Healing from the Terror of Christianity

[@AleciaRenece]

Hi friends! Some of the captions on the video are definitely wrong 😅💛 I recommend turning on the closed captions on KZbin. They're way more accurate. ☺️💛🌞🌻 Thank you so much for watching and hearing my heart. Much love and joy to you!

[@dyanwilson1310]

All I hear is no respect for authority. God doesn't cost anything. He gives a chose always.

[@dyanwilson1310]

GOD IS LOVE

[@AleciaRenece]

@@dyanwilson1310 you hear what you want to hear. the way the shame you're trying to place on me ain't hitting like you think it is... I'm at peace. ☺️🌻💛 And I love that for me.

[@mukbangmuga]

Girl; we are in alignment🤍. Take it easy and connect back to your childhood , that’s where we were connected to him the most.

[@kymwatts9781]

@@AleciaReneceYES!!

[@SamriBliss]

Thank you for this. Stepping away from patriarchal religions has been a major step towards freedom for me.

[@AleciaRenece]

Thank you so much for hearing my heart. Yes! SAME. 🫂💛🌻 Letting go helps me to feel free. 🥹🫂💛

[@RyzeQueen]

When I identified as a Christian, I felt inadequate, believing that I wasn't worthy enough and needed to strive endlessly to earn God's approval. It was only when I chose to seek God independently through a personal encounter that my perspective changed completely. Instead of seeking external validation, I began looking within for the ultimate truth. Embracing meditation and living in the present moment has had a profound impact on my life. I have come to understand that God is synonymous with love, and I am too. I no longer require an intermediary to comprehend this truth.❤

[@CoachDonnaMarie]

I met Jesus at home with a family member when I was young. I joined church as an adult. I knew Christ before I knew church. I am in Him and He is in me. Church community has its place but it will never replace my personal journey with the Lord.

[@eklctc]

Unfortunately, most mainstream religions are fear-based which is one of many reasons why I purged that mess from my life. Fear & self denial is the premise and I want to be free, indulge, and not have to scrutinize if every decision, thought, and action aligns with words in this human made book. And don’t get me started on the topics specifically discussed that are not that serious while blatantly not addressing topics that are much more relevant and influential, then & now.

[@quietstorm46]

I was at a christian retreat last year, and I realized that I needed to sit with the fact that I really didn't know the true character of God. I was trying to convince myself that the god that my parents told me and who I believed was a good loving god is the same God that says we are undeserving of the love I so desperately wanted. The reason why I felt I needed bible god were all reasons based out of fear and wanting community. There is an unexplainable peace when you realize a walk outside with nature has all the answers and healing you will ever need.

[@MotherTreeNMoon]

Yes!! Mother Nature! The Devine Mother is God (Goddess) !!!

[@Lady_Bear]

I’m sorry that happened to you, but “Bible” *God has the answers. He is in nature.

[@Lady_Bear]

@@MotherTreeNMoonA Father planted the seed.

[@MotherTreeNMoon]

@@Lady_Bear sweetheart, the egg would be the seed. The man fertilizes the egg. The woman is born with her children(eggs), grows that child in her body, and feeds that child with her body. If you want to think so lowly of yourself, then be my guest. I won't be joining you. The earth is feminine, nature is feminine, the universe is feminine, language is feminine, culture is feminine... The principal that rules is a Goddess not a god. Besides do you even know the history of Yahweh? You realize he was part of Pantheon?

[@quietstorm46]

@Lady_Bear As a woman, I don't see myself in the Bible God, b/c to me, women were seen as unclean, deceitful, and cursed to serve under a man. So I had to admit that it wasn't for me anymore and it was terrible for my mental health. A few days ago, I decided to listen to worship songs that used to minister to me. A lot of songs start with "God has been better to me than I have been to myself. I have been very undeserving" and then wonder why I had low self-esteem. I know all about Father Bible God and all HE created but as a woman am I to believe that a female who produces milk nourish babies was honorable mention and didn't have a role as a creator in the creation story? I am glad that you have found peace in the religion you follow and that it works for you. Unfortunately, it wasn't for me but I am on a path that is a better fit.

[@bltpod]

Thank you for this! Wow! I don’t even like to listen to gospel music anymore because the rhetoric is always I am unworthy, I am a sinner, and I am nothing. It’s just so sad. I don’t want to have to cry and feel sad all the time when I’m listening to gospel music. Enough. Same for going to church.

[@MotherTreeNMoon]

Worship music isn't as bad, but you are right tho. Thankfully, there are so many people making spiritual music that is not religion based. Found some great ones on KZbin. 🫶🏾

[@missfefeloves]

We are nothing without God. It is because of his presence. Without the lords presence tbh there will be absence of so many things. It was the lord that programmed us and gave us the things we need on earth like love, food, family, nature, fresh air etc. without these things life would be like hell! Though I’m struggling in my faith because of my disobedience and rebellion, I’ve found that I had the most peace when I’m in the presence of the holyspirit, but when I left all of a sudden then comes depression, anxiety, rejection, procrastination, laziness. It all starts with your submission, submit to the lord and from there you’ll have peace of mind ❤

[@MotherTreeNMoon]

Did you you hear her say that her life got better by leaving God and the church??? Why would you turn around and say she is nothing without God?? Besides, you are a sinner and you sound like you are doing ok. Why are you expecting her to do something you aren't even doing? @@missfefeloves

[@primanoor]

When you said you feel closer to God now than you ever did in church, I felt that! I always wondered why I never felt Gods presence in Church. Yet, I do when I’m taking a walk, writing in my journal, by a body of water, when I’m in the shower lol and even when I’m alone and crying , God was there. That same presence, never found, at least by me, in any church. I am also on a journey where I’m questioning a lot of what other people told me to believe about God. Because The Most High is so real to me, but I don’t know what “God” some of our church folks serve..? Sending love and light to you on this journey ✨

[@lala_renee]

I became free about 7-8 years ago. I do not subscribe to any religion anymore. I grew up in the church, my grandfather was a reverend and I know all about church life, Christian culture and God. Everything you said I resonated with deeply.

[@missmuyoyo]

I have a similar experience. I grew up in the church and with a very religious mom. I tried being a good Christian for years and although I felt protection from evil and hell I also felt stuck. I left the religion more than 5 years ago and I’ve felt more connected to God and myself. I feel free and love life more. I think Christianity/the Bible has some good to it but the leaders manipulate the message way too much.

[@thhe5859]

My mother’s pastor left his daughter on the side of the road in the middle of the night after her car broke down to “teach her a lesson”. She was maybe 19 or 20 at the time. That’s when I knew I’d never step foot in that church again.😔

[@kaitlinvinson360]

Thank you so much for this video. I relate to this quite a bit. Religion (Christianity) killed, shamed, and damned me. I no longer identify with any religion. I believe there is more than me. I am more genuine in making sober minded decisions, than when I was religious and living in fear.

[@shainabarrett6657]

I saw the title and bolted over here because this is an actual discussion I need to hear from another😅❤

[@i-Maven]

This is something that definitely needs to be addressed openly. Thank you for being conscientious and loving enough to do it.

[@jamcalpin]

Thank you for your honesty, authenticity, and bravery. I know your words, as well as your art, is and will be a balm for this generation and many to come. Keep doing the amazing work that you're doing!! 💚💚💚

[@chicayess]

💯

[@AleciaRenece]

🥹🫂🌺🌹🌼 Thank you so much. This is so encouraging to me. Thank you so much. 😭

[@AleciaRenece]

​@@chicayess🥹🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂😭🌹🌺

[@yolondawilliams5078]

Here's to healing your wounded heart.❤

[@AleciaRenece]

@@yolondawilliams5078 *TEEEEARS* 🥹🫂💛🌻🌹🌸 Bless you. Thank you so much!!! That is so kind of you. Much love and joy to you!!! 🫂🫂🫂

[@tessfromtheu.s256]

I felt cursed for a long time....glad hear your voice in the darkness

[@AleciaRenece]

🫂🫂🫂🥹🌺💛 I know that pain so well. You deserve joy and peace. You are not cursed. You are LOVED.

[@Happynappyroots96]

Thank you for this, I’ve left religion and want nothing to do with it. Kinda agnostic now but I do believe we may have a creator or great spirit but I’m still learning while there are good things in the Bible a lot of it I just can’t believe anymore. I’m free and loving me and I wanna stay free. I just love nature, learning from other cultures and doing things that make me happy now. Yes I am worthy, there are so many truths beyond the Bible

[@nicholetolita]

I'm so happy there's someone who has the same sentiments as I do. The part where you said you felt closer to God now than when you were consumed in religion, I especially felt that. I'm much more consistent in building my relationship with Him than when I was involved in church. Shame and fear is not good motivation. Thank you for being brave and sharing this. ❤

[@myharmonybody]

Wow i swear we are sisters! You are speaking my heart

[@TiffyC19]

I needed this. Your words confirmed what I've been feeling for the last few years. I grew up in church and now I've been in the process of unlearning, healing, and finding faith for myself and it has been the most freeing journey. Your words comforted me as I can relate to feeling a disconnect from some beliefs surrounding Christianity such as "you shouldn't read anything but the bible". Once I actually sat down and found God for myself it changed my life. Thank you Thank you Thank you for being so opening about your thoughts. It feels nice to know that someone else understands

[@mjaye1712]

Thanks for sharing your experience with reevaluating religion. I stopped identifying with organized religion many years ago. I have not been in a church for anything other than a wedding or funeral in years. Leaving church was a process, and leaving Christianity altogether was a longer one. Neither was easy, yet both were necessary for me.

[@camiathomeyoutube]

"The first gift that I ever got was my life." Wow. I feel like I need to chew on that for a bit.

[@SolCareMimi]

Been scrolling through the comments, literally just saw this after I commented the quote myself haven’t seen anyone else mention it yet. That awakened me where I needed to be woken up.

[@Nine2fine]

You and I are going through the exact spiritual awakening. I started this journey a few years ago. But it’s still the same pathway of emotions and thoughts. Especially the feeling of relief and calmness. And yes we were chasing something already inside of us. That’s why I love your channel

[@aminazebra]

It makes me SO incredibly joyful to hear that you are beginning to find your inner peace and freedom... I truly believe that is how God/Spirit wants us to be; living a life rooted in LOVE and not FEAR. I believe that the goal is to be a loving person to yourself and others, however you get there (via organized religion or otherwise) does not matter. I wish you ease and joy and love along your journey, and also to everybody in the comments that can relate 💓💓💓

[@annettetaylorsmith2333]

I am so proud of you and I send you many more blessings to you and family ❣️

[@breejones8945]

this is exactly what I am working on. Not feeling like I’m in trouble or should be in trouble somehow. Feeling afraid to slow down and be with my thoughts because maybe the other shoe is going to drop because I didn’t do everything right. I hope to feel more and more the way you are feeling because I know that God is Love and Love brings peace not disturbance. Thank you for sharing ❤

[@haboh]

Thank you for sharing this, I don't often find creators who speak on religion and spirituality in this manner. Let alone, at all. As someone who has questioned many aspects of my own faith and aspects of Christianity, this definitely resonates on A LOT of levels. As I've gotten older, I've come to realize so much of Christianity is rooted in fear and violence, and I find it odd that nobody ever paused to think about it growing up.

[@Shaa-Belle]

Your videos are like a salve for my broken heart Alecia ❤ I love your videos, and this one was especially resonant. I suffer from religious trauma and come from a deeply patriarchal religion and society. Working through the shame, anger and abuse has been ongoing for over 8 years. I hope to one day process the depth of anger that I have because of it and the years it stole from me. Btw, your video on black women’s anger was so helpful 🙏🏾 on this topic as well. Thank you for your kindness and the loving way you talk about these topics ❤

[@msbigup7119]

I hear you so much. Xtianity excerated my anxiety, hence why I have deconstructed over this year. I have now been able to bring context to my life from an introspective manner.I never felt safe when I was an xtian(Christian). The x is deliberate.

[@bltpod]

Could you expound more on the “X” usage? I am assuming you are using it to mean as an ex/former

[@allthingsdelicia5389]

I feel the same way, lately I've been thinking about going back to the faith. But I also feel like going back to Christianity and telling myself that I am a sinner and I need to die to my flesh to feel okay is just a backwards way of thinking. Also I feel as being a women my personality would have to be compacted to be able to have a husband by the standards of Christianity.

[@asiablackgrl6482]

I have never been undeserving. My life is precious 🙏🏿 ✨

[@theworldoftaj]

Yes yes yes. I love this for you and for us 🧡 congratulations on your liberation!!

[@justinjatherley]

I resonated with every word of this. Kudos to you and your journey forward.🙏

[@Ryder21901]

Love everything about this message sis. I’m in this very space. Fear is only used to control, tired of it. I want joy, rest and peace, yes there will be struggle but constant suffering is not normal.

[@ENUFbyMNT]

Girl this was so brave and I am so so happy to hear you say you are at peace! I’m only half way through but I could definitely relate to a lot of what you said and I wanted to make sure to comment before I got busy. You have always been so accepting of people with other belief systems and when I was on my journey figuring out my spirituality the fact that you never made me feel ostracized was huge! Thank you for always being so loving.

[@nikoa.6474]

Ummm, are you me? lol I agree and have unfortunately had the same feelings and experiences. I’m sad that I know there are more people like us. Find ourselves and find peace.

[@AleciaRenece]

I'm sad you can relate to this as well 🥺🫂🌻💛 I love this "Find ourselves and find peace." 🫂🫂🫂 much love and joy to you!

[@ElleStuart-u2z]

I deconstructed and then I reconstructed. I got rid of all of that religious ideology and now I know The Lord for myself. I am happy and at peace.

[@SolCareMimi]

“I AM THE FIRST GIFT THAT SPIRIT EVER GAVE ME.” Baby you almost had me shouting in a quiet home at 12:33 am as I’m finally regulated enough to sleep 😴 lol. Throw that on some merch if you feel led!! I’m buying ❤️ and I rarely by merch FR bc of quality. If quality’s right I’ll get a sweatshirt, tshirt mug or journal in that order.

[@aqueteaful]

I love this for you❤, i went through this reckoning as well. Im grateful to feel free in the Great spirit. I feel so peaceful and whole. Wishing you the best on your spiritual journey ✨️

[@AleciaRenece]

Yeeeeeeeeeees! Saaaaame! So much freedom! No more fear 🥹🫂🌺💛 much love and joy to you!

[@Windsingerful]

Preached a mouthful there: why do we create God in OUR image? We SAY we are made in God’s image and likeness, yet we run from this greatness in fear because we’ve been told we’re “filthy rags” just a sinner saved by grace, nothing worthwhile except God, where every thought should be about Him (more of you, and LESS OF ME)….to the point where we sometimes disassociate from ourselves….and we feel MORE bad. 🤦🏾‍♀️ I was disappearing, because the church in a backhanded way discouraged dancing….I had been a dancer, I love my Black culture, but this was one of those born again predominantly white Christian churches where the choir got a little too “loud” and had to be toned down… Yet, I was baptized in the Holy Spirit there and learned so much! You take the wheat that resonates and toss the chaff that rebuffs you 🤷🏾‍♀️ Continue to grow!

[@AleciaRenece]

I am SO sorry that they discouraged your dancing. Dancing is spiritual. I resonate with that. Being told to shrink in these churches. Losing yourself, when Creator created you to love dance in the first place. Much love and joy to you! 🫂🌺🌼🌻

[@amcgee0668]

34:41: "... I AM the first gift that Spirit ever gave me..." Yes, my sister, teach. The world is your pulpit. Appreciation🦋

[@tailoredxtovahpresentstova1768]

I'm a long time admirer, 1st time commenter. I honor the sanctuary you've built that gives space to enlightening life experiences, such as this one. Thanks for remaining visible through your evolution & expansion. We're cheering you on, even from afar! Thank you for sharing the limitless gift that is @AleciaRenece!

[@Esme26433]

This is me!❤ Keep up the good work, Alecia!

[@eternalabundance39]

Love your sharing always thank you❤

[@AleciaRenece]

Thank you so much for hearing me 🥹🫂🌺🌼💛

[@annettetaylorsmith2333]

Sending you a huge hug 🫂❤

[@MommihasSol]

Jumping with joy for you and with you!

[@coldblooded568]

Thank you ❤

[@victoriag2464]

Thank you for sharing your story!

[@DivineChakras777]

I’m so happy you’re talking about this. ❤

[@fazziland3932]

Girl, you be on it. As a Muslim woman, I have had to unlearn some things myself.I thank my mother for showing us the love and beauty of God. It wasn’t my faith that was teaching fear. It was teaching consciousness of God. Big Difference. It was PEOPLE that was instilling their fear and limited beliefs about God to me. While I choose Islam wholeheartedly, again I’ve had to separate peoples foolishness/ignorance from the word of God. While I do believe there is life after this one and that what we put out, we will receive back, I also believe that my God is merciful, kind.

[@teethenugget]

Yess, I was born into Christianity but last few years started questioning and unlearning alot of it and connect a lot more to spirituality and islam especially after looking past the way media portrays it and finding my own connection to it

[@fazziland3932]

⁠@@teethenuggetlove this! May God bless you on your spiritual journey!!!! I always appreciate the few people that actually take the time to ask questions or even their concerns with the hope of trying to understand different perspective/ways of life 😢❤❤❤

[@kimberlybrathwaite]

Girl. I am (we are) so amazed by you and your beautiful soul. Thank you for giving words to this. We see you. We love you. I’ve always felt that God is love, period. We belong, period. We are already home. Anything less than love - any religion that tells us we have to work towards love is simply not God 🤷🏾‍♀️

[@AleciaRenece]

This. This. This. Thank you so much for sharing this with us! I COMPLETELY agree. 🫂🌺🌼💛 Also, thank you so much for being so sweet to me. 🥹🫂 Thank you for seeing me. Thank you for loving me. I'm sending you so much love and joy!!!

[@levelupsinglemom6143]

🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂 God shines so bright Through You Friend☀️✨💫✨💫✨

[@AleciaRenece]

Vitamiiiiiin 😭😭😭🥹🫂🫂🫂🫂💛🌻 My heeeeeart 🫂🫂🫂🥰 bless you! Thank you so much. I love you.

[@MontgomeryAries]

Love this!! ❤️❤️❤️

[@eklctc]

Also…thank you for sharing f your journey and vulnerabilities with us. We appreciate and see you.❤

[@Mo.Is.Queendom774]

HALLELUJAH I'M FREE!!! Yes! Thank you God!!!🎉🎉❤❤

[@greatsongz1211]

Love this! Thank you for sharing ❤

[@rebeccajohnson3916]

You are amazing 🎉❤❤❤

[@PianoManJ]

You got this Alecia! And thank you for sharing ❤

[@AleciaRenece]

Thank you so much!!! 🥹🫂🌺🌼

[@AleciaRenece]

Thank you for even listening. 🥹🫂🌹

[@PianoManJ]

@@AleciaRenece your videos are healthy food for thought, love listening 😊

[@BooksandLooksTV]

I'm not a Christian. I do pray and listen to gospel music occasionally.

[@AlexanderORiordan]

You're going to make me cry now...

[@adriethealchemist]

Yes yes yes!!!

[@BooksandLooksTV]

This is my favorite channel.

[@kayabe856]

Alecia….this came just in time. ❤

[@SlickRickey]

I love your thoughts about this all and I am glad you’re accepting of your realizations. Also curious what park that is, too much nature to be seen 🤩 lol

[@glamazini]

Yeah. 💛✨

[@umiiyabode]

I am so happy for you!

[@Nine2fine]

Working your self to the grave trying to be closer to God! That’s so true. My elders advice was that I didn’t have enough faith. Even though they didn’t mean any bath. That’s spiritual abuse.

[@LakeiaCreates-2010]

That was good!!!!!!!

[@codeN_8]

When I actually met Jesus...that's when I felt safe. He is the most boundaried, loving, accepting Person. He not only loves us, He likes us...

[@deannaa.491]

“He not only loves us, he likes us”🥺🥺🥺🥺🫶🏽

[@alethiacharis2480]

To me...that Person is God☺️ I personally have a hard time with calling them two different things...to me, it is simply "God." I don't need Jesus because that's who God is, and He is everything.

[@WeDontRetireWeAscend_]

I became a better "Christian" once I left the church 😏 Than you for being brave enough to talk about your personal experience and letting folks know that they are not the only one.

[@standinmyworld.]

❤️❤️

[@Windsingerful]

Yes sis!!! I FEEL YOU!!! FREEDOM!!!

[@AleciaRenece]

🥹🫂🌺

[@BriannaTyrice]

Gosh you get me…

[@Heypreppy777]

God is good. It’s the people who destroy his name. Please remember this.He is the one who will never leave when our worlds fall apart or when we try to do his work and not let him lead. I found this out personally when I became a self proclaimed know it all, and became too educated to really understand Christ’s teachings. Let’s just say, Christ knocked my “ new world * educated self on the ground, until I truly honored him. I will never separate myself from him. I learned that trusting in my fellow man , is like putting your trust in the hands of a toddler, an unpredictable mess. It is my believe that until we truly see who God is, we will continue to self medicate ourselves through misinformation that will bring us back to our unworthy state of mind. Let’s just say, that I learned this at a hard cost.

[@RazziLuix]

Hello! ❤

[@chicayess]

🫂🌻🫂🌻🫂🌻

[@AleciaRenece]

Chicaaaaaaaa 🥹🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂💛💛💛💛🌻🌺🌹🌼🌷🏵️

[@haboh]

My only issue with this video is that you didn't show us the little duck. 🦆🦆🦆🦆 And the Osprey. 😉

[@kymwatts9781]

❤❤❤❤

[@AleciaRenece]

🌺💛🌹🌼🌻

[@chicayess]

33:42 *Is you done or is you finished 😂

[@AleciaRenece]

🤣🤣🤣 💛💛💛🫂🫂🫂 Correct "IIIIS you done, or is you finished?!" 😂💛🫂🌻 you're amazing. 🥹🌺🌹🌼 Thank you.

[@MotherTreeNMoon]

Not you fighting the air 😂 I think The Divine Mother is calling to you!! Yes girl call your power back to you! Yes, you have always been a good thing! You have always been enough! So proud of you! Welcome sister! Welcome!💜🫂🫶🏾 Edit: If you are interested, you can start referring to 'god' as The Goddess. It feels so much better to the Spirit. 💜

[@Lady_Bear]

Heavy on the lower case g because there’s only one God.

[@ElleStuart-u2z]

Yeah…no. There is no divine mother and this is coming from someone who believed there was for YEARS.

[@MotherTreeNMoon]

@@ElleStuart-u2z why do you say there is no Divine Mother?

[@ElleStuart-u2z]

@@MotherTreeNMoon that’s the title that we mistakenly gave God. I am saying we because I was where you were. It used to make sense to me that there was a divine mother and that patriarchal religions were a way for men to manipulate our rightful power from us. You know what finally made me understand things much better? I had to meet God for myself. It was a painful process, but I finally understood things that I THOUGHT I did but really didn’t.

[@MotherTreeNMoon]

@@ElleStuart-u2z I believe that the Divine Mother has weaknesses. However, I am not sure who God is. I may just be God, who knows. If you think the patriarchal Father is God, then we can end it here. But if you think she is something else, then do tell.🙃

[@BriannaTyrice]

Finally, someone who gets it!😫

[@BriannaTyrice]

Thank you so much for this!

[@SolCareMimi]

Love your screen name and know some on who’d love it even more.💗

[@BriannaTyrice]

@@SolCareMimi dang I need to change it back then.

[@mpricemsw]

You are so BRAVE. 🤎🤎🤎 I'm applauding the deep insights you've shared with us here. You're ahead of the curve. Thank you 🙏🏽✨️

[@amcgee0668]

34:41: "... I AM the first gift that Spirit ever gave me..." Yes, my sister, teach. The world is your pulpit. Appreciation🦋

[@AfroChoctaw]

🤎🫂💜🦋💛🌻

[@amcgee0668]

34:41: "... I AM the first gift that Spirit ever gave me..." Yes, my sister, teach. The world is your pulpit. Appreciation🦋