I Lost My Virginity At 8 Years Old

[@Cloude808]

"1 girl 5 guys and im not talking burgers and fries" is unfortunately a bar

[@Gobble640]

fr

[@ITSTIMETOSAYGOODBYE]

add a couple more rhymes and you got eminem style rap like "Happin' and grabbin' a napkin and askin' the lab, what's happenin'? trappin' Claptrap in a bat's natural habitat"

[@sir_ivry692]

can't remove the 669 likes gaw damnit

[@CorviusKovacs]

I haven’t watched the video yet but there’s no way bro isn’t a victim

[@izclxtchhq9340]

Them ads huh😂

[@emanuelmora8204]

Just watch his other videos and you'll see he's not a victim

[@CerosTelevision]

@@emanuelmora8204 listen to this person I am deeply not a victim. I for most of my life was the antagonist

[@yonimeller]

​@@CerosTelevision I mean full respect to you man, you were very clearly a victim of your environment. Hope you're in a better situation right now

[@CerosTelevision]

@@yonimeller I am

[@f_9sersstuff853]

Being sexualized as children really messes kids up. Every single time. My dad was the same. Cheating with women. Magazines everywhere. My brothers got into serious trouble as adults because of it. A good friend of mine was sa by her step dad and was addicted to sex and drugs till she died. You are helping people talking about it. It’s very hard to dig through that trauma.

[@VeraExora]

As someone who was sexualised as a kid because of my sport, I can fully concur that I'm generally brain-broken.

[@R41ph3a7b6]

​@VeraExora I hope your doing better. But, if you don't mind me asking, what was your sport?

[@Violight9]

are you a flamingo fan?

[@VeraExora]

@@R41ph3a7b6 I was a swimmer

[@aiojcxs0932czxlkm]

This simply isn't true. Selection bias and survivorship bias. We know from countless research papers, meta-analyses, and histories of many ethnic groups and tribes that being 'sexualized' is not at all negative, and is quite positive. Many native American and south Asian cultures in the past had their kids fully insturctued and introduced by age 5-6, with complex and highly active relationships by age 8-10. In one culture, there was polyamorus relationships among young children-- encouraged by the adults. None of this was negative. Mental illness is highly heritble, with depression, BPD, and the vulnerability to PTSD being around 50% genetic. People in shitty environments and those who are more prone to mental illness are more vulnerable to such abuses. There is also poly-victimization. Adult personality is also almost entirely genetic. Your friend was an outlier. The people who had positive experiences aren't going to tell everyone that they did-- it's one of the greatest taboos. I was 'sexualized' as a child and I'm so so grateful.

[@hoopchristine5202]

Tomorrow’s video: how I orchestrated my parents divorce

[@CLARKCLOUT]

We need that one fr 💯

[@Georges_IV]

Bro just said that in passing

[@KytLuna]

yeah no that was a crazy thing to just throw out there like that

[@dogeclanleader1]

Based sabaton pfp

[@ParksMnarks]

Awesome profile

[@ZiddersRooFurry]

When I was eight I was molested by an older relative and it messed me up, too. This person manipulated me until I was in my 20's and managed to move away from home. I'll be 50 in August and I'm still dealing with the aftereffects of that abuse. I have gotten better, though but it's taken a long time and I still feel shame from that.

[@mcrenn5350]

Damn fam, I hope it gets better

[@tommarnt]

Hope you recover from that horrible experience

[@AcaiMations]

Ik this is trauma talk and i shouldn't be asking this, but YOU'RE 50?

[@mrdoggersxd3351]

​@@AcaiMations theres nothing wrong with being 50, tho being a furry while being 50 is a bit weird.

[@thebloogoop3652]

sorry for that , my birthday is also in august , august 9th , hope you can rest peacefully knowing they'll be in hell.

[@Amberxxbbunni]

I’m only 4 minutes in and I’m bewildered. Ur gf dying, trains, drugs. Like what in the euphoria😭

[@CerosTelevision]

This is a trauma dump im ngl

[@ithinkitsivy]

@@CerosTelevisionaw im so sorry 🫶🏽

[@Sawniicc]

@@ithinkitsivy 🍆

[@Tofu_The_Opossum]

I didnt get the trains part someone please explain

[@Wollly457]

@@Tofu_The_Opossum dudes and one girl, devils tango

[@SuburbanPrncess]

OH MY GOD THIS STORY GOES LEFT THAN EVEN MORE LEFT THEN EVEN MOREEEEE LEFT. This level of vulnerability and honesty is so refreshing yet jarring at the same time. I fw it

[@ledjeet2985]

You've been through some horrors. Individuals, such as yourself, who can find their center, like you do, in the midst of that, is pretty fucking inspiring to witness.

[@ledjeet2985]

W Kindness

[@struggle6996]

Nigga forgot to switch accounts lmao💀💀 ​@@ledjeet2985

[@heathertaylor8904]

Fuck..God dammit..I really want to hug you right now. This is utterly beautiful in its brutal honesty. I was fucked up and overly sexualized as a kid from the age of 4 til my entire family split up at age 12 because my sisters didn't believe me. They still don't. They still protect and care for my abuser to this day and I'm just kind of... floating. Frozen, and alone, at the age of 46. Trauma is a wound that is quantifiable. Measurable. It's a wound in the truest sense of the word. It causes actual damage in the amygdala, hippocampus, and prefrontal cortex. But no one can truly measure what it feels like, or understand just how deeply profound the damage to our soul is. The only thing that heals me on any level is seeing beautiful souls like yours healing, little by little, one way or another, the cost be damned because that's what they deserve. What they deserved in the first place is irrelavent. That egg can't be unscrambled, that shattered glass can't be put back together, at least in conventional ways. So we have to come up with new ways to put in perspective this immense pain that exists inside us. Make something new out of it. Here's a term for you, something new, the opposite of what your friends talk about: Kintsugi. Google it. This is what you're actively doing right now, and it's beautiful. I don't know you, but I love you. I love you like a soldier loves another soldier in a war they never wanted to be a part of, even if they never met. You're still here. And I'm proud of you for that. This is the most profound art humankind is capable of, even if you don't quite understand the magnitude of it yet. You captured the essence of humanity in film for all time, for others to use in their most painful moments when they are feeling isolated, on a singular island of pain, this video will be on the horizon for them. It's a profoundly beautiful thing.

[@user-fp9db7dw8p]

I'm sorry, four?! FOUR?! Holy shit I am so so so sorry that happened to you I hope that you're doing better and have healed but I understand if you don't. Keep fighting the pain man, were rootin for you. 🙏

[@b-rice5008]

Watch dr k. He’s a youtuber that was a monk and a phycologist. He’s a great guy and teaches a lot about how to fix peoples problems like trauma. Check him out. Ily❤ and am proud that someone can go through all that and keep on going.

[@TC_ReflexYT]

does you being sexulised at 4 mean that you where getting sexually abused at that age?

[@mamajoe2221]

what the fuck 😭

[@planta-ray]

Ceros dropping some mad facts at 12:04 while grabbing a random cat out of the aether got me in stitches

[@Gerisk]

i'm getting surgery 😭😭

[@Chris_no_father_figure]

@@Gerisk😭

[@brEZ527]

And threw him😭

[@BrooklynFerguson-bp5hg]

@@GeriskI hope it will or did go well😭

[@starbitzrain]

You are one hell of a story teller. It's nice to see more guys talking about how this kind of trauma can affect people cause let's be honest, not enough do and it clearly hurts to hold in that shit I'm glad your life has become better as time has passed. I'm still dealing with my own can of worms, but seeing you living your best life now makes me hopeful I can live my own too

[@JustaStorm]

I love how you talk about your past of being in an uncomfortable environment. You're so real for that and I love it.. I learn surprisingly a lot abt myself during those videos tbh even tho I thought i knew everything.

[@samadams557]

Well, **it. I wasn't expecting a sermone this Friday, but here we are. Thank you not-religiously-associated pastor. I needed this. Thank you for existing.

[@samadams557]

I am also not-religiously-associated.

[@Asian-1049]

I am a 14 year old asian boy. I was exposed to 🌽ography when i was 7 few days ago i decided to quit hopefully this time i can succeed. Thankfully during the time i was actively viewing 🌽 Ive managed to stay away from not so normal stuff. Ever since 4 years ago every time I finish i continuously felt a sense of regret and grief. This feeling became bigger and ever lasting day by day i was left wondering how could a young man who had both parents who loved and supported him turn into a wreck of a person (there are other factors that i didn't mension such as isolation etc) I moved to my home country last year In order to hide these problems manifested this character who is an insane careless horny person luckily its break so i dont have to put on this mask. Few days ago i discovered your channel it comforts me everytime i feel panic. Thank you for letting me know im not the only one. (I didnt mean write this much srry)

[@Ashesinferno28]

Man, that’s a really good thing that you’re trying to quit, stuff can start out as a comfort but slowly become an addiction, and like you mentioned social isolation, it’s good you got the awareness about it that you have now at your age, using your self-awareness will take you far man, I wish you the best of luck❤

[@Zyrdrakyll]

Rather than completely cutting it out, use it sparingly, and without guilt, like eating a burger every once in a while won't kill you but if the only thing you do is eating burgers it will hurt

[@dsaid20817]

dude im exactly the same way, its tough but i believe we can get through this together. youre not alone in this situation. i feel immense guilt and hatred for myself whenever i look at 🌽 too, it disgusts me and yet i keep being tempted to actively search for it. wish you luck for the future bro, i'm quitting as well. dont think someone my age should be so used to seeing it, and everyone in my family would see me completely different if they ever found out.. its not the funnest to think about

[@Zyrdrakyll]

@@dsaid20817 imma be real with you, you should feel guilt and pain for doing sormthing that's normal and natural, what matters is you having the control of your consumption, that it's something that you want to do, not something that you have to do, and don't hate yourself for failing, everyone fails

[@bingonight1504]

There is so much beauty to be found in the world! You can be the person you want to be, you have so much time you don't even know :)

[@fobro9023]

I was groomed and SA'ed from the age of 5 until 14. I wanna say I hear you and see you, I'd recommend therapy because it's genuinely helped me heal from every experience, even the most recent ones. (I haven't gotten through the vid) Either way, dawg you're a victim and I wish you the absolute best.

[@johnshedIetsky]

this shit hits hard man. not enough ppl inna comments talkin bout the actual real shit in this video, they just talking bout the jokes n shit. but u a wise man fr and idk how but i relate to you alot man. you helped to give me a new perspective.

[@CerosTelevision]

The average person loves comedy more than wisdom hence why I have to be funny to give a message

[@johnshedIetsky]

@@CerosTelevision thats true but i feel like if everyone is only talking bout the jokes rather than the message itself than are the people really focusing on the message, yfm?

[@johnshedIetsky]

@@CerosTelevisionnvm tho the comments got more people saying real shit anyways now tho lol

[@pablitotorres8254]

Your life is wild man, it would make for a fucking banger of a book/movie

[@yuli161-daedalus]

One of those 90s movie the queer kids who experienced an unhealthy childhood in a filled with abuse way would obsess and cry over, watching it again and again bc you recognize the universal struggle but it's beautiful, but you're sobbing at night in bed, but it's beautiful right?

[@ledjeet2985]

Each one of these would make a banger narrated short.

[@user-jl8wj8fz5q]

@@yuli161-daedalus nah it has lgbt

[@rimut230]

@@user-jl8wj8fz5q so what?

[@Swagenstein]

You might have grown up early, but you never need to stop being a kid. My grandpa always says that retirement is a second childhood, and he’s still enjoying his life at 90

[@findot777]

When I caught my parents in the act(probably just in the birthday suit in bed) at a young age I just said "I caught you red handed" and put the blanket over them again, pretty sure they said nothing after.

[@mkgeostar]

BRO WHAT THE FUCK YOU'RE FUNNY AS FUCK THATS TOTALLY THE TYPA SHIT I DID UR GOATED like ive caught the m getting into it a couple times n ive said shit like 'get a room' 'damn r u 2 srs rn' 'bruh i aint tryna see that shit lock the door 😭'

[@THAMEDIOCREMUSICIAN]

“Well well well, cats outta the bag!”

[@PIZZAdayisback]

One of those stories that I can only believe with 45% certainty

[@turqussy]

man if i was the parent i would laugh my ass off

[@fizzombie69]

This can have two meanings.​@@THAMEDIOCREMUSICIAN

[@cinder_craft]

I’ve always actively avoided sexual media as a kid on the internet… hell even just “suggestive” art or videos would just gross me out. The only media I would consume in those regards were just popular tv shows or adult cartoons like family guy and South Park. And I’m thankful for my younger self for doing that honestly, because I’ve known so many people who have had or still have c0rn addictions because of the stuff they would actively seek out as a kid or young teen. This was a great video! It’s nice hearing everyone’s experiences in life (bad or good), it gives a whole new perspective on things. And I hope you are having a good day 👍

[@simplememe70]

got molested at 6 by a 12 year old boy. the thing u said about “porn messed me up growing up”, i can say the same for watching gore/guro as a kid… i was 13 when i got introduced to it by a friend after watching elfen lied. we gotta keep a closer eye on the little homies… 💔

[@Տprite]

i was 10 when i got introducd to it and it didnt even bother me that much smh

[@simplememe70]

@@Տprite it’s not about gore “bothering” me, it didn’t bother me at all either, it’s the effects of consuming so much of that content that it messes you up to the point of desensitization. like if it didn’t do that to you good for you i guess but for the average person it can mess them up

[@Տprite]

@@simplememe70 yeah

[@simplememe70]

@@Տprite yeah

[@Greatestswordsman69]

@@simplememe70 why is "desensitization" bad?

[@Fae2705]

Bruh! The yeet of that cat, I know they landed on a bed.

[@JenerikEt]

Bro i dont know how common this is of black kids but i had a super similar experience growing up. The way your dad talked to you is the exact same way my mom raised me. Thank you for talking about this, like im the same age as you I've just now been learning how damaging the things i was taught as a kid about sex were and i hate that, i should have known sooner. It ruined a lot of my relationships to the point where i just got into my first legitimate one a few weeks ago because im only now healing from all the damage

[@pablomorseheart]

This is what youtube was made for. What a life and what a speaker

[@joshuahunte2347]

Bro I ain't had to really stop and think like this for a while what. This was really deep, what specifically I'll learn? Who knows nothing properly but damm this was meaningful. Thank you for it

[@fishcatpng]

i really appreciate this video. as a 13 year old girl, this means a lot to hear someone talking ab this due to being exposed to it at a young age, around 5th grade maybe? i think i blocked it out. it makes me feel not alone and its so comforting. thank you for motivating me to continue to stay clean :]

[@missthegoodoldays]

i’m so glad to see you speak on these type of things. i have had a porn addiction since i was 10 years old and my 21st birthday is right around the corner. the addiction is getting better but deep down inside i still have all those disgusting and depraved moments of things i’ve watched and jerked my bean to. this really needs to be brought up more especially to young people. this is ruining lives and once you start you just keep sinking. amazing video. i will now binge watch every video of yours

[@UntitledBeanie195]

this will be hard to say but I had a porn addiction from 9 to 11 and couldn't stop until I looked into my mirror one morning and thought "do I want to be this way forever?" that day changed the course of my life and I'm now 3 years strong without addiction

[@cabezagrano6279]

i’m proud of you, you’re life is way better and happier without it

[@freezeburn9875]

Honestly I totally get the plot of getting your parents to divorce cause I also wanted mine to split off really really bad, some people just aren’t meant for each other and it’s so toxic to be around, to the point that an honest divorce where they aren’t going to be screaming at each other in the living room every day anymore is just bliss

[@floofflaffid3828]

You talk very openly and a lot about having been an awful person and while I do not personally know you it seems entirely to me that you've always been a good person who did bad things. Ik you didnt ask some random ahh person's opinion but at the very least you are a victim of circumstance and while it's so admirable how willing you are to hold yourself accountable I think it's entirely untrue (again, from what I've heard) that anyone else would've ended up a better man than you had they been through the same shit. Idk if that makes sense, idk if you'll see this and idk if you'll care but as a fellow human being I love you

[@UnofficallyOrginal]

Thank you for sharing for stories. I’m sorry the church told you to fix your addiction. That’s not what needed to happen. You needed to address the pain and trauma that happened. My dad was stolen from his tribe and sex trafficked when he was a kid and his brain suffered from all that stuff too. When the memories came back and the ptsd kicked in, the church turned their back on him because they thought he’d hurt someone. He was the head pastor. He started this church and they turned on him. But what really helped was talking about it, wrote a book called #dealwithit, started a non profit. And he got better. Because he address the trauma and talked about it. Thank you for taking about yours. I loved hearing it and I love you. 💙💙no homo.

[@marinanieto7670]

you're a fighter and life unfairly hurted you so much more than any of us can imagine sending love im glad you were able to share your story💗💗💗

[@marinanieto7670]

Btw your cat is so cute

[@KingofKrustycrab]

It was normal in my neighborhood to do drugs and drink at a very early age. But my parents taught me not to be involved in that stuff. It really depends on who raises you and I'm sorry about your childhood, man.

[@Ife-pc6ds]

The vulnerability and honesty in this video is amazing

[@Amm6ie]

that ending was gut wrenching for some reason. maybe it's bc I've recently moved & have been quite horrifyingly lonely the last two months, or bc i broke up with my longest relationship yet of a year & half two months ago as well, or bc i deal with the same thing & went thru a similar situation at 13 w someone who was 16, but regardless im happy you exist too, you're storytelling of your life experiences are some of the best things I've come across within the last couple months, thank you too

[@georbe]

This video is beautiful, it's like a whole fucking movie, a rollercoaster but I'm so glad you shared what you have gone through along with the people in the comments that are doing the same. I believe more people should talk about their struggles with whatever addictions they have or their own experiences IF they are comfortable enough. And although I haven't gone through these experiences myself yet in my life, the stories I have heard of experiences like this, or other ones are ones that sometimes brought me to tears. Thank you for existing.

[@RichterOfTheMistVillage]

Thank you so much for opening up and being vulnerable everyone needs to take your example and be willing to put themselves out there. Thank you for being you theres not enough people like that on the internet anymore.

[@aquantasy_]

thank you for existing

[@Coyoteonthemoon]

Proud of you for coming so far and realizing it was messed up!! Fellow survivor of seeing shit I should not have WAY too young. It took me until 21-ish to realize how bad it gotten

[@multi-milliondollarmike5127]

I understand how you feel about the Christianity thing. I think religions in general just give people an undeserved reassurance that they have supernatural help in a world full of random chaos.

[@RedNWhite2]

7:11 The way you present this part in such a way when talking about this shows something...i cant explain it but it feels important

[@somerandommen]

Bro, I'm glad the worst thing I was raised around was violence and being taught the virtue of violence. This shit makes my life seem tame by comparison. 😭

[@CerosTelevision]

@@somerandommen don’t discount your suffering

[@somerandommen]

​@@CerosTelevisionAt-least with violence, you can turn it around, take that energy and put it towards healthier shit. But you right, it still has fucked me up.

[@plasterboardwall]

one crazy ass title to see at 9:19 pm

[@ultramatum0]

Something that helped me with loneliness and addiction is reading the Bible and learning about God. There’s so much wisdom in it it’s crazy Even if your not Christian or have no interest in being Christian, it could still be a huge help Also there’s a common misconception that you have to physically “feel” God. (Especially in church culture) Some of God’s prophets even mentioned never feeling him (Isaiah 64:1-7). The reason why this happens is because we’re called to walk by faith, and not by sights or feelings. Many people that claim to have the Holy Spirit and run up and down the aisles in church most likely never had it. They just get emotional because of the pastor’s “energy” or vibe. (Sorry for the long comment. I had this on my heart and felt I should just say it). I hope one day you’ll find friends that’ll help uplift you, maybe even a friend that sticks closer than a brother.

[@JohnWayne-bm1ty]

that cat casually appearing by the end

[@月月月月-p5g]

It makes me sad to see how so many people go through tragic childhoods, it makes me feel so much more grateful for my parents. Idk how to say this but sometimes it feels like I wish I could take some pain from others and put it on myself, even just a bit. The world is fucked up, so many people are fucked up. Even in hs, and I’m only a 9th grader and there’s kids who have foul henta1 folders. Good luck man, I wish I could walk trough that screen and give u a hug. Btw your hair is majestic

[@月月月月-p5g]

One of my bsf got groomed by his dad and he constantly feels anxiety and confusion. He was shown porn and his dad mistreated him badly, used drugs and the like. I’m always there for him as although I never experienced the pain, I hope to lesssen his. I’m always the one to show up to his place whenever he needs. I hope for the better from him and anyone else who has to deal with stuff like this

[@F1shyBab1shy]

Damn, this hits. I had a prawnography problem when I was 12, and I made sure to be sneaky when getting my “materials“ that I was never caught. Thankfully, I quit a year after when I was 13. I never felt the help of god. I only felt the help of my peers (I had a friend who HATED master baiting, and HATED that it was so mainstream) and he, without knowing, helped me get rid of that side of me. This is real on a level I wish it wasn’t. I’m grateful that I’ve been jerk-sober for about 20 years now, and i’ll never go back.

[@bobachii]

I've struggled with porn addiction and am recently coming out of it. Growing into an adult makes you realize that authenticity and kindness, no matter the pain, is much more worth it than being fake and cruel. My brain is healing from it. I'm happy you exist too. ❤

[@sonqnt]

Just found your channel and I heavily respect you being vulnerable in this video helps not feel alone cause I've been through some of the things you talk about but keep up the good work man shits hard out here

[@LordGarlicBread]

This was a rollercoaster of trauma, jokes and a lot more wisdom than I expected

[@CerosTelevision]

welcome to my channel this is my diary

[@kakarot-j4b]

This video actually helped me a lot. I grew up in the same kind of chaotic environment . Different place but no matter where you are the violence and instability is still there . Thanks Ceros your story has helped me immensely 🙏

[@ShugunYT]

Dr. Dofenshmirtz ahh backstory

[@CerosTelevision]

LMFAO

[@ShugunYT]

@@CerosTelevision yoo you responded!!

[@thereseclairecreates]

Your work heals. Just hearing your honesty and how you take accountability for your actions despite the unfair circumstances really does something to my heart. Im in a fucked situation as well. Im not comfortable as you to share... But know that your work makes me feel less alone in this world. I dealt with 🌽 addiction in my tweens as well. I was socially repressed and very reserved because of the betrayal and hurt so my sexuality was an outlet for me but also messed up my mind.

[@borisac3780]

Running trains at 12 is crazy.

[@labyrinthine444]

great message and im sorry you had to go through all that stuff. i also think it’s important to remember that quitting porn isn’t just about bettering yourself, it’s also about not supporting an industry that hurts women, minorities, and children. all of these groups are filmed and watched every day. it’s not empowering to give in to male pleasure. the psychological impacts porn has on the viewer are just as bad for the ‘actors’. porn is misogyny, porn is racism, porn is pedophilia. don’t let anyone tell you that it’s not. i suggest joining communities that help support victims of porn. there’s a lot of subreddits about it if you’re interested. it’s a great thing to quit, but you also have to remember who you hurt when you were addicted.

[@cosmicquasar]

bro saying his father is devious while you literally plotted a divorce

[@CerosTelevision]

@@cosmicquasar I never said I was a good person

[@cosmicquasar]

@@CerosTelevision fair but plotting your mother and father divorce is just a different level of hate bru

[@JohnWayne-bm1ty]

@@CerosTelevision You're not the first person I've met to try to do that, and honestly, sometimes it feels like the right choice, or at least the most satisfying one

[@hoopchristine5202]

In fact, you’ve repeatedly stated that you were not a good person

[@heathertaylor8904]

​@@cosmicquasar that's so easy to say when you haven't been there, man. Ain't nobody above each other. This kind of honesty is the purest thing in the world. The only difference is he's brave enough to put what he's done out there and let others know they're not alone in getting all fucked up as kids. That's the closest thing we can ever get to healing tbh.

[@sebastianfleener2749]

I found your channel because of you sparking zero content but honestly im starting to enjoy all your content everything you say reaches home and i love your ability to be honest yet not afraid. Please keep making video's that make you happy this is starting to easily become my favorite channel

[@yuli161-daedalus]

Also genuinely a very nice video, I recently found your channel and you feel so humble, so cool? In a way that makes you know someone has made a lot of experiences, someone who talks out of a place of knowledge but still in the search, like an older student telling you stuff you should've written down when you were in middle school and you didn't and you're regretting it later what im trying to get at is you're cool thanks for making videos

[@mockih3334]

You have some serious integrity and character going on. We have had completely different life experiences growing up and live in completely different worlds (white European here), but I'm convinced we'd have the best time chatting over a coffee because of your authentic nature and big heart and my love of lighthearted heart to heart conversations about both light and heavy stuff with complete strangers, just connecting as humans. You are truly living life and doing a great job at it.

[@Beatroot985]

I know this is corny but you’re becoming one of my biggest inspirations (it helps that I’ve been in a manic episode since I found your crips and bloods dnd video)

[@deefman123]

That's a powerful exploration of your past. And thoughts on how it doesn't have to be certain ways. THANK YOU XXX

[@liamgriffin8850]

This is so unhinged

[@shanhussain6114]

Bro needs a hug. I'm so sorry you had to go through that. I hope you are doing better.

[@youtube-headquarters]

"One girl, five guys, and I'm not talking burgers and fries." ☠☠☠☠☠☠

[@Akrina-yl7bu]

As an survivor everything that you said , I related to that . Our society normalizing all of that is crazy concept for me

[@stabbychan6625]

its weird when ur young u try to grow up so fast but only when u age you realize all the innocence is gone and wish u can go back and change the mistakes you never realized youve made

[@blublaze3578]

I'm glad you shared your story of how you got out of this mess and also that you let people know that being sexually active at such young age was in fact NOT a good thing. I've struggled with corn addiction since I was twelve and Id be lying if I said it didn't cause me any problems. My first time with at 20 wasn't a total disaster but I had a hard time actually orgasming. A friend told me it's a thing called "death grip syndrome"

[@blumago4717]

im so glad you shared your story. i hope not to take away from what you said, but when i saw you explaining your trauma through humour, it reminded me of one of my friends from when i was in middle school. they were an online friend around the same age as me who was always joking about things that really concerned me, like their parents doing inappropriate things with and around him and all of the criminal and sexual behaviour happening at his school. earlier this year, he commited suic*de. 🕊♥ its also actually really sad how normalised corn addiction has become. i feel there is definitely something wrong when kids are being exposed to these videos 8-9 years old or less... i think about when i young, just trying to look up a reference to draw a female character from a game i liked, and how irreparably that one changed me

[@Achannel-qg4cz]

i enjoy that this is a video, recently I've been struggling with my hypersexuality, thank you>

[@dabsouljaboy]

Aye man glad you are reflecting on your life experiences. The future is all of ours to shape for ourselves and those close to us. As you convey through all your words in this video, there is no limit to how ugly the world can be. But that knowledge is why we gotta wake up every day and protect the things we care about.

[@dimitris_kour1505]

I love how you kept your humor even after all these dark experiences. Stay strong man!

[@3lle272]

So unfiltered. I enjoy this type of raw honesty. Great video

[@thatoneskinnykid]

I discovered pornography at 13 years old. Addiction is real. It sucks.

[@haileys5224]

This is my third video of yours that I have seen. And all I can say is *Please* write a book. You are a talented story teller with an infinite amount of out of pocket and unique experiences. Your autobiography would be one hell of a book.

[@tomfox8551]

You’re not a victim. You’re a survivor!

[@USER-ZB2YT]

I'm glad you're doing good now. This video was an important video to make. Thanks for uploading this. 7:21 Rest in peace 🕊 I can't imagine how traumatic that must've been. Calling 911 would've been important in that situation but I'm not sure how I would've managed the situation while being in complete shock. 10:28 I don't even know what to say. I will not petition anything to you nor will I question your beliefs. I can't relate to that situation that much, so I'll keep my mouth shut. I haven't been there, so I don't know what I would do, how I would feel. 12:10 Also please put the kitty back, I don't believe holding him/her like that is comfortable. I'm also really sorry for your childhood loss.. I believe that might have messed with you too :/ R.I.P.

[@definitelynotdistracted]

That’s all terrible, but you casually pulling out the bewildered cat as a stage prop just killed me

[@aspen9059]

thank you for being so honest and thank you for admitting to your mistakes. this platform, this world, even, needs more people like you. people try to pretend they’ve always been perfect out of fear of being judged, but that’s not what’s important. what’s important is improvement. thank you

[@TahniZCat2]

This takes me right to thw recent Sneako v Charlie debate where Charlie was busy trying to understand why sneako said the age of consent should be lowered to . . . Essentially the age you hit puberty for the individual, and i was originally thinking "this isnt normal" following the ideals of modern society. even got "a bit" philosophical with the idea of how people call 25 "still a child" & immature nowadays, yet you can grab alcohol at 21 making intoxicated decisions (in other countries 18). at 18 you just left high school but can enlist your soul to a country that might not pay you or you're loved ones back properly, regardless if you lose your limbs, your sanity or your life. . . And at 16 you can get permission to drive via a licence, taking on the responsibilities of the road even though you wont be tried as an adult be it you drink underage and go behind the wheel, or you act recklessly on the highway and cause a traffic jam. Then it hit me that even before high school age, i had a friend who was originally scared he was gonna get HIV. Barely even teenaged we were, and we didn't have the cures we had today. It was a life sentence. He was clean & when the subject came back up because i didn't think intercourse was all that important cause it can cost a giant portion of your life, if not the entirety. . . His defense was "at least I still got the pu$$y" and the group cheered him on. Middle school. . . Where you were cool if all the girls were giving you a Wally (ol' Philly term for getting a lap dance. Getting twerked on before the term twerk went viral) or if you got to score with a high school girl. Its not the first time i had this conversation with myself either because (ironically enough, another Charlie v sneako conversation) when cuties cane out, i thought morally this isn't right even though the writer and director's purpose was exposing an uncomfortable truth and morally wrong practice going on in our day & age. Its not the last time i had the conversation because of Yoyo's review of barely teenaged girls being exposed by their parents online for intentionally doing promiscuous acts, with names like, "makeyon****empthenleave". Each time i come across these i'm morally saying "this isnt normal this shouldnt be the focus at such a young age" but. . . For something that is "not normal" you see it A LOT from a young age going into recent. . . This video was reassuring. Even though I never participated and experienced in what you experienced, i still felt less alone in a hypocritical world that will say one thing like "p3d0philia is wrong!" Then go "Love is love! Age isnt nothing but a number! MAPs deserve love, too!" And I'm just like. . . Huh? Life is a strange journey. As many of your vids, hurts to see you went through this, but im glad you are able to bring a sort of light to the situation and basically help me with clearing these thoughts that are slowly exposing itself more and more in our world.

[@rodrigoenriquez6559]

You're so real for this man, glad you feel better now

[@the_dawgg]

man you cant post this on the same channel with "are saiyans ni(nj)as" 😭😭😭

[@xwavves208]

thank you for existing, and thank you for being an open soul. Willing to give to us although life has mistreated you in some ways, you are still willing to give. And i personally dont take it for granted, just know that you are a cool ass person and i appreciate this video. Thank you CEROSTV, internet person

[@emanuelmora8204]

I am glad i found your channel your story telling is great and you're insanity is breath of fresh air

[@MongoosePartyBeansMacLeod-3JR]

Been watching these a lot lately. Just want to say, I love your talks!

[@masondarden2423]

This reminded me of the kneecap video that he took down. It was about how his sister stopped him from being a shooter. But this video has message and not just venting to the internet about your trauma.

[@masondarden2423]

Actually it’s both

[@fastboy32]

@@masondarden2423 i never even knew about that is there a reupload somewhere

[@masondarden2423]

@@fastboy32 it was when he hit a subscriber goal but it was about how his sister was his light and how he was getting treated bad at school and at home.

[@fastboy32]

@@masondarden2423 thats so sad i remember when his sister posted about him being in the hospital after having a seizure

[@masondarden2423]

@@fastboy32 when did that happen?

[@BrynQuintillus]

I love the energy that u have while talking about your past trauma! I do it in a similar fashion so that I can talk about these things at all but people around me think its weird, that im overdramatizing it or that im distasteful :(( I’m sorry you had to experience these things and thank you for talking about it so openly it really helps

[@zoniosquo8693]

I'm glad you're able to walk forward in spite of your pain. Even as a Christian, you were a light to people which is what the Bible records Jesus asking followers of God to be. And you're still brightening and enlightening our existence through your stories and humor. Hearing your story made overcoming addiction a lot less scary and seem a lot more possible. Thank you for existing. Jude 1:22 KJV "And of some have compassion, making a difference:"

[@larvaebox]

hey man, i just want you to know this video touched me on a deeper level and i really appreciate the openness you bring onto this channel with your stories morals and opinions. please continue your work and ill always be here to support your content

[@kenonerboy]

Its weird. I was also introduced to sex pretty early. I never lost my virginity until like, 17 or so, but i personally dont think it had a massive negative effect on me. I dont need crazy stuff to get off. I never really spoke about it with friends or anything. And my sense for intimacy is still very much in tact. The issues i have in life never had anything to do with my porn consumption. However, i too had someone die that i cared about. It was a friend who i really wanted to help. And it still affects me to this day. Personally i dont know you, but from what u said in this video, i think experiencing death of a girl youve been with was deeply, deeply traumatic and might have contributed to how u interact with sexuality.

[@localqueer-here]

I'm happy you exist too man. Thank you.

[@ganjo8316]

As a gay Christian also exposed at a young age, I can confidently say that God still loves you.

[@CrazyProductions160]

While what u say is true, u can’t be a gay Christian, and now I’m not here to judge because that isn’t my role that’s gods, but it’s says in the Bible that u can’t be a gay Christian.

[@nysreme7]

@@CrazyProductions160 doesnt the bible just say u cant be in gay relationships

[@goblinguy3103]

@@CrazyProductions160no, it doesn’t. The Bible doesn’t mention anything about gay people until the 1949 translation. They changed the word from “child predator” into “homosexual”. It was on purpose to attack the queer community.

[@CrazyProductions160]

Yes it does, but u can’t call urself a Christian and then purposely do that and marry another person of the same sex.

[@Lroxed]

8 is way too young, I am so sorry. You never should have to go through that. I knew about that kinda stuff since I was like 7 and it messed me up. I hope you’re doing better now

[@Ez-an]

I just want to reset my brain and restart fresh with a cleaner mindset

[@guidorahtv]

You fascinate me. I’m feeling empathy, pity and being entertained the same fucking time.

[@captainsloth5198]

You should write a book or something at this point, the stories are stacking up like crazy

[@Dechelgo]

There’s a difference between writing and talking. A lot of fantastic writers would be hell to talk to.

[@CerosTelevision]

I cannot write sadly I am strictly a talker

[@Cdawg6429o]

Good stuff man, relatable and encouraging

[@CLH2324]

You do matter man don’t let nobody tell you otherwise

[@sailorbetelgeuse]

i really hope we move to a point with more storytellers as honest as you. the world just needs more honesty, it's the only way we will help each other.

[@w32211]

I wish this wasn’t normalized, and I speak from experience. I feel for you people who were addicted to this “stuff”, just like me. I’m sorry, and I hope you manage to quit, just like me as well.

[@mrcreeps5125]

Everything you said was relatable. Haven’t heard someone with such similar feelings as you. Thank you for the advice.