Feeling Trapped | Spoken Word Poetry

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Music
Brian Lowe - Please Return
Lyrics
I look around and all I see are empty people,
empty people going through the daily routine in their mundane lives,
Yes they’re walking, breathing, moving - but when you look deeper - they’re all dead inside.
The more time goes by - the more we forget what it feels like to have passions, excitement, desires.
And I myself am trapped
Silently going through my every day tasks but on the inside I’m screaming to break out.
Tired of going to a job I hate, making small talk, pursuing empty dreams - One day I’m going to break.
All we seem to do is the same exact, mind numbing thing every single day
I’m scared I’m going to end up like everyone else in this place and it’s slowly driving me insane.
But how to I escape?
How do I fill this void inside me? What’s the answer - travelling, religion, fame?
We just live for temporary moments,
little bits of happiness to ease our pain.
But soon as those moments are finished the dark thoughts creep up on us again.
No one ever talks about it, we force ourselves to suppress it, but we all know it’s there.
I mean who says there’s only one type of way of living anyway?
Sometimes I feel like no one else gets it
it’s like sure you can dream - but don’t dream too big cos you need to be realistic,
I look around and no one seems to be happy,
everyone’s looking into their phone screens to block themselves from reality
cos reality has become too depressing
we watch ourselves counting down the clock, wasting time with our empty lives?
most people would rather settle and just survive, than take a chance to know what it feels like to really be alive,
They tell me that this is the way to do things properly,
and I just can’t help but question why?
Surely, I can’t be wrong for wanting more in life?
One day I’ll wake up and think fuck, I’ve wasted my life away.
And you know what the worst part is - I’ll only have myself to blame.
I can’t let myself become that person, I refuse, I need to make a change,
Life isn’t a movie, I can’t just wait for things to magically fall into place,
if I want to truly live, if I want to make something of myself, then the change has to start today.

[@no4683]

you have verbally said what ive kept to myself for the past four years

[@stanloonauglies9358]

I've been feeling like this for months. I just can't deal with this anymore.

[@liljay5030]

emiiee cx I've been feeling like this for 3 years

[@perrynialim7296]

emiiee cx Ive been feeling this since I was 7. I always had this feeling that there no point in life. Everyone releats the same thing over and over again. A plain, boring world.After watching this video I still cant take it away. What should I do? Is this a mental disorder?

[@stanloonauglies9358]

I'm sorry you're feeling this way, it's such an empty feeling that you simply can't take away. Thankfully I don't feel this way anymore due to some changes in my life. I can agree with the repeating thing though. We all go to school, work and continue with our daily routines, but sadly that's just how this world works today. I feel like if we break through from this system that society has created for us, we can truly be content and happy. We are like walking robots. I feel like these feelings that you have are striving from depression since many of those thoughts are connected to that mental illness. You will get better though, I can assure you. I know what it feels like to think that life is meaningless, but you just have to keep going forward. Better days are coming! Soon these thoughts will vanish and you will think that there is a point in life.

[@heaventorres3945]

emiiee cx God will fill the void in your life. He will give you purpose. i️ felt this way since i️ was 6 started self harming at age 10, eating disorders at 9, suicide attempts by 13 and hospitalized. i️ found God and now i’m happy😁 check out clayton jennings on youtube

[@brisamartinez1]

@@heaventorres3945 Clayton Jennings is amazing, everyone should listen to him

[@aishamoolla8051]

Can you read my mind because I can relate to almost all your spoken word videos . Thanks taz your videos make my day .

[@chloecarey2514]

+aisha Moolla i was just gonna say that i feel th same shes so talented x

[@aishamoolla8051]

+chloe carey yeah she is amazing :)

[@JoseSanchez-bp7xz]

aisha Moolla I would guess that the really intelligent people who have lots of interests and Having interesting and well paying jobs don’t feel like this as much, not that Most of us haven’t suffered from depression from time to time.

[@runah9780]

The worst thing about seeing the emotions slowly fade in this world, is knowing I myself will eventually become one of those people. Sometimes I look in the mirror and see empty eyes staring back at me. I don't want to lose my ability to feel passion, but school and workplace only look for productivity, for perfection. I feel "trapped" in this society, you perfectly portrayed it. Thank you for this inspirational video.

[@ingridflatland1782]

I totally agree.. I am very tired of school now ( arent we all?) and it is horrible to force my self through every day of it- school, homework, eat, sleep.. And back at it again. When I look at my friends and people around me, all I can see is stress and lack of passion. What happend to dreams? What happend to passion? ;(( I want to do something else...

[@ibizzy10]

broke down today for this exact reason. it's amazing that out of the millions of videos on youtube I stumble across this one. we're meant to be great and live a life that's more than this broken cycle of plastic happiness and the universe attempts to remind us daily. sometimes we need to be reminded to open our eyes or take the buds out of our ears so that we can see how desperate the moon is for our attention or really listen to music hidden in the wind. it's hard to break out when society has made it impossible to survive without following their standards. but it's even harder to keep pushing through this toxic water, hoping, that when it finally overcomes us and buries our heads, we'll still be able to see the beauty around us. because we won't. we can't let ourselves be blinded by the waters of society, I'm not going to. I'm going to grab the lifevest of earth's beauty and float across the top of this mess

[@christophertelesford7579]

Wow u took the words right out of my mouth.

[@jessicaboden1282]

Christopher Telesford same

[@asl88p]

Same...

[@kimhandley1523]

I thought like this as a young person. I'm now a young 36. I tried everything- travelling, spirituality, changing jobs. I think age cured me. I'm really happy with the little things now. My morning costa. My weekend break. Food. A nice holiday. It's so nice to be content through gratitude. My whole young life I was in daily turmoil hating the rat race. Maybe time and age has solely worn me down. Hehe.

[@Seashellgamesyt]

I've been dealing with this for 11 years. Stuck in a country wanting and waiting to go back home and everyday I feel more dead inside.

[@themisanthropechannel1449]

Welcome to the existential crisis. You'll be down here in this rut a long while, so get cosy.

[@primrose7653]

How do i escape

[@ChrisSB75]

Hey Taz, I love your honesty. Thank you for sharing. I am a Pastor in California and I was wondering if I could show this to my church. So many times we pretend like everything is okay, I believe the church needs to be a place where we can deal with reality. Either way, thanks again for sharing.

[@TatsNotMyName]

I have everything in my life. I have loving and supportive boyfriend, i have a family even tho our relationship is not the warmest, i have a job (not the best one but still-incoming), i have friends.. i have everything i could possibly want.. but i'm still depressed and sad and feel empty.. i don't even know why..there are people who don't have a home or struggle even more than i.. but still inside i feel like i need to suffer another day to get through this..hoping that another day would bring a light into my life. When I'm with my friends i laugh and make jokes.. like any other ordinary people...but on the inside I'm so empty.. i have done lot of things to myself which I'm not proud of..i hope that this situation is just some period in my life and it will go away

[@anathemis9307]

I see life as meaningless, for both animals and humans. When a dog gets rescued, it's never going to be any more than a dog, than a family pet, someone an owner may talk to. That dog may be happy, but its life provides no meaning. It's the same with people; we wake, complete a job and go home to be with family. But if you don't have either of those, what are you living for? I have to work hard in life to even have a life. Why? Why do we do this, every day for years, until our days run out? What is the point of it all? That dog, or that human, is't going to be any more than a dog or a human, and that dog isn't going to see outside of the home it's inside now, and we human's aren't going to see outside of the life we are in now. Why? Why does all of this happen? I hate it. I don't want my life to have no purpose, but I don't want family. With no family, no children or partner, what will become of my life? I don't know. And it scares me. It scares me more than anything.

[@josesabraham]

Natalie Green LIFE IS IMPORTANT!!! You must live life to the fullest go out meet new people, try new things ,get new experiences, meet life long friend,and find the love of your life you go through hard time you experience good times that's what's life is about we must not trap ourselves in a tiny box and think there no way out when the top of the box is clearly open you have to jump out and grab for the sky you MUST KEEP GROWING!! Spiritual, physically, mentally,emotionally Never settle never give up because once you give up and settle that is when life really ends and you slowly die inside KEEP STRONG !! 💪🏽 LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST !!! SMILE AND BE HAPPY!!😊

[@jenrockxoxo]

Natalie Green I am in the same boat as you are. I don't want to do the typical married with children routinel, either. I don't mind being alone and single, I actually enjoy it. I don't want to spend the rest of eternity lonely, though. Today, I feel pretty out of it. It's like everybody keeps running ahead of me as they accomplish things and live their lives. I'm stuck. I haven't accomplished much since the breakdown (October 2009). I cannot even work anymore and I live with my parents. (I'm 39 years old). I don't respond to ANY of the traditional antidepressants here in the USA. I've tried over 30 medications of different classes to no benefit. (I take Adderall daily. It's been the ONLY medication to alleviate some of my symptoms, but it is not enough. Trust me. I see my therapist every week. He is a great guy to talk to. I enjoy therapy. My dad was kind enough to dig into his retirement savings to pay for my treatments over the past few years...I have done the newest treatments but they did not help me either. (TMS and ketamine infusions) I felt so guilty for using my dad's money because I stayed sick. I am running out of treatment options and that's a frightening thought!!! I would like to travel to Peru to partake in Ayahuasca ceremonies. I might agree to do ECT eventually, but I am concerned about possible memory loss. Those are the only 2 options I have not explored (ECT & Ayahuasca) yet. I've been pretty busy the last 22 years trying to kill this depression, so I have run out of ideas. Of anyone has a suggestion for a Depression remedy for people with treatment resistant depression, PLEASE let me know. I try to keep myself busy and I try to stay grateful. I was diagnosed with Major Depression & Anxiety Disorder in 1995...that means, I have been "sick" for over half of my life. I hate that. I am so afraid my life is being wasted while I sit here sick and frustrated. Good luck everyone. I sincerely hope you find freedom from depression's dark claws.

[@muhammadshahmeer8003]

Ace Banana there's a quote for what you're referring to: ignorance is bliss. i guess that dog is fine with being a dog because firstly it doesn't know that it could do so many incomprehensibly beautiful things in life (which we humans do; animals just can't do those things) and secondly, it could never understand that. what i mean to say is that.. maybe you'd also not be so scared if you never really cared about it and just went with the flow.

[@ellielittlewood7111]

Ace Banana I thoughrily agree. thats a great metphor 4 getting ur point across.

[@aminazahra7329]

CampamochaX I don't know what to say to comfort you. I wish a had the power or ability to lift up your pain. You have suffered long enough and you deserve a better life my love. My only advice is look into religion. I am a Muslim and i can speak for my religion. Even though i know Islam is not the most appealing religion to look into bcoz of all staff Muslims do but then i assure you, waking up being grateful to your Lord and going to sleeping owing nothing to this world and handing your life to Him, will make your life more meaningful. I promise. Please look into Nouman Ali Khan lectures and how he explains the beautiful words of Your Lord. I pray you get cured, i pray you find happiness and tranquillity, i pray, i one day meet you, if not in this world then in Jannah and give u big bear hug. Stay happy love, your not alone in this struggle and nothing lasts forever. Peace be upon you💖

[@allyrose639]

Literally exactly how I feel! Sounds like my diary

[@Heyimshrishti]

i'm dealing with really bad depression and anxiety I just found out yoyr channel and trust me you make me feel better now I know i'm not alone thank you❤❤

[@GarrettPaknis]

you won't wind up like anyone else cause you're brave enough to listen to your heart and soul. thanks for creating such beauty and for being you. DREAM TOO BIG

[@gracietanzil]

wow... words spoken so right in so many ways, after those happy stuff ends you just start thinking of those depressed ones and u just cry while u think about it...😢

[@richardelmes984]

I agree with Aisha's comment. And as a poet myself, I appreciate how your messages are truly accessible and relatable.

[@esmeraldacepeda3514]

your poem slams are amazing and inspiring!

[@taylorjoy1889]

"Sure, you can dream, but don't dream to big because you need to realistic." this quote makes up my entire life. 😞

[@unknownperson3947]

to be honest. it's so true even I feel like I'm wasting time

[@nonyabusinesss3025]

I loved that you said "all dead inside", that is almost completely accurate. The (billionaires, slaves, zombie-like ones) want all to believe that it is getting worse, lol. It is NOT. To show passions, smile, help... it really does inspire. Teach, educate all you can how to survive without losing their dreams. I pray at the very least that the kids can be saved so the next generation can...

[@iCOOKIEmischief]

TAZ STOP TAPPING INTO MY SOOOUL. I swear for every single one of your videos I just sit there and go "Oh my God, that's exactly how/what I think and/or feel." And it's so... it's almost like a relief actually, because you put all of these things that I want to be able to express into words that I just can't and don't even know how to. Or if I do, I just can't muster up enough energy or courage to.

[@SuketaPatel]

That went straight to my heart dear one. So resonating. Words of poetry explaining the entanglement of the worlds matrix. Felt like this since I was 16....until I woke up at 40 and began a journey to find myself. The answer lies within. Today, I see it, but I still cannot break out of it, so I leave it to grace. In non resistance to what is. Blessings of this journey! Its all about who we are as love. May we find the essence in this lifetime! 😇

[@leftboylover1066]

I always come back to this, I think this is so true and inspiring!

[@Sabah_Ismail]

Dream big girl, dream big. You are everything you need. Be the change and LIVE. This was beautiful. X

[@priscilaoliveira3343]

Last 5 years feeling... so true

[@eyemermusic]

This is how I feel a lot of the time. You're so good with words! Beautiful piece x

[@knowyourworth1288]

Your content always manages to connect with a certain part of my life. I am so inspired by you and the minute i get a notification for "clickfortaz" i go onto youtube. Thankyou so much for this!!

[@MrBurkistan]

God bless your heart, sometimes it feels like I personally don't have one. I am writing this half-way across the world from my home in Europe as a solo-backpacker with anxiety disorder... It's midnight in my hostel right now and I feel empty from trying hard everyday to put up a front - never quite succeeding in being myself around people, you know. However, being able to watch your videos Taz I must admit means a great deal to me and I can't help but feel uplifted as I'm watching. The way I see it, if you can do that for someone else I believe you truly have a special gift! Thank you.

[@raikou8652]

I always feel empty I miss the times where I didn’t give a damn where I’d do anything you told me with a smile I had had unbreakable bonds with friends and yet they were severed so easily and now everyone is just the same with their fake attitude trying to look good talking about meaningless drama sometimes I wish I wasn’t in isolation in my purgatory that I’ve created unintentionally with my arrogance I wish I could be like everyone else talk about the same things they do have actual feelings being compassionate with one another yet I feel so empty.

[@andyschannel9670]

I feel like that everyday. I want to do more before I get too old to do anything or before a freak accident kills me. I almost died on my bday this year Oct 9th I almost died from over drinking and choking on my vomit. When I was saved from choking to death and alcohol poisoning I was watching KZbin and your poetry came on shortly after I pulled myself together and that happened this yr too a couple of weeks ago. Taz your videos and poetry just within the last few weeks after almost dying on my birthday have completely changed my way of thinking. I no longer want to abuse alcohol or drugs I just want to live my best life with my daughter and wife and be naturally happy and do more fun and exctiing things like my favorite you tuber and overlooked artist Taz!!! Your videos and poetry showed me that I still have alot more to experience in this life and to accomplish instead of getting high or drunk on my free time I have been making more of an effort to do more so er and fun activities with my wife and daughter and leave the drugs and bottle behind for good.

[@connorberry7318]

Taz, keep doing your thing and you will escape reality. Follow your passions, learn new things, be brave and strong. I believe in you!

[@ghostsandcats]

Younger Taz I know it may feel like no one knows how you feel and that your all alone but trust me I understand how you feel, your videos are my escape. You were there for me when I felt as if I was the only one, you helped me get through everything I was going through. Life may seem like it’s full of dead ends but one, one will lead you to happiness. This is my thank you, I don’t know if you will see this, but I do know I need to thank you for helping me so much

[@chloewatts1809]

I love how true you are. You're so realistic and relatable for me. You're actually an inspiration to me to make a change so I can stop being so depressed and anxious all the time. Love your videos!

[@thamaraalmozani2136]

Thank you!!❤ this is exactly how i feel!! Hpw most of us feel really💙💙

[@keylovely6973]

All I could do was cry because this hit home. Years of this feeling these feelings....

[@liljay5030]

please keep on making videos. They make me feel like someone understands me. Your vids help me soo much:-)

[@crazy-british-chick9591]

"If I truly want to live, if i want to make something of myself, then the change has to start today." My new motto - thanks Taz❤️

[@charlottelifestruggles8552]

This is honestly beautifully said. Im so proud of the fact thst you are brave enough to show this vulnerability, it is these things that show me im not the only one

[@teresabryner4990]

Not only are you a beautiful person, but you have a beautiful soul. So happy that I have discovered your videos and have watched soooooo many of them. Thank you for being brave enough to share your deepest thoughts and emotions. I can say that I admire you for taking the leap of making these videos and gaining so many subscribers...what an accomplishment! You are living a dream that many of us dare to imagine. Good for you! I wish you much success in your journey and thank you for your amazing videos!

[@nancynobody6721]

Your Channel saved my life ♡

[@paus.5951]

I'm in love with your way to express with the perfect words, it makes me so happy when you make another video bc they're so amazing just for being yours

[@shannont5]

Exactly how I feel in the world... that was incredible! Keep doing spoken word poetry, you have a gift that needs to be shared to the world. Thank you!

[@galaxygirl8979]

This is how I feel every day of waking up getting dressed eat breakfast brush my teeth and go to school then do it all over again. Again, again and again. Then when you'r older, learning to live on your own get a job and go through the same routine over and over and not get a break of feeling chained and just wanting to be free to explore and get the most out of your life and truly live. ✌💜 ♥ヽó㉨ò)ﾉ♡😊 Freedom to truly live

[@katerin4542]

i love you taz. im really crying rn because i can relate to all of your videos, thank you so much.

[@teumee745]

Every time I'm on a depressive episode, I always come back for your poetry. Thank you for making this

[@phoenixbg2096]

I live almost 9 years in us and i come from Serbia. I notice more and more that i start to feeling like this. America is a contry with a very lonely people. Now i am the part of that nation. This sociaty makes people feel like this. Its a very individuality oriented country. No community, no connection. Everything is fake and instant. There is no real connection between the people, becouse everybody has to think about there work, bills and family, who bearly see each adar on weekends. I hope people will understand this and start to build up more relayable system regards humans effect and include more humens feelings. Peace and love to everyone

[@akenarae]

This is so relatable. Thank you for sharing your beautiful messages in these videos.

[@bybuma]

this is what i feel right now. you really get it this is so inspirational, taz. keep it up!

[@gracebarnard3399]

All of your poems just speak to me on such a deep level. Thank you so much for doing what you do.

[@snmanzi9367]

Dear Taz, your are amazing, please Keep it up. You make people feel better because of your honesty, authenticity, humour and your talent of always finding the right words.

[@livvyx09x6]

I actually love you !! Thank you for sharing all these videos. Really does make a difference to me x

[@Khartoum29]

i completely understand where your coming from thank you for making these videos i think they help alot of us out there dealing with mental health issues.

[@bridieregan9816]

Taz I’m not lying I absolutely love your vids but I mostly love your poems. It helps people with problems that’s what I want I want world peace. Everyone if you’ve seen my other comments on these poems this one was a short one but don’t think I’m not enjoying this one I’m just doing it short because not everything has to be long to believe. Be strong everyone don’t end up like the empty people!

[@keesmulder3020]

Truly beautiful, keep going like this and I have faith that your channel will get really big soon.

[@finjas.762]

You're so damn talented. You know how to put my feelings in words.

[@sarahknotts9032]

Thank you Taz for making this. Society truly is trapped in the same drone less cycle. Your videos are awesome and you always make me smile! ^_^

[@pixiedixie7317]

OMG!! I'm in love with your poems ! this was so inspiring. I'm living with depression & anxiety really want to change myself change the way I live in order to feel happy but I'm also afraid. Honestly this video has really inspired me . I love all of your videos but I think so far it was the best. Thank you so much.. & you have a really nice voice 😊😊

[@FavaPoetry]

reali enjoyed the video, so much meaning! I like your style of expressing your feelings, it's dope!

[@mvp07m]

I was looking for such realistic videos, that says what is life!

[@alexandriamitchell2851]

Your videos really help with my anxiety. I haven't felt this calm in a while so thank you

[@foodylfstyl]

Love the effort you put into this video

[@GothKid1996]

Perfect...not a word out of place for what it is.

[@wheeman8059]

out of all your poems this is the one I most relate to. It is very well written and spoken. Taz you are such a wonderful lady :)

[@claudianavarrete9681]

I'll always be your fan #1 I suffer from depression, but I believe recovery is possible ❤

[@mariaj5394]

Exactly how I feel about everything. You're just so good at this, I wish I knew people like you.☹️❤️

[@funcake99]

You speak out what I feel inside of my soul. You found great words and I like the vid, it is so great filmed.

[@lavendermoon4734]

thank you for creating this! I've always thought this, just didn't know how to word it. this is sooo good.

[@peelyana]

I've started watching these and I love them and I love that they make me think more and differently thank you

[@user-rl2dp2qq6f]

You words speak exactly what I wish I could say. They are me inside.

[@ivoryskullz]

I cant tell you how much i love your work! I can relate to so many things you say! Its unbelivable. I think i want to start with poems too! Thank you for your wonderful words❤️

[@paigetume4333]

Ur so good at stuff like this!

[@tuilikaandreas4776]

i love this so much. Thank you.

[@thisnameissocrazy8122]

you know that feeling "when feel you are crying from inside, although you don't cry from outside" ifeel like that right now.....

[@anouksb]

all your videos are top quality content. I just love everything about you

[@ASMinor]

Another beautiful piece. You are such an inspiration. 💓

[@sammin9199]

I love you and your writing, thank you

[@doneshacaesar1781]

"I'm scared I'm going to end up like everyone else in this place" 😥🙌🏽

[@alexcheato6769]

I always get so excited when i get the notification that you posted, very inspiring poem

[@hibabhairis6480]

ayman

[@fioralauren7077]

I haven’t been able to find words to describe my feelings and this is it

[@mvp07m]

you r awesome, this gives me strength to walk ahead! thank u...

[@TianZhu98]

wow, your spoken word piece is wonderful.

[@jojosays1077]

This is so good!!!! I love it!!!

[@ohhmyman1707]

i really enjoy and relate to a lot of your spoken word poetry you should try and continue it :)

[@janaewilliams6100]

All of my feelings that I didn't know how to put into words. Love this!

[@Laylaissleeping19]

Ja'Nae Elizabeth I feel u... be strong

[@michaelakhan2640]

Guuurl where has your channel been all this time?? I'm so glad to have stumbled across it! I relate to almost every one of your spoken word videos. I feel slightly better about being 22 and completely confused with life. You've just gained a new subscriber all the way from South Africa! Heeeeeey :D

[@lemonzystardust6433]

This is everything pouring out of me

[@smileartist1775]

This was very inspirational thank you!

[@taz3468]

Exactly my thoughts right now wow, thank you! I really hope i find the motivation, i dont want to be like everybody else working for a job for money... It just doesnt sound real, it doesnt sound worth it - i wish to find something worth living and striving for, but right now i have nothing and time isnt waiting for me

[@Goraiders75]

another great reflection!!! Thank you for being you!!!

[@bebravebianca]

I love your style of poetry and the editing that you put into it. This is work and it equals passion. I only wish my voice was as soothing as yours in my own poetry! Thanks for sharing!

[@edanurceker3463]

Wow taz i can relate to this so much, i hope you’re feeling better now

[@thomasarrigal1653]

Beautifully said.

[@aliciagarcia161]

thank you ,you have inspired me to keep fighting for my dreams thank you

[@mollysimon4610]

I love your videos so soft simple yet so deep and real 🌈✨🦋🌤

[@GS-cg3yn]

Beautifully, beautifully done.

[@paulhargreaves9103]

Awesome work....... pure talent.....thank you.....!

[@henryonyango6431]

Your videos are amaziiiiiiiiiiiiiiiing. Don't ever stop..

[@amatalooser344]

I love your spoken words please make more😍🖤