i'm on antidepressants (trigger warning)

[@keithlavoie8031]

Depression feels like getting up in the morning and wanting the day to end before it even begins.

[@ralphkeeldar4726]

I see. Keep up .

[@alibabaintelligence8555]

Ok.... then my depression isn't that bad. You will get better

[@mymusic3467]

The fact I have a mindset of thinking this is normal is bad

[@Ihavemadeit999]

I hope you start to see the light soon Kevin. You deserve it. I believe in you

[@ananthnaren9183]

Well said

[@YungBetts]

“Depression feels like being forced to laugh at something that’s not funny.” YES!

[@TallaIndongo]

Very true 👌🏽

[@beauttty072]

If it's not funny, why laugh lol

[@dro634]

@@beauttty072 anxiety lol

[@beauttty072]

@@dro634 Yeah thinking too much is anxiety, just gotta live in the moment and try to laugh lol

[@dro634]

@@beauttty072 for surrrrre i’m a spiritual person and that’s a great thing to keep in mind, being in the present because the past n future aren’t real

[@lachouapor]

the thing i hate most about depression is having to explain everything. like, it's hard to put how i feel into real words bc i can never perfectly pinpoint the origin or reason for feeling the feelings.

[@Jasminekuwonu]

Same

[@kaleyeahh]

sometimes it’s okay not to know, because it can be as simple as the chemicals in our brains being unbalanced! unless it’s situational depression, which is a whole different ballgame

[@Naiya77_7]

@Cactus Flower I tried to explain to my cousin why I was in a mental hospital and couldn’t and she acted like I was crazy or something I know she didn’t mean to but it’s like I’m suffering and I don’t fully understand why like give me a little credit for getting help sis

[@marwamoamen4072]

@@Naiya77_7 I am proud of you for getting help I know how hard it can be

[@kiahlacarr208]

This!

[@stanbrooks7923]

Depression feels like an internalized struggle between the body wanting to live and your brain nudging you to die.

[@alibabaintelligence8555]

I have depression but I never wanted to die lol

[@nemrac4321]

Perfect description

[@manyrubies]

Mine was reverse... my mind was ⬆️, but my body was ⬇️

[@j.t2548]

@@manyrubies yeah, me too. But still. The enternal internal struggle. Everything is heavy and pointless.

[@manyrubies]

@@j.t2548 I just started on Fluoxetine and I feel the heaviness lifting off my body. I hope you find your solution

[@gabyhernandeza]

now i dont feel alone. thanks for posting.

[@lindahallman3747]

Lexapro has been a lifesaver for my daughter. It went from her not being able to getting out of bed to her getting a job, enrolling in college and completely changing her life. Between that and therapy was a miracle. Glad you got help, it’s only up from here ❤️

[@Gavsherpa]

Thank you 😊

[@whitnisapp9951]

And I overthink

[@jessicat9179]

Lexapro did total opposite for me

[@mesarypaul5824]

@@jessicat9179 how long were you on it for it

[@jessicat9179]

@@mesarypaul5824 for a few months and I didn’t like the feeling I was getting

[@elenalechuga3656]

I only want to clarify a few things: 1. Being on anti-depressants doesn't mean you suffer from clinical depression (of course, you can be on anti-depressants and be depressed, but only well-trained professionals can diagnose you). 2. Many people think that being on medication is enough, but it's really important to go to therapy. Your psychiatrist and your therapist have to work together so you can make an improvement. If you take anti-depressant but are not following any kind of behavioral treatment, you're not going to make a change for yourself and those around you. 3. It's important to break the stigma surrounding mental illness, but I worry about over-medicating our society. Not everyone needs to be on anti-depressants. My psychiatrist always told me that, as a professional, he was reluctant to prescribe "hard" medications because he believed that going to therapy was essential and that pills weren't necessary most of the time. To everyone who's struggling with mental illness, please GO TO THERAPY and remember to take care of yourselves.

[@Mikaylap713]

Yes, but at some point I needed meds to sleep- and ppl told me not to take them bc of the side effects & then my mental health exacerbated and made me have to take a variety of meds to get my chemical imbalance back to my typical brain. I hated feeling desperate and mentally ill, but I want ppl to know that it does get better. ❤️ please seek professional help, I think we can all agree that is the only way to really treat an illness (whether short term or long term).

[@rubyrayne8]

Elena, yes!! Therapy! Therapy! Therapy! Like Asia said in the vid, everyone has diff biochemistry so meds can be touch and go until you find one, you may not need to be medicated, you might need to be medicated for a short period of time to get your engine started, etc. But a good therapist can help anyone. I know in another countries they don’t prescribe psychiatric meds unless you’re seeing a therapist and I kinda agree with that (not in our current state but if we had good health care for all). This isn’t a replace for therapy or meds, but I have found great success practicing medication and gratitude/journaling.

[@momshie5794]

@@aasian thank you for opening up. When u get the chance, please check out "GROUNDING" on Netflix. This helps me a lot & hoping it will help you too.

[@hopevergara3183]

My psychiatrist didn’t advise me to go a therapist but prescribed me medications. I’m wanting yo do a therapy and that’s what i really expects when i seek help but now i dont know how to ask my psychiatrist about it. Imagine thinking that she might felt that I’m not trusting her way of helping me lol

[@elenalechuga3656]

@@hopevergara3183 It doesn't matter if your psychiatrist feels like you don't trust her or anything. This is all about you. Medications are just a part of the journey. If you feel like you need therapy there should be no problem about it.

[@jan3019]

it sucks having anxiety and depressed, i feel i'm not me anymore, i feel sad all the time, i feel tired all the time, i feel sick all the time.. i miss my normal me.. cos right now i have to go home early from work cos this thing really scares me everytime i get an attack.. i can't remember the last time i laugh so hard or feeling happy..

[@Shaunteetalkstv]

My prayers are with you ❤🙏🏾. You will get through this. Try your best to find the root 🌻

[@andrewaguayo115]

@@Shaunteetalkstv You’re so sweet (,: god bless the both of you

[@lillianlinda1747]

❤️❤️❤️

[@aalvarenga74]

I’m currently in the same boat, everything you have just described. I’m actually searching for a therapist because I realized I can’t do this by myself anymore. Remember you’re not alone in this. 💞love and prayers for you

[@NoName-dq3qb]

See an endocrinologist and see what your testosterone levels are

[@JanaBibi25]

The fact that you did not say "what's good" in the beginning just says it all. Hope you feel better and better each day.

[@KatK18]

Depression is not sadness, it is lack of vitality. I hope one day, we will come to terms with that.

[@j.t2548]

Dokładnie. Emptiness, lack of excitement in anything at all, including all the things that we used to love, pointlessness of it all, the heaviness.

[@KatK18]

@Henrique Paes it’s sadness too, but not just sadness. It’s goes much deeper than that.

[@MiaCarter7]

its sadness for me

[@kiiamarie3881]

I appreciate how you worded that 🥺

[@LLCNipsturBrands]

It’s both sadness and emptiness

[@wish-maker]

Thank you for properly educating individuals on depression. I have MDD major depressive disorder and if I had a dollar every time someone called me “lazy” I’d be rich asf.

[@chellyvino]

Exactly! I hate that soooo much. MDD affects your ability to make decisions and slows your thinking. Also, having MDD does not make you weak. Your brain is just wired different.

[@elishawilliams4308]

Sincere question because they started me on Prozac today does it affect your attention greatly like you can’t focus at all? I’m just wondering if it could look much like adhd I am diagnosed with however this doctor doesn’t want to believe me

[@chellyvino]

Elisha Williams I’m not sure about Prozac but I take Zoloft and I cant remember anything but I think it’s more so due to the actual depression.

[@wish-maker]

Elisha Williams I’m on Prozac and the issues I have, not sure if this is related to the medication or just the depression so take with a grain of salt, fatigue/mood swings/memory acting the fuck up

[@wish-maker]

Also irregular sleep patterns.

[@thegoodgirl25]

It felt so good to hear this from someone. I remember my doctor asking me once "When was the last time you woke up, looking forward to the day?" And I remember thinking "Is that a thing? Is that what I should be feeling? Do other people do that??" Because the idea was so foreign to me. I couldn't even remember a time when I looked FORWARD to my days. I considered days as something to get through. That conversation was years ago and I never took it any further. Funny enough, my doctor asked me about it again last month. Maybe this time I will open up about it.

[@catrocks93]

this just made me cry because i genuinely don’t remember the last time i’ve actually been excited for the day or felt happiness

[@thegoodgirl25]

@@catrocks93 Aww, I'm sorry to hear that you have felt this way, too. I think there are so many of us out there that are quietly living this sort of numb life and not realizing it. One thing that's kind of helped me, personally, is changing my perspective on happiness. Yes, most of us are always chasing after it...and yes, it's our end goal, but at the same time, happiness isn't exactly meant to be our default mode. Our lives are going to ebb and flow constantly, and it's okay if the happy times are rare - it doesn't mean that the times we aren't happy are a waste, or that we are failing at life. The times we are down (by which I just mean sad, or lonely, or feeling like a failure, etc) aren't something we need to avoid at all cost. It's just part of this journey...and we can learn just as much from it, as we can from happiness or success. I feel like I've come out of some of my worst times, with a peace, understanding, and appreciation for who I really am, and I know I wouldn't be that person without those bad days, too. This is absolutely not to say that we should settle for a life of sadness or numbness! Just somehow to work towards a healthy balance or appreciation of all the moments we live through.

[@helloworld7818]

Wow I never want to wake up, I wanna continue sleepin because I'm happier in my dreams.

[@hasinapatel1233]

The worst is the lack of motivation not wanted to come out of my bed

[@darahcastro1223]

I'm currently in pharmacy school learning about mental health and main reason people do not seek help is due to stigma. So yes let's get rid of the stigma and talk about it! Commenting before I've even watched the video but its just important for people to feel comfortable talking about mental health. I wish you all the best 💕

[@kevk741]

Then find Nicole Lamberson Pa. Find Joseph Witt-Doerring Psychiatry. Understand antidepressant injuries and antidepressant withdrawal injuries. Understand akathisia and that it can become chronic and is caused by SSRIs/SNRIs not just antipsychotics. Understand this mess you are about to start handing out. Ruined lives with no one developing screening. Tortured lives. Zero compensation because your average GP knows nothing but it’s “acceptable practice”. Acceptable practice is no longer acceptable. #akathisia #informedconsent

[@tyrel-fg7zf]

​@@aasian Klopomin is better?

[@takaraonea]

Your realest rawest video yet! Proud of you babes ❤️

[@itsprincipe]

are you saying she’s not real in the other video? 💀

[@eeeyooohoh]

i relate to this completely! in a similar manner i have ADHD and i finally got an adderall prescription after avoiding medication for 20+ years cause i was scared of the stigma and that doctors would think im a neurotypical party girl faking it lol. i went from literally failing all of my classes and crying every single day thinking that i would never do anything with my life to getting straight a's for the first time in my life and transferring to berkeley. and also being able to actually not procrastinate on paying bills and laundry lol. always do whats best for you!

[@eeeyooohoh]

@@aasian thank you!!! love your videos 💖💖

[@elishawilliams4308]

I had a situation today I have anxiety and depression but yes I have adhd I have had three diagnosis and the Doctor told me straight up that I faked it pretty much and my ADHD was not real so now I have to go to a psych for an evaluation the Doctor believed I very much did have ADHD but the old fart atendee did not and I think it’s because he doesn’t believe it’s real and because of tha abuse of stimulant medication so I probably need both but it just makes me want to give up . I’m not sure if depression can feel exactly like adhd but yea

[@eeeyooohoh]

@@elishawilliams4308 ugh i relate completely! sorry for the late response. in my personal experience, depression was a symptom and byproduct of ADHD but not the main issue if that makes sense. i would strongly rccommend you research ADD medication if you can! it literally changed my life. and try to find an understanding psychiatrist if you can instead of a typical doctor. i've always had the worst experience with doctors lol i hate them so much

[@bunnii01111]

this video made me break down. i am so sorry for what your going through. I've been going through the same thing for 3 years now, i'm 15. i never knew depression could be put in words. when you explained the 'under water' quote, i cried. I cried for one reason only, because I never knew how to explain it to anyone. I always felt like I couldn't get help because I never knew how to explain it. I never understood what depression was. Thank you so much for helping me understand. You probably just saved my life. ❤️ Stay strong, please.

[@tigians3641]

itsalloverrated I’m 16 and i feel the exact same way

[@ayo_hitman_bang_introduces]

22 and same boat

[@aaliyahguiles8323]

I'm 16 and I got diagnosed for depression and adhd. I hate it tho cause I can't be normal and everyone talk about. Like how do I balance it. How do y'all balance it just want to know

[@ayo_hitman_bang_introduces]

@T. Nasha 😭😭😭😭😭 your words are so simple but ring true.

[@shyaaammeneen63]

@@tigians3641 ooner or later anti-depressants have major side effects. It is quite easy to stop AD if you are determined. . Get rid of the root cause-why are you taking AD? I transformed my life some years back. After 10 days of doing the simple meditation which I have explained below take pills with lower mg on alternate days, then once in 3 or 4 days and after 20 days of daily meditation stop medication as the neurons in the brain gets re-programmed but for SOS keep the medicine with you. Meditate as follows---Your breath is directly related to your mind causing anxiety-stress. For a relaxed life without anxiety-stress sit on a chair, back and spine as erect as possible, hands on your lap with palms upwards, close your eyes, be still and observe your incoming--outgoing breath, body sensations, any soft buzzing sound in the head for around 10-15 minutes. Be as still as possible. Plenty of thoughts will come which is ok--slowly negative thoughts will reduce. Do the above meditation twice daily as per your convenience-morning and night before sleep are good time to meditate. Increase meditation stop medication. Best wishes. Shyaaam Sir. -Counsellor.

[@zanaleezee]

I've experienced so much anxiety, stress and depression this year that I no longer even believe in the idea of "normal." I really don't. Thanks for your courageous sharing. I love your content for this.

[@pwetty4r4]

I truly believe that depression and anxiety are our bodies way of telling us that something in our lives is off. Something is in misalignment. Whether your not being true to yourself, your not in alignment with your life purpose or what makes you happy, your living for other people, you've forgotten how to love yourself, you haven't fully healed from wounds of the past-- all of these things cause feelings of depression and anxiety. getting to the root of the problem will really help even if the medication is providing present moment relief

[@ayarac]

beautifully said!

[@Shaunteetalkstv]

100%!

[@Esther-fh4lf]

How do you do the inner work?

[@aalvarenga74]

I love this 💞do you find the root on your own or need therapy? Or it depends on the person

[@femblvd3114]

@@Esther-fh4lf Facing your traumas and especially talking to your inner child. The inner child affects us as adults so if there’s something that happened and you repressed it you need to find it and give yourself and the child in you the love,nurturing and healing you lacked it in the moment.The inner work includes therapy and you really taking the time to work through it ❤️

[@edenalemayehu1003]

I was diagnosed with mild depression and had many signs of Generalized Anxiety Disorder starting from around the end of 2018... as a 2nd yr medical student... it was difficult... I prayed and tried many things but it took so long to see change. But God helped me and I truly saw change. Through prayer, family and friend support, helpful knowledge through good blogs and videos, relaxing... etc I'm so much better now. I'm learning to be thankful and to stop trying to control everything in my life. Letting go of my fears and submitting my thoughts to God and meditating on related Bible verses helped a lot. Philipians 4:4-8, 1 peter 5:7-8 I just hope my testimony can give someone some hope. Never give up. Luv you all. 🙏

[@essencejonesgales2477]

Yes so true if you believe in Jesus he will help you through anything

[@loveinautumn3978]

Thank you so much 💞

[@de-fk7hi]

u dint use medication?

[@beyamy9392]

Being on antidepressants will not stop your life but will grow your life!!! I’ve been doing so well with them. Don’t let the stigma stop you from being and doing YOU. Mental health is real and if dealing with it means you have to take meds, then so be it!!! I’m proud of you for taking a stand with your mental health ❤️

[@Ryu-v8r]

Going Through It The strongest souls fight the most difficult battles. Depression is like an angry dragon that fights us. To master depression, you have to go through it. One does not defeat the angry dragon. Because you are the dragon and the depression. You slowly become one with the dragon and the depression and gain strength in going through it. I really hope this can help you and others.

[@Kimberlee_S]

Your description of depression is so dead on, it's like you were reading my mind. Like being under the water and trying to reach the surface but never quite getting there and then you just give up... girl I felt that!

[@lindseyrem]

your description of gad is SPOT ON!

[@SamIsWatchingU]

Medication can be truly life saving!!! Let's break the stigma

[@shinyeee1709]

They can be but it’s not alway the best solution.

[@herbstsonne7629]

Sometimes lifetaking

[@shyaaammeneen63]

Samihah, Try to take medication of the lowest power to reduce side effects. Reduce negative thoughts. Its quite simple. Your breath is directly related to your mind [brain] causing negative thoughts and anxiety For a relaxed life sit on a chair, back erect, hands on lap with palms upwards, eyes closed, be still and observe the sensations of your incoming--outgoing breath at the entrance of the nostrils for around 5-10-15 minutes or more. Slowly negative thoughts will reduce and relax the mind. Deep inhalation is not needed. Whenever you are free during the day or night before sleep sit or lie down still before sleep and observe your breath. Being still reduces negative thoughts. Do the above practice daily to have a good life. Best wishes and prayers. Shyaaam Sir. -Counsellor.

[@michellebass4003]

The accuracy and relatability to this is blowing my mind. I felt like this was me talking. I’m SO grateful you posted this. I took the leap and started lexapro today after years of denying the fact I may NEED it. This video made me feel so much better, and learning to embrace the chemical imbalance that i have. I suffered for far too long because of the mental illness stigma. Thank you so much!! 🙏🏻❤️

[@tjskeyblade]

I have a cerebral palsy also makes my muscles tight and I also use a wheelchair and A walker but I said don’t let my cerebral palsy give me down I have a smile on my face it’s a I smile on face each day and I will be praying for you🙏

[@JesameSandalamo]

May God bless you always, you are an inspiration

[@imscotti]

I have literally never felt more seen in my entire life than I did watching this. I've dealt with depression and anxiety for years and no one has ever been able to understand me when I say I feel like I go through life drowning sometimes. This entire video is so necessary and so real. Thank you for being open enough to speak on this and, in general, thank you for sharing.

[@fionaschrader5402]

I remember the first few weeks after starting citalopram...looking around at the world and thinking "This is it, this is where i want to be. I'm finally glad to be here." :)

[@edenhaile4343]

What are the side effects you encountered?( If any) If you don't mind me asking

[@Frobe8]

Are you still on them?

[@vanessac622]

This makes me so happy ❤

[@karennavarro32]

Asia, I really appreciate this video. My mom's side also has a history of anxiety and depression and what really pushed me to be on antidepressants was when my own uncle (her brother) who lives in the Philippines, called me (using a phone card) to tell me that antidepressants helped him and it was okay to be on it. You really have become one of my favorite KZbinrs, I think I'm older than you by a year (which isn't much), but I look up to you. I am really proud of you. And I look forward to your content in the future!

[@okaychels]

I’m calling my doctor tomorrow. I’ve been feeling low for so long and this is giving me to push to fight for myself again. Beautifully said, thank for you sharing this, I wish I could give you a hug girl❣️🥺

[@kservillon9]

I work in the mental/behavioral health field and majored in cognitive science in undergrad. Growing up with immigrant filipino parents, I’ve only recently explained how mental health disorders, especially depression, are chemical imbalances in the brain. I’ve worked in a psych ward with kiddos that had been diagnosed with bipolar disorder, depression, etc. and my parents didn’t understand until I explained to them. Thank you for being honest & sharing your story. The stigma surrounding mental health is so real and the reason I love working in the field that I’m in is to help people who do need it, and especially when it seems like their “problems” are always pushed aside. Sending love to you ❤️

[@iDOL4ever101]

I appreciate people who are being vulnerable and honest about their feelings. ☺️

[@sunnyray4065]

I have OCD and every day is a struggle. It's very very hard to talk about as even talking about it can be triggering. Antidepressants are great for some people but don't work for others. Remember that you're unique and you'll have to try some different things to find what works. Keep going.

[@sixteen.candles.4644]

I do too. Its my little secret.

[@Lizzie5026]

I almost cried when she said “wow, i get to do things today, i get to live today.” I want to feel this. Haven’t felt like this in so long, I wanna go to a doctor. Unfortunately my family doctor is an asshole and probably try to make me walk.

[@AnakinNightWalker465]

Find a different doctor. And get the help you deserve

[@malulu1947]

did you get help??

[@Ryu-v8r]

Going Through It The most difficult battles are fought by the strongest souls. Depression is an angry dragon that fights us. To master depression one has to go through it. One does not defeat the dragon. Because we are also that dragon and the depression. One slowly becomes one with the dragon and the depression and gains strength in going through it. I was depressed after my childhood trauma. This writing describes how it was for me. I hope this might helps you and others.

[@YungBetts]

As someone that suffers from the same thing, this was so accurate and refreshing. THANK YOU.

[@peachstereo]

Also, if ya’ll have the means to (with insurance/ low-cost/free counseling) pair taking medication with CBT (cognitive behavioral therapy). I’ve been doing this and the combo has been so helpful for me.

[@Ahaiseeyou94]

This video made me realize how wrongly I've been thinking about my life. I don't know how much to thank you for putting up this content. After 5 years of battling with anxiety and depression trying every option but medication, You've helped me feel normal, SO hopeful and strong!! ❤🙏👊☺

[@shannon6765]

Thank you so, so much for this. Especially now in the current times, I don’t think I could ever appreciate how much this made me feel seen and actually feel like I’m not a disappointment. Just thank you.

[@amarisky21]

When I was first diagnosed with GAD over a year ago I felt so alone. There were little to no KZbin videos of people my age going through this and sharing their stories. I felt so alone. Then Euphoria came out and when Rue mentioned she has Generalized Anxiety Disorder I felt less alone and SEEN. I’m so happy you opened up about your story! I feel less alone🥺💓

[@empressafiya9022]

Same here... I didn't know anybody with GAD and feel alone. This was a good video...jus knowing you're not the only one!!

[@Ryu-v8r]

Going Through It The strongest souls fight the most difficult battles. Depression is like an angry dragon that fights us. To master depression, you have to go through it. One does not defeat the angry dragon. Because you are the dragon and the depression. You slowly become one with the dragon and the depression and gain strength in going through it. I really hope this can help you and others.

[@victorialigad]

I’ve watched this video every day this week because everything you said resonates with me to the T. I come back to this video any time I feel alone or crazy, like there’s no way out. I have no support system. Thank you a million times. You saved my life.

[@stardustring]

Depression feels like you're walking through grey clouds it's just grey and it's just you and yet your surrounded by millions of people ,but feel utterly alone in your pain and thoughts.

[@yusafahmed3497]

4 words that will be helpful for your whole life remember "This too shall pass" Consider your state as a guest for a temporary time and it passes with another state taking its place We can be sad, happy, laugh, cry, love all in a few moments One's state is in a constant state of changing

[@Whyamiherel0l]

This convinced me to reach out to a doctor. Ive known my thoughts were out of wack but dealt with it alone.

[@HaiChronicles]

This is so spot on. I've always felt so alone dealing with depression and anxiety, and girl sammmmeeee. Thank you for sharing your story!

[@Ryu-v8r]

Going Through It The strongest souls fight the most difficult battles. Depression is like an angry dragon that fights us. To master depression, you have to go through it. One does not defeat the angry dragon. Because you are the dragon and the depression. You slowly become one with the dragon and the depression and gain strength in going through it. I hope this might helpss someone as it helps me.

[@esmeraldaespinoza5473]

I was diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder and depression about 5 years ago and I agree that there’s a lot of stigma around taking medication I was scared to get addicted and I felt weak, but I reached my breaking point when a family member passed away I didn’t know how I was going to go on. I finally decided to try out medication and I had no idea people could actually live in a state of peace and not fear 27/7, usually I would be so overly stimulated and I hardly have any side effects. I’ve done things I didn’t think I ever would able to do. Sometimes I do feel sad for no reason at all but I just remind myself that it’s my depression and I try to be kind to myself. Thank you so much for this video I think it’s so important to talk about mental illness and health, much love to you girl thank you for being so open and honest! 💖

[@ddoubleu170]

Was diagnosed with moderate to severe low mood disorder (clinical depression) when I was in my early 20’s. Be strong, stay on your meds unless directed otherwise, and remain in therapy. Also, take necessary breaks from social media. *God speed, baby girl! You’re going to be alright*

[@therealday5036]

You don’t understand how this videoed helped me. Everyone around me thought I was just lazy but it was deeper. I’m finally going to seek help

[@arturiaful]

I also am on antidepressants for GAD and depression and I too waited too long for help. I was diagnosed about 4 weeks ago. Thank you for your transparency, We aren't alone and sending love and good vibes your way

[@user-bv5sq9dy7w]

Me too. I was so anxious to take it but I feel my life changing already

[@arturiaful]

@AsiaJackson So far, I’m not having any adverse effects I’m on Prozac.Theyre upping my dose little by little. I have a ways to go on managing my GAD but my depression has been better. Therapy’s also helping

[@nsoromma9505]

Struggling with and trying to get out of a major depressive episode myself. Last month I was involuntarily hospitalized for it and sent to one of the worst treatment facilities in my area. I even left my counseling intake appointment because I couldn't handle what I had just gone through. I finally built up the strength to go set up another intake appointment. Living with depression is hard and I know it gets desolate. You are not alone. I'm glad you shared your story. Much love as always. Thank you, Asia.

[@elisworld341]

How are you doing now? My son had a similar episode.

[@anazanb]

Hey Asia!! Won't watch the video because of the trigger warnings, but I want to send you some love and support. I'm 20, I've dealt with depression and I'm still dealing with anxiety. Quarantine made it all worse, together with the fact that I realized I want to change my college graduation. Taking meds felt so terrible to me, and I'm still afraid I'll never get out of them, but whenever I don't take them or I forget, it feels so much worse. These things take time, a lot more than I thought it would take. Do not ever feel bad for feeling the way you do and always remember: you aren't your depressed self. You aren't the person you seem to be when you feel anxious or depressed. I feel so terrible looking at myself and it hurts to remember this, but it's so important. It's just a disease, it will pass. I don' know if you'll read this at all, but I really just wanted to tell you this because God knows how much I need to listen to this myself!!! You are an amazing woman, take care of yourself!! Hope you can feel better soon!

[@jasminelove3027]

Love this. I just got prescribed antidepressants yesterday (Zoloft gang, where you at??) and it was my first time seeking help after struggling with some form of depression and anxiety for most of my life. I start therapy soon as well. 🖤

[@babushkka]

zoloft gang 🤪 i’m so proud for you I wish you so well 🦋

[@MistyGee]

I start Zoloft Tonight...is there an update you could give me? I am terrified.

[@nehanauman531]

How was ur experience??

[@CyberWolfVR]

I’ve been on Zoloft 50mg for 2 weeks now. Still waiting for therapy 👍

[@Anonymous-bq6li]

Hi Jasmine, Are you still taking Zoloft? If so, any side effects like weight gain and no energy? 😊 😅

[@jongline4357]

I don't have depression. I did develop OCD this year and I thank my mom and Aunty for hearing me out and telling me that I should see a therapist. If not, I don't know where I would be without them. This video hit a weak spot and I cried like 3 times. Im crying right now. It was bad a few months ago and I'm getting better. Thinking about how much it took over my life makes me sad and it pushes me to continue getting better. Thank you. Please take care of yourself❤ Im glad you went out and got help ❣❣

[@sprrringtime]

Thank you, SO much, for making this. I’ve been struggling with my mental health for years but this year I’ve gone through a lot and I’ve been pretty sure I’ve been depressed for a while but I literally just called myself lazy and told myself this was all my fault. It’s so hard for me to get out of bed, so hard for me to care about doing anything, etc. Therapy has helped a lot but I’ve definitely been scared of medication.

[@emmawoolley9021]

i just wanted to say how freaking HELPFUL this was. i’ve been going to therapy on and off for years now for GAD and bouts of depression as well. i decided to start the process of getting on medication. i’ve been very scared of medication and have been very worried bc of the stigmatization of it. and even now that i have decided to try it, i’ve had a hard time feeling validated in my decision or like i’m just taking the easy way out or any of the things that you discussed in this video, but this video had made me feel SO seen and so validated and more comfortable with my decision. i’ve also been struggling finding explanations of what being on medication actually feels like or how it actually works and this video was so helpful to explain what medication is actually like, so thank you. so much. i appreciate it so much. it’s exactly what i needed right now ❤️

[@juliaparks6836]

I can totally relate to you on feeling like you have "just taken the easy way out", by taking medication. I think we as people (esp in the US) feel like we need to do everything on our own. Even going to therapy, you can still convince yourself that you will ultimately be able to overcome your mental illness (via working hard in therapy) and that you don't need a medication to do some of the work for you. It's hard to relinquish some of that control even though it's allowing you to live your life how you want. You don't want to feel like you are relying on a pill to let you live life. You feel like you should be capable of it on your own 😕

[@emmawoolley9021]

Julia Parks yeah that’s a really really good explanation of it. it’s a sucky feeling bc it prevents you from really getting the full benefits of what should help you. thank you for helping me feel not so alone, i hope you are doing well

[@jaslovesla]

This video literally couldn’t have come at a better time for me. I literally am coming off my worst episode yet, and this gave me all the more courage to act on seeking help, because it isn’t normal to feel this way. Thank you so much Asia 💛

[@kaitlincollins8375]

This video was my sign! This is the first video I’ve watched of yours and I am so glad it was. Asia, thank you so much for this video. You literally articulated what I’ve been feeling and what I’ve been going through for years now. Definitely going to make an appointment with my doctor. May you continue to be the vessel that God intended you to be for us, through your platform. Wishing you continued happiness, blessings, and peace!❤️

[@TheMsSimone]

You are absolutely spot on. The way you describe your symptoms of only eating a small depression meal and waking up thinking great just another day is what I’ve been going through for 2 years now. My life looks great on the outside but on the inside it’s painful and anxiety ridden. Depression started at 15 and coming from a Caribbean household I didn’t have support. Instead I was told to listen to gospel music and leave it to the Lord 🤷🏽‍♀️😞 I never got the help I needed.

[@manijalatifi622]

I have had a similar story to yours my anxiety had started around 17 years old and it was a constant battle because it was so new to me and I could not understand what was going on with me. I eventually wanted to get on antidepressants for my anxiety because my anxiety and depression went hand in hand but my mother did not support it. I do not blame her because people around you do not understand what you are going through and like you said there is a stigma around these medications. Eventually I had realized that it only kept getting worse and worse and I could not get myself out of that cycle, so getting help was my only option. I also wanted to tell you how strong you are for putting this out and that you had made the right decision. No one knows what you are going through but you, so no one has the right to be judgmental especially when it comes to somebody else's mental health!

[@Tanisha516]

For 3-4 years I’ve been struggling severely all because of the medication stigmas. & I’m still scared! Thank you for this video 💓

[@ashleyriosrizo]

Don't be afraid! You deserve to be well!

[@stardustring]

Don't be scared your not alone.. I took paxil works great. I'm gonna have to take it again.

[@Prttyp2177]

Really appreciate you making this video and sharing your story. Mental illness isn’t talked about enough in the black community and it’s hard for us in the younger generation to get the help that we need because for some of us our parents/grandparents never got the help that they needed. When there are signs to look for that point to needing therapy, for some of us they’re not recognizable. So I really appreciate you sharing your experience with depression/anxiety and what it felt like so that those of us who actually need help can know what those signs may be and not disregard our emotions because we feel like they aren’t as bad as the ones shown on TV.

[@shareatoothbrush]

I started lexapro this year and it’s one of the best decisions I’ve ever made for myself. I feel like myself again. ❤️

[@ahmedfraz8324]

After how long you begin to see improvement..I am taking prozac 20 mg for 4 weeks now but there is no noticeable improvement

[@Србомбоница86]

@@ahmedfraz8324 how are you feeling now?

[@montesa9136]

@3ggtarts - Lexapro helped me short term, but seriously harmed me long term. Don't stay on them too long .....

[@joeymupewa5795]

How is Prozac treating you

[@Frobe8]

@@montesa9136 may I ask how it harmed you?

[@vperez760]

Thank you for having the strength to speak up. I'll be 33 in December and I needed to hear this.

[@kari9174]

been feeling depressed too and i totally relate to you buying expensive things to feel happiness. you just helped me from buying a $300 perfume cuz i never realized how crazy that is until watching your video :)

[@imperfectmelanin7888]

I’ve done the same more than once unfortunately

[@3salaaa]

I was on lexapro April 2019- August 2019 (just 5 months) if there’s one thing I can say to people on antidepressants, specifically lexapro, please PLEASE be careful and don’t let your body become reliant on medications. I wasn’t taking lexapro consistently (1-2 times a week) and I dropped from 140lbs-99lbs in 3 months. THIS IS NOT HEALTHY. I had to be hospitalized for 2 weeks. Please anyone reading this BE CAREFUL do your own research and take it one day at a time 💕🧿

[@sheidi_ec6134]

No offence at all because I don’t know your situation, I’m not trying to be rude at all. But how do u know that weight loss was from the medication? Lexapro isn’t supposed to make u loose that much weight especially in that amount of time. I guess I’m wondering if you maybe had something else going on that contributed to that, or a bad reaction to this medication. And you’re supposed to take it once a day not 1-2 times a week, that could have messed up your brain chemistry a bit

[@harriyanna]

hey sis, i just wanna let you know that you are one of the inspirations for me to start taking after more seriously after graduation. i been watching you for years, your channel truly has helped me alot and i really enjoyed your personality. it made me so sad when you were sad because i could relate to what was going on. i've been dealing with anxiety since i was 12, and pmdd since i was 18 and IT'S TERRIFYING. mental illness truly sucks and i need to start taking better care of myself. this video has pushed me to do better. thank you asia and take care

[@WHATEVERKEKESAYS]

I actually really like that you show that people don’t lose their ability to feel. In my community a lot of people refer to antidepressants or add/adhd medication as “zombie pills” but it’s not always the case.

[@yudellezion9615]

I honestly said " I felt like a walking zombie " 😂

[@chano1283]

This is a great video. Thank you so much for opening up about your experience. I am in a very similar boat, so I am 39 years old and just started on antidepressants three days ago. I have to say, the things that set my mind at ease the most, was seeing you cry at the end. Anti-depressants don’t necessarily turn you into a zombie. Great content!

[@stephaniethat40somethinggi45]

Asia, wonderful job describing depression and anxiety. I am so glad you made this video so that people who don't have these issues can understand what it's like. 💜

[@user-vm7bx2lz4w]

I really liked this video and how you described your experience on dealing with mental health. I have felt like I've been depressed for years now, but whenever I'd hear other people's experiences with depression, it made me feel like mine wasn't real. Your video was very real and relatable to me, and I really appreciate that! It's really nice to even hear about your experiences with antidepressants and how it has changed things for you. Seeing you all excited about life makes me happy

[@ladydoes]

hi asian thank you for sharing your story. I have actually been researching and watching videos on KZbin about people's experience with Lexapro and then this came! I've been struggling with anxiety and depression for many years, the worst of it was in 2016-2017 and I've been in therapy since. I definitely feel so much better than I did then and have learned so many coping skills that will prevent me from spiraling like that again but this year has been really hard and I think I need more help. I have been prescribed but avoided meds because they scare me. I always thought I could do it alone. mind over matter you know? but every time I hear someone say that it has changed their life for the better, it really makes me confident to try it finally. thank you for being brave! ♥️

[@IamJekilah]

I have “General Anxiety” in which I didn’t know it was called that. My friend and family get irritated with me because I constantly think negative. It irritates me also, but I think of it like this. I say “at least I’ll be prepared if anything would happen.”

[@JesameSandalamo]

Oh my word me too, I say the exact same thing

[@shyaaammeneen63]

@@JesameSandalamo Heal yourself. Reduce negative thoughts. Its quite simple. Your breath is directly related to your mind [brain] causing negative thoughts and anxiety For a relaxed life sit on a chair, back erect, hands on lap with palms upwards, eyes closed, be still and observe the sensations of your incoming--outgoing breath at the entrance of the nostrils for around 5-10-15 minutes or more. Slowly negative thoughts will reduce and relax the mind. Deep inhalation is not needed. Whenever you are free during the day or night before sleep sit or lie down still before sleep and observe your breath. Being still reduces negative thoughts. Do the above practice daily to have a good life. Best wishes and prayers. Shyaaam Sir. -Counsellor.

[@shyaaammeneen63]

Jekilah, Heal yourself, Reduce negative thoughts. Its quite simple. Your breath is directly related to your mind [brain] causing negative thoughts and anxiety For a relaxed life sit on a chair, back erect, hands on lap with palms upwards, eyes closed, be still and observe the sensations of your incoming--outgoing breath at the entrance of the nostrils for around 5-10-15 minutes or more. Slowly negative thoughts will reduce and relax the mind. Deep inhalation is not needed. Whenever you are free during the day or night before sleep sit or lie down still before sleep and observe your breath. Being still reduces negative thoughts. Do the above practice daily to have a good life. Best wishes and prayers. Shyaaam Sir. -Counsellor.

[@JesameSandalamo]

@@shyaaammeneen63 thank you I will try this

[@violetmushroom6]

Ive been like this for YEARS, Im treatment resistant, iVe tried every.damn.medication.on the market. so yeah, this is my life now

[@yuzan3607]

I'm curious of if you read and what you think about theories about how modern life (diet, lifestyle, environment, ...etc) can actually cause anxiety and the constant (fight or flight) response in the body which lead to depression?

[@j.t2548]

thank you for this video. F*** it, I'm gonna finally take the meds. Been suffering for way too long. Meditation, wim hoff method, positive thinking, joirnaling, gym, diet, it all helps, but still the suffering and emptiness will go back. So...no point in postponing it.

[@flis1249]

i just sat and cried throughout this video. I was subscribed to you many years ago on an old account and missed all of this process. I was in a narcissistic relationship that forced me to cover up my anxiety and that brought on my depression. From maybe 4/5 years ago now. Pandemic pushed me to breaking point but also i started studying during this time to distract myself. And this helped me leave that situation, finally. Now, I live in Japan, which is such a great opportunity but now i can feel that darkness coming back (without the pain of emotional abuse).. I felt exactly the same about medication (because I was pushed to think negatively of them). Thankyou for appearing in my suggested videos again.

[@AlishaDixonTV]

I’m so glad you did what was best for you! That’s the ultimate indication of independence! Your comments are eerily similar to how I’ve felt. I’ve been on Zoloft since August and I wish I would’ve started taking them sooner. I feel so much better. Thank you for being transparent and for sharing your journey.

[@shavonnesmall397]

I love that you focused on having joy in your life. Joy and happiness are two different things. Happiness is temporary, but joy is eternal. Even when circumstances are not so great, you can still have joy because you’re not letting those circumstances define who you are.

[@niorblanc]

I really appreciate that she laughs here and there just to make it less painful but I be damn isn't that me in life

[@hazehaze7820]

I'm glad that we have people like you sharing things like this. My husband have depression right now and he never had that before. He's always been stronger between us mentally and emotionally. I'm glad that he is able to notice that something is different in him and that he realizes that what his mind is telling him is probably not entirely true.. He opened it up to me even though some of the things he said were hurtful (like he doesn't feel the same for me anymore)..He has reached out for help and therapy. Not sure though when it will start as he asked for time away from me and he hasn't really been speaking with me since he told me he had an evaluation and hoping to start therapy soon.. Your stories like this help me understand him and his situation and gives me hope. I really love him... I want him to be truly happy.

[@joannacarrilo2618]

Thank you so much Asia for this video, I’ve been stuck in bed for almost a week now & this video is exactly what I needed that I didn’t know I needed. Thank you for being an angel Love from South Africa 🤍🥺

[@sarahsheikh2420]

I'm also diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder and clinical depression. I haven't taken my meds for months now and I regret that deeply. Because it takes TIIIME to have a solid and positive effect. After watching ONLY the first few minutes of this, I called my psychiatrist for a prescription. Thank you for the wake up call. I've had my mental illness mocked by a person I really trusted in a sensitive environment and that truly had an effect on my ability to talk about how I'm really feeling to everyone around me. Because I don't know who I can trust, my mind kinda convinced itself that I can't trust majority of the people around me. I isolated myself from all my friends and I'm behind on my studies. My day-to-day feels like I'm on a treadmill, running my ass off but getting nowhere. Speaking of Euphoria, I've never related to a character more than I've related to Rue. Minus the drug usage.

[@theaishateuse5432]

Thank you for your honesty. You’re beautiful inside and out🤗💕 Love from NYC💕

[@martacapito4525]

I can not thank you enough because you perfectly tranlated in to words exactly what I am experiencing all my life! I'm begining the medication tomorrow and your video filled me with hope❤

[@Fiks_LeBelle]

Sending love from South Africa....I know how you feel and I'm also on antidepressants.... it's hard sometimes but I continue because I'll always have hope

[@samanthaphillips6341]

Yes I'm commenting four years later lol. I'm about to start taking Lexapro and this video really helped. I was diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder more than a decade ago and recently decided to talk to a psychiatrist. I haven't started the medication yet but one thing that was really helpful to hear was my doctor saying that I'm doing everything right - going to talk therapy, working out, taking care of my body, etc. but I still feel extreme anxiety all the time and that means medication could be good for me. For so long, I was afraid of the stigma, but my fatigue with struggling with anxiety is outweighing my fear of the stigma. Thank you again for opening up about this!

[@mitchiejkc]

I have generalized anxiety disorder and when you mentioned how small inconveniences can feel like the end of the world ohhhh my goshhhh do I resonate with that. So many instances where people would tell me "its not that big of a deal" or id literally gaslight myself by getting mad at my own inability to contain my stress response like. oooooof

[@vicvaldez7892]

Sometimes it’s so hard to put into words how you’re feeling to make people understand but you described everything so perfectly, no one ever wants to feel like they’re in a situation where it’s as if the other person can’t understand what language you’re speaking 😔

[@Hannahlynnhall90]

My lowest point lately has been waking up with my heart racing at night FOR NO REASON and being terrified to get out of bed even to go to the bathroom. I finally went to the dr and got Lexapro. I start it Friday. I'm anxious about side effects but I can't live like this anymore.

[@Ryu-v8r]

Going Through It The most difficult battles are fought by the strongest souls. Depression is an angry dragon that fights us. . To master depression one has to go through it. One does not defeat the dragon. Because we are also that dragon. One slowly becomes one with the dragon and the depression and gains strength in going through it.

[@Ryu-v8r]

I was depressed for 7 years after my sexual abusive childhood trauma. I wasnt diagnosed but it fekt like depression. I wish you strength in going through it. Because that's the only way. There is no way around the dragon.

[@refilwematlala5577]

First video I've watched from you and you just gained a new subbie. This video literally describes my life for the past 2 years and how I waited so long to get help because I did not know what depression was. Glad to see someone who has gone through the same thing being happy.

[@oliviamcdonald243]

General anxiety was soooo hard for me because it literally felt like my insides were just vibrating to the point where my teeth will chatter and I have goose bumps. I would wake up EVERY morning with the worrrrst stomach ache to the point where I would have to throw up (I wouldn’t throw up every morning but every now and then). I’m glad I can say that I have gotten a lot better, I’m still dealing with anxiety on a smaller scale but I just have to remind myself of my coping skills and just remind myself that I am okay and I am safe rn.

[@yazzypants6544]

Thank you so much for making this video, its crazy how I related to almost every description of depression or generalized anxiety that you made. That description of always feeling like the world is going to end really hit me. It's so amazing that you're bringing awareness to these conditions that sooooooo many people have who either don't know that they have it or reject it altogether. It really means a lot

[@leyla8444]

Proud of you, Asia! You are glowing from the inside, and it shows 🌸 Love, from Holland.

[@Amanda-ym3yq]

Everything that you've mentioned, I can relate 100%. Thank you, Asia, for being so open and honest. I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety when I was 15 years old. I had three sessions with the school psychologist but I felt like my problems weren't "big enough" and ultimately felt unheard when they just suggested me to use breathing/meditating exercises. It took me 7 YEARS to actually ask for help again. Because I convinced myself that I was just lazy. Change is slow and frustrating. Sometimes you can feel really bright and sunny for a couple of days - and the next, feel like you're drowning again. Sometimes change involves seeing different health professionals until you "click" or feel heard with them. Or changing medication (with advice from a doctor). Or even, removing yourself from problematic relationships. For anyone out there reading and watching - please treat yourself with kindness. You deserve to be heard no matter how "small" your problems seem to be.

[@AntonioSanchez-oy3me]

I really appreciate you taking the time to make this video, it really makes me feel better about getting professional help, I am currently going to start taking lexapro tomorrow morning and hopefully the process is smooth and eventually takes me to a place where I feel genuinely happy with myself and life! Because lately for the past 6 months life has been hell for me with dealing with anxiety and depression! Videos like these makes it easier to take that next step 💙

[@autonomy_]

I just found your video and WOW I relate to nearly everything. The thrill purchases caught me off guard, my version of that is live music and entertainment over furniture and other necessities. I just started lexapro and am scared but also excited to get out of this rut. I hope you’re still well years later!

[@erickamay]

I love this and your honestly, so proud of you! and sending you a virtual hug! 💖

[@megan5441]

I have anxiety and depression and this has helped me knowing I’m not alone. Thank you. So proud of you for taking the next step.

[@meganadele]

3:20 I think the exact same way. I think I've always kind of known that what I was going through was depression but like you said, it was never as bad as how they depict it in films and tv and so I just ignored it. I'm almost positive I've been depressed since at least the beginning of high school. I graduated two years ago. And since the beginning of HS, I've also experienced social anxiety but I haven't been properly diagnosed or gotten any help for any of this mainly because of the fact that I have to be the one to take that step and I can't be bothered to?? I don't know how to explain it. And on top of that, Covid has me anxious and paranoid enough to not want to find help until the pandemic is over.

[@laurenallday]

i started lexapro 5mg yesterday after pushing it off and believing a lot of the same preconceived notions you did too. i’m glad to hear you’ve had a good experience so far ❤️ and thank you for this video. you said a lot of the things i wanted to hear before making the decision to talk to my doctor so i know it will help others. signs and symptoms of depression are all over the map. i never felt what i thought depression should feel like according to my preconceived notions. insomnia is my biggest symptom so it took me awhile to realize it could be part of a bigger issue.

[@gemma9507]

hey are you still on Lexapro?

[@pencilwisdom6161]

You’re definitely not alone, especially in 2020 where the world is 💩. Ive been battling depression and anxiety disorders since childhood, my life has been a series of going in and out of suicidal ideation. I’ve been on anti-depressants before (Prozac), could’nt tell if it was helping or not, so I stopped. Usually non-pharmaceutical treatments would help me get out of my slumps. However during this quarantine I’ve been on a schedule, very productive even w self care but I’m literally a walking shell, no will to live. I cant even see the point in doing my routine because I’m not hopeful for the future. I have an upcoming doctors appointment and I’m going to get myself on medication again because at this point I’m sure I need it. Thank you for dispelling any residual resistance I had.

[@celticwarrior5646]

I've suffered from bouts of anxiety and depression for long periods throughout my adult life and I'm 56yrs old now, and your description of general anxiety and depression is the most descriptive and insightful explanation of what it is like to live with these conditions I've ever heard,especially from one so young. Anyone suffering from these conditions, I would wholeheartedly encourage them to watch your video to help them understand they are not alone and to have a better understanding of what depression and anxiety feel like on a day to day basis. Well done.