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[@QuirkyKerrie]

Your ‘embarrassing moment’ is a constant in my life it seems now. I am 58 and unfortunately have found the older I get my autistic traits are amplifying. I don’t know if it is age that the traits increase or that I simplify can no longer push who I am down to hide it and fit in. I was late diagnosed at 58 and just getting diagnosed has helped immensely in starting to figure out who I really am. But life is tougher and tougher.

[@madberry]

It’s an unmasking symptom in my opinion. I had the same thing happen and then I discovered it was because I was masking way less than I used to.

[@MouthwashTyphoon]

It might be a hormonal thing that is amplifying some traits.

[@elizabethaucoin6290]

When autistic traits break out, they reverberate in your psyche like a car accident in slow motion, and the people who witness it don't walk in our shoes, so they are never really going to know what it feels like, or how hard it is to 'just let it go.' We carry around that vulnerability in a culture where success equates with never letting people see you sweat, and the trauma of perceived failure has a life of its own. When you have that "I just want to hide under my bed' feeling, and you remember that coffee tastes great, and a burden shared is a burden halved, and you tell the rest of us auties about it, you are the hero of your own life, and we all remember that we are not alone....

[@WoodshedTheory]

So true they do have strong reverb

[@julie_uk_]

Hello Kerrie. Same here, I'm 50 & understand where you're coming from

[@ND_Runner]

I relate very much to the outbursts. This is a very hard week. My marriage is ending after 21 years, and it is largely due to my outbursts. Unfortunately I did not have an awareness of my autism until a couple of years ago. Now I realize that my outbursts were mostly from living in a near constant state of autistic overwhelm. Unfortunately by the time I gained that awareness and was able to put strategies in place to manage my overwhelm, it was too late for my marriage. Too much damage had already been done. Thank you for your videos. It has been an important part of helping me through such a hard time. I appreciate hearing about experiences to which I can relate and knowing that there are others who can relate to mine.

[@elizabethaucoin6290]

Sending prayers and good wishes, rooting for you to come through this. I have been married 44 years, and my husband tells me that he thinks the only reason I have been able to endure marriage is because I grew up in a small home with a large number of siblings (for my first ten years--one bathroom, extreme cold or heat, hard to find a place to be alone, noise, chaos, I was the seventh--a middle child of 14 eventually. The overall effect was like aversion therapy.) You haven't failed in any way, you need time to heal. For the foreseeable future you need to keep putting one foot in front of the other...

[@courtney9212]

I'm so sorry 🙏

[@WoodshedTheory]

Sorry to hear you are going through a tough time. I hope things improve for you soon.

[@skillit32]

I totally relate as I’m also going through a divorce after 15 years, and outbursts are definitely part of the reason. Late diagnosis at 53, amazed I made it this far at times. My sympathies, knowing I’m right there going through it too.

[@sueannevangalen5186]

Yes, I do have angry outbursts, and they've become more frequent since having kids. I've been trying to get better at not having them so much around my six-year-old, and it's working somewhat because in this case, I know what triggers them (he's an autistic kid so he needs to have everything just so -- all his beloved toys and objects have to be in their place and if anything gets lost, which happens every day, he starts asking for them and he doesn't let it go, even if I've looked everywhere and can't find the toy. It's difficult). I was doing well with that for weeks but then yesterday, I had a minor setback. It's terrible because I'll be shouting and unable to stop and he'll have his head buried somewhere and he'll be crying and he has no idea what he did wrong. He just wanted his toy and I'm Mommy -- I'm supposed to know where everything is. But then, I was on the receiving end of this sort of thing yesterday, too, when my daughter had an angry meltdown. She wouldn't stop screaming and hitting anything that got close to her. She bashed her head into my cheekbone (ouch). I suspect it was because we'd just come home from running errands and she was strapped in the car for too long. Also, I went in to the grocery store at one point and left her in the car with her dad and two brothers. She doesn't like when I leave her sometimes. But really, we don't know what the problem was. We just had to wait for her to be done. We put on noise-cancelling headphones. But to end on a happy note, this past weekend, I finally put together the cat tree I bought at a Boxing Day sale. I feel so handy, and the cats (and kids) love it!

[@whitneymason406]

I can really relate, SueAnne 💞

[@WoodshedTheory]

I can see how being a mom when youreautistic would produce a ton of hard challenges

[@sueannevangalen5186]

😊@@whitneymason406

[@marisa5359]

Yep. I can relate on outbursts. I have a tendency to tamp down anxiety till I can't anymore and then comes the blow up. One of these moments is a big part of why I cannot really talk with my MIL these days as a matter of fact, as she tends to be very triggering and refuses to understand my moment as a part of my autism, attributing all my emotions to perimenopause instead.🙄 Also, very sorry for your loss. I have had people like this in my life as well. When they pass on, it's always hard to feel that hole they leave behind. What helps for me is to go back when I am ready and celebrate what they have meant to me. Appreciate you sharing your heart with us. Best wishes on your week.

[@WoodshedTheory]

Gosh that sounds very triggering

[@whitneymason406]

I am a bit afraid of bees and yet I watch bee videos on YT and IG from Texas Bee Works, so I get that urge to watch videos outside your world. I'm having outbursts around my kids. I need a break and it's been hard with snow days and school cancelations. I hope this week I can carve some time for myself. Take care, Claire and friends! 💞

[@courtney9212]

Hang in there Mama 🙏 the snow is melting! We finally went back to school today.

[@WoodshedTheory]

You got this Whitney!

[@whitneymason406]

@@courtney9212 💞

[@lindaT82]

Hi Claire, thanks so much for another porch coffee. I LOVE the coffee pour at the start!!! So good. Embarrassing outbursts... well I have had more than a few in cars during all the decades of my life. At this point I can see it is like a trauma reaction. When I was a child it was because I believed I would not make it alive out of a car journey, due to a dangerous moment, incident, situation. I had a bad work one a few years ago - a really risky work road trip situation. I could not control my reaction - flat out refusal to take a seriously risky short-cut, late at night in the middle of nowhere. There is a difference between refusal, and an over-reaction type refusal. Then afterwards I feel like there is trauma due to the trauma reaction. Reliving my over-the-top reaction over and over. This was before my autism diagnosis. Now I can have some self-compassion because I think with cars there is the recognition that occasionally there are devastating consequences for unlucky people. It is unbearable when it is a risk that should be managed. I just try to reduce the intensity of my reaction to communicate my concerns.

[@WoodshedTheory]

Thanks for sharing I have come a long way I used to struggle to be a passenger in a car without having the worst anxiety. Now it’s a bit more manageable

[@messyjessyjade]

Hey Claire, thamsk for all your awesome videos, Ive started having 'coffee' with you on Monday nights here in Aus 😊 I totally relate to the inappropriate outbursts, I've had many and quote often its because I take something literally and am defending something/someone and get upset, then in the afyeath realise I missed the point and completely overeacted! I also have only just connected the dots that I am autistic so I never really understood what was happening but was mortified 😅🤣 anyways we just gotta breathe through it and give ourselves grace right! Sorry for the ramble, hope you have a good week 🌻

[@WoodshedTheory]

Try your best to do one thing at a time! I’m the same way where I start something else in the middle of the first thing

[@robbiegibson4112]

Maybe the freaking was related to the grief and fear ? Thank you for sharing. I was diagnosed with ADHD at age 60 on my last birthday which was an excellent gift to finally find out. I think I am autistic to very possibly and it was diagnosed as Bi-Polar 39 years ago. Obviously, that is an incorrect diagnosis. I do not take enough meds of any kind that were supposedly treating Bi-Polar. Thank goodness for Nueropsychiatrist.

[@WoodshedTheory]

It could be that

[@FirstmaninRome]

Well, finished dating on the spectrum it this weekend, lot of emotions seeing that, it almost melts my cold dead heart, then they don't have much success, and I Kringe kinda a lot too, it reminds me why I don't date anymore

[@WoodshedTheory]

I am about to start watching the rest of the season

[@BlueRoseHelen252]

We have lots of reptiles, and were very sad to hear about the loss of Brian. Love watching your videos. I am having coffee with you this morning after walking the youngest to school. I thought the video if your Hoodie make was great, I will be having a go at one of those some time. The sewing machine is out and ready to go 😊

[@WoodshedTheory]

Def make one so fun!

[@anjachan]

being embarrassed is my second name! I also think Ghibli is better than Disney. But I also prefer other Anime Studios over Ghibli 😅

[@WoodshedTheory]

It’s ok to have opinions and preferences

[@anjachan]

@@WoodshedTheory of course. Many people think Im nuts for not liking ghibli so much 😂

[@WoodshedTheory]

@@anjachan oh to each their own

[@anjachan]

@@WoodshedTheory correctly! 😎

[@madberry]

I think I must have been watching Brian for a similar amount of time. I’ve always wanted reptiles but have been able to hold off on them because of Brian’s videos. When the goodbye video appeared I kind of knew what was about to be announced. I haven’t been able to watch the RIP videos yet. I’m glad his family is continuing his legacy aquarium dream. This week was pretty busy I am working on getting stuff finished. I will be listing items soon. I thought my self some new stuff. And Austin(my autism) has decided we should also get into screen printing after seeing what having my brand printed on some stuff is going to cost us. I’ve had many episodes like you’ve had in the car. For some reason people tend to think we don’t feel sorry afterwards. I’ve been able to walk away from a few of those outbursts which is good. That doesn’t work in a car tho. I’m a binge watcher of shows so I’m fighting the urge to watch the whole season of LOTS. I’m going to watch one episode at a time so I can watch the KZbin video and add my 50 cents.(I know it’s two cents but let’s be honest when I comment I add way more then two lol). Darn four paragraphs this week but I figure Brian’s passing deserved its own paragraph. Have a good week Claire and friends.

[@Holly-tw6bt]

Hi Claire! Ahh, embarassing outbursts. Been there, done that, got the T shirt. Some of my worst have been at work... in front of our CEO (I work for a small business.) One time years ago he asked me to send an email during a meeting, and I misinterpreted what he wanted me to send. Two minutes later, he turned to me and soft spokenly said, "You didnt send the ____?" I shouted, "I THOUGHT YOU ASKED ME TO SEND _____!" and started to cry. My obnoxious coworker, who was also in the room (and thought he was the VP), hollered "CALM DOWN!" It was a whole thing. Diagnosis has retroactively explained a lot.

[@WoodshedTheory]

I’m sorry that happened :(

[@AndersmitLizenz]

I dont have problems with not having a plan (ok, as i think about it now, i do sometimes😅) if i do have a plan and something makes it change, i totally freak out... its so embarrassing...

[@WoodshedTheory]

I hate it! Like why can’t I just go with the flow

[@carolinehunter5243]

Definitely have said things I regret to people I love. I consider building self awareness from those experiences, as youʼve done, as worthy of celebration

[@WoodshedTheory]

thanks that is a good point

[@Jaclyn87]

I used to wonder why I was so angry and couldn't reconcile that in myself but change brings a lot of anxiety and when you don't realize what's happening it is even more stressful

[@WoodshedTheory]

that is a good point - i often dont realize i am starting to get agitated

[@Jenna.g.85]

I don’t like reptiles either but was definitely a fan of the crocodile hunter. I’m sorry you feel embarrassed about your anxious outburst. No one is perfect 😘 just got my hats in the mail, will post pics soon. I hope going back to the sale is a comfort to you. Neat you had your favorite food,what was it? I like seeing rainbows. My fiancé bought me a blanket hoodie with otters on it, another one of my favorite animals. Got to touch an otters paw through a tiny hole at Seaquest a few years ago so that was neat and years before that we went to Colorado and got to help train otters through the glass. Have a good week

[@WoodshedTheory]

Reuben sandwich is my go to order at a diner

[@sarahleony]

Your little freak out moment is so relatable! Whenever we spend extended time around family and the plans for the day either don’t really exist, or do exist but aren’t communicated well to everyone, or get changed I have the hardest time keeping calm and going with the flow. I get all antsy (in German we have the saying of “having bumblebees in your bum” lol) and I can’t focus or enjoy anything until a plan is in place or we’re on the move to the next thing. It’s exhausting. Sorry you had a less than stellar moment there but luckily your friend wasn’t pissed or hurt, so yay! Progress not perfection. Oh, and I’ve been wearing GOLD RUSH for the last two days eeeeek! Thanks so much! Your handwriting is beautiful and the sticker is on my other (not porch coffee) to-go coffee tumbler 😊

[@WoodshedTheory]

Thank you for describing your experience this is exactly what I experience

[@JustMe_OhWell]

I know what you mean. I have had many meltdowns because of someones driving. Yes it embarrasses me too. It used to cause fights but now I think people just know it's me. I kinda laugh about most of my differences. I can't drive so it's very stressful. I get it. Big hugs!

[@WoodshedTheory]

Thanks for sharing that makes me feel less alone in this

[@faithcooper8935]

I think crafty things can be professional and beautiful.

[@WoodshedTheory]

That is fair!

[@alanacarlson249]

Good morning Claire! Thank you so much for being vulnerable with us and sharing things that are difficult to talk about. I am sorry for your loss. It is amazing how close you feel to people you have never met but it makes sense to mourn them when they are pass away. When the shows they make or content they create are a part of our regular lives it is sad when we know they have gone and it is a loss even though we did not know them. I also want to thank you for talking about the embarrassing outburst. I know it isn't easy sharing that sort of thing but the fact that you do makes so many people know they are not alone and also gives you the opportunity to process the whole situation and get through your own emotions about what happened. The more I watch your content the more I see things in myself more clearly. You are a blessing Claire!

[@WoodshedTheory]

Alana I was glad to see from so many that I am not alone in this behavior

[@Civileyez]

Good Morning Ms. Claire. Having a mango Venom to kickstart my day. Excellent video. Thanx for sharing. 🎩☮

[@WoodshedTheory]

I don’t do energy drinks but mango sounds good

[@Skyjamb]

No worries, I can relate. Don't beat yourself up.

[@WoodshedTheory]

thanks

[@Pete_1972]

Awww Claire. I understand about embarrassing moments. If she’s your friend she will understand. Go buy some more stuff. I love to see you excited about your special interest! I still have to find mine. Love❤️

[@WoodshedTheory]

I did go back to the sale the video is up :)

[@CatsandHatsCrochet]

When you brought up Brian I was like what is happening my worlds are colliding! Reptiles are one of my special interests besides autism and crochet, and man losing Brian (I also didn’t know him personally) has been tough. I feel for his friends and family. I’m so sorry for your loss too Claire, bc I know it seems strange to mourn someone we never met in person, but it’s a very real thing. Sending you a virtual hug.

[@CatsandHatsCrochet]

Also, I just have to add, I have alwaaasys struggled with anxiety when other people drive and during transitions. So hard. I have definitely been there.

[@WoodshedTheory]

Thanks it’s good to know I’m not alone with the car thing

[@Roswell33]

I LOVED unsolved mysteries SO MUCH. I tried to revisit it online a couple of weeks ago but it's just not that same as watching it on TV back in the day

[@WoodshedTheory]

Yeah the one million commercial breaks and that lofi music

[@ferntheneuropoet]

Sending a hug, Claire...❤ Grief is a weird thing. Side note, it feels worse to have a freakout "on" a friend - but often it is possible simply because we feel so safe in their presence that we didn’t have our "masking" skills solidly in place. I mean, that isn't always the reason, but I think it comes into play at least sometimes. You must know your friend loves you bunches... ❤❤❤

[@WoodshedTheory]

she does love me i'm so glad to have her

[@JustMyAutisticalities]

I am 49, self diagnosed and on my way to getting a professional diagnosis. It's been a long and hard journey but I am grateful for all the information and help this online community has provided. So thank you so much for sharing your autistic experiences! This really helps me understand myself better an to be more self-compassionate. Claire, I feel with you. It doesn't happen to me often but when it does I just want to run and hide forever. I love the way you handled the situation and even talk to us about it. And your friend is great in the way she reacted so kindly. You apologized and she accepted so please be forgiving to yourself. We are all NOT perfect and make mistakes or misbehave sometimes. I also find myself displaying more and more autistic traits as I am masking much less. But due to my anxiety issues I also have significantly less social interaction and that is probably why this happens less often to me... in public... I look forward to next Monday's Porch Coffee and say hi from Germany! Have a great rest of the week!

[@WoodshedTheory]

Hello there in Germany!

[@briannah1915]

Studio Ghibli...amazing...one of my comfort movies (like at least 6 movies lol

[@WoodshedTheory]

Them are really good

[@autisticMargo]

Thanks for this porch coffee. Yes, better than Disney for sure. You are clearly being intentional with your KZbin goals. You addressed a lot of topics this morning that you could discuss longer in separate subsequent videos or podcasts.

[@WoodshedTheory]

Oh that’s a good idea - you know I hadn’t thought of it like that thanks

[@marymakesmandalas6068]

I have outbursts too. Soooo embarrassing.

[@WoodshedTheory]

Glad I’m not alone they are really embarrassing

[@Catlily5]

I have had outbursts/meltdowns too. The lack of control is the worst part for me. I have learned to minimize them but it might be impossible to completely get rid of them. I don't know.

[@WoodshedTheory]

i dont know either - but thanks for helping me feel less alone

[@jennfursketeer2323]

Brian Barczyk was such an amazing person, we need more people like him in the world and it’s so sad that he is gone so soon. He loved life and he loved everyone, human and non-human, he had such a big heart and had so many more dreams he wanted to fulfill. It triggered the grief for my dad whose third bout of colon cancer followed a similar pattern, and my dad was also an amazing person, the kind we need more of in the world. But I think I also felt a deep sadness over the death of Brian, separate from the grief for my dad. It’s definitely been a sad week! 😿🧡

[@jennfursketeer2323]

I feel so sad for his family. They must be completely devastated. As sad as we are as fans of Brian and his channel, the grief his family is experiencing must be a thousand times what we are experiencing. So very sad.

[@jennfursketeer2323]

If you are interested in watching other reptile channels, there are a few others that I watch that I really like. They don’t upload videos daily, but it’s often enough, and they have enough of a backlog that you could probably find something to watch daily. Wickens Wicked Reptiles specifically says that his channel wouldn’t exist if it wasn’t for Brian. Garden State Tortoise is another one that I really love, and they post videos of baby turtles a lot which is completely adorable. they also have other animals, they have a small farm and they have lizards and dogs and a cow and goats and probably more that I don’t know of. Clints Reptiles is a little more cerebral, but he has a good sense of humor, and I enjoy watching the ones that aren’t super biology-nerd educational (Those ones tend to go straight over my head lol). Snake Discovery is another good one! they have videos of baby snakes and lizards a lot, I actually have one of their baby hognose snakes! I know no one can replace Brian, but if you want something to fill the void, those are some good options. 🧡

[@WoodshedTheory]

Thanks for sharing the channels

[@terrigoulding559]

Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing your experience and your feelings. We've all had outbursts that we regret and feel bad about. Don't be too hard on yourself. The important thing is that you made amends with your friend and hopefully your friend is understanding. Nobody is perfect.❤

[@WoodshedTheory]

Thanks for understanding

[@roxanes43]

I'm sorry for your loss. Like you said, grief impacts us differently and stress makes it worse. I had a similar outburst recently over something that seemed so trivial afterwards. It sounds like you have very loving and gracious friends. Wishing you a great week ahead.

[@WoodshedTheory]

sorry to hear about your outburst but glad i am not alone

[@juliawhitesel6049]

It can be scary not being in control. I stopped driving 9 years ago due to vision issues (I can legally drive but am not comfortable doing so). It's hard for me not to freak out sometimes, like when my friend is digging in her purse for something or answering a phone call. Just human nature, I think to react to things that scare us. 🤔

[@WoodshedTheory]

Thanks for saying. It’s just so weird I don’t remember feeling scared but I guess I was

[@natyork]

My brain is pudding today but happy to be here for porch coffee! Have a great week :)

[@WoodshedTheory]

I get it! Have a good day

[@isabellammusic]

I've had those moments too and I'm very sensitive to change when I don't get the chance to be involved. One time I started crying.

[@WoodshedTheory]

I'm sorry that happened

[@RedJulesFire]

Outbursts are so hard. They feel totally out of my control when I have them and then I feel like crap after. 😢 I’m sorry you had one but I’m glad your friend was so great about it. ❤

[@WoodshedTheory]

Yeah they really suck

[@marthamurphy7940]

Nice blog! Sounds like you've made amends with your friend. I'm glad she's understanding. Today's my birthday. (I'm 76.) Dinner out with my kids tonight. I think I'll drive to the next town and go to the Goodwill bins.

[@WoodshedTheory]

Happy Birthday Martha!

[@hspparadise]

Thank you for sharing your outburst experience! We feel validated and free from shame! Autism PRIDE! 🌈✨🥳

[@WoodshedTheory]

thanks for understanding - your hair is so good

[@lesleyscrochetcorner]

I'm sure your friend was very gracious about it, I appreciate you sharing it with us although you are uncomfortable discussing it. Have fun shopping!

[@WoodshedTheory]

I’m glad that I shared

[@theresapizza]

I just joined the "laughed out loud at your Robert Stack on Unsolved Mysteries impression" club. I have been dysregulated today so I needed the laughs. Thank you!

[@WoodshedTheory]

welcome to the club! you and I are the only members lol

[@alexs4446]

I am from Canada and ran into Brian Barczyk in a Vegas casino randomly in 2012 and my sister went up to him and asked if he would take a photo with me (too much social anxiety to do it myself). This was early in his KZbin and he was very excited to meet a fan from far away. I was so sad to hear he passed.

[@WoodshedTheory]

ah that is so cool thanks for sharing

[@T.T.M.60]

I have certainly had those anxious outbursts so understand the embarrassment. I’m sure your friend , whom you love, understands just as mine have. My husband is the one who experiences it the most and he’s always kind and supportive.

[@WoodshedTheory]

yeah my husband sees it the most too - but it's also embarrassing then

[@ghill8587]

I’m sorry to hear about Brian’s passing. I don’t think it’s strange to grieve for someone you’ve never met. I’ve had similar experiences before. Thanks for sharing about your outburst. I can totally relate. Just ask my kids 😬.

[@ghill8587]

Oh! I’m very excited about the podcast! 👏🏼

[@WoodshedTheory]

I’m excited about the podcast too

[@grantmerrill8865]

Thanks for sharing about the outburst. I actually had a similar thing happen a few days ago. My wife and I were hanging out with some friends, and we were trying to decide where we wanted to eat. We decided on a restaurant and then headed over there. The restaurant was supposed to close at 9pm, and we pulled up around 8:20. The waitstaff told us they were done serving for the night--which is fine, it was getting close to closing time. However, we didn't have a backup plan, so I got really anxious. The next restaurant we tried had a 1.5 hour wait time, and none of us wanted to wait that long. Finally, we settled on a third option that ended up working out, but I had a small come-apart in the process of trying multiple times to get in to a restaurant that worked for all of us. I'm still feeling a bit embarrassed today. These friends know that I'm autistic, so hopefully they didn't think it was a big deal.

[@WoodshedTheory]

Sorry that happened Grant I would have had trouble with that too

[@LaurasChronicLife.]

Emotional regulation is hard when our system feels insecure or safe or overwhelmed. All we can do in those moments is apologize if the outburst is offensive or scares the other person and then try to move on because we only hurt ourselves when we ruminate on our failings. Feel the feelings but don't dwell on it too long. At your core, you are still a good person. Can't wait to see if you get anything else from the sale lol.

[@WoodshedTheory]

I absolutely went back video is up lol

[@LaurasChronicLife.]

@@WoodshedTheory I went and looked right after this comment haha!

[@WoodshedTheory]

@@LaurasChronicLife. I love it lol

[@daproteau]

Thank you for sharing. I had a similar freak out at work a few weeks ago. I’m still struggling to get over it. I appreciate how candid you were and that it wasn’t about solving the problem but just about sharing. Normally I keep those incidents bundled up in shame and try to move past them. I wish I could find a therapy group that was just sharing stuff like that and not just pointing out what’s wrong with autism and how to “fix it”.

[@WoodshedTheory]

yeah i am not sure i have a solution to share - i'm just living it right now

[@NeurodiverJENNt]

Oh Miazaki (sp?) Did spirited away right? To make you feel better I've had out of body experiences all of a sudden when someone else is driving that gives me momentary freak out. Can't wait to see your podcast lineup! Six is a lot!

[@WoodshedTheory]

six is a lot but you will always be the first!

[@NeurodiverJENNt]

@@WoodshedTheory hell yeah!!

[@T.T.M.60]

I’m sorry for the loss of your KZbin channel person. Grief is a personal thing, different for each person.Looking forward to the podcasts. Have a great week Claire and everyone else.

[@WoodshedTheory]

i cant wait to start more of the episodes

[@TheCassierra908]

Can so relate to embarrassing outbursts.... had one today after something unexpectedly very disappointing happened. It was one for me too where I had no control over it and it just erupted out of me. Sending hugs. I get it. I have had a pretty good week overall. A few events that caused struggles but many situations where things went well. I'm trying to focus on the good as much as I can.

[@WoodshedTheory]

Good on you for focusing on the positive

[@stephaniesummerhill8918]

I have freak out all the time when my fiancé is driving. We have come to an understanding that I just drive. Every once in a while he will drive and then we remember why I drive. 😂😢

[@rockstarjazzcat]

Yep, no fun. Thanks for sharing. Best, Daniel

[@WoodshedTheory]

thanks Daniel

[@ashleyien1222]

You almost forgot to talk about the social stuff because you were too excited about discount Fabric! lol I went to the local fabric store today to look for fabric to make stuff for my nearly 2-year-old niece's baby doll... I got more than just for the doll. Didn't do as well as you, but I ended up getting 19 metres for $28 (with tax). One thing was full price but I wanted it for the doll...I got .5 a metre at $12.75/m. The one I really wanted was $19.75...so I went with the cheaper one. Then they had a bunch of stuff (mostly t-shirt knits) on sale for $1/metre... so I got 18.5 metres for $18.50. A couple of them I took the rest of the bolt. I got some stuff at Walmart and Dollar Tree too... which were $1.50 or $2.50 for a fat quarter... so more expensive but cotton with cute prints for the baby doll. I just had a whole laundry basket of it .... which I divided into colours (light, dark, red) and threw the first one into the wash. I guess I'll start sewing next weekend. I'm sorry you had an embarrassing outburst. I hate not having a plan. I like to know exact what we're going to do and when. 😅

[@WoodshedTheory]

those sound like good deals

[@montikarla]

Those freak out moments suck! I always feel bad after. My week has been crazy. My mother had a fall and fractured a rib. She's not moving around much right now, so I have taken a couple weeks off my in person job (which I don't think my boss is super happy about) and luckily work from home for my other job. I needed a break (Hahaha, pun not intended) from my retail job anyway. Just wish Mom hadn't hurt herself so I could get it.

[@WoodshedTheory]

Wishing your mom a quick recovery - I worked retail a few years ago and I’m still tired lol

[@staceykennedy3289]

My significant other and I saw “The Boy and the Heron” too. Was very good I thought too. Mark Hamill one of my faves voiced the Granduncle. We met and took a photo with him last November at 2023 FanExpo 🤩

[@WoodshedTheory]

oh wow you met Mark Hamill? Amazing!

[@staceykennedy3289]

yes 😃 friendly guy! And Ewan McGregor. Once in a life time for sure ❤️🙌🏻

[@passaggioalivello]

Hi Claire, my legal recognition path is still not complete. Possibly I'll have my diagnosis by the end of next month. Then, I'll complete it through a bureaucratic nightmare at the Social Security office.

[@WoodshedTheory]

I hope you get the result soon

[@johnbillings5260]

Thanks for sharing that you aren't doing as well as you may want to appear to us. It's really important for us noobs who are figuring things out.

[@WoodshedTheory]

Welcome Kohn! Glad to have you - figuring things out is a lifelong journey

[@t-man5196]

I'd be embarassed if I dressed like that too! xd

[@WoodshedTheory]

wow ok lol - this is me after i wake up but if i wanted to leave the house like this that would be ok too

[@t-man5196]

@@WoodshedTheory wow ok

[@PaperPensandCoffee]

You were brave to have that reaction in front a of your friend. I sometimes do that in front of family yet try not to. Your friend's reaction means she really cares and looked before you. . Awesome sauce on your pod cast looking Forward hearing about it. Sorry to hear about your loss of the youtuber you would watch all the time. That is difficult for us to transition especially when something like that has been a staple in our lives. My 1 show that I think I'm on my 17th time and I listen to is The big bang theory on my headset. . You have encouraged inspired me to try something new. On my KZbin channel I'm going to start recording hopefully no more than 15 minutes of Chatting about my special interests about autism another things and try to just have it as a podcast.

[@courtney9212]

Did you say PENS??? 🖋️🖋️🖋️ I'm there 🤩

[@WoodshedTheory]

Good luck with your channel!

[@PaperPensandCoffee]

@@WoodshedTheory thanks

[@TheDarkjudge1]

I went back out in public this week despite really, REALLY not feeling it. I ended up crashing at the end of the day with a good book in hand (Controversy Creates Cash by Eric Bischoff, since I hadn't read that one.) This week was mostly about solo RPG writing and getting my virtual GM bookshelf organized since my mental state hasn't been great. The villain has shown up and boy is that one nasty. Now I gotta figure out what stats the creature should have. :-D Emotional Outbursts: I generally only meltdown/shutdown when I'm being taxed to the point of just not being able to think straight. I generally have enough control to not do it in public. There was one particular incident at work that I still can't put out of my mind from ten years ago. New guy at the job and my schedule is just... not good for me because it's a case of... work 12-9 on Monday Through Thursday, then Friday show up 9-6. This is a difficult thing for me to pull off because mornings and I don't work and I'm real tired by EOD. I'm running end of night procedures because this time... I have to be back in at 4:30 AM (again... not a good idea because I can barely function/drive at that hour as I am a night owl and generally don't get to sleep before 12 AM-2AM if I'm running normally. (I can try to forcibly change to a morning person. The cost is... I'm a zombie the rest of the day.) Further, I really don't have a great understanding of how a Saturday shift is supposed to work and no real training on them aside from some basic instructions. I run start of shift much like I normally would, except there's one major problem. IT systems that supply calls aren't working properly. Long story short, apparently I had not set the clock sync properly the night before... so that's why things aren't working. I... don't remember much of that day except for effectively being treated as completely stupid by boss' boss. I feel the loss of control, and I literally have to mentally talk myself through every small step. Just trying to relay this... I can hear it and feel it still. It's... bad. And there's still a lot I don't understand about how I get to this state.

[@WoodshedTheory]

thanks for sharing sorry to hear that your new schedule isnt a positive one for you

[@user-tq4fm4he8i]

Good for you for apologizing. I respect the self-awareness and ability to apologize without her having to explain why it was hurtful. My experience with asd partners and friends is that I'm always the one having to regulate both my own and their emotions. I'm always understanding and empathetic, but there's no room for me to get upset and I have to explain their emotions and mine to them. It's too taxing and one-sided and these relationships have always led to emotional burnout for me. I'm nt. (In situations like what you described I'd be hurt, but if I tried to tell them that calmly and compassionately, they'd still react defensively. Usually they'd keep insisting 'I didn't mean to hurt you'. And I'd say 'I know, but it still _did_ hurt me. I'm not saying you intended to, but that was the consequence. Intention and consequences can be different.' The asd people in my life never got it. They'd repeat the behaviour and eventually I'd have nothing more to give and we'd break up.)

[@WoodshedTheory]

thank you for sharing your experience

[@user-tq4fm4he8i]

@@WoodshedTheory Thank you for your reply. ❤️ A video idea would be to interview an nt partner (or ex partner). My experience has been that I have not been able to get my basic emotional needs met without holding my asd partner to what to them are unrealistic standards. This despite efforts on both sides to make adjustments and accommodations. They end up burnt out and I end up feeling neglected. I know there are great asd-nt partnerships, but there are also many challenges and people with experiences like mine and my exes' (I've dated three autistic people).

[@BCSchmerker]

+woodshedtheory *What scores **_Love on the Spectrum_** Series 2?* The autistic are underserved the world over, especially in education and training. Gutstein, Sheely & Associates PC (% The Connections Center for Relationship Development), Houston, TX, USA, are seeking to change the field w/r/t social and emotional development; relationship skills are their business.

[@WoodshedTheory]

Thanks for sharing

[@apennyforyouraspiethoughts23]

Thanks for the honesty about what embarrassed you. It is nice to know there are a lot of other people dealing with the same stuff. We are not alone! P.S. If you don't mind sharing, what video editing software do you recommend? Thanks again.

[@WoodshedTheory]

Hey penny I use the iMovie software that comes on a Mac. - originally I was trying out the photoshop on but it was pretty expensive and more than I needed at the moment

[@apennyforyouraspiethoughts23]

@WoodshedTheory ok thank you!

[@elizabethivy1337]

Ugh I can totally relate on the embarrassing symptoms experiences. I tend more towards an awkward freeze response or fleeing rather than outbursts, but I don't feel good about either of those reactions >_

[@WoodshedTheory]

Sorry you're going through a tough spot with the friendship - i know if they are a real friend they will understand

[@Catlily5]

I am in a similar situation with a missed birthday!

[@Dayglodaydreams]

It happens sometimes Claire.

[@WoodshedTheory]

thanks for understanding

[@Skyjamb]

Imagine having autism and schizophrenia. Things happen and if they are friends they get it I bet.

[@WoodshedTheory]

i know there are people who have both and i feel for them

[@Dayglodaydreams]

It's happened to me.

[@WoodshedTheory]

thanks for sharing

[@Dayglodaydreams]

Vocational school tomorrow.

[@WoodshedTheory]

cool!

[@neurodivergenthomestead]

Ugh... The host of one of my favorite car channels is leaving KZbin. He's fine, just wants more time at home, so not the same thing, but it's still devastating. I'm one of his Patreon patrons, and bought merch etc AND HE'S GOT THE NERVE TO LEAVE ME LIKE THIS?!?! 😅 I'm like resisting watching his last few episodes because I DON'T WANT IT TO BE OVER! Meanwhile, I'm finally making content for my blacksmith channel again and hope to start filming my first NDH video this weekend.

[@WoodshedTheory]

Ahh I’m sorry I get it

[@Skyjamb]

I don't know any perfect people.

[@WoodshedTheory]

very true

[@advaitawho]

Don’t fret…humans are reaction machines 😩

[@WoodshedTheory]

yeah i get it

[@Dayglodaydreams]

Autube podcast!!!!

[@WoodshedTheory]

yep

[@fionascheibel977]

No shade to your friends. But people who really love you remember open ended plans will distress you and you could react badly. This isnt a lack of self control on your part. It is like flashing lights trigger sezieires. Self control wont fix epilepsy. That evening you had was red flags everywhere for issues. Dont beat yourself up and if your friends love and accept you their mental bruises will heal from you stressing out. Learning oppertunity for dont expect you to cope with open ended plans like dont expect flashing lights to not mess with an epileptic brain.

[@WoodshedTheory]

hmmm i think they tried to have friends they just ended up changing.

[@patriciarennea]

I know you don't want to talk about it, but you aren't alone at all 🤍🤍

[@WoodshedTheory]

thanks for being here

[@solgirl9]

OMG! I was having constantly more out bursts at work. I felt bad for the the receiver... I recently took two months off work for self help. ❤‍🩹

[@WoodshedTheory]

Im sorry i relate i used to have outbursts at work too - i think at the time I would have told you it was because I really cared about my job 😬now i dont see it that way