Heroin Addicted Prostitute-Ariel

Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Ariel, a heroin addicted prostitute on Figueroa Street in South Central Los Angeles.
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[@jonsilence]

One of the most encouraging things about these videos, and especially this one of Ariel, is to see in the feedback that the overwhelming majority of us are moved by seeing someone who is broken & suffering and openly showing it. This proves that we are in better shape as a society than recent events with COVID-19 and racial unrest would have us believe. There has been so much fear and anger in the last several years that many of us are boiling over and at the breaking point. But when we see someone like Ariel being vulnerable and sharing her struggle and pain, it touches our hearts and brings out our natural human impulse to care, to empathize, and a feeling of wanting to offer help, if only just through kind words of understanding and encouragement. Hopefully Ariel is monitoring these comments and taking inspiration & strength from all of us here who care about her, see her beauty and feel her strength, and wish for her recovery.

[@elenagalbo3876]

She gonna recovered for this cuz she’s at a breaking point meaning she’s aware she at the end of her rope wen she’s able to cry in front of a total stranger. May god bless and guide her through her journey 🙏🏻🙏🏻

[@jonsilence]

Mark~ Thank you for the honor of pinning my comment, and for giving a voice and a face to so many who would otherwise go unseen and unheard.

[@almareyes2192]

Yessss 💯💯💯 without pain there is no progress🧡🧡 it's all in time and that inner strength🧡🧡

[@andrewperez3849]

Damn it’s crazy how we do things over and over even though we know it’s going noooooo where......

[@almareyes2192]

@@andrewperez3849 yes, we make it a bad routine, we know it's not right but we still do it. It's not just with drugs it's with many things that aren't right for the soul, wether it's a toxic relationship or staying in negative state of mind. It's not easy, but if only we could all realize that although we are here for ourselves individually for our own spiritual growth we are also here to help each other out🧡

[@mizlynn5167]

“What’s the worst thing that ever happened to you?”.... “Being locked in a room with 10 guys”... My heart just broke for her

[@cougiecat1]

miz hayz that scared me as I was there. Everyone that was there should get shot in the head! Disgusting evil wicked bastards. It’s a horrible feeling being trapped!

[@sarashakeri6561]

Lolli Aztec human beings can be complete animals

[@dexterramey8787]

How do 10 people get together and decide to do that?

[@lenajones3407]

There's no words ... Not one of those monsters thought to be like.. No, stop this sh!t... It doesn't bare thinking about...cops doing too much but where were they or are they, every time these women are getting hurt.. Oh yea, they 'date' cops

[@nawfsidereviews6029]

Then he asked her to repeat it. Sheesh

[@esorellegalarza5344]

When she said that she isn’t looking for a guy because “why give a guy my time that I could e giving to my kids” mad respect, because most ppl can’t see that. I have hope, and know she’ll get clean again🙌🏽

[@tiffymarieseestheteamarie4454]

For real mad mad respect for that. Shows she wants to give that time to her kids

[@tiffymarieseestheteamarie4454]

@Everything is Bigger in Egypt i couldnt agree with u on that more girl. I know the feeling and i hate when people put some man or relationship between them and their kids. The children do NOT DESERVE it one bit. Makes me just as angry girl

[@esorellegalarza5344]

@Thomas Jamison that’s true but that’s bc when u have a drug addiction it literally gets to the point where u can and will die if u don’t have it. As in, your body starts shutting down and can’t function without it. Taking the drugs at first was a choice, addiction is not. It’s something that affects her for the rest of her life whether she’s sober or not. And it sure as hell isn’t a choice of hers to be a mother w an addiction. She wouldn’t be trying to get clean if it was her choice she would just stop.

[@fernansi2940]

All guys are bads? Cant be with kids and a man? Not very open mind, Esorelle👎

[@shawnfloyd8739]

Raised by her mother and a runaway by 11. Says a lot about a single parent childhood. Listen up ladies! A child needs both parents. Choose carefully who you have children with and stop being so selfish constantly seeking “happiness” by initiating divorce at the expense of your children

[@diastaugh46]

She’s clearly disappointed in herself for relapsing 🥺🥺🥺🥺 You WILL OVERCOME THIS BBY 😭

[@drezc5444]

She needed that interview, she needed to let alot of her thoughts, emotions, and experiences out in the air

[@unfriendlyblkhottie444]

You can definitely tell that this was therapeutic for her. Once she opened up it was like a dam broke and all the tears she'd probably been holding in just kept flowing out.

[@michaelhayes6209]

This wasn't therapeutic! She probably talk a lot and he is not a therapist

[@undefinedd1147]

@@michaelhayes6209 okay, Dr. Hayes.

[@clurrtree]

Mark, this woman is so traumatized. She's reenacting her trauma over and over and her brain can't process it. I'm a therapist and I just want to talk with her. I'm so sad for Ariel, but she can do this.

[@noraschmalkoke7734]

The help you offer would be really good. She definitely needs companionship on this path. I hope you can catch up with Mark to contact her🍀

[@victorlopez3284]

Poor little woman

[@bcamps99]

‘Repetition mastery’ right?

[@leashc4560]

Same thing that I used to do and still do when it comes to trauma of my past but I have a therapist & have to take meds for anxiety,panic attacks & depression. The worst thing is no matter how much help I have and get you cant erase the memories & pain,you can only learn how to cope with it & having a great support network can help to keep your thoughts positive. I Wish her the best,it seems like she will have her life backbone track soon❤

[@jessiimamii5113]

she can... I hope she makes it.

[@ashleytolson937]

She’s so proud of those 4 years. I know she can do it again. 💔

[@saracastillo9309]

My heart hurts for her.... She just needs someone to pick her up and help her and stay there.

[@andrewgibbons1558]

I know she can again too. She can STAY clean too if she puts in enough despite however broken presently. Cheers to u girl bless you and your family and the hope we got for you

[@reneaustin5910]

I agree 💯

[@Mskiki1942]

Yes she can do it again and exceed that time

[@redneckshaman3099]

I bet her box is beat up like a 86 Buick 😂

[@tiffymarieseestheteamarie4454]

Something special about this one interview. She is full of pain. But u can tell shes smart and still there in the head. She knows how to carry a convo she has emotions she knows what needs to be done and that what she is doing is wrong you can tell she loves her kids. I pray she makes it out. And she will be there for her kids.

[@dreaaasarahi6136]

Amen 🙏❤️

[@tiffymarieseestheteamarie4454]

@@dreaaasarahi6136 yes

[@krisloveskristiiii]

ew bitch find a husband with your lost ass

[@dawnmartinez5344]

🙌 yes

[@Weightingtablesafter]

I agree. This one hit different.

[@Starluhhh]

Her smile when you asked “what was the best time of your life” and she said having her son I cried with her. I really hope she makes it out

[@alejandrosantosjr3448]

"Two broken batteries don't start a car" DEEP AS HELL.

[@tiffymarieseestheteamarie4454]

For real facts

[@jordanplans4611]

Her story is almost identical to mine. I have 4 years now. I lost two of my children in active addiction who my mom had custody of. I’ve since got those two kids back and had three more kids that have never lived a day without me. I met a man who saved me from the lifestyle and we’ve had 3 kids together and he adopted my 2 that our now ours. We bought a home in November and I am now a productive member in society. You can do this baby you got this!

[@joannasoto6456]

How did you do it I recently relapsed after 4 years and I don’t want to lose my babies

[@coconutshrimp7919]

this is SOOO similar to mine too. i had 5 years clean and relapsed this month...im trying to get back on the wagon before its too late.

[@jetsetjayyy9572]

May God bless & be with You & the ladies in these comments as well I feel for you guys 😔 but most of all your Children, because like many of these women in these interviews I Am that child And WE NEED our mothers! It’s our home base, our foundation! When all else fails that’s what we need. I pray every night For my mom who’s been clean for 15 years now, and now I’m my adulthood I’ve learned to pray to God for all the struggling mothers All over the world that they find their way and become their best version of theirs elves. Don’t let your pain define you, you a way more then what was done to you. 🕉🙏🏼💜

[@user-zs2dw1cg7y]

joanna soto don’t look back , don’t hate yourself for relapsing and don’t guilt trip yourself, understand why you relapsed and try to get someone to talk about it. Even a friend or posting on social media or even writing about it would help or go to meetings if it’s something you like. I’m sober since 6 years even thou I don’t say it like this , I don’t like to count because it puts some psychological pressure on myself. I started at 14 in my country and I was abused too , I now have a husband and a house and a business. Personally I never liked the one day at a time thing because it looked like I could relapse at any time given and I think it’s conditioning yourself to fail but my advise would be to look into the things you do not like about what you know about sobriety, what are the things you’ve been told that do not feel encouraging and how you can find an alternative to change your perception. What made you relapse? If it’s thoughts of past trauma you need to find multiple solutions , multiple things you could do for when those next thoughts will come. If it’s because you missed being high you need to find multiple things you could do when you wanna get high,just to make time pass because these thoughts don’t last 24/7. It’s an urge , it’s an addiction yes but at the same time it’s as simple as you wanting something you can’t have , if you know you cannot buy something because you wouldn’t have enough money after how are you able to convince yourself not to do it. You need to find other mechanism of how to stop you from doing this , from using drugs , and you need to find more than one coping skill because at times they are going to fail. Work on your patience and your peace of mind , do things like meditation or drawing or craft or anything you like as long as it’s calm and helps you work . Think about what goes through your mind when you relapsed , how did you make that choice to buy the drug and why. Just thinking about what you will loose is a good technique for when you are rational but when you are about to relapse , in the moment you aren’t rational so you need to find things that you can bring up in your mind for that exact time ...even if it’s just thinking you will relapse later , you will do drug’s tomorrow..just push it back in time. What worked for me may not work for you but look into behavioural therapy and coping skills and please do not go think you just fucked 4 years of sobriety and have to start over ...you have 4 years minus the X days of relapse .. Also don’t think you have wasted so many years of your life because you have learned a lot from your experience, be it just being compassionate. Tomorrow is a new day , ask for help , try everything you can but don’t give up and don’t start using regularly , do your very best even if it’s not perfection. I wish you to find comfort in your own strength...also ask yourself if watching stories of addict really help you or if it makes you think about drugs more cuz I know I had a hard time with being obsessed with it when I first quit but it doesn’t mean it like this for everyone

[@joannasoto6456]

K. K Thank you it’s been a week of relapsing and your comment just uplifted me today hopefully tomorrow I can start clean tomorrow since I already used

[@heyjessie884]

This got me crying at 2am. I'm a recovering heroin addict on my 3rd year, Ariels story sounds ALOT like mine so this really hits home for me😢its not easy..I have 2 beautiful kids that my older sister & older brother have because I couldn't even get myself together to take care of my babies that didn't deserve any of this that I put them through & it kills me everyday to this day, it hurts to see my babies because they arent mine & I failed them💔 Drugs make depression worse. Im trying my best. Im praying for you Ariel. I know you can do this. 💪🏽

[@katykelley9305]

Forgive yourself💖

[@llGzUsll]

Keep goin Jess ... I'm pulling for you Sis.

[@citygirl7536]

I’m so happy for you breaking free from that horrific drug! My cousin OD in the restroom last month. My aunt found him there .

[@ebonyeverythingcandy7141]

I'm also a recovering addict 08/24/20 will mark my 1year anniversary clean! By the grace of God, and my determination. It's a fucking struggle daily though. She has to 4give herself. I set obtainable goals for myself and I never looked back. I'm the type of person who has 2 stay busy by working. She has 2 change her environment, but in her case I know that's probably like moving a mountain!

[@jessicamartinez2949]

@@ebonyeverythingcandy7141 Happy 1 year anniversary!!!

[@jasminemccray4140]

fuck she’s so self aware. I never comment on any videos, but this woman moved me. You got this girl I swear you do !!❤️ you’re so strong

[@jordanmatthews8351]

"I'm broken, so everything around me is broken" Damn :( 🙏

[@msdanet31]

Wow 😢🙏🏾

[@laurie2968]

Kintsugi. With rehab and counselling I know she can fill those cracks of pain and shame with gold and go on to live a healthy life. This was heartbreaking.

[@karinaramirez-rattan4140]

Hit me way hard when she said that...

[@trinidazzlinghenry4562]

That hurt 😢

[@jessicano2944]

That hurt hearing that.

[@trevalee8612]

An as a survivor of child sex abuse myself I know what she going thru most abuse victims are walking around with PTSD an very broken

[@alexajones2331]

Treva Lee your in my prayers 🙏🏽x

[@mariebernier3076]

@Meow🐈 why do you ask that?

[@bluejp5508]

@Meow🐈 Everyone response is different, the more lucky ones just get a lot of mental disorders that we can't control or heal completely. A child survivor life is a total hell. Hard to "be normal" again

[@thecrownoffusion8420]

How selfish and disgusting people can be

[@dianamiller2890]

Is your life like that or did you make different choices?

[@Ninetyv]

Is there a follow up on Ariel? I would love to hear from her & pray that she’s doing okay. She’s such a beautiful soul!

[@soniad1275]

I’ve been binge watching these videos. I pray God covers all but Ariel touched me the most. She is crying out for help. God wrap your arms around her and lead her to a healthier & happier life.

[@malikspliffs2899]

“The shower after as a women” that hits for real

[@ifiwsaflowridbearose]

Creepy.. You have the exact same name as my brother.

[@marvmerchants8225]

Maybe he is your brother

[@janpieterszooncoen2550]

@@ifiwsaflowridbearose Jennifer Butler?

[@thecrownoffusion8420]

@@ifiwsaflowridbearose so does the NBA player

[@germanschokolade64]

Yes i couldnt imagine not taking at least 2 showers a day...im very ocd about it theres just something about a nice, hot, clean shower that revives you.. I gotta have that feeling...2wice a day..so i def get it when she said that .

[@Retrosenescent]

She seems like a great candidate to receive help; she's been clean for 4 years in the past; she has demonstrated that she can do it. She also seems mentally sane and stable and has a lot of self-awareness. I think she can make it through this with help.

[@nihilistcentraluk442]

But the drugs...the effect on speech and behaviour..or is this the underlying mental health/abuse issues? I don't know enough about the drugs specifically.

[@MarioGomez-nd2mx]

I believe an addictive personality has a lot to do with it. It's like us addicts are wired differently than so called regular folks.

[@kateglastic9826]

I just about died when she said she was 25, she has been through more in her young life than anyone should ever have to go through, she is wise and strong and beautiful and I am so sorry someone took your innocence from you.

[@desireemoreno5746]

This broke my heart i really wanna see an update on her an see her doing good living happy with her kids !

[@JarodJoseph]

@@paulie.amfg4600 are you serious?

[@amyj4071]

@@paulie.amfg4600 What ? How do you know ???

[@dreaaasarahi6136]

@@paulie.amfg4600 how do you know

[@ccwatson5741]

@@paulie.amfg4600 omg....WHAT!? How do u know this my god

[@USNMelDaria]

I wish I was a billionaire so that I could give these people nice housing ,pay for psychiatric treatment and rehab so they can get a second chance at life!🙏🏽😥😥

[@Joelheredi]

You don’t need to be a billionaire to help out those poeple. You can start with a little that you have and I’m pretty sure youll have a lot of money one day to help out more people like that..

[@emiiimm7436]

girl me too

[@willr4880]

I feel you

[@junipersages]

Makes you wonder why some billionaires aren't doing more.

[@Halcyon1861]

Thats not help thats hurting them

[@meggosling8451]

It makes me so sad seeing people who have gone their whole lives never being valued by anyone. It's so unfair, really feel for this woman

[@Rizzal6a6y]

It's a whole race of them. They come from Kemet(Africa)

[@franciscomartinez4654]

Whitemen respect no one but themselfs, its not just people from africa.

[@meggosling8451]

I was thinking less in terms of race just unlucky people growing up in shitty environments

[@simplyshaye1114]

When she said "after being with a guy it's just like uuugghhh" that's so sad 😭

[@gissellebrizuela5036]

Dude 😔...

[@teresarenee3829]

She never had a real man in her life, to protect her and show her her worth....she needs her Father in Heaven to heal her broken heart....

[@stud6414]

That's me also

[@user-nw9xn9jo8j]

Ariel is by far one of my favorite persons to be interviewed by Mark. I like her very much. If you see this Ariel, know that somebody thinks that you are special, extremely strong, beautiful and smart. Please if you can keep safe and try to survive. I hope to God that your life gets better and easier. You deserve so much better from what life has dealt you. You have every reason to love yourself. I think you are very loveable person. ❤️

[@MissChrissyJaye]

Molested ....mostly ALL the videos I’ve watched that is the trauma and it makes me SICK. PTSD is debilitating I as a sexual abuse victim myself can see how they turn to drugs to numb the memories and pain DAILY. I thank god for meds because who knows where I’d be without being on medication for PTSD. These women never had a chance or had anyone care enough to get them therapy! It is like a curse even with being on medicine there isn’t a day that goes by that I’m not affected by what happened to me. It follows in my relationships, my career, EVERYTHING. No amount of meds can take my memories away. But I fight hard because I will not let my abuser WIN. I see a lot of myself in her especially during my teens. She’s only 25 she can turn her life around and get the proper therapy she so badly needs. I know you’re a photographer is there anyway the women who were abused can form a group and support one another? The group I’m in saved my life.

[@amol1608]

yes, and because of some fuckers that molested her, there you have 1-2 generations of fucked up kids. she's the first one, i hope her kids grow up in a better world, but without mother and father, I doubt they will have that chance (but it can be done of course, and i hope they will grow up to be happy individuals). i haven't finished the video yet and i don't know if it's mentioned, but i hope those people that molested her were arrested because of that. sick motherfuckers. people can be really shitty, and the we should all work on keeping them behind bars.

[@alexcuellar2974]

Stay strong girl you got this

[@AaronHendu]

I opened up to my family and friends about the abuse I endured as a child and they all basically dis-owned me as a result. It's been 10+ years since I've seen any of them.

[@ellab2665]

@@AaronHendu I am so sorry that happened to you. Unfortunately, not all of us are blessed with a kind, supportive family. Sometimes, not justifying their attitude in regards to this traumatic event, people respond that way out of impotence, as in they can't change the past. Just know this: you are never alone. I don't know you, but wherever you are, you best believe I'm sending love and blessings your way. We might not ever understand why evil exists, but remember that kindness is still out there.

[@blessedbythebest1003]

Love your courage. ♥️

[@markoembarko9045]

Life for them is harder than we ever could imagine. They are survivors. Addiction can grab a hold of anyone....

[@8stax1tx7]

Exactly . Never say it cant be you

[@tacokid99]

Damn bro I understand

[@markoembarko9045]

@@8stax1tx7 Truth! I've seen all walks of life fall pray to addiction. All it takes is life to turn direction, which we all know it does so well.

[@ella-bt8hp]

Facts!! Seriously as an ex addict and escort/ prostitute (although I hate that word) I wish people would realise that's no life anyone wants to live it's the feeling of being trapped and having no choice it's hell on earth. Everyone who has lived this has considered suicide if not tried it life's a struggle when your clean let alone when your physically addicted to a drug it's horrible. I never thought I would get out of it if have moments were I'd say to myself were is this all going to end. And the fear of getting Into random People's cars aswell but being so desperate you still do it damn I feel for her I hope she gets out it is possible.

[@Star3marie304]

@@8stax1tx7 Right. It knows no bounds. Can go through any race, age, class, gender, religion, sexual orientation, ethnicity, etc. Nobody wakes up one day choosing this

[@alexisdestiny9147]

"What type of woman will give their time to a guy, when you've got your kids at home waiting for them and only a real man would see that" ...damn Ariel, truth. I have so much respect for your honesty. Little disappointing the interviewer couldn't see what I saw. You do not need a man to live a fulfilled life. I hope I have the privilege to meet you one day and support you in whatever way you need.

[@gracetruexbby]

My heart literally broke for her. I am praying so hard for her.

[@mariebernier3076]

This woman is so ready. Emotionally she is SO self aware, so strong, really really smart lady. She just needs to believe she deserves more, that she is a valid, worthwhile life, separate from what happened to her.

[@candacegolden9904]

Wow, she's got a real sense of insight and a good head on her shoulders. She's knows she can do better whereas I've seen some ladies on the channel not know their potential. I bet it makes it even harder for her to live like this

[@linsioux217]

Did you watch the video?

[@carolinerowles5951]

Totally agree with you Candace, she has a good heart as well as a good head too👍

[@naturallaw1733]

@@linsioux217 did you?

[@msmousebones]

This woman makes me literally want to drive to skid row, look for her & help her. Her story is literally so touching & all I want to do is help her. It breaks my heart.

[@undefinedd1147]

lit-er-a-lly.

[@michaelcavallacci2945]

She makes me literally want to drive to skid row and drop a thermonuclear device on it.

[@Zain_Passing_By]

Just words...

[@perlahernandez3228]

She IS a good mom! Thinks about her kids before any man! Stay strong Ariel!

[@lizwaa100]

This woman is real. No denial whatsoever going on here. She deserves all the cleanness and happiness for herself and her children. Hope for her big time 🙏🙏🙏

[@simplyshanna5021]

“What type of women would give their time up for a man when their kids are waiting at home” that’s strong!

[@MomoManimi]

Noo... The word for that is guilt :(

[@simplyshanna5021]

Momo Mon'amie maybe that too

[@MM-hc7zq]

A broken woman without hope or self love. A woman who dosen't see that she's worth a good life. A woman who is reacting to her pain. There can be hope & love!

[@jeromelove1284]

What type of men would be with a prostitute in the first place.

[@arlelowe5136]

So powerful

[@taylaluva]

Her story really hurt me. Praying for her strength!

[@Moodygirlie]

“ I walk around smiling & happy but deep down it’s just to cover my pain” I can’t say enough how I feel this . Depression , ptsd , anxiety and all of those other diagnoses are NO JOKE! I was molested by my uncle for about 5 years on and off & tried to tell my gmom all the time but she wouldn’t listen . It took up until my senior year of high school and the school getting involved for her to believe me. I live with that every single day & more. Heart is out to you girl ❤️

[@mikiroxhard]

when she said she was only 25 that shook me. you have your whole life ahead of you, you got this mama!!! 🧡

[@neydamartinez5322]

Me too 😭😭 Im 24 I was like 😣😣😣 she got this !

[@brandyedmonds8697]

I’m praying for her children, being raised by the same woman that couldn’t protect her. I can guess they are around those same family members

[@mwademathis68]

I'm praying over each of these people. I know the feeling of being clean and going back out. I definitely feel her pain. I pray she makes it back.

[@danzbutrfly]

poor children.

[@naturallaw1733]

"Praying" ?? 🙄

[@Nixnix2001]

Omg I know this is what I thought ! She wants to protect her kids but she puts them in the same circle 😳

[@bridgieohare8653]

Yea I cant understand why she would hand her kids to her mother who let her be molested by more than 1 person

[@Mollys-lips]

Her strength is her ability to cry, she's not so deep in it that she's numb to it. I see it in her eyes she WILL make it bck to her kids, I'd bet on it. God bless you Ariel🙏🏻💕

[@MystikalToast]

"Just as men are dogs, women can be too"- correct mamas. I felt this. This woman possesses so much strength and power...and she doesn't even realize it (obviously due to her traumatic experiences) . I got high hopes for you Ariel 💕

[@jonsilence]

Of all the many people I've seen in this series, Ariel touches me the deepest; she's the one I feel the most compassion for, the one I would feel most compelled to offer help to, and most importantly, the one I feel the most hope for. Despite everything she's been through, she's still got a heart and soul that can feel, and she is still very much alive at her core. Even though she is filled with such sadness and deeply troubled, she is beautiful and very lovable.

[@cupcakesimbamoyo143]

I feel exactly the same I have watched all of these videos too shes really got to me .

[@teamjacob2388]

Melissa Cates what about her specifically?

[@cupcakesimbamoyo143]

team jacob it’s just her sadness inside is so deep she reminds me of myself after my dad died (of suicide) her pain can physically be felt it can be seen . She wants help she desires to be better and I believe it’s in site but seems like she gets very close and then self sabotages because she doesn’t feel worthy she also said she stands in the shower because she wants to just be clean . She wants more for herself but doesn’t believe she’s worthy and that’s heartbreaking she’s street savvy and yet so sweet ...

[@teamjacob2388]

Melissa Cates I definitely see that. But I also feel that for many of the guests he has

[@cupcakesimbamoyo143]

team jacob a lot of the guests get to me but with her I don’t think she realizes how able bodied she is she has no confidence in herself ... beside the fact she feels she’s better off protecting herself than having a pimp protect her I see that she completely doesn’t see her worth or potential which is so sad 😭

[@Whatsyourgavcolor]

When she said she was just clean for 4 years, that humbled me so much. I’ve been clean for 3 years and 9 months and I thought there’s no way I would EVER go back. But when I saw this I realize I’m one bad choice away from being back out there. 💔 I pray for her recovery and peace 💖

[@MsTansheer1]

And I pray for your peace and your recovery.Remember one day at a time and constantly pray.You are stronger than you know

[@Whatsyourgavcolor]

Ms.Nadia I’m still clean!! I just realized I still could end up back out there 😞 but thank you so much! 💞

[@MsTansheer1]

That is wonderful and if no one have told you today I will tell you...I am proud of you Jenny!!!!

[@lenajones3407]

That's still an incredible achievement... We're all one choice away from a bad decision.... I think in the main the comment section of this channel and similar ones are the most positive on KZbin.. We're all here for each other. We're in that club together... One that no one wishes they were but here we are.... If any of us are even thinking 'bad choice'... I hope we'd reach out to one another here for those who don't have any other support... X

[@naturallaw1733]

Never get too complacent with yourself in Life. Always look to Improve in everyway you can because nothing is ever guaranteed and can change in a heartbeat. and I believe that always trying to improve and push forward will just make you Stronger and Self-Reliant in times when Life is trying to push you down.💪

[@amberdawn7426]

She’s exactly right. Our children aren’t enough when we are in active addiction. I pray she finds the Help her soul Deserves. I know that pain. Thank God for Trauma Therapy!

[@amjedhatu542]

This is the hardest interview I’ve ever watched. I truly feel for her. I hope she gets the helps she needs so she can be around her kids and give them the love she has inside of her that’s blocked from the trauma she’s suffered. I hope she figures out how to love herself ❤️❤️❤️

[@andreacho9903]

Bless her heart, I hope she gets a proper therapy team, graduates and get her kids back. I'm speaking it into existence. I hope to see a follow up interview in the future where she's doing and feeling much better.

[@LuvTHCD]

Let us all 🗣 into existence

[@MsLinda-nh4fi]

Andrea - I touch and agree in Jesus Name Amen

[@prettynailobsessions8305]

🗣

[@jillblanchard8535]

She was molested as a child being raised by her mom, but sends her kids to live with her mom??? Please pray for the kids. Please. Stop the cycle.

[@aznazguy]

She said she was molested by her cousins because her mom was away from home as a promoter at the time. It's not like her mom was in the house looking the other way. Her mom sounds like she's not traveling like she was ten years ago.

[@damiendolomite6492]

@@aznazguy the world has gotten so horrible it seems like people should just ASSUME everyone will be a molester so they shouldnt leave their kid alone with anyone.

[@millions2nette]

Yeah, thats the funny thing. Some ppl, their mom can be the actual devil to them, but some how, there is a psychological reason, I guess...That they still love, respect and often obey their moms. At one point, she did say, that part of her problem, was her mom always gave her everything she wants. I'm thinking that, she has some enjoyment with her mom, and chooses to remember that instead of just the bad stuff...Also, her children are still in her custody, so she could have access to them, if her mom has them. If they go back into the system, then, they're a ward of the state.

[@laurenferrell8082]

She is so genuine and such a good person!!! I lost it at the end when you asked her about one of the happiest times in her life and she smiled! She's a beautiful person

[@roxannerodriguez7075]

Mark, you are seriously therapeutic to so many of your guests! Some don't need it- but for those who do- I wonder how many hear their first caring and inspiring words from you!! I really believe you helped Ariel open her eyes her importance and worth!

[@rachelsticko5279]

Shes very emotional 😪 you can clearly see by her emotions she hates this life and does this to numb those horrid memories out ...i hope 1 day she finds peace safly my sister diddnt and this lifestyle finally lead to her murder shes been gone 24 years now x

[@rachelsticko5279]

Sadly*

[@Rebecca-hc5ju]

@@rachelsticko5279 I'm sorry you lost your sister so tragically.

[@amdemichaeldessalegn801]

Forgiving oneself is the biggest challenge in the road to recovery

[@RR-kb8gh]

I rarely comment, and by rarely I mean never. This interview right here though... was the most emotionally triggering one yet. You can really see who she is as a person. Her strength shows and I can see her doing better! Please update us whenever/if this is possible. Thank you 🙏🏼❤️

[@Imayardie]

This girl touched my heart. The fact that she knows better and is so addicted to the life she has to be ready and willing to get herself out

[@yaritamayo2152]

Wow when she said why would she give her time to a man when she don’t give it to her kids. Now that was deep. ❤️

[@wildwaymonee8o8]

because your kids KNOW you... a random don't... running from yourself is so easy when the person doesn't even know your name...

[@rosemaryoneale6694]

I pray to god to help this lady.. Listening to every word she said dammm she ain’t stupid....Life no one knows where it will take you..

[@oreooreo101]

I love you Ariel. You didn’t deserve this. I love you and I know you will get out one day.

[@familyaccount859]

U r sweet kiana...i love ur name...wanted to name my baby kiana...turned out I had a boy...so his name is Kian💙

[@irmafigueroa3734]

I love you Kiana, you have a beautiful soul.

[@ceciliaquijano7651]

@@familyaccount859 are you related to Ariel?

[@DavideonJ]

Amen God bless you, and Ariel. You are fearfully and wonderfully made in Christ Jesus.💯🖤🖤🖤

[@DavideonJ]

@Reed Angela why can't I care about you?even though you are a person I may never meet. I can still say I love you and pray for you and your family! That how we are suppose act with one another.💯🖤🖤❤️

[@isadrug3254]

Listening to Ariel's story, I cried with her. I am also addicted (although now I'm on methadone) and it hurts when I listen to these stories, because memories from dark times come back to me. However, I'm glad that there are channels like yours, because it is your work that opens people's eyes. Thank you with all my heart and best regards. And Ariel, I wish you the best of everything and improve your life situation, because it's impossible to live like this for a long time. Peace and love❤❤❤❤

[@loriclifton5102]

I’ve watched a lot of these interviews but this one really pulled my heart, I feel shook, sad 😢 she so real and honest and so beautiful. I can just imagine such a loving life with her children having her as a mother if only she wasn’t on such hard drugs and in so much pain. I can’t even think of not being with my kids. After some surgeries I have had fentanyl but I loved my life with my kids as a mother so much but I did understand how strong some drugs can be. this one breaks my heart I feel her children have such a beautiful mother and Ariel Deserves much better

[@brookeallen5204]

I'm wiping my tears bcz I can feel her pain...its so strong and loyal. She has potential to be a good mother and woman. Shes so genuine. I respect her. Sending her my prayers n love from miles away...god bless her

[@christinadominguez8833]

She is defintely crying for help, is there any way of helping her.

[@gaiettatuttoattaccato5435]

So sad society. I live in Italy ,but in USA WHAT does they do for help HOMLESS ? For drug addict the have recovey , but for people living on street? Can some one help me to understand 🆘🆘⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️

[@cilla-themusiclover]

www.gofundme.com/f/soft-white-underbelly

[@saslady3543]

Gaietta tutto attaccato unfortunately, it is true!. There are some resources available but not everyone gets approved for it. Many homeless ppl are turned away And left to fend on their own. There is even a lack of resources for addiction help as well. Many times if you are not rich, you will less likely get the help you need for recovery. Granted, there are some “addiction help “programs out there, but they aren’t as intensive as an in stay rehab facility. Jobs are available but many wont hire someone homelessness and who doesn’t appear to be well kept. Also, if they do obtain Employment, they work for low wages, which leaves many of them still homeless despite having a job! Smh. While I am proud to be an American, I am ashamed with how many things are handled here! 🥺😥

[@analisazamora6448]

That gofundme.com link is not real, if Mark comes up with a fundraiser he will always link it in directly in the description of the video of the person.

[@cilla-themusiclover]

@@analisazamora6448 the link is on the video description. It's in there.

[@whatdoufeel]

What you’re doing is incredible on so many levels. Most important, you’re helping people by letting them talk and later look at themselves. Way to go!

[@lilibeth1064]

can we get an update vid on Ariel? she is so bright I can see her getting sober and back with her kids.

[@neikieusachu7733]

Family is so important. They either make you or break you.

[@katelynpresleigh9271]

So so true.

[@kishaunhale5796]

No no no... They always make you

[@amydg1]

Her mother may have given her everything she wanted but she didn’t give her what she really needed. So sad. She seems like a sweet person but she really never had a chance.

[@Vixen28...]

Hope she gets all the help she needs and make it back safely to her children.

[@gm7285]

I was molested twice by my cousin around 10 years old.. I had no remote awareness of sexuality, we would play group games and I wasn't even sure of what was happening, and I'm not sure I can completely process it to this day at 26 but I know it happened. Unfortunately there's no way I could tell a family member. Its crucial to protect your children from your own husband, their own cousins, their own uncles, talk to them!!! Reassure them!!! Give them a voice!!!

[@TerrellThinksThrowBack]

“Your pain is the breaking of the shell that encloses your understanding.” - poems comfort me when I’m sad.

[@thematriarchy2075]

Thank you for the poem 💛💕

[@synchro505]

Thank you, Terrell. I really needed to read that.

[@icflo924]

That’s badasss! Put a tear in my eye. Deep

[@yamomma6479]

beautiful...thx for sharing

[@maxoliveros2978]

Felt a real fat lump in my throat watching this. This girl is articulate, brave and has a beautiful soul I really wish her the best in life not only for her but her children as well. Bless up Ariel.

[@familyaccount859]

Best comment

[@lloydlonn9158]

Family Account k

[@billiej.6248]

I love this girl! She’s so real and honest. I hope she does the right thing for those children 🖤

[@jaayyy000]

Shes brave for telling her story. I wouldn’t be able to be as vulnerable as she has been to so many viewers. I admire her bravery and She is a strong women for this

[@Roxannailene]

This was by far the best interview, she wants to change, it's heartbreaking.

[@sarae78dallastx60]

Her story touched my heart. I feel so bad for her. I pray that she finds God and changes her life before it's too late.

[@samo222]

God can do great things through her for His kingdom, I’m praying so hard for this woman, that she would be healed by Christ’s love

[@caponedaone2663]

She passed away

[@samo222]

@@caponedaone2663 when?

[@amyj4071]

@@caponedaone2663 What happened ??

[@mypriority]

I just want to give her the biggest hug ever. She’s a beautiful soul who just got lost ❤️I hope she finds her way soon, she deserves it

[@weezie168]

_Dear God, plz help this beautiful soul. Bless her in any ways possible, plz keep her safe. THANK YOU, AMEN._ ❤️

[@msdanet31]

In Jesus name Amen

[@weezie168]

@@msdanet31 ~Thank you, sweatheart! 😉

[@iamsahra]

Amen!

[@katelynpresleigh9271]

Amen

[@hanseriksson8509]

Stories like these makes me 100 % sure that there’s no god. Period.

[@SixFootofFitness]

“If I don’t love myself, I can’t love anybody else” . 🙏🏽 😢That’s real talk for a lot of people.

[@esterg7297]

I cried! Shes can do it! If she made it 4years she can do it she just needs to heal from the past. I really hope she can be a mother for her kids ❤️ sending positive vibes her way❤️

[@carliemerson9120]

Childhood “beats me up and follows me wherever I go.” Wow. I felt that on a deep level. I hope she can find the help and the strength to overcome her demons and make it back home to her babies. She deserves a good life.

[@junglette]

I cried watching this. I pray she is able to get help and change her life. Lord please heal this young woman.

[@melaniegonzalezart8506]

The most uplifting part of this video was her taking a drink out of that large water bottle. That was refreshing. Hydration love, I pray for your sobriety.

[@abbiesonntag3855]

I thought the same thing!!

[@youtuba6711]

That's such a nice and beautiful thing to say. Thank you

[@susanluna1466]

She’s in so much pain. God bless her.

[@syteanric]

Can we have an update on Ariel. She deserves a good heart to take care of the good heart she has. I hope she gets the shot at life she wants... you can tell she has love and kindness in her, i hope she finds it back.

[@fenwick401]

10 guys on her. Probably all have daughter's of their own. Sick n sad😷🙏🏽

[@emeryjones8099]

Wtf is wrong with ppl

[@meltbanana6108]

I too was molested as a child, I feel her pain. Mark is right it's like a curse that follows me around and it's played a role in the bad decisions I've made in life and the toxic relationships I get myself in. I see a lot of me in her the way she hurts and knows were her pain comes from. I don't know if there is a way out of this mentality, I feel so hopeless. How could someone harm a child and mess them up for life.

[@NaturallyBlessed3]

melt banana I am so sorry to hear that you were a victim. I was molested as well as a child and I felt her pain and understood her hurt completely. I have learned to lean on God and somehow I buried my pain, but it surfaces every now and again. I see men differently, I am uncomfortable with my body, trust people I don’t. God bless you and also you are a survivor.

[@naturallaw1733]

"I don't know if there is a way out of this mentality" that's difficult because we as people aren't really doing enough to deal with these issues on a Societal level. it not only takes the Individuals to try and heal but also as Communities we should be building the type of Social Infrastructure that negates these type of situations from developing. should be done this with all types of Societal Ills like Poverty, Homelessness, Addiction, Domestic Violence etc.

[@mariebernier3076]

@@naturallaw1733 Prohibits, not negates these situations.

[@naturallaw1733]

@@mariebernier3076 that works too, Congrats! 🧐

[@nannaed7833]

Joe Shmo the only difference is age. Child can’t consent because it’s a child and woman didn’t consent but violated. Both are rape and both are awful. However something like this happening in your formative years is hundred times worse than happening as an adult

[@Toothfairy1018]

This is so heartbreaking. I’m so sorry you’re in this situation. I hope she finds peace

[@sarahlunetta2051]

This video just hit at my soul, She is so self aware and genuine, I pray she finds a way out she deserves Life and the chance to be a mom♥️💯

[@alfatir14]

"What was the best time of your life" Her silence brought me to tears. I swear I see some of these videos and want to hug and hold these people tight and let them know there are still good people in the world.

[@andreaphelps3357]

It just shows how much drugs have a pull on people because you just wouldn’t put yourself through so much pain

[@katelynpresleigh9271]

It’s really so crazy how big of a hold they can have on you. Thankful to be clean now.

[@katelynpresleigh9271]

Valkyries SS fuck off.

[@katelynpresleigh9271]

Valkyries SS is this what you do with your free time? Get a life.

[@mel_issa__]

@@katelynpresleigh9271 we need to actually treat the trauma that caused people to go to drugs to escape.

[@TheMuddyMilesTrain]

@Valkyries SS karma will come

[@MrMrsramos07]

Ariel, I pray you find healing. Praying for you to find happiness from all the trama you have endured. This interview was real and straight foreword no sugar coating anything. She is so young to have endured so much. Breaks my heart.

[@Lena-uh3ky]

I hope from the bottom of my heart she is in a better and safe place now

[@jani775]

It's so hard to watch, so painful. I hope she finds the right help, I hope she gets off of the streets ... I hope she can find peace with herself and be able to have some kind of relationship with her kids.

[@tinalindsey1598]

"I was bad." NO. No child is born bad. There are only bad parents. I hope Ariel sees my comment. ❤️

[@chrystalmunroe4375]

Unfortunately that’s not true. There are many children born with parents who loved them and raised them right and they still turned into serial killers or child molesters. Many of these parents try to seek the help for their child and can’t find the resources.

[@thecorner9397]

Chrystal Munroe it has to do with a chemical imbalance in the brain...sad as fuck

[@joanalorenzo6949]

Nop that's a lie. My mother is an excellent, hardworking lady. I was sexually assaulted from age 4 to age 12 by my stepfather, and even if I understand why this girl is so broken is not the mom's fault. I'm also broken i could never blame my mother, because she is an amazing mother. I'm a survivor and I know that I deserve a good life so I don't ever let that person who hurt me win. I have a son and he would never know this pain because he is not something I'm willing to sacrifice to stay in that state of mind I do not feel self-pity.

[@alexsanteri1]

@Stevie Woo Nope!!!

[@alexsanteri1]

@@chrystalmunroe4375 Its very rare!

[@angelegabe7770]

OMG... 😭 The experiences of 25 years, seems like she has lived 50 years... OMG she is so sad 💔... The pain, the agony, the weight she is carrying, the defeat 💔... the ever flowing tears 😭 OMG ✨🙏🏽🆙✨💫 🕊

[@blasianpaninimillibops7609]

The way she says she feels "disgusted" about herself breaks me🥺I know she will make it out one day💞💞

[@tiam3253]

I've never commented on anything before, but I felt compelled to comment on this video. Ariel, if you ever see this, I want you to know how intelligent and strong you are. You experienced something nobody should ever have to experience, and your body and mind is still understandably traumatised. I am so sorry you had to experience the very darkest parts of this earth and navigate that alone. You clearly love your children so much and have the emotional intellect to understand the confusion that comes with an ever-changing household and the impact of addiction. You clearly understand the differences in emotional processing in autistic children, and how important a stable home is in the cognitive development of your child on the spectrum. Ariel, if theres anyone who can make it out of this hole, it's you. You're so young and from what you've demonstrated, you are ready to accept psychological support to process your trauma. You're destined to see your children again when you are equipped with healthy coping mechanisms, a strong support system and the opportunity to graduate and find a stable career. I believe in you Ariel.

[@LuvTHCD]

🗣please do a follow up on her. I need to know she makes it

[@Jasmeiryx3]

Praying for your broken soul. Finish school and take care of them babies. It’s not too late.

[@libbykish608]

one of the most moving interviews yet, such powerful messages

[@Boosteddjay]

Ive watched almost every video this channel has dropped, and this is the ONLY one to make me shed a tear. Lord help these people.

[@CrackberryMe]

"If I'm broken everything around me is broken"..... That hits feelings very hard

[@lindathorn5479]

She's smart. There's emotional inteligence there. She certainly has the ability to go through this sheit to get out.

[@mariebernier3076]

A thousand times yes.

[@aleksandramijakovac7855]

All she talks about is her kids, my heart breaks that her addiction is literally ripping her apart!

[@mimic6486]

Aww she said I don’t know what love is, that hits deep