Much appreciated

[@themeatmangler1425]

I didn’t know how much I needed this🥺

[@CitizenSoldier]

Glad it helps 🌬💙

[@jamesfarrel9887]

Song is saving a life as we speak. Love yall and what yall do.

[@amyhayes5785]

Through the panic/anxiety attacks PTSD and the multiple attempts I have had in the last few months. An the last one was two days ago. Trying to be better but it's so hard when everyone around me keeps pushing me.

[@darklink8376]

With your songs you are helping me through really hard times, like when I am crying or when I just feel down. You always show me that there are still other people out there that are also suffering, and that I am not alone with my problems. Thank you for all this great songs♥️♥️♥️!

[@RiveaNix]

Once again. Tears. Crying. Whenever I need it you guys somehow upload a song I need to hear. Thank you. For the music and for inspiring me to make what I do even further.

[@CitizenSoldier]

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[@fluffybunny0124]

Thanks, Citizen Soldier. Have a best and happiest days, okay ? ^^✨

[@nativeviper20xx37]

This song helped me so much. I understand what I have to fight for

[@bellarosencroix9836]

3:42am and hearing this for the first time, This sounds like me to the fullest, I am so shattered inside and always falling scars cover my wrist but I fight on for the love that is in my heart as big as it is, I am single now and finally got out of the 12 year abusive relationship I was in, All though I have tried day in and night out to share the love I have and help others the darkest truth is, As I help them rise I am falling further and further... I always put others first and for so long did the wrong things at one point, Living on today so broken and yet still trying to make others happy and lift them from their pains and sorrows, I only wonder why I am 32 now and still feeling like it would be easier to just throw the fight forever so I don't get hurt or suffer anymore in this world, However my heart will go on and I will continue onwards in hopes one day someone amazing will come into my life and everything will change, they will help me rise and become a better person as I already aim to do so each day, As the tears fall and the pain swells inside I will try to hold my head high and keep fighting onwards no matter how long it takes, I am working on lyrics but I... Don't know how to go about getting them looked at even and maybe making them better and better... I would wish someday I could sing or write for others... So that my lyrics can touch the hearts of people every where to help them understand pain more deeply and rise above it even bettering the.selves and knowing just how much they are precious in this world, Just as you do Citizen Soldiers... ^-^

[@Misterio2013]

Very good!

[@CitizenSoldier]

Glad to hear that 🌬💙

[@lisarowan4527]

I love your music 🎵🎶🎵🎶 it tells a story number 1 fan

[@oskarrafoss5857]

An amazing person sent me this song, what a masterpiece of a song. "You are still alive and that's not a mistake", as a christian, it makes me happy that the lyric is like that. I can not imagine a life without Him. And without family, now this amazing person who sent me this and for who she is, and my recent blessings, I would be down in a bad depression. Really nice, and a good reminder that "If you are still alive, it's not a mistake"

[@jesiah497]

I love this song! I finally had a break through in my own mental health. Something just clicked and the chaos inside me quieted down. I do want to say that all of your songs have gotten me through my darkest days and this one has captured the very essence of my journey as I was close to the edge myself a few times. Thank you for all you do and shining a light on Mental Health.

[@pcuser6539]

Love this stuff

[@CitizenSoldier]

Love that you love it 🌬💙

[@Whiplash_The_Wolf]

Not long ago I lost my mother to a drug overdose and this song has kept me moving so I appreciate all that you guys do

[@codydavidson1126]

24 yes old with 3 kids and won't hesitate to say I needed this even if it made me cry my eyes out. Thank you, yet again

[@lyrieth8833]

This song describes my life. I have had so many terrible things happen to me and the ones I love. I have hated myself my entire life and just as I was starting to love myself I almost died from a virus that attacked my brain not once but twice. I have a brain injury no one can see that I am sick all my health issues are not visible. Your music makes me feel not so alone. For that I thank you!

[@tracyvilleneuve8990]

Lyrieth. I also have a brain injury. No one sees it and thinks I'm okay, but I am not.