i hate agoraphobia

[@SeethingSimp]

I don't think I've ever had agoraphobia per se, though whenever I get anxiety when out, then the immediate thought is how long until I get home. I just turned 31 and have never had a real job, so you've beat me there. I can drive in my own town fine, but haven't been to the nearest city (25 minutes) in a few years, though I went more than halfway two days in a row last weekend and was fine. I've had depersonalization for 11 years straight, though I did have some relief from it a week ago. Both of those are from doing a certain technique, I'll share it with you if things keep getting better. Other than that, it's good how you still have friends after all these years. I haven't had a real one in like a decade. Your videos are like the only ones I ever play at normal speed instead of double because they're so interesting. Since it's so rare to hear anyone that is so relatable, I can now see why people forge parasocial relationships with KZbinrs.

[@ghughghugh]

Ashley! I'm so pleased you survived the rain. 😆 I always worry about you when I hear of all these massive weather events hitting Florida. In the PNW, we always hear about how Mt. Rainier is going to wipe us all out, but I've been hearing that for 40 years, and that damn rock has barely squeaked a fart yet. My struggles? I'm 43, live with parents. It's expensive where I live, so I've just added to my savings over the years. I'm lucky I get to work full-time with a close buddy of mine. I have myotonia congenita, which is a neurological disorder affecting the muscles. Unlike most with the condition, I don't have any pain. I'm not/won't be in a wheelchair. My balance is shitty. As a result, I generally don't like going places, especially in groups and at unfamiliar locations. I hate high ceilings and crowds, as my body/muscles can go stiff if I'm startled or bumped. The car is my safe haven. I would have an easier time driving 3000 miles to your house than I would just walking through what's your guys' store...Publix? I recently got on Lexapro, and now, for the first time in my life, I'm doing better than most people I know, mentally. I'm single, but I don't mind. I don't do much, except chill and drive to see pretty scenery. Women don't like to be bored, and I have plenty of guitars to play. It all works out! For Halloween, I dressed up like KoRn. My workmates got a kick out of it. I have the Adidas tracksuit, and more importantly, thr Ibanez Universe green-dot 7-string guitar they use. 👌 Tonight, I got a Caramel Java Chip Blizzard to celebrate a surprise 3-day weekend. I'm feeling fairly happy, and that's ALL I have ever wanted for you, ever since I first saw you on KZbin--your separation anxiety video. I remember, because I found it about 10 years ago...searching "agoraphobia". I still have this hug that I've not been able to send. 10 years is a long time, but it goes by quickly in retrospect. You've always been a fighter, and you've inspired more than just me to keep going over the years. Thank you so much, and I speak for those who may be too shy to admit that you've helped them as well.

[@Armored_Saint]

The wreckage of my past is haunting me. It just won't leave me alone. I still find it all a mystery. Could it be a dream? Road to Nowhere leads to me. ~ Ozzy (1991)

[@ShadowGuy-rt1wo]

“Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.” ‭‭Philippians‬ ‭4‬:‭6‬-‭7‬ ‭NIV‬

[@Danny-rs2mk]

I have panic and anxiety, but never agoraphobia. I think you might have it worse than me. Your life sounds hard. Most days are bearable for me in terms of anxiety since I stopped working and socializing. I don’t go to events, even like birthday parties of family members. I’ve become scared of people cause they always get pissed off at me at some point. World seems more lonely as I have aged and become more solitary. Dad died a few years ago and sister moved out. Just me and my mom now. Scared of mom possibly dying and me being left alone with the anxiety. Also, don’t talk to my best friend anymore since he got pissed off and basically told me not to let the fear and anxiety affect me or something like that. I’ll never achieve anything and never find love again.