I ALMOST QUIT || 100lb weight loss journey vlog

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OVERALL JOURNEY STATS:
Start Date: April 15, 2020
Height: 5'6"
Starting Weight: 252.4 lbs (114.5 kg) (18 st)
Current Weight:??230ish lbs (104.3 kg) (16.4 st)
Goal Weight: 150 lbs. (68 kg) (10.7 st)
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[@katx822]

“Why am I trying to prolong my life when I’m generally not happy with the life I’m living” Girl, I felt that so much. Stay strong Bea! Your videos genuinely help people.

[@karylm23]

Yes, this impacted me too.

[@got2beejn]

Yes. This. Yes.

[@kissmytiara19]

Ugh yessss, with you all.

[@mikanchan322]

I know right.

[@pollyso__]

This is exactly what I have been thinking lately! It's such a relief to know there are people feeling the same out there :')

[@natalierojas8476]

Are we not going to address the fact that Bea meditating in her comfy looks like baby yoda in his robe ? I’m here for it .

[@onceuponanexploration6048]

Y that Sunday outfit is everything. She could start her own line of comfy stuff. Tiny hole leggings and cozy tops. The animals are also recommended accessories.

[@BFF4FOREVER]

So cuuuuute.

[@PromisedJubilee]

💯

[@carolynokeane3115]

I was literally thinking this and then seen your comment! haha

[@natalierojas8476]

@@carolynokeane3115 😂😂 I’m glad someone else thought this

[@ap3he]

When she said she didn’t know why she’s trying to make choices that a prolong a life she’s not happy with... I FELT THAT. Hang in there B xx

[@AshleyZieman]

Hopefully those changes will make you want your life more in the long run ♥️

[@nadiahansenxo]

Fuckkkkk I felt that too

[@teresawallace8263]

Yep, I feel that way too, alot lately.

[@hearttwozero]

Same here.

[@sarahgirard1405]

Yeah, I felt that tooz

[@travellinjack9487]

I'm not here because I want to lose weight. I'm not here because you want to lose weight. I just like you--exactly as you are. You are awesome, entertaining and so articulate. I appreciate you.

[@melissamoore3506]

This. Right here.

[@beedee22]

This right here is 100

[@psymompa]

Same.

[@amandeez5782]

When the pandemic started I had 3 rules for myself: open the blinds each day, make my bed, and shower. Preferably before 12pm.

[@intrepidtomato]

That's the real truth. I'm trying to leave the house at least once every other day. Just get dressed, move around a bit, hit those simple goals and then you can see what else you can accomplish.

[@gabriellekelly3462]

Truth

[@ggundercover3681]

I think I gotta set these rules for myself. I already do the blind thing because I genuinely love having the light in my single window. but the other two are so hard to do

[@bulkeh]

girl, I appreciate the HELL out of the negative videos. Don't listen to anyone who's down on that, they can find someone who lies about the process somewhere else.

[@givipixie]

YES 🙌

[@sunfyrewoman]

Word!

[@jessicacohen6477]

Same

[@sarahcjr]

Exactly 💯🙏

[@vhp8146]

Yes - TOTALLY!

[@goldeelocz]

Anyone else feel like the animals knew she wasn't happy and were trying to cheer her up? And it totally worked, she was laughing 😂😂

[@PlaceboEllie]

my pets are so similar to hers and they do this all the time haha

[@stephrashid6513]

Mine do that every time I cry 😄

[@malloryg4251]

Yes!!! It was the sweetest thing ever. My kitty meows and tries to snuggle with me when I get stressed out. I love animals!! : )

[@msg9140]

Animals can sense disease and depression. My Maggie comes near me when my depression kicks ass. 🐕 ❤️

[@googleuser3749]

My dog knows. My immediate thought.

[@katherinek2709]

Dog and cat see you in bear suit: "one of us... One of us... One of us"

[@reneeasmr7633]

This comment made me think of Five Nights at Freddys

[@dana.c]

Freaks movie? Lol

[@TarynnH]

I know you’re struggling right now but give yourself some credit for being so damn persistent. You’re putting in so much work to build up every aspect of your life despite lots of obstacles and roadblocks, I hope you never lose sight of how tremendous that effort is.

[@dorothyrules]

Love this ❤️

[@kristab6981]

Such a beautiful comment. I agree 😊

[@jessicamason4223]

Bea. This is my exact situation. I had lost 65lbs and have been binging for two months. Can’t step on a scale. I’m devastated. Your struggle is so validating and your constant efforts are inspiring. I’m back in the game. One day at a time.

[@deniseperkins946]

Same!

[@maryellenputnam-reinhardt3305]

Ditto…

[@lostinsiberia]

Winter is depressing, the pandemic is hard, having no schedule or routine is almost impossible to live with so please be kind to yourself, there is no right or wrong way to get through this incredibly difficult time and for you to even be as productive as you were or tried to be in this video, I'm proud of you ❤

[@RagingViking901]

Yaaas! This! ^^^

[@heidilynnfalk]

Yesssss! Agreed 1000% 💖

[@christinelim4638]

🙌

[@Hallelujur]

Wow. Facts. 😫

[@jc142]

I could not agree more with this comment. Take care bea. Wishing you all the best x

[@kimberlybuman6497]

Okay maybe I’m selfish, but can anyone even imagine their life without Beatrice’s smile, laugh, humor, videos???? I’m here for wherever your mission lead us! ❤️

[@LYNXlNATOR]

For real! I get so excited to see her videos!

[@jenniferbueller2302]

We love you Bea!!!

[@Awaken218]

Love her! I am not in it for her weight loss journey at this point. She's just phenomenal. I want her to succeed at all things in life and to fully love herself.

[@areldia225]

PREACH!!!

[@pachpaints5356]

Enjoying seeing your pawsonal trainers doing their best

[@SunShineElaine]

wholesome.

[@juleskenn4958]

The way her animals all tried to console her was the cutest thing 🥺

[@grace1709]

I wouldn’t call this a “negative” video. I would call it real and I found it SO relatable. Thank you 🙏🏻 💕

[@kimmatura3564]

I can relate to having to consistently reset and start again. I haven’t binged in 2 months. That is huge progress for me. I have lost 15 lbs in 4 months.

[@kissmytiara19]

Awesome job!!!

[@biotears92]

That's so awesome! Sending a lot of encouragement your way 💪🏻💪🏻🙌

[@erinmaclean5064]

Congratulations! Keep it up!

[@cami.8090]

Congratulations! It's super hard, so kudos for you! 💚🎉

[@joypiepenhagen7118]

I feel your pain! I gave up bread, potato chips and ice cream for six weeks. I drank half a gallon of water each day. I attended exercise sessions at the Y. Guess how much weight I lost? Nothing! Not one ounce!!! I feel like all I accomplished was being miserable for six weeks. And I should lose weight because I am under 5 feet tall and morbidly obese. Unlike you, it really shows on me. My butt looks like Kim Kardasian, and I am not saying that in a good way🤦‍♀️. Life is tough. Some days I just want to cry. But what good would that do?

[@latteplease]

How can a yoga session in a bear suit interrupted by a wall clock and a wagging dog tail feel so relatable..?

[@LindaC616]

I was thinking "2 or 3 reasons why the treadmill was working for her"! 😄

[@avalonavaloncddd]

THIS is the kind of content I find motivational. It shows that we all struggle, we all have set backs. Losing weight, being healthy, lifestyle changes ... it's HARD!! And it's reassuring to me that everyone else has hard days too.

[@teresawallace8263]

Girl I know one thing, the guy that is blessed enough to get you, will NEVER be bored! LOL You're so cute, sweet, funny and an all around awesome youg woman! God Bless you girl with an awesome future!! Teresa

[@Emmy4ShortStack]

I label my diet as “the nightmare before Christmas” because I’m always on a diet and it always ends at Christmas 🤷🏼‍♀️

[@marywhite5892]

Haha I like that!

[@Rachy007]

😂😂😂🤣🤭

[@isabellwilhelmsen6048]

😁

[@CarlyMS]

Lmao 😂

[@brabbit5484]

I’m 20-30 pounds from goal still and I’ve been trying to lose weight consistently for almost 3 years 😅 I’ve lost a total of 120 pounds. 👏 There’s no time limit on improving health, you have the rest of your life. When I find myself struggling, I focus on maintenance and creating healthy habits rather than trying to lose weight.

[@areldia225]

Bridget I am so you! GOOD LUCK

[@malloryg4251]

Girl, that's friggin amazing!! Good for you. Even though you're not at your goal yet, you've made incredible progress and kept off 120 lbs. I completely agree about focusing on maintenance when things aren't going so well. That's what I do, and it helps so much because I used to just give up and gain tons of weight back. I've realized that maintaining is just as important (if not more so) than losing : )

[@l.p.3400]

I don’t feel like this or any other video of you was a “negative” video - they are pure and honest and authentic and I live for that. Stay save Bea! 💓

[@susansmith4268]

Girlfriend!! I know you have said you’d like a different term besides Weight Loss Journey. I’m thinking “Adventure”!could also work. Expedition, trek...

[@LindaC616]

I like "mission", it shows determination. "Journey " has become so overused, cliché

[@paigerosner8574]

Health Adventure!

[@MusclesandBooks]

Side quest! Because it's not the main story of your life.

[@jessicawest4515]

I like that one

[@maeikaa4427]

@@MusclesandBooks such a good idea, I must steal it!

[@laurensylvia2465]

I just heard a beautiful statement. In nature spring is a time for growth and winter is a time to slow down. It is natural for us to feel different during the winter months than the summer. And thats ohkay. Maybe we need to just accept it.

[@ltothen92]

Needed to read that this morning. Thank you 🥰

[@bunny_0288]

THIS! I have become a much happier person since I starting embracing each season instead of fighting against them. In Winter, I look forward to drinking hot tea, snuggling up in comfy sweaters and soft blankets, watching movies, reading, etc. I let it be a bit of a hibernation time for me. Spring is full of life, and I'm finally going to start a garden this year, and I have so many projects I can't wait to get started on. I always have so much energy and want to get so much done during the Spring. Summer to me is a time to just really enjoy life. I go swimming several times a week, we grill out a ton, and that's usually when we plan for a fun trip (when possible). During the fall, I love to spend lots of time in nature as it starts getting cooler again and the trees change colors. I start making soups and stews again, and I love preparing for the holidays. Every season brings lots of positive things, so by focusing on the parts of the season that I love, it keeps me from wishing for a different one :)

[@amycampbell9453]

I appreciate your honestly. I hadn’t stepped on a scale for two months, I felt like I had lost weight, 10 pounds maybe, ummmmm nope, gained 10.

[@bunny_0288]

I feel this comment. That is such a frustrating feeling, and I have been there.

[@jamiemaxcold9325]

In 2020 I started by making my bed every morning. It seems silly but it’s totally transformed all my habits slowly. I would start with one thing and get that down and then move on to the next. You’re awesome and just keep going

[@OhMisfit]

Can attest, same thing helped me. Its not end all be all, I still flub every now and then, but I really truly believe it taught me something that carries over into applying discipline to everything else in my life. Crazy how small steps can make such a big difference.

[@swthikergrrl]

Yes! I started cleaning my kitchen before bed every night and it has made a huge difference. Even if I haven’t been productive that day, cleaning up the kitchen every night feels good and it definitely starts my day off better to not be facing a mess first thing. I work at home so my other thing is to not wear pajamas during the day,,,,yeah the little things like changing clothes, huge.

[@Ashhwitcash]

“The mission is rocky” listen sis, this weekend just set me ALL the way back lol didn’t even wanna step on the scale today 😬😅

[@jennymulhall816]

I’m sitting at my desk eating biscuits like a starving dog. 🙊😥😂 How both we both begin again tomorrow? 🤞🏻🙏🏻👏🏻

[@junkmoon-]

@@jennymulhall816 same here 😭 Valentine's chocolate ruined my plans

[@3rratic]

Whew. Chile. I literally ate 10 croissants yesterday lol. I’m not stepping on a scale for like 2 weeks 😂

[@madisonconley9842]

I had a large stuffed crust pizza this weekend soooo I feeel you guys! I just have to do some damage control this week I guess 😂

[@arianab2563]

Girl I want to throw that scale in the trash at this point 🥲

[@ih458]

"Why am I actively trying to prolong my life by being healthy and making all these decisions, when I'm generally not happy with the life that I'm living?!?" THAT HIT SOOOOOO HARD. I have that thought every d*mn day! Preach Bea! 👏👏👏

[@Hallelujur]

😕😕😕

[@a.b.2405]

Guuurrrlll I felt that in my soul!

[@kimber4804]

Bea saying, “... what does it even matter.... Why am I actively trying to prolong my life by being healthy ... when I am genuinely not happy with the life I’m living??” is the most real thing I’ve heard in forever. Thank you for saying what I’m already thinking as I’m sitting in my car at a fast food place eating a chili dog and fries while watching this video looking for inspiration. You are Rocky!! 🏆

[@MzDreaBabiii]

I love your channel for 2 main reasons 1. The chaos that happens every video is my life 2. You help me realize weight loss isn't linear AND THAT'S OK. I still haven't found my motivation to start, but you're giving me hope. Seriously, thank you 💜

[@jellyjamjan3235]

Girll you should try looking for a therapist soon/again! It’s always so grounding having someone to talk through your various thoughts and emotions with, especially the ones you feel like you can’t tell anyone.

[@karylm23]

Do a better help promo! That way you can leave the bear suit on and cuddle with your fur babies while you take care of your mind/heart! Also? Im probably going to try better help.

[@whitetigarz]

The 3 second rule was an amazing self help book. When anxiety hits and you don't want to do something, count to 3 and "jump" aka DO IT. Wake up, don't want to get out of bed? 1, 2, 3.... jump. Don't let yourself talk YOU out of it. :) the book obviously does better than I did here but... it's helped a lot with dealing with anxiety.

[@chaostheoryxxx]

I love this thank you for sharing 💕

[@swthikergrrl]

I have a coach who I work with on Learning to control anxiety and negative spiral thinking and this was one of the methods she had me use and it was VERY helpful. Other than that she helped me realize that ‘stressed’ is not a feeling, it’s a thought and I can change my thoughts with training and asking myself the right questions. Best investment ever.

[@Mimarier]

You have piqued my interest in said book. Are you referring to "3 Seconds: The Power of Thinking Twice" by Les Parrott? Or "The 5 Second Rule: Transform your Life, Work, and Confidence with Everyday Courage" by Mel Robbins? Please let me know which book you found helpful. I hope you see this and I thank you ahead of time.

[@ginabrogan6899]

I'm 55 and recently discovered by doing a countdown. 3 2 1. Go. This is amazing. Works for me . Even for simple things.

[@intrepidtomato]

@@Mimarier Not OP but I like Mel Robbins' energy.

[@carlychasse5463]

Hey Bee, try a weighted blanket when you are feeling that anxiety feeling. It helped my guy, and my self with our anxiety issue's.

[@swthikergrrl]

Ohhh I sooo AGREE! My velvet weighted blanket is everything. Some times I crawl under it when taking a break from work during the day,

[@luzmontanez5563]

I just ordered one and I'm excited for it.

[@jaydreap2941]

Omg! Yes!!! I have the 15lb one n it’s been so comforting

[@Melavara]

It has made a HUGE difference for me

[@roseabellmoviestar]

I have one and it's great. But I also found that I need medication. You will find what is right for you if you keep trying 🥰

[@princessofalabasta7857]

As someone struggling with my own weight loss and mental health, I really appreciate the honesty and the more 'negative' videos. You're the best, Bea!

[@nicolehonadle3727]

I've been having those "why am I bothering?" thoughts as well, recently. It's so frustrating because I was doing so well and I'm pretty sure I just set myself back a good month. I'm going to do better tomorrow and I know you will as well. Keep going!

[@Sarah.719]

Same ❤

[@zebedees11]

I love your honesty, so much of what you are experiencing resonates with me, and I have a few years on you kid, when you are in your mid 40's it gets a bit harder, so for me it is now or never! Structure is key! I started a 30 day challenge today and I am using the Structured app to break down my days. I include mealtimes, workouts, work time, family time, time for relaxing, time for creative hobbies / reading etc. I am similar to you, I am 5'6" starting off at 246lbs, and I know I can do this as I have done it before. Everyone has setbacks, it's normal, but getting back on the horse is the true test. I wasn't in the headspace to start back on the healthy train until now, but I have set myself a realistic goal to work towards and no time pressures or no weight / measurement targets other than as long as the number is going down I am ok with it! When I get to a point where I feel happy and comfortable with myself then I will be at my goal weight. So for the next 30 days, choo choo mofo, one day at a time and one pound at a time!! WE can do this,! :D :D :D :D

[@BeatriceCaruso]

Thank you so much! I agree, structure is key and it is definitely what I struggle with the most but I am going to check out that app! I have never heard of it💛 YES! Slowly but surely we will get there!

[@emilymurphy2926]

I’m 43 here. Massachusetts I get it. So much. Single and it’s not easy. Structure is key. I’m so happy I’m not the only one on my 40s.

[@emilymurphy2926]

You should. Do. Am I g live thing

[@karylm23]

@@BeatriceCaruso im here for this! Can we all join a challenge together? Im reading 4 hour body.

[@AnalyticalChick]

Erin and Zo... I'm 45. I do live in NYC and I babysit which are a huge advantage for weight loss. I walk to and from work. I'm up and down all day. I go sledding, I do push ups, box jumps', jumping rope, shoveling and more while I'm working. I actually found the channel from the jump rope video.

[@juliafelicione2667]

girl when you flapped your bear suit at your dog i about fell over laughing and then almost died because i got feather dust in my throat while cleaning my bird's cage and had a coughing fit and my dad asked me if i was okay. worth the trauma. love u

[@akamitty4338]

"Me and Colorado have a lot in common. We are not consistent. The only way we are consistent is in our inconsistency" Lol I felt that

[@plumpcosplay8562]

same

[@RoweneDaniels]

I think it is the huge purchase you just did. We also bought a house in December and I also have anxiety attacks when I think about the big responsibility we have to take care of.

[@han14]

Dude, find a therapist that you connect with. I was exactly where you are two years ago. I know it sucks but keep fighting To get yourself to a better place. ❤️

[@mariahashimoto2053]

Girl I had a massive binge a couple of weeks ago, and after I let that go and continued with eating and exercising well I still lost a bit of weight. #teamLoseIt2021

[@BeatriceCaruso]

Proud of you for getting back on! 💛💛💛

[@ashleydvermont]

10/10 would recommend Yoga With Adriene's 30 day "breath" series!

[@GiFloDotCom]

Omg honestly, it’s so good after I finished it I went straight into doing home

[@being_carolyn_]

YWA for the win! Love her and her channel

[@alannaortiz2163]

“She made us drinks to drink. We drunk em.” Such a solid lyric from bartender by Tpain😂

[@kaseofthemondays]

🎶*Got Drunk*🎶

[@B.Champagne]

After that, he knew she thought he was cool. 😎

[@stephrashid6513]

"she made us drinks to drink, we drunk 'em, got drunk and then I thiiink she thinks I'm cooooool" my favourite part😂😂😂

[@xladyhailsx6929]

This isn't a negative video, girl! This is a "I haven't failed, because I'm not giving up!" video. I'm trying to unlearn nearly 30 years of bad habits and negative thinking when things get hard. It's hard! Sometimes you get in your own way. Tell yourself, "Move, bitch!" and keep trying! I find these types of videos the most inspiring because you're not giving up when it's hard!

[@JWVZ]

My mom gave my 11 year old son a Comfy for Christmas, and it is his officially unofficial distance learning uniform!

[@reedsarro2236]

As someone with ADHD: routines are super helpful. Having a little routine in the morning and one before bed can completely change how days go.

[@janetroska3335]

Yes!! It makes an amazing difference.

[@beebaboos1]

I don’t know if she has yet been diagnosed with adhd inattentive but I hope she looks into it. Not only is vyvanse a long acting Med that really helps it also helps with focus and feeling less like life is out of control it also binge eating disorder.

[@arielleck]

I was literally eating in bed and while watching her say "I'll probably get judged for eating in bed". No judgment here!

[@torrentnerd]

It's weird seeing someone going thru the same thing around weight loss and feelings as yourself at the same moment! I feel less alone 🤗 thank you for making both the positive and negative videos. It's realistic and that makes you so wonderful ❤️

[@vhp8146]

Yes exactly

[@BluieBeth]

Also...excuse the language but the book “Unf*ck Yourself” is AMAZING and has honestly helped me so much. My trainer suggested it and I got the audio version because hello...ADHD :) it is worth getting!!

[@bunnie1294]

The book she has, Atomic Habits, pretty much has the same underlying logic and ideas as Unf*ck Yourself. Brain over Binge too. Those three books are very similar with slight differences on what is the key focus.

[@AmandaMarie59]

kudos to you for even getting yourself to keep making videos through all of this! depression + winter + the pandemic is too much for all of us. and to think we're working through it, too.

[@hidinginthecommentsss]

B, I was the same weight as you when I started loosing weight at the end of 2019 and I'm the same weight as you now. Sure, we could've lost more in the time since starting, but the fact that we're still going and haven't given up is the most important thing, as long as you don't give up, you're not failing. 💕

[@BellaVlogsLife]

Is this also anyone else’s highlight of the week? 💕 Bea... I’m literally dealing with the exact same thing. Did so well and I’ve fallen back into binging. I’m making small changes every day to get back on track bc the whole lot in one go is overwhelming You’re so relatable! Thanks for being real. Let us know how the book is Ps watched all your ads... yano, just saying ✌️ **update 19 minutes later...** And so the weekly countdown begins... 🤣❤️

[@goodgirl140]

I feel the pain of binge eating disorder. I've lost 15 pounds, and for like a month my weight hasn't budged. It makes it a lot easier to just say "fuck it!" and give up on a healthy lifestyle.

[@Hannahfarrior]

I have binge eating disorder as well. I work out and eat healthy but like once a week I get an urge to binge really bad. I’ve been doing so good at not giving in but it’s so hard. My husband has a side job at Pizza Hut so it’s so easy for him to bring a pizza and dessert home. 😩

[@DAZEY_iz_healing]

Same on binge eating. Im starting a 30 day sugar detox. Today is day 1. 🤨

[@LinneAzalea]

@@Hannahfarrior Are you sure you aren't just eating too little during the weeks? I mean there's binge eating and there's binge eating. One is a natural response when you have had too little kcal to eat relative how much you spend, and the other is a emotional response and an eating disorder. I don't mean to school you or anything but since you said that you eat healthy and work out during the weeks and then feel like binge eating once a week, it might be a more natural occurrence as opposed to the eating disorder. And as opposed to the eating disorder the other way of binge eating is so much easier to fix

[@Hannahfarrior]

@@LinneAzalea I should have said I really struggled with binging until about 2 years ago. I weighed about 140 and was a good size. I was in an Abusive relationship and gained up to 215 pounds because I would binge so bad. I finally got down to 180 because I was tired of that emotional baggage and then got pregnant. I’m a few pounds away from 180 now but I went back to binging after my pregnancy and went back up to 200 after the initial post pregnancy weight loss. So yes it was true binge eating. I just didn’t give the details.

[@LinneAzalea]

@@Hannahfarrior Just to be clear, I didn't write it to question you, so there was no details needed. Too bad it wasn't just a more natural binge eating though

[@nicolecaskey6257]

You're gonna love atomic habits, and honestly I ADORE your honest videos when you're not doing great, cause that is me 90% of the time, and it's so relieving and comforting to be able to relate

[@littlebirdie1635]

Love that you don't just film the positive things and the days where life feels wonderful, but show the negative emotions and issues of life while you talk it out on camera and try different things.

[@deannawoods]

I enjoy seeing the “negative” videos. I’m going through a similar situation where I’m just not happy and I know what to do to get back on track to lose weight but I just refuse to do it. It’s helpful to see that other people are going through the same thing (although it sucks) but it’s a reminder that no one is perfect 100% of the time. Just keep doing what you need to be happy! 😊

[@maddybertani8161]

I don't think any of us would judge you for eating in bed!!! That's exactly what makes you relatable 🤣🤣 Thank you for another awesome video, big love from the UK💗

[@makeupfiend8426]

I bought a fairly large sized HeiHei from Moana squeak toy for my office when I was drunk the other week. I’m 36... I love it though. It’s the little things

[@BeatriceCaruso]

Ahahaha I love that!

[@LindaC616]

@@BeatriceCaruso if my mom were alive, she totally would have made you, a complete stranger, a ChiChi the Disorganized Cat in a ceramics class. Mom would have liked you

[@RiunaTwoflower]

The comments in the car about "wondering why prolonging a life you are unhappy with but still continue doing it" really reminded me of one important turning point in my battle with depression. One day I was able to decide to "just go on living my life, taking lots of photos and then just enjoying it retrospectively when I'm better". Somehow that took the pressure of having to feel better away. It wasn't all roses and butterflies after that but it was a step in the right direction. Hang in there people!!!

[@whispersofbanbury]

I just want to say I watch a ton of your videos and I think you have a great sense of humor and a real strength about you. Every time you fall, you get back up and you choose to share that with us. Your honesty is admirable and I appreciate you being so open. 💪🏼 stay strong sista!

[@sarahsmith6168]

Gratitude first thing when I wake up (literally saying out loud “I’m so grateful for ___) has been the most important factor in changing my mindset and attitude in the morning! Highly recommend

[@alainalaniedougherty9161]

"The Colorado weather and I have a lot in common. We're inconsistent." As a Colorado born. Facts.

[@angelinac3724]

Maryland is the same she just flips a coin to see if it's going to be warm or cold out

[@paysonoberg-higgins4748]

It’s the same for main, 50 mph winds one day with 5 degrees and 40 degrees the next day.

[@KatDJZ]

"Slid over my haunches" made me laugh out loud. And I'm feeling some random ass anxiety today too. Sucks.

[@oliviafranke9323]

Dear Bea: I’m a PA student who struggles with binge eating. After talking to patients who have successfully lost weight and KEPT IT OFF (the hard part) and talking to providers, it seems like weight watchers is the only “program” that works long term. It teaches you balance and how to deal with binge eating without restricting any food. I’m so sorry you had a bad keto experience. I have seen many gallbladders wrecked by keto done wrong. Hang in there girl, I’m 20 lbs down and you have helped me not feel alone in the struggle 🥰

[@Meegselia]

I just wanna stop in to say thank you for both posting your fitness expedition and bring honest about it. I've been having a rough couple weeks on mine, and it's comforting to know I'm not alone. You were one of my motivators for starting in the first place, and you continue to be such a positive influence for me, so thank you!!!!

[@lottieboland9745]

"People might judge me for this" girl im eating takeaway in bed rn, don't sweat it

[@lovelala6861]

The scene of u getting rid of fast food remains is too real.

[@janam1977]

Please please please 🙏 reach out to a therapist. you don't have to figure this out alone you don't have to do this alone. You are helping so many people by being there for them even though you don't have a direct connection to us please do the same please take care of yourself.

[@WallFlower81]

Bea you don’t need to apologize for posting a “negative” video. Your followers love you because you are so real! Keep going girl, we are cheering you on through the ups and downs, the good and the bad! I am also on a weight loss mission and find your channel so inspiring! 💜

[@visx1792]

OK that ad was so out of place lol. But then, I realised sitting through an ad is a tiny price to pay for your awesome content and I got over it.

[@sarahpearson8997]

I love my comfy!!! Also, I love all your videos especially the “negative” ones. It just shows how real you are and I find myself relating to you on so many levels! It’s always good to know that I’m not only one struggling!!!

[@jessicaa3641]

You’re videos feel like I’m talking to a friend. I am going through a lot of the same feelings with not having a set routine and feeling depressed. We will get through it!

[@heywhatupitsash7389]

So im having a hard time getting out of bed and forming routines. I've tried the all or nothing method, instead of getting out of bed at noon lets do 6 am. Yeah no not it. absolutely not it. So I'm now deciding to be nicer to myself and start my day with a fun activity. I get out of bed, whenever that may be, put music on and dance like an idiot while the kettle is on. This is all i can manage for now, but its more than i could. Knowing that i do that every morning, is a routine! nothing extreme or restrictive about it!

[@karatk8624]

I'm sorry you're not feeling good, Bea🥺 you're amazing and we all love you and are happy you're here💜

[@HollyUnscripted]

I so appreciate your vulnerability and authenticity. Man, Bea, you are a breath of fresh air. Thank you. And omg the Teddy Bear Comfy.

[@deec6535]

I felt this so much in my soul, that part where you questioned why you’re working so hard when you’re not happy with the life you’re living. I so understand this. I’m sitting here spending every spare moment of my non-working life studying for a board exam in a career I do NOT LIKE. (This is a study break, Obvs). I DO NOT know why I am trying so hard. I just am. I guess I keep hoping that at some point things will improve and feel easier or less soul-crushing? Let’s keep going together and hope for brighter, more pleasant days ahead.

[@jenmyers4327]

I love how you can draw on eyeliner while singing t-pain, meanwhile I can't eyeline while breathing. 😂😂

[@cili5724]

Beatrice! Your skin in the light while in the car is beautiful. I mean, you’re a beautiful girl all the time, your hair, your long legs, your pretty teeth, but today, in the car your skin shone. I just thought you needed to know that. You’re beautiful.

[@beginnergardnertolivehappi2742]

Bea I am literally in the same stage of my life and weight loss as you are. One thing I have found that helps is every morning no matter if I’m working from home or going out into the world, I start my day with making my bed. Small thing but makes me feel better and gets me moving instead of crawling back in bed. Small steps! You got this!

[@lizzyr73]

You are everything. Truly . Please give yourself credit for how hard you work and the uphill battle and struggle, of PCOS, weight loss, work from home , a pandemic , new home ownership, binge eating. I love your videos, and you are so honest. I started (again) trying to lose weight last October, 3 mths ,25 pds. Decided to try to challenge myself, to do a dietbet and 75 hard. Crash and burn ,been all over the place for the last 6 weeks. I see you and think ok, not just me.All this to say, thank you, and please take care of you.

[@PromisedJubilee]

Side note: your gloriously rosy cheeks during your careof blip were so gloriously rosy 😍 like you've been frolicking through flowery meadows in the Alps.

[@lemonpledge7093]

She's tending to those happy cows with the big bells. She's got a lovely apron handmade with care by her dear grandmother. She's collecting wild herbs and flowers for her family home. I see it. I feel it.

[@thismamasjourney5786]

Hey girl! New subscriber a few days ago! You are so inspiring and real. I am about 30 pounds heavier than you were when you started and I already just know that I can do it too. You never see people that are heavier documenting their journey from beginning to end. You just always see the end results. Which is great....but there is something different about watching it in real time! Thank you for putting your life out there!

[@juliecrace5521]

I think your videos are the only ones I refuse to skip ads on. I want you to get paid. 😂

[@dawnmolloy9351]

I’m glad you are documenting your struggles too because the struggle is real!!

[@sheisatabbym6014]

Regarding clothing decisions--- I organized all of my tops in rainbow order and I wear red/pink on Monday, orange/peach/salmon on Tuesday, yellow on Wednesdays --the whole "ROY G BIV" thing, and since indigo and violet are both purple to me, I wear purple on Saturday and black, brown, gray or white or whatever I want on Sunday. So all I have to decide is 'Do I need long sleeve vs short sleeve?" and the house temp / outside temp determines that for me, and then choosing a T-shirt for a day around the house or a nicer top for going out of house or work. Made life so easy. All of my pants/shorts/skirts etc are black, gray or jeans so they go with everything. The less decision-making you have to do before breakfast, the easier your mornings are.

[@victoriawhite9215]

I'm so sorry you are finding things so difficult right now, Bea, but please try to remember that although you ALMOST quit, you didn't ACTUALLY quit. That takes guts and determination. You are doing amazingly well - set-backs are a natural part of life and personal growth, and you are helping so many people by including them in your videos and admitting that they are normal. Keep going, and we will be here to offer our support and encouragement whenever you need. Xxx

[@xoxoprettygurlswag13]

*KZbin notif: Beatrice “I almost quit..” Me: When did this get posted..oh hell don’t tell me I’m fucking lateee.

[@sunlight8299]

I'm 3 whole hours late. Had to finish cooking dinner

[@areldia225]

Embarrassed at how happy to see your post. Please post more so I can not be so needy. You are amazing

[@leisure057blank3]

60,000 views and I just found it in the blink of an eye

[@fidget918]

B, can we be best friends? You got me with the "when I'm genuinely not happy with the life I'm living" part! You are amazing! You are honest! You are beautiful! And you are helping so many people. I'll await your reply, bestie!

[@nicolemecham466]

Thank you thank you thank you for this video 😭 I’ve been feeling sooo many of the same feelings that you have lately!!! We love you and you are a rockstar!

[@weightinprogress4399]

I relate to you so much Bea! I'm struggling with depression and on a weight loss journey. I have ADD, had a kid, gained a lot of weight with the pandemic and now I'm feeling ready to do something with my life and get it together! The feeling that at any point life is going to fall apart!!! I get that so much. Keep going, girl! Never give up! I won't either! Also, I hope you're able to find help with therapy and meds, if you need it. There is help out there! Don't lose hope!

[@keriezy]

Your rocky mission is so real. This is why I keep coming back, that and you crack me up.

[@abigaelwambui4689]

I have literally been refreshing my KZbin to see if you posted. I love you

[@BeatriceCaruso]

Aw love you too💛💛💛

[@sueh5698]

Because of you I’m on day 8 of the chloe ting shred. I don’t know if I love you or hate you😂😂 I’m dying here!

[@nicolemcguigan3766]

I think people love you because of how real you are. Most things you deal with are identical to me. You're soooo relatable.

[@plumplumi]

your honesty about how this journey/process is hard and not just a question of "think positively! if you fail it's on you!" and all that crap. It's hard because it comes with a lot of other struggles we didn't realize. Thank you for what you're doing and not sugarcoating it.

[@babygirllovespink]

As soon as the new water bottle came on screen I was like "where's the big heffer of a water bottle?!"

[@powerpuff4ever]

Winter is depressing and losing weight when it’s cold feels counterintuitive because the instinct is most likely to get heavy and be stationary to avoid harsh conditions. I think everyone has an easier time tackling weight loss when it’s warm out so I think it’s good to see that you’re focusing on your mental health some more. I hope you’ll be able to figure out what a life you’re happy with will look like because I have a similar goal. I’m kind of just living at the moment instead of enjoying where my life is and I’d like that to change for both of us

[@krose9489]

“and that’s how i know i’m depressed” ME every time i disassociate & aaron carter’s Aaron’s party (come get it) plays on repeat in my brain

[@mackhiggins4731]

"Guess life is good with ten seconds left... 😬 Grounded." Ha! Classic! 🤣

[@LinneAzalea]

For me it's "another day in paradise" by Phil Collins, just the melody nothing else

[@RC-zw5ue]

It's hey ya for me which is chaotic

[@staceywood4369]

Also- you’re awesome for being you and sharing honestly where you’re at! Even when you’re down, you still make me laugh out loud!! You’re genuinely so graceful!

[@lillyrose6568]

Who the heck is taking the time to comment that they "don't like the negative videos"? They clearly are missing the point. Bea, we're here because we want to see the full journey. I LOVE that it's a realistic view of the struggles and successes of creating good habits and sticking with them. Thank you for being so candid with us!