q&a - why I got divorced, dating again, loneliness, spirituality

[@elliedee5221]

thank you to everyone who sent in questions!! I don’t often talk about my personal life and opinions, so this was an intimidating video to post. let me know what you think, what you want to see next, and if you’d like to throw in your own question next time, follow me on Instagram @/ellie.deeee ✨

[@spillinda]

i would love to see another hair video sometime lol, but if you're past that glorious chaos I'd love to see a plant/ garden tour or routine! (given the theme of this video, I think whatever comes to you and inspires you will be a good time too!)

[@joybodelay9679]

You're awesome, Ellie. Your way of life is utterly goals for me! 💗

[@spaceybri]

This video was everything, if you post more video's exactly like this I would be so content! Your words really speak to me and as someone the same age it feels like we're on a very similar page/journey. You also answered my question I sent perfectly so thank you :)

[@ang1692]

I'd absolutely love a video from you about how to initiate a "breakup" from a partner/ if you struggled with feelings of being unable to for fear of hurting them. I really struggle with prioritizing myself and hearing you talk about choosing you own needs without shame, has been really refreshing

[@elliedee5221]

this is a really great idea, I will definitely put this on my video “to-do” list :)

[@annettamaerelado3776]

I love this! If you can also include in that video how to heal after break-up, that'll be really helpful too, Ellie! I love you before, but I love you even better now. Thank you for continuing to create contents for us! 🤠

[@clairebradbury2890]

I didn’t get divorced, but I went through a very intense breakup a little over a year ago and I’m still trying to find my old self. It’s strange, though. I was 13 entering the relationship. I’m 20 now. There’s not really an “old self” to return to. Seeing that someone else is gaining their confidence back and finding peace within themselves is very comforting to me. It’s also quite scary how similar you are to me, haha. I love talking about incredibly deep topics, and I can talk about some trauma/dark events in my life with more ease than others but I don’t want to seem like I’m “stirring up trauma,” as you said. I love how open you are with talking about these things. There are so many people on social media and in people in my area who claim they have no friends, but they immediately make posts with groups of friends they’ve maintained for years. Like I said, I love how brutally honest you are about being alone and dedicated to being single until you can build yourself up. I suppose my main point is that we are in the same season of life and I admire you for sharing it all.❤️

[@elliedee5221]

thank you for such a thoughtful comment. we really are in this together lol, and I wish you the best 🤍

[@cassidybrewer]

After my relationship with my son’s dad, I decided to spend nearly two years alone. I understand what you mean about intentional celibacy. I spent that time truly healing. I was single on my 28th, 29th, and 30th birthdays. I discovered so much about myself during that time in my life. There’s something really empowering about not feeling like you NEED anyone, especially as a woman.

[@joshuamoore8560]

I must say, it's impressive that you've managed to get to a place in your life at 25 that took me nearly 40 years to reach (and I still have my days.) People tend to track themselves and their lives by what they do and accomplish, so much so that they leave precious little room to breathe. As a "human being," not a "human doing," I'm largely content with just existing in the moment (punctuated with flurries of activity for nuance.) I'd say, Ellie, that you live a very nuanced life, and of that I'm proud!

[@elliedee5221]

thank you 🤍

[@JPiplup77]

I came to say the exact same thing… but you said it way more eloquently that I may have. Thank you for sharing this with us.

[@jasminmoor5228]

You look so much at peace with yourself. I've been a follower for a long time and I love to witness all this development. Lots of love 💕

[@elliedee5221]

thank you for sticking around! 🤍

[@angeladeleo1130]

As an extroverted person who is at the same time EXTREMELY reserved, i know how hard it is to open up to people and talk about your personal stuff and life experiences. It takes a lot to start over again. Just wanna tell u I love your energy in this video tho!!!! BRACE YOURSELVES Y’ALL CAUSE THIS WOMAN IS SHINING

[@elliedee5221]

aaaa thank you!! 🤍

[@janeenright8450]

You are so incredibly articulate and you can tell you have really meditated and counselled yourself through a huge upheaval in your life. Well done 😊

[@devondrareniyah.5323]

Hey Ellie I’ve been watching your videos since the beginning. I’m 18 now and this video honestly made me cry as embarrassing as it sounds 😭. I feel like life is kind of passing me by and I’m not doing what I’m supposed to do at my age. Your video gave me a lot of comfort and hope. Thank you for that. I hope life brings you nothing but joy.

[@elliedee5221]

Thank you for the comment and for sticking around for so long 🤍 wish you the best!

[@destineem6490]

im 24 years old and feel the same. as quick as that time goes by, looking back i couldve accomplished so much but i was too focused on what I wasnt getting done yet, Just do what makes you happy. prioritize yourself, save money and go see as much as you can and take advantage of your health too♥

[@devondrareniyah.5323]

@@destineem6490 thank you so much, I really appreciate your advice. I’ll definitely be putting it to use 🩷.

[@AngelCaz7]

Me and my ex ended things almost 10 months ago, and it spiraled me into having a pretty similar journey as you and I was finally able to accept myself and invest in myself and be happier than I’ve ever been in 22 years. Some days can be hard, but I have hope. Cheers to us!

[@rachelgibson289]

so much of this video resonated with me in such a beautiful and comforting way, also being 25 and largely friendless, a year out of a long term committed relationship, coming to terms with myself as a grown woman, figuring out my relationship with spirituality as a former christian. so proud of you and your journey so far, and i can’t wait to watch where it leads you in the future :)

[@k7l3rworkman97]

Hands down, some of the most relatable, peaceful, enjoyable content I’ve seen in a long time ❤ Hope you’re doing well and continue to thrive ✌🏻😊☮️

[@jeezestop9116]

Ellie I’ve followed you for a long time. We’re the same age. And I’ve been following u since you started posting. I’m very proud of you. And impressed by your ability to articulate the way being 25 feels. Can’t wait to see where you go.

[@HotelSoapBand]

This video is incredible !!!! the type of positivity u exude is like ??? realistic ??? like it doesn't feel "CHOOSE HAPPINESS" but it feels "be intentional, gentle with yourself, and accepting of the shitshow that is sometimes adulthood." Thank u for sharing your thoughts :) x

[@brunalmao]

IVE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS ONE TURN IT UPPPP for real tho hope you're okay ellie, appreciate you

[@elliedee5221]

I’m doing very well, thank you! hope you are too 🤍

[@sasaki7799]

tysm for sharing such personal stuff and pieces of your everyday life, you helped me a lot to keep going through a dark time in my life and i'll be forever grateful for you, tysm ily

[@elliedee5221]

thank you for the sweet comment, this is exactly why I wanted to start posting more things like this 🤍

[@pon_yo19]

the way you articulate things and and answered the questions is amazing. i love the way you think, act, and just who you are. you are rlly inspiring. also u need a podcast!!! if you had a one i’d be your #1 fan! i love your voice 💗

[@lindseyswope2643]

Hi Ellie! I am coming back to comment after watching your video because I couldn’t get you off my heart. Just wanted to tell you that I love you. 🙏

[@a.a2126]

The first think I did after watching this was download the mp3 version of it because your words are so inspiring and calming, that I didn't want to risk not having it in the future. Well done with this amazing video! I hope you'll consider doing more videos where you share your personal growth or views on different aspects of life

[@elliedee5221]

thank you!! this is very encouraging to hear 🤍

[@krispyykrab]

ive been following you for something near four years now, i havent commented in ages but im so glad to see you doing better. its easy to see on your face how much happier and more confident you are now. theres so much visible maturity here, and im really proud of you ❤️

[@elliedee5221]

thank you!! this is very encouraging to hear, and thank you for following the channel for such a long time 🤍

[@krispyykrab]

@@elliedee5221 of course!! :)

[@malachitenow]

thank u for posting this, you talking abt your divorce and what led up to it and the aftermath really parallels what im doing/going through with a Very recent breakup. logically in my head i know i’ll heal, but it’s reassuring to see you talk about how you’re your more authentic self now and all that. like truly improving after cutting someone out of your life. anyways hope ur having a beautiful day

[@Gracenetworks]

Me and my girlfriend just broke up, and this video came at the perfect time. You really just gave me hope about being on my own and finding myself again! Thank you Ellie

[@elliedee5221]

wishing you the best 🤍

[@momoblood]

Your growth is really inspiring, i hope someday i'll be able to get to that state of happiness and peace! :)

[@ppermoons]

i'm so obsessed with your glasses

[@elliedee5221]

thank you!!

[@Enbygremlin]

I loved this. I would like to hear you expand on purposefully “becoming” an adult and the steps you took to figure out what you wanted to do with your life/ career. I feel like I’m just waiting for someone to tell me what to do and it’s scary 😅 I’ll be 24 next week with no concrete idea of what I want my career to be

[@uhlisabeth656]

I’ve been watching you for years and it’s so nice to watch you grow into yourself. you’re so well articulated and calm. please never stop making videos

[@meowdrii]

i’ve been thinking about these things a lot recently especially since i feel like i’m coming into the real adult world more & it’s so comforting to know other people think this way thank u ellie

[@Adenu]

that was very personal and deep, thanks for sharing ellie! your content isnt what i usually follow but theres something in you that gives out so much peace and good energies. you said a couple of things that made me really rethink parts of my life and myself, like the mindless pursuit of achievements and feeling comfortable with our own presence. its really impressive how you could pack all that up in one video and thats probably why we are always so glad when you come by. im still kinda stunned reflecting about all this so my comment may seem really really weird hahaha bye ellie!

[@pragyasingh2297]

thank you for taking the time and being vulnerable with us! Your emotional growth shows in the way you carry yourself and the compassion you give to those in difficult spots right now. I really needed this.

[@lianim6105]

This was so insightful. Thank you for making me feel more calm about taking things slow❤

[@ninin11]

what you said about nature x spirituality was so beautiful and raw and even though i accepted myself as agnostic at like 9, i feel that same feeling you described feeling laying on the field. that shit made me tear up, thanks for sharing :(((

[@aflatoxicosis]

I hope this doesn’t come off as weird or anything, but I feel like you’d be a fun gym buddy. Like, the type of person that you can do “chill” workouts with and have a good time talking with a little reflection sprinkled in.

[@sydneydobbs7259]

I have loved to watch you grow over the past year. It has helped me feel not so alone (cause yes its is tricky to make friends as an adult😂) I remember we both had gotten out of long term relationships at the time, so it's nice the universe made us have similar stories to grow from. Wishing nothing but the best for you. 💕

[@justjaslol]

i absolutely love these videos, it's really comforting to see someone the same age as me going through some of the same things and investing in herself to grow 🥺 thank you for talking about stuff like this and i wish you the best on your journey ❤️

[@spillinda]

this was such a great video, i love your mindset! im working on similar growth myself when it comes to being happy with where I am in life. its something I've struggled with for awhile but learning to accept what happens and make the best of things really is something that comes with time and patience for ourselves and all around us 💙

[@ch1miu]

Everything in this is worded so nicely. Hope you’re doing well ❣️

[@cillasvilla]

I am so happy that you’re doing better than ever ❤️

[@canadianpopstarhistory]

i've been watching your videos since the first time you posted about dying your hair, and it's been so heartwarming to see your growth

[@byuh3564]

Thank you for posting and sharing with us! Learning self love and respect is truly a process, especially if it's not something someone was familiar with already. I look forward to your future posts !

[@Moiya5250]

I loved this video, Ellie! I found it nice to get to know you more as you are a pretty private person. I’d love to see another vid like this or just more vlogs in general too!

[@lunarkid.]

Thanks for making this video and radiating positivity through my screen

[@helenarose3361]

i’m moving out to go to college soon and this channel and all your videos have made me feel so comforted:)

[@neraleye]

Can’t wait for the next talk sesh Ellie!! We all enjoy and appreciate your company and wisdom so much! 🫶🏻🩵⭐️

[@wangkong905]

I'm so glad things are coming together for you! We're the same age and these past couple years (especially this past year) has been just a big turning point. I'm still incredibly scared abt a lot of things but I think I'm right where i need to be at this time. We got this!! 🙌

[@avam1877]

this video inspires so much hope for me ❤

[@ellztrez252]

I’m so proud of your journey lots of us have watched you over the years and I’m sure feel the same

[@adelcappa4378]

Thank you for sharing and being so vulnerable with us 🩷

[@Heloyseful]

Ellie thanks!!! This was amazing, you are amazing!!!

[@k1nkyshouto372]

honestly i had no idea you were married before. i couldnt imagine getting married at 19 cause that would mean i'd be getting married this year. but im happy for you that you moved on from that part of your life and you honestly feel like such an old soul ( meant it in a good way) but that being said id love to know more about your doggies

[@anabelleb9919]

Been a fan since you cut your bangs ! Lov uuu

[@parushashridhar3189]

I was just thinking about you this morning and here you are❤

[@Textilenerd123]

I love this kind of video, please make more! ❤❤❤

[@MsAutophagous]

Beautiful reflections 🤍

[@Bluebird332]

Girl u shine soo bright

[@elliedee5221]

thank you 😭

[@leonmals5926]

Love that for you !! 👏🏼👏🏼

[@tautum]

your makeup is adorable!

[@halloweenjujube]

Great video! Thanks for sharing. Your ability to consistently find the good in difficult situations will serve you super well - my Dad always called that “finding the pony in the pile of shit” - it changes the game for sure. I agree that people are capable of real, lasting, major change, as long as they want it and are willing to put the work in. ☁️ Hope you’re having a good day, Ellie.

[@annaliesewilford4748]

I also used to be a fundamentalist conservative christian i didn’t deconvert until i was 24, it’s such a unique experience, but i thought you seemed like you had gone through a similar experience, always good to find a kindred spirit :)

[@elliedee5221]

it’s funny how we can sense other de-converts like that, lol 🤍

[@bex_b_]

Omg yay, HI I was just sitting here re watching your old vids cuz I was missin your energy!!

[@netizen_m3919]

Great video! I'm so happy you're in a better place after your divorce!

[@eexore5308]

You should def make more like "deep talk" or even like a self journaling or meditation session, I feel like that would be incredible to help me and many others

[@elliedee5221]

thank you!! I had such a good time making this video and I’m so grateful for the response it’s received. I’ll definitely be making more in the future :)

[@tessa7969]

i think we need to be best friends so much of this was relatable and so much made me want to cry bc you said exactly what i needed to hear ❤

[@capooii]

im semi late to commenting on this video bc i did nawt have the time earlier, but as someone who is kind of going through the same thing rn this video is a really comforting thing to me. im not going through a breakup or anything just trying to find my way through life w/o having as many friends and as many way to keep me stable, and it genuinely is a sort of freeing thing to know that you can make it on your own w/o the extra help. although, something i do find myself struggling with is how to not fake my happiness, or not pretend like im happy at times when im truly not or not enjoying the moment as much as i can. so i suppose that is my only question is how do you feel genuinely happy or not overthink things even well after they've happened? great video btw it has a lot of good advice people can apply to their lives :D

[@margotwolf7290]

we need an ellie podcast

[@elliedee5221]

🫢🫢🫢

[@katelynzamora7003]

I’m excited to watch and I love ur vids 💕

[@elliedee5221]

thank you!! 🤠

[@toriiiiiiiiiiiiiii]

Thanks for sharing so much. You’re like my coolest friend that I’ve never met. Can you talk about the logistics of divorce? Especially as a young person without kids? What was the paperwork like? Was it expensive? Did it require lawyers? Did it take a ton of time?

[@elliedee5221]

for me it took only the bare minimum paperwork and no lawyers. my ex and I didn’t own a house and had no kids, and agreed on the division of all our stuff personally, so I literally just filled out the papers, went to the courthouse, filed and stood before the judge. and that was the whole process lol

[@mouse2275]

YESSS ELLIEEEEEE 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏

[@eexore5308]

I'm so excited to watch this and see if my q made it 🤭 Edit: it did not but it was v similar to others and also just the entire vid. I really needed to hear a lot of what you said about only recently starting to know yourself and being comfortable in yourself bc I'm so struggling with that RN about to turn 21 and graduate college

[@elliedee5221]

I remember your question lol! I had a hard time picking which ones to use, especially from the ones that were very similar to others, but thank you so much for sending it in :)

[@kellyharrison8253]

Lolol drew monson said that thing about not trusting how you feel after 9pm

[@Simply_luv_Mari]

I love the video!(as always)✨️...and I hope you continue your own happy, comfortable journey and grow🌷lol.

[@gilly_axolotl]

I also only started feeling like an adult at 25

[@DahliaRose-u4h]

do you have any recommendations about getting into journaling or what your journal set up looks like? I have always wanted to journal but have found it very intimidating and don't know how to write about my day or just where to start?? I really want to have journals to look back on and see growth in myself, but I am not sure what that really looks like. Thanks!!:)

[@elliedee5221]

yes, I’ve actually been meaning to cover this in a video sometime! but basically I include four different things in my daily journaling routine: how I’m feeling that day, three things I’m grateful for, what I need to do that day (responsibilities, self care, etc), and then whatever affirmations feel right for that morning :)

[@mabbuccino]

Thanks for the video ellie! I'm a 26 year old girl/woman xD who is having a hard time cultivating peace with anxiety/depression. I've always been independent and pretty laid back, love being alone, but I'm really struggling with changing my mindset. Are there any daily/weekly routines you do to keep your peace, like journaling, yoga, affirmations? Are there any that you feel really help you?

[@elliedee5221]

this is a good question!! I’ve actually been meaning to make a video (or even a podcast-style episode) about this topic exactly, but the most grounding routines for my anxiety are daily journaling (about how I’m feeling, what I’m grateful for), daily exercise of any kind, and more recently, staying off social media in the mornings. I try to listen to uplifting podcasts or read encouraging books instead, and it keeps my mind much more clear :)

[@vanessadavalos7]

Have you thought about starting a podcast? You have such a satisfying voice 💕

[@rachelstink8894]

The fact that ellie still has that cursed cut out 😭

[@Elliebellie1998]

I’m intrigued by what you said about the feeling of reverence and awe you get when surrounded by nature. Perhaps it’s because ‘nature’ is pointing to God? ‘They exchange the truth about God for a lie; they worship and serve what God has created instead of the Creator’ 😔❤

[@trinitywilliams1670]

Where did you get your glasses omg I want them 😭

[@elliedee5221]

I got them online! I think it was Glasses.com, but there were multiple sites selling them

[@trinitywilliams1670]

@@elliedee5221 thank you so much bestie 🫶🫶 loving your content lately. I also love the growth for you. I feel like we have the same energy so it’s refreshing seeing someone my age living life

[@StickyNote347]

1:24 yo that's me

[@marcosj3639]

i just had to say got caught off guard with the super saiyan part hahaha.

[@isabellasaenz4949]

I know people have mixed feelings about this I just wanna see how other people react to it but do you feel like you have to be single in order to find yourself and be at peace with yourself?

[@stewartmatthews1551]

To be honest Ellie I did go out on a date with a girl when I was in my mid 20s and it didn't go well she is not a good cookie she almost got me in a car accident and she laughed at me and I said to her it's not funny people get killed everyday after that we broke things off over text I should of done it in person I can tell you wanna get you're life in order and focus on you and you know that's the best thing you can do I am at that point in my lif too

[@darielledavis5937]

I love junji ito 🥰 you should read uzumaki if you haven’t already!

[@tri-kit]

My long term partner is vegan and I am not.. it's been a topic heavy on me since he made the change. Why does it feel so hard to commit? What am I afraid of? How do you make it sound easy? I wsnt to be vegan but dont know where to start. Chnage is so so hard. Much love❤️

[@elliedee5221]

if you’re struggling to get into it, I would recommend picking just a couple of vegan (or even vegetarian) recipes a week, and working those into your diet. letting yourself ease into it slowly, rather than trying to force it all at once, makes it a much more sustainable and approachable change :)

[@spookiestgecko]

i feel like on a similar journey rn, but im still in the relationship

[@kumadori9627]

You can‘t hide the junji ito mangas in the back from me ;)

[@whalechief]

i just started vegetarianism for the first time when i learned in a book i read how chickens literally have zero protection from the law regarding their inhumane treatments. the thought you can just do whatever to them and the law gives a thumbs up? im out. i would sooner eat red meat than a chicken again (tho i also got to read about the cows inhumane treatments too ToT so idk im trying to stick w it despite living in a meat-focused area w little to no options)

[@proooongles]

you're so intelligent bro

[@elliedee5221]

thank you bro 😭

[@briannahcozzolino763]

Pretty sure that quote on the sonic meme was originally said by drew monson in one of his videos!

[@elliedee5221]

oh my god I haven’t watched his videos in forever! he would say something like that lol

[@stellar903]

Sonic stole that from a Drew Monson tweet, but still even more reason to live by those words

[@Twilightsonata-w7p]

I’m in my late teens and the life you portray; at least on on your KZbin channel; is my dream life. To be able to afford a small house in the country side on my own merits with preferably a dog as company sounds perfect to me. I hope I can achieve it someday and don’t have to keeping working multiple minimum wage jobs indefinitely to make that dream a reality.

[@elliedee5221]

this comment makes me appreciate my life a little bit more. thank you ♥️

[@Hey.its.amber127]

What happened with your skull enlargement thingy? Did I imagine that? Are you ok? Anyway thanks for sharing 💜

[@elliedee5221]

I hate to break a bit, but I was actually joking about that 😭 thank you for worrying about me though!! I appreciate it 🤍

[@jennybushnell9995]

Church is in your heart! !

[@anabelleb9919]

I used to be a Jehovah witness left at 15 I’m happier than ever

[@Chessie-TaylorsVersion]

I want to be you when I grow up (I am 21)

[@nincompooplol]

You should get a nose piercing! It would go really well with your aesthetic and you'd absolutely rock it!

[@jillsarah7356]

Please consider ditching generalizations such as “organized religions.” No religion is comparable to Christianity and they aren’t really comparable to each other. Buddhism, Rastafarianism, Druze, Native American religions, and many others are organized religions. Thanks!

[@iceunelle]

There are also many sects to Christianity too… we’re not all crazy intense fundamentalists.

[@lovelylola20]

I’m very sad you lost your way in God but I hope you find your way back and have the best relationship with God you’ve ever had 😊

[@fatimahhammad2062]

you look (somewhat) and sound exactly like gigi hadid

[@pi-nn5qg]

Divorced at 25 why even married??¿??? So young ?????

[@antisocialist2244]

1 John 4:16 And we have known and believed the love that God hath to us. God is love; and he that dwelleth in love dwelleth in God, and God in him. KJV