"I stay awake at night trying to figure out what reals and whats fake and I'm scared that I've just convinced myself all my memories are real and my personality is just a lie I've convinced myself to believe"
@eden23862 жыл бұрын
Ikr am I even real
@LxvelyLxve2 жыл бұрын
@@eden2386 I wish I could say more but I believe you are
@storyreaper00052 жыл бұрын
Its weird I can strangely hear mat pats voice
@LxvelyLxve2 жыл бұрын
@@storyreaper0005 H m
@storyreaper00052 жыл бұрын
Oh sorry I wasn’t paying attention I thought you were speaking all the words in the song due to the quotation marks. But I feel like I change who I am to please others. I believe my used to be empathy turned into pleasing everyone because I can’t make myself happy too much.
@rin30172 жыл бұрын
Oh my god. this song is a pastel ghost silhouette speed up, a moment from "Inside job" and a character from life is strange. This is the best combo
@pixeliien2 жыл бұрын
the voice sounded SO familiar but i couldn't tell who it was, now i know it's brett thank u sm lmao
@warofdeat3 жыл бұрын
1:05 that part is too relatable
@chipstar89663 жыл бұрын
I know right
@thepersonwhoasked54872 жыл бұрын
Are you ok?
@chipstar89662 жыл бұрын
@@thepersonwhoasked5487 if your asking them i dont know but if your asking me probably not i dont know anything anymore
@warofdeat2 жыл бұрын
@@thepersonwhoasked5487 no,very much comparation,negative thinkings....social problems i dont know what to do anymore
@annabellaerwin56002 жыл бұрын
My lack of a personality has reached so far I can barely believe it, and somehow I can. I’ve reached the complete level of deprivation that I can feel guilty, or maddened by my complete lack of understanding or personality, yet the next day I can be content, intrigued or even overjoyed because of my lack of a personality, some nights I will stay crying at night, other nights I simply don’t care, or frustrated, or saddened, or happy, or apathetic, or curious, never am I the same person. Even my writing style is fluctuating. It isn’t even dependent on what occurs in my life, like I’m completely at a disconnect with reality. Even when I’m crying over it, or stressed, or happy, I can simply turn that emotion completely change my approach to it, instantly I will not feel any residual guilt and be content, or go from content straight to animosity, from self hatred to prideful ness. It can keep me awake at night for hours, and then suddenly I’ve grown bored of it, and I decide “ok, I’m going to sleep now” and will stop feeling any negative emotions, feel completely fine and instantly fall asleep. The only constant is confusion, and even that I can turn on or off. It’s strange. I’m not even sure how to end this comment, because I’m not sure what emotion I need to feel, if I feel anything at all. Am I content? Am I sad? Am I confused? Am I apathetic? I think I’m apathetic, I don’t feel anything right now. But see, I can change that instantly if I so want, so what do I do?
@laflingo92732 жыл бұрын
I’m sorry that you feel this way I wish for the best towards you because I can understand that feeling you’re experiencing or at least I think so I just hope things get better for you
@harrylanataylorswain2 жыл бұрын
I can relate. :( I wish the best for you coming into the future! ❤️
@patrycjak58062 жыл бұрын
hit me up, if u wanna talk. I know what you feel
@yuscara2 жыл бұрын
it’s scary how u read my mind lol
@dodji23132 жыл бұрын
Hello beautiful! I read your comment and I must say, it made me feel down. I'm very sorry to know that you've been going through all that, love. Please do hit me up with a dm if you'd like to talk about what you've been feeling lately. Do you have any socials? Hope you'll feel better soon💞
@magikforce40692 жыл бұрын
This sounds like me.My personality is different for certain people.And sometimes I have moments where I feel like I’m not real,like life isn’t real,like nothing is real,and then sometimes it’s like I just forget about my own existence or how I exist.And sometimes,my emotions feel kind of nonexistent.It’s so weird to get those feelings sometimes.
@endmite Жыл бұрын
me too man. me too
@averytiredhuman26482 жыл бұрын
" I stay awake at night because I don't even know what my favorite color is! and I'm afraid I don't have a real personality.."
@sterlingsilvaa2 жыл бұрын
I stay awake because I get scared of becoming someone I don't want to be. I am scared of what is left of me when my wounds heal.
@tessahizoni87482 жыл бұрын
GUYS AFTER HOURS OF RESEARCH AND NO SLEEP . I HAVE FINALLY FOUND WHERE THIS PART 1:06 COMES FROM! . ITS FROM A SHOW CALLED ''Inside Job'' , ITS FROM EP 3 AND THE TIMESTAMP FOR THIS LINE IN THE EP IS 13:46
@yuscara2 жыл бұрын
sir/ma’am THANK U SM KDKDIEJHE
@LeeNo.012 жыл бұрын
THE HERO WE NEEDED
@tessahizoni87482 жыл бұрын
@@LeeNo.01 aww thanks! You have no idea how your comment made my day!!!
@LeeLuvid2 жыл бұрын
NOT THE HERO WE DESERVED, BUT THE HERO WE NEEDED
@LeeNo.012 жыл бұрын
@@tessahizoni8748 awww I only just saw this but knowing that made my day today❤️
@charlesotte2 жыл бұрын
i just listen to this for hours and hours everyday.
@Bandit_The_Raptor Жыл бұрын
I’ve somehow got the ability to gaslight myself into thinking some negative memories were a dream, it just felt so unreal that I don’t want to think it’s real even though it is
@nnear20682 жыл бұрын
god damn brett needs really a hug this poor Boy
@eden23862 жыл бұрын
"am i real i this real I don't know I DON'T KNOW ANYMORE My head filled with memories what if it's all fake I guess I will never know I think about it every day all the time it's always at the back of my head it's driving me insane"
@freddy_teddy38012 жыл бұрын
my personality is just me copying what others do.
@Candy_Corpses3 жыл бұрын
I just can't remember.. My entire life is a jumbled mess in my mind and I don't know who to trust anymore.
@xaziiee3 жыл бұрын
pastel ghost has some pretty fire pieces
@sillygirl.88753 жыл бұрын
OMG I’M NOW PLAYING THAT SCENE IN LIFE IS STRANGE 2 I REALLY RECOMMEND IT THATS THE BEST GAME EVER GUYS
@trixxie26562 жыл бұрын
I KNEW IT WAS LIFE IS STRANGE OMG i haven't gotten there cause I can't afford the other episodes so I'm just replaying episode 1 😭
@marig.4504 Жыл бұрын
I REALLY don't have a favorite color. I got to this video by searching about it on google. I'm a bit worried if there is something wrong with me.
@z0mb13buggutz2 жыл бұрын
Please I need this on repeat this is too good
@derletztenordvonhimmelsran33482 жыл бұрын
I can't explain but this song pulls me up
@leahbautista76703 жыл бұрын
I love this song so much
@ciara_mischa3 жыл бұрын
do you know what it’s called???
@shalinichaudhary28332 жыл бұрын
@@ciara_mischa Pastel ghost - silhouette - sped up It's in the description :D
@buniiprincess2 жыл бұрын
Me too
@vtamin_c50892 жыл бұрын
this is from Inside Job! Brett. I love that show-
@finnysshahil94232 жыл бұрын
Which ep is it from??
@vtamin_c50892 жыл бұрын
@@finnysshahil9423 it’s from the episode they all go to that reptile place
@pand_hanna2 жыл бұрын
The audio you mean?
@aspen62973 жыл бұрын
thank you this was much needed
@Pancreastheseventh Жыл бұрын
im in such a sense of de-realization and possibly psychosis that im questioning where i go from here and this song just perfectly shows it.
@lw49353 жыл бұрын
I love how no one commented on the fact that the pic is elite, LiS 2
@sillygirl.88753 жыл бұрын
Yassssss 😍❤️🥰
@imchaeyon2 жыл бұрын
I love Inside Job and that line slapped
@garfieldthereal3 жыл бұрын
you, my good xir, is what we call a fucking angel
@Spreeg69692 жыл бұрын
"i stay awake at night because i am constantly arguing with myself in my head weather or not my trauma is real or not and if im actually okay or need help because my mother has gaslit me so much to the point i cant tell what is toxic and what isn't anymore and when someone confirms it's toxic i question i f i was just lying to myself and it never really happened and im just overreacting."
@Rrr-bd2pd Жыл бұрын
I remember being exhausted and crumbling as a person because of it so I desperately reached out to a counselor just to be told it wasn’t an issue since it normal, getting dismissed. Since then I’ve given up never reached out and became pretty numb while playing a role.
@alienaliceien2 жыл бұрын
1:05 anyone else relate to this or is it just me
@viadenta58873 жыл бұрын
and i'm afraid i don't have a real personality
@candyvarelas97382 жыл бұрын
I don’t have a fav color ... I’m so energetic but then someone asks me about my fav color I run away I can’t decide yet idk what to decide....
@slayy22352 жыл бұрын
"i stay awake at night because i don't know if we are living or if we are in a simulation"
@Lovexrz2 жыл бұрын
Love the beat😩
@monster_66622 жыл бұрын
Every time I listen to this song...It makes me cry
@unknownuwu89662 жыл бұрын
I try to make my friends happy, and society, but they all seem to leave or betray me in the end. Was it my fault? What did I do? Why did they do those things? Why me? Whenever I cry, my mother just says to suck it up or that im faking it. I have been diagnosed with adhd, autism, low vitamin d, depression, and anxiety. Emmy memory has been slowly stopping working and my eyesight became terrible in less than a year. I suffer from sensory overloads at times, especially when my mother starts screaming at my father or something loud thuds near me. Less than a week ago I started to have a sensory overload and was trying to get to my one safe spot, my bathroom. My father had locked my bathroom so that I wouldn’t try to hide in there, but that caused me to freak out more, trying to get it open somehow. I started breaking down in tears. I then had to leave my room because of my father, and my mother literally outright judged me for having a sensory overload. I can’t help it. For the rest of that time, as i was recovering, i stayed really quiet and still got judged for it. My father never sides with me. He only sides with my mother despite how she always yells at him. I just…. I don’t know if the me im trying to be is really me. I hate my body, but do i really hate it? I like this color, but do i actually? I just don’t know anymore. I hate this. I hate everything. I just want to get hit by a car or jump off a roof. I hate this world and i hate myself for being a weak, miserable, piece of trash.
@EthanKleinScat3 жыл бұрын
Tysm Tiktok doesn’t let me find ARTISTS
@rey29592 жыл бұрын
“I stay awake at night because I don’t know if my old memory’s are even real or not am i being watched or not what if i have a fake personality..?”
@elifbetulbulut13162 жыл бұрын
this game is too good
@baran-brbrbr78672 жыл бұрын
I always thought I know how I am but now I realized I know nothing about myself
@bakugokatsuki60192 жыл бұрын
Man. I feel this. I'm an infj, which are known as the chameleon of the mbti. I can make myself fit in anywhere, even to the point I don't know who I am anymore. I don't know what I like, who I like, anything. I get imposter syndrome no matter where I am
@Youh_oezmad2 жыл бұрын
Yo yo, This saying is from the show "inside Job" Its the character Brett, a new co-worker that the main protagonist of the show doesnt trust very much, as he now tells the truth about himself. I relate to you Brett
@jnbdkhngsjakakdbn2243 жыл бұрын
what song is this? I've been trying to figure it out for the longest time
@wormway68643 жыл бұрын
it says in the description ^^
@Kuroiiyami3 жыл бұрын
Silhouette by pastel ghost
@imabloodydinosaur98843 жыл бұрын
Silhouette by past ghost
@charlottegriffin5772 жыл бұрын
I love this" sm ty 😊 🙏 💗 💓
@Sunny-od5sp3 жыл бұрын
THANK YOU OMG
@Candy_Corpses Жыл бұрын
Voice line comes from Inside Job ep 3. Music is Silhouette by Pastel Ghost.
@milkii_owo2 жыл бұрын
!!!!FOR ANYONE WHO WANTS TO KNOW WHERE THIS IS FROM!!!! It's from inside Job on Netflix (it's cool. go watch it)
@PodTalkVibez2 жыл бұрын
IN LOVE
@E-MANThuggin2 жыл бұрын
ima be real with u why this sounds like the game theory guy tho
@ryleemikelle2 жыл бұрын
HELP I THOUGHT THE VOICE WAS MATPAT BAHAHHAAHHA
@KabelCrosser2 жыл бұрын
SAME WTF
@eggsoffline2 жыл бұрын
knowing the context of the text makes this way less sad but if u need to vent do it here :)
@vello20842 жыл бұрын
vent? i dont even know what my personality is like. its never the same, i could take a quiz and be unsatisfied with what they give me, it wont feel right. nothing feels real, everything is fake in my mind , im never satisfied with how i act at all, this also prob comes from my personality disorder where i have constant mood changes and i never feel the same. it all feels so fake and dumb, it sounds so easy to be one person but i never can be just one thing. im all but nothing 24/7
@shayerahol64342 жыл бұрын
Just bringing it up, shifting your personality for the people you're around is normal. Shifting it to the point where you're saying stuff you genuinely don't believe is not and usually tends to be people pleasing which takes a lot of work to grow past. However, if you do this to get stuff out of people, you're manipulative. Which, if you are, you can and also should grow past.
@EliasTheEmo Жыл бұрын
I have little to no personality and I’m annoying to everyone. God, no wonder my friends hate me.
@EliasTheEmo Жыл бұрын
Me frrr ^^
@briannaparker-frechette29752 жыл бұрын
This song makes me so sad!
@newbestfriend9742 Жыл бұрын
Me realizing that’s litterally me -😶 Welp oh well 🤣
@BBbalistia2 жыл бұрын
Me and my entire identity crisis decided to collectively listen to this song on repeat.
@memaymoo80882 жыл бұрын
I've commented it already but the guy who said the quote is Brett from Inside Job. It's on netflix and only has one season
@ezgiiexee47802 жыл бұрын
Which episode
@memaymoo80882 жыл бұрын
@@ezgiiexee4780 I don't know sorry. I didn't take notes while watching the show. I'll be honest, the show isn't very good. But that's my opinion.
@ezgiiexee47802 жыл бұрын
@@memaymoo8088 I didn't like it when I watched it, I agree. but thanks anyway ( ˘ ³˘)
@Ezra_they-them Жыл бұрын
Honestly, I don't know what my favourite colour is. And I don't think I really have a personality. I have basically built personalities for different friend groups and friends and I don't know which one, if any, is truely me.
@junimconrado2 жыл бұрын
Pastel Ghost, you're sleeping Saunter in the evening You won't need me and it's just I'm colder, I'm colder, I'm colder Sit and wait on pale mist Bury me in your kiss You drown me in, a whisper I warned you, I warned you, I warned you Over and over and over
@NoSocialSkills_2 жыл бұрын
1:05 same
@CurtisJa2 жыл бұрын
I don't even know what my favourite color is( EXTENDED)
@vixenvvanity2 жыл бұрын
I Stay Awake At Night Because I Don't Even Know What My Favorite Color Is, And I'm Afraid I Don't Have A Real Personality ( 1:05 )
@BeyondBeyondBeyond2 жыл бұрын
How I love inside job
@FR12345KL3 жыл бұрын
spotify now please
@Mr.wilsoneer Жыл бұрын
IS THAT SEAN FROM LIS??!?@?@😍😍
@sleepwiitea9993 жыл бұрын
Thanks
@sandrosfluffpls77503 жыл бұрын
Sounded like matpat
@pebble59323 жыл бұрын
FINALLY SOMEONE POINTS THIS OUT
@namesizack3 жыл бұрын
Fax I’ve been trying to find out if he was who said this?
@kadee47273 жыл бұрын
IVE BEEN SAYING THSI
@memaymoo80882 жыл бұрын
@@namesizack Brett from Inside Job, it's on netflix.
@khoifishyy2 жыл бұрын
i searched up "whats my favorite colour quiz because I don't know what it is" ☠
@ikleaaa2 жыл бұрын
I stay awake at night,because i dont even know what it feels like to be loved by someone that isnt apart of the family,and im afraid that i dont have a real personality.
@acadiac74202 жыл бұрын
i think i lost my personality and im just taking other peoples personality and making it "my own" when i secretly know, this isnt me.
@cobain77352 жыл бұрын
wow
@y0ur_unknown..pancak36 ай бұрын
(Sorry I'm late) . What is the song name?
@vixenvvanity2 жыл бұрын
(This Is Actually what I Listen To / Where I Am Its 12:41 AM And I Cant Remember My Favorite color or if i have a personality
@sophakcc38073 жыл бұрын
could you upload this to soundcloud?
@pro-xx4ql2 жыл бұрын
picture is from life is strange 2 right? haha just caught that
@kinggroot62243 жыл бұрын
Song name on Spotify and no it’s no the description one.
@Kuroiiyami3 жыл бұрын
Silhouette by pastel ghost
@leo-qu8lc3 жыл бұрын
is the voice from a mattpat vid
@memaymoo80882 жыл бұрын
Its actually Brett from Inside Job, it's on netflix. Though I see what you mean
@nonspecificnonsense67803 жыл бұрын
0:26
@kazkyuu2 жыл бұрын
1:00
@magdalena46402 жыл бұрын
Is that Sean Diaz- I was literally just watching someone replay this game- 😭
@magdalena46402 жыл бұрын
1:04 (don’t ask 😭)
@woodpecker9612 жыл бұрын
I think it is woah
@4can2 жыл бұрын
What is the background from?
@eriroadto10052 жыл бұрын
Oh I'm the only person who thought this was Matpat? Ok.
@saracirstea84322 жыл бұрын
I know nothing about me...i don't have a favourite song....i don't have a favourite color ...i don't have a nu hobbys .....i don't like anything ,i hate everything about me ,even though i know nothing
@Donnies_forehead2 жыл бұрын
Am I the only one who thinks that 1:05 sounds like quakity?
@SomberLuna2 жыл бұрын
either quakity or matpat
@sillyz58374 ай бұрын
Reminds me of damaged bug
@_ducky_6252 жыл бұрын
How does someone not have a personality I’m generally confused?
@noova99742 жыл бұрын
I think it happens when you constantly switch personalities to please the person you're talking to. It's like, not having a fixed personality.
@annie_61942 жыл бұрын
Well, imagine you are with people who are only there because you fake your personality to fit them. But when you are alone, you become your true self. You would constantly change your personality to fit with people because they would leave you if you show your true self. I am sure there are many other examples, this is just one of them. Hope I helped.
@vanzey90. Жыл бұрын
Song name?
@edvinkollar55363 жыл бұрын
Whats the quote from?
@dragondenusodegen43353 жыл бұрын
it’s from inside job
@Emy-jk1ly3 жыл бұрын
@@dragondenusodegen4335 what season?
@flutter15183 жыл бұрын
@@Emy-jk1ly there’s only 1 season
@CoolestEpicGuy3 жыл бұрын
@@dragondenusodegen4335 YES I KNEW IT!
@Emy-jk1ly3 жыл бұрын
@@flutter1518 oh yea I jus saw that ty
@NN-ho3sx2 жыл бұрын
song?
@chikentendersandfries2 жыл бұрын
Is that Sean
@thenighttimesystem44972 жыл бұрын
why does it never work.
@tempestuousmug24642 жыл бұрын
Every time I listen to this I hear "Mr Beast is singing" in the beginning
@gianfranco-r2 жыл бұрын
name of serie?
@SavLuvsSav2 жыл бұрын
Is that Sean from life is strange
@noova99742 жыл бұрын
Yup
@Mars._.Bars35332 жыл бұрын
Free to vent??
@SJ-ny9py2 жыл бұрын
Oof this slowed
@trixxie26562 жыл бұрын
Is that life is strange 2?
@Thegame-nh1uz3 жыл бұрын
Song name
@markoperic13073 жыл бұрын
Silhouette sped up
@tatianaizzy11193 жыл бұрын
silhouette pastel ghost thats the original one
@Heapass_skriddle_it_a_bad_lime2 жыл бұрын
Whys the voice sound like MatPat to me am I the only one 😭