I'm in psychosis again...

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

Edward was very much the child he is in the background in this video.

[@mcatcatt6239]

How do you know if you are in psychosis???

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

@@mcatcatt6239 i can usually tell after a while with paranoia because my anxiety is through the roof. I don’t always notice but I have a plan to go after that tells me what signs to look for.

[@barbarahenninger6642]

Edward is comic relief. That's a great name for a cat, and it made me laugh when he was making noise playing in the tunnel.

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

@@barbarahenninger6642 He really was! He tends to be up in everything like a toddler. 💚

[@pauline_raabe]

I just found your channel today .I love it! You are so real and down to earth. Edward 🐈 is also awesome, I have 2 cats, Charlotte and Angel they are absolute therapy for me. They always keep me smiling and on my toes. They have a cat tunnel too They have so much fun playing in it. They make me laugh, and that's a good thing. Thank you Kimberly you motivate me. 💞💐

[@mab790]

There is no danger. You are not transparent. These are some phrases I use to help myself. ❤

[@hollywebster6844]

Kimberly, I'm so very sorry this is happening again. I pray this episode passes quickly and the medication doesn't give you unpleasant side effects. 💞

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

thank you! 💚

[@BelaScorpio08]

@@hollywebster6844 hey iam here and this medicine makes you a zombie without feelings and want 2 eats bad meals unhealthy meals it’s insane

[@danletras]

Fuerza, Kimberly. This episode will pass. You're doing the right thing by staying in touch with your mom and contacting your nurse for the medication alteration. It's almost like parts of the brain get inflamed, but they will calm down and you will return to clarity after the flareup.

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

thank you! 💚

[@rebeccamariscal8091]

I been having problems with mental Illness. It's hard to accept it. You just feel so powerless. Confused, and why this is happening. What is happening. Thanks for sharing. Love and prayers to yu.

[@rachymarie]

Know that you are not alone! There are communities out there that likely share your illness. Aside from residual or untreatable symptoms, one of the hardest things is stigma, also internalized stigma. And your life is not "over", it will just be harder, and you will need to realise you may not have the capacity to do as much. But you should also gain insight, wisdom, new perspectives, compassion for yourself and others. And everything like social events etc become more precious to you so you appreciate such things much more. In my experience anyhow. Hang in there

[@TheaLightweaver]

You are incredibly strong and beautiful and this will pass.

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

thank you! 💚

[@silverdweller2809]

I just want to let you know that you're safe, I know it doesn't feel that way but hopefully things will get better. I've been there before and I know it's just awful. I'm so sorry. Glad you're taking your meds, that's the way to feel better. ❤️

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

thank you! 💚

[@abdirizaksaid7957]

I have paranoid SCHIZOPHRENIA and if I don't eat well my psychosis is active and have delusions, so I think your weight loss plan triggered your psychosis. Hope you recover soon, Thanks for sharing.

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

oh wow, i didnt know weight loss could be a trigger, thank you for letting me know. 💚

[@thecreativebusiness1316]

@@Kimberly_Viktoria not eating well can be a trigger, which is different. Did you go on a proper diet, following a doctor’s recommendations? If yes, it is probably not the cause of your symptoms that, I’m sure, will go away soon.Hang in there.

[@portiaantoniaalexis2249]

@@Kimberly_Viktoriathis is incorrect. Continue your weight loss journey

[@ValentinaKajcinovska]

​@@portiaantoniaalexis2249No actually it's very correct

[@nessauk2786]

The carnivore diet is recommended for schizophrenia due to the high levels of nutrition...look into it.

[@selmarenner2780]

Jag förstår din kamp! Den är verklig, även om du inte alltid kan veta säkert vad som är verkligt. Även om det kanske bara känns orättvist eller meningslöst så vill jag säga att du bidrar verkligen genom att dela det här❤ Du hjälper många människor genom att våga dela det här och du bidrar också verkligen med kunskap! Kom ihåg att den här perioden inte kommer vara föralltid, den kommer gå över. Det känns som ett bakslag, men du är inte på ruta ett igen och du är fortfarande på väg åt rätt håll ❤

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

åh tack! 💚

[@gregdescant4121]

You are so sweet.i pray this episode passes quickly and you feel yourself again!

[@athena5862]

I am sorry you are suffering. You have awareness which is good. One step at a time. You will get through it.

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

Thank you! After some time now I feel better. 🥰

[@blairj1188]

I appreciate you being so open about your delusions, making me feel less alone. I have had similar delusions as you've had. I used to think that my phone was hacked by someone who was listening in on me and I thought someone put a tracking device in my car. Luckily I'm on medication now that stops my delusional thoughts. Don't give up on art school, I'm going to graduate soon with my master's degree despite having a mental illness.

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

thank you! and im not giving up yet, ill make it somehow. and congratulations on your master's! wow! 😍💚

[@Meumershaha]

Do medicines completely stop delusions?

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

@@Meumershaha for me no. but they lessen significantly.

[@megan8832]

I’m so sorry you’re going through this! I highly recommend the channel “living well with schizophrenia” the women is currently using medical keto as a medobolic therapy and having incredible improvements. She documents her journey and all the ups and downs.

[@gamingformymentalhealth]

Hey Kimberly. I just wanted to offer my support. As someone who has experienced psychosis, I know how scary and terrible it can be. I know it doesn't seem like it, but somehow there tends to be a way out. Be gentle with yourself, this is a disease.

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

@@gamingformymentalhealth Thank you so much! ☺️

[@engleharddinglefester4285]

Kimberly your videos are a HUGE service you are providing to so many people. Look at all the people who comment, and that's only part of who is viewing. If you only had any idea how much you are valued. Life is hard for many people and here you are with an extra burden and yet you are slogging forward. Schizophrenia is nothing to trifle with and you are killing it taking care of yourself, slogging into the future, and providing us with videos. It's been said before that you are an inspiration and I have to say it again: you are an inspiration. Because you are.

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

Thank you so much! 🥹💚 Sometimes I doubt myself a lot...

[@engleharddinglefester4285]

@@Kimberly_Viktoria Yeah after my psychosis 15 yrs ago (I think I probably never did heal 100% from it) I feel safest out in my shed where there is no internet. Or alone in the woods or when out walking. I feel safe in the house but even safer in the shed. I don't like the radio in my car and even though it isn't hooked up to receive satellite subscription programs I'm never really sure if it is monitoring anyway, so I don't feel like I can sing in the car lol because I'm not totally sure I'm alone. But I do feel alone in the shed. It's true there are cameras everywhere like downtown and I don't like it.

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

@@engleharddinglefester4285 Sad to hear that, I don't think its possible to completely heal from psychosis. there's always going to be some scars left from it... I still have the problem where I think people are reading my mind. 🙃

[@engleharddinglefester4285]

@@Kimberly_Viktoria That sounds like the scars are residual symptoms. I would say I have residual symptoms then. Nothing I can't deal with. How are you feeling now? Do you still have the thought broadcasting feeling?

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

@@engleharddinglefester4285 I feeling a lot better, I'm on week 3 of art school now and it feels great even though im very tired when I get home. But I do have some thought broadcasting feelings but I would also call these residual symtoms by now as i've hade these for years. 🙃

[@silmarilasmr6801]

I get it, I have been dealing with paranoia for a long time. I've been diagnosed with schizoaffective, bipolar type for almost 11 years and have been taking medication everyday, twice a day for that long as well. I am rooting for you, and I just want to let you know as a fellow person with a mental health diagnosis who deals with paranoia a lot, no one is following you or paying attention in any sort of special way. It just doesn't make sense logically, which is what I have to remind myself constantly for my own paranoid delusions. I'm just a man, and nothing more and society is peaceful and nothing bad happens for the vast majority of the time in terms of of paranoid delusions coming true. Peace out!

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

thank you and thank you for sharing! 💚

[@tanyatalkstoomuch]

Although I struggle with completely different mental health issues, I can relate so much to the lack of motivation of cleaning and cooking for myself. With the stress I have been under I have been eating a lot of takeout also. I usually try to journal first thing in the morning but this morning I couldn't even walk around in my room due to the mess on the floor. I decided it was a priority to be able to move around before I journaled. So I half cleaned up. I had higher expectations but halfway through I was so burnt out I gave myself permission to be happy with a half clean room. Then I made coffee and did my journaling. Doing all the simple things I need to do in a day seems almost impossible. I'm sorry you are in psychosis right now. I'm sorry it came at such a bad time when you have exams and essays to finish. I am so excited for you to go to Art school!!! That was a short-lived dream I had in high school. One of my art teachers had a lot of faith in me. Anyways I could go on and on but I won't. I have subscribed to your Channel. I can relate so much. Take care ❤️

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

thank you! 💚

[@sick_icarus]

Commenting to tell you I am so grateful to have found your channel. When I first was diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder I felt so alone in my experience and desperately wanted to find youtube videos of people sharing their experiences with schizophrenia and psychosis. Statistically, so many people deal with it but so few talk about it. I wouldn’t wish psychosis and delusions on my worst enemy. The side effects of the medications aren’t pretty either. You’re so amazing for powering through this and sharing your experience. If you have any advice on finding friends who understand the struggles, please share! But even so, just hearing you talk about everything you’re going through in your day to day helps me feel less alone. You said you’ve been playing the Sims? I’d love to see your sims or hear you talk about what you’re doing in your game!

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

oh wow thank you! 🥹 I'm actually filming a vlog right now and i'm still playing the sims a lot to distract myself so I could talk a little about it if you want. I love the sims and I usually play challenges or legacys since I've played it since I was a child with sims 2. Again thank you for the support and the kind comment, it means a lot to me that my videos make you feel less alone. 💚

[@scaryspider365]

I’m glad someone is helping you, its so tough about medication and weight gain.I wish they would research these drugs more to help not cause such bad side effects. Thinking of you, and thank you for being so brave to share your story. You’ve got this and balance will follow, one day at a time.

[@Playstationmmm]

Sorry about this episode 😢. Try not to stress about school so much and just take it easy. Thanks for sharing your experience❤

[@barbarahenninger6642]

That's great you're going to art school! I am 76 and I wish I'd been as firm and determined to go to art school back when I was your age.

[@Xen-AM]

I don’t have schizophrenia but I have panic attacks, OCD, depression, and anxiety. While having the panic attacks it feels like I’m going through what you’re describing some times. With feeling paranoid and how scary it is. I think you don’t forget of how bad it can feel when you aren’t in the moment but I think since it’s such an intense feeling you’re more so in survival mode and you’re mind and body are trying to cope so while you’re not in those moments and feeling better you focus on how much better you’re feeling and you start to relax and you put those intense moments to rest so that you can heal from being in such a high alert state. I hope that makes sense. Sending you positive thoughts and prayers of feeling better very soon 🙏🏻

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

thank you! 💚

[@heathercrumpler5353]

Keto diet is supposed to help. I have bipolar disorder, OCD, ADHD, depression, anxiety. I can’t drive on the highway.

[@Bamgeutcutiepie]

i'm so sorry sweetie 🥺 I know how hard it is. the look on your face , i know it well. stress is our enemy in this illness. so it makes sense. even good stress or excited energy, can sadly make it come back too. i am sad to hear you are feeling bad again. But to say something comforting, in the darkness.... this too shall pass ♥️ it WILL pass. you won't feel like this forever - remember how good you felt not long ago, and it will return to that. it will be ok. and please forgive yourself for all the things you are so hard on yourself for. like the apartment. just let it go. you are doing the best you can! ♥️

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

thank you! thats so kind of you to say. 💚

[@beckyboo1433]

I'm so sorry to hear you're struggling 😞 I struggle with depression but can only imagine how hard that must be. I wanted to tell you that my psychiatrist was recently telling me about a new form of olanzepine (because it actually worked well for me when I was extremely depressed) and it has an appetite control med added to it now. Not sure if it's named something different but it would be worth looking into. I gained a lot of weight on it too. ❤️

[@beckyboo1433]

Lybalvi is what it's called. Pharma and their weird names lol

[@xKitsunax]

Kimberly, I just want to let you know that you are so strong for sharing and that you give a lot of people the feeling of not being alone. I felt so touched and so represented, understood and received a kind of push of inner strength in a way. Even though I am not schizophrenic I saw so much of my own struggles through you. I also experience strong episodes of psychosis with severe paranoia and loosing grip of reality. My psychotic episodes are mixed in with severe PTSD and panic disorder. I know the feeling of feeling unsafe in your own home, around loved ones, or unsafe in your own head and emotions. You articulated a lot of feelings so well with this video that I felt so connected with you I wish I could hug you and telling you and everyone else who is experiencing psychosis that they are safe, they are not crazy or wrong, they are loved and that there are people out there who understand and that there are good doctors and lots of methods to help and support so everything will get better! Living with these severe mental illnesses is exhausting at times. But you are still having an amazing impact with your videos and social media presence to destigmatize and you give a sense of comfort to a lot of people! Thank you very much! Much love ❤

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

oh wow thank you so much for this comment, that's so kind of you to say! 💚 And thank you for the support, im glad my content have some kind of use too 💚

[@elizabethconroy7665]

Hello,Kimberly New Subscriber here from Amman Jordan 🇯🇴 The Middle East Warm Hugs Don’t worry about weight gain as your mental health is more important I’ve read about Psychosis and can understand it intellectually but it’s hard to wrap my head around emotionally Stay strong ❤

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

thank you! 💚

[@ptlovelight2971]

Good to see you Kimberly....please don't feel bad for this. I know you had a lot of momentum going with your recent weight loss and going back to school. But setbacks happen sometimes! It doesnt mean you've failed yourself in any way...especially when it comes to mental health. This is a long war, not a quick victory. Your success in beating back the psychosis has to be measured over a length of time. Please take all the time you need to recover. Don't feel pressed to make content unless creativity strikes you to do so. Sending hugs to you and the furbabies!✨️

[@orangepulp392]

Psychosis is awful, the fear and panic is so strong and constant. So sorry this has happened, it’s so hard when you want to come off medication but doctors think you should go back on it. I will be thinking of you, hoping you get through this 🧡

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

thank you! 💚

[@sciencenotsrigma]

Wow! I’m someone with bipolar 1 disorder, who has experienced psychosis. I’ve just got to say you’re doing incredible work. I’m so impressed that you’re able to be in psychosis and aware of it, simultaneously. I hear you, about Olanzapine! I gained 80 pounds on it, and it put a lot of stress on my joints, which have problems, anyway. Yet, when I needed it, I needed it. You are so brave and courageous! ❤

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

oh thank you so much! 💚

[@ser2952]

Thank you for sharing your experiences like this. It's helping me understand someone in my life so much more. They don't have the awareness you do, nor the willingness to seek any treatment, but you give me hope. I know times like this must be immensely hard, so your courage and strength are incredible. I hope the meds have been helping and that you're doing better now.

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

oh thank you! That means so much to me that my videos has some kind of use. I hope the someone in your life gets better soon. 💚

[@PhoenixFeathers]

You have such awareness of your state of mind. I know this will help you so much in your journey. You will find your sealegs more and more and learn to navigate life when unwell. I know you feel like shit right now, but I see SO much strength and ability in you. Keep on keeping on. It will get better for you, I know.

[@jamie2204]

It’s helpful to hear someone who is going through the same types of things I do and crazy how similar the symptoms are. Hopefully the meds work quick and you’ll be back on your feet in no time! Thinking of you ❤

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

Thank you! 🙏 hope you feel very soon too! 💚

[@jluvsbooks2020]

I want to thank you so much for this video. My son had his first psychosis episode and was put on meds. He’s better now and wants to come off his meds because of the side effects. I watched this video with him and we used it as a guide to show him how to recognize if he slips back into psychosis and we have a plan in place to deal with it. But this video was excellent. He saw someone else be self aware, which is the key to managing this illness. Thank you again!!!

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

oh wow, I never thought this video would have some kind of use like that. Good luck with the medication, I hope he has a smooth reduction of the meds. 🥹

[@Whatishappeningxyz]

Our brains tend to forget how bad things hurt or feel once we’re feeling better. This happens to me alot

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

Yes that is true. 🙃

[@jenniferkskhfkejbeiduhfjsk1397]

Sorry to hear this :( I hope you feel better soon. I know what it's like to experience psychosis and it's not easy.

[@HearMyWords]

I am so sorry you are going through this. I can really understand the feelings of choosing a medication you've taken before because you know what to expect. I get terrified when my doctor wants me to try something new. I feel like I'm already in hell. I don't want to take that risk of things getting even worse because a lot of medications do not work for me. I feel like a lab rat locked in a cage with no one ever learning anything from the tests I'm being subjected to. I don't know if that makes any sense. Your video helped me a lot because I don't feel so alone. Thank you.

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

oh thank you you really put the exact words I feel about feeling like a lab rat when trying new meds! I hope you're doing better! 💚

[@joanfan6324]

I know others have already said this but I'm sorry for the things you are struggling with. But i admire you for not wanting to give up on with your plans with art school.

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

thank you! 💚 I am not ready to give up on that!

[@Sonia-ut2ie]

Hi Kimberly! I’m sorry this is happening, remember that healing isn’t linear, setbacks happen and that’s ok. You’ve been doing better and you’ve proven to yourself that you are strong and capable. Get better soon. Sending you much love ❤️ Ps I love the twin tribes shirt 😉

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

thank you! I'll try to remember that. 💚 Oh wow I have never had anyone comment on the twin tribes shirt before, they're so good! im hoping to see them in November. 🖤

[@Sonia-ut2ie]

They’re such a great band! That sounds so lovely, I wish I could see them perform in person but they don’t come to the United States often. Either way, I hope you have a great time seeing them!! 😁🤍

[@TheDonmontoya]

The Good thing is that you know all this symptons and know when and how to stop it. You might gonna been have tu use meds for a short time but never forget to stay happy! Been afraid isnt bad it makes you more awake. Keeep it strong my friend. dont push yourself to much❤

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

thank you! 💚

[@Katie_Jo_21]

Colleges have fantastic resources. I used to take my maths in the resource room alone (but with supervision) for dyslexia test anxiety. There are so many ways around it. Especially in Art College where so many professors and professionals understand what being different is like. You can totally do this! Give it a try, nothing to lose ❤️

[@BelaScorpio08]

In the darkest place I watch you . I feel you as nobody else . Hang in there stay strong 💪🏼please .

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

@@BelaScorpio08 thank you! ❤️‍🩹

[@BelaScorpio08]

@@Kimberly_Viktoria i see your from Sweden and i Netherlands so we have a lot the same and compartible Thanks for your answers . ❤️‍🩹

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

@@BelaScorpio08 no problem ❤️‍🩹

[@elizabethterry3717]

Hi Kimberly, I hope you get better real soon. You are a beautiful person and will find your way soon.

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

Thank you so much!

[@pyenygren2299]

Att du berättar om dina symptom är viktigt! Jag som inte har schizofreni förstår bättre när jag lyssnar på dig. Håll ut, du kommer bli bättre igen.

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

tack! ☺️

[@jeancardoza4442]

Dear Kimberly, I am so sorry for your current struggle. You are such a beautiful lovely person. If I were near, I'd offer to help you clean or cook you a meal. Seems like changing medication can be challenging. You are intelligent and talented. We are all rooting for you!!! Sending love.

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

thank you Jean! 💚

[@MarthaAdamkiewicz]

So sorry. 😢🙏🙏🙏🙏

[@alexandermatthewsmusic]

Thanks for sharing, I hope your better soon. I was in a very delusional psychosis over the past few months, my doctor said if I don't have feelings of harming yourself or others I can keep meds the same and kind of just ride it out. I did that and yes 2 months psychosis and I'm pretty clear thinking now. I'm 44 when I was 20 it seemed psychosis would last a year or more so it's not a solution for all. It was damn scary as you say it is for you but my hope is your friendly nice thoughts even out the bad, I have good and bad delusions so when I'm in psychosis, well, the heaven helps me put up with the hell, I hope you have some good delusions 🙂

[@alexandermatthewsmusic]

PS I think you said "psychotic life recet" at the end, that seemed like my recent psychosis 🙂 sometimes there's pleasant answers in there somewhere 😉

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

thank you for sharing and being supportive! 💚

[@timothywilliams2887]

I understand. For me, my medication is number 1 in my life. Good wishes to you.

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

thank you! 💚

[@queenbuzybee4074]

That all sounds quite scary. I also deal with mental illness and it sucks. The only thing I know is that it‘ll get better again. It always does. I think it’s great that you’re going to go to art school. Do it! I play a lot of video games too because it occupies my mind and requires concentration. The side-effects of medication suck, but sometimes we require them. I wish you all the best and that this episode passes quickly. P.S. I‘d love to see your art when you’re ready to share.

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

thank you for the support! I just hope I don't have to take olanzapine for much longer. 💚

[@sunny4lady]

Im so sorry Kimberley❤ i know how scary psychosis. Im on meds for psychosis and doing well but I know what its like have the symptoms you explain.

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

thank you! I hope you're doing better now, im hoping to do so too soon. 💚

[@sunny4lady]

@@Kimberly_Viktoria yes def. Better ❤️ i hope you get releif soon ❤️

[@s.k.2017]

Sending you positive thoughts and energy that this flare doesn’t disturb your world for too long. But you are doing all the right things. By sharing all you are thinking, saying it out loud sometimes helps to gain some clarity. Also reaching out to others and letting others know and not turning inward is always a good sign. Maybe all your stressing over your tests are causing your flare? The strain on your system from the stress can set things off…just a thought. I just know the more I stress impacts my mental health, even though with a mental health condition it’s hard not to stress. Anyways…stay safe 💜

[@jaimereynolds258]

Healthy eating, only drinking water, and exercise 6 days a week. Helps me a lot. Days I feel like I can hardly even get up, I push through it and get sh*t done.

[@RainyDayWithTheSpoon]

I can't understand/relate to this and find it very confusing. When I have been psychotic/deluded I have not known and would not be able to be convinced I was psychotic/deluded either. If I had known/could know I would not have called it psychosis/delusion. On the other hand I hear voices shouting at me from the moment I wake and for the most part I know it is voices when I am in remission, like now. Even though I am frequently thinking the voices are neighbours, after a short period [upto a day] I realise they were voices and don't believe I am even close to psychosis. If I were psychotic I would not be able to work out it was voices and indeed would not even be able to entertain the idea I was hearing voices as I am in a completely different, yet hyper-realistic 'reality' where there the profoundly bizarre makes [to me] perfect sense and I am so sure of everything and cannot be convinced otherwise [despite being very/completely, even dangerously wrong]. But hey, I am autistic so perhaps that's why I don't get this. Best wishes.

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

Thank you! This was filmed after me having a meeting with my nurse, and it took me about 2 months to realize I was having psychosis. It was that weird interaction on the bus that made me question my nurse about it. I hope you understand, I have also been told I have quite good insight especially after some support. I hope you're doing well!

[@SmilingBeaver-ou7nc]

Kimberly I'm sending you positive energy in helping you get through your psychosis. Love and comfort from the United States ❤✌️

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

thank you so much! 💚

[@elizabethbarmann5361]

Had my first psychotic episode not to long ago…it was horrific but I just kept saying out loud I am a child of God over and over again…😔

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

Sad to hear that! I hope you're doing better. 💚

[@YG-jd2po]

Thank you for your channel, i hope you'll get better ❤

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

thank you! 🥹💚

[@YG-jd2po]

@@Kimberly_Viktoria my daughter is having her first episode, she is at hospital, they started olanzipane treatment, I hope it'll work. How long does it take to show it is working, please? ♥

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

@@YG-jd2po Sad to hear that, recovery can of course be very individual depending if you adjust well to the medications or not, I had to change meds a lot to find the right fit. But if she responds well it usually takes a few weeks of increasing the meds until everything is kind of settled and the symtoms are mostly gone. I hope she recovers well! 💚

[@YG-jd2po]

@@Kimberly_Viktoria it's a horrendous experience, you are very strong people ♥

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

@@YG-jd2po thank you! 💚

[@Eskridge-vr9gk]

I have schizophrenia too and the ketogenic diet has helped me.

[@Eskridge-vr9gk]

There are case studies of changing the diet leading to remission of symptoms

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

I know some who have had positive effects from the keto diet but sadly I just can stick with it long term...

[@Eskridge-vr9gk]

I wish I could come over and help you clean

[@Kevin-Bentley]

Thank you for sharing your experience! I think the same way I was diagnosed with schizophrenia bipolar 2 type I totally think there are cameras in my house and that the clocks are cameras and birds are drone cameras and that people are spying on me or out to get me I always make as little noise possible so I do not alert them of my presence. I don’t leave my room much I can barely go to work and my father doesn’t understand he is like this is all in your head I know but it’s hard to believe that thank you for sharing

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

thank you and thank you for sharing some of your story with me! 🥰

[@AshleyHurlbert]

Thyroid test ??

[@catherinemarsh5453]

I have heard that there is a major reduction in psychosis with people who eat Medical Keto. I wish you would do this and record your progress to either confirm or deny this theory. It solves two problems and that is the weight gain associated with antipsychotics and reduction in medication due to the fact that the way of eating seems to reduce symptoms. Keto was originally designed in 1921 by a doctor for people who experienced seizures but has considerable other benefits for everyone.

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

I have tried keto before but not sure if it counts as medical keto, there's not really anyone who can oversee it here. I did however not notice any less psychotic symtoms but I did lose weight.

[@Only1You_]

My son took an IM every month for almost 2 years now. As far as I know he seems to be still doing it. He did end up gaining quite a bit of weight at the beginning which he kept on for quite some time but eventually he lost the weight. I think you're more likely experiencing psychosis. It sounds like it to me. Hopefully you can start taking a prescription soon.

[@patience194]

Hope & pray the meds work and i know what u are going through as a schizophrenic sufferer myself. Thx❤😊

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

thank you! 🥰

[@Stella-fw9ps]

Thank you for bringing awareness to this world , Beautiful soul you make a big differens in this world ❤

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

Wow, thank you 💚

[@idostuff5766]

Have you looked into elimination diet. Dr. Chris Palmer has a lot of videos on using diet to fix psychiatric illnesses. I started low carb and definately saw improvements in my mental state. PS:- youre very pretty ❤

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

@@idostuff5766 I have tried low carb and keto but didn’t see the improvement I felt was necessary for me to restrict my diet like that sadly. But thank you anyway! 😊

[@idostuff5766]

​@@Kimberly_ViktoriaAhhh that sucks to hear but I'm glad you tried it. I hope youre feeling better since this video came out! Take care dear

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

@@idostuff5766 Thank you! ☺️

[@christinrapp-patterson6481]

When I start to worry about anything or have fear of something happening.. I ask myself what if the “thing” that I’m fearful of actually happened?? Would it be the end of the world ? It usually soothes me to know it wouldn’t be. It may be uncomfortable if it did happen. Try feeling into your body instead f being in your head . Try EFT if you can it will help

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

thank you for the advice! 😊

[@ashleyriblet2326]

My dear Kimberly, Hang in there.As soon as the med kicks in,you will be fine!Can you please ask your dr.about Fluaxonal!❤❤❤

[@ValentinaKajcinovska]

Obsession about dieting causes the brain more stress. Keep active but don't obsess about weight issues.

[@rachymarie]

Hey. So it seems to me that olanzapine is quite heavy-duty, being prescribed when psychosis is present. I was on it in hospital and gained half my starting weight i.e 50kg plus 25kg. I was not too happy about that. I wonder if there is another antipsychotic you could try once you get through this period? But definitely priority is to get better first. I just know firsthand the weight gain struggle, among all the other struggles. You are brave posting in psychosis and I hope everybody is being good and respectful. I know the internet can be triggering. May you stay safe, warm, fed, and rested ❤ things will get better

[@rachymarie]

And I'm gonna subscribe tehe i kept forgetting. Excited to watch more like your create and learn vlogs. Sending love from New Zealand

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

thank you! im actually about to maybe try another medication since olanzapine isn't really working.. 🥰

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

thank you! 💚

[@roberttravers7587]

Great video! hope things get better for you😁

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

Thank you!

[@MichaelR-p1g]

I’ve been through the weight gain roller coaster before etc

[@myflexibilitychallenges2496]

Hello. I very enjoyed your video where you prepared for New Year. Why isnt that video on your channel anymore? I wanted to watch it

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

Hi sorry I have privated some videos I don't like anymore... 🙃

[@myflexibilitychallenges2496]

@@Kimberly_Viktoria oh I very liked that video. I used to watch it often.

[@gypsyskyy9451]

Hi Kimberly, Im so sorry youre going through this, but dont beat yourself up, you are doing the best you can with what you have. You still sound pretty good, but frustrated and scared, and who wouldnt be! Just don't judge yourself, just take care of yourself, and love yourself. Sorry if Im not saying anything helpful. I'll keep you in my prayers. 💜💚❤‍🩹

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

Thank you Mary Ann! Your comment is being helpful since it’s supportive I think. So thank you. 💚

[@gypsyskyy9451]

@@Kimberly_Viktoria Yes! I'm very supportive of your challenges and how you are dealing with them. I really feel for you and hope you will get through this turmoil very soon! Warm Hugs . . .❤❤‍🩹💙

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

@@gypsyskyy9451 thank you! 🥹💚

[@Hypatia350]

I hope you feel better soon. ❤

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

thank you!

[@kimberleecatena]

I think people can read my thoughts most of the time too. You just gotta pray the people are understanding and on your side then and if not god still loves and is watching over you. And if you can’t believe that then well who cares all we can do is give up. I’ve felt all this. You don’t need pills if you don’t like them. you need to just give up caring. Literally. ^ I’d like to see your sims and god bless your art school and mind in Jesus name! Prayers for me too please! 🙏🏻☺️💗

[@TaijaT76]

I hate the meds because they make you fat. I am taking the meds for the restlessness. If I can’t sleep, long enough without the sleep psychosis might come back. Usually I need them just one week. During that week I gain 5 kg. If I cannot lose weight when not using them I am getting morbidly obese as I am getting older. Lack of sleep is number one cause causing the psychosis for me and also the sleep is the best cure for it. I had mild symptoms when young but after the ptsd it was getting worse and untolerable. Worst disease possible because of meds and obesity.☹️

[@emh8861]

You should check out the ketogenic diet. It’s good for the brain.

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

@@emh8861 have already tried it ☺️

[@October_libra]

I actually put up multple cameras in my house so i can monitor. I even have the cameras app pulled up while i workout in my bedroom bc of paranoia. I always make sure all doors are locked multiple times at night. I always am in hyper vigilant mode 24/7. I know the feeling of thinking you are a target or being watched. It sucks! But cannabis thc helps me and my anxiety alot. Thankful for natural medicine

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

its so tiring being so paranoid! I hope you're doing better soon too! 💚

[@sallytrunnion]

I hope you are aware of the cannabis and psychosis studies.

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

@@sallytrunnion i am, that's why id never do it. 😊

[@pianno55]

Dear Kimberly, I am so sorry that this is happening to you.. I know how devastating it feels to have all your efforts and progress you made taken away by illness, again... But, even if you don't think so, you are doing great! You still have that "lucid" part of your brain that knows this is a psychotic episode and it WILL pass! I think it is very important you take as much care for yourself as you can right now. Try to sleep and rest as much as you can, do some relaxing activities and don't beat yourself up - this is not your fault! Also, please, seek another opinion regardin olanzapine - I am sure there are other options that can reduce your symptoms without harming your physical health. And if you have a chance, ask for cognitive behaviour therapy - it can help you learn some techniques to better respond and deal with your symptoms. You are a strong, smart and talented young woman and I have no doubts that you can finish that art school once you are feeling better 🙂🙂

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

thank you for the advice! 💚

[@thelonglines]

If this helps, keep in mind that progress is rarely a straight line; it usually involves two steps forward and then one step back. You're doing great in my opinion. BTW, there is a great movie by Francis Ford Coppola called "The Conversation" that you should see in the future at some point, just don't watch it now, trust me. 🙂

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

thank you! ill write that down and look it up some other day. 🥰

[@courtnayzeitler8564]

Peace, sweet girl.

[@goblin1226]

I feel you on this. I used to have paranoia of cameras and police (CIA& FBI) following me as well. I had this delusion for one year and a half, and i completely believed it was real. No one could convince me otherwise. Do you take something like benzos in situations that are too intense? I feel they can help, but they are quite addictive, sadly. There are some teas that can help as well, you can buy them in pharmacies. They are called sleep/calming teas i think.. I don't know exactly what they're called in english tho, let alone swedish 😅 Wish i could help you somehow 😕 stay strong and never forget, it's ok to ask for help.

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

Thank you! I do have an anxiety medication but it’s not very strong but it helps, I just forget to take it most of the time. Also I’ll look up the teas and see what I can find thank you! 💚

[@goblin1226]

@@Kimberly_Viktoria No problem. There's also a valerian concentrate, which has helped me as well. It's an over the counter thing, i think. It is here in germany at least lol. Good luck, we got your back 😸

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

@@goblin1226 thank you! 🥹

[@SM-yb3eq]

I can identify a lot with your symptoms like the TB. I dont know what u can do for that but one thing I do that maybe helpful to u and ease ur mind is one thing I am doing for the weight gain I experience I dont know if u would want to do it is I gave up sugar and wheat or bread so far after 3 months I have lost 20 pounds! Anyway hope ur situation improves!

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

thank you for the suggestion and support! 💚

[@Lisa-fv7pp]

Sending lots of love and hugs 🫂 ❤

[@mikkosuhonenphotography]

Get well soon and I hope medication helps you quickly to feel better!

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

thank you! 💚

[@natas12rm]

You should make a strawberry donut cake. I don’t know if you have the strawberry donuts where you live but they are awesome. They look like a glazed donut but have strawberries and it has a reddish tint to the inside. So make the cake like how they make the donuts. I bet it would be amazing.

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

that sounds amazing! im not sure if im good enough of a baker to make it though. 🥰

[@natas12rm]

@@Kimberly_Viktoria you’d need a deep fryer for sure. I would assume you’d make it in like half inch layers and deep fry probably 3 sections. Did you see my other comment on here? I’m wondering if KZbin censored me

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

@@natas12rm oh okay! Thank you and no i haven’t seen another comment from you except these two 🤔

[@AnnKH-mi1gm]

When you feel a bit more stable, please look at something called the Mace Energy Method (the theory of Causism). It can really help. If you can meditate, go within yourself. Visualise a light inside of yourself and visualise it growing. Just something like that but go within. I know what its like, sending hugs.

[@SueB42]

I was thinking what if you were able to get a life coach/ organizer? Kimberly, you are going to be fine! You just have to try to stay busy and your cats are adorable! Could some family come and help you with your apt.?

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

thank you! I could always ask my mom to help me but she's away for the weekend already. But I'll manage I think. 💚

[@iank.8876]

Well, you're treating it now so it's just a matter of time for you to be well again. ^^ As for the weight gain... ugh, I know this fear. But once we start to lose weight, our mindset is on the right path already, so I hope you won't have issues.

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

Thanks for the advice! 💚

[@itmemo8617]

I have a very close friend who is having the same experience can i put u in contact with her ?

[@abdulhye5052]

Don't worry, May Allah heal you very soon.

[@BelaScorpio08]

Normally I have Aripripazol/abilfy, that is now change with an extra olanzapine … I don’t like and trust this medication.. it makes me go eat while iam or was a Runner 🏃 I lost everything in my motivation ❤ from Netherlands

[@tanyamcculloch7473]

I’m really sorry Kimberly . Nothing of what you’re thinking is reality , your real life is a lot less scary.xx

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

thank you! 💚

[@elizabethconroy7665]

P.S I spot a cute cat in the background Animals are the best ❤

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

I think so too!

[@sherrieh2062]

Just a thought, but people are using the prescription drug Ozempic for weight loss and losing a lot of weight over a few months. It really is a drug for type 2 diabetes but a lot of women take it because they just want to lose weight fast. It seems the doctors are allowing this and writing prescriptions for them even if they aren’t diabetic. My son’s sister in law lost 60 lbs on it because she was unable to lose the weight on her own by diet alone. Since you DO have diabetes, you could talk to your doctor and see if he thinks it’s a good option for you!

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

thank you! I actually just started something similar I just havent had the time (or energy really) to talk about it, its not ozempic though since it's out of stock here. 💚

[@emmelinesprig489]

Sending lots of peace and clarity toward you Kimberly! 💛 I’m really sorry this is happening. I wish I could come over to help you tidy, and bring you over to my messy home to hang out while I tidy. We would eat bread and butter 😋 It’s my favorite low-energy food One step at a time. We’re getting better, even when we have setbacks. I’m preparing to move soon, and then find a new job, and I’m scared the stress will undo all the progress I’ve made with my depression and phobias. But I keep reminding myself, even on hard days when I feel like I’m falling, I’ll get through. I’m getting through. We’re getting through. 💛💛💛

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

Oh thank you for this comment! That’s so kind of you 🥹💚

[@robertstone8056]

Hang in there kim❤

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

thank you! 💚

[@victoryhardaway5824]

Me too healing through it

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

@@victoryhardaway5824 wishing you well! 💚

[@victoryhardaway5824]

@@Kimberly_Viktoria same to you 💚

[@hayleyprice8345]

Have you been able to talk to your doctor about an alternative to orlanisapean

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

sadly no, but I think where going to discuss it next week if they decide I should have another medication. 💚

[@ellamaria9547]

I never knew you could know when you were in psychosis!

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

Just took me a few weeks to notice sadly... 🙃

[@jenniferthompson6280]

Sweetie, hang in there, its only temporary

[@Kimberly_Viktoria]

thank you!

[@cani.j]

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