EMOTIONAL Reaction to Sick Boi - Ren (Lyme Disease & MCAS Fighter; ED Recovery Edition)

[@RoadLessTraveledMedia]

don't let ANYONE tell you not to share your reactions and pause as you need to. That's what makes your insights and contributions valuable - frankly, whomever says that can eff right off, because they don't understand. Keep it up, and keep strong - you're an amazing inspiration of determination.

[@BeccaDoss]

Thank you so much, that means so much to my heart and soul, I can’t really put into words right now. I’ve always felt the same way when I watch other reactors, I actually really enjoy it when people pause and share whatever comes up for them, because that’s how we get the massive array of different perspectives and that we see in this community just around Ren as an artist, and it’s amazing. I did try to at least make sure I rewound it a little bit in some places here when I had to pause it pretty quickly, just to make sure we didn’t miss the transitions, but thank you for letting me know you really appreciate how the policy makes insights and contributions valuable. You’re such an encouragement, I really appreciate you stopping by!💕

[@moonfyps9307]

Pausing is basically what a reaction is all about. If I wanna watch the whole thing in one go then I watch the original, period.

[@TheViralInfekT]

I second this strongly. There is no sustenance in watching someone looking like a dead fish with open mouth just saying "wow that was something" and ending the video. All who do not want a pause should see the original that they should watch anyway to support the artist.

[@karljackson928]

Could not agree more. Well said!✌

[@jasper4365]

yep

[@SirTheory]

I've watched a LOT of reactions to Sick Boi-more than is probably healthy, tbh-and this is the best lyrical breakdown of the song that I've seen. Really, really well done. Thank you.

[@BeccaDoss]

Jacob, thank you from the bottom of my heart. I really love diving into lyrics, rhyme schemes, metaphors, all of that stuff, and when I stopped being able to read and write like I once could (have a college degree in English from spending 4 years doing just that, but Lyme et al. have really messed with my ability to do both), music is the one area where I was still able to connect with my love of words, which worked out well, because I’ve also used music to process things my whole life. There’s not a day that goes by that I don’t reference lyrics from AT LEAST 1-2 songs in mid-conversation with my husband, and I’m so thankful my brain somehow has managed to continue connecting with words via music. Finding someone like Ren, who is putting words to music and perfectly describing so many things I haven’t been able to quite tap into, myself…it makes the experience all that much more enjoyable. Thanks for coming along for the ride!💕

[@mama-llama4527]

100% . I appreciate this. thank you!

[@BillyVatcher]

Agreed. I’ve seen over a hundred.

[@tysonn4736]

The WHOLE POINT of reaction channels is the reactions that happen in the pauses. Your analysis is incredible. The people that don't like you pausing can f' off.

[@BeccaDoss]

Thank you so much, Tyson, this really gave me a smile when I read it. I probably shouldn’t have even tried to give that explanation about pausing, but I was just trying to avoid having to deal with comments that complained about the pausing.😂 I seriously appreciate the number of people in this comment section alone who have told me that they don’t mind, and even appreciate the pauses, because that’s how I’ve always felt about others’ reaction videos, so I’m glad to know there are plenty of people who feel the same way. I really appreciate your kind words about my analysis, too. With Ren, I’m finding that his music tends to appeal to multiple aspects of my personality and lifelong interests, and life in general. I love being able to relate to the chronic illness and mental health side of things, and all that goes along with that, but I also really love things like rhyme scheme analysis and rap flow patterns, and I love literature and metaphors and analogies because I spent four years dedicating my life to get a degree in English literature, after a lifelong love of reading. So he really delivers on everything, and I know I miss references at times, but I really just geek out over this stuff.😊

[@ali50n]

Don't ever stop reacting in exactly the way you do..its absolutely perfect.

[@richarddancer-w8c]

ANYBODY THAT CRITICIZE BECCA CAN KISS MY*#___-*

[@kamilabereda4872]

The point of reaction videos is REACTION of what's on the screen, not the analysis lol. The analysis is a detailed examination of the elements or structure of something, so that people can understand it's meaning.

[@guitarmuscle6968]

Your excitement at finding Ren is infectious, and your reactions to his songs, although hard to see you upset, anyone can see they are cathartic to you, to see someone express the same experiences you've had in a powerful way is obviously a good thing for you, keep watching and reacting and don't worry about pausing and letting your feelings out, any Fans of Ren will have seen these videos many times and i think just enjoy watching new people discover him

[@BeccaDoss]

I’m so glad you’re able to connect with the emotions even through a screen; there have been some times in life (not in these videos, just life in general) where I’ve been asked if I’m exaggerating or overemphasizing emotion, and I can honestly say I’m not. And honestly, I cant fake emotion even if I try, I’m really bad at it, so everything I share here is my raw, genuine reaction I’d be having even if watching it without a camera filming. I’m so thankful others have been able to feel it. I’m so glad to be part of this community, and can’t wait to keep going down this rabbit hole! Really appreciate you!💕

[@loadedorygun]

one of the most beautiful things about Ren is he spreads empathy, both directly and via his fans. The reaction community is really a special group of people imo. All kinds of folks, and they were all touched by the transparency and powerful emotionality. So to watch someone see his stuff anew, is to welcome someone else into the fold. You were before but here’s your proof: we see you.

[@loadedorygun]

it’s ALWAYS all love in the comments for his stuff. It’s uncanny.

[@BeccaDoss]

This means so much more than I can put into words right now. The overwhelming love and encouragement from this larger fan base and community has been absolutely overwhelming, and unlike any other community I’ve ever connected with online. And that speaks volumes to how excellent a job he’s doing at getting his message across through musical masterpieces that resonate with so many on such a deep level. I’m so thankful to have you here, and am really looking forward to continuing this journey!💕

[@Danandrea919]

Just saw your Hi Ren and immediately came here!! 😊 Much love, Beautiful! ❤

[@jovana_r]

You are the first person reacting to this song and felt every word exactly as me. I know there are many people who felt it too, but I haven't seen it in reactions. And it made me cry even after I thought I was done with emotions when it comes to this song. It hits really hard and makes me desperate hearing someone describing exactly how I feel, but also it feels kind of comforting knowing that I am not the only one going through hell of being chronically ill and being treated like crazy/lazy/hypochondriac by doctors and people. So, just wanna thank you for everything you said in this video. Often I really need a proof that I am not crazy and you just gave me that. Thanks and hugs from Serbia. 🖤

[@BeccaDoss]

First and foremost: I see you, I hear you, you are absolutely NOT crazy, and you deserve better than being treated like that by a system that’s supposedly a profession designed to help us. Thank you for taking time to watch, but even more so, for sharing some of your own story. Sometimes just being able to share it with someone can at least make the load lighter, even if just for a moment. I’m so thankful you happened to stop by. Take care of yourself as best you can, and remember, when things feel impossible only have to focus on taking things one day, hour, minute at a time.💕

[@jovana_r]

@@BeccaDoss That's exactly what I'm doing and I'm sure most of us do. Otherwise we would not survive. Thank you so much for your words. The same goes to you. It is important for all of us to know that we are not alone in this. Take a good care of yourself. 🖤

[@emilianoserranosouza1991]

This is a astounding masterpiece in to many levels,beautiful song and reaction!!

[@martingilluk]

Wonderful reaction. Amazing Becca.I think Ren is also commenting on how young, successful male singer role-models of his age have allowed themselves to be bled in the name of fame and profit and have ended up taking their lives. The past 5 years have been a risky time for Ren. The 'success' of some musicians has been about Christian prophet/martyr models. (i.e. Christ, Hendrix, Cobain, dying at 33). I'm longing for the time when these cultural iconic figures are no longer shadowing Ren's longevity. Hope I'm still here to hear the wonderful songs and films he produces in his 40's! (Ren's 66 year old dad).

[@BeccaDoss]

You know, that’s a level I hadn’t yet considered, and it makes perfect sense to me. Thanks for taking time to type it out! And I really appreciate your support in letting me know you enjoyed the reaction, I’ve really been loving getting into his music and can’t wait to do more!💕

[@Parula06]

Fantastic reaction. Ren is a terrific actor, in addition to every other massive talent he possesses. I've been lucky and haven't suffered the way both you and Ren have, but even so, your take on this piece is EXACTLY how I hear it. The frustration and rage of not being heard when you're so desperate for help, and the despair of being stuck in that meat-grinder of a system. I got Lyme in TN. It's everywhere. IMO Ren sees the system that failed him is the same system that, writ large, is failing the planet. And he's highly self-aware, so he knows that while he's a victim of the system, he's also de facto a part of the system, being a human and a member of society. It's a total existential quandary, unanswered. He also explores this in Money Game P1 and Pt 2.

[@BeccaDoss]

Marty, thank you so much for taking time to watch and let me know he resonated with his reaction I really try not to ever get into the anger was comparing suffering, because we all have our own crap that we’re dealing with, and like you said, we can all relate to this message in a similar way even if some of the specifics are different. I’m so sorry to hear that you got Lyme, I hope you’ve been able to access treatment for it at some point and were able to find moments of peace and it’s the chaos of life. My Lyme doctor is actually in Tennessee, so I’m right next-door.💕

[@richarddancer-w8c]

THIS IS A REALLY IMPRESSIVE COMMENT. None of the comments I've read on Becca's or any reactor's channel on any video has made a statement about the bigger picture ( failing the planet --well said !!)👍💥

[@NativeNYerChicHK]

I KNEW this one would resonate with you! It’s crazy how spot on this all is, he’s been THROUGH it and speaks to my soul ❤

[@BeccaDoss]

I’m right there with you, he does it in a way no one else quite has! Thank you so much for the continued encouragement and support, it really means the world to me.💕

[@iandism]

I was first diagnosed with depression at the age of 6, I am now hitting 60, and life has been pretty tough. Having spent my first 16 years in children's homes, beaten, bullied, neglected etc, I guess depression was bound to be a major part of my life. Ren is actually helping me right now, I have watched well over 300 reactions and loved the support he is getting from around the world, and I've enjoyed your reviews . I look forward to your reaction to Chalk Outlines, which is a beautiful song. I highly recommend Dear God is added to your list (a wonderful song with hard-hitting questions). I really hope that Ren is helping you on your journey as well.

[@BeccaDoss]

Ian, thanks so much for taking time to watch and share some of your story. I’m sorry for the pain and suffering you’ve endured, and I’m thankful to hear that Ren’s music has been a helpful force for you. He’s definitely doing the same for me. And thanks for the song rec, I’ll definitely check that one out, too!

[@richarddancer-w8c]

Your Troubles are devastatng. It tears me up to hear stories like yours. Note my name and go read the long comment I left for Becca about Father Kelly a couple of days ago and follow the advice I gave her. You have a lot of "likes" to your comment ----like Father Kelly says "You're not alone"

[@iandism]

Thank you so much for your kind words Richard. Much appreciated 🙏

[@graceydez6199]

The thing abut RENagades, everybody has powerful stories and the sharing is helping others. 😊❤

[@bazm2024]

I've watched a few of ur reactions. I'm so happy you found our boy ren

[@vexom5]

Another great reaction, I really appreciate hearing your perspective, don’t worry about pausing. Looking forward to other Ren reactions. He has a big range of music, not all is so serious, some are deeper in different ways. Keep up the great work!

[@BeccaDoss]

Really appreciate your continued encourage and support! Definite looking forward to filming reactions to the very wide range of stuff he’s got out there, so we’ll be on this journey for a WHILE, and I wouldn’t have it any other way.😊💕

[@tessahermelin2117]

You are fantastic at your breakdowns. Thank you!

[@bradsmith1919]

Hello beautiful, never apologize for pausing when you hear or see something that you understand or have been through yourself, that is what makes reaction videos more personal, not only for you but also your viewers. Remember, vulnerability isn't a weakness, it's a strength. It's all in how you use it. Never give up, never give in. Love ya my beautiful friend ❤🌹

[@BeccaDoss]

Thanks, Brad. I’m really glad you were able to enjoy the reaction. As always, really appreciate your support. And you’re right, vulnerability is a strength, for sure.💕

[@vinchinzo594]

I'm really overwhelmed by this one so I'll collect my thoughts and spend some time thinking about what I want to say and then I'll drop another comment at a later time. For now, what I can say is; Par for the course, another masterfully articulated analysis. I agreed with every last thing you said. Shout out to your husband for believing you, fighting for you, and supporting you. That's a real man! 😤💪 You mentioned his name in the last video I saw, I think it was Roger but if not can you remind me? So I can lift both of you, by name, up to God's throne in my prayers each night.

[@richarddancer-w8c]

Hi Vincent. I wrote "A LETTER" to Becca over on her Jenny and Screech reaction You should go look for it

[@richarddancer-w8c]

May 16 -- Hi buddy. I'm leaving "comments" all over the place since there's no other way to get in contact you and Becca. So I don't even know if you'll see this one or if you do---when. Anyway this note has nothing to do with this reaction video but I was looking at some thing else on youtube and thought you'd get a [sort of] kick out of it. In your search box type: [a homeless man walks into a church what happens next shocked everyone]

[@BeccaDoss]

Hey friend, sorry it’s taken me a week to get back to this one. Been kind of hectic here. Roger and I really appreciate the encouragement and support (and yep! You got his name right!). I know used to be from a place of first-hand experience, so I want to tell you that your prayers mean more than words can say, and please know that I’m also looking up you all in prayer, as well. You are an absolute blessing.💕🙏🏼

[@richardhanney7950]

Thank you Becca for sharing your reaction to this with us. Your excitement and connection to the song was palpable. Its amazing the way people have linked through Rens magic in such a short time.

[@BeccaDoss]

So happy you enjoyed it, Richard! And I’m glad to know my emotions can be felt, even through a screen. I agree, just for the VERY short time I’ve been in this community, I’ve been AMAZED at how many people he’s been able to connect to, who have them connected to each other in super supportive ways. It’s a really special experience, that’s for sure, and it says a lot that he’s been able to build such a wonderful fan base.💕

[@sarahallegra6239]

I love your pauses and interjections! And I also love your shirt. Please keep pausing as often as you want to, I think people are watching you because they resonate with what you have to say. Wishing you lots of spoons! 🥄

[@BeccaDoss]

Thank you so much! I’m so glad most people say they’d appreciate the pausing when I have some thing to break down or add, and those are always the reactions I’ve loved to watch, so I’m glad to be able to give back to this part of the world in some way.

[@sarahallegra6239]

@@BeccaDoss You definitely are, and I can’t imagine how much these videos must take out of you to do! My husband and I have a rule now when we watch tv or movies; if one of us has something to say about it or is reminded by something we saw, we ALWAYS pause what we’re watching and just discuss it then. I don’t have Lyme, but I have MECFS brain fog often, and there have been far too many times where I’ve tried to remember something until a commercial break and then it’s just gone forever. So now we just always pause and it helps a lot :) So this feels very familiar to me!

[@GneasYTC]

Great reaction, Becca. 👏 I knew you'd love it! I've been waiting for this to drop, and - like Ren - you do not disappoint. You look really happy and excited here, talking ninety to the dozen. It's great to see. ❤ All aboard for the Ren Express, next stop "Chalk Outlines"! 🚂😄 PS: If you want to see Ren rapping in complete Monster Mode, "The Hunger" is the one.

[@BeccaDoss]

It was AMAZING! Thank you so much, as always, for being so encouraging and supportive! The community around Ren’s music has absolutely blown me away in the best way possible. I am laughing a little bit, because I definitely did some rapidfire talking in this one, which is some thing I can’t always control when I get emotional, much like pausing the video. The Hunger is definitely the first rap song I was planning on doing, so thanks for confirming that! And just wanted to let you know, I recorded a chalk outline’s reaction, I just need to get it edited and uploaded, but that’s coming up next as soon as health allows! Take care!😁💕

[@GneasYTC]

@@BeccaDoss Yup, I knew you had Chalk Outlines on the way, looking forward to that. By the way, full disclosure - I'm a Johnny-Come-Lately as far as Ren is concerned, having only come across him a month ago when the YT algorithm got it right for a change. So my dive into his back catalogue is pretty shallow so far. By which I mean you should take anything I say with a big pinch of salt. But for me, so far The Hunger is the rap that makes me go wow every time. And take your time, we're here for the long haul. We'll cut you some slack. (See what I did there?🤣)

[@BeccaDoss]

@@GneasYTC Got a nice laugh out of that wordplay/joke at the end, thanks fam! Really appreciate it!

[@GneasYTC]

@@BeccaDoss Grrrrr! I missed the perfect opportunity for a second pun. Shoulda said "we're here for the long hall". Chalk Outlines? The location? No? Ok, I'll get me coat... 🏃‍♂

[@BeccaDoss]

@@GneasYTC My brain is so fried at this point of the night I even missed that opportunity myself, but I’m ALWAYS up for a good (bad? Which is actually good?) pun!

[@ianhislop6782]

Another great reaction. If you’re looking for something different and not so heavy then Ren has some outstanding street performances with his band The Big Push and also with Sam Tompkins. There’s so much energy and love on the streets of Brighton.

[@BeccaDoss]

Thanks for the recs, I’ll definitely add it to the list and check them out! Really appreciate your support.💕

[@elenaorujev3494]

Truly great analysis because you really get it! Please continue your Ren journey - each song is unique and meaningful!

[@BeccaDoss]

Thanks Elena! Definitely can’t wait to keep going down this rabbit hole!💕

[@rickseymour1972]

I must say that I watched your "Hi Ren" reaction and was blown away by your passion/insight/honesty. Ever since I saw "Hi Ren" for the first time I have watched reactors watch it for the first time just so that I can share in that immense experience again. However ! Of maybe 50-60 reactions that I have watched in the last 2-3 weeks, there have been only 2 that have really resonated due to pure, honest 100% connection and yours in one. I know a lot of people wont like the constant stopping and talking, but THAT IS WHAT MAKES A REACTION !!!! And your explanations give even more insight into the meaning of the song from a very personal angle. Your personal insight and pain are plain to see, and please do carry on with your honesty. New subscriber here, all the best in your continued journey from "RenLand" (UK). Take care, be safe and continue the good fight !

[@BeccaDoss]

Thank you so much for taking time to not only watch the video and let me know you resonated with it (and the Hi Ren reaction)! I got several comments on the higher end video where people definitely were not to find out how often I stop it, but I’ve always had the same philosophy as you: if it’s a reaction video, and I’m watching a reactor, I want to see what the reaction is. I did try to make sure I rewound sometimes in the sick boi video just so we didn’t miss any of the powerful transitions, but I really appreciate your support overall! Happy to be here in RenLand, and have no intentions of leaving!💕

[@rickseymour1972]

Would love to see you react to some of his "not emotional" stuff.....Perhaps "I Shot The Sheriff" from his busking band "The Big Push" Of emotional but in a different way - The Tale of Jenny and Screech (Full)

[@BeccaDoss]

@@rickseymour1972 I’ve got them on the list, thanks for the recs! Can’t wait to dig into a variety of his different work!💕

[@richarddancer-w8c]

Thanks!

[@ebbalarsson7220]

Wow your reaction really got this song even better and more meaningful to me! I really admire your quick respons at every part and how you lift it up and pinpoint different perspectives! Thank you for a stunning work! You'r so genuine! 🎉 And I love your other ren-reactions too. Can't wait for more. 😃❤

[@BeccaDoss]

Thank you so much, this gave me a huge smile. Really appreciate you stopping by!

[@brianito7779]

Becca, where can I get that wide headband? In slightly cooler weather a full knit cap is a bit too much. Love your reactions! Keep moving forward and know that we love you. Regarding the video, I love how the music slightly drowns out the actual conversation, which really captures the thoughts in our heads drowning out real world interactions. We're focused on our pain and illness, whether mental or physical, and we can't be fully present. Genius.

[@BeccaDoss]

In reverse order: Yes! The way that background vocals and instrumental drowns out a lot of the spoken conversation really drives fast imagery home HARD. The level and layers of detail he puts into these videos is amazing. Genius, indeed. As far as the headband, I wish I could give you a helpful answer, but I don’t think it’s what you’re looking for. I’ve had a headache literally every day, no exaggeration, since January 20, 2013, and for most of the past decade I’ve had to wear a cold pack on my head, usually 24/7, just to keep the pain at bay. So that’s actually a cold pack with individual little reusable ice cubes in two different rows. Not sure it would help you out in cooler weather, and I’m sorry I can’t be of more help! I used to only have ones that looked like obvious medical products, but I found these black ones ~6 years ago and for the last couple years, they’re basically all I wear. And they’re not nearly as obvious as the ones that are white and blue, etc. (the brand is Headache Hat, and they actually have a few different designs; I have some with 3 rows, some with 2, and one with a single row. I’m never without them. Can’t afford to be.) Really thankful for your continued encouragement and support, I’m really loving this community and journey!💕

[@Rob-bt3ev]

You're going to love his rap stuff if you enjoyed his rhyme schemes here - Genesis, The Hunger, Losing It are all great examples. It's worth checking his many other songs to also appreciate his diversity and talent.

[@BeccaDoss]

I’m SO excited to dig into it! There’s not a whole lot in life that can get me as emotionally and mentally engaged as good lyrics and awesome delivery, so I can’t wait to dive into the songs, for sure!

[@moonfyps9307]

THIS 😊

[@ratflail215]

@@BeccaDoss Power is also amazing.

[@MalcolmMXTaylor]

Wow a great reaction vid!!! How Ren portrays his story is epic and emotional for everyone!! He is a true artist. I hope you get through your own struggles, and we really need Ren to get through his as well

[@BeccaDoss]

Thanks so much, I’m SO glad you enjoyed the reaction! I’m really looking forward to diving into more of his stuff as health allows!

[@philhallbrook7008]

Hi Becca, good job. Naturally. Thanks for your sharing xx

[@BeccaDoss]

Thanks, as always, Phil! Love seeing your make pop up in my notifications! 💕

[@philhallbrook7008]

Tho this is my least favourite of EVERYTHING that Ren has done. Still awesome, to go Amerikkkan on your ass, sister I'll qualify that. We don't use awesome so much over here (tho it's creeping in). And the spelling of America is cos you lot need to sort your race relations out. I lived in Chicago for a year, as a white boy south side in the projects, so I'm qualified to comment In one of my lives, in the life that I've lived...

[@epishmeh]

Don’t apologize for pausing to comment. It’s what most of us are here for. For those bothered by it, it boggles my mind why they are even watching a reaction video. I love your Ren reactions!

[@BeccaDoss]

These comments always make me smile, because I’ve always felt the same way. Thank you so much, it means the world to me.💕

[@salishseamermaid]

I really appreciate your reactions. I'm a nurse, and I'm always looking for deeper insight into the ways my patients experience their conditions and the healthcare system.

[@BeccaDoss]

Thank you from the bottom of my heart, that means so daggone much to me. And thank you for the work you do, I’m a BIG fan of nurses, and it’s NOT an easy job at all! I can tell you’re passionate about your work just from taking time to keep looking for deeper insight-not everyone would go that extra mile.💕

[@IronRaspberry]

I love your reactions so much. They are so real and I can relate. While I don’t have the same health issues as you or Ren, I do have a multitude of conditions such as Crohn’s Disease, M.E., Fibromyalgia, Vertigo, ADHD, Chronic Anxiety, OCD, Depression; and a host of extraintestinal issues caused by my crohn’s - such as Inflammatory Polyarthropathy, Erythema Nodosum, Uveitis, Anemia, Gastritis, and Malabsorption Syndrome. It took years to be properly diagnosed, and at times I was made to feel that the debilitating pain that I was experiencing was as all in my head. I’m still struggling to find treatments that actually help.

[@BeccaDoss]

I am SO glad you enjoy them, my number one goal is always to share content that people can relate to, and hopefully feel a little less alone or a little more understood. I’ve got a long list of other conditions, myself, including a lot of the ones that you mentioned, either on their own or as a result of some of my other underlying chronic and genetic issues. I’m so sorry that you know the pain of not being able to get a diagnosis in a timely manner, and I really hope that you’re able to continue fighting treatments that can give you more Hope and healing, and that while you’re waiting, you’re able to find moments of peace in the journey, and it’s all of the chaos. I really appreciate your encouragement, and I thank you so much for sharing even part of your story, and just remember we’re only responsible for taking things one day at a time.💕

[@IronRaspberry]

@@BeccaDoss Your words are very encouraging. Thank you!

[@SoZen08]

This is the most passionate reaction I've seen, and I can tell it's so heart- and body-felt! Ren also has a series of vlogs where he shares about his illness. At that time, he still thought it was M.E. and that channel is called me vs me.

[@BeccaDoss]

Thank you so much for taking time to watch and let me know you enjoyed it-my whole purpose is to help people feel less alone, or more understood, or just help someone feel connected to another person or to art-and I’m glad my emotion comes through the screen pretty well. It’s all 100% real-I’m terrible at faking emotions, so what you see is what I’d be doing if I were watching it alone, without the camera. I’ll definitely have to check out those vlogs for my own edification sometime, thanks for the heads up.

[@willbender9035]

Phenomenal reaction like always! Please take all the time and pauses you need. There's so much emotion in Ren's performances, and we all need some pauses to take it in.

[@BeccaDoss]

Thanks, Will! And I appreciate the reminder to take however long I need to react the way I tend to do it. I’ve always liked it when I watch reactors who pause to react, because like you said, I’ve always found it helps to take things in. Especially since most people watch reactions after at least hearing the song itself, first, so likely aren’t hearing it for the very first time in a reaction video.

[@tobbi11]

sending love from Iceland

[@BeccaDoss]

Sending it right back to you!💕

[@kylewatson7639]

I'm so glad I discovered your channel, a lot of his Lyme disease and auto immunity illnesses I don't really understand and you put it into context just how much pain this man feels. Thank you for sharing your story and being here.

[@BeccaDoss]

I’m so glad it’s been able to help you understand those things a little better, that’s one of the main reasons that I share any of these.

[@seandan7873]

Really enjoy the articulation you bring to these reactions/breakdowns. Thank you for being vulnerable, it helps more than you likely realise. I hope this channel and the community it will inevitably create, is cathartic and brings you joy like it does those of us that appreciate you. Thank you so much Becca 💚

[@BeccaDoss]

I’m so glad you enjoy and can resonate with them, Sean, that’s the reason I share anything. To just help people feel connected to something, whatever it is they need in the moment. This is definitely a cathartic experience for me, and one I’ve been extremely humbled by, because I NEVER have experienced such a supportive online fan base/community. He really has built something so special around his art, and it’s awesome to see. Your continued encouragement means a lot.💕

[@clairme_5865]

I've watched so many reactions to this song and yours is by far the best and most insightful. I've been ill with M.E/cfs for decades and bedridden/horizontal with it for the last 6 years and the psychologisation of my illness has been as destructive as the illness itself. (We'd have a cure/treatment for it by now for a start). I love how you really understood the environmental references in the song too. Oddly, most reactors just don't pick up on that, for some reason. I didn't realise how much I needed someone like you to do a reaction like this. Thank you so so much! 🙏❤

[@BeccaDoss]

Thank you so much for taking time to watch and let me know you resonated with it, though I hate to hear you understand it on such a personal level, too. I’m sorry you’ve had to go through all of that-no one deserves it. I’m glad you were able to connect here and I hope to connect with you on this journey. Really appreciate you.💕

[@bazm2024]

Number that is relevant now, is REN SICK BOI ALBUM WAS NUMBER ONE

[@kristenh5057]

Hey fellow KY gal! I love that I found your reaction channel, and yes there absolutely is Lyme Disease here. I was told the same thing years ago when I took my Daughter to the dr after she had contracted Lyme. Thanks for sharing with us. Ren is bringing people together with his art, which is amazing ❤

[@BeccaDoss]

Hey! Thanks so much for stopping by this little corner of the Internet. Ren has DEFINITELY brought people together with his art in a way I’ve not quite seen any other artist do to this degree. I’m so glad he’s finally getting the recognition he’s long since deserved. I’m so sorry you’ve also had firsthand experience with Lyme-denial as you searched for answers for your daughter, I really hope you were able to find her some help after dealing with that ignorance, and I hope she’s back to living life now. Take care of yourself.💕

[@Vmcf1968]

you may not be writing in the classical sense but your reactions are so well articulated that i believe you are still writing in a oral sense. good on you

[@BeccaDoss]

This meant so much to my heart and soul, thank you deeply.💕

[@pvandewyngaerde]

I agree

[@terrygray8016]

Just came from Ren's latest update post, & your reaction channel was highly recommended & they weren't wrong it is another great insight

[@BeccaDoss]

Wow, thank you so much for stopping by, and I’m so glad to know you enjoyed it! I’ve really loved digging into his art and getting to connect with this awesome community!

[@dianeemanuel8541]

You really deliver the most honest and open reactions. Thank you.

[@BeccaDoss]

Thank you, friend. Glad you enjoy them.

[@kiwatts]

Love your reation. True and pure. 🫂

[@BeccaDoss]

Thank you, that’s always my goal, to keep it real and hopefully find a eat for others to connect with it.💕

[@jeffwilson3205]

I really hope Ren sees this one.

[@BeccaDoss]

Thanks Jeff! It would be totally awesome if he saw it, but the support and encouragement that I’m getting from everyone in the comment section makes all of this more than worth it. I really appreciate you!💕

[@Steve_P_B]

I really appreciate your reaction because it really seems to me like you and Ren have a very similar history of contracting this disease but having it diagnosed as a psychological condition when it wasn't and the struggles of trying to find a way to get to the truth and find a way to make your situation better. Seeing you look at something like this and seeing exactly what you are going through expressed like this is powerful. You aren't alone in your struggle.

[@blueisback3683]

Thank you a ton for doing these reactions, I know it helps me understand it just a little more. As far as his other stuff, I will take his soul music stuff done on the street corners with some other pretty incredible musicians. I Shot the Sherrif would be a great way to go down this part of the Ren rabbit hole.

[@BeccaDoss]

I am so glad that my reactions have been able to help you understand it just a little more, my number one goal with any of these that I put out, and really anything I share online, is to help at least one other person feel less alone or more understood, or to help them connect with something in a way that may be they hadn’t been able to before, so your words mean the world to me. I can’t wait to check out some more of that street music and some of those other covers, I’m really excited to see the wide variety of music that I know is going to amaze me.

[@jakobjenbo8780]

thanks for being strong

[@BeccaDoss]

Thanks for taking time to watch and comment, I appreciate you!💕

[@ydo-bc5wj]

That was a wonderful reaction, thank you! I related to a lot of it.

[@BeccaDoss]

Thank you so much, I am so glad it resonated with you!💕

[@jenneper]

Such a great video, again! 💜Also, I'm so well versed in lupus, Lyme is new to me (was but, diagnosed last year). I had COVID and Lyme at the same time.. ugh. My left leg hasn't worked right since and oh wow... The cognitive issues. If you all have any advise? Is this something you also go through? I like your community you built here! Good job.

[@BeccaDoss]

Thanks Jen, I really appreciate your continued encouragement! I hate to hear of what you’re dealing with after getting hit with Lyme and COVID at the same time. I wish I could say more right now, but just know that I relate to everything you mentioned: the cognitive issues, mobility/pain, neurological symptoms…they can all be so scary and overwhelming. And there is hope that they can lessen and you can get relief. Rooting for you, take care of yourself. One day at a time is all we have to focus on, especially in the hard times.

[@the_journeyahead4228]

Love your reactions. Much luv from London

[@cherylaf8330]

Becca, you explain his videos so well because of what you are going through, you do a wonderful job, but I am sorry that you are going through that stuff. Take care! Everyone is here for a reason. And you are so right about doctors and health care.

[@BeccaDoss]

I’m just glad Ren and others have made it possible for so many of us to connect and share our own similar experiences, both to provide camaraderie to other struggling, or to offer insight into what it’s like living with this stuff. Being able to impact even one life makes all the pain and struggling a little more worth it.🩷

[@russmatthews8737]

Thank you, just thank you. This is an amazing reaction

[@BeccaDoss]

Thank you for letting me know you enjoyed it, it means so much to me.💕

[@LuluThinking]

What a very thoughtful, considerate and intelligent reaction. Thank you and I don't care about the pausing because your comments are so insightful. Wishing you well in your fight to be well.

[@BeccaDoss]

I’m so grateful to know you really enjoyed this one. It definitely hit so close to home, and it’s always nice to know my insights can add value. I’ve gotten better at rewinding more when I pause in my more recent videos, but it makes my heart smile to know others enjoy what I have to share/add. Thank you.💕

[@adamb828]

Great perspective. Especially the last section. Looking forward to more.

[@BeccaDoss]

Really appreciate that, thank you, Adam!

[@polodog1483]

As a fellow lyme fighter this song and ur reaction and breakdown for me was spot on and powerful. Thank u

[@ginawright3446]

Hi Becca, I just wanted to say I love your channel, your reactions are so insightful and heartfelt. Sending you a big hug xx

[@BeccaDoss]

Thanks you, Gina! I appreciate your support and encouragement so very much! Sending hugs right back to you.💕

[@thetuffs3000]

Thank you for your video. Beautifully insightful.

[@BeccaDoss]

Thank YOU for taking time to watch!💕

[@lloyd4301]

Really enjoying the insight you are able to bring to Rens music. Looking forward to the Chalk Outlines Live reaction. Subbed.

[@BeccaDoss]

Thanks so much, Lloyd, that really means a lot to me. Very thankful for your support!

[@noelfrancis1908]

Great job, you and Ren have helped me immensely, won't go into details with my struggles, no one see my pain and hurt because I have learnt to disguise it, cause afraid of been ridiculed and labelled. Think I said too much, will stop

[@BeccaDoss]

Hey Noel, I want to tell you that there is never any pressure to share any specific details when you’re commenting here, but if you ever decide you want to, I am more than willing to listen and I see and hear your pain, even without knowing the specifics, and I want you to know it’s very valid and I am so sorry that you had to deal with the pain of not being able to share it with others. I’m so glad you found your way here, I really hope you’re able to find even moments of peace and hope admits to be chaos that can be this life. I really appreciate you, and this world needs you.💕

[@amymbeauty8765]

Another great reaction Becca. I love your reactions but it makes me so sad that so many people have to suffer and go through these things, simply because they are not believed to know their own damn bodies. I have been through it too, since the age of 20 when I found out I have an old person's arthritis that started in my spine. (Osteoarthritis not rheumatoid). It has slowly taken over my body(37 now) in so many ways, but because of my age, was never taken seriously. It has caused so many other things going wrong in my body it's ridiculous. But you and Ren are a bright light to those of us that know that struggle so thank you. Can't wait until you watch his video Crutch, but bring tissues lol.

[@BeccaDoss]

Sending love and compassion, friend. Take care of yourself.💕

[@danperry7019]

Your a reaction channel so I’d expect pauses and your opinions on the song - never stop doing what your doing - your channel is fabulous and I love your videos - much love and support ❤

[@BeccaDoss]

Really appreciate you taking time to say that, Dan. I think I let a handful of comments get to me a little bit, which is why I added the explanation in this video, but I’m glad to know there are people who feel the same way I do, because I’ve always appreciated reactors who pause when something strikes them. Your support means the world.💕

[@gletski7591]

glad you did this one ..he's amazing ❤

[@VynxeVainglory]

I like your energetic reactions and your effort to analyze what's happening in the music and lyrics. I feel that commentary like this is good for the music community, and I wish you success on this channel.

[@BeccaDoss]

That means so much to me, thank you deeply for your support. I’m just happy to be able to contribute anything to the mini others who are sharing awesome content as they react to these masterpieces.

[@ghazialwan8121]

Bless you. I hope you succeed in all your endeavors.

[@BeccaDoss]

🙏🏼Thank you, friend!

[@janegill-pl5kz]

It's so good to see a reaction that actually gets it and understands all of the layers and double meanings. Usually I don't like so many pauses, because the pauses and the commentary is often just not 'getting it', but your analysis, genuine understanding and heartfelt reaction is such a breath of fresh air. Its awesome to watch. Although, as you said about parts than make you feel uneasy in your reaction, also gives a sense of unease because it is just such an emotional response and we are witnessing you bring up uncomfortable emotions too and it feels very intimate. Can't wait for your next reaction. But also please make sure you hug yourself and know that many of us also wish you strength, happiness and peace. ❤️

[@BeccaDoss]

Jane, reading your words touched my heart in a way I’m struggling to put into words. Thank you so much. I’m really glad to know you were able to resonate with a lot of the emotions that were running high for me in this video; it was definitely an adventure and I can’t wait to keep digging into more. I really appreciate the reminder to make sure I’m taking care of myself, too, though. I can definitely fall victim to not giving myself the rest and recovery time I need, so trying to be more intentional about that. Very appreciative and thankful that you’re here!💕

[@williamhosang6374]

Awesome react vídeo Becca!

[@Crabby8]

This isn’t my favourite Ren song but I was gripped by your reaction. You’re really good at this and you should be really proud of yourself. I look forward to more of your reactions. Thank you

[@BeccaDoss]

Thank you so much! I’m so glad you were able to enjoy it even though it’s not typically your fave Ren track. Your words mean a lot to me, thanks for the encouragement!💕

[@Crabby8]

All good and credit where it’s due. I really loved your Hi Ren reaction too. I can’t imagine what you go through on a day to day basis but I’m so glad you have found a small slice of solace in Ren. I’m sure there are millions in the same boat. If you’re looking for something a bit lighter form him, Bitter Sweet Symphony is a lovely change of pace. I think you’d like that one. Other artists to delve in to at some point if you like hip hop are Mic Righteous and Lowkey from the uk. They’ve both been through all sorts but are the kings of lyricism and have a huge back catalogue. Very much on the conscious rap vibe, predominantly. Keep up the great work

[@barbaraarwine5156]

Love love your reaction and explanation. Please do "crutch" by Ren. It's pure emotion. Hey we love you. Keep your head up. You are important and you matter. Keep going!!

[@BeccaDoss]

Barbara, thank you so much! Crutch is definitely on the list, but it may be a little while before I can get to it. I just recorded Chalk Outlines (LIVE) I need to edit and upload that one next, but I think I’m gonna give myself and everyone else a little bit of a break from the hard-core emotional stuff and dig into some more of the upbeat rap stuff, but I will 100% to be making my way through everything, so thanks for mentioning that one again, I’ve definitely got it on the list of things to react to as soon as health allows. Really appreciate you stopping by!💕

[@willasacco9898]

I will stick to you through the whole journey. I’m 67 and experienced autoimmune disorder and horrendous side effects from prednisone in my teenager years.

[@BeccaDoss]

Willa, thank you so much! I understand that more than I can say; I only mention Lyme and a couple other things in this video, but I also was on massive doses of prednisone for a long time in high school and it messed me up for years…honestly still dealing with some side effects from it, as it sounds like you are. Thank you so much for your encouragement and support, I’m so happy to have you here!💕

[@willasacco9898]

@@BeccaDoss By the way, my name is Paul. The name you see is Willa, who was my wife. She passed away in July 2020, after many years of tremendous physical and mental suffering, including dementia. Most of my experience with the medical system has been positive, but watching the love of my life decline was like living in a mansion and watching the rooms slowly being shut. For a while, I felt like I was living in a small closet, of my own making. But, I’m much better now and you will be, as well.

[@BeccaDoss]

Paul, I am so sorry if my reply brought up and difficult emotions, thank you for letting me know for the future. I’m so sorry to hear about your loss, that’s a pain not matched by many/any. Dementia is a beast I wouldn’t wish on anyone or their families, and I ca guarantee you even when things started to slip, she knew your heart and felt your support and care. Sending you so much love and compassion, friend. I really appreciate you sharing your story (well, what I’m sure is a small part of it).💕

[@willasacco9898]

@@BeccaDoss I am well past the worst part of the grinding grief, deep depression and mental paralysis. I have read that there are new theories about autoimmune diseases- Does that have any relevance for you?

[@villainousreport9600]

Oh Becca what a lovely reaction, you can talk faster than I can think and I was enthralled throughout by you. Ren is such a groundbreaking diverse artist and I love his performances. I'd love you to react to the Jenny and screech trilogy (full version), although the subject matter is harrowing. Or something a bit more upbeat to lighten the mood is "Losing It" Fisher retake, which is fantastic also.

[@Lou-xq9br]

Great reaction Sending love ❣️

[@BeccaDoss]

Thanks so much, back at you!

[@markstuartwakeley]

Great reaction stay safe x

[@BeccaDoss]

Thank you! You too.💕

[@rickkiesewetter4037]

You explain it so PERFECT for anybody to understand. 10/10

[@BeccaDoss]

I’m so glad it’s able to help you understand it on a deeper level, thanks for letting me know!💕

[@AoifeConnollyMusic]

Just found your page from a recommendation on Rens page . Love your reactions! new subscriber here 😊

[@BeccaDoss]

Wow, thank you so much for taking time to check out my channel and leave such encouraging words, it really means a lot to me! This community is by far the most supportive community I’ve ever seen, online or offline.

[@AoifeConnollyMusic]

@@BeccaDoss your welcome and I totally agree. Here’s hoping Ren sees now 🤗

[@davidm6329]

Hey Becca! I've been watching your reactions to Ren's videos, and I think your perspective is really helpful as someone who has dealt with chronic illness, and who has seen the frustrating side of the healthcare system. I'm going to comment on the latter bit here, because I think it's important that there is discourse between people like yourself, and healthcare workers like me. I really understand the framing that the medical industry is just a machine that churns patients through rather than actually listening to them. In a lot of ways that's true. No matter what part of the industry we work in, we are trained to follow sets of protocols that are based on the prevailing scientific consensus of the time. We aren't encouraged to experiment or think too far outside the box that our training provides for us. That is to your benefit and detriment, because it means that we don't have very much license to experiment in ways that would seriously harm you, but we likewise can't experiment in ways that would help you. The human body is extremely complicated. We can fix broken bones and ruptured blood vessels fairly reliably, but when you get into neuropathology and psychopathology, you're dealing with a tangled web of illness, symptoms, treatments, and cures that can take decades to unravel for any given individual. There is the problem that some workers are just there to get paid. Some people go through the motions, and don't actually care about you as a patient. But a lot of us do care, and we are still hamstrung by the complexities of your case, our lack of knowledge as an industry, and the restrictions of our training and scope of practice. I want nothing more than to fix the problems of every patient that walks in my door. But sometimes it really is a question of pushing pills until one works, as people who have found eventual success with the right anti-depressant can attest. I'm someone who has been a life long sufferer of a binge eating disorder, depression, and anxiety. I see you. Your suffering does not go unnoticed by me. I hope that my reaching out does at least a tiny bit to restore some faith in healthcare professionals. From one human being to another, I want us all to find health and happiness.

[@BeccaDoss]

David, I took some time to reply to you because I wanted to make sure I had the brain power to say what I wanted to say, and to give you the response that you very clearly deserve. I’m still not sure I have the right words, but I’m gonna do my best. I first want to say thank you for the work that you do, and thank you for going into this profession with a very clear heart of wanting to help and heal people. I have no doubt in my mind that most people who enter the profession legitimately want to help, I’ve just had one too many experiences where I’ve seen those doctors push the side because the ones who are in it only for money, or only to make a name for themselves, or only to push medication‘s because of pharmaceutical companies, And that makes me really sad, actually. I am very fortunate to currently have some very amazing doctors and medical professionals that I’m working with, so I hope that my reactions and commentary here don’t come across as me attacking the medical profession and doctors as a whole, because that is absolutely never my intention. I literally would not be alive if not for some of the great doctors that I have had, and it’s very clear to me that you truly care about your work and every patient that you see, just based on the words that you shared here. So I wanted to thank you for sharing so much of your heart and mission as well, Because some people who have had negative experiences don’t end up being as fortunate as I have been to find some really great practitioners over the years, and I hope that if anyone in that position sees your comment, they’re able to have some of that faith restored a little bit, too. Reading your comment almost brought tears to my eyes, because the last thing I want is for any medical professional who is truly compassionate, caring, and desperate to help (even if their medical schooling isn’t designed for learning how to better help some of these more complex patients) to feel like I’m making a blanket statement that all doctors etc. are bad. I 100% do not believe that at all. When I say I appreciate you taking time to share everything that you typed, as well as taking time to watch some of my reactions to the songs of Ren’s, I mean that from the bottom of my heart and soul. That end of itself shows me that you are a much more caring compassionate practitioner than the bad apples I’ve encountered, who often just tend to be louder than the people who are in it to truly helping try to heal. I can feel your message and your mission in your words. I also know that even the best medical schools can’t be on the cutting edge research of everything, so I’m not even really complaining about the difficulties in working with complex patients. More than anything, the anger that I feel is directed at the doctors I have encountered, and that several of my friends have encountered, who have done nothing but laugh in their face and dismiss their very real concerns because it didn’t fit a very narrow preconceived notion of what they thought was right, and therefore they just try to throw pills to put a Band-Aid on symptoms. I’m also not anti-medication, whether for physical or mental health, I just don’t like the way that a lot of those types of practitioners I mentioned to him to be happy with throwing a Band-Aid of a pill at someone, and then when it doesn’t work, just continuing to stack more prescription medications on top of it. Dealing with Lyme automatically makes it difficult to navigate the medical field, because the CDC literally tries to deny the lift reality of millions of people because they know that it would cost too much to have to pay for care and treatment for the people that are sick from Lyme disease and co-infections who often went undiagnosed for years if not decades. But again, I want to thank you for the work that you do, and for your very apparent heart to help humans heal, even if you don’t have the exact answers at a particular point in time. Thank you again for taking time to type all of this out, I really value your perspective and appreciate The detail with which you shared. 💕

[@sundaygloom8715]

Genesis, crutch, penitence, chalk outlines, how to be me are all powerful and beautifully written songs. Losing it, hunger, what you want are more fun type songs if you feel like that vibe. Plus many others, those were just off the top of my head.

[@BeccaDoss]

Thank you so much for the list! I have several of those on my own list, but definitely didn’t have every one. And I love that you gave context for which ones are the more fun, upbeat type of vibe. I definitely plan on reacting to all the emotional stuff, but for my sake, and the sake of everyone watching, I’m trying to at least go back and forth every so often so things don’t seem to get too similar.

[@stevengeller829]

It is always good when reactors get into the songs and videos. It is something else when you see them, on a deep level, identifying with the content. I can’t imagine what it is like to be able to walk a mile in the shoes of someone going through these things. My best wishes, thoughts, prayers, much love and support.

[@BeccaDoss]

Thank you so much, this was an extremely kind comment and really touched my heart. I appreciate you.

[@patrickblack398]

I loved this response and subbed. Can’t wait to see your reaction to The Tale of Jenny and Screech (Full). It’s a trilogy that hits you right in the feels basket by the end.

[@BeccaDoss]

I’m so glad you enjoyed it! I’m definitely looking forward to that trilogy. I think I’ll have to alternate between the more emotional songs and the hardcore rap songs (or the feel-good songs of his or his band’s) to keep some kind of balance, but I’ve heard that trilogy is AWESOME.

[@mej6519]

i did give you a lil warning about sick boi and the therapy sessions, still a great reaction tho. i had a really agrogant and snarky therapist, which is why sick boi hit me the hardest. if you feel like you need to decompress after reacting to rens tougher stuff, may i suggest ren - what you want, and ren - losing it, both are just ren having a bit of fun.

[@BeccaDoss]

You definitely did! And go my goodness, you were right. I really loved it, but it was so intense and VERY relatable. I’m sorry you had to go through that with the snarky therapist, there’s never an excuse for that (I’ve had my own experience, too). Really appreciate the suggestions for some of the lighter/fun stuff-I actually didn’t have either of those on the list yet, but they will be now!

[@pvandewyngaerde]

I still watch this video at least once a week BECCAuse of how good it is. Its not just a reaction vid, its an experience.

[@BeccaDoss]

💕💕💕💕🫂🫂🫂🫂

[@pvandewyngaerde]

@@BeccaDoss and also this week.

[@BeccaDoss]

@@pvandewyngaerde 😊 Thanks for making me smile again, Peter. I’m so glad you’re able to keep going back to this one and getting something out of it.💕

[@pvandewyngaerde]

And also in 2024.

[@GregDaniel78]

From watching your moving reaction to Hi Ren, I am very impressed by how you used your own experiences to not only draw parallels, but to offer insight I had previously not thought of. That's the beauty of collectively discovering new artists via reaction channels. It allows you to take a fresh look at music you have only a passing aquaintance with, often foiling spotify's algorithm, serving up a whole new genre. As for Ren, there is nothing he can't do, from playing piano in a railway station, to acting his butt off as a modern travelling bard in the 'Jenny/Screech/Violet trilogy'. I would definitely take a look at the live version of "How to be Me" if you liked his Chinchilla duet.

[@BeccaDoss]

💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕

[@davidjames3080]

Great reaction Becca. No-one minds the pauses if you have something to add, I can assure you. I think a lot of reactors just pause so they don't get copyrighted and mumble a few words of how great this is, and people are bored of that. But you genuinely add to the reaction by articulating so well how much the song resonates with you. I think we all can relate at least a little bit to Ren's struggles, that's what makes him such a voice of the times. But for those who can more closely relate to Ren's struggles, it's heartwarming to see such a connection and provide a bit of hope that they are not just a lone voice in the dark.

[@BeccaDoss]

This means more than I can say right now, David, thank you so much.💕

[@dukecunning7046]

Love your Shirt! (and your reaction!) 🙂

[@MrSDegnan]

Great insight once again! And please, keep inserting those pauses to add your take on the music you're reacting to. "I've been screaming, I've been shouting, but I never make a sound" also seems to allude to him bringing up concerns with his therapists, and feels like they weren't listening. The "psychologist" in this song seems to cut Ren off as if she needs to get her point out without listening to him; this also links to your catch towards the end of the song.

[@BeccaDoss]

Excellent point about that line and the therapist thing as a whole. Gah, SO many layers with this guy! Chilling, and masterfully done.

[@moonfyps9307]

Hello Becca, I just watched your reaction to "Hi Ren" and it makes me happy to see that the next Ren reaction is already up. This will be the second time that I see one of your videos, but I subscribed right after the first one. Really powerful reaction. I can tell that you are a wonderful person. I bet the suggestions will be a ton, but I highly recommend "Ren X Chinchilla - Chalk Outlines (live)" I'm obsessed with Ren since I discovered him like a week ago, ngl. :D He became my favorite artist in no time. Greetings from Germany 🙂 Edit: Nvm, just finished this video, powerful reaction again, and I'm glad that you are planning to do Chalk Outlines next. 😊

[@BeccaDoss]

I’m so glad you’ve enjoyed the reactions so far, that means so much to me, thank you! And yes! Chalk Outlines has already been recorded, I’m just waiting for health to cooperate so I can edit and upload it. I’m so glad you’ve fallen down the rabbit home of his music and that it’s been helpful for you-I can’t wait to get into even more of it, including the wide variety of genres and style I know he covers. So thankful you’re here, and your support on this little channel means the world to me! Looking forward to connecting more!💕

[@apexblyxx]

Once again your reaction amazes me. I know what being mis-diagnosed feels like. Took them 18 years to Diagnose my MS

[@BeccaDoss]

I’m so, so sorry you had to suffer for so many years before they actually found an answer. That is never okay. I’m glad you have an answer now, though I know the relief of having an answer also comes with a lot of pain and uncertainty about that answer and life in general, so I’m holding space for that duality of emotion. I hope you’ve been able to get to a place where it’s managed as best as can be. And I really appreciate you taking time to share this.🩷

[@FaerieCastle]

Fabulous reaction once again! For a lighter listen but a song that shows off his flow, I can’t wait for you to react to The Hunger!

[@BeccaDoss]

Thank you so much, Tracy! I recorded Chalk Outlines a few days ago, but once I’m able to get that edited and uploaded, I was actually planning to do The Hunger next! I’ve heard a few people say her goes off with the rhyme schemes and flows in the one, and I’m honestly buzzing with excitement just thinking about it (or is my nervous system just in the fritz? Who’s to say?😉😂).

[@PeteFindsObscureStuff]

Fantastic reaction Becca. Sad that you have such a great insight to the track but it adds such a great perspective to this song. Lots of Ren's tracks mentioned by other commenters include references to his struggles but are not as heavy as this and Hi Ren. In fact, Ren drops more Easter Eggs than the Easter Bunny throughout his catalogue. Tons of fun stuff as well. Looking forward to following your journey with Ren and The Big Push Take care. Best wishes from the UK

[@BeccaDoss]

I’m really looking forward to digging into the wide array of music he has out there, I have a feeling I’m only going to love him more and more, and I’m blown away by how supportive this community/fan base it. Unlike any other I’ve seen. Really appreciate your support as I take this journey!💕

[@michaelmardling3152]

On his birthday March 29th, he is supposed to release a new song also

[@BeccaDoss]

I’ve heard a few people say that-I can’t wait! Really excited to see what’s coming! 😊💕

[@greenogre22]

well, i wish you all the best and health and luck and better doctors, but please don‘t stop so often. it‘s really good having you picture us the reality of lyme-disease as you had it, but not after every 5 seconds, because after your first emotional explanations it‘s clear and we are ready to follow ren because he explains the same issues through his music and own experience. see, we hear the same like you and we know that you can hear it as well so there‘s no need for you to repeat what can be heard after every few seconds.

[@richarddancer-w8c]

I had no doubt this would your reply----and talking about your medications is in a fairly [ safe zone ]

[@garychap8384]

Hi Becca, one of your best Ren reactions yet! I took the last line a little differently, possibly because I've seen his other work and there's a lot of theme overlap. I think the _"while I'm bleeding, I'm the reason, cus I'm doing the same"_ is referencing that, whilst he's just said the world is sick with greed and commoditisation, he's also commoditising himself. I think this makes more sense after viewing _"Money game"_ (Parts 1 and 2) in which he identifies that we are all complicit, we're all part of the same 'money game' BTW, if you're a rap nerd you MUST check out : "losing it" _(So many amazing flows, a real showcase and lots of humour)_ , "The hunger" _(a personal statement piece)_ and "What you want" _(super-happy, feelgood retro hiphop)_ And... back in the MH vibe : "Genesis (live video version)" _(A very metaphor-rich piece about personal pain and his frustrated beginnings)_ ... Ren can really "RAP" rap ... it'll surprise you ; ))))) Dammit, why can't I subscribe twice? You never cease to amaze me. Thanks, keep being you!

[@BeccaDoss]

I totally agree that’s another layer of meaning for that last line-thanks for taking time to share all of this here! Definitely looking forward to digging into Money Game 1&2 in the future. Thanks for the insight! I saw you ended up finding my reaction to The Hunger, and I’m so glad you enjoyed it-a lot of people have been recommend Losing It, Genesis, What You Want, and Power, so the next time I’m recording any rap track, I may out another poll out on the community tab to help me decide the order. I can’t wait to get to all of them, eventually, but it’s just gonna take some time. I have a reaction to Dominoes filmed, and that was extremely emotional and cathartic, so I was thinking about doing another fun rap track after that, but depending on how I’m able to edit, etc, my next one may have to be his new track dropping, which I have NO DOUBT is going for be straight FIRE. Really appreciate you! Your last sentences made me smile.😁

[@shaishannahbennett8055]

Wow, I love love loved your reaction, one of the uppermost best I've seen, you are a very special human being, extremely aware, heartfelt, empathic, compassionate woman, you are a real human...Stay you....Stay aware...Stay true. I know you see the agenda, more people are....I came across Ren as I found an article about his Lyme Disease, as I have 'now' late stage Chronic Lyme Disease, (contracted 3 and 1/2 years ago now, I'm in the UK) MCAS, S.I.B.O, Fibromyalgia, Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, and quite a few more to that list 😪 I'm still mostly bedridden/housebound, live alone with my beautiful 3 cats and it's so tough, I have lost faith and trust in the medical prof (I could say so much but I won't, I'll be typing a book here lol 😝) I'm so moved by your reaction, as you are spot on I feel in your interpretations, because of your awareness of that sector of this world due to your own Chronic illness. You too are changing lives and sending a beautiful ripple of truth, fuelled by your heart power out into the world and beyond, thank you for your service to the light..I know it's tough at times, to continue to be that light, I know this myself, I was a divine spark for many years (54 now) But these illnesses have ravaged me, and like you said 'sucked the life right out of me' I'm devastated about that. My friend even said my eyes don't sparkle like they used to 😭 I watched your reaction to 'HI Ren' also and that was another amazingly insightful reaction, thank you, I cried at both, what a release. I better stop here...In gratitude to Ren, and you for gracing our beautiful planet with your presence..Much love and goodness 💝💝💝

[@BeccaDoss]

I’ve not been able to find words to adequately convey how much this comment touched me on a soul level-from the bottom of my heart, thank you for your kindness and encouragement, and thanks for being an awesome human.💕

[@shaishannahbennett8055]

@@BeccaDoss 🥰❤‍🩹

[@TheMessengerMichael]

The break line breaks me too. Every fix, meds or whatever, give you hope and feels like it breaks you every more each time you trust. It's so sad. And it sucks, and I understand.

[@BeccaDoss]

I’m sorry you understand so well, but I’m thankful you took time to let me know you resonated with it, as well. Connection heals in more ways than I think we often realize.

[@TheDougMan]

Wonderful and insightful reaction. I’m glad you enjoyed it so. Your upcoming videos are good choices. Take a look at “What You Want” or “Losing It” for a more fun change of pace.

[@c4stlevania]

Best reaction to Sick Boi on KZbin, ✌🏻❤️positivity 🇬🇧

[@BeccaDoss]

Thanks so much, I’m really glad you were able to enjoy and connect with it. Take care of yourself.💕

[@graceydez6199]

Seconded. ❤

[@Maugrim76]

Wow... nice reaction. I get you, Ren is so interpersonal with his art. It sure does resonates well. I don't suffer from lyme disease but had a freaky encounter with CoV19 in 2021 that almost claimed my life, so I recognize the pain, being a human in recovery. Your personality is fantastic.

[@BeccaDoss]

Thank you so much, I’m really glad to know you were able to enjoy it. That encounter with Covid in 2021 sounds terrifying, and I’m so sorry you had to go through that. I’m also very glad that you did make it through and are still here today. But I know that there are definitely long lasting problems that can come along with that, as well, especially if it was a pretty rough case, so I hope you’ve been able to find ways to feel better, or at least find moments of hope and peace amidst this life of chaos. I can’t put into words how much your last sentence means to me; after my most recent relapse with this eating disorder started in 2021, the worst it had been in 10 years, I really lost a lot of my personality and didn’t think that I had even started getting it back, so when I say that your comment on my personality means more than I can put into words, it means a whole heckuva lot more than I can even find an adequate adjective for. Like, you almost brought me to tears in a good way, so thank you for taking time to not just watch but type this comment. Really appreciate you.💕

[@Kenai2008]

Enjoyed the reaction, I can see your passion when you discuss your experiences and relations to the music ... stay strong young lady. I have found Ren's music very cathartic. You will enjoy some of Ren's rap. "Genesis "(deep), "Hunger" (fun Hip-Hoppy), "Losing It" (fun ... more EDM-ish). I think "Genesis"feels like Ren's true pocket. The two duet's with Chinchilla are very good, emotional: "Chalk Outlines", "How to be me", both off these have deep back-stories. Keep on keeping on.

[@BeccaDoss]

Thanks Mike! I’m so glad my passion for all of this come across through the screen, sometimes I worry it either seems low energy, or the opposite: forced. But the truth is, I couldn’t fake excitement or sadness or anything else-I’m historically awful at hiding my true emotions, and also at trying to exaggerate them, so this is literally the same reaction I had of watching these with no intent to film. Even the explanations are what I’d pause and share with my husband, if I show him a video or something. All that to say, it really makes me smile that the emotion is able to be felt-I really enjoy the whole process, and Ren in particular just has SUCH a unique gift I don’t think I’ve seen from anyone else. Can’t wait to get into all of those songs you mentioned as health allows me to record and edit/upload! 💕

[@belindamelville2270]

Ren 🥰👏👏👏

[@BeccaDoss]

💯💯💕💕