I'm Not Really A YouTuber | Tea Time Topic: Impostor Syndrome

[@Ourohmu]

To me, you aren't a "youtuber" either. You are more real and down to earth than most people that create videos. It took some real confidence to talk about this so openly with your subscribers. I'm sure sharing your experience will help others. And I have been faking it until I make it for the last 4 years! I hope I make it soon! LOL

[@thisiswhyyouare]

Sydney I totally agree. Lucys vids are really pleasant to watch because she's so real and relatable. I also have noticed that many youtubers in my (European) country are trying to act like most American youtubers, being hyper and speaking really hight and loudly. It seems intential whitch annoyes me, and makes me not like to watch them anymore. I like more North - and West European type mentality, calmness and honesty.

[@BridgetRavens]

It makes me sad that you feel this way, Lucy!!! I've been subscribed to you for years and years and it's because there really is no other KZbinr like you! Your channel is so unique and beautiful and it appeals to a certain niche of people that I feel like aren't represented on KZbin so much. Your vintage videos, fantasy videos, etc. are so special and different than anything else online. You created this magical space and you DESERVE all of this recognition! You really do! I know this is just one comment but, girl! You got it! You're doing the things and doing them beautifully. Give yourself some credit! This channel is all you! You did this! And that's something to be so so proud of. Love you Lucy ❤️❤️❤️

[@abbycat000]

Bridget Ravens This video surprised me too. Insecurity is what's going on with her, but I agree. Her channel is so different and in my opinion, even elegant. I love her and hope she feels better about herself with time.

[@dallastaylor5479]

Well said!

[@electricbop]

You’re awesome Lucy!!! We love you 😘

[@OpenlyHumming]

The best thing I saw anyone say about imposter syndrome was on Twitter by @Aelindgard "I think the key to getting over imposter syndrome is to know everyone else is an imposter too. Tell yourself you deserve a stake in the scam they are all running."

[@DeeDee-tx8dq]

Lucy, In my opinion, this may be a cultural difference between our two countries, but I don’t see you as arrogant. I see you as an emotionally open person. Your humility and grace are refreshing. You offer us a peek into another culture and your life . I appreciate you and your sharing. You have many gifts and I truly enjoy watching your channel.

[@wolfysnarl]

Lucy, you're so wonderful and different from other KZbinrs because you never make me feel insecure/anxious/depressed after watching your videos. Your videos always make me feel relaxed and refreshed, and I hope you never stop making them!!

[@kirstenpaff8946]

I completely understand where you are coming from. I am in the last year of my PhD in engineering. I have published some of my work in scientific journals, but I still feel like all of my research is just a school project, and not real science. Like you, I mostly work at home, so I get nervous when I have to discuss my research, particularly with people in my field that I don't know very well. I always feel like the established scientists have a much better understanding of my field and that I am just a kid who barely understands the basics, but is expected to be an innovative researcher. Presenting at conferences is a big part of research, but I have avoided going to conferences, partially, because I am scared of being asked questions I cannot answer and standing there looking like an idiot.

[@JennsCorner777]

Girl you GO to those freaking conferences and you practice what you're going to say and wear your most awesome outfit and feel good and remember NO ONE HAS ALL THE ANSWERS AND THAT'S OK, that's what scientific research is all about. If someone asks something you don't have an answer to you can come up with some automated replies such as "Great question, I'm not entirely sure at the moment." "I'll have to research that actually." Etc. Remember your accomplishments and all the work that went into that, you can't fake that level of work. Good for you!

[@tiffanyphares5807]

I'm having English Breakfast tea with violet syrup. I completely understand that feeling. I feel like that in my job, and with homeschooling my kids... That said, you are successful. And not because you are arrogant or fake. The reason you are so successful is that you are humble and kind and people gravitate to your sweetness and light. Your channel is a slice of goodness in a very messed up and sad world ❤

[@electricbop]

Tiffany Phares That breakfast sounds lovely, wish I could have some 😊

[@JennsCorner777]

Same with the homeschooling and parenting and my so called singing ability that my husband says I have but I highly doubt.... I just thought it was low self esteem.

[@MithrandirFreak]

That's so interesting that people have told you you're arrogant or full of yourself. I don't get that vibe AT ALL. Different cultures I guess!

[@anamargaridacardoso2216]

I don't think you are an arrogant, I just think that you are a happy person who demonstrates it through your outer image! Hence, I just have to say that those people who criticise us, actually tells us more about themselves rather then about us. So, don't worry about others bad comments because most of the times you learn nothing from them, and you are already a very inspiring person. 😊 kisses from Portugal 🇵🇹

[@Bohosidhe]

I don't know much about impostor syndrome but it seems to go hand in hand with anxiety. Some anxiety sufferers tend to be over-thinkers and constant worriers which actually makes them more able to see different possibilities and outcomes that could happen. Sometimes an anxious thought-process might make one feel inadequate despite success and then impostor "symptoms" will appear. I can't clearly articulate what I'm trying to say but I hope anyone reading can get the point. Anyway, I hope you (or anyone with impostor syndrome and / or anxiety disorder) don't feel bad for feeling this way. I think "Fake it 'til you make it" is very good advice. And off topic, but I hate when people troll and spread hate in the comments. No good person deserves that! Have a good day everybody!

[@KelseytheLetteredDandy]

Lucy, I totally feel the same way. I have a Master's degree and I start my PhD in August, but I sure don't feel qualified to talk about my field as an educator! I recently saw a post online somewhere, probably Tumblr, that said the best way to help feel less like an imposter is to realize that almost everyone feels this way at some point in their life. We're all imposters trying to make our living, so just make sure you get your "piece of the pie" since everyone else is too! That helped me a little bit. I love that you help teach others about history and fashion through your videos, and that is what matters! Take care.

[@Sister_Felinity_Imaculata]

Kelsey Burroughs Totally feel you. I'm halfway through my doctoral program & still question how I got accepted in the first place. I had to hang my bachelor's & master's degrees where I see them regularly, just to remind myself that yes, I really did do that! Good luck on your travels through PhD land, by the way! And congrats!

[@holisticmaya]

"I actually made it awkward by feeling so awkward" this is the story of my entire life! In the last couple of years, I've been on a spiritual journey and have been putting this useless awkward feeling aside, enhancing my experiences in life :-) Mindset makes a big difference

[@ChristieAnnMusic]

OMG arrogant? Not even close, people often mistake mistake confidence for cockiness. You come across as genuine and down to earth to me. And who cares what the haters think, we love you and that's all that matters.

[@elizabethdalloway]

You are quite unique and unusual (and I mean that as the highest compliment) among the KZbin creators community that maybe that's why you sometimes feel awkward in those events. I feel like that sometimes in my job, I feel I don't do a job, I just go to school (I am a teacher), sometimes I don't even say: "I'm going to work", I say "I'm going to school". But you're amazing and deserve success and to enjoy your success. You're not an impostor, you're unique and that's why many of us are here. Best luck, keep up as you are :)

[@trinityforsaken]

What you have to understand is that you feel this way because you're a humble person and the quintessential KZbinr tends to be over-the-top... and that's precisely why your audience loves you. You also have a different audience than those other KZbinrs. The typical person may not be be searching for the perfect Lucrezia Borgia hair tutorial or how to do your makeup like a woman from the 1930's lol That's for YOUR AUDIENCE. You have girls like me going, "OMG this girl is into Marie Antoinette and Brigitte Bardot, too!". Even my friends aren't into that kind of information but you are! It's like we get to hang out with someone who shares the same interests as us. That is no accident, love. I found you online because I was looking for a hair tutorial and I loved every video you posted and instantly subscribed. Plain and simple. And if I met you in person? I'd be starstruck for a few minutes until we'd start laughing about some historical fact and I'd feel like we were old friends. Keep making videos and stay as charmingly humble as you are, because that's why we love you!

[@tynnfrosell558]

I experience this too. Sometimes I feel so strongly that I haven’t worked enough for what I’ve got. Like I’ve been given stuff for free without even having to do something for it. Even when I know that I work double as hard as other people for something. I feel like I’m not worth the stuff I got. I super scared that people will think that I’m weird and that I get “stuff” without working for it. I always feel weird and awkward, I think this is what gives me the most anxiety.

[@TheRidiculousSort]

Impostor syndrome is kind of just the worst, and I've felt it through every period of success I've had. I felt it when I got into my university, when I graduated, with every job I've gotten. It's not always there, and it's not always very intense, but it's such an odd thing to think about rationally. Like, you know you've put in the time and work and effort, you know you have everything you need to be good at this (and then some!), you know everything is okay, but it's still so easy to fall back into wondering if any of that's true. I think it's so important to reflect on your successes and be proud of yourself, and your note to just remember that most of the other people in the room feel the exact same way is honestly so helpful! I hope our impostor syndromes lighten up, and I hope you get to fully enjoy your success!

[@soccermd25]

I feel like I get this with running. I started running about a year ago for fun and health but I never felt like I could call myself a “runner” because there was always someone faster than me or could run longer distances than me and it wasn’t till recently that I realized that I am a runner because well I run don’t I. But it is weird concept for me still.

[@mellimoon77]

Lucy I can understand where you are coming from. As a classical musician, it is quite commonplace to start getting professional work and experience whilst still finishing masters studies, for example. I will finish studying in a year's time, but this year I started (very luckily) to get a lot of really great work, some of it quite high profile with renowned ensembles. I find it really hard to believe that these people put their confidence in me. I've asked myself "why am I here?" so many times despite the fact that I've worked so hard for many years to get to this point. I have trouble calling myself a "professional"! Anyway, you are not alone and we all appreciate you so much!!! You're a real KZbin gem :) xx

[@dianeshim8645]

You are wonderful! You earned every bit of your success and deserve much more. Great content and humble AF! Thanks for sharing these insecurities that we, as your subscribers, are probably dumbfounded that you feel this way. Makes you all the more relatable. You are exceptionally beautiful, no getting around that. But your amiable personality and interesting tutorials and topics make you a true joy to watch.

[@GenieH144]

I think so many people feel this way about one thing or another but you should definitely be proud of all your achievements and I think the fact that you feels this way and even told us about shows how genuine you are

[@taylothlorien]

I graduated university early, with high honors and the most prestigious award. I had a full scholarship to university and got a scholarship to graduate school. Never once have I felt like I deserved anything I’ve “achieved.” I totally feel you.

[@Garoky1]

It’s reassuring to know that what I’ve felt my whole life has a name and I’m not the only one who feels this. Even as I am about to retire from a seemingly successful 20 year career, I still feel like a fake and that I’m going to be found out as soon as I leave. I live by the motto fake it til you make it.... Love your videos by the way...have been watching since you still lived with your parents. I started watching your hair tutorials with my daughter and though you are the same age as my children, I find we are very similar and connect with your videos. Keep up the videos! I always look forward to them!

[@hallahygge]

Yes! I didn't know that there was a word for that feeling, but I can understand where you're coming from. The past few months I've been experiencing this "imposter syndrome" as well, specifically with me being in the beginning of my career. I've gotten jobs that I feel like I don't deserve, and I often feel like I don't belong, and even how you perfectly describe it, feeling like there has been some sort of mistake. I thought I was alone in this, and it's comforting to know that I'm not the only one! And I really love when you said that other people are not paying as much attention to us as we think they are, or as much as we do to ourselves. This is so important for us to keep in mind! I've been struggling a lot recently with worrying too much about what others think of me when I say or do certain things, and it's really stressing me out more than it should! And I think it's all tied into that "imposter syndrome" that I said I was feeling with my career as well. Anyway, this video hit me hard (in a good way!) and I'm glad you discussed this topic! Much love from the USA!💚💚

[@BridgetteMuller]

Lucy, I feel like I’ve gotten to know you over the years and grow with you. I never knew there were ways to take care of your hair, and heartless techniques. I’ve learned from you! You were the first and only person I followed on KZbin and didn’t follow others for years because I felt only your content was believable and relatable. You make an impact on me! Be well!

[@amycrudgington7458]

I really love watching your videos, mainly because you are so down to earth and normal. So many you tubers are way to big for their boots and you are totally not that. You should have more confidence in yourself and rock those events. I’ve been watching you since the very beginning and hope to be watching you for many years to come. :)

[@nicolerojas7373]

Omg,you're so beautiful and sweet,i know how that feels. but you must know that you deserve everything you have and more,you're and amazing girl . i wish you know how much your fans admire you because of who you are. Btw saludos desde Colombia 💜

[@jessierasberry3082]

I relate to your videos so much, especially the ‘tea time’ videos. In one you talk about anxieties about loved ones passing-me too! And now imposter syndrome-me too! It sucks that you feel this way, but just know that you’re not alone. It’s nice to know that we’re not alone with these worries. You’re definitely not an imposter. :)

[@bethanieh3969]

This video made so much sense. I have experienced this. I am a pianist- 😬even saying that makes me uncomfortable, agh! But I have a degree in piano performance from a highly competitive and successful piano department of a major university here in Texas. I feel SO fake and like I’m pretending still, and when I got into that university, and got around all the other “real” piano majors, I felt like I didn’t even deserve to be there, and I sort of let those feelings sabotage me. Like, I am not great at reading music, Better than an average person, sure, but I’m not a fabulous sight-reader, and I always sort of told ppl that and hid behind it as an excuse for myself so that if anyone found out I wasn’t one of them, I could just say, “well, I told you I can’t sight read.” Which is so ridiculous and arbitrary, but for some reason seems like a good “out” to keep for myself when I’m feeling that way. Instead of owning my strengths as well as my weaknesses, and being confident about both. Thanks for posting this. It’s made me think about why I have these feelings, too. Also, in the beginnings of “KZbinr” culture, you were the very first channel I ever subscribed to, thanks to your first bangs cutting tutorial. ❤️❤️❤️much love and May we all get over this syndrome!!!

[@brittanyannzayas2287]

You're actually the only KZbinr I still watch regularly! I'm not much of a KZbin person anymore but I still always take the time for your videos, as you are unique and genuine and original. In some ways I'm glad you're not super KZbin famous because all of those end up on reality TV getting obnoxious. As for impostor syndrome--YES. I always feel like I need to work harder than everyone else because I'm convinced everyone else thinks I'm lazy or inadequate. I am successful in my career and have achieved a lot, but there's still that fear that everyone else is wondering why I'm even there because I don't deserve it.

[@MusicalLion07]

I also feel like this. Like everyone I work with is suddenly going to realise I don't know anything or have anything valuable to contribute. I know I am good at what I do but sometimes self doubt can get the better of us. I love your channel and really enjoy your content! :) xx

[@gingerdoll]

Miss Lucy, one of the main reasons I subscribed was your down to earth personality. You seem really lovely in a way that feels genuine. I'm very glad that I discovered you. You belong here.

[@adriennegonzales2636]

No accident....you have a special charm and I love listening to your chats and tutorials. Your collection of work is wonderful 💜

[@simplybeauty2484]

And this is precisely why I love you. You’re like a best friend I can come to, bad day or otherwise.

[@ummal-hanaaadnan4264]

I'm sorry that you feel this way. I wear a headscarf and I don't even do my hair but I love your tutorials. I'm not even vegan but I find your recipes very yummy. I subscribed to your channel because your videos feel very real. No filter added, no fake hype and the most important thing is that I can feel through the screen that you're doing this because you genuinely like it. Take care of yourself and don't overthink it

[@chelseajackman7730]

Sweet Pea, you are most definitely a KZbin celebrity. Some girls I went to college with said, "You should try the sock bun curls! I bet those would look great in your hair! She's on KZbin, Uh, what's her name? Lucy? Yeah look up Lucy sock bun curls," and I did. That was back in 2010. Tried the sock bun curls and they turned out beautifully, I use them all the time now. Then last year I came across more of your videos with the Beauty Beacons of Fiction series and ever since then I've been completely sold. Thank you for sharing your talents, thoughts, and life. You're quite popular over here in the States and with good reason. Keep it up, lady. Love from Indiana!

[@jette7331]

When i first started at my current job, i also felt like i am totally faking it and i dont understand why they even hired me. But a year and a half has passed, ive learned much more about my job and feel more confident :) the imposter image seems to be common with people with low self-esteem,so if anyone is experiencing this, you should work on your self-esteem first. Its gonna go a long way in every area of your life from relationships to work, so its worth the time and effort!

[@StudioBlixje]

I don't think you're arrogant at all. You seem to be just a very kind person and I love your accent 😚

[@pajge9005]

TammyTTalks She has an accent?

[@babalona1]

honey! you were the first youtuber I started to follow, before I found you I use to think that youtubers were superficial. You opened a door for me, and you are an amazing person, that's why you have so many followers

[@ByMandyJulie]

Me, as a stranger, saying this will probably not change a lot. But I do want to say that you deserve a lot more credit than you're giving yourself. You're one of my favorite people on youtube. I really like your video's and as long as you enjoy making them, then that's all that matters (I think).

[@meilihanks9057]

Please understand that you are a wonderful person! One of the reasons I am so drawn to your videos is because you have such a simple, beautiful, sincere lifestyle. I’m sorry that you feel this way about yourself- though personal improvement is definitely necessary in our life- and you feel this is something you needed to help improve yourself- please don’t criticize yourself! You are a wonderful person! Do what you need to do- and take care of yourself

[@stephanielorenz462]

I’ve been subscribed to your channel for years, like way back to the sock bun curls. Videos like this is why I love your channel. So genuine, and so normal!

[@abigailwallace2356]

This is so crazy to watch / hear. I’ve heard so many people say that you’ve been a KZbinr they’ve been subscribed to since the beginning! And, you’ve gotten a good amount of sponsored videos :) People genuinely love your content and actively want to see more.

[@ShaizaShamim]

I understand, I think. Aside from what you touched upon in your video, there might be a couple of other things going on: 1) growing pains in general, which you would experience in any profession. Yes, you've been doing this since high school, and yes, you're super motivated to keep going, but you haven't been at it long enough to get comfortable yet (which may actually be to your benefit) and, 2) the nascent nature of youtubing as a profession. I think of you, and others in your position, as pioneers. So take heart in the things you know that you know. You have a huge skill set, a lot to teach, so whenever you're feeling awkward, remind yourself why you're there and just get the job done. Good luck!

[@isabellematejovsky9734]

Hi Lucy! I think (I hope!) you will be happy to know that nearly everyone feels some variation of "imposter syndrome" at some point in their career, especially as one becomes more experienced or successful. It's difficult to imagine oneself as the type of person producing content/work/anything that you once looked up to in others. Trust me, we all "fake it til we make it." And half the time, we never realize we "made it"! Which I suppose keeps us humble. I think you said it well in this video: realizing that underneath everything they do or appear to be, people are just people, and many probably feel the same as you. I have a totally different career than you do, but this "imposter syndrome" feeling has come in waves anytime I've realized I have clients or colleagues that look to me as an example or an "expert" in a certain field. Your subscribers (me included) have been loyal fans for so long, purely because we LOVE you as a person, we love your personality, your authenticity, your insane talent across so many areas, your creativity, your openness to being yourself and bravery to discuss real-life topics like this, and many others. Keep true to yourself because YOU are what is so amazing!!! Keep on doing what feels right to you. You have truly created a special place on KZbin, with a very loyal following. You deserve the recognition and success and invites to red carpet events :) Also...I have a sneaky feeling that most events seem cooler on the outside than they really are on the inside...such is the curse of social media and our skewed perceptions of reality! hehe. Much love and support from New York, - Isabelle

[@brandy9747]

just sharing an experience: my husband suffered with this with his career as well. I couldn't epathize with him, but I was there to support him anyway i could. I saw it take a toll on his self-image, confidence, and mental wellbeing. Experiencing impostor syndrome can also be crippling. Just like you described, you don't feel like you deserve anything related to the success of the thing you feel like you're an impostor of. He only was able to find relief when he went back to school for a post-grad degree in something that he was already doing extremely well. He was always worried about people questioning whether he really knew the things he knew and things he could do or if just "faked" knowing because he wasn't "classically" trained. I'm not sure what that really meant, and i'm not quite sure he can put his thumb on it, but perhaps an example might look like: looking up on youtube how to do something, trying it out and practicing until you get good at it as opposed to going to school and have someone teach you the ins and outs of what you're trying to do? Both equal in validity imo. (this of course in regards to something that doesn't deal with people and their life or death situation i.e. healthcare) Anyway, so the degree helped him with relief and with that he was able to find his confidence and really believe his worth when it came to his job because he wasn't worried about people thinking he wasn't educated in "their" field. Oh! and getting a mentor in the field really helped as well. as simple as asking another individual who has been in the field for a while. someone with who you can ask field related questions, get guidance, and be a very cool "insiders" tool.

[@Kx____]

i'm also from the netherlands and i actually think you are the most appealing "dutch youtuber", you are the most relatable - the way you feel and how you are here on youtube and stuff i find it your charm to be honest, even if you feel like that and that may be sad but maybe not, i find it your charm and i think that's why everybody likes you so much, because you don't have that "I'M A STAR" aura around you, you are approachable and that "awkwardness" you are talking about, we all feel it and we can relate, we all deal with it and that's just nice, you are so unique yet very beautiful and charming in your own way and i think that is your strength - i hope you understand what i mean, just you being you is your strength, just how you are and how you feel

[@elisemelo8339]

Lucy I have never commented your videos until now but I will today to let you know one thing : We love you for who you are . You are so genuine and honest in each one of your videos . Doing this video is even a better proof of it . You deserve what and where you are now. Believe in yourself girl !!! You are doing great !!! 🙂🙂 Just a Frenchie follower living in Amsterdam , hoping to see you around one day :D

[@gtiernan1]

You definitely do NOT come across as arrogant, and those who say you do must have some sort of an inferiority complex. I appreciate the fact that you dress well, look your best and help others to find ways to do so, too. Keep doing what you're doing, don't be insecure. Go forward boldly!

[@ragahdalmomen3377]

Be confident be strong, don't let negative thought control you because you worth this success

[@haleykuhlowis4006]

That's really interested that you're experiencing that. Obviously you have earned every bit of success that you've got. I hope you are able to accept that soon because you deserve to feel proud.

[@minounah]

Keep on keeping it real Lucy

[@magda23792]

I’ve been subscribing since the beginning of your videos/channel and I did it knowing that I liked your videos. I thought you were different than anyone else out there and that was good. For the syndrome. I used to have anxiety and with that I constantly felt like I was fooling people whenever they liked me or whenever something good happened. What helped med was in a few steps. 1. I talked to my mom about it 2. I got rid of my anxiety 3. I learned to discover whenever the feelings appeared and then turn it around. I no longer get that feeling as often as I used too. I did get it when I finally finished my education and I still feel like I only got through it because of other people and not because I worked hard. So yeah. 😊

[@UltraAwesomeEmily]

I ALWAYS feel this way, especially since joining a Master's. I constantly question why I'm here and assume that everyone else is much more deserving. I'm working on getting over this.

[@ryuruker2]

I am academically very successful and always have been, accomplishing significantly more than my peers alongside having creative skills that excelled them. I am not even specifying any of it because even that sentence alone causes me anxiety out of fear it might come off "braggy". I have never felt that I deserved any of it. Although I have accomplished all without the help of anyone, I always felt like it was all coincidental and I was a fraud. I still do feel like this actually. This causes me to undervalue myself and be walked all over. It is comforting to see someone like you feels similar emotions. But I do relate to your personality a lot since I have subsribed so it is not suprising. Just to assure you, you are one of those few people who actually make me feel like we're friends. Although you have half a million subscribers, I always feel like whatever I comment on is like a text to your phone and you will pick up and answer. You do not come off as arrogant at all, on the contrarty such an humble and kind individual. I get so happy when I see you upload. So please do not be hard on yourself. You deserve this and so much more.

[@isabellematejovsky9734]

Totally agree!! :)

[@binkybombastic6200]

I just tried to compare you to other KZbinrs and I realized I’ve been „going through“ SO many KZbin channels in my life - I subscribed to them because I liked them so much and then unsubscribed after some months/years because my interest changed or they started to annoy me in some way. And then there was you - I liked one of your historical videos, subscribed and just never left. I think BECAUSE you’re so calm and shy - you’re just someone we kind of get along with very well. You’re not like someone who we look up to but who could actually be our close friend. So, I guess maybe you do really not belong there when you go to those events. But not because your content isn’t great but because you don’t define yourself by being a KZbinr or being famous - which (let’s be real) many other KZbinrs probably do.

[@atreyeegupta21]

I'm so sorry you experience this. But you are so amazing and down-to-earth and sweet, I hope you know that. Also, your hair style is pure goals. ♡

[@amyslingsby6947]

I understand this. It used to disable me, really. I wonder what I’ve missed because I took myself out of so much with my awkwardness and self-depreciation. I guess I thought I was being humble but it came off as disengaged. It can actually flip around and seem pretentious. As though you think you’re better than the group because you’re not jumping in and joining. There’s a world between confidence and arrogance. Let yourself be somewhere in there. You’re too nice a person to suddenly become a puffed up, arrogant snob, so let go and enjoy.❤️

[@Shishiranshoku]

I have a very similar feeling when it comes to my art - it's really difficult for me to call myself an artist, even though I tick off plenty boxes: I have a closet full of art supplies, a drawing table set up, I constantly think of what I'm currently drawing or will draw next, ... This year, I started posting on instagram and in art groups and I get a lot of good feedback, and recently, a drawing was featured on a big art account (290k followers). On one hand, I felt happy about that. On the other hand, scrolling through the feed of that account and seeing all the other great art makes me feel like they made a mistake, that I lucked out, that everyone will see that I'm not a real artist. I got 160 new followers after that feature (which is huge for me, I had 220 before) and I'm secretly convinced they'll all realise soon I'm not a real artist and they'll leave again.

[@RedhairedBallerina]

First of all, I want to thank you for you videos - they are lovely and they make my days better, and I altogether enjoy them very much. I've never found you arrogant at all (although I've been called arrogant too, and I have a voice similar to yours - a throaty, lower voice rather than a perky happy one - and people have told me it's my voice that makes that unfortunate impression) , and despite you not being the typical 'youtuber' to me - a high pitched, loud, overly animated, trendy-words-using creature, who, while entertaining for a while, I can never watch for too long - I consider you a great content creator. (I group you more together with Lisa Eldridge, the Pixiwoos, The Pinup Companion...the nice, quiet channels full of knowledge, not as youtubers, but as artists and creators). Never apologise for who you are, we love you because of it! Second of all, you asked for our experiences with the impostor syndrome: I don't know if I can classify what I feel as that, because this syndrome, by definition, really only happens to overtly successful people - and I really have no achievement to grant me that position. BUT, I do understand where you're coming from, and I often feel out-of-place, so I'll share those experiences. I think our cultures are pretty close, and here (Czechia), much as in Holland, success is perceived as something that should be kept very quiet. Any recognition of it is taken as bragging and arrogance - we are a culture where compliments are most often not accepted, but challenged. (Now obviously this is my opinion, as a young, European, middle-class woman, and people will have different ones, but I find this one is common among my demographic - if you compliment someone's skirt, they won't say thanks, but 'Oh, this thing, it's old and it was cheap, but I guess it's alright...' and stuff like that.) With the feeling out of place, and 'faking it til I make it', I most often feel like that when shopping: The thought of going to a Sephora, or a MAC shop, or even H&M (anything even REMOTELY 'above' drugstores and Tesco) terrifies me - because that's for rich people, or pretty people, or thin people, and I'm not either of those. I have to brace myself to go to places like that, because in my head, I haven't earned the 'right' to be the there. (And I wouldn't even think of buying stuff there for myself - but I do shop there for gifts, to give to other people. Better people. Better than me, thinner than me, prettier than me.) Paradoxically, I don't feel this way in school - so my academic 'achievements', should we call them that, are the exception to the rule. Perhaps because I do feel like I've actually earned them - that's why I think mine is less of an impostor syndrome and more of some social anxiety/self esteem issue - and I don't feel like a fraud. Because if you ask me an anatomy question, I'll answer it, because I had anatomy and I passed the exam. But the thought of someone coming to me in a shop and asking whether I fit any of their sizes, finding out I don't, and exposing me as the 'fat girl trying to fit in a size XL', that's what really terrifies me. Sorry the comment is so long and the sentences all over the place. But this is my experience and maybe I'll make someone feel less alone. And again, thank you for all the great videos you make, and never stop being you! :)

[@emma6448]

in 7th grade, i was really close to getting into accelerated english, but I didn’t. my mom contacted the school, and put me in. at the beginning of the year, I was so scared every time I had english, or when the teacher talked to me, that I was going to be kicked out of english. I never really felt like I belonged, and I always felt “dumber” than everyone else (esp. because they were all in a higher math class than me). I ended off 7th grade with an A- in english, so it was all okay, but it was a tough year. thank you for being so open! I live your content and the messages you spread! ❤️

[@daughter_of_yeshua]

I subscribed to your channel years ago when you made your Lord of the Rings hairstyle series. You were the only one at the time that attempted to recreate the hairstyles and so that made your channel unique to me:

[@luna160881]

How are you arrogant? You are so humble about everything you say. What you said about the events just proves that. Jeez, some people.

[@lilap8868]

I LOVE Your channel! And, this is the earliest I have ever been with any video!

[@wyrdwitch13]

I have this too, in spite of many years of education & experience in my field. From what I have read, it is usually present in those who have achieved a high level of accomplishment in their chosen area. I would hazard to guess that more of those in your field feel this way like you, but don't have the courage to admit it to anyone. I have been watching your content for years, you are the best! I hope you can own a bit more of that someday. :)

[@jencasey316]

For your first question of a sort, I started watching your videos when I found your historical hair styling series in my recommended on another hair channel. I was looking (still am to be completely honest) for a half up - half down medieval inspired with braids hair style for my wedding next year. I think something historically inspired but not exact would be perfect for my gown style and my venue which is a reproduction of a Norman crossed with Gothic castle hall inside (it was built as an armor museum). I loved how you explained the history accurately and how to do it so that I could take the information along with any pictures I find to my stylist (when I hire one) to really get the look I want because no pictures so far have been exactly what I'm looking for... As to feeling like an imposter - that is how I felt when I started as Camp Director both times - both were at camps I had never been to much less worked at before and I know how much camp culture can differ from place to place. I felt like I was kinda imposing my ideas on the first camp (because they were more closely aligned to what the council overseeing that and multiple other camps wanted for all their camps to be cohesive vs the way the camp had previously done things - the reason the former director was not asked back...) and for the second it was my first time at a strictly day camp and being a director with no say in programming (which was all I had done before) and I felt like my boss and I had had such different definitions of what a camp director does at my interview which we never clarified with each other because we both just thought the other was thinking the same thing as we hadnt experienced each other's type of camp/camp director. For both I just made use of the returning staff, looping them into what I was being asked to do (particularly the changes that were being required at the first camp) and asking how things used to run so I could make the transition as smooth as possible. There were still lots of bumps and evenings sitting at my desk finishing paperwork when I thought that I wasnt really the right person and maybe they should have hired a returner instead but the kids were having fun, we had no major emergencies or catastrophes so in the end it worked out. But the summer was over before I was able to see myself in the role I had had and that I had been successful.

[@notreallyawaitress10]

This really described me so much! I had no idea this was an actual thing, and others feel the same way. This was eye opening for me.

[@Floraski]

Uggghh I feel you! I have this still, but I had it really badly when I just finished school and started working in that sector. I just couldn't believe people actually "fell for it". I still feel it now, but it has shifted more towards me being sort of scared of being called out by my co-workers and them thinking I do my job badly and/or shouldn't be doing it. As for dealing with it, I don't, really xD I always just keep hoping for the best :')

[@PannaVoldenfelden]

Thanks for this video - it's nice to know I'm not the only one :) I definitely get the whole faking confidence thing. I have done it before, and with good results... it helped me get onto my dream traineeship! Honestly, I think faking confidnce is a good first step to becoming (more) confident.

[@strawberryjacquiri]

I used to deal with this very strongly in my profession, and I'm really sorry that you experience this too!! I've always loved following your channel and I 100% believe you deserve to be where you are. But I got a job as a graphic designer at a well-respected company right when I graduated from university, and they paid me A LOT and I felt guilty and out of place and like the job had just happened to me, that I was just lucky, that I didn't deserve it, a bunch of other things. And I say "a lot" but I live in the SF Bay Area, which is incredibly expensive to afford, so it was barely enough to afford to move out of my parents', but I felt that I hadn't done anything special to work my way up and that my friends who were just skirting by deserved better and I didn't know what I was feeling until one of my friends suggested impostor syndrome. What I ended up doing was working five times as hard to make sure that I could prove my value both to myself and to my company, and it made me feel like I had earned my place even though it originally felt that it had just happened to me. I still feel little bits of impostor syndrome sometimes, but challenging myself to always do my best made me feel much more deserving.

[@marisadaniela6]

Your modesty is totally endearing 😊

[@Brenhearts]

The first video of yours I ever watched was when you cut your bangs. You still lived at your parent’s house and were basically still a kid. I’m watching you now and I can genuinely say you’re a real KZbinr. An original KZbinr, if you understand what I mean. So you are far from an impostor! But we appreciate that humility of your part. Don’t feel inadequate, but stay the way you are! :)

[@Galadhwen]

(Mango Coconut tea that I found at the store the other day!) I'm only halfway through this video at the moment, but I just wanted to say I can relate to you so much. I had a lot of luck in my field with getting a study abroad scholarship, getting an internship in that country, and subsequently moving to that country to work. I've now been working for a year and can say that for the first 6-8 months (and in some parts of my job, still very much to this day), I felt similarly to you: why did they hire me, I don't know what I'm doing, etc etc. But I have found there is a certain strength to this uncertainty. Because I don't feel like I know everything, I am constantly looking for things to learn to better myself and I am constantly learning and finding new ideas to incorporate into my work and it is ultimately making me a better person. I read a book recently (The Subtle Art of Not Giving a F*ck by Mark Manson - highly recommend, btw) and he writes that happiness comes from growth, not achievements. I have definitely found that to be true in my job as well. Anyway, I will stop rambling and say that I have been subscribed to you for probably 7 or 8 years now and it is your genuine personality and kind soul that have kept me around so long. You belong here! Hugs from Germany 😊

[@selkiemorien9006]

Usually I'm awkward at events/big partys as well, mostly because I don't like being in crowds so much... And I'm shy around people I don't know well or at all. I also have been called arogant before, but I read somewhere that shy people often get labeled as such, so maybe this applies to you as well (I recall you saying something about being shy in a video before; correct me if I'm wrong)? On another note: I have been watching your videos almost since the beginning and enjoyed every single one of them (some I even rewatch multiple times). Since I never wrote any comments (on any videos, yours is the first) I might as well take the next step and subscribe - another first :D I love your content and always get excited when I see you posted a new one! Love from Austria~

[@explorevintage7404]

Ok here’s the thing I am ADD, deaf in my right ear and have a crooked back and let me tell you when you have a learning disability in the public school system even the teachers pick on you so I lived my childhood scared of well outside of the home. Today I just walk down the street and even if I am walking past a group of people that scare me a little I just walk on by. The secret is that I am scared but they don’t know it, never show fear. Which is what you should do when you go to such type of events just walk on through like you normally do. If someone tries to get your attention while walking through you have a choice you can stop to talk to them or just walk on by and if you talk to them later on in a more comfortable setting you can explain that you are new to this and that you have no idea what to do. Usually the person does not mind and if they do well then it’s their problem not yours.

[@hideynoseeky]

Arrogant is the last word I’d use to describe you. I think you are so incredibly sweet! Perhaps you feel this way because you are grounded and not caught up in the superficial nature of social media. Please be confident in the beautiful person you are and don’t change yourself to meet other people’s expectations. You are amazing just as you are and your followers enjoy you because you are the girl next door ❤️

[@AutumnFog]

We love you and like you said in another Video, some of us growed up with you. I'm into Paganism too and I was so happy to find a channel like yours back then when I was 16 or 17?! You inspired me for so many years. Just because you're not going with the crowd doesn't mean that you don't belong here. I think many people love you because of this. Because you're not going with the crowd, because you stay yourself and because your different video content next to thousands of "how I do my Makeup (like everyone else)" and "how I bleach my hair" and "f*** zero waste I buy stuff I don't need" videos. You and your videos are great and interesting and creative and even when I think the red carpet doesn't suits you, you deserve it to walk on there! Excuse me for that bad english And because I know you speak some German too: Alles liebe! ♡

[@ClaraCB5]

Somehow I think that's what I really like about your channel and content, you don't appear like the perfect beauty KZbinr with all the new and expensive stuff with make up tutorials just to show off some brands, you don't have this KZbin-business vibe. Your content is always more down to earth and relatable, simple but really enjoyable. Now that you mention it, I think that's why I subscribed in the first place, because you don't seem to be in the KZbin game unlike so many others on the platform. That's why I love your channel :)

[@laurajohnson1420]

I found your channel in a hair toturial. Your hair is very similar to mine so I choose subscribe. After watching other videos though you are more real and down to earth. Genuinely nice!! Remember you are human too! Don't sweat the small stuff.

[@Em-bv7oo]

I feel this way sometimes too, especially in social situations.

[@isabel-to4os]

I used to not want to call myself an artist, I just felt like I was someone who doodled or just kinda likes painting, but than one day it hit me, hell yeah im an artist!!! I make unique paintings with meaning, and I'm almost done with my tattoo apprenticeship for goodness sake, the amazing artist who is teaching me how to tattoo called me his legacy, and I look up to him so much, and to feel that he genuinely appreciates my art makes my heart soar, people have let me put art on their body forever!!! And I don't just kinda like art I love art, I've devoted years of my life to art, and people want my art, so why was I so scared to call myself an artist, I, to have been called a show off or full of myself, and since I look up to artist so much I didn't want to put myself into that "prestigious" category of artist it felt like such a heavy, and important title to me how could I be good at something.

[@kaaurmelsissi]

This video reminds me a littlebit at how graveyardgirl didn't dare to show people her house and cars (her succes) because she didn't want to seem arrogant or to show it all of. Maybe you can watch Shanes video with her about that as well and learn something from that? Not completely the same thing but still...

[@Loepsie]

Yes! I saw that one and I understood her so well. I'd probably be exactly the same in her position

[@lauren8627]

I felt like this when I first graduated. Like my health profession was just a 'hobby'. And I do feel as though my course was very difficult and stressful at times, I feel as though I don't know how I did all the coursework. Like it was some element of luck and if I were to do the course again I would not pass. It has gotten better with time. I think probably perfectionists are most at risk of imposter syndrome! It is sometimes hard to actually digest that I have graduated and am doing my dream job... it's like you spend so much time working towards something (graduation) and then when you do finally graduate it becomes a MASSIVE let down/anticlimax.

[@DuckyDappy]

I love "the odd duck in the pond"

[@Loepsie]

🙈😂

[@HBvana]

Out of topic but I love your ponytail.

[@antareyamusic6994]

Lucy... I understand how you feel... seems I have the impostor syndrome as well... :)) you are such a nice person (to me, you don't come across as arrogant at all, just a little shy) and I love your talking vids, when you open up... I've been a subscriber since you started here on youtube, I've watched pretty much all of your videos and trust me, none of it is by accident :) I love seeing how you've grown as a youtuber and a human being... sending much love from Czech :)

[@kae2501]

Totally familiar with this feeling. I got something of an early start in my career, and I always felt like I was at risk of being discovered as a fraud or imposter. When I got ready for meetings or conferences, I always felt like I was putting on a costume. Very much a fake-it-til-you-make it situation. In particular, I would always think back to a picture in my parents' photo album, of a 4-year-old me decked out in my mom's high heels, dress, and big 80s sunglasses. I felt this way until my very late 20s, like I just didn't belong and would be called out unless I "played my part" flawlessly. As I grew older, the discrepancy between my job title/pay grade, and age/experience level, shrank quite a bit. But I can see how media exposure and events like you describe might prolong that feeling. Interesting to know there's a name for it.

[@JacquelinOliverlulagrimez99]

I think with any degree of success ,imposter syndrome is quite normal . I have experienced it a lot over the years with my art , times when i was selling my work in shops . I guess Dutch culture is quite conservative , a lot like Scottish culture . But someone once said to me , there is nothing admirable about playing small , and i think that is very true , even though we're brought up to be modest about our successes. I think you deserve all your success , you are one of my favourite channels , and you are so creative and talented , a lot more intelligent content than some of the big youtubers !

[@g.0-generationzerouk691]

Love that you are talking about this! Highly relatable!

[@liisasilberblatt4773]

You ARE wonderful! And you DO deserve your success and it IS OK to be successful! 😊😊😊 I know this feeling, l have it myself and I'm still working on it. It has to do with how we were brought up. Unfortunately the former generations where made to think that being proud of oneself is a "sin". But this is not true. I love your videos and I think you ARE a KZbin, and in fact a really good one! You appear very sympathic, nice and lovely. 💗💗💗

[@mistypotato7500]

You come across as such a real, down to earth person! That is why I enjoy your video so much :-)

[@oracleofthestars1243]

Love your videos, they’re always refreshing :o

[@AliaMasotti]

That happens to me with people in general and with university. I kinda am proud of myself but when dealing with others I have silly behaviors sometimes. That's interesting, I've never thought of impostor syndrome like that but it makes sense. What helps me is usually see that other doesn't really care most of the times, and anyway either they're not that judjmental, or their opinion is stupid. My impostor traits date back to childhood parenting, I will eventually figure out how to deal with it

[@MeganDessel89]

You're a great curator who uses KZbin as just another tool to share your knowledge :) You'd translate and be successful on any platform!

[@festusmom3176]

The first video I ever watched of yours was filmed in your bedroom I think in your Mom n Dad's house. It was a sock bun video. From there I watched you go to a Dutch sort of "Disney Land of sorts" that I can't even pronounce. I love how humble and down to earth you are! Keep being you! Love from Louisiana , USA! ❤️🇺🇸💋👏🏻💃🏼

[@thefolktalefox5960]

Oh wow I relate so much with the arrogant thing! I live in Belgium so very much understand the cultural dislike of those traits and I have a huge fear of being called arrogant (and I have been called that in the past).

[@-ParisTexas-]

I'm not a KZbinr. And I only found out that there is a name for the feeling you describe. But when I heard it was a thing, I was glad, in a way. Because I feel the same way. And I have been working as a (creative) freelancer for years and years. I always say 'ik rotzooi maar wat aan'. Maybe it is a comfort to hear that there are a lot of people that feel the same. I know from a few friends that also have this. I do feel that it is more common among women. And/or creative people. So I guess that combination is the worst. I don't have a solution, but you are not alone.

[@heavenfxeyesforsale]

I can see you dealing with it better and having a laugh about it by the time you hit 1 million subs

[@iris_todorovic]

You are absolutely not arrogant, you're a wonderful person, don't you ever forget that, love you so much 😘💕💕

[@marloesoptimavita]

Best herkenbaar hoor Lucy!! Maar je bent gewoon geweldig om wie je bent, dat maakt je een echte KZbinr 💕😘