I'm Schizophrenic. My Experiences Hearing Demonic Voices & Having Obtrusive Thoughts

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8 ай бұрын

I recorded this in August of 2019 about having schizophrenia. I started having symptoms of schizophrenia in October of 2017 and was officially diagnosed in January of 2018 at the age of 45 years old. I want to share my experiences with people to give them a better understanding of schizophrenia as well as help others cope with this horrible mental illness.
I have obtrusive thoughts that are not my own. Personally, I think they are demons. They talk as if they are a person. They blaspheme God. They blaspheme the Holy Spirit. They hate Jesus. They promote Satan and try to get me to turn away from God. I have been hearing them everyday since 2017.
I've tried deliverance many times and it has not worked. I told them to go in the name of Jesus and they just laugh. I feel like God has forsaken me.
I was taking anti-psychotics and no amount of medication has ever stopped the voices. Medication has no effect, except the horrible side effects of restlessness, inability to concentrate, depression, and one medication left me unable to care for myself, where I could not think at all, and I drooled non-stop.
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@mckennasweda3614 5 ай бұрын

I was on psychic schizos page talking about some of my experiences when i came across your comment about trying to live a normal life and such. I am pretty much on the same page with everything you said. I also had a very similar hospital experience but drones supposedly fried my brain and that is when i called the ambulance after days without sleep, much foid, or much water because i thought everything was poisoned. Reaching the point where i was allowed (i say allowed because i have so very little control over it i cant even assume it was my doing) to finally see that my thoughts werent mine especially the ugly ones. Thus took me another two years after getting out of the hospital to really cement into me though. It was an incredibly gradual process where part of me was aware of it but blocked from fully being able to see that it wasnt me. That occured after i had a milder second round of that horrible experience. Its still very much a part of me. Was on an incredibly suspiciously low dose of an antipsychotic that supposedly took away all my symptoms but everytine i took it i would get this overwhelming sense of doom. Like everything everywhere was wrong. I stopped after 10 or so months. This comment gets changed every time i edit it and its a bit annoying. They are using your memories of pain and sensation. You are wearing a backpack

@SchizophrenicFilms 5 ай бұрын

Thanks for commenting.

@mckennasweda3614 5 ай бұрын

@@SchizophrenicFilms Thanks for sharing

@LJthaguy 5 ай бұрын

Brave stuff i can imagine its not easy to talk about this experience but im sure it could help a lot of people to understand they arent alone in their struggle with schizophrenia.

@SchizophrenicFilms 5 ай бұрын

Thanks LJ! I appreciate the comment too. It helps boost engagement analytics for the channel!

@LJthaguy 5 ай бұрын

@@SchizophrenicFilms of course i hope it spreads out and and has a chance to help people

@bratanawanaluski2212 3 ай бұрын

I hope all is well,just checking in.

@GregStevensReviews 3 ай бұрын

All is well. I'm just living my life by trying to ignore these voices and not let them get to me.

@mckennasweda3614 5 ай бұрын

A continuation: a backpack or the memory of the weight of one of your kids holding onto you. They used alot of things from my time in the military and my tatto and a particularly painful pap smear to match up to the senario/scene they were playing. You are probably already caught up on this. I apologize if this comment sounds dismissive. Your reality is different than mine. I know what its like to have flashes of samara from the ring (on good terms now), a random figure, and an entire team of people after me but ive never experienced a demon. I did have the sensation of someone cuddling me when i was involuntarily detained at the hospital but that was the only halfway nice thing there.They also simulated a hysterectomy without anethesia that same night and convinced me i had been SAed. Some bullshit. Wow the memories of there are coming back clear as a bell. It was still drones but from different teams. Im not sure any of them were on my side unfortunately. I remember them looking for my location from outside the hospital after that one team tried to fix my brain after they fried it. Looking back that was even more messed up than i remembered. The song they had me playing over and over for months was Demi Lovato's What Other People Say. I would give those lyrics a check