an update - what I am doing now - GO FOR IT - PO Box?!

[@sallypunkt]

don't forget that recovery is not just about eating lots and gaining weight! You also need to "normalise" your thoughts and behaviour around food and body. Glad to see you getting better either way!

[@Small_Rose]

Yes! People tend to understand is just about food but food is just a symptome of this disease. In most case this is mostly related to emotions :)

[@ilikeyoutube836]

Good for you Elzani. Half of overcoming a problem is simply acknowledging it, and then committing to a solution. There's a time for baby steps, and now it's time to take bigger steps forward. You really have come a long way, and I know you can get where you want to be. Just keep going...

[@extremegals321]

the best part of recovery is being able to enjoy hobbies and passions and life without thinking about food all the time. What are you interested in other than this channel and food? You’re such a lovely person and I really wish we got to see more of what you’re like as a person and not just as a recovering anorexic

[@Ella-ps1lg]

It's amazing that you've used Mumzani's cancer to inspire you to further your recovery - I had a similar situation a few years ago with my grandma and I let it throw me right back into my anorexia. I'm not surprised you have so many followers & supporters - you are completely loveable - you have so much to offer the world & I can't wait to see how your life unfolds

[@clare1971]

You obviously have an amazing family but I so hope you see a therapist or councillor regularly too, because you need it and sometimes your family can be too close

[@abbiegilmour7088]

I just wanted to leave a comment to say thankyou elzani! Because of you I finally told my parents about my anorexia/issues with food. They have been so helpful and accepting & I genuinely don’t think I could have had the courage to tell them without your videos because you are so inspiring ❤️

[@HS-uc7sk]

You're doing amazing! The main turning point in my recovery was telling myself that eating food shouldn't be 'A THING' I had to stop thinking about it or planning and just eat when I was hungry. You've got this!

[@throughrose-colouredeyes6284]

you matter, beautiful soul. and your life matters too. just like your mum was strong enough to beat her illness, and worthy of being free of it, you are strong enough to beat yours, and just as worthy of being free of it as well. ♡ we all believe in you.

[@sofia01ht]

I am sure you can do it Elzani! I will do it with you because I even thoguh Ive been achieving things, I feel like deep down I'm still in my comfort zone and almost "avoiding" recovery because I am already feeling comfortable with the foods I'm eating now, so because those are achievements and I have already conquered those fear foods, my ED makes me settle... ugh anorexia is such a tricky and sneaky disease! HOWEVER, because we are mindful about it now, we can beat it!!!! letg's goooo! We can do this! you can do this Elzani!!! life is wonderful

[@paxtonmcpherson]

I really respect your determination and insight Elzani. I think one important thing to realize is that matching what you eat with what your mum eats isn't a sign a recovery. Its definitely an important first step, but she is not in recovery, and she is also older than you so her metabolism naturally will be slower. I think you should try to be eating at least double what she eats day to day while you recover. I'm really wishing you all the best

[@Laura-et2xj]

Elzani, you're such a beautiful human being. Inside and out. I love watching you take back your life.

[@MamaRoseto8]

I wish I could like this 100 times. I hope Elzani reads this instead of the comments trying to "fix" her in their ways and judgements. This video was so honest and still people judge her choices.

[@petitehippie7064]

@@MamaRoseto8 Exactly. I also wonder, whether all the people giving such "great" advice , apply it to themselves and their EDs. I highly doubt the majority do. Easy to give advice not so easy to do it yourself. Recovering from anorexia, is extremely hard. It's like being brainwashed. Very hard to rewire your brain. I have had anorexia for 30 years. I am not an expert. I have been to many recovery centres etc... i have never seen anyone completely recovery in a matter of months. For most people it's a long journey, but definitely worth it. It takes time. Elanzi is doing very well . She inspires me , and I am twice her age. Elanzi is amazing! I believe in time she will fully recover. Because, she wants to. She wants to beat this disorder so badly. That is the hardest decision to make. Well done Elzani. I wish you and your family nothing but the best💖

[@sarah-gr7rn]

i fully support you, but i do hope that you also have a therapist to help guide you

[@josielockyer6351]

Sarah Miller it’s like she knows she needs it

[@startfromsquareone2913]

I think that you have come so so far over the past months and you are allowed to give yourself credit for that. But I also think that you are a very good example of how long it will take to repair the damage that we have done to ourselves. Mentally and physically. Everytime I watch your videos, I think that I am still not as committed as you are, you inspire me every time. Keep going!!

[@louisecochrane3738]

This video is worth watching. You are right - you have come a long way in recovery but it's not enough. You have realised you are getting nowhere near where you NEED and WANT to be. You are aware that you need to change and this is a good thing! Keep up the good work Elzani! Love the channel. I like the idea of a PO Box as I might send you something in the next few weeks💜

[@naomijacobs1008]

Hi Elani, Sending love from NYC! Just wanted to let you know that even though I've never had an eating disorder, I struggle with an anxiety disorder. I understand your approach of conquering your fears by confronting them. It's true that the more we expose ourselves to what we're afraid of, the less power it has over us. I think anyone that has crippling anxiety can benefit from watching your videos. Anxiety is difficult because it comes in different shapes and forms. A need for control can manifest in other ways, so I suggest that anyone with an eating disorder or anxiety disorder should work with a therapist. I think you've come very far from when I saw your first video. Thank you for sharing your journey!

[@renea.s5221]

So happy to hear that you are going for it and making changes, even if it is out of your comfort zone. I truly believe that if you make a visible change and keep getting better it will also help your Mum to heal as well as it will take worry for you off her shoulders (I’m a Mom and know that to be true). Your Mum is so amazing and you both need to heal together. God bless you both and I pray for you both. I also loved your cooking videos and think more cooking will also help you to overcome fears of foods. You are doing good and look forward to saying “Wow look at how AMAZING you’ve done”! Good job. Keep it up.

[@deyanira008]

I think you are doing really great as well. Yaaas a PO box that's great!!! Hope it's not too much of a load on you but it will be fun. Oh I love that idea...more videos/ ideas...I would certainly watch your videos, be your friend and family. I'm here for you... supporting you all the way!!!!! 🖤🌠🦋 Your so inspiring. You have faced tons of fears...glad your noticing the positive changes and some improvements you need to make. Yes respond to your hunger, listen to your body and times when your unsure...this time is a great time. I can understand about feeling weak...I fed up with that myself...that's why you understand and inspire me because I'm and was where your at. It's frustrating...I see other things really matter not my ED, perfection and OCD. I love you. Yes great things have happened so far...you get sooo much support...yea your body is your vesel, your temple...I think that too...it's been a while for me...I'm not doing exactly what I need to be doing, I need to listen more to myself, trust myself, allow myself, push more. Like you. You have chilled out but your also taking responsibility all the time, your saying it! Hell yeah, cheese toasties if you want it and are still scared of it, have it! Amazing 😍 💕 You can do this, you are doing it, you will and are heading in a healthy direction. 🥣👍😎🌠🦋🖤🕊️👑👏💪😊💞🍫🍨☕🍔🍎🌽🥐🥪🍕🧀🍳🥔🥜🍟🥙🌯🥡🍝🍰🍫🍪🍩🍿🥤🌄🏖️🎆🎶🏀🛍️📚💌🔮☮️

[@its_msk]

I honestly thought at the beginning when you said people have been asking...you were going to say Yes you're in therapy , not Yes you have a PO box for people to send you things. IS this not using your channel which is based on your illness, to get things from people? Those were your words for people to send you things. I think that is messed up. Focus on your recovery, not being a youtuber. You are again repeating the same things from months ago...that NOW you are starting to REALLY change. Even the look on your mums face says it all. Please for your future get outside help. This proves you need more professional support. It's not just about food Elzani.

[@toniallen4786]

Keep going! You're heading in the right direction. ❤ you have beautiful eyes by the way. X

[@juliansgma]

You’re becoming “self aware” and that’s the biggest growth move you have discovered ! I continue to send prayers and positive thoughts to your beautiful mom! ❤️😁

[@empoweringmindsets6667]

Elzani you really inspired me to start my on youtube videos to share my journey!! Because I thought recovery wasn’t possible.. BUT IT IS! And you have shown that 100% that WE CAN ALL DO THIS! Just need to be patient with ourselves and not beat ourselves up! You have done so well and i’m so proud of you xx

[@leahnewton2763]

Elz you are absolutely amazing and we will always support you xxxx

[@1994mary27]

It's great that you are doing so well and that you are motivated to even do better. My suggestion to do anything is not only knowing why but creating an exact plan how to reach your goal. I wish you all the best and I am looking forward to seeing you at your healthiest!

[@simona9726]

Your mom is so precious.

[@FeesLittleWorld]

YOu can do this girl! You are such a massive inspiration and now you are taking the next step! I wish you so much strength and endurance. Always remeber: Motivation is great to start but what is the most important thing is: comittment! I believe in you

[@alliealice4739]

I’m so glad I came across this KZbin channel what a genuine,lovely,amazing,sweet person! I’ve loved watching the transformation within you already and continue to be excited to see you in your future. Your sisters are so funny and your mum is an absolute angel! Oh how can I forget your sweet gran and all those pets! Thanks for exposing anorexia for it’s true self and educating people like me on this topic. It takes a brave person to do what you’ve done. X ❤️X

[@jowalby3502]

If you crave something its usually your body telling you that you need it ,Has your mum had her results back yet we are all hoping for good news ,x

[@sophie3588]

I love you so much girlie! I have literally been watching all your videos lately. I’m so so proud of you strong girl 😘

[@flowfitnessandmentalhealth3380]

Just found your channel and subscribed.Proud of you for committing to recovery,as I know how hard it is with my 22yrs battle from this illness.Looking forward to watch your journey.

[@mlouisgxnd]

Yes El! Keep going love, you're glowing!!!!!

[@GabrielleLeGrange]

Life keeps moving forward all the time with or without us. Those of us with disorders struggle to stay present 🖤 sending you good vibes and lots of love xx

[@MadisonTiahn]

I feel like you should challenge the thoughts that tell you that you have to voice what you are going to do. Just do it. You can’t wait for it to get easy. It won’t ever get easy until you just do it. X

[@td2884]

But how would KZbin work for her if she doesn't make a video ? No joke! That pull/push is a thing and the need/ compulsion to record, get comments, and monitize vids. Catch-22. She needs this KZbin because she isn't doing the work out in the world. Sadly, I'm not sure this whole thing is healthy and helpful anymore. Just a few thoughts...

[@shelleyn2884]

Your body changing is the best part! Will be the best part! Your young womanly beauty and strength of body will shine like your personality. Supporting you all the way in your efforts!

[@sunnyD9]

Watching your videos and seeing you grow into a beautiful strong woman has truly been a privilege. It’s so amazing watching how your mind has changed and how you’ve stopped staring at food with much fear or how you just go for it instead of staring at. the food for a long time. Good for you for still eating and for keeping at it and for accepting the weight you’re gaining. Keep going girl. We believe in you. Your family believes in you and so does your youtube family❤️

[@froggy8814]

thanks for another upload Elzani

[@pinksloth7318]

Definitely going to send you stuff Elzani xxxx

[@jadeowen7515]

Your hair is looking so much thicker, and your eyes seem brighter:) x

[@lotteberendsen9785]

Elzani you’re amazing. And your mother is honestly the best. You both inspire me so much. Lots of love to your entire family. X

[@jordanthrower9207]

You can definitely do it. It’s amazing that you know when you need to push more - it’s truly inspiring 👍🏼 you can do it 💓

[@trishamcelroy2311]

Your mum looked a little tired in this video, maybe she should rest a little more. Good for you for realising what's important in life and your mum's health scare is helping you see that. Take care of yourself and your mum. She is priceless

[@its_msk]

I think her mum may be very emotionally drained with Elzanis illness and hearing her say the same things over and over for months. This illness is very draining on parents as well plus now cancer.

[@jacintarene_]

She is also on painkillers which can make you pretty drowsy.

[@mariadifrancesco1]

Nice to see you! Keep up the good work.

[@peterlosingwendy7]

You are so beautiful inside and out 💗 Praying for you and your incredible mum xoxo

[@EmmyElle.]

Yay the Elzani family! We have your back girl!

[@EmmyElle.]

Ps. Your hair is looking so shiny nd healthy!

[@jadejeffree7258]

Your'e doing brilliantly at your recovery Elzani!.Your'e so sweet, pretty,kind,strong and have been looking after your mum so amazingly.😘✨🦋💜

[@johannagetbackyourlife9]

It´s great that you are getting more insightful:) You got this girl!!!

[@anastefani7954]

OMG YESSS WELL DONE!!!!! SOOOO PROUND AND HAPPY FOR YOU!!!! YES PLS KEEP IT UP AND INCREASE WHATEVER YOU WANT AND HAVE WHATEVER YOU WANT!!!! YOU CAN DO THIS!!! I WANT YOU TO RECOVER AND GAIN WEIGHT AND BE HEALTHY!!! 💖

[@i_h2081]

Your chat at 3.30 is exactly me... I am levelled up and faced lots eating more but i do still think more about food and fear things and get anxious.... i need to level up so I need to go for it. I must commit to weight gain, your timing is perfect for me thank you as always xx

[@elizabethcaron2970]

You have been such an inspiration in my recovery, I have watched your videos since day one, I can see how much happier you are now from then. it's amazing to see how well you are fighting, going for it is gonna be the best decision you'll ever make! lots of love! Keep it up elzani❤️❤️❤️ remember to get lots of rest! Your body needs it Also check out Tabitha Farrar her videos were so helpful to me, especially in nutritional rehabilitation.

[@nathradon295]

You are doing absolutely amazing and I'm so proud of you for being positive and confident about recovery. And whilst it's Great to have goals, just remember not to be too hard on yourself. Everything in it's time

[@aristahenriot7450]

It will be scary but you have the strength and determination to do it. We are all behind you in this . Send my best wishes to your mum for me . Xxxx

[@jessicamarsden1039]

Can’t wait To watch this! Hoping to send you something 😊😊keep strong and your amazing xx love you ❤️❤️so excited too 🎉🎉😋😋

[@sphhagen]

I'm so proud of you! You're doing so great! Keep fighting sweetie, I believe in you!💘

[@mercimoharos4756]

yess, girl you got this. I'm proud of you and I believe in you. Keep going

[@samphillips7192]

Hey Elzani! It is so lovely to see you doing so well! Keep going girlie! You'll get there sweetheart! Hey to you mummy too! Hope she is feeling better xxx

[@haravar6848]

So proud of you girl!! Yasss for the PO box😃😃

[@charlottep3326]

You're doing so well Elzani! Can't wait to send some choccy to your PO Box x

[@fatima3485]

such a beautiful and pure soul. i love you. please stay strong, you are doing sooo well. i am sooo proud. Sending well wishes to your momma :) everything will turn out good in the end - your recovery and your moms health.

[@emilywilliams3385]

I think weight gain for you is still so so scary you may of thought that you accept that part but anorexia will forever try and keep you hooked, but you’re a smart woman you know to say no! Fabulous video darl! Loves ya! ❤️

[@Lily-dn6dv]

Don’t worry Elzani slow and steady wins the race you. The best things in life don’t come fast just remember you’ve got the rest of your life to gain weight or muscle and enjoy what you used to do xxx

[@rebeccamorrison1313]

You are doing so well!! I'm so happy for you!! :)

[@bjewel2672]

Your right, the good time outweigh the bad. Your mindset will change by being happy !

[@stone.durfey5862]

I think it would be fun to spend a day with you....keep doing as good as you have. ...you have taken such good care of your mom....keep growing dear...your such a lovely person.

[@lilyaxford3204]

Yes!! Please do another what I eat in a day - eating foods from other countries. I love your days of eating

[@amandawilson2485]

Keep on going girl! We’re all rooting for you!💞

[@nizola324]

every video you get more and more colour in your face , you look great !!!!!

[@kana6186]

This is amazing Elzani. Amazing and inspiring and I can relate to every single word you are saying. Thank you for everything🙏🏻

[@sedefoksun638]

I am from Turkey. I love you , your family , your entertaining videos... please be strong. You're doing well. We are so proud of you

[@justpaula_frelik]

You are amazing girl, greetings from Poland. So much love for you and your family ❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@Miche-]

Yaass my queen! I've been here since the first day. And I'm so proud of you 💚 keep going elzani you're amazing

[@throughrose-colouredeyes6284]

"jump, and build your wings on the way down."

[@erincraig9109]

Keep going! You CAN and you WILL do this 💜

[@Celestia5782]

Love you so much Elzani!!!!!

[@_emmaa_xo6514]

Elzani can I first just let you know I am your BIGGEST SUPPORTER and I love you with all my heart BUT it makes me so sad to see you keep going in these circles of doing so well and being so positive and really going for it and then that fizzling away and you start being hard on yourself and holding back and saying "this is it, its time to go all in, time for real recovery etc" let me say I don't want you to take any of this in the wrong way, you have done absolutely amazingly so far by yourself and you have achieved so much! but this is just taking far too long, I don't want to sound rude at all or anything I simply just want to give you advice cause I really care for you and I hate to see you doing this to yourself..but you really have done so well with eating more and challenging your fear foods etc but clearly something is still wrong and not going right cause I can not see you gaining weight tbh..and I know it is SO HARD and it is not a nice thing to have to do but there is no denying it or way of going around it YOU HAVE to gain weight to recover, it is vital, you can't recover and still be underweight. I know you know yourself you are still holding back and something still is not right, and I know you say you want to gain weight and you are doing the right things by eating more and challenging yourself but clearly you still are not eating enough and possibly being too active still as you would be gaining weight! it worries me you doing this by yourself, I know you have a wonderful family but I just don't understand why you aren't getting professional help? why haven't you considered it? tbh and this comes out of a place of love and concern, you do need professional help! your case is serious..and getting professional help will really help you to understand and overcome the negative thoughts and reasons why things haven't been working up to now, and it will stop you going through these endless cycles of doing well and then plateauing. I really really urge you to consider it. It can only be a benefit. it will speed up your recovery process and get you to a healthy and happier life sooner and will also reduce the likeliness of relapsing compared to trying to go it alone, as the psychological issues aren't being addressed and that is just as important, or even more so in my opinion to just gaining weight and being able to eat more. you need to be able to understand the reasons for this illness occurring and what makes you act on the thoughts and how you can come up with better coping mechanisms than turning to anorexia. I am quite early in my recovery journey and I had thoughts of wanting to do this on my own and considering it, but now I honestly can say I could not do it without professional help, yes it is nice to have a supportive family but they can only help you so much, and it is hard on them too! so it would be easier for them and you for you to share the load of this illness with a professional and that will ease the strain on your family a lot! It takes so much out of you to try and deal with this all by yourself and is bound to be so tough and draining, recovery is hard enough without having to do it by yourself! trust me that working with a professional can only benefit you, it will ease the load and stress off you being able to share with someone who understands. I apologise for this really long message, I really hope you take the time to read this and again I hope you do not take this wrong, please know it is all coming out of love and concern and It pains me to see you struggle :( 💞💞

[@i_h2081]

_Emmaa_ XO I wish I could get professional help gp didn’t do anything for 3 times I went when I told them I was scared the weight I was loosing then finally got referal and got letter after saying I didn’t need any help at this stage 😫😫😭

[@_emmaa_xo6514]

@Mimi EXACTLY! we are seeing all this food she is supposed to be eating yet no weight gain? it isn't adding up so some sort or compensating has to be going on! i am not hating on her at all for it cause i know how difficult it is and I know she knows deep down she isn't doing enough but i just want her to be completely honest about it, i know its hard when you face so much judgement when you put stuff out there and that is scary, especially as someone who is hard on themselves which you can tell she is and she probably doesn't want to let us down and feel like a failure, but I wouldn't see it like that at all i would much prefer the honesty and for her to admit she is struggling and not gaining weight because we all no recovery is difficult and we all can see it any way! I just feel for her cause she keeps going in endless circles and i cant see it ending unless she gets professional help :/

[@Lunarangst]

_Emmaa_ XO she shows us what she eats like once a month , when she's doing challenges ...not what she eats on a daily basis

[@_emmaa_xo6514]

@@Lunarangst um yea, exactly so that clarifies my point, that she musnt be eating enough in between and compensating somehow. idk if that's what your point is? otherwise I don't get your comment..

[@ddidoul42]

i go for breakfast after watching this video... in my mind，i decided to skip it cause i told myself i dont need that... thank u so much and keep challenging urself！love u❤️

[@catalinaperez1302]

I hope you keep going well!💖 and everyone!

[@petitehippie7064]

Cant wait to send you some of my favourite Australian treats! ☺

[@hallefranklin2646]

You are SO lovely! We love you Elzani 😘

[@mariae5579]

My country: empanadas!! Also their are my fair food... love you Elzani you are amazing

[@kirstyindark4972]

Id totally send you something but considering we are only 20mins away from eachother it would be pointless and no fun xD but I hope you recieve some awesome different snacks and foods to try 😊 proud of you Elzani, you've done amazing and are continuing to do so ❤

[@wasisabi7439]

So proud of you!!!! You're doing incredible, keep fighting ❤️❤️❤️ Also, I'd like to know more about YOU. Like, what's your favourite colour, animal, music taste, etc😉

[@eviequinn9392]

I’m so proud of you elzani 💘

[@elizabethlorr7341]

You are so inspiring! And so strong! 🌸❤️

[@carsmyth199410]

Loving the videos and yet I saw a cinnamon bun in tesco today smelt it picked it up was gonna have cos of your videos but I put it back and walked out and really wanted it. Still thinking about it

[@marciv2926]

The more calories you've been taking in, the clearer your mind is and even your anxiety seems less triggered. Set small goals and keep on pushing!

[@emmiedessureault8214]

Oh yeah... We tend to over complicate things and make everything about us. It makes us selfish, you're absolutely right ! You also say that you love cheese toasties for lunch. Would you be confortable to eat one as a snack or as an other meal ?!

[@alanoud4163]

My new fav youtuber💗wishing u and ur family the bestt all the wayyy from saudi arabia💗💗

[@finnevanss]

I noticed you said that your bones hurt and I was wondering if you’ve had a dexa scan. As a result of my ed I have osteoporosis and I’d hate for you to have similar physical damage.

[@meghanhaberlin6534]

Oh I just am so proud I want to send you some Canadian things but I'm not sure what they dont sell in the UK I was in Scotland and I noticed a lot of the same sweets so I will have to ask my friends from the England and see what they dont have

[@Ella-ps1lg]

Do you have goldfish and Justin's peanut butter cups? if so - send them over!

[@meghanhaberlin6534]

@@Ella-ps1lg we do! You dont have goldfish?!

[@meghanhaberlin6534]

@@Ella-ps1lg my friend said she was never able to get chocolate covered pretzels at home either

[@JfVorthex]

I knew if I kept on asking you would finally get a PO BOX hahaha

[@kirstiejoe5506]

Your words are very powerful and we love you so so much

[@kertukroon6173]

you are an inspiration😊🤗❤ i love watching your videos, i'm from finland and i'm going to send you some finnish snacks to try.

[@jessami3692]

If you get a chance you should watch the video by Stephanie Buttermore-going all in! And also videos by Alice Olivia. They are very open and honest about weight gain and what you may or may not experience if you do decide to really tackle this thing once and for all. 3500 calories a day and counting right!Come on Elzani, we are all right there with you. We need to start a movement where we compliment other girls (family, friends, strangers) daily. Real compliments for real women. Let each other know how truely beautiful they are at every size and shape. With every disfigurement and every disability, we are all unique. Women everywhere need to regain their confidence, stop comparing and just shine from the inside out.

[@jessami3692]

Maybe you could do some local community courses or get involved with community projects close to home so you can have something else to think about instead of food food food all the time. I know this might not be for everyone but it helped me. Take care xxxxxxx Hope your mum gets the all clear!!!

[@brotaufstrich2461]

We love you!!!!!

[@shannastone7116]

You are such a beautiful soul!! ❤❤😘😘

[@talitalotter4780]

You can do it we believe in you...you are beautiful ...

[@cookedapple]

It's still such a big deal to me and I'm 5 years weight recovered! It's so hard to get over!

[@ennasings3609]

You‘re soo Strong ! :)

[@werkhunnayy]

would you consider making a blog on extreme hunger/mental hunger?

[@werkhunnayy]

Lucy a very common symptom while refeeding in anorexia recovery is extreme hunger and mental hunger. eating even when you feel full, and it's common for people to eat between 5-10 thousand calories regularly for periods of time. i just was curious if elzani has any personal experience/advice in coping with extreme hunger and mental hunger. (-:

[@ToyPoodlePoodle]

Not everyone gets that.

[@Small_Rose]

This would be awesome ♡ Hope she will see this comment ♡

[@leahdavies33]

So proud x

[@NijiOfNatsu]

I will love to send her snacks for my country! I just need to see if the delivery is not too expensive.....