Depersonalization from LSD: Hans' Recovery Story (2023)

03:07 DPDR from LSD
05:18 "The aftereffects of a cocktail of drugs"
07:14 When Acid trips go bad
09:18 "What if I broke my brain with drugs?"
11:57 Googling for answers
14:42 Finding the word "Depersonalization"
16:20 The Recipe for Recovery
18:47 "My life had just stopped"
20:05 Trying to live with DPDR
23:07 "It was consistently Hell"
24:40 Starting to recover
27:16 "Like a fog lifting"
28:43 This can't just be anxiety!
34:15 Recovery is not a Lightswitch
35:19 "You have to find life again"
37:11 Can you REALLY get back to normal?
40:05 The DP Manual
41:42 Advice for people with DPDR
Hans is 22 years old. He first developed DPDR in 2020, following a terrifying LSD experience.
In this brand new interview, Hans tells me all about his experience with and recovery from LSD-induced Depersonalization Disorder.
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Disclaimer: Please note that the medical information contained within this video is not intended as a substitute for consultation with a professional physician and is not a recommendation of specific therapies.

[@Dpmanual]

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[@CourtneySDawn]

For me allowing anxiety to be there isn’t too hard but it’s the fact that these existential thoughts and questions GIVE me anxiety.

[@johnatwar]

it's weird how all of this seems to do pretty similar things to how we think. Existential thoughts are unfortunately something we experience with DPDR. It will get better.

[@CourtneySDawn]

@@johnatwar my dpdr was caused by existential thoughts. That’s why I feel so different to all these stories. I didn’t have a bad drug experience I watched a video on the simulation theory and had a panic attack. Started seeing everything as if it wasn’t real etc. Then spiralled into solipsism and other theories, to just baffled by existence in general. It’s been 6 mos for me now.

[@Biketherapy113]

@@CourtneySDawn I didn't do drugs either just had a super major panic attack, but I totally get why watching what you watched did that to you, there are several theory ideas that I've looked at that have fucked my thoughts up too. I'd suggest not looking at any more of that. I'm around 6 months too. You'll get past this

[@hunteraxtell2791]

100% recovered!!!!!

[@Dpmanual]

Delighted to hear it Hunter! 😊 Let me know if you'd like to have your story featured on the channel! 👍

[@ayoubimohammad6878]

Please continue making these videos. They really give me hope.

[@Dpmanual]

Happy to hear it 😊 More on the way, stay tuned!

[@matheusyamamoto3256]

Shaun, hearing these stories feels great, even after recovery, it is amazing to get to know what different people went through with the same experience. Thanks for that!

[@Dpmanual]

So glad to hear you're enjoying them Matheus! 😊

[@user-kv4mr8lt5f]

This is the most important recovery story video for me since i bought the Dp Manual. Been in Dp for 25 years. Thank you Hans. Thank you Shaun. You'll hear from me soon, Dimitris

[@Dpmanual]

So glad it was helpful Dimitris! 😊😊

[@apocalypse12345]

❤ I think the same for me , I find this channel coincidentally, after a long time thinking I had psychosis. This channel is very helpful 👌👍

[@Dpmanual]

Glad to hear the channel has been helpful 😊👍

[@apocalypse12345]

​@@Dpmanualyes it is ❤ I hope you the best ❤ 😘 thank you 💓

[@Dpmanual]

@@apocalypse12345 😊😊😊

[@heist5762]

This Guy Is saving my life

[@Dpmanual]

Happy to help 😊

[@roma02rus]

When someone ask me what dp feels like, i nswer: imagine if you just born. And somehow you allready have knowledges, memory, you can speak etc. You know everything but cant realize it because your own conciousness feels unusual and bizarre

[@Dpmanual]

That's a very apt description! Thankfully with recovery, what we realize is that all of these symptoms have very simple, logical explanations and are all entirely based on anxiety 😊 www.dpmanual.com/about/depersonalization-symptoms-the-10-most-common/

[@_.idealistqueen.]

Depersonalization/ derealization gives me extreme anxiety& stress I feel like I’m on edge all the time and I feel like I’m in a dream whenever I’m anxious or panicky I get these hot flashes or feeling hot , my hands get tingly and numb , I get these weird thoughts about the earth like it’s not real or I’m not alive and especially even talking about the solar system freaks me out , I get these dizzy spells too like this intense rush of sudden dizziness and I never had a panic attack before until I smoked worst decision I ever made !! I also got sleep paralysis because of this which I never had before

[@epic_baller123]

I can relate to that. What helped me out is a stronger bond to religion which I got by having a religious experience on LSD.

[@epic_baller123]

Please don't forget that existential anxiety is a byproduct of the human's remarkable intelligence. The anxiety doesn't make you abnormal, it makes you human. Lots of people are facing the same situation as you. You can be helped. Again: Your feelings are normal and understandable. They make you human. Think about it for a second: Is anxiety the most rational reaction to facing existential questions? How does it help? Not at all, it's a human issue that comes with developing a brain capable of reason and logic. But the fact that you show it means you are not any more alien than anyone else. You are part of an amazing thing which is life. Evem though we don't really know what it is, we know it is unique and wonderful. Just know that. And you are part of this unique and wonderful experience. Whatever it is, life, welcome it.

[@user-pp3ii5gd8t]

Hi Shaun! I have been experiencing DPDR for almost 4.5 months now. It started after COVID-19, and I am now in Ukraine during the war. the air defense shoots down shells over my house at least once a week. and in the spring it was every day. My history of stress and anxiety is long. but I seemed to get it right. until one day I had a panic attack. so I tried very hard to minimize stress, but now there is no way to go to a safe place, and the thought of being away from family and those who can help terrifies me. I'm much better already, thanks to your book. Your videos have been a lifesaver in the most difficult moments. I strongly feel that everything will be fine, but the process is long and uneven. Sometimes there are moments of complete loss in space and in memory. Sometimes it seems that all my memories are just dreams and they never really happened. But my main problem is that for all 4.5 months, I didn’t leave the house alone, my close friends or family were always with me, and now I can’t travel by transport or car myself. As soon as I am alone in a public place or far from home, it seems to me that the world just starts to disappear, and I get lost and cannot get home and the world will simply cease to exist. I understand that this is a panic attack and the fear of being alone without help, but I don’t understand what steps to take to start driving and doing something around the city on my own, without help. I would be grateful for feedback and advice. Thank you so much for your huge work again! Best regards Oli

[@ddd009]

❤‍🩹

[@brittneywelch2186]

I might look into trauma therapy. ❤

[@daumele]

How are you feeling now mate? I hope you are better. I would suggest trying to drive, trying to go public by yourself, not far, starting somewhere near and evolving with time. I know it sounds hard, but that is what I think helped me. I am struggling almost 14 weeks now but I am much better than at the beginning. I tried doing all the thing prior to DPDR even though they were awful and scary and very hard. Now I do everything.

[@user-lk9ii3nr1b]

@dpmanual hi Shaun I bought your ebook and now in process of my recovery thru your method. My question is can I watch your success stories videos that you post , or that still counts as no dp discussions thru out my day ? Thanks in advance

[@Dpmanual]

Thanks for purchasing The DP Manual and I hope your recovery is going well! 😊 To answer your question, I think it depends on where you are in your recovery process. If you're just finding out what DPDR is, they can be a great explainer and reminder that you can and will recover. If you're closer towards recovery and have understood and internalized what the condition is (and that you don't need to be afraid of it!), you could probably refer to them less and less. In general what I'd suggest is that you can use them as positive reinforcement, but you should be aiming to use them less and less in time. And what you always want to avoid is going down KZbin / Google research rabbitholes. Hope that helps and enjoy your recovery! 😊

[@user-lk9ii3nr1b]

Thank you sir, it’s been quiet stressing for me last 18 months but now I’m focused on my recovery , I avoid forums; search symproms and try my best to do the 5 things that you mentioned every day. God bless everyone going thru this now @@Dpmanual

[@TiagoGoncalves-xt8fj]

Hello guys, I am going through DPDR and I never had the chance to talk directly with someone that goes through it, if you anyone would be so kind, I would like to talk by video call and share experiences. Great video! Thank you.

[@kamranhussain6117]

Plz tell me which vitamins we must take in recovery ❤plz I take zinc magnesium and fish oil can you advance me plz

[@TheLocalDank]

Hey Shaun.. I developed dpdr from a medication.. I share many of the symptoms of the people here but the difference is I don’t have anxiety fueling my dpdr I litteraly feel nothing 24/7 no fear no anxiety, no adrenaline,emotions anything.

[@Dpmanual]

Read this, I think you'll find it helpful 😊www.dpmanual.com/articles/depersonalization-without-anxiety/

[@gabesanfran9968]

Must be absolutely terrifying on acid

[@juanernany7007]

Hello shaun. I'm still fighting DPDR 24/7, for months I've been doing things to get better but I haven't had any results, I can deal with DPDR but it's been hard to believe I can get well in the long run. Can DPDR disappear spontaneously? That seems to be my hope.

[@Dpmanual]

Don't worry Juan, it doesn't matter what caused it, how long it’s lasted, or whether it’s been 24/7 or episodic, you can always switch DPDR off completely by stopping the anxiety that's causing it 😊 Read this carefully: www.dpmanual.com/articles/back-to-normal-after-depersonalization/

[@mikebeast5835]

I’ve been having sleep troubles ever since DP/DR and anxiety which I feel is making it worse.

[@Dpmanual]

Don’t worry, issues with sleeping and dreaming are very common with DPDR and all anxiety-based conditions. 😊 I know it can be frustrating but they are temporary and harmless and will fade away and stop as your recovery continues: www.dpmanual.com/articles/why-does-depersonalization-affect-sleep-and-dreams/

[@DeeDeel69]

Hey Shaun you probably remember me. I have a question. I’ve been doing good in my recovery state. However there’s one thing that always stops me and causes me major anxiety. Whenever I smell weed I always feel like I’m gonna get high when Ik it’s almost impossible. Any tips to stop this feeling? It almost always sends me into a tiny panic attack

[@johnatwar]

stop going near weed to be able to smell it. Marijuana has become a trigger for you. I get this way if i decide to drink coffee, which i know i shouldn't i immediately start panicking after one sip.

[@crayonangelss23]

This is literally me. I can’t always avoid it like if I’m at a concert or even just walking down the street. I’m open to any advice!

[@stephaniecruz6012]

You can work in your own exposure therapy. Anything that triggers me, thats the way I overcome it.

[@DeeDeel69]

@@stephaniecruz6012how does that work?

[@stephaniecruz6012]

@@DeeDeel69 you can look for some information in google "Exposure Therapy". The thing is, if something triggers you, by example: "Costco lights triggered my dpdr or anxiety, so I kept going" because there is nothing wrong or dangerous in Costco. You keep facing the thing that is triggering you until you overcome that fear. Then you keep going with the other thing... one step at the time. So you dont hide yourself from the world.

[@abbyu8459]

i can’t tell whether or not i have bpd or anxiety..

[@mikehammer983]

Hi,can I have the audiobook in French or is only in English 🙏

[@Dpmanual]

Hi Mike, the DP Manual comes with a complete French translation of the book and video subtitles 😊 www.dpmanual.com/the-depersonalization-manual/

[@baaz2.051]

Can anyone explain me? Constantly feeling of going crazy or having crazy or something else . I feel like I will forget everything or I will forget how to speak this existential thoughts are worsening me . I think if I recovered today I will have any other mental illness or disorder in future . Reply me what is this everything feels disconnected I don’t feel like nature that I feel earlier. Most fear is having crazy or going to crazy plz reply it. I have losted my interests that I could have in past.

[@Dpmanual]

Don’t worry, fears of going crazy are super common with DPDR. I know they can be frightening but they’re harmless and temporary and will fade away and stop as you recover 😊 Read this carefully: www.dpmanual.com/articles/depersonalization-three-reasons-youre-not-going-crazy-2/ And if you would like to speak to a medical professional please don't hesitate to do so. I would recommend finding an anxiety specialist if possible as they will likely be more familiar with DPDR.

[@whites632]

This channel is good, it helped me a lot, but i found fast psychiatrist who gave me antidepressants and after 2 weeks of using, everything dissaperead. Anyways, thank you for your videos that helped me through a worse experience of my life.

[@araiq7005]

I've had this for 5 years my friend

[@Dpmanual]

Glad to hear the videos were helpful 😊

[@whites632]

@@araiq7005 wru from

[@daniellefinn9381]

What antidepressants did you take ?

[@whites632]

@@daniellefinn9381 Aurorix, I live in Czech Rep. So idk if its in your country aswell.

[@anasmomen9104]

Does depersonalization make you afraid to look up at the sky? Did this happen to you when you were sick?

[@Dpmanual]

Don’t worry, hyperawareness of your visual field (which can cause fear of bright spaces / the sky etc) is super common with DPDR and other anxiety-based conditions. I know it can be frustrating but it's temporary and will fade away and stop as you recover 😊 www.dpmanual.com/articles/does-depersonalization-affect-vision/

[@stephaniecruz6012]

Yep and I am a sky lover.

[@matteodecristofaro9269]

Hi, my name is Matteo, I've been suffering from derealization since the beginning of May After a bad expeerience with weed and Lately I've been having anxiety crises every day and I keep thinking I can't get out of them, I keep having these Thoughts and I don't hide that I also thought about suicide, pls help me. (Sry for bad english)

[@Dpmanual]

Hi Matteo, Firstly, if you are experiencing any thoughts of self-harm, please do speak to a medical professional as soon as possible. Secondly, I know DPDR can be scary but just remember that it’s a natural reaction to stress and anxiety, and people experience it all the time. The National Institute on Mental Illness estimates that up to 75% of people experience at least one depersonalization / derealization episode in their lives. It's part of your brain's natural defence mechanism and usually it only lasts a few seconds or minutes at a time. It's only when it's focused on as a separate problem (feeling like you're going crazy / in a dream etc) that it can turn into a feedback loop with the anxiety that caused it in the first place. But no matter what caused it or how long you've had it, you can always switch it off completely by stopping that anxious feedback loop. Make sure to carefully read through all the articles and info on my website at www.dpmanual.com and my book The Depersonalization Manual. And if you would like to speak to a medical professional please don't hesitate to do so. I would recommend finding an anxiety specialist if possible as they will likely be more familiar with DPDR 👍

[@matteodecristofaro9269]

@@Dpmanual I'll probably see a psychologist these days, until now I've always hesitated for fear of ending up being prescribed antipsychotic medicines and it terrifies me, but at this point I just want to find my peace of mind, I'll also try to convince my parents to buy me the manual

[@Dpmanual]

@@matteodecristofaro9269 No problem Matteo, keep up the good work. And of course, keep your parents up to date with how you're feeling -- and if you would like to speak to a medical professional please don't hesitate to do so. I would recommend finding an anxiety specialist if possible as they will likely be more familiar with DPDR 👍

[@mars__4]

Ever since I had dpdr. I ve been having frequent diarrhoea. Any one else?

[@Dpmanual]

Read this carefully 😊 www.healthline.com/health/anxiety-diarrhea

[@araiq7005]

yessssss

[@mars__4]

@@araiq7005 mine has gotten so bad for a few days.

[@apoundatatime7728]

Is there anything I can be doing everyday to help? Low carb diet? No Caffeine? No Alcohol? Exercise?

[@Dpmanual]

Head over to my website at www.dpmanual.com, there’s tons of info and tips on DPDR recovery there 😊

[@apoundatatime7728]

Thank you

[@Dpmanual]

@@apoundatatime7728 No worries! 😊

[@LarrySwishamane]

Is Repersonization/Rerealization a real thing? no expert on Quantum mechanics or subatomic frequencies...sometimes iFeel everthing, everywhere, all at once times infinity & my heart rate has its foot to the floor?

[@diartahazrolli9411]

Come on guys this is just anxiety i have to dp/dr i know how scary and boring it is but if we work with our selfs we will overcome this i’m sure with a little help from this amazing person . Be patient we will recover soon 🦾

[@Dpmanual]

😊 😊