Fear of NO Return if You Start Gender Transition!

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[@Its_Swiplox]

The matrix is actually written by two transwomen, who were at the time still living in their AGAB.

[@DRZPHD]

Yup!

[@SunIsLost]

Eeyup

[@SunIsLost]

That's dope!

[@gaeltt9865]

I had no idea! Nice to know, though

[@Shalanaya]

Yes if you observe more carefully, you may notice that you are attracted to other trans people without realizing it, over the years I have even devekiped an ability to tell who is trans before they even knew it about themselves, which is what scares some people, because it can make them assume they need to transition, no it means they were born with this same neurobiological composition of the body, whether they transition is another matter.

[@EmmaHopman]

The best analogy I have heard about transitioning relates very closely to the two pills. "I'd rather be an enemy of the world than an enemy of myself" - and I think this is exactly what Neo chose in the Matrix. This quote has been perfect for me overcoming my fear of judgement and even taking big steps towards listening to my inner voice and taking it seriously.

[@DRZPHD]

🙌🔥🫶

[@michaelalvidrez]

@@DRZPHD please I really need your advice I was talking to a straight guy at the end of the class semester and I approached a guy that I like but he said your a man and he said I’m not gay but I felt affended and that shit can be so hard because he doesn’t know I have gender dysphoria and that was fucked up because he said your a man and I’m not gay and he was laughing but all I was just doing was having a conversation with him that’s all.

[@michaelalvidrez]

Please I’m just curious what should I do because I felt scared about that and I don’t like the body that I was naturally born in and that is my real gender dysphoria that I have that but I was absolutely terrified it felt like I was in a night mare

[@michaelalvidrez]

@@DRZPHDand I felt like shit when he was saying that I felt embarrassed and that shit was very fucked up because he doesn’t know my own insecurities and imagine he was pointing it out and he was judging me like a picture book but the next time, do u have any better advice how should I not let that negative comments affect me all the time

[@michaelalvidrez]

@@DRZPHDbecause how should I not let that judgemental people like that get to me but I didn’t tell him that I was born in the wrong body because he doesn’t know he was clueless.

[@LarryPhischman]

I'm coming up on 5 months on MTF HRT. I'm not socially transitioning yet, instead focusing on my mental health as I build a new person on the foundation left behind by decades of severe dissociation and depersonalization. And I'm confident that I would not still be here if I hadn't started HRT when I did. I was done, my symptoms were too severe and I couldn't bare the weight of all the years I lost. Now I feel better than I have in my entire life. My body is changing in beautiful ways, I have a hair transplant in a week, and I have real hope for my future. I might be turning into one of those annoying happy people.

[@DRZPHD]

So glad to hear you are feeling better.

[@ericfreshcorn3590]

Do You Have A BoyFriend?

[@sheilalynn3615]

So, I socially transitioned 4yrs ago, but only started hrt and facial changes in the last year. I wanted to see if I could survive social transition before starting hrt. I have been working at Sephora for two years, my dream job. Don't wait to long to social transition girl, for me it has been a great journey. Peace Sheila

[@LarryPhischman]

@@sheilalynn3615 I'm going to start when my face finally starts to change and my hair transplant grows in. Probably this winter. I'm 34, so changes do not come quickly.

[@LarryPhischman]

@@ericfreshcorn3590 I'm not even remotely interested in men. And I still look like a guy, at least while fully clothed.

[@DrayseSchneider]

Studying the philosophy of The Matrix and reading about the writers played a large role in reminding me that I was trans. Despite people in my life that insisted otherwise. If I had been but a little stronger.... Of course the far right had mis-appropriated the whole "red pill" theme. So glad to see you reclaiming it! 😊

[@DRZPHD]

Love Matrix and the creators are brilliant.

[@FrozEnbyWolf150]

Obviously what you do is crush up both pills and snort them, like in the XKCD comic.

[@fiamedknuff]

Interesting video as always. I didn't have a fear of no return. The point of no return was the very moment I stopped lying to myself and accepted myself. My inability to accept myself wasn't based on fear, but a belief that I didn't deserve to be a woman and that my thoughts and feelings wasn't important. Once I got passed that toxic belief, I fully embraced fully transitioning immediately. There was no turning back. I had wanted to be a girl/woman since early childhood and being seen as male had only brought me pain and unhappiness.

[@DRZPHD]

Glad to hear you decided to move forward!

[@gaeltt9865]

Actually, same for me: the point of no return was the moment I stopped lying to myself and accepted myself. I was shouting RED PILL RED PiLL all the time throughout the video. LOL

[@blackjack90631]

I opened up with HR at work and Im scheduled for a weeklong mandatory transgender/transition work trip. The trip is in December and when I return, they will notify my boss, and that will kind of be my point of no return. It’s pretty intimidating and surreal, but I keep telling myself to focus on the benefits.

[@DRZPHD]

Wish you all the best.

[@tinaann3323]

Dr z, being a truly trans woman, it’s hard for me to understand why other trans folks are afraid of no return. I mean, I’ve known all my life since age 5. Yes, I did live the manly life trying to convince myself that I could push her away. She only came back stronger than ever. I have been transitioning for over 10 years. It doesn’t have to occur over night. But, I can tell you positively and without doubt, that I could never look back. I’m so so happy now. I’ve had FFS, Breast Aug, and of course been HRT for all ten years. I was scared to death! I would literally shake and cry for weeks. In the end, I had to please me. But, what if I lost friends, my wife, my kids or other family. Well, I have lost friends and family. I’m divorced and my adult daughters will not talk to me (their supposedly mad at me). So, are there sacrifices. YES! BIG ONES. But they don’t have to live my life. I have new friends (not involved in LGBT). In 9 months I’ll have SRS with one of the leading Dr’s in the field. My thought was that if your truly “TRANS”(trans-sexual) you could never look back. Or I guess why would you be afraid of not being able to go back. Ya know, there is a BS saying that says “nothing worth having is easy”. In this case, it’s absolutely true. It’s a struggle, a fight, a marathon. But it gets so much easier as you move ahead. Im living a normal life now and could not be happier. Keep fighting girls!!!

[@DRZPHD]

Thanks for sharing.

[@GabbieAbbie]

I chose me, i chose to transition. 40 years of anguish, fear and confusion... there's no way i can live that way any longer. ❤

[@DRZPHD]

Bravo!

[@finallythere100]

Get God. 🙏

[@philiphanan1493]

Same. I came out as transgender five days before my 41st birthday and took my first Estrogen pills.

[@gordonhaveron11]

Excellent content as always! Thank you. Your videos have been very beneficial for me. I struggled from age 4, now at 44 I'm on HRT and I'm going to be The real me full time soon. Sadly my Wife will not stay with me, and she wants to wait until our children are settled in their new home before I change full time. However she supports me and wants to remain friends. Sorry for such a long message! Thank you! Vivienne. Xxx.

[@julianwebb1893]

4444. Thanks for the synchronicity

[@DRZPHD]

Sorry to hear about your wife. Glad to hear you are making decision to better your health.

[@Valerie_Valkyrie315]

In my experience the fear was just another method to keep from starting. There is no sure thing in life but you KNOW who you are. I can also say that starting HRT was the best thing I ever did in my life both for my mental health and my overall well being. By not stating you are delaying your own joy. I couldn't even meet people because i felt like I was gaslighting them, now I am dating a really great guy that I would never have met if I hadn't started living as myself in spite of the problems that may cause. I saw something recently "The sooner you start living as yourself, the sooner those who are looking for you will find you." Do it. You will be so glad you did!

[@DRZPHD]

Thanks for sharing.

[@cory99998]

It's really hard being male when I know im not in every interaction. Like how am I supposed to built any sort of connection with this person?

[@pinkflamingo_2080]

Dr Z always has good timing with my struggles. My fear of no return is currently with coming out to my extended family. I know my identity and I know that I struggle with dysphoria but coming out makes it all more real. I think this is why I went back into the closet for five years, only to discover that Dysphoria is not going to go away.

[@DRZPHD]

One step at a time. Wish you all the best.

[@RedJadeArt]

I’m like - deep enough in my transition at this point that this “point of no return” talk doesn’t scare me. GOOD. I HOPE THERE IS NO RETURN XD I want to be buried as a woman thanks!

[@DRZPHD]

🤣👍💯🫶

[@JoeBadoe19]

I've had this "fear of no return" conversation with myself for over a year even though I've known I'm transgender for a long time now. My first HRT appointment with a doctor is tomorrow and I've been very anxious all weekend. Thank you so much for this video. I've listened to it three times today, and it's exactly what I needed to hear.

[@DRZPHD]

Wishing you all the best! Nothing to be nervous about.

[@FrozEnbyWolf150]

My biggest fear is that nothing will happen, nothing will change, and I'll be stuck the same way no matter what I do. I'm genderfluid and my identity is defined by change, so having things stay the same is very frustrating. It's been difficult to maintain realistic expectations since starting HRT, which has caused the dysphoria to increase because nothing has happened so far. For me though, the "point of no return" would be giving up. I'm in it for the long haul. I've already waited several decades to transition, so I can afford to be patient.

[@nikk6435]

same, the fear that it won't help and that the hope you have today won't be here anymore. I'm also genderfluid, or bigender. how do you navigate genderfluidity with HRT? if you want to answer of course

[@DRZPHD]

Totally hear your fear and hope you get clarity on your decision.

[@FrozEnbyWolf150]

@@nikk6435 When it comes to patients on the nonbinary spectrum, there is no predesignated medical transition or course of HRT. Ideally each individual has to work it out with their doctors and figure it out as they go. It helps if your state has informed consent policies. Some nonbinary people will transition all the way, others will go on HRT for a while and stop once they get the desired changes, and others won't medically transition at all.

[@SpiritoftheWoods863]

You are way cooler than Morpheus! He was pretty rad too 😉 Great analogy Dr Z, some conspiracy theories say it was about being trans. Like Sense8 the Wachowski's did. Subversive 😮 Before starting HRT and transition, my Gender therapist used to say "Once you let the Genie out of the bottle, there's no putting it back in". Struggling with accepting being trans, and embracing it has been the hardest part for me- by far. Still is sometimes. It's funny in a strange kind of way how we (me) will do anything to avoid the truth. Excuses/denial etc.. Keep up the fabulous work for us, you are a 🎁 for our community,. And, big hugs 🫂 of support for everyone on here. 🏳️‍⚧️🇨🇦

[@DRZPHD]

Thank you and thanks for sharing.

[@Frankie343]

I'm starting hormones and I'll am nervous. Thx for the video ❤

[@DRZPHD]

Wish you all the best.

[@brianr6704]

I’m 61 years old. I started taking baby steps when I was 58 with micro dosing estrogen. Then I started full dosage HRT about six months later. My next baby step was an orchiectomy. Today I’m jumping off the cliff in a few hours. I’m having breast augmentation surgery! This step is the scariest for me because once I do this I won’t be able to hide anymore. Today I’m taking the “Red Pill”!

[@DRZPHD]

Wishing you all the best!

[@robindz8502]

Given who wrote and produced Matrix, it is no surprise it is full of metaphors and why it speaks so strongly to us trsnsgender people. I have watched the first movie more than once. My favorite line comes from mouse? I think it was his name. But he said "to deny your impulses, is to deny your own humanity " it might not be exactly like that, but it is the correct message. In my case, the day I started HRT was the point of no return, despite transition begun with acceptance (in my view), and that takes years and even a lifetime prior to it

[@DRZPHD]

Matrix is brilliant.

[@randirosehooper8315]

You are hundred percent right Dr Z. Living the old way brought nothing new to my life. But transition has brought the gift of finding new ways for me to be. Thank you so much for your insight!

[@DRZPHD]

So so happy for you!

[@randirosehooper8315]

@@DRZPHD thank you so much

[@toryalsip]

I went through decades of struggle with self-acceptance, and throughout that time more than once I was faced with that choice of keeping things the same vs. truly accepting my gender identity and making real steps towards changing my life. Each time I chose to keep things the same, the struggle became more difficult as the weight of stagnation grew heavier and as a side-effect I was still changing anyways but into someone very unpleasant. The last time I came to that crossroads was in 2019 when I had a complete mental breakdown, and as the dust settled from that the question resurfaced but in a rather different tone. Almost like I was pleading or bargaining with myself to stop making the same mistake and just for once in my life take a chance. That was the turning point, when I chose self-love over self-hate and embraced my truth. There was still a lot of work to do after that, but it could not have happened without taking that first step. I don't look at it as an absolute "point of no return" or something dramatic like that, but more "sure I could turn back, but why would I want to do that?" Many of my friends, colleagues, and family have witnessed the contrast between the old me and the new and there is no question that my life is objectively better as the woman I am now than the man I never really was in the first place.

[@DRZPHD]

Thank you for sharing!

[@FranParadiso]

Dr. you are giving me the red pill

[@Pathfinder11]

I have top surgery in a few days after 15 years of uncertainty and fear. I’m scared but doing it anyway. Wish me luck and courage. 🙏🏼

[@silvanvanderhorst7366]

It's funny that you mention the Matrix, because that movie was written by two transwomen and was confirmed by them to actually be a metaphor for gender dysphoria, with the pill scene reflecting both the cracking of one's egg and the choice to move forward with transition (I even heard the pill of truth was red because that was the color of estrogen medication for transwomen in the 90s at the time)

[@molly_wonder]

I'm currently dealing with the reality that I'm a transgender woman, even though I know I'm not a man and I never was one but it is soo hard for me to change everything and for that your videos help me tremendously in my way to accept myself. I wanna transition and if I could do it now I definitely would but since I live in a country that hate a lot on us I can't, I feel hopeless and shame but seeing this and how many people are in our side brings me energy to keep up until I reach my goal, thanks a lot greetings from Paraguay.

[@PHDADHDTranshuman]

I love you, this one feels to be one of the most powerful messages, because it brings reality

[@Blixthearsonist]

Sometimes, you just need someone to break it down into bite-sized truth nuggets that your ego just can't deny. I love a good analogy - thank you!

[@DRZPHD]

Yes, I agree.

[@philiphanan1493]

I literally can’t return. I am Intersex and Hyperestrogenism caused my body to transition for three and a half years already. At least with Estrogen, I’m transitioning faster, look more Feminine, and treating my symptoms of Menopause.

[@braixeninfection6312]

For me there is no return. I've accepted long ago when I started to transition that I couldn't go back. I had nothing left in my previous life. Nothing to return to. I know I would just end up dead if I tried to return to it. So I pursued transition hard. Made amazing changes and never want to return. I know this is the right path for me as I become happier with myself and life. I had some doubts when first starting but have worked through them long ago. No longer do I want to return to my previous life except for the lie that it would be easier. Transitioning is actually the easier path for me. I have nothing left to try and return to and my family and partner are happy with me as I am. I have no one in my life that wants me to go back to who I was as they see who I am today.

[@DRZPHD]

Wishing you all the best.

[@braixeninfection6312]

@@DRZPHD Thank you!

[@Cradle2dagrav]

Since making the plunge towards transition I feel a million times better. I haven't had a suicidal thought since and I feel better about myself overall. It's not easy by any means and HRT doesn't just cure dysphoria but it is much more manageable than before. I'm never going back to my cis gender and will happily live the rest of my days as a woman.

[@DRZPHD]

So glad to hear you are doing better!

[@name_o_person]

Hi Dr.Z, your content has helped me feel comfortable with my decision to transition. I'm having difficulty with accepting how long it took for me to get here. I knew when I was young, but representation in the local community didn't exist. I had no role model. It was even harder to participate in community events being a very masculine presenting asexual AMAB individual around gay men and what might be TERFy lesbians. I understand that there are many people in the community that are hurt by cishet men and I looked like an intruder. How can I advocate for the AMAB like me? How can I cope with the LGBTQ+ community being my barrier to earlier self acceptance?

[@DRZPHD]

Hi and I am sorry to hear of your struggles. I would suggest surrounding yourself with support and people who are there for you.

[@AngelicNTT]

Hi I'm a trans woman and been out a few years. I came out for myself not for the people I informed. I know it's a scary prospect and there are transphobic people out there. It's kinda funny that there are people that appose strongly to people that have no impact on their own lives. Maybe it's their own insecurity these people should focus on rather than put down people to find own self worth. Anyway, out or not you have value and one life. Live it the way that's right for you. So as for fear? Is it scary? Yep. If it's transphobes stopping you, well it's none of their business. I found more people supportive than opposed. People found it strange at first but it only took a short adjustment period for them and myself and now its my life and just getting on with my life. Maybe it's a hurdle that once crossed your future awaits. Personally it had to happen as living untrue to myself became so unbearable that I had no choice but to come out. My point is I took the red pill and went down the rabbit hole and the best thing I ever did. I can't go back cos I'm internally at home with myself and would never deny myself the true true me. No one can/will ever take me away from me. It's a journey and a very long one but transitioning has a beginning, middle and the rest of your liberated life.

[@DRZPHD]

This is such a beautiful and very good solid advice! Thank you for sharing this with others.

[@AngelicNTT]

@@DRZPHD hi Dr z a while back I asked a question that due to predictive text made no sense. The question was supposed to read- is intersex solely determined by genitals alone. Or are other physical possible development issues also a considered factor?

[@AngelicNTT]

@@DRZPHD hi Dr z a while back I asked a question that due to predictive text made no sense. The question was supposed to read- is intersex solely determined by genitals alone. Or are other physical possible development issues also a considered factor?

[@Christine_Robyn]

My therapist has always said that I am stuck between a rock and a hard place when it comes to deciding to transition. I chose the Red Pill. 55 years of the same dysphoric cycles and the accompaning stress and unhealthy coping practices is played out for me.

[@DRZPHD]

Thank you for sharing.

[@matthewsnively9849]

I took the plunge a year ago after decades of not feeling like I was a man. My wife is also supportive, but cannot stay in our marriage for her own sanity. We are working on our relationship and are not quite sure what it will look like but we still love each other and spend time together as friends. I’m not quite sure about my long term commitment to the transition because of my inability to let go of my relationship with her, but I do realize that detransitioning is always an option. You will only know if this path is right for you if you give it a try.

[@DRZPHD]

Wishing you all the best.

[@marradka2584]

I’m MTF. And I am going to go all the way in my transition. I’ve been on hormones, and I’ve had some bottom surgery. Next I’m going to have body feminization surgery with abdominoplasty and fat transfer to my hips and buttocks. I’ve changed my name, and my gender marker (on all my documents). My gender dysphoria is unbearable. I’m lucky to live in a state with good insurance that covers most of my transition. But I am terrified that I won’t pass. I’ve tried to social transition, but not passing was just too hard, so I’m living in boy mode. I told my partner that I’m going to go all the way and do every procedure. And that I hope I will pass. But I told her that of I end up being unable to pass after I get all the surgeries, and do all the voice therapy, and all the other things, that if I end up Not being able to pass, then I’m going to commit suicide because I can’t cope with all the transphobia that is out there in society. She said she understands, and that she will forgive me if in the end I decide to commit suicide. Is passing possible if I have the resources, good insurance, and I put in a lot of effort? I’m in my 40’s, so my age is against me. How likely is being able to eventually pass after I finish all the steps?

[@LuizCarlos-cg3qc]

Beautiful Cat 😻

[@marti7343]

I have been on HRT for over eight months. I do not fear no return if I take more steps in my transition. My fear is that if I somehow find a way to take more steps like surgeries in my transition it will not turn out well - I will never reach my goals that includes being passable. If somehow I could know how it will turn out I would feel much better about taking further steps. For it is not a fear of no return, it is a fear of the unknown and being unable to tolerant the uncertainty. I do think this is some kind of excuse. The reality is I cannot know if I will like what I see after spending years and treasure on an unrealistic goal. The best way I can think of handing this is take it slow. I am older and do not have much time, but going into this rapidly would be a mistake. I may never get to where I want to be, but I am glad at least in how far I have come.

[@DRZPHD]

Sorry to hear of your fears.

[@Shalanaya]

What matters is how it makes you feel being self embodied for the first time, passing means fitting into a standard set up by the cultures, I understand it can be important for safety, bur besides that it can become a vanity, whats important is how you pass for yourself, how the chage in the body allows you to express yourself more freely.

[@marti7343]

Yes, I often hear from other trans people what you say. However, for me it is not about vanity. Maybe about fitting in since my passing is associated with not making people uncomfortable with me and my feeling I am not standing out as freak in their minds not matter how supportive they may seem. I think who you are is partly a reflection of how other people see you. It is not everything. Certainly how you feel about your identity and body is paramount. For me, when I match that with my gender expression and also can add that is how other people perceive me, that is the most affirming.@@Shalanaya

[@robynrox]

I took the red pill after having lived my life as a trans woman already for about 18 months, so i knew it was the right decision for me. I don't even know if you can access cross sex hormones in the UK without going through some real life experience. For me, the decision was easy, and as much as we have become political footballs, I have no regrets. I am significantly happier. That's what it's all about. If I had not? In that case, i would be a trans person who had not transitioned. Clearly there was enough internal pressure for me to transition, as I did. I remember deciding not to transition and I couldn't live with the sadness, so I changed my mind. Perhaps if someone is on the fence, they could try a little real life experience first as you can return from that.

[@DRZPHD]

Thanks for sharing.

[@facelessmortal9621]

I’m transmasc non-binary, and I’ve been thinking about medical transition for a few years now. I actually did go on topical testosterone for half a month back in March, but I stopped because I got cold feet. Now, I don’t exactly suffer from gender dysphoria (though I have been diagnosed with it in the past since I have a strong want to be a different gender than what I am now), and I guess that’s the reason why I stopped. Because I was scared of the things I was technically okay with about myself changing. What if, when my voice lowers, it turns out that I miss being able to speak in a higher register and begin to experience distress? I don’t *love* my voice, but I don’t exactly hate it, either. I guess the thing that bothers me the most is how I’m perceived, by society and by myself. I know that, if I don’t transition, I will always be seen as a woman, and the fact that I walk around with the label “non-binary” while looking like a woman will just have people thinking I’m “woman-lite” (which is basically why I slightly prefer the term “trans” over “non-binary” for myself). I don’t want that. And when I look at myself in the mirror, I don’t see a “woman”, but I do see my non-masculine, non-androgynous features. Things I don’t want. I know for sure that I want top surgery in the future, but I’ve struggled with whether I want to go on testosterone since I first considered it. But I don’t want to back down now. I have an appointment with Planned Parenthood next week to hopefully put me back on testosterone. I’m willing to put up with and deal with and/or embrace the changes that will come along with the ones I want, because I know I can’t pick and choose what I’ll get.

[@DRZPHD]

Thanks for sharing!

[@mythornshaveroses6472]

Is it really a fear of no return, or is it more likely to be a fear of the fear itself? It makes perfect sense to be afraid of the unknown, uncertain of the future or of the possibility that we will be rejected.

[@DRZPHD]

I think it could be either or both.

[@grlatheart1]

I LOVE your necklace!

[@DRZPHD]

Thank you. It’s the latest addition to my style.

[@JAMIEB22649]

Dr. How do I deal with feeling like being female part of the time yet still connect with being Amab? This is kind of new well at least within the last year . Looking back there were little hints but nothing like this before a couple of years ag o if you would have asked me I would said i am cis.

[@s.4760]

I'm ready to go past the point , but I can't get any one to return my calls or emails to have electrolysis to remove facial hair. I've spent almost 2 yrs and $1200 on laser hair removal that hasn't worked. I had to stop hormones and transition. It's absolutely pissed me off that I can't move forward.

[@DRZPHD]

I am so sorry to hear. That’s terrible.

[@sheilalynn3615]

Hi Dr Z, actually the blue pill 💊 is the estradiol, just saying. Seriously though, you are a treasure, thank you. Peace Sheila

[@DRZPHD]

🫶❤️

[@Yootzkore]

Trans lore says - and I'd love to have confirmation for that! - that The Matrix came out at a time before bioidentical estrogens were widely available, back when transgender women used Premarin... which sometimes comes in dark red, oval-shaped pills. The red pill has always been estrogen 😁

[@sheilalynn3615]

@@Yootzkore WOW you're probably right girl. Although, the estradiol I take twice a day is definitely blue. So it's my only reference. Thanks, peace Sheila

[@filmvisionary]

Hi Dr. Z! I made a video about The Matrix that covers the many many trans allegories of the film. I'd be honored to hear your thoughts because I've been so inspired by your wisdom! And to anyone reading, please let me know if I missed anything :) kzbin.info/www/bejne/fZ-7Y6N3jM6tgMk

[@AzariahPerkins]

Red Pill

[@Voovooze]

You’re cute Dr Z 🙂

[@Brian.8272]

I’m really curious if feminizing hormones would help with the confusion

[@DRZPHD]

Hi, personally, I think any confusion should be clarified with therapist before getting into medical treatment.

[@Brian.8272]

@@DRZPHD ive been in therapy for 16 years, so im ready to try hormones, but my wife will probably divorce me

[@DanielleAdamstranspride]

I always had the fear of the right wingers taking over and forcing us to go back

[@_mels_hellscape_]

funny enough, the matrix was written by 2 transgender women

[@DRZPHD]

Yup 🫶

[@ericfreshcorn3590]

I,m Looking To Date A Transgender Woman Who is Single i live in Ohio

[@DRZPHD]

Hi. Please note this is not a soliciting dating site.

[@ericfreshcorn3590]

@@DRZPHD Okay Sorry i Will Find A Woman

[@matteorinaldi1269]

Always very useful, and professional sessions from Dr Z - Thank YOU!

[@DRZPHD]

Glad to hear!