A WEEK OF SIDE EFFECT STRUGGLES | CANCER DIARY

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[@zenabishop8956]

I miss this lady so much, I wish they could have made her better. Her Mrs is awesome too. ❤

[@yaserhasan3639]

Inspiring people years after you have passed on. What a star

[@Shadowfax85]

I'm on my Emily binge again. I just miss her so much. I know her friends and family miss her dearly too. 🥺

[@Dani-bd5ll]

I finally find someone so awesome who is going through the same things as me at my age... and shes gone already :'( I know how it feels that the pain is so exhausting. Wish you were still here Emily...

[@Draeber]

I hope everything turns out for you Dani.

[@lauranorwar]

I hope you’re doing well!

[@eboniz]

hope you’re well dani

[@Shadowfax85]

Hope you are well Dani 🤗

[@heatherbrown165]

Watching Em every day she is my total inspiration! The amount she would squeeze into a day and still face cancer is insane!

[@Sheyann_89]

The amount of strength emily had was just incredible. She truly knew how to live life, she never let her cancer affect her and stop her from living her life and doing the things that made her genuinely happy. Emily was one of the strongest people ive come across if not the strongest. Talk about inspirational. Almost 7 years later and she is still affecting peoples lives in the best ways possible. Emily is who i think of when im struggling with things in my life. I just tell myself "if emily could go through what she went through and still found reasons to smile and live life to the fullest then i damn sure can".

[@suzyq4982]

I wish .. I wish .. our Emily was still here 😢 you are so missed darling x

[@lauren-gracemoore2295]

You never ever need to apologize to anyone - it’s so so shit your in pain , but remember people follow your channel for the real you! Not for anything else! Your so immensely strong and amazing ! Don’t forget how much you inspire people! You’ve changed the way I look at going in for scans and everything to do with this journey! So thank you and keep doing you! Xx

[@jacquettabanana]

You will always be the sunshine on my dark days 💚 shine bright Angel x

[@lynjones9339]

Miss her Ashisa how and where are you xx

[@mjd2491]

I should put together a Minnesota care package for you! Just started watching your channel. Fighting Stage 3 breast cancer.... I am done with all the treatments, and am now discovering that the followup care for my type of cancer is -- ready? -- nothing! They (Mayo Clinic, where I go) have studied women in my situation and found that when there's a control group getting a bunch of scans and tests, and another group getting no scans and no tests, the outcomes are the same and the women who get all the scans just have more stress! So I'm like you -- just trying to live my life. I really love that you've given us this window into your life. Keep on keeping on.

[@85sevenheaven]

We aren't here for entertainment. We are here to support you. Part of that is knowing you're in pain so we can do what we can for you.

[@winterwitch9060]

Emily all of us out here love you because you’re real 🙂 we don’t want you pretending you’re ok when you’re not ☹️ I really hope that awful pain eases off soon and you get some good scan results. Hoping Aisha had a lovely birthday. Thank you for always sharing your life with us. Take care 🙂lots❤️xx

[@TheElf81]

I think you are amazing. Stop being so hard on yourself. You are pushing yourself on and not giving in... if that isn’t a big f**k off to cancer I don’t what is. Happy birthday to Aisha. Lots of love to you both xx

[@jamesbarber2222]

Your a true inspiration, wish I could of got to meet you xx

[@khloewoodall8622]

Your so brave You never know how strong you are until being strong is only choice you have H.o.p.e Hold on pain ends Sending healing prayers xxxxxxx

[@leslievanduzee9282]

I have watched most of Emily’s videos, I never see her complain about how bad the pain is and give in to the pain. Poor kid

[@joevlogs1279]

May god bless your soul Emily. Beautiful angel.

[@geraldinemaigne8463]

Happy birthday Aisha. As for Emily, make sure you are being well taken care of for your pain. Love you girls. 😚

[@yvettesavo18]

There's no need to apologize, you are an inspiration, keep living your life sweetie. God Bless you hope you feel better soon.

[@victoriaindigo]

OMG I love the Giant letter A for Aisha’s birthday! I hope she gets to save for another great Holiday this year! Don’t worry you’re not depressing me at all, and YAY for the new telly lol

[@cherylcampbell7495]

Hello love’s. Miss you and love you. 💕🇺🇸🙏. Happy birthday Aisha. Hope your doing well. We miss you.

[@riawallace7560]

You seem to be doing all you can so allow yourself crap times…as Aisha says! I am crossing everything for you Em and hoping for good news. Lots of love to both of you from Manchester 💓✌💓✌💓✌💓

[@joannoriol6444]

She was 5 foot 8 or 9, I'm shocked, I thought she was about 5 foot 4 inches. So they are both tall girls. Rip sweet Emily, love you Aisha too.❤️

[@karenvancleve5628]

Pain can steal your soul I have to fight everyday to continue the fight Remember no one will really know or understand unless they experience but thank god you have Aisha who loves you so much

[@marybeazley7741]

Em it is nice to see you you have every right to complain and as for us guys out here if they dont understand well shame on them its not depressing, they say its better to get out how you feel than keep it in ....i fell bad for you but there are better days ahead you watch and see love you both....xxx tack care Mary from Canada

[@Ailuj234]

I had no idea that you were so tall! Miss you everyday ❤️

[@Meemagolding]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AISHA 🎂‼️ Such awesome gifts! Emily you have every right to vent ‼️ Your so amazing, you push on through. If you need to rest or vent we are all here for you and Aisha ❤️❤️‼️ FUCK CANCER 💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻

[@helenuntiveros3717]

Aww am so sorry your having so much pain. But I differently know the feeling. I would get sick after each chemo treatment. I make fresh ginger tea. It helps with nausea and pain natural ant inflammatory. Hope you feel better soon.

[@lagoskids8011]

Happy Birthday Aisha x

[@ellioshiem7892]

you are so humble and so brave. you and aisha are priceless.

[@catherineokeeffe4217]

I am so sorry you are in pain. Kate

[@emmacahill4624]

Emily can I say you are on inspiration. As I was unwell and still not back to my old self . And my daughter said mum look Emily not as well as you anlook at Emily eat . Si I am eating protein drinks bars ;so thank you as you both make me laugh; your doing great : those melds are great xxx ❤️❤️❤️🌹🌹🌹

[@blakehous]

You're amazing! Hope you feel better soon!! I love your determination.

[@linda2468lou]

Emily, I know how you're feeling in this video sooooo well. It bites big-time! Pain bites also! It's great that you have Eyesha to help you take your mind off the constant crap, ((Aiesha? Spelling? I've never heard that name before!) I suggest more of that distraction and heating pads are wonderful also! Hope you feel better soon. It's grey and cloudy in Florida today! FL. Misses you and Eye!

[@thefemalebosss5065]

Aisha 🤗

[@jeansmith3367]

So brave x So missed

[@oliviaLOVEShenry]

Emily, we totally love you for being you. Even if you’re in bed for a bit; that’s part of the journey and it’s okay. Happy birthday Aisha.

[@desiderata333]

I LOVE YOU AND AISHA! 🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽

[@karencurtis2697]

Happy Birthday Aisha🎂🍰🍸, Have fun together and take care of each other , keep hands on wheel whilst driving A . Xxx

[@srgrounds]

Keep fighting the good fight girl, I’m rooting for you.

[@clairecarey8004]

It's really good to get your feelings out don't worry about it being depressing, you got this. Just a shitty week, keep being yourself lovely. Really hope the sickness and pain pisses off soon. I Live 20 mins from Brighton 😀 hope you enjoy the restaurants loads of choice and hope Aisha enjoys her birthday 🤗😘 xx

[@cammeronwall5841]

Big hugs for you guys from Georgia!

[@clairecarey8004]

I use a brilliant plug in heat pad that I got from boots online it's called dreamland it's and has temp settings £32. So worth the money I use it every day pretty much. Really helps my pain when is really bad from my sciatica which I get most days xx

[@deefer6141]

No need to be worried about this content. It was actually very true to life and that is the reality. Don't hide that. You are an amazing and inspirational person and we are all learning so much from you from treatment details to appreciating the value of life. You rock and So does Aisha ❤️❤️

[@Lottiloveslife]

Happy birthday Aisha😘🥂. Emily sometimes I find myself going on about my pain but I think you have to let it out or it builds up and gets me down. This is your reality and most of ours who are fighting, we’re here to support each other so never be sorry for being real. You are incredible going through all this and still working full time, as do I so I know first hand how hard it is fighting the worry, the pain and the fatigue as well as everything we have to do in a day. Pat on the back girl you’re doing great 👍🏻 x x

[@isabellaryan8418]

Happy Birthday Beautiful girl ♡

[@gilliansgoggleaccount7657]

What a great girlfriend Aisha is and how right she is...girl, you have cancer and what an AMAZING patient you are. If I felt that unwell, I would be in bed constantly!

[@dn351]

Loved the bit about frankfurters! Big up from Frankfurt ;-) stay strong, you can beat the pain!

[@Nanuladadul]

I never met you, but I dreamt about you! Emily, I love you, you are a sunshine 🌞. May you rest in peace 🙏

[@emmacahill4624]

Happy birthday xx

[@Isabelly]

Thank you for sharing this part of your life as well. We love the real Em and she is allowed to express her feelings on pain, annoyance, sadness etc. Don't keep things inside, dont feed the fuel. ( Nespresso ?)

[@jessej.m.e8430]

That's the problem with treatments that make us better... They make us feel like shit!! But got to stay strong 💪👊 Its not easy at all. Love ya guys xx xx

[@dianebarron8362]

Emily look up DMSO it takes away pain if it is too strong , meaning if it starts to ich ( it;s a cream )you can add alloevera to it or organic coconut oil to delute it it works on any painful area , sending love and Blessings

[@ronanwalsh7024]

Emily sweetheart why would you ever have felt the need to apologise because you were out of sorts because of being in chronic pain? You were there to inspire and educate us... and you did that wonderfully. You were never expected to entertain us.... even though you did all the time with your beautiful personality.

[@leslievanduzee9282]

Emily never talks about pain like this, she must have been really hurting, poor kid.

[@snuffelbuf]

Never say Sorry. Listen to yr lovely lady. Xxxx

[@Nicole_Toby]

We are house hunting and the no1 thing we look for is a Waitrose! lol did make me laugh!

[@annettegenovesi4012]

Baby Emily in pain. That really does hurt. You can see it in her eyes.

[@alexandrasarno6394]

Em was most likely feeling horrible sciatic pain bless her

[@upendasana7857]

How lucky where your clients to have you as their PT.I wish I had known you earlier and I would have been straight round to that gym to sign up and I hate gyms.

[@BB-ny3eu]

Just can’t get over it em 😰😰😰😰😰😰

[@beelarehman5992]

Cbd oil is great for pain xx

[@beelarehman5992]

Dha Miem it’s good for inflammation and pain xx

[@beelarehman5992]

If you google cbd oil u will find lots of info x

[@jessej.m.e8430]

P.S... I find drinking apple juice and lemonade helps with the sickness and weirdly putting my head between my legs & rocking like a mental person 😅😵 xx

[@leslievanduzee9282]

Emily had to be in ALOT OF PAIN, to talk about this much. That poor girl, she was such a tough warrior

[@anseldiaz1968]

I wonder if she had pain in Florida. Because she just came back andvthr pain is deep

[@BB-ny3eu]

Chin up Hun you are amazing xxxx

[@melanieblake2689]

Hi guys can someone please tell me when is it Isha birthday day January 13 or 14th.

[@eleshaburgess8567]

Up your vitamin D 8000 IUs a day. Been on this fir years now. The recommended doses are well below what is needed to help bones and fight disease. It’s all there on google to read up on.

[@chronicinokla]

Aisha is right, you can whine . I have chronic pain from Dercums Disease, Rheumatoid Arthritis, Sjogrens, Fibromyalgia, POTS, PCOS, Polymyositis and co-morbidities that go with them. Pain f#@cking sucks. But you can and will snap out of it. I believe you can because I have seen it in your vlogs. When it is on your mind and you are experiencing pain I feel like it affects you more. But I have days where I cry my eyes out until I fall asleep and wake up cleansed almost lol. It is an emotional dump that you just have to take sometimes. Big gentle hugs to you both. Love and well wishes as well

[@OneElusiveRainbow]

I’m confuse this was published today but I see comments that are three months old

[@ceciletarling5229]

Laura Elrod this vlog was posted on the 13/1/2018

[@dawnrobinson4002]

Like I said I've just found u but u are amazing strong and positive. Moan all u like

[@jessej.m.e8430]

STOP SAYING SORRY (Try CoDydramol) Listen to Aisha girl. Love ya guys xx xx

[@clair8776]

Emily was such a beautiful soul. She deserved a much better life than what she had. I never get the impression the girlfriend was really into this relationship on the same level that Emily was. Don't bother coming for me!!! It's my opinion and you won't be changing my mind.

[@katamari08]

I hear where you’re coming from. I thought the same in early videos but had a change of heart after watching Emily’s series. Aisha just appears to be more introverted and seems to have a softer/quieter personality. Outward demonstration is different. The way Aisha and her family embrace Emily leads me to believe Aisha loved(loves) Emily very, very much - as romantic partners and friends. Makes me so sad their relationship was cut short. Emily was captivating.

[@spiritualwarrior1084]

Miss u

[@lillymay5854]

Hhat is her pobox want to send somthing

[@vickyrogers3690]

Did they give you any pain meds?

[@patsyballantyne9886]

💖

[@TabanyaRuuFinnishLapphunds]

It wasn’t depressing at all - we feel for you and keeping emotions in simply feeds cancer. Just wish you weren’t in so much pain. Eat more kebabs (well why not 😆) and do stuff you love to help you get through these challenging days. This will pass 👍😘

[@sarahmilner8483]

Awh Em.. Miss you. Aisha could never show genuine excitement.. What was that about.. If I got that present I'd be so so happy!!

[@colliesworld6380]

Emily stop!!!! Apologizing for your pain!!! I don't know if I ever mentioned it to you but I am a chronic pain patient and have been now for 5 yrs due to a condition called neuropathy. In short it's nerve damage that has no cure and attaches for starters your hands and feet. Several cancer patients get it after being on chemo treatment. I know what it is like to be in pain all the time 24/7 that never ever stops. It is exhausting and drains you. You are sometimes miserable and can't get your spirits up because it just consumes you at times. So no need to apologize to anyone at anytime. We know what YU are going through and you do already so so so much more than others with cancer are managing. You just came back from a vacation and are back at work , just take it easy ok cause the simplest things can be so daunting at times and just drain all of your energy. We all understand don't we gang, just be you and update us when YU can and no need to apologize you are very strong xoxoxox

[@Helen-zx7js]

It’s all good, you’re allowed to be annoyed with yourself for feeling like the vlog is you wanging on about pain and feeling sick! You are a hugely positive person and holiday come down plus side effects and chronic pain would make anyone miserable. It’s absolutely nothing you should apologise for - it’s obvious you’re still in charge and not cancer. Even in a blog that’s not about the greatest things you still come across as strong and positive. It’s the coldest greyest time of year too. Just give yourself a break and watch more shit movies. Sounds like it might have been Catfight not Frenemies?

[@jimmyjohnstone7258]

Tell your girl not to do make up whilst driving. Not funny.I hope you get some pain relief. Can the doctors at Royal Marsden give you something for pain?Keep posting when you can be arsed.

[@Legittoquit1]

My cat makes me turn your clogs on .