BOXING DAY 2018 - SPROUTS CRISPS, BEACH + BOARD GAMES! FDOE - STILL CHALLENGING ANOREXIA

[@GracieLions]

Reacting with shock or disgust at an anorexic's bones is *always* taken as a compliment. Beware of that. Best comment is none at all.

[@SJanaS]

SOOO AGREE!!

[@AubrieLynnx18]

I really think she liked her dad telling her that her collar bone was disgusting. The more hey went on about it the more she kept showing it and looking at it. She did the same thing with her arm in the Christmas vlog. Please consider some outpatient treatment, you really need to work on the mental aspects of your ED not just simply eating more.

[@alily2715]

Aubrie1995 very true

[@leximayrose1512]

Aubrie1995 agree

[@xaprilrose]

Aubrie1995 i completely agree

[@jonistarratt508]

She absolutely did

[@ollyc7834]

I understand that people who haven’t been through certain things wouldn’t get why her family talks to her in a certain way, however when you are in self destruction (which I have been) you need people to tell you, especially your loved ones as they genuinely mean no harm and simply want the best for you, it’s destructing for them too, watching their daughter/sister harm themselves, I fully understand how she feels when she says she grateful they say it how it is, you don’t see what you’re doing to yourself and it only motivates you to make them proud and most of all get healthy again! Very proud of you Elzani, so excited to see what 2019 has to hold for you x

[@dedoubecool]

I understand how some people might think your dad is rude but tbh I thought it was kinda nice that your family was honest with you. How sad and wrong would it be for your appearance to be taboo ? It's important for you know that you look sick. If anything it'll motivate you to recover and your dad must know that.

[@emilyferguson7640]

I think it's great that they remind her that the way she looks isn't healthy, if they remind her it should get through to her that what she looks like isn't perfect xx

[@Elizabeth-yx5on]

Telling a recovering anorexic that they look sick does, yes, encourage the disease, in some cases. But you aren't even supposed to comment on their appearance AT ALL! It's so rude to say she looks "disgusting" and he knows that. It is not helpful in any way. My entire treatment team told my family not to comment on my body at all.

[@xaprilrose]

completely agree

[@elladenham330]

Lily I disagree with you, he wasn’t saying she was disgusting he was saying her collar bone was.

[@tatteredquilt]

@@Elizabeth-yx5on Different people, different needs. If someone is a few kilos away from dropping dead, is it time to be polite?

[@andymorgo7856]

Seeing you trying so hard make me wanna do the same with my ED and recovery, i hope you get better! You are an angel and you deserve recovery and be happy! Be strong, Love you xx❣️

[@anyadavies8221]

Your videos are so inspiring and so real. Thank you so much for sharing your recovery journey with us. It helps so many people (including myself). You are so brave and should be so proud of yourself💞

[@elzani6744]

thank you for saying that, I always want to show the best bits with the harder too.. and am so glad you find it helpful, I just want to show people they are never alone and that it is possible to recover!

[@anyadavies8221]

You’re doing such a good job of that!! Your videos make me believe that recovery is possible, it just takes time and motivation. Also, thank you so much for replying, it’s made my day!!🤗Xx

[@0becca0]

To the dickheads who thought her famiy were being rude saying her collar bone looked disgusting... They’re not rude, They’re quite obviously trying to counteract her from her own mind. It does look disgusting and she needs to know that. She is going to look so beautiful once she fills out her skin!!

[@amymclellan583]

'Dickheads' wow you're nice!

[@0becca0]

Amy McLellan pardon?

[@its_msk]

Bye...shes already beautiful.

[@pepetuared844]

Your language/Name calling ....no need for it. It just makes you seem disingenuous/ false

[@Carrot880]

Yesss giiiirl! Now we're finally talking. :D 23:50 No, it's not weird, that's what happens when body realizes there's food after deprivation. It wants it all NOW! Oh and those Mars ice cream bars are the BEST. I looove Mars bars but the ice creams are almost better. Snickers ice creams too! Yumyumyum.

[@elzani6744]

ahhhh it is so clever! And OMG SO GOOD! Just all aspects of the ice cream bar go together perfectly! Ooooh I have never tried the Snickers ice creams!

[@morekaterina]

Mom so supports you, it's amazing!

[@elzani6744]

she is amazing!

[@runningrigert]

I love her mom sooooo much!

[@chicacool2004]

i like your videos because they’re true, barely editing. Just your camera and you, showing how you overcome your disorder. You are so strong, you are stronger than your disorder.

[@jule5745]

I don't really get your excitement abiut Christmas but I'm completely in love with it

[@elzani6744]

YAY! CHRISTMAS IS THE BEST!

[@brittanybuhler2263]

Absolutely love you, your family, & your long videos 🙂

[@elzani6744]

yay! I wasn't sure if it was too long haha

[@lolapoggg2037]

You are such a great KZbinr Elzani, absolutely adore you and your family.

[@elzani6744]

ahhhhh thank you so much for saying that, I am so glad you enjoy the vids! Thank you for watching them xx

[@sistersnatched1463]

Omg I was your 10,000th subscriber I think cuz it was 9,999 and I subbed and refreshed the page and it went to 10k!!! Congrats!

[@anna-kristijrstad9115]

Your awesome. I look so much forward to seeing your results. My biggest difficulty was working with the head when it was to much pressure from my family and friends. But I now know for sure that "fake it till you make it", and eating without being comfortable will in the longer run make you more comfortable. All the best!

[@bethan1904]

Look how absolutely brilliant you're doing, Elzani. you should be so proud of yourself, you're looking better everyday. I cant wait to watch you recover, beautiful.

[@kerryrice7143]

So proud of your recent increases. Stay proud, enjoy food, and keep pushing girl!! Life is worth enjoying :)

[@kathryner1]

Hi Elzani!! Congratulations on your daily improvements and dedication to your recovery! One thing I noticed is that you use your family’s portions as a reference point for yours, which I think down the line makes sense, but if you need to gain, and not maintain your weight, 2 turkey sandwiches instead of the one I think would help! :) best of luck! So proud of you!

[@victoriavlog]

would you be okay with sharing more info and photos of your journey, before and during anorexia? i think you're doing so well in your recovery!!

[@georginadrake4050]

victoria's vlogs I think that’s a great video idea if Elzani is comfortable sharing it :)

[@rebeccagriffin2515]

Keep challenging those voices, and keep going my lovely. We need your nans turkey soup recipe 👍I'm on my own journey, it's all about challenging. I KNOW I'll get there one day. I crave normality xx

[@jennica1710]

been watching all your videos since you started, i think its so great your trying to get better and i am sure its taking a lot of strength and courage. was thinking cus you like doing the challenges it might be fun in the future when your ready to do a sister or mother chooses everything i eat for the day video, it might help as well as youd be able to see what someone else thinks is a 'normal amount' of food since thats a big concern you have :)) keep going girlie you can do it!!

[@Crocs4cats]

Thank you for sharing your recovery and Christmas with your family with us. I spent it alone this year so it's been really nice to see you guys enjoying it and having fun. You are very lucky to have such a wonderful family but you of course know that. Looking forward to seeing lots more from you❤️

[@alprhoe7502]

so proud angel keep fighting and stay strong xx

[@l3RiiTTANY]

I can understand that your family is desperate to get their point across to you but 11:00 made me so uncomfortable. The strength it takes to recover is astronomical and it’s clear how much you want your life back. Keep fighting the bad side of your brain - I’m so so happy for you 🥰

[@jenniferlittlejohn3151]

Yes! Keep going, Elzani! Eating whatever you want is fantastic and just so empowering. You’re going to kick anorexia’s arse 💪🏻❤️

[@giuliana.v2946]

Love you elzanii, you are so brave and strong, you've help me to search recovery, so much love n peace from chile ✨❤

[@katherineellen3215]

I just adore you and your amazing family and wish all the best for all of you ❤️

[@rainykanon]

your dad's change of expression when you took the picture was hilarious hahahah

[@sydneyscott9947]

Just a question but should you be allowed to do so much walking, and be so active? ❤️

[@its_msk]

She already said they rarely go walking. Itcwas a planned boxing day walk. It's still good to get a small walk in

[@tofutofutofu444]

11:00 onwards really upset me... i hope it didn't affect you or anything

[@ninazeleznik009]

Yeah but sometimes being nice won't help...u need harsh slap in your face to wake up...well at least that was what I had to have...to get better

[@tofutofutofu444]

cant relate yeah i understand that. but elzani is doing so well already, and there's a big difference between several people acting completely disgusted towards you, and constructive criticism.

[@ninazeleznik009]

@@tofutofutofu444 I know I think it's just her dad being worried about her and he can't show it in other way

[@ninazeleznik009]

@@unproficient6516 I know but it could be much worse...she has all mother support and from sisters so I think she will be okey...dads are hard to understand...

[@amymclellan583]

It also made me really uncomfortable. We all have feelings and that was horrible. Elzani is a PERSON.

[@forgeinbrat6007]

Love watching your videos, seeing your everyday life and your journey! Stay strong ♥️ p.s happy holidays!

[@MyLifeAsMiranda]

I love how much you've been posting! I always look forward to watching your videos😊but just remember, if you ever need a break from KZbin/social media, take it! Your health and happiness with yourself is priority. You deserve the best in life 🌻☀️🏵️

[@FroggyTWrite]

have you considered getting cooking lessons from your gram? it would be a great way for the two of you to bond and i would imagine she has lots of knowledge to share! think of all thing things she has lived through and all the stuff that has changed over her life!

[@genevievepilz8549]

I love that idea.

[@lipskittles]

Yaahs Queen! I love seeing you snacking between meals. I know we only get a portion of your day but you should be super proud of yourself, those thighs are on their way!

[@TheSkatingqueen101]

You were brilliant and energetic in the video! Improvement in health!!

[@juliansgma]

Ohmygosh, how cute is grandma!

[@elzani6744]

SO CUTE! She is the best :D

[@dieseljunky883]

Hope you had a good Christmas Elzani!

[@elzani6744]

it was the best! I hope you did too!

[@kellycannon9796]

Elzani- I do much like you as well- I don’t tend to eat a lot of fruit and veg because it’s filling but not calorie dense and I want to make sure I get the calories in....but I think I have to eat more fruit and veg to be healthier!! You are doing amazing! Be very proud of yourself!💕

[@movhi4516]

Your a beautiful person! I love you so much! 💕💕 keep going. Your doing great!

[@haylee859]

I’m sooooo proud of you Elzani I just feel like you eat a lot more chocolates and candies rather than fatties and proteins such as chicken or salmon and rice. I wanna see you eat a HUGE juicy bacon burger with cheese fries and a coke with a cheesecake 💕 Edit; granted I don’t see what goes on when the cameras off. Just going off what I see on here lol!!

[@user-hp3gq8ry6c]

im very proud of you you did really well today! keep on like that and you will get better thats the only way darling. i wish you good luck from germany

[@elzani6744]

sonja we thank you so much! I will definitely keep going and do even more! ❤️

[@user-hp3gq8ry6c]

@@elzani6744 yes its worth it i promise

[@klaravankova1089]

You look happier than before, the happiness shines in your eyes. Love it.

[@AnoukMali7899]

Elzani, you are really brave! Capri Sun and crisps is very challenging! Happy Boxing Day! You are doing so well and there is so much more light in your face! Keep telling yourself that you are perfect the way you are and that you deserve all the goodness and the food you are eating. You need loads of food in refeeding, much more than other people. So you could easily double their portions. If you wanna eat five sandwiches do so. Your body needs so much nutrients to reapair and regenerate. Keep nourishing your soul and your body. The future holds loads of joy for you.

[@theonethatgotaway680]

You are loved, you are beautiful, you are amazing and your light shines so bright. Don’t ever stop being you 💖

[@Zenithxblack]

You r Walker's brand crisps are the same as our Lay's here in the US (same owners), but we don't have the same flavors. I love sprouts and have been seeing the packets of those online , wondering if they were good. I am glad you enjoyed them :)

[@yup8577]

What is the games they are playing called? Looks so fun!

[@biffalump]

Think some comments are harsh ,but as you cannot see your true self you need to be told so well done dad 💖 Edit ps your dad smiling for that picture was hilarious 😆

[@issymather8116]

To some people it might seem mean but I think its important that she is reminded that healthy collarbones should not look like that and that it is not normal or appealing in any way. hopefully these messages will stay in the back of her mind and give her a sense of relief when her body starts filling out and looking strong again!

[@ItsMelliB]

Elzani, You are doing better then you were before. Your dad's comment about you being disgusting was so rude and uncalled for. You are doing your best, and I don't think that's the right how he handled things. Keep listening to your mom and your sisters! You are doing wonderful love.

[@tmsts002]

Your so beautiful and your personality is amazing. I can't wait to see you thrive this year!!!

[@losercruzer1]

When you do put on weight your collar bones could still stick out more than others, so that should be the least of your worries. You’re doing a good job. Proud of you.

[@oliviataylor5296]

I love that little beach, where is it?

[@GreenLampSam]

Yay, you've reached 10k subscribers! Well done Elzani :) it's so great to see you enjoying proper meals with your family. Keep going, you can do this! 💪 I was wondering, have you considered cutting your hair? It's really beautiful and long, but sometimes a new look can help us with a fresh start, maybe it would help you get into the "new year new me" attitude and really get stuck into recovery. Wishing you and your family the best! ♥

[@faridahossam4056]

You look so much healthier keep going!

[@elzani6744]

Fifo Fafi thank you!!! 😄 I will!

[@bojewell7900]

What was the board game you were all playing at the end called ?

[@troy7328]

Glad you enjoyed Boxing Day. Looks like you had fun. Thanks for sharing.

[@lydiaroseyoung]

Your so smiley and lovely, well done. It’s hard but your trying your best x

[@ss7382]

10,000 subs omg yes!!!!🎉🎉🎉

[@onlygirl1126]

being careless about food and eating anything i want anytime i want something i’ve been trying to do for so long time(im trying tho and i’m challenging myself 4 this) i hope i’ll improve gradually💕✨it’s really helpful and good to see you do the same thing!❤️

[@TheSkatingqueen101]

Your father told you you look disgusting. Being ill is not disgusting, it is upsetting. You can soon be better, feel better, and have a healthy body. I believe in you, keep working hard, and keep eating!

[@SJanaS]

that is so true...i cant justify talking to her like that. She's sick and there's no need to point out the obvious and hurt her feelings. And even if she's not hurt and liked the comment, that's part of the illness, and a parent should never call their child disgusting. I wish he didn't say that because I know he is genuinely a great dad, but comments like that don't accelerate recovery-that's not how it works!

[@Penguinstudios123]

“Pig flavoured, don’t be cruel!!!” Eh? Pigs in blankets are pig wrapped in pig ?😹 does she not know? Nice to see you so happy!!! I’m glad you’re challenging yourself and trying new things (if you are, I hope so!)

[@JoJo-vg9sj]

Congratulations 10000 subscribers 👏👏👏👏keep going your doing amazing

[@mynameisralfbob2276]

So I have a question for you. Why do you smell everything you eat? I love your channel, I was just curious about that.

[@isobel3905]

Well done on another good day Elzani!

[@valeriemorales6163]

Yay!! I love when you upload! :)

[@leahbaer11]

I think it would be really helpful for you to be on some sort of meal plan (Minnie Maud?) Especially as you struggle with thinking everything is too much and everyone seems to always be saying you don't eat. You've got to be eating enormous amounts during recovery (as I'm sure you know) and you seem to not even be eating as much as any of your family members, none of whom need to recover from an eating disorder. Of course, I have no insight into what you eat day-to-day but these are just my thoughts from watching your videos.

[@genevievepilz8549]

A meal plan sounds like a good idea. I don't know much about anorexia recovery outside of what I see on KZbin but I know if I was anxious about something a plan would make me feel more secure. Also, being able to tick off accomplishments is always good.

[@abigailmitchell2198]

I have a meal plan given to me by my ED nutritionist, I couldn’t manage without it right now, it’s important for me to have structure x

[@leahbaer11]

Abigail Mitchell Exactly! I think that sort of structure, not to mention physiological necessity, could really benefit Elzani!

[@nathaliekluken9478]

Wat is this game your are playing looks fun!!

[@kelseybrown9959]

Watch Rebecca Leung!!

[@nizma88]

Love your video so much

[@tatteredquilt]

Hawaii is America... 50th state.

[@kellycannon9796]

What is “gamen “??? Something I have never heard of!!

[@genevievepilz8549]

Gammon :) Now you can Google it

[@rebeccamorrison1313]

I love your family!

[@dedoubecool]

those crisps made you miss Would I Lie To You 😱 haha

[@user-ht4ii1wi6u]

I'm really sorry about the way your family talks to you. I feel very disturbed by that

[@triple_gem_shining]

Yea the comments they made last video when elzani put on the bracelet was un called for

[@elzani6744]

don't be sorry, and please don't be disturbed! I am very lucky to have them and be able to all talk so openly about everything whenever. Also it is good to be more light hearted about situations or circumstances that have been pushing down on everyone for so long. We have all gone through this for far too long, and only this past year have I been so open which has actually helped us all massively. I am so glad and I hope that others are too

[@user-ht4ii1wi6u]

Well, if you're happy then I'm happy. I've just watched a lot of your videos lately and feel invested in your recovery and in turn I don't want you to be subjected to unkind words. But what do I know, maybe I'm a little bit sensitive 😊 happy holidays

[@genevievepilz8549]

@@elzani6744 If that's his sense of humour and it doesn't hurt you it's all good.

[@chelseydixon3917]

What game is that?!

[@katherinegoddard6672]

Your mum is amazing 😍

[@sarahodonoghue1830]

Oh I love dark chocolate Lindt ❤️❤️❤️

[@genius2655]

You and I have a very similar personality, and it’s entertaining watching you come out of your shelf more and more every video, and if you compare this video to, say the chicken nugget video, you can see improvement in your behaviours and personality Edit: I know your Dad was saying it how it is, but telling you to ‘put it away’, is taking it a bit far. I can tell it’s visibly hurting your feelings

[@gemma_dancer4169]

SpoonfulofSuga hello fellow army :)

[@glow323]

11:00 he was realy rude

[@Laura-jl7vc]

i agree...

[@Azuia]

What do u want him to say? "You look so healthy, good you are gaining weight!" I dont think you understand how people with anorexia really has it...

[@glow323]

@@Azuia i do have trouble with eating and her dad was little bit rude bc he said it was disgusting and i know that her collarbone is showing but her dad just didn't know how to say it right

[@Laura-jl7vc]

@@Azuia not saying that she looks disgusting is completely different from saying that she looks healthy. There are ways to be honest with people and to show them that you're concerned, but saying "You look disgusting" is definitely not one of them. It is the same thing as telling someone that they should lose way. Do you say they look disgusting? No. It can be pretty offensive and will probably hurt the person

[@Snickerdoods.x]

Azuia No but telling someone they look disgusting isn’t helpful at all. It’s better just not to comment on appearance.

[@theholisticmaple6553]

woah.. omg mars has ice cream versions..

[@alprhoe7502]

does it not fuel anorexia a bit by your whole family constantly telling you how sick you are, i know its reality but maybe they could approach it differently like if you're having a bad thought maybe some reassurance from them that it is more than okay to eat what you want when you want no matter what weight. i know and understand how difficult this illness is on the family and you are all so brave and amazing. sending lots of love to you elzani, aleesha, sierra, nan, dad and mum.... oh and the doggies!!

[@chicacool2004]

alprhoe but she doesn’t actually knows what she looks like, her family need to tell her that she still looks sick, that she doesn’t looks good like that.

[@Cheeriocat7980]

What is Boxing Day? Just a curious American 🤗

[@bekka696]

It's a public holiday, the day after Christmas.

[@meagnelhug9976]

You are rocking it Elzani! Christmas in your house looks so fun 🎄 Also this is random but you've got such pretty teeth

[@katiewinter3825]

i think you are amazing and i love your chanel but i don't think posting videos with such upclose images of your bones is helpful to anyone in recovery or helpful for you!! xxx

[@elzani6744]

thank you for the feedback and I agree, I apologise if it offended or upsets anyone. I am documenting my recovery, but am so grateful for everyone who is on this journey with me xx

[@fedcba54321]

Elzani you're so sweet. I hope no one was hurt by it but it was clearly not meant to hurt anyone. You're doing so well! I believe you when you say you'll be able to eat a sandwich next Christmas and not make a big deal of it! You can do it!

[@sarahodonoghue1830]

Turkey soup looks amazing

[@Hollieford89]

You live Bournemouth

[@its_msk]

Devon

[@sams5188]

Looks like exmouth

[@jenn5703]

Your dad calling your collarbones disgusting really upset me. There’s a difference between being rude and supportive 😣 my boyfriends collar bones look like that and he’s not anorexic at all. Just small lol

[@kuromisery]

Hey guys, just a reminder little snippets of videos don't give you the entire insight between a father daughter relationship. I wouldn't judge so quickly.

[@theholisticmaple6553]

you're family seems so supportive, but your dad is constantly degrading you. But i know he loves you so much, tough love I suppose

[@elzani6744]

Michael Luis he’s the best, he knows me better than I know myself and it breaks his heart that I am still suffering... He always supports me and believes in me, never missed a day of visiting me in hospital the whole 3 months! The best human ever, please don’t think otherwise! It’s horrible to see someone you love destroy themselves I guess xx

[@theholisticmaple6553]

@@elzani6744 I can tell he loves you so much, but it just seems he shows his love a different style of way! My dads like him in similar ways. I hope you didnt get upset with my comment, hes just showing some tough love haha. Can't wait to start vlogging again on my own, I need to recover from my binge eating, its gotten so bad.

[@elzani6744]

@@theholisticmaple6553 yes he definitely does! No you didn't at all, I just don't want people to get the wrong impression haha! Ahhh you should, just start!! It will be so fun and a focus for you!

[@theholisticmaple6553]

@@elzani6744 Okay good! I would never want to make someone feel attacked! I used to post videos and stopped for a few months now, I went from 250lbs to 180lbs, but my eating disorder started acting up so I've gained some unwanted weight again. Maybe we can be youtube friends, I also messaged you on instagram!

[@ravenfoster]

Michael Luis I think she probably needs some tough love. She doesn’t see what’s wrong and so her dad expressing that it isn’t healthy probably shows her that she’s not okay. It’s a bit harsh but it’s better than enabling her and telling her she looks ok

[@its_msk]

Your dad seems genuinely unhappy with life. He comes across as depressed. When you take the family photo his expression immediately changes back to miserable

[@elladenham330]

Dawny K he just wants his daughter back bless him.

[@OM-po3on]

i've said it on a video before but I think you would really benefit from reading some of Tabitha Farrar's blog posts and listening to her podcasts. She has a fab youtube channel as well and if you like her approach she has this amazing book called rehabilitate, rewire, recover. Go get em girl

[@OM-po3on]

if you could eat 5 you eat 5 otherwise you are still restricting. if you want another 5 after that or something else then that is what you must have

[@brittanybuhler2263]

❤️🙂

[@amymclellan583]

I was literally yelling out evaporation 😂

[@shaybaejz5303]

ur so amazing

[@pancakesyrups]

I know Elzani’s dads words we’re not the nicest but I feel as though it’s the only way she can realise how poorly she looks. The voice in her head is telling her she looks fine, she isn’t allowed to eat, she shouldn’t gain weight. She doesn’t see what we see and sugar coating it doesn’t help her get better.

[@hallwnby]

You should go shopping for clothes that are a bigger size so when u get to a normal weight you can wear amazing pretty clothes!! Like if you agree

[@Hollieford89]

I love snickers ice cream bars

[@amymclellan583]

Listen to your older sister, she will get you better x

[@elenablancoesquivel5201]

Your youngest sister is so pretty wow

[@Demi.d3mi]

That 11:00 thing had to be said by your family tbh, hope you dont get offended. You got used to your body being so skinny that you forget how your body should be looking. Im skinny too and it kind of surprises me when my sister says something about my shoulders and collarbone or my legs as if it isnt alright. But then i see what she means later and makes me wanna gain weight! Lol. I hope u also celebrate your 10k subs with a feast!!!!!

[@elzani6744]

squishy booty I wasn’t offended, and that is true. My dad hates it because I can’t remember how I used to be and I used to be a swimmer and run and I was strong so it breaks his heart

[@elzani6744]

squishy booty they just all want me to be strong and healthy! And thank you I can’t believe it!!! So many people!! I will deffo celebrate wooo