Trans Women Unexpected Genital Dysphoria! Why Now?

[@sarah-marc]

I started HRT 2 years ago (jan 2023). I immediately started the procedures for the surgery, even if I had no feeling of dysphoria at this moment. I knew it was a 12 to 24 months before I get laid on the surgeon's table and I wanted to be ready if genital dysphoria came to struck. I could just change my mind if I was wrong. But I was right. Only 6 months after I started HRT, genital dysphoria appeared. It took 6 more months before I had the surgery and I was so happy of my decision to start the process so early. It reduce the pain of the dysphoria and the pain of the waiting time. While the dysphoria started very lightly, it was excruciating 6 months later, when I got the surgery. It's gonna be one year next February I got my surgery and I have no regret. I realise that this is the thing I needed the most. I'm now living my true woman life.

[@ismiregalichkochdasjetztso3232]

That's so me. I went from "I'm all fine" over "well, as an asthetic choice, I might prefer the other set of genitals" to "don't even touch me there and line me up for surgery now".

[@chunkyshrapnel]

It's honestly incredible how timely these videos have been for me over the past year. It seems like every time I'm struggling with something, a new Dr. Z video shows up that helps be figure it out. I literally just started thinking about this exact thing this week. I had genital dysphoria when I went through puberty as a kid but after decades of suppression I had forgotten about how it felt. I knew I had it but had become disconnected from it. Over the past year I've been transitioning and have never been happier. I'm at the point where my face and overall body shape are beginning to look very feminine. Up to this point, I've not had any genital dysphoria at all; in fact, I was quite pleased that the hormones haven't had any negative impact on my sexual activity. But then recently I started having that genital dysphoria again. It's wild how it can just come back again after all these many years; I suppose it never really went away after all. Thanks for talking about this stuff and making these videos. It really is very helpful.

[@evelynjacobson5203]

When I was first diagnosed with gender dysphoria, all I wanted to do was start HRT and get rid of facial and body hair. The hair was the only dysphoria trigger that I felt I had. After starting to treat the hair and getting it mostly under control, I started realizing that I had other triggers. I just couldn't hear them over the absolute screams that my hair shouting. I so far have had breast augmentation and vaginoplasty. I hadn't expected to want them, but ultimately did find that I was going to need them. And they have provided me with way more relief, benefits, and comfort than I had ever expected. I would like to have FFS, but so far I have not found an experienced surgeon who is in network for insurance coverage.

[@Journey-of-1000-Miles]

My physical dysphoria is with my lack of waste, butt, and hips. I desperately want a figure. I never really thought about my genitals at all! As long as they were healthy and functional, that was good enough, however, now I am going to broach the subject of Circo transition with my physician, on my next appointment.

[@TylwythTeg_NZ]

My belief in me being female has always been tied to my genitals. Post op has given me a real insight and experience of womanhood, albeit an infertile female. I try my best to understand different types of transwoman. But bottom surgery has made my brain reprogramme itself, almost as if it knows how to interpret its gender via my genitals. My brain kept changing over 12 months after surgery. The last affirmation of womanhood was a series of UTIs that I was struggling to recover from.

[@cathnbabs]

that's exactly how I have felt since December.

[@Ashs-kitchen]

I didn't think I would want GRS BUT it didn't take long before that changed, it's really interesting to see how things changed as I moved on in my journey! But this makes sense

[@SanityVideo]

I know I have some genital dysphoria. It was the first kind of dysphoria I had before puberty but I feel like it's the last thing I will have to deal with if I do need surgery at all. There's so much in life that needs to be dealt with from other medical care to fleeing my state to a safer place for trans people to dating as myself for the first time that I am at peace with leaving it for now. Consciously facing the issue doesn't always mean getting every kind of medical care you can but it can lead to being at peace with where you are.

[@seyramnoemi]

all the points you mentioned match my experience to a T, I've had this revelation that I'm actually not okay with my genitals last August and now I'm in the process of getting all my stuff together in order to have sis as soon as possible

[@HansLemurson]

No matter how many problems you fix, there will always be a #1 problem. The question is whether it crosses the threshold to do anything about.

[@ashrudawski6031]

This is exactly what happened to me. I was super focused on my face, and didn't think much of my bottom. I would just "close my eyes and think of England" and be fine... or mostly fine... After I had my FFS, shortly after I went back home and begun to heal, I was hit by bottom dysphoria after exiting the shower and seeing myself in the mirror. I got really upset and got very close to booking a SRS in less than 6 months of advance. Fortunately I didn't. I am still going to go ahead with my surgery, but when I am more psychologically and organizationally ready to go through it and take proper time off to heal. In the meantime I manage the way I did before, but I think about it much more often than before.

[@hazzyeyes773]

Very much accurate! Felt neutral at first when I started. Only arose when I went to the gym and noticed the difference with my waist and hip fittings to those of cis-women. Now it’s very much there and has not gone away. Really unfortunate that I still haven’t started the medical transition due to long queues. Writing from 🇫🇮.

[@cipri1368]

OMG, I just thought about it today. I'm one year and 2 months in my transition, but this genital dysphoria kept growing. At the begining I thought I haven't had one. And now I try to wonder how to get SRS

[@simonpenrose5466]

I am here with this. I agree with what you have to say. Would like it cut off.

[@Fra93TheGrande]

My biggest fear 😅😂 I don’t want to have that kind of surgery, I’m scared 🥶

[@sexymama1966]

I feel the same way. The risks involved are scary.

[@AmphantomHMroc]

Yeah when I started I was indifferent but I couldn’t shake the thought of having SRS. I’m married so a concern was that it’s something my partner would miss. Turns out she’s happier without it coming into our intimate life. Now I just don’t look at it while I get myself ready for surgery someday.

[@Adam_First]

Excellent video

[@jaseholroyd2683]

Love your ear rings

[@Monica-gj2yx]

Me, too!

[@robynrox]

I thought about bottom surgery for a long time before I decided to have it. I think scarcity helped push me to go onto the waiting list - would NHS funding be withdrawn for the operation in the future? Would it even cease to be available at all? And ever since I learnt about the option, it was always in the back of my mind. So I basically had dysphoria for around 30 years, but it was always minor. One of the things I thought was when I near the end of my life, would I regret it if I had not had that surgery? I think I would have done. I believe you take a risk either way, but it's unlikely that anything major will go wrong with vaginoplasty statistically. I haven't had any other surgeries unless you count facial laser hair removal which I believe some people consider to be a type of surgery; at some point I will probably have electrolysis to get rid of the white hairs that remain. I did start laser earlier than anything else; I think I had it before HRT. I have no other surgeries planned and I have nothing in the back of my mind for them either. I think vaginoplasty was a medical need in my case, and of course that was the conclusion of the psychologists I saw in order to gain approval.

[@allisonbaker-t5z]

you are a goddess. i enjoyed watching this video.

[@dinahnicest6525]

I have ALWAYS wanted lady lips.

[@allisonbaker-t5z]

cute