Citizen Soldier - Always December (Official Lyric Video)

[@that_one_simp]

When a song knows how you feel, and tells it like no one else ever could:

[@CitizenSoldier]

Here for you friend 💜

[@particleragdolls]

Same

[@larryearlvictor6289]

Same my friend

[@furytheshadow9044]

Same tho

[@A.I.marketing]

I was at a place like this but i got outta there and i reaaaaally hope y'll will get out of there oneday

[@kayleighbarnes6137]

I love the analogy here. Most people will associate December with happy things like Christmas or snow days or hot chocolate, but in this it's put in a more negative light. It's a beautifully twisted, tragic explanation of depression and fighting against it. Well done as always guys, keep up the awesome work! ❤

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thanks so much 💜

[@DanT3hMan]

overkill

[@rse_the_kitten1783]

I'm only at 2:09 and I love it!!

[@dianavandentillaart-kool9335]

I never feel happy in december 😟 I don't like Christmas 😟 My mother never likes her presents and always complains at the food and about the channel you watch on tv All the efford you put into it and no one appreciates it 😟 The only thing that makes me happy at Christmas is standing almost all day in the kitchen preparing food so I don't hear the ungratefull complains And helping people who have less than me, I always love to bring them a box full of food, add a lot of love and a suprise and give them a little bit of happyness in those dark days Or invite people who feel lonely at Christmas that's the only thing that makes me happy with Christmas And december is just a cold and dark month so yeah I can see a lot of similarities with depression I always wish I just could sleep thru december and just skip it... just wake up in the summer and feel the light and love 😟 Sending all the light and love to anyone who needs it 💜

[@vanessaarzadon4710]

December is my favorite month.. However the last December I remember is the worst December I ever had.. I guess I still have the feeling of fighting that tragic..

[@gemworld_ruler5477]

Well, now that there’s a new song, it’s time for me to fixate on Citizen soldier songs for like a week. Anyone else with me?

[@CitizenSoldier]

Love it 💜💜💜

[@jacobbrown466]

I do the same thing

[@brittanym.]

Lol absolutely!! 😀

[@shotgun9324]

Same here

[@mystic-ie9no]

I am

[@17snowflakes]

“The reasons this life is worth living get hard to remember when it’s always December” My soul felt that 😭💔

[@CitizenSoldier]

💜

[@IWas.ThereforeIAm.111]

Same here 😔

[@angelaingram9695]

​@CitizenSoldier ur just amzing and saved me and im sure so many more

[@gaylenstone9329]

Same here, it really is hard to remember

[@frankhembree2175]

Same here it's hard to remember my dad because it has been 8 years since he's been gone

[@MsSpooke]

"Snow is falling it's middle July" Canada

[@CitizenSoldier]

Haha I see what you did there 💜

[@seasea7872]

Lol, yeah. Canada for the win 🇨🇦

[@sayu5834]

honestly yeah

[@siennalarson7069]

Than what’s it like in December haha

[@seasea7872]

@@MsSpooke Oh, in Alberta it is snow for like 6 months, and then finally it warms up and snows

[@wulanrskn]

Look at you, surviving despite everything life has thrown at you. You're doing so well.

[@CitizenSoldier]

💜

[@digitalash1603]

I did nothing

[@tschaytschay4555]

Thanks.

[@silversnow-gamingchannel]

Thank you ❤

[@Ash-yl3zc]

And then you realize all youve been doing is sitting in your room reading and watching youtube

[@skyjust63]

Every song either makes me feel like "Hell yeah I'm a badass that can fight an army" or "I need someone to hold me because I'm gonna cry like a fountain." And I love it every time.

[@CitizenSoldier]

We hear you. Life is a roller coaster 💜

[@DireNight_Drnt_]

same here :-:

[@makayla_h_2000]

Same here 🖤

[@paulinabroberg3616]

As a December baby with depression for as long as I can recall, this song hits straight through the heart. It's always December in me, watching people live their lives as I look for a reason to live.

[@CitizenSoldier]

Appreciate you Paulina 💜

[@jobeattie8456]

December baby with depression too ❤️ keep holding on Paulina ❤️

[@mayflyrose8195]

Same here, december baby with depression. In the last 5 years I've lost 3 people, 2 of them in December the death date very close in time. Buried them respectively 2 days and 1 day before my birthday. It just brings back everything that went wrong. I used to love that month, but for a while it was very hard watching the days pass by as it gets closer (firstly because it just reminded me that i could have been spared all the suffering as i should've died before i turned 1 and then just because it always felt awkward celebrating a birthday, never really liked it). It was hard to overcome but i feel like the episodes are getting more and more rare. Keep holding on guys, it gets better 💜

[@ExplorerofSky1993]

Me as well. Born on the 31st. Depression for years and told my emotions were invalid. This song summed up a large chunk of my life very well.

[@isaac3818]

23rd for me, this song hits me on such a whole new level of feels

[@jasonburroughs820]

“It’sbeen getting old wishing I was dead” hits me so hard

[@delosriosanimations3721]

Same feels

[@grievensvhelm]

The feeling of something squeezing your chest whenever a certain thought comes by. Too much of it, you’ll sometimes think that you will have a heart disease soon, since it’s suffocating. You can’t go around tell other people about it or express such numbness for it’ll either trouble them or you’ll feel bad. You’re just there, not knowing what to do and is just breathing heavily. The coldness creeps on your feet- and the pain encompasses your heart.

[@CitizenSoldier]

We hear you 💜

[@mattyman051]

Exactly

[@Red_Kliff]

Everyday feels like an endless struggle digging through and endless amount of snow and an infinite winter. Suffocating, exhausting, depressing. Sometimes I'd rather just rest and never wake up.

[@CitizenSoldier]

We hear you. Stay strong friend 💜

[@LittleFrostyPrincess]

Same.... I just I want to sleep and don't awake again.... I'm desperate, lonely, trying to fight in a world that gave me back and never helps me, I just I am done.. I'm sinking, waiting this ends

[@galaxywolves1582]

Same

[@miriamk5571]

@@LittleFrostyPrincess Sending hugs

[@Sara-Bunz]

I say the same all the time, most wake from their nightmares, when I wake mine just begin!

[@brilliance381]

"But the reasons this life is worth living get hard to remember." Damn this hits way too hard. Good job Citizen Soldier!!

[@kittycatzuka]

I CAME AS SOON AS I GOT THE NOTIF. Always excited to get one from you guys.

[@CitizenSoldier]

Appreciate you. What did you think?

[@kittycatzuka]

I liked it. Can relate to the lyrics.

[@clipsyvideossatisfactorios9070]

x2

[@legion7968]

@@CitizenSoldier It is a good one. You guys know what you are doing. I may not get a song I can relate to but we always get a good one that is for sure.

[@alfredbyrd249]

@@CitizenSoldier amazing as always never disappointed you guys always deliver

[@taylarstratton2735]

The comparison of December like the seasonal depression, the lack of color and dullness to the constant battle many of us have. I'm loving this

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thanks Taylar 💜

[@miarascon7092]

Does anyone else feel like he’s singing to you specifically? It’s such a talent that he has to make me know that he understands and will help me fight

[@IWas.ThereforeIAm.111]

Yep I feel that too 💯

[@PrinceIsMyReligon]

Every song

[@stupidbrother3487]

I feel that every time

[@rittwolf148]

"I would rather lay here in my bed then face what's in my head" and "tried so hard to be brave but the reasons this life is worth living is hard to remember" and "I'm only free from it when I'm asleep" hit the hardest for me... Heck the whole song is so powerful! I love your music! While I do cry everytime I listen to your music it's kinda a good thing for me because it helps me feel something when I've been feeling completely numb and in pain at the same time. Thank you so much for your music!

[@CitizenSoldier]

Always! Appreciate you so much 💜

[@YaYa-hq9kt]

I feel you completely. While at the moment, I'm pretty stable, there are still times when I just want to lay there and not do a thing and ignore everything inside my head, but just can't. Or when I'm feeling so down and out that all I can do is take a nap. I actually found myself nearly bawling at TikTok videos made for those that are struggling with depression and when my parents called me for dinner, I had to stop in the bathroom to make sure they couldn't tell I was crying. There was a time in my life where I stayed up for hours on end each night watching videos or watching TV just so I would feel so tired I wouldn't think while I was falling asleep and I would pass out. And it was like that for a few weeks until I was forced to sleep around normal people times. If I'm being honest, I need a really good therapist...

[@rittwolf148]

@@YaYa-hq9kt I'm sorry for your struggles I wish the best for you and hope you find the help you're wanting

[@rittwolf148]

@@CitizenSoldier thank you!

[@therevanchist7066]

@@YaYa-hq9kt Heh I don't even need to share my story cause you've said it all. I'm practically living your life... or are you living mine? lol my point is, anytime you lay down feeling your worst, maybe you can find hope in knowing that you're not alone. We can make it through December. I believe in us!!

[@Beeleezbulb]

I think out of all my bands, this is the only one that actually engage with their fans. ♡No matter how cold or dark or lonely i get.. All i gotta remember is that someone out there loves me.

[@CitizenSoldier]

Here for you friend 💜💜💜

[@shadowhawk4164]

Definitely true, sorry if that didn’t make sense

[@lillianastorm6985]

"I'd rather just lay here in my bed than have to face what lives in my head" hit hard. Thank you guys so much for making such wonderful music, and for being such an inspiration to everyone 💜

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thanks Lilliana 💜

[@rinrik100]

Completely agree, seems it's time to stop and make summer in mind ☀

[@voyyoxe823]

"The reason this life is worth living is hard to remember" That really hit home. Great song c:

[@randomblob8996]

Yeah it's a great song... I hope you're doing okay... I'm sorry I know it's hard... Stay strong!!❤️😔

[@afroggg2244]

Yeah at this point I am only living to make sure my dog is taken care of, if it wasn't for her I would have ended it already

[@randomblob8996]

@@afroggg2244 what about your family, friends? Obviously I'm not in your situation your family/friends could be pure idiots for all I know but I hope you can find something else to love.

[@afroggg2244]

@@randomblob8996 not really because my social anxiety I have a difficult time making friends so I have none, and my parents just scream at my my mom most of the time wishes she didn't have me and my dad only pays attention to me if he wants me to get him something my extended family doesn't care much they don't even talk to me, I wish it was different but it's not so I am living for my dog I love her to much to die yet, but I am trying to be happier

[@randomblob8996]

@@afroggg2244 it's good that you're trying to be happier and I'm sorry for all the problems you're facing. I think you need to find someone/something else to live for otherwise once your dog passes, I'm afraid you won't be here you'll lose your will to live. I suggest (though you might not want my opinion) that you go places that make you happy even if it's just a walk in the sun or sitting in the shade under a tree while reading. Getting to know yourself better is the best way to do things that make you feel good/be happier. Keep trying and your dog must be really amazing (just like you even if you didn't realise it)

[@RAPIDSTUDIOSTV]

These songs are literally telling stories.. glad I found y'all.

[@CitizenSoldier]

💜

[@CatEchoes]

Woah, this is so beautifully sung and written. I love how it depicts numbness/feeling of no emotion so well

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thank you so much 💜

[@abbeymotzer4060]

I'm actually getting to that I'm so glad I can hear your songs citizen soldier. 💔💔💔

[@troyhosteen7358]

I'm going through alot but listening to your songs helps me and brings tears to my eyes🥺❤️keep up the great work with new songs I love you guys ❤️❤️

[@CitizenSoldier]

Love you too 💜 what did you think of this one?

[@troyhosteen7358]

@@CitizenSoldier this song really got to me I enjoy the song really amazing of what you created keep it up 💜💜💜

[@brilliance381]

Hey friend. We don't know each other but I wish you find the courage to fight your way out of whatever you're going through.

[@leonmislo]

Another one, another song to keep in repeat to feel with it. Till know this is for me the most beautiful song what I've ever heard, Always December the darkest month with the darkest thoughts...love the message behind this. Love you Citizen Soldier ! ❄💜;

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thanks friend 💜

[@michellelombard5908]

December 11th 2016, I lost my oldest brother. I miss him everyday and this song resonates more than I can explain.

[@mamame5519]

Fitting. My husband died in December. I have ptsd and fibromyalgia now because he f'ed with my head for 13 years. Trying to grieve and heal from trauma is hard. Thank God, Jesus is a ride or die kind of savior. No one else understands lol😅 Good song for bad days!

[@alexkinney1867]

Another song that describes my feelings better than I can. Such a relatable and impacting song. Well done👏

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thanks Alex 💜

[@NearLover15]

Sitting on my bed in tears, this song spoke to me so well with everything going on in my life, thank you for this song!! Please keep on writing

[@CitizenSoldier]

Will do. Much love Heather. We care about you 💜

[@sarahmiller1972]

Omg. It's like you're inside my mind. This hits so close to home.

[@CitizenSoldier]

Much love 💜

[@sarahmiller1972]

@@CitizenSoldier I wish I could fully explain how many hard times you have gotten me through. But no words seem good enough. You soothe many souls. Never change. 🖤💜🖤

[@dinestygamer8857]

"I would rather lay here in my bed, than have to face what lives here in my head, hell just being awake hurts much more than I could ever explain" idk but I relate to that so well and it hurts so much

[@CitizenSoldier]

Hang in there friend 💜

[@Beckhams18]

This is the GOAT of sad songs. I always liked December, and winter is my favorite season, but the meaning behind the lyrics hits deep. Depression gives a unique chill or cold feeling so the line about not escaping it because it's in your head is 100% accurate. Getting out of bed is very hard when you've lost your reason(s) for living. Thank you Citizen Sokdier for this masterpiece and all your music.

[@xenotriver]

Finally here! Can't wait to listen to it on repeat for the whole day

[@CitizenSoldier]

What did you think of it?

[@SirSinisterME]

@@CitizenSoldier IT WAS SICK.

[@xenotriver]

@@CitizenSoldier absolutely awesome both in imusic and lyrics but I feel like I'm missing something because it seems like the fact that it's specifically December means something more than Dark and cold And if it was explained during that great interview that happened recently then I'm sorry but I must've slept on that part. But I love it since I can just apply my recent breakup with the first person to ever love me... She's fighting her demons plus helping others fight as well, while best I can do is let others vent and say it's all right..

[@lucifergaming2311]

@@CitizenSoldier I love every song you make and how long does the take for you guys to make all of you songs?

[@Wildanimalrescue]

"it's been getting old, wishing I was dead" Why is this so relatable

[@Bunny_sweetheart]

Ooooh boy. December baby here can’t wait to cry my eyes out to this

[@HerondalesAngel]

Omg guys this is just so beautiful you always bring out the emotions in me right I'm my chest it's like I will burst with feeling , these lyrics are your best yet citizen soldier and Jake as usual your voice is just perfection 🥰 heart and soul of everything 🖤

[@rkimu.l.9953]

Ñ

[@guydudedudeguy9030]

This is why I like winter, it’s nice when it’s colder outside than within.

[@DemonLover1]

I swear, Citizen Soldier songs.. ALL are relatable to ALL of us... If nobody has your back, nobody understands.. These songs understand you, comment sections get it.. we're all listening to these songs on repeat for a reason, this comment section, the comment section in every other Citizen Soldier song, that's your real safe place. I truly bless you all, thank you for reading this, I believe your soul can make it through another day♥️

[@lihosbillai7976]

Yes their are fake friends.. BUT their will always be that one friend that always cared for you...And you can called him your best friend or best buddy...

[@CitizenSoldier]

Here for you friend 💜

[@FluffyArtiste20]

@@constanceackerman7763 Not everyone is the same. There are those who will use and abuse you and call themselves your friend. But there are those who will care about you and listen to your stories. Look for those kind of people. Don’t give up. You’ve only truly failed when you stop trying. So, keep trying. You’ll find someone out there who may need you just as much as you need them. 🤍💜

[@galaxy_mooncat779]

Your music is amazing especially when I fall into a deep dark pit of depression

[@CitizenSoldier]

What did you think of this one?

[@galaxy_mooncat779]

@@CitizenSoldier loved it

[@devi.village]

Agreed

[@nozelsilva1346]

How is it that they can make such great songs and convey those feelings? without a doubt, an incredible song

[@CitizenSoldier]

💜

[@noragiovanni5576]

I'm sitting at my computer, crying because this is the first time someone's been able to explain what it's like for me on a daily basis. I needed this today.

[@theoatmanite]

That's how I feel sometimes it's nice to know that God is still with me even though the hard times and even if I don't think he is , he's still there when no one else is 😊

[@CitizenSoldier]

Much love 💜

[@megand.3951]

6 months since my suicide attempt.. 6 long blurred months. I’m ready for the day I see more color, and my seasons are filled with hope. Thank you again for giving me a song that reminds me I’m not the only one in my head. I will travel anywhere to see you guys in concert.

[@CitizenSoldier]

Glad you’re still with us Megan 💜 Appreciate you

[@ghettosmurf5541]

Their music truly is a lifesaver. I drowned in my emotions most nights but their songs always find a way into my head. Their like the light in the dark.

[@ARC-0606]

I'm so glad you survived. Remember you are here for a reason. It's hard to remember that. I struggle to remember that. One day I'll write a book with people 's stories and when I'm ready if you want I'll share yours if you're comfortable. Because people's life stories always interest me I have no clue why.

[@TheBee7878]

LYRICS FOR YOU BEANS! Snow is falling, it's middle july Just another day here in my mind, Cant escape what's inside, ive been running my whole damn Life. Years go by but the colors wont change, Been so long since ive felt anything, feelings fading so fast like im watching my own life through Glass. No One Sees, But its Always December in me, No matter where i go its pouring rain In my head seasons never change, And its killing me No One Sees, But its Always December in me, Tried so hard to be brave, But the reasons this life is worth living, get hard to remember, When its Always December Black and white, Only colors i see, Sunless sky somehow stuck on repeat, But i hold it all down, Dont want anyone to feel this but me. I'm only free from it when i'm asleep, The more i think, The more i feel myself sink, Back to this empty place, It's a Nightmare i could never explain. No One Sees, But its Always December in me, No matter where i go its pouring rain In my head seasons never change, And its killing me No One Sees, But its Always December in me, Tried so hard to be brave, But the reasons this life is worth living, get hard to remember, Cant Outrun the cold, When its in my Head, In My Head. Its been getting Old, Wishing i was Dead, I Was Dead, As this Overcast Suffocates Me, I'm done waiting on some sign of Spring. I would rather lay here in my Bed, Then have to face what lives Here in my Head, Hell just being Awake Hurts much more than i could ever Explain. No One Sees, But its Always December in me, No matter where i go its pouring rain In my head seasons never change, And its killing me No One Sees, But its Always December in me, Tried so hard to be brave, But the reasons this life is worth living, get hard to remember, When its Always December

[@garmadonthesensei59]

Thank you!! 🙏

[@TrayXCooper]

Its funny how people post lyrics in comments on lyric videos lol

[@deepasuresh3136]

@@TrayXCooper there are people who want the lyrics so they know what the next line is gonna be as they sing. Few lyric videos are off-timed, so yeah. Hope that explains.

[@TopGCal]

Thx

[@TheBee7878]

@@TrayXCooper so people can see the lyrics ahead and sing to it

[@angelaroyminanightqueensah4419]

Once again you took words from my mouth "the only peace is when I'm asleep" that's been my life for 2 months now.

[@CitizenSoldier]

💜

[@PrinceIsMyReligon]

December Capricorn here. I feel this song all the way to my bones.

[@sandral7829]

Don't know how you do it Citizen Soldier but every song just puts me into tears its like you know exactly what's on my mind and just get to that feeling with those songs. Now I will keep this song on repeat for 2+weeks 😁😁

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thanks Sandra 💜

[@sgambrell3113]

I’ve been going through some major medical issues for the past 6 years now and when I hear these songs they always hit starting when I found y’all and heard Would Anyone Care. Thank you for the beautiful messages.

[@elisabethrosie1065]

It’s scary when I pretend I’m okay, but I can still relate to these songs… they speak words I could never say. I must thank my best friend for showing me this legend.

[@lauredrieghe8936]

Same for me

[@sophiarutledge7939]

My birthday is tomorrow this is a real gift. Thank you! It really helps im having my sweet 16. No one and (me) thought i was going to make it to 16. So thank you very much!!!

[@deadflowers5897]

Don't forget someone loves you 🖤 stay strong 🙏🏻 and ask for help. There's so much beauty in this life

[@Mxxitor00]

Holy Molly! The hours of wait, has been the worth for this 🌟MASTERPIECE🌟

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thank you 💜💜💜

[@LegionoftheBlackStar]

I resonate with this song. Depression has left me constantly drained of drive and will. I always feel this pain within that's similar to internal bleeding. However, there's no real injury. Because of that, I don't feel any other injuries or pain. It's almost like my body has become completely numb to it all. It is indeed the cruelest pain...

[@CitizenSoldier]

We hear you 💜

[@AtomicShadow202]

My brother posted this song to Facebook which confused everyone because he normally never posted at all. No one ever reached out to him because we always assumed that he wanted to be left alone but the truth is that he was hurting inside. No one realized that him posting this song was his way of saying goodbye to everyone at once... Use this song as a reminder that people around you could be hurting and that you should always check on them because you never know if today will be the last day you see or hear from them. I regret not being there for him, I hate myself for it.

[@mikaeljreeves17]

This song perfectly sums up my entire life. Ironically, my daughter was born in December and I love my beautiful princess more than anything but I always feel like I'm bringing her down because I can't bring myself to celebrate her special day. On her 10th birthday, she walked up to me and told me that January 7 will be our Daddy / daughter day, just the two of us to celebrate her birthday. Obviously, I started bawling my head off and she just threw her arms around me and told me that she loved me. I don't know how I was graced with such a sweet and amazing little girl but I'm forever thankful. Thank you for this beautiful song.

[@Dorothea1213]

It was something else to hear Jake's softer voice. Like a whole new dimension 💜💜😍 Goosebumps all over me💜💜💜

[@larryearlvictor6289]

Finally another song about my father and me. Thank you very much. This is why we all love you

[@larryearlvictor6289]

Different emotional song I been listening like (slipknot. snuff ) (disturbed sound of silent) (linken park. In the end) and any music emotional song I been listening but citizen soldier is my band now

[@CitizenSoldier]

💜

[@Layla-tg2qe]

Thank you for making another song. You don’t know how perfect your timing was. Thank you so much.

[@CitizenSoldier]

Always. What did you think of it?

[@Layla-tg2qe]

@@CitizenSoldier I loved it. Of course, I love all of your songs, but this one really encompasses the feeling of being completely trapped in the same crappy cycle and good God I feel that. Fantastic work.

[@kellychristian4249]

I grew up listening to music with my dad. He taught me to lose myself to the music; to listen to the meaning. He tragically passed away two and a half years ago. And in dealing with the grief and anxiety, you Citizen Soldier have helped me so much. It is never difficult to find the meaning and each song just gets more and more relatable. You guys have such an impact on all of us, we all love you guys.

[@LiminalSpaceLover]

I love the rain. It cleanses all the pain of the day. The rain also hides your tears but at least you feel relaxed as the rain washes over you and you feel free at least just for that moment

[@brianagrootboom1039]

How can one make a song abt how you feel in the right time 😱😢... I'm just very glad I found citizens soldier because if I didn't I wouldn't know what to do with myself 😞❤️thank you, you don't know how happy I am.

[@kennethsampler6164]

I can feel this so deep.. I lost my son in November 2009.. It's always November in me

[@darkcat7903]

Worst thing happened to me in November 😭😂😭😭

[@nadirasultana6644]

"SUNLESS SKY SOMEHOW STUCK IN REPEAT" those lines hit hard through heart! ☺

[@CitizenSoldier]

💜

[@nadirasultana6644]

@@CitizenSoldier ❤❤

[@katherinemoss4822]

Another beautiful song that evokes feelings that I forget I have.

[@CitizenSoldier]

Much love 💜

[@rieley207]

"hell just being awake hurts much more than i can ever explain" i feel that more than ever. and "in my mind its always december" i relate to this, but may instead of december. thank you for these songs.

[@aiden_adams]

I miss loved ones and somehow this feels like what I need to spend the night a bit easier. Thank you guys.

[@angelabajek6574]

Citizen Soldier: *releases new song* Me: *immediately listens and shares with everyone I care about* Your music is truly artistic, inspirational, and beautiful! You help me and my loved ones get through the storms in our lives! God bless you!

[@devindakotaramos9761]

"I would rather lay hear in my bed than have to face what's in my head" I love it this song explains alot keep it up 💜

[@bethupson2492]

I can't even explain how much your music means to me. I lost my baby girl November 21st 2017 ever since then I just want to go be with her. Takes all I can to no just give up and be with her. I always had depression but she was my meaning to life . Without her I'm lost. This makes me feel not so alone.

[@graciemurphy3261]

"Years go by but the colors don't change and know one sees" Thoughs parts where what I feel some days.

[@akuji.teivel]

Perfect voice+perfect music+perfect lyrics+completely relatable=citizen soldier

[@xzio5728]

I'm not crying, I'm not crying, ok I am balling my eyes out with this one. Citizen Soldier, your songs are absolutely powerful and beautiful. This hits so close to home, and I love this song. December is often associated with the end of a year with a new beginning around the corner. However, for those who have to battle with depression, anxiety, and demons from our past, our Decembers can be so very long. Thank you again for creating this exceptionally powerful song.

[@CitizenSoldier]

It’s ok to cry 💜

[@jpo7577]

Your music is so amazing. Every time I turn around it's always a new song that hits home. Thank you so much for letting me know I'm not the only person struggling with things. It's so hard to look outside of the storm raging on the inside.

[@snoepje_love]

Omggg its really a beautyfull songg I literally just woke up and heard that... 🥲🖤damnnn Just beautyfull💜

[@CitizenSoldier]

Much love 💜

[@midnightnightingale8413]

Songs by CITIZEN SOLDIERS are always about the most painful moments of life.

[@AdnilemAdornments]

When you feel those around you can not understand because you have no words to give them...this song!

[@destinyszczesniak1437]

Is it this me or did anyone else just break down and cry while listening to this..it really hits home for me.

[@CitizenSoldier]

It’s ok to cry 💜

[@IWas.ThereforeIAm.111]

Everytime I come back to this song especially tears just fall continuously down my face can literally feel my heart n soul 💔 breaking 💔 😪

[@bretneydumais5837]

This hit me deep. I cried for quite a bit after I listened to this. I haven’t heard a song that goes into detail what I and so many other people go through just on a daily basis. Thank you so much for making this song 💙

[@kellyfarnum5632]

I lost my mom dec 21st 2023. I feel this song probably differently than anyone else. I'm still in December.

[@duanestevens9789]

Losing my mom 26 yrs ago yesterday Dec 6th 1997, this song hits home! December is my darkness, empty body

[@mbalbaldwin3829]

I have so many tears feeling so much from this song. It seems i live a curse of December. May be i finally wed the love of my life we be celebrating in the rain like a black and white movie. Thanks AJ its a good to feel good we share all we do

[@isabellarobles600]

I can’t explain how much this song relates to the things people go through it’s pretty crazy how much depression hits people. I love this song so much guys! Keep up the good work

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thanks Isabella 💜

[@thatpersonwhoexists3037]

I know it's the end of the month but I forgot to say this: Happy Men's Mental Health Month! You guys make such beautiful music that helps every person who listens to you, but I still wanted to say that :). Keep making masterpieces!

[@maniacloki]

30th July is my birthday and I still sit here and listen to this song and I ask myself will I always feel this way? 🌹🖤

[@ryantully3717]

So beautiful. Especially after losing a child. This really resonates in me. Depression is real and I'd never wish it on anyone

[@vampire2264]

Every songs you create struck my heart by lightning and sliced me inside in half. I feel not worthless anymore but pours like rain what I feel from many many years hiding...

[@justynaheminska7153]

Wow. A great song. Beautifully performed song and this voice ...... I will definitely listen to this song a lot.

[@CitizenSoldier]

💜

[@oracle1634]

"IN MY HEAD SEASON NEVER CHANGE" So Relate

[@CitizenSoldier]

💜

[@Kaydinp2008]

Me too

[@Kaydinp2008]

@@CitizenSoldier Hiiii

[@Tymate5039]

Absolutely amazing love the song and the tune 💯💯

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thanks Tyler! 💜

[@donmeisner4438]

Its amazing to find a band with this music where you can relate to every song. I know i am still in a bad place, but listening to their songs helps a little bit every time

[@Ghetro7139]

I remember I was wishing every moment I Was just dead suffered from COVID and depression I really wished that was the end of it but hearing this song gave me another hope each song you release it always speaks to me and Im grateful your my favorite artist Jake please don't stop your awesome

[@SerenityDrums]

Your Songs are amazing. They've got another meaning if you understand that feeling you're singing about. just amazing!

[@CitizenSoldier]

💜

[@EternalRiver90]

Love you guys so much. Really wish things would finally start getting better instead of things piling up more and more. Feels like us with depression are truly cursed by the universe, forever having to suffer in silence...

[@jewells_lyd227]

Me being born in December, and who has been through some shit. I can relate, citizen soldier I have listened to y'all's songs for 2 yours. Y'all have helped me a lot, and I'm so happy y'all are still making songs💕

[@skeyehighcovers]

I doubt you'll see this with all the comments you probably receive on a daily basis. But I'll try anyways. You're music radiates what I feel, especially this song and I'm Not Okay. I'm currently living everyday in a numb state and quickly losing my will to live. And I don't know what to do so I started doing covers of some of your songs. And this one will be the next song I cover. Thank you for making a song that is the perfect way to describe how I feel on a daily basis.

[@saugatbhujel8422]

Here again The best thing about this band is these dudes express our unsaid feelings by their songs

[@dokusa]

Why does this song describe me more and better than I could ever describe myself??.. Thanks for this song guys! Love every song of yours. Pieces of Art.

[@ElysianAngel]

To anyone who relates to the lyrics, the storm will pass. I know it has lasted a long time and there's no sign of it clearing, but it does clear. I wish I could tell you how or when; it's really scary and lonely weathering the storm; just know you are not alone and I, a stranger on the internet, am rooting for you. Nobody deserves your pain. This is your permission to do what you need to to open your umbrella or simply dance in the rain. You are stronger than your storm. Trust me. You've got this.

[@troyhamrick1432]

I absolutely love listening to your music. It helps with so much going through my head. When I feel down and upset I just listen to so if your guys songs. It always helps ❤️💯💯

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thanks Troy 💜

[@SigmaINFJHeyokaEmpath]

Your music captures our entire existence. 44 years of never being understood is tiring. We are terribly homesick being on this planet. We will be glad when we return home some day. We miss being loved for simply being who we are.

[@haleyraven.lilrocket9241]

Wow so powerful my goodness this is how I'm feeling battling this cancer and the PTSD from my life in the military .. some times I wish I could sleep and not wake God bless the world 🌎