I'm not dead.

I tried to be as honest as possible.
I'm not proud of everything I say, but it's what has been on my mind. Even the irrational and selfish thoughts.
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MZ
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Ciaran O'Brien
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Lyrics:
I’m not dead
I’m not fixed, but I’m not giving up yet
I’m sick of saying that I still don't have anything done
I hate telling friends I’m trying something just to give it up
I’m still unsure of my emotional state
I’m still incapable of focusing lately
I don’t feel like creating
I’m tired of asking Google how to find motivation
I don’t think I’ve ever made something that’s as good as I’m capable of
I hate not having a reason to look my best
I only ever take care of myself with the intent to show the internet
If what made me successful was an imposed sense of stress then
I am so so glad that I hated myself
I didn’t luck into this position
I struggle with decisions
I wouldn’t be my own friend, I’m too inconsistent
without immense pressure nothing ever gets finished
If these words make it to your ears it’ll be a fucking miracle.
I’m fortunate to know more good people than most do
I wish I had more friends I could be physically close to
I’m pretty good at like 20 different skill sets
At the expense of never being great at any one of them
I wish this beat hit harder
I wish more syllables rhymed
I know 99 percent of people really don’t mind
I think collaborating forced me to finish things ‘cause
I was terrified of wasting famous people’s time
I wish I could focus on what I define priority
I wish I was as grateful as I want to be
I wish I knew more people who were mentally stable
But if I did, I wouldn’t let them waste their time on me while I’m disabled
I feel alone
I know I’m not
I used to talk to lots of people. Lately I’ve stopped
They didn’t deserve it, I’ve been a terrible friend.
I couldn’t bear to let myself become boring to them
I don’t let myself get my hopes up. I love people who do.
Ah, I never know if what I say I feel is the truth
I wish I didn’t instinctively try to be less specific
So more people could relate when they read along with the lyrics
I can be happy in the moment
I am not when I reflect
I distract myself with gaming, waiting to get better
I hate it
I wanna do the most good, and prevent the most hurt
But I've gotta put on my own oxygen mask first
I can’t predict what I’ll do. I can never be sure
I am terrified of making promises any more
I can’t face my work, I feel sick from the word
I genuinely believe I’m capable of changing the world
I still think I can get better
I still think I can create and get pleasure from it
I'll keep aiming to make my emotion and my logic agree
And become the best version of me
I don’t want to stop
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[@Jasmin-bp6ic]

“I’m tired of asking google how to find motivation” that hit home

[@noodledude2171]

same here... i use incognito mode though... so i don't have to look back at the history of how pathetic my attempt was to change my paradigm

[@notgayatall5454]

I read this while he said it.

[@noodledude2171]

@@notgayatall5454 maybe next time, watch the video before reading the comments

[@eddiesfitmum2450]

@@noodledude2171 everyone's depressed these days lmao

[@_r.munro_8339]

I would try them and it would never work.

[@erickdiangelo]

"I'm pretty good at like 20 different skill sets, at the expense of never being great at any one of them" This. This hit me.

[@trafulgerlaw3332]

The sad thing is that i am the same

[@somegremlin6248]

Jack of all trades, master of none.

[@The_Trash_Mammal]

same

[@iddo12233]

@@somegremlin6248 but oftentimes better than a master of one

[@shaycentral5086]

Me too

[@zachlap3020]

“Im pretty good at 20 different skillsets at the expense of never being great at any of them” Damn that hit so deep

[@Th3RealPeterGriffin]

Same

[@reedplaysgames]

Yeah that’s relatable af

[@louisepepino872]

if it helps, remember that jack of all trades, master of none, is far better than master of one.

[@Cilvathorne]

*me whose pretty good at zero skillsets and great at none* agreed

[@beythhhhh8620]

same

[@AnimationtvChannel2]

I accidentally stumbled upon this song today, when I was browsing my old playlist which I had made when I was 15, struggling with many similar things as mentioned in this song's lyrics. Back then I didn't know what caused these symptons nor why I never felt good enough. This song was my comfort song, a song I could relate to and not feel alone. Now I'm in my 20s, seeing a psychologist and apparently those symptoms were caused by ADHD and depression. Seek help, it will get better, I promise you.

[@emilyesnyman]

I have almost the same story, adhd and anxiety, also rediscovered this song after getting diagnosed :)

[@icantthinkofagoodname7992]

“I wish I knew more people who were mentally stable, but I wouldn’t let them waste their time on me while I’m disabled” Hit me hard man.

[@catroyalty6360]

Yup. Me too. I love this song *mostly* because how much I relate to it

[@catroyalty6360]

@Ember Gyre so...... Sad Bros?

[@Bearbear_67]

Yea

[@itsalysad9778]

I Cantthinkofagoodname same same.

[@jennmichelle2]

Same. I’m also afraid to make friends because I’m so boring.

[@kiros5854]

"i feel alone, i know i'm not."

[@MrStoryMonster]

1:32 for everyone.

[@catbitxh4195]

Yhea

[@thefallenraptor4005]

Exactly how i feel

[@beastmaster6486]

It's called depression

[@loveablesimp]

@@beastmaster6486 Sometimes people cause it..

[@leonolan5409]

I know Dave probably won't see this but I want to thank him for existing. I've struggled with so much over the years and his music makes me feel okay, even if its only for three minutes. I don't really use any social medias but his last tweets have me kind of concerned. I know what its like to keep up the fight every day, wanting to just give up. I sincerely hope he is still around... I hope to meet him one day and thank him for all he's done in person.

[@owencoukell388]

Thank him for ALL he’s done? 💀

[@thehandsomeman.7042]

​@@owencoukell388that was 2 years ago.

[@_Lxnely_]

@@owencoukell388 ...yea? the said "allegations" are f*cking allegations for a reason, have a mind of your own okay? until something's proven HARD, and until these allegations don't just magically disappear off the internet :D THEN, you'll have the right to judge Dave and no im not "one of his blind fans" or whatever, i just really don't like when ppl get destroyed over some silly messenger screenshots ((or whatever the F that was? some posts i think)) (and a wall of text with, again, not that much proof)- to which they didn't even respond (at least for now)

[@owencoukell388]

@@_Lxnely_ bad day?

[@_Lxnely_]

@@owencoukell388 ? xD (no? :d)

[@MeCooper]

It's been 5 years and this song still hits people. You did good my dude.

[@user-xw1gs6ie1g]

Yeah he didn’t do good at all..

[@abdullah_.707]

and he also hits on people

[@MeCooper]

It's funny, You'd think people would have learned from the whole Johnny Depp thing... But nope, Who needs evidence or proof when you've got unfounded accusations? lol

[@games_on_phone89]

@@MeCooper cope and seethe

[@mandy7838]

@@MeCooper He openly dated minors, like his own profiles had this information.

[@isabellawaller7643]

“I used to talk to lots of people, lately I've stopped, they didn’t deserve it, I’ve been a terrible friend, but I couldn't bare to let myself become boring to them.” That really hit close to home

[@tinymighty5140]

Isabella Waller YESS

[@g00seg00se]

I can relate.

[@kimberlyhaines107]

Isabella Waller Me too. Especially considering how many medical professionals said I should be six feet under.

[@ravensrealm1170]

Yeah same here.

[@Janeage]

Me 2

[@keegan6448]

This actually describes what depression feels like. Thank you.

[@iamcoolrealnotfake5486]

I love your name

[@raxahax173]

Depression is different to everyone, I personally think there's not a real definition of depression and everybody sees it in various different ways.

[@saturnerens]

holo there menchie

[@fggyleafexist1753]

Everyone faces depression differently but I think we can all relate to not being able to even stay motivated or get out of bed

[@user-gp5fb8bs7y]

@@raxahax173 well it's not like there are a hundred types of depression but they're more than one. the definition of depression is a combination of sadness, demotivation, despair, anxiety, fear, etc... and that applies to all.

[@ryderlead]

i wish that i appreciated Dave when i first found his channel. he’s such an awesome person honestly. mostly because he is a fucking person, an actual human with feelings and thoughts and ideas he wants to share with the world. also he’s a genuinely cool guy, who has relatable experiences and makes great music.

[@YourCreepyMum]

This aged well

[@knockoffspiderman6861]

@@YourCreepyMum they aren't proven

[@happiness7808]

@@YourCreepyMum I don’t believe allegations without proof. Literally everything that we ever saw or heard about him was GREAT- until a random wall of text appears from one source and suddenly everyone wants to cancel him? I believe him. I believe the good heart he has shown in his videos, the deep thinker with empathy who cares about others. I don’t believe whoever wrote one expose on Reddit. Often, allegations have been PROVEN to be woman just looking for the attention. Until actual evidence shows up, that is the most likely scenario here.

[@YourCreepyMum]

@@happiness7808 ngl forgot I made this comment I think my opinion might’ve changed then and now

[@lianaishere2235]

This made me feel less alone. I feel like you just described me in every way and knowing that there's more people like me helps

[@insertnamehere4837]

This shows the side of depression most don’t understand it’s not just sadness and feeling low it’s frustration and anxiety. When you’re depressed the motivation that drives you is gone and everything feels harder and the smallest things become agonising to complete and then it’s never good enough.

[@susanna9721]

This is the perfect way to describe me.

[@emjay7522]

This is very true. Most of the time I have absolutely no motivation to do anything. I can't even bring myself to get out of bed or make my bed.

[@potato-fc9kn]

True

[@commanderfalcon1595]

I don't think I'm depressed but I relate with this song in my soul

[@svendinsvinderlin4569]

I'm not depressed but I definitely can't find the motivation to do anything. I thought that the issue was time, but now in lockdown with all the time I could ever have nothing has changed, which just makes me feel worse about the whole situation.

[@Coffnist_Charm]

"Without pressure nothing gets done" Holy shit- Someone put all my emotion in a sentence.

[@Jimmmmm234]

school in a nutshell

[@joemanajoekaka6500]

Sameee

[@vilmabostrom2]

"Without immense pressure nothing ever gets finished" use the actual sentence next time

[@Coffnist_Charm]

@@vilmabostrom2... _LISTEN HERE YOU LITTLE SHI-_

[@gizmokitty25]

Could you be any more correct

[@Exulva]

“I wanna do the most good and prevent the most hurt”.

[@GirlWthGlasses]

I think he really needs a hug.

[@Essential-Idiot]

Now More Than Ever...

[@viniciusnistico]

"I can be happy in the moment,I'm not when I reflect". exactly me.

[@hiphop8045]

this

[@coopermcgrath7819]

And because of that people say that I'm faking being sad and shit

[@htwww]

WHEN I SAW THSI COMMENT I WAS AT THAT PART OF THE SONG

[@loveablesimp]

Same

[@viniciusnistico]

@@coopermcgrath7819 It happens to me too bro,it's so hard to hear that.

[@ios8713]

"I wish this beat hit harder" It it the hardest a song could ever hope to hit: It hit right in the feels

[@susanna9721]

It’s amazing I feel more understood after listening that I feel I ever have. As a person who puts on the largest mask in in front of my friends and family, teachers and classmates only to go home and peel it off to see the exact thing I try to hide hurts. My parents don’t allow me to use makeup so I have to create my own mask. Then I go and do homework, and go to a sport practice. I feel zero motivation to do anything and cry whenever someone says anything in a slightly louder voice. I’ve never had anyone I feel like I could talk to and am afraid the my friends will find the truth. They are so stable and happy it’s difficult to build a mask that big. I know no one will ever read this but it feels better to type it out.

[@Ender436]

Susanna Hall not everyone’s life is going to be as good as they make it look. Everyone has at least some degree of a mask. Good luck with everything.

[@ios8713]

@@emeraldplays8109 idk if I have depression and I don't wanna jump to conclusions and be the kid that is like "I'm depressed I'm quirky"

[@berrybee9242]

@@ios8713 Same situation man.. I'm afraid to open up to anyone because I'm not sure if I'm actually mentally ill

[@wildmint1293]

@@berrybee9242 if something's bothering you maybe going to psychologist might be a good idea, even if you're not mentally ill it's just a healthy thing to do if you're not feeling well

[@nappyk96]

I love how honest and vulnerable Dave is in this song a lot of the feelings he expresses are feelings I can really relate to because I've felt a lot of the same feelings especially when Dave talks about cutting his friends off because he doesn't think they deserve to have to "waste there time on him."

[@meerf_y]

This song really helped me out 3 years ago when I was really low. And it's helping me again now. Dave I can't thank you enough for this song

[@Black-rw4og]

yeah songs pretty alr, btw you know about that boyinaband drama?

[@fckcoleslaw8533]

@@Black-rw4og bro shut the fuck up, knowing about what he has done does not improve this person’s experience as a human on this planet, let them live

[@Black-rw4og]

@@fckcoleslaw8533 dude chill, i just saw this comment and thought "huh, what a strangely positive comment" and i said that. i didn't mean it as "can't believe you'd support someone that has done horrible things"

[@fckcoleslaw8533]

@@Black-rw4og I don’t mean the opposite ether, it’s just that this person was experiencing something positive and they may have not known about the drama, letting them know wouldn’t change anything they would just be sad for them

[@Black-rw4og]

@@fckcoleslaw8533 alright then, noted

[@ayesha7409]

"I wish I had more friends I could be physically close to" That hit home

[@terryl9276]

Relatable.....

[@quinsif6483]

I would say I relate to that, but that would be lying, however I still understand, and even though this isn’t a problem for me I have different problems. We all do

[@theimplications635]

@@quinsif6483 ah okay

[@ruizmanuel69]

That is my life. Most of my friends aren’t in the same state as me

[@ayesha7409]

Extreme Puzzles state? what about continent

[@aylinledezma2141]

"But I couldn't bare to let myself become boring to them"

[@Nightofnostars11]

the emotion he said that line with... it felt like a really hard gut punch...

[@spoopyboi1882]

it's really hard feeling that way...

[@Nightofnostars11]

I know. Dave really showed that feeling. but that line in particular is just sticking with me...

[@spoopyboi1882]

Nightofnostars11 yeah. This entire song just gets to me... Its one of those songs that I shouldn't listen to, but I just can't stop because i somewhat know how he feels and can relate to all of these lines...

[@Nightofnostars11]

Ashley Trammell I feel like I shouldn't but I'm not stopping. Just replaying and listening to every word. I know I don't feel exactly like he does but I feel like I really do. Its a strange feeling... But I'm still listening...

[@dancershan]

You changed my life, particularly with this video. I can't thank you enough for all the positive work you've shared with us over the years. Edit: yes, this aged like milk. It was still true when I said it. He didn't make content alone, so let me officially extend this thanks to his entire team. Thank you team for giving me some good days, whether or not you were credited for it.

[@OpenDistress4]

Same Dude!

[@maureenruddy7335]

Same

[@Operanix]

wow

[@polaris2834]

U r gonna regret this alot.

[@TruMiner]

aged like milk

[@djStay0320]

I don't believe any crap. To me you will always remain an absolute miracle, genuine and kind person. And you definitely have changed the world.

[@press8704]

1:17 daves little sob when he says ‘terrified’ ripped my fucking heart out and stomped on it

[@krovirma2ndchannel259]

I know right

[@n0tn0vemberrr]

@@krovirma2ndchannel259 ikr* it's just better to type tbh

[@durdleduc8520]

I never even noticed that, but that detail is so painful.

[@ayanoaishi1932]

@@n0tn0vemberrr it's better to not be lazy.

[@liquidcancer4573]

@@n0tn0vemberrr Who the hell cares

[@meenakshious]

"I never know if what I say I feel is the truth." "I can be happy in the moment. I am not when I reflect." "I can't predict what I'll do. I can never be sure. I am terrified of making promises anymore." These are the lines that resonated most with me. Thanks for putting the jumble of thoughts in my head into words.

[@cassandra6375]

TheNewGirl ! Yup, it's the same for me. Those things make life so hard

[@cursiverain6261]

TheNewGirl ! Same 💜

[@dropout2804]

TheNewGirl ! I doubt I have depression and I don't think I have problems, but I can relate to the happy in the moment. I also never care about my appearance at all. I always feel like people have already judged me and think I'm retarded.

[@connorevans104]

One that resonates with me is "I wouldn't be my own friend I'm too inconsistent"

[@riccardo33]

"I'm sick of saying that I still don't have anything done" "I hate telling friends i'm trying something just to give it up" I can relate to these lines.

[@TheTozotube]

I find myself returning to this song. I always related of course. But these days... im much older than when it first came out. 20 years old now. Graduated college, and i run a production company. Im overbooked right now and im not doing what I want. I want to create, and succeed on youtube. Make my own content. My own brand. Not do it for others, to make them more successful and keep myself in the dark. I also genuinely believe im capable of changing the world. Every single world from “i can be happy in the moment” to the end of the song is exactly how I feel right now. I aspire to be like you dave. Create like you. Make an impact like you. Keep it up, loved your work since i was 15. I hope for another song like this someday from you. I dont want to stop either. ❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@eveblack7411]

he did change the world. mine at least. hope he's okay.

[@proteinsenpai3902]

it scares me that i relate to this

[@be4ut1ful.st4rl1ght]

lmao right??

[@xaviertaeryn7241]

true, very true

[@gogox98]

Apart from the parts that included fans, I can relate 100%

[@xaviertaeryn7241]

+KatNotDinner exactly

[@xaviertaeryn7241]

+KatNotDinner only fans I have are my close friends that live half away around the world

[@coffyplayz2345]

“I genuinely think I can change the world”....... in my opinion you already have

[@zrickazzci5387]

He has

[@mydickisincrediblytinyandi7380]

I wouldn't go that far

[@charnightt]

He has. He may not know it but I think he has

[@joemamagaming6119]

Anyone living has had an impact on the world no matter how insignificant

[@h2o848]

@@joemamagaming6119 eyy i got the same ideology whenever i'm depressed the universe literally wouldn't be the way it is right now without you

[@miles.1317]

You have changed the worlds of so many people when spectrum came out I was struggling with my gender and sexuality with a homophobic family and became very suicidal but that song helped me through a lot. Thank you.

[@gummysnailz]

this song used to help me so much, now i can't even listen to it without remembering what he did. i hope he at least makes a statement about it instead of just disappearing like he probably will...

[@valeriekohoutova7618]

He had me fooled

[@rtheawesomegm]

it's just allegations, for all we know they could have just made it up.

[@vladimirgertner3960]

He disappeared years ago, and that had nothing to do with allegations. Don't connect the two. As far as what he did - even if we accept every allegation as truthful, it really amounts to nothing really. Read through the actual evidence presented in the links. 1. Accused of sexual abuse - Read the entire sentence, it was because he asked them to let him be polyamourous 2. Physical abuse - Apparently, when he was in his early teens he hit his girl, that's messed up, but at the same time, 20 years ago, and even the letter states he regretted it. 3. Ghosting people during bouts of depression - He did that, and a lot of people now hate him for it All of their "receipts" are of him being a bad boyfriend, not of him being abusive. For example, he would make them wash the dishes and he would call them replaceable. Lastly, the pedo accusation - While sketchy, it was perfectly legal in the UK. He dated a 17 YO girl while he was 23. Problematic, but legal in most of the countries, and it's not like there is a magic switch when you turn 18 We need to wait for a lot more information before we start saying "what he did".

[@smtandearthboundsuck8400]

@@vladimirgertner3960 common cancel culture L But at least we got nice « I was never taught the laws » ironic memes out of it.

[@metastabillity8991]

@@vladimirgertner3960 Funny enough I see this as the Ryan Haywood situation all over again. While Ryans situation is definitely alot more Sketch he in actuality did nothing Illegal. Just highly Immoral. The only instance of the one that would be "illegal" In a Court at least he would be found Not Guilty because he was legitimately catfished. Someone who was under age posed as someone of age to get to him. Am I defending Ryan? 90% No. His actions were fucked up especially considering his position of power he had, as well as the fact that he was married and had kids and that was a HUGE no no. If Dave or Ryan came back to make content again, i'd watch it. At least neither of them did what Mini Ladd did which was threaten suicide to get sexual favors with minors, then use the quote "I was planning to kill myself anyway so might as well as go out with a bang" then try to blame it on the girls after. Dave and Ryans Situations were heavily fucked up. But they are both redeemable at least too me. The fact that Ryan's wife was able to "Move On" however so reluctantly and still keep their family together should be enough for the community to say "Maybe he doesnt deserve to die like people are pleading for"

[@carlylwun78]

"I’m tired of asking Google how to find motivation" That's so relatable...

[@Ryeera]

Hey Google, how do I find motivation?

[@sevengnomesinatrenchcoat]

there's a point where googling "how to find motivation" turns into googling "how to kill myself"

[@ettarose70]

“I’m tired of asking google on how to find motivation” That hit me harder than it should have.

[@pastelfactorysys]

It hits me too

[@kithsoul7798]

it hits me to, I want to cry every time

[@cigypaul6039]

I'm tired of asking Google how to feel less sick, more better and happier. I miss my usual self, I miss my smile, I hate my relationships with other people.(There's friction) Lately nothing makes me happy. Even food and music. I feel so desperate. There's so much drama where I live and I hate drama! It was my birthday today. (15th August btw) My birthday was quite shitty too. My birthday cake fell on my passenger car seat just after buying it, my hand got caught nearly on fire, everyone started fighting, my health is good now but before it was like crap. I used have really bad tonsillitis. But things are getting gradually better.

[@nicolaingham12]

That was too real. It hit me like a truck.

[@maskgaming9571]

i just google on the way to be happy...

[@SanderTeunissen]

Still coming back to this song 5 years later. I hope you're doing better now Dave! Sending love from the Netherlands!

[@TheDerpDiaries]

"i can be happy in the moment, but i'm not when i reflect." i didn't know how to put this feeling into words but that just about does it. i've had a really rough last two years and i came across this song again. i didn't relate fully when you first posted it but today it has brought me to tears because i've lived it now and i understand. i'm scared to take medication, but maybe i need to.

[@nathan00campbell]

damn, i thought i was alone with these feelings, there is no possible way you can just write this shit unless you know these feelings

[@terran236]

nathan campbell the line that got me was about using google for motivation. Also feeling apathetic about a hobby he once loved. I can so relate to it. Life feels so flavorless right now.

[@ac6422]

nathan campbell yeah that's true can always tel if it's something personal or just another subject they speak of I love when it's personal you can hear and feel it in there voice

[@secretninja247]

So true!

[@johnnyjustjohnny3324]

in the past, I've considered myself an artist.. but now? I havent drawn in 3 years. I hate it. depression hurts, man... its hard to tell someone how depression really effects you, but this man understands. and it is such a relieve to know that you are not alone. you're not the only one who feels this way.

[@tooreey]

I genuinely had a realisation moment when he said he distracted himself with gaming and just paused the video. I do that ALL THE TIME! and I didn't even realise!

[@al7240]

"I'm pretty good at like 20 different skill sets, at the expense of never being great at any one of them" hit pretty deeply

[@mcmoocraftgaming2247]

That is literally me

[@oo3006]

Jack of all trades but master of none

[@blue5standingby684]

This song helped me through a serious mental health crisis years ago. Hearing the recent news about Dave is honestly so heartbreaking. Revisiting this just feels tragic.

[@azuboof]

Allegations.

[@iKingRPG]

@@azuboof yeah but when you really look into it, Dave looks pretty sus.

[@azuboof]

@@iKingRPG i can agree. But people are already calling him sex offender based on a reddit post and you know how it is on Twitter...

[@valeriekohoutova7618]

@@azuboof Say you are misogynist without you are misogynist...

[@azuboof]

@@valeriekohoutova7618 keep accusing people of wrong doings, devil woman

[@KathiCat01]

The reason why I still love listening to this Song is, it's gives me so much hope. There are so many songs about struggling with romantic relationships and all that out there, but not enough about self-improvement and intrinsic motivation. Thank you so much for that! ❤

[@Bean_guy2]

he was never taught what laws there are

[@KathiCat01]

​@@Bean_guy2and?

[@Bean_guy2]

@@KathiCat01google en passant

[@joeysfieldherpingadventure8861]

@@Bean_guy2 Neither were the people accusing him apparently.

[@lavenzaa]

Ok, this hit too close to home, I wasn't prepared.

[@draiic]

I felt it, too...

[@OnyxWylde]

I felt it... Damn. I just need like an hour to contemplate life.

[@stormbound]

same :(

[@talibaozibang9321]

same.....

[@YurimoHikashi]

Same!

[@byob7381]

“I can be happy in the moment. I’m not when I reflect.” This… This is me. This lyric hits me everywhere. I’m crying.

[@eeev4832]

Im not depressed or anything, but I also have that feeling. Like, I live in the moment, and afterwards regret every single thing I did during the moment.

[@waffles_boi9973]

Just never give him up and he'll be fine

[@byob7381]

OclyTheWaffle 1 lol

[@taytongray4626]

Holy same when ever I go to bed I literally think about what I did at school and regret everything

[@byob7381]

@@taytongray4626 yeah. i constantly wonder "did i do something wrong?" or "did i say something wrong?" "what if they dont want to be my friends?" its hard to manage those feelings. its nice to know im not the only only one who feels this way.

[@mattkooser7061]

I'm commenting here because I want you to know you have described the inner workings of my mind with music in a way I didn't know had words. And thanks to the connection of knowing that someone in the world understand that feeling makes me feel a hell of a lot less alone. I appreciate you far more than I know how to appropriately express but I will leave you with this. Thank you Dave.

[@amaterasusomatose8637]

You've touched so many lives, dave- I started listening to you after I discovered your town of Salem rap eith Minx- Years later and now I'm 20 years old and I still revisit your channel. I hope you've gained the comfort, growth and stability your music and videos have given me. You changed my life in so many ways, I'll never be able to thank you enough for that. Much love, I hope you're doing okay now wherever you are. :)

[@theminifirefly1255]

“I struggle with decisions “ “I wouldn’t be my own friend,I’m too inconsistent “ “I can be happy in the moment,I am not when I reflect “ “I wish I was as great full as I want to be..” This whole video is relatable but these lines really hit me

[@josephinealeksines4302]

Yes, yes I know

[@pogchamp1421]

People disregard my depression because "ur happy all the time", thx Dave for this line"I can be happy in the moment, I'm not when I reflect"

[@theminifirefly1255]

yes it's me dono I can’t tell you how many times I’ve heard “but you’re so happy,what do you have to be sad about?!” And it angers me so much

[@cevirthek262]

@@pogchamp1421 M E

[@AidenDe1]

@@theminifirefly1255 my friend says to me "at least i dont get depressed over nothing"

[@user-sf1uc7ft1t]

"I distract myself with gaming waiting to get better." Literally me every day.

[@boazcohen7992]

"I hate it". Too true.

[@joshualio6031]

Lol

[@zas_uf]

I can relate

[@megx6987]

Same.

[@noxu2161]

Well, according to some research, gaming actually helps more then therapy. EDIT: Sorry, can't link anything ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

[@thortroy4627]

Still one of my favorite musical artists :) its always fun to come back and watch your videos. We miss you

[@aelfrey3918]

Dave. Man. Keep making me cry. I need to feel things. Thank you. Also this is so relatable, I think I'm going to hang onto it to send to people who don't understand what I'm feeling.

[@Higbo1710]

Everyone here is clicking like. Oh my god Dave i'm so happy your back. None of you listened to what he's saying. We have to be supportive of him and recognize that he's having a tough time right now. I've seen comments saying that people want Dave's job and that he has an awesome apartment. He's depressed at the moment. Depressed, lonely and having trouble finding motivation to go on. We have to show support for that. not just swarm him with comments saying that we want him to do more videos. We're here for you Dave. Your content, no matter what it is, is incredible and i really hope you find that spark of motivation soon. Reach out to those people, i guarantee they're not going to get bored of you. It just takes a step.

[@LetsPlayBro01]

I totally agree with you.

[@unsmile666]

Well said

[@elektraelz2513]

yes

[@lunavos4133]

you just worded what I wanted to say but couldn't find the words for it

[@branfordsteele]

I too, along with many other people who read this comment, agree.

[@cpfl6915]

I know this song/video is 3 years old, but I've never related to something on the internet this much. I've already known about this song for about 2 years, but never wanted to say anything until now

[@ashclarke6941]

Same

[@tatianarosales9706]

Yeah me too

[@Volt64bolt]

CPFL NOC

[@pastelgalaxy4079]

4 years old now.

[@Im_in_theTardis]

Same

[@victoriaalberti6500]

I’ve been listening to this song for four years now. I just learned last year at 27 that I’m autistic. I just accepted it this past April. This song hits my soul harder now than it ever did. You gave us without a voice a way to describe what’s going on in our head and it’s beautifully painful. When I can’t find the words to describe myself I send the person this song. Thank you so much. Please don’t ever stop trying create. But if you can’t, well, I get it. You’re changing the world with this song alone. The rest of your music as well. Giving people voices and waking people up.

[@Immortalbus]

Update for you, its widely believed now that the artist here (Dave Aka Boyinaband) has been involved in multiple relationships where he mentally and potentially physically abused the (very young) women he was with. It turns out he in fact, wasnt giving people voices, and was actually silencing the voices of these women with false suicide threats and power moves.

[@maybefaith23]

I just want to ask a question, and know I don't mean anything by it because I know it's the kind of thing some people may get upset over. Why do people make a big deal out of being diagnosed with autism? When I was diagnosed with it I was just like "Oh, ok." and then moved on. Granted I got diagnosed earlier than you did (at 14) but that's still fairly late compared to a lot of people. I just didn't care and I don't understand why other people do.

[@meaowlody3748]

Years later and i’m still listening to this, and it means even more to me now. We miss you, Dave. 🖤

[@garakbashir1736]

I hate how people are like "'*insert random line*' hits deep." Like this whole EFFING SONG HITS ME SO HARD because it's REAL.

[@funnyvideoguy3216]

This sentence is 100% accurate.

[@marylaurenjones4550]

if you like real rap go check ou NF It Is the realest it gets dude

[@Cferal]

@@marylaurenjones4550 100 percent yea, but this hits deep too

[@1z.u]

Because some people have different experiences, and there are certain lyrics that hit them in a different way

[@BethanyjjZimmerman]

true. but for some people, certain things will really hit them and be more relatable. one line could make someone go, yeah I know that feeling Its like picking apart poetry.

[@opticalo23]

Three years later and this still makes me tear up.

[@sarahsmiles4155]

I'm not the only one who listens a long time later? Yay, I was looking for a recent comment.

[@andywu5121]

Same thing here, I do because I can really relate to this and am not sure what to do.

[@andywu5121]

@@sarahsmiles4155 Thank you, I appreciate it but, I just can't get the thoughts out of my head.. It just keeps coming back and I just can't figure out what to do..

[@andywu5121]

Bubbles K-472 Thank you so much for caring about me and hope you can find ways to get better and not think of it ever again.

[@sarahsmiles4155]

@@andywu5121 :D Same back

[@TDTRondas]

OK... I don't think I have ever gotten depressed (hope that never happens), but I love those parts of "being the better version of myself" and "I don't want to stop". I think we always have a little anxiety for a lot of stuff, but finding the strenght to push ourselves forward and going on with our lives to... really live our lives is a powerful message and very well expressed in this song. congratulations.

[@tabathahughes1340]

I love the raw honesty and emotion of your lyrics and music. You have made a difference in the world. Give your own self the grace that you so graciously extend to others. Keep moving forward, one baby step at a time.

[@queensalmon4905]

"I feel alone...I know I'm not" That shit hits hard, I know I have a loving family and friends, I know I have support systems and people I can go to for help, but there are just the moments where I feel like nobody really cares about me and nobody's actually there for me and it scares me that my mind can make me think like that

[@catinthecard7441]

I feel you

[@miriammassouk3967]

Oh i felt it! Once i found the courage of telling my best friend all my feeling and emotions, initially i felt relieved of my decisions because i thought that once i had done that any of my problems would have been solved. Guess what? It didn't happen, she was really pleased i finally found the nerve of telling her what i thought was the truth, but anyways i didn't (and also don't) know what to do with that: she didn't know how to help me and she always got sad and preoccupied when i did feel bad, so that one day i decided to stop telling to her all of my anxieties and thought. I got the conclusion anyone cannot really understand what i feel and solve my problems in my place so it's pointless keeping my friend preoccupied when me and anyone alse don't know what to do with that, it's selfish in my opinion, so i decided i will talk to anyone about my problems except my diary (which i haven't updated since january.... details). I think this the better ways i can face my problems right now because i tried to talk to people but it didn't help me and them either. P.s. sorry for some errors in the text.I'm not a native speaker, i'm Italian.

[@therockstarthanishkatrs2445]

Hey I hope you guys are ok 🙂

[@d4rc442]

I feel you because that same thing happens to me sometimes

[@aster9686]

And I often feel that I "don't have a right" to feel like crap because I still have people around me, some people have no friends and abusive families, I'm not allowed to feel bad with the great situation I'm in...

[@cageisradgd9315]

“But I’ve got to put on my own oxygen mask first.” That’s a good line, it hits me hard every time.

[@thesoggiest5810]

No like that’s what you have to do Put your own mask on first

[@cageisradgd9315]

@@thesoggiest5810 I know I’m just saying, I like the metaphor

[@xXRealXx]

@@cageisradgd9315 what the metaphor here? I don't get it :/

[@ahsen5105]

@@xXRealXx He wants to help and save other people but first he has to help himself. Only after that he can help others.

[@xXRealXx]

@@ahsen5105 ooooh, now I understand it

[@courtneywalker2187]

I only just discovered this video. It's so relatable. This is just what depression feels like. Living for others because you have a hard time living for yourself.

[@frxstedflakes6298]

After 2 years i listened to this song again and almost cried when i heard the line "i can be happy in the moment but im not when i reflect" because i used to relate to this so much, im a lot lot better now, back then i thought i would never feel happy again but everything changed im so so happy now

[@emilyesnyman]

I'm so happy for you! It does get better :)

[@elizabethware8602]

fuck I am crying. why is this so relatable?

[@danahaham]

Elizabeth Ware . exactly.. Because it's honest and true

[@mattscott7422]

Because everybody at one point, has thought "What if I disappoint everybody?" Be it, parents or friends or piano teachers or yourself, it has happened to pretty much everybody

[@EDanM]

I listed to this like 20 times in a row now and i'm crying so much ;-;

[@loaglelee1936]

danahaham im so happy you said this so I didn't have to.. Lol

[@baljeep_gay]

Bc Dave is really talented!

[@neonvoiid1937]

The fact that 83 thousand people (including myself) relate to this makes me sad

[@caseymcvey6715]

probably more

[@mariosstamoulis7345]

I don't relate but I liked because he is the only modern artist who can make fluent and good music which rhymes smoothly.

[@elenixviral0554]

Axiis I relate since a kid

[@mrfelder123]

Honestly same here, it sucks

[@lolwillo2tylol219]

I sometimes do the exact same as he did. I hate it too

[@ToraPaint]

I dont listen to this song a lot but i always come back to it when im down, the "I still think that i can get better, i still think i can create and get pleasure from it" makes me cry every time. What change through time is that i dont relate to the “I genuinely believe I'm capable of changing the world” lyric anymore, my belif in what i can do got lower and lower. I hope you got a bit better, and this year will be kind to you.

[@alvoxyzer]

this hits me really hard, boyinaband's music really saved me at times and especially this song cause i relate to most of it. ive had lots of traumas and had a lot of therapy and boyinabands music just helped me through so much shit. these allegations make me, sad, disappointed, angry, and confused. he was a role model for me and i was sad when he seemingly disappeared. if everything is true, i just dont know how to have faith in anyone anymore cause so many role models turn out to all be pieces of human excremete. i really hope theres an explanation for all of this, but as far as his career goes, even if its all explainable, its gone. i dont know what to feel. i hope he will eventually make a post about thiss, or at least respond anywhere, but as for now i cant really pick a side. theres proof for quite a few things but theres also so much shady shit and its hard to believe nothing of it is made up/twisted, but as it stands, its also hard to believe nothing of it is true. damn.

[@alvoxyzer]

this is so hard to process.

[@dreambrush7251]

I never was super into him but time to time I would watch his videos and always found him down to earth, intelligent and seemingly empathetic (like how he responded to prince ea back then) so I'm not gonna lie, it was a bit of a shock that someone would present themselves into this good human being would have these horrible allegations and even history of manipulating others (shonalika actually talked about his shitty behaviour that kinda matches with the allegations). It's a pretty sad situation honestly and kinda shows that anyone can be a sociopath without you knowing.

[@theeguy9022]

Learn that nobody is good or evil, Seeing in black and white is childish and humans are always a combination of many things, A great person is just as likely to hold something back as others, Understand that even if he is what the allegations say he is, The song is separate from the artist and the lessons you were taught were manifested by your own observations, Not theirs.

[@alvoxyzer]

@@theeguy9022 this

[@GAxelic]

Seriously why isn't this famous? I can't relate to any other song like how i relate to this

[@DeimosPhobos800]

4,556,234 views is... something.

[@thatshowmafiaworks1360]

I love his songs

[@GAxelic]

@@DeimosPhobos800 yeah but songs usually get more attention than that :(

[@GAxelic]

@@thatshowmafiaworks1360 me too

[@thatshowmafiaworks1360]

Green7wave he deserves like 10mil subs

[@Hi-nh7wu]

“I wish I had more friends, I could be physically close to” That hit hard :(

[@Chloe-bf3uj]

Can I have your opinions on that lyric? I never understood if it was referring to friends living within your area (saying he wishes he could be closer to online friends) or in real life physical touch? I like that it can be interpreted in different ways and I always thought the latter, but I wanna see what other people think.

[@kadeorade5296]

It’s me you were probably talking to them, not me, but I’ll still answer. So my interpretation is this, since the lyric says physically I’m guessing it means actually taking time to go out and see his friends rather than texting, and calling and stuff. I don’t know, this is what I thought. I could be wrong.

[@Chloe-bf3uj]

Pretend I Have A Creative Name It’s all good, I was looking for answers from anyone :) and I like your interpretation of it. I think it’s cool that music can mean different things from person to person

[@Chloe-bf3uj]

Pretend I Have A Creative Name Oh and I like your name by the way, very creative :)

[@eternalmoonlight2249]

@@Chloe-bf3uj I actually felt it differently. I have mostly online friends. Don't take me wrong, I love them. But sometimes you wish you had someone to be "psychically" close to. I don't know if he was referring to that too

[@justcallmejamie1241]

This song is 5 years old but it still describes how I feel most days

[@urdadsdad330]

This showed up through autoplay while I was trying to sleep and I'm in tears. Never has a song been so relatable and cut me so deep.

[@zeroace4746]

"I wish I had more friends I can physically get close to" that line hit me hard I have a lot of friends in the internet whom I discuss my problems with but I wish I have someone here with me who I can talk IRL

[@allanhowey839]

Yeah, I was in a relationship like that, it ended recently and it hit me hard, right in the heart. I feel you, man, I know what you're going through, and I know I'm being a hypocrite rn, but if you ever need to talk feel free to reach out to me.

[@camilarodriguez-qd4pp]

•ZeroAce • same but have like 3 friends that I’m close to but I am not a sappy person and nether are they

[@venti7492]

Yeah, that’s why I avoid speaking to people online and make friends, and don’t keep in touch if I move away.

[@ingebjrghalset9839]

I don't really have any like close friends, or a best friend, I have a lot of friends but I'm not really that close to them, like I can't talk to them about serious stuff and I share very little about my private life with them

[@DeathWish92]

@@ingebjrghalset9839 how old are you? If you're anything under 18 I wouldn't expect it from them. Not to say you shouldn't mind it's just how the mind works at that age. Most don't talk about their problems same goes for adults. I'd bet good money 80% of people feel like it they just never say. If you wanna talk serious conversations to anyone talk to your family. That's what they're there for. I'm going to presume your a male too it's usually us that have this problem because boys are brought up to bottle shit up and man up. I've lived my entire life by those rules and it's not healthy for the mind at all. Sorry for the long post as you can tell I take this personally sometimes 😂

[@Alisha-ds7nv]

"I feel alone - I know I'm not".. The inflection in your voice, the look on your face, its so real and probably hits me the hardest.

[@axelhasarrived7874]

Alisha same honestly. That and ‘if these words make it to your ears it will be a fucking miracle.’ That was the line I felt he had so much emotion in, and it was a line that had a reality check for me. Some of the smallest sentences can have a galaxy of emotions.

[@jessekyle6998]

i didnt feel any emotion. i felt like he was trying to act sad to get dumbasses like yall to be in comments saying " OMG you can really feel his sadness" are u fucking stupid this music is ass. hes voice sounds stuck up and the look on his face is fake af. i bet u think WWE is real

[@axelhasarrived7874]

Red Ogre where are you getting this shit from. He’s said that he’s gone through this shit, why not believe him when he can get a lot of hate for it. And honestly, you must think I’m 8 to think that the WWE bullshit is real.

[@jessekyle6998]

hes ass

[@axelhasarrived7874]

Red Ogre well that’s an opinion, don’t try to insult me because I disagree you dumb fuck.

[@shalomjacobs7909]

You writing songs like this do more than you can ever know. Hearing how you feel in a song, in lyrics, being able to identify with the weakness, the fragility, the fear, the desire to do better and the fear that you can't predict what you are going to do... In a world where the majority of people don't understand these struggles and can make you feel like how you are is a choice and you are not trying...listening to your lyrics and songs make me realise that I'm not weak, and I am trying. I am afraid, but it's not a choice. The real choice is that despite all my struggles I don't want to stop either. Thank you for your lyrics and for constantly reminding me that even though I feel broken, I AM trying

[@boribbora]

Be happy :) . Your songs have helped me a lot, it has helped me make important decisions, idk if I would have been able to write this today if I hadn't listened to your songs, I know you are currently in break because of your depression, but remember, you are not worthless, you have helped many of us. ❤

[@noneofyourbuisness2352]

"I'm tired of asking google how to find motivation". I looked up at the top of my screen. Five tabs. KZbin, Movies, Amazon, Amazon again, Ways to motivate yourself. Thank you for helping me to recognise that I need help.

[@anthonydamato4291]

Help is wherever you want it to be, a walk around the neighborhood, a talk with an old friend, making a new friend, picking up a new hobby or rekindling an old one. I hope you're okay.

[@thurvinfrostbeard1838]

Take care, lad! Hope you are doing better

[@stitchowi]

O

[@Mr.Coincidence]

Anyone else still feel that this should have blown up like don't stay in school.

[@amywalker1086]

Yeah

[@nooptiui]

I don't think that was the message

[@lazywriting7044]

no

[@werdpankuen9183]

@@lazywriting7044 why, this is a great song

[@wewewerhoi1000]

Ye

[@daidybearthepolarbear2851]

i know you probably wont see this dave but thankyou for creating something that just shows what people go through on a daily basis when others think they are ok it makes me realise there are people who understand i love your content and i rly hope you are doing ok

[@uber6727]

Man, when this first came out I was hit pretty hard by it, and I absolutely loved this song. As I have gotten older, this song has honestly become so much more personal to me to the point where I feel like I can relate exactly to almost every line. My appreciation for this song has only grown with time.

[@JOhnJohnson-xg6sq]

Holy fuck. This has been me for the past 5 years. I used to write and people told me I could probably write professionally as an adult. Teachers circulated my stories around the English department at school. Another told me that I could easily become a baccalaureate. I think I cracked a bit under pressure and I lost all of my motivation. I feel physically sick if I sit and stare at an empty word document, and my creativity dried up. I hope I can get the same buzz I used to feel when I used to get when I had a new story idea. I hope I get new ideas, and I hope I won't have lost my 'potential'.

[@solemnarcturus]

I hope you get back into writing man. I know how it feels so stare at a blank document for hours on end.

[@amirpalamar7133]

JOhn Johnson I've been through the same problems as you. I've sat down and written so many things for my English class that had no motivation in them but a had to write something so after a while of thinking of nothing good I'd just throw some bullshit on paper and still get praised for it. I know it's not the same situation but it's similar in the sense of being a great write but not having the motivation to write anymore.

[@skylarcassel9497]

JOhn Johnson this is the exact same with me. I won awards, I wrote every day, and writing made me so happy and all my teachers and family members would tell me i should be an author. Now i procrastinate, hate all my classes, and have absolutely no ideas for writing. I still want to write, but i just cant.

[@rebekahfunches6876]

JOhn Johnson I hope you find it too!

[@emilyc7533]

JOhn Johnson I understand that, my friends tell me I'm amazing at writing and ask me for personal stories, I have family asking me for full stories,so I rush them to make everyone happy except myself I hate my writing. I used to love my characters the made up worlds I could fall into every time I picked up a pen and paper but now I cannot stand to pick up a pen or even come up with stories because I don't want to ruin the ones I used to make. I know I'm only 14 and I have ages to love writing again but it's still upsetting thinking back to last year when no one knew I even knew how to create a character, I regret the time I began to talk in my English class and share the stories I wrote because now I have random people coming up to me asking me why I don't write and pressuring me into writing something that makes me hate my former favourite past time... I should probably stop now but this has cheered me up as I got to rant well bye I guess I know you posted this two months ago but still

[@theminecraftsisters9]

this video explains what i cannot say EDIT: thankyouuu so much for 1k + likes! thats crazy lmao thats the most likes ive ever got on a comment tysm

[@untitled3666]

Same, I try to tell people but it never comes out of my mouth. They say quiet is violent.

[@Speed001]

This is the only top comment that I consider relevant to the video and that adds something. But the current top comment is kinda relevant too. Anyways, I agree with you. But Im not good with 20 skill sets, I don't have friends to disapoint, and I'm not sure if I hate it.

[@loranthyskink1768]

Olectric *I

[@beastysson9850]

Olectric edgy kid

[@tp-xn4gd]

Olectric Same and the you look like a girl isso haver a hair a quite big

[@Pheo_]

I've found myself back here again, this song just puts words on what I see so many people feel, in each their individual way. Including myself. I don't normally use youtube videos as an outlet, but *sigh* I don't want to burden the few people I call friends like I always do. "I wish I knew more people who were mentally stable, but if I did, I wouldn't let them waste their time on me while I'm disabled" really hits. It's easier for everyone to just isolate. Right? All I want in life is to not be in the way, to be invisible. But somehow it seems that no matter how hard I try to achieve that, I get the opposite result and have to make up for it, and get in way of everyone instead. It's tiring. Sometimes I just wanna quit.

[@aegispisces8537]

I hope he looks at some of these comments occasionally still, hopefully he can see that we all still love him and wish him the best. In case you do Dave, thank you... You kept me going during the worst time in my life and im sure youve done the same for many others too. I started watching your videos a while back and to still miss your content in my 20's, you cant be replaced like most modern creators. Thank you :) - A fellow dave.

[@TurkiyeGeography]

this aged well

[@scuffed7]

I can’t be the only one who cries when they listen to this because of how relatable it is

[@boazcohen7992]

No you aren't, man.

[@dumbemokid4442]

Just light tears

[@nangsanbhalangblah333]

No you're not.

[@prideofmanny2981]

"Im not crying, YOU'RE CRYING" 😫😫😫😫😥😥😭

[@iisunny_sideii5611]

I don’t cry, well at least at least I don’t on the outside

[@Venganza_]

Dave at 1:06 : "I wish this beat hit harder" Dave at 2:13 : "Soooo I think the beat hits harder now..."

[@pepii755]

Yup

[@classdpersonnel115]

Ye

[@randomcommenter922]

I DON'T WANNA STOP!!! Jeez Dave chill

[@davenonwlkr7120]

can't believe it's been 5 years since he made this song, I love it, it helped me to focus on being a better person and convince myself that I deserve happiness and calm. Life will drag you to changes that you have probably been avoiding for a long time, but as long as you run away from responsibilities you won't know what you're capable to do. Thank you, David. I hope you could see this to let you know you've been a lifesaver for me.

[@sparklelikeaghost]

I remember watching this the day it released, and I felt so lost and helpless. I felt everything you said, but without the success. 7 years later, I am in a better place overall, but still fucking lost, helpless and hopeless. Thank you for giving people a voice. We miss you, Dave.

[@ChaoticMonki]

You've still got it.

[@jingsjli]

i'm so happy you two still have each other's backs

[@puffpuff2981]

yup. he still does

[@Bununuchan]

I can agree with you Cry! :3

[@catpuns3802]

I knew you'd be here to say something kind! I think he needs a good chat with a friend!!

[@bigbadblue8933]

Dave needs a good friend like you right now

[@tolu5859]

"They didn’t deserve it, I’ve been a terrible friend. I couldn’t bear to let myself become boring to them". Can relate so bad.

[@kingironwolf3189]

i can't relate i don't have any friends

[@bejited6932]

@@kingironwolf3189 would you have replied to this guy if you could relate?

[@kingironwolf3189]

@@bejited6932 yep

[@bejited6932]

@@kingironwolf3189 hm okay thank you

[@kingironwolf3189]

@@bejited6932 why do you ask

[@TheSuicidalTeddybear]

This song and its' video make me cry every single time. I relate so damn much to the lyrics and all the incorporated cinematics are just so damn good. Absolutely fantastic job Dave! 10/10

[@666hellmonkey666]

I have not listened to a song that has made me feel like I am not alone. It has brought out all kinds of emotions. Love this!

[@ItzGabbyGurl]

I'VE NEVER CLICKED ON A VIDEO SO FAST

[@punkiii]

Same

[@nourouni2120]

SAME

[@FotoKatt]

Same

[@CsabaMihalyUrs]

Yo

[@nathanialstahl2984]

same

[@thezodiackiller5848]

I relate so much with "I feel alone. I know I'm not."

[@thezodiackiller5848]

Pepe The frog true but I sighed at that part

[@aravensfeather2874]

I relate to these: "If what made me successful was an imposed sense of stress then I am so so glad that I hated myself." "I hate telling friends I’m trying something just to give it up." "I think collaborating forced me to finish things ‘cause I was terrified of wasting famous people’s time." "without immense pressure nothing ever gets finished If these words make it to your ears it’ll be a fucking miracle."

[@kppver5539]

The Zodiac Killer same

[@thezodiackiller5848]

Jazznat99 I also forgot to add "I hate telling friends I'm trying something just to give it up" and "I only make myself look good for the intent to show the internet" sorry if I messed up the lyrics.

[@rebecca7855]

I'm actually alone

[@gracelaw1987]

I’ve been feeling so lonely. This song put my thoughts into words This reminded me that there is hope. Thank you. We can get thru anything

[@jonathonwebb2768]

2022 still jamming Dave. Miss you.

[@bobaboba3333]

wow this song hits so hard. especially the "i dont wanna stop" just hit me harder than a brick at my face.

[@vinodvt9483]

Agreed !

[@myawilkinson3015]

'Ó-Ò

[@anyathewildchild4400]

Yeah

[@arstotzka6309]

yo wanna try a brick to the head to compare?im always available

[@vinodvt9483]

@@arstotzka6309 what the hell ??

[@bloodybutterfly2992]

I feel alone I know I'm not. That was the line on which I started crying. I understand every. fucking. word.

[@thepangolinforge]

same here this song is so powerful

[@theyarewatchingalways5678]

@@thepangolinforge your also 5 years old

[@musiclovermia3943]

Bloody Butterfly- I know.

[@urischic1668]

I didn’t start crying until I realized that I’m sad because I can also relate....

[@TwooZee]

This is my life in his body 😢

[@USMC-dm3ws]

Pure Brilliance! I feel blessed to have stumbled on to you through a reaction channel, now it’s time to jump down the rabbit hole!

[@Shweebe]

I wanted to thank you so much for making this song. It's helped me through a lot of my own personal dark times in life and anytime that happens I go right back to this song. My mental health should be just as important to me as it is to others. 💚

[@memandylov]

I'm so amazed to see how everyone in the comments seems to pick out a different line they can relate to. When damn near every line you write hits home for someone, you know you have a good song. Some songs have that one or two line that everyone can relate to, but this is one huge string of painfully relatable lines. Every single line in this song hits me like a ton of bricks and I'm absolutely in love with it. Dave, keep being yourself. We all appreciate the honesty, and we love you.

[@jessiedraws6874]

Yep

[@TheMacwilson08]

I agree with you. EVERY SINGLE WORD felt like he was describing my daily struggle... I have ADHD, Bipolar, and Depression... And I AM scared to make any promises because I don't know if I'll keep them... EVERY SINGLE WORD resonates so soundly.

[@anonymousvendetta3290]

2 years later and it still hits me as hard as the day I first listened. This is the power of Dave.

[@eshinotoshinara3689]

Same.

[@elmorrolooez5634]

Same

[@panda8020]

Same.

[@panda8020]

Wha

[@chefchica4288]

Same thing for me

[@wadyyoutube4907]

Such an incredibly powerful song. Thank you for putting into words how I feel most of the time.

[@Kiumy4]

listening to this right now, it makes everyone feel better, thank you dave, thank you!