I Went to a Magic Mushroom Retreat (my FULL experience)

I visited a Psilocybin Retreat to take magic mushrooms - watch my full trip, my reasons for visiting and the astounding results.
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[@LauraTryUK]

Notes about this video: 1. Watch this on your TV if you can, for the full experience. 2. I paid full price for this retreat - it was not sponsored or discounted. 3. Here are some resources about psilocybin if you want to learn more: - How To Change YTour Mind by Micheal Pollan: amzn.to/3USBjHq - Huberman podcast: kzbin.info/www/bejne/m3rbh5mio5VlidU - Huberman podcast with Dr Carhart Harris: kzbin.info/www/bejne/nJTbm6p3aahnedk - Huberman podcast with Dr Johnson: kzbin.info/www/bejne/favZq4qFZbOIa5I - Tools of Titans by Tim Ferriss (page 101 with James Fadiman): amzn.to/4bNmxbF 4. If you enjoyed this video and found it valuable I would greatly appreciate you 'liking' the video and sharing it on social media and/or with anyone you think this would be valuable for. It took me 6 months to make and I would like it to be seen by as many people as possible. Thank you so much! 5. There is also the option of hitting the 'Thanks' button under the video and contributing anything you can to this project. Thank you! I rarely ask for this, but on this occasion, I'm just going for it 😀 6. There was so much more I could have added to this video - my reasons for going, what happened in the trip itself, what happened after and the results, but I have to keep some stuff to myself.

[@markdeegan4113]

Thanks Laura, excellent video. I have benefited greatly from psychedelics.

[@JoJo-vz5uy]

Watching it on my TV. Great job!

[@syproductions456]

It's funny how you said 'being nothing, yet connected to everything'. I did a trip once, it was different to yours. I was in the calm abyss of nothingness, it was an open space with no time, going on and on, it was 'nothing' yet at the same time it was everything, there was endless creation of new stuff appearing and disappearing in this nothingness, it was ever changing in form and had no rhyme or reason to it..... at some point, without being able to control it, I felt something errupt from my belly up to my mouth and I gasped 'life is a gift!'. In the days following the experience I was able to make sense of it in my own way. It's a bit spiritual and I'm not into religion, but basically, in that existence 'on the other side' us souls are just floating in limbo forever, it's beautiful and peaceful but it is also mundane and never ending, when we come into this world we live in now, it is given as a gift, for free, to enjoy, you see, the mushroom world has no time or meaning, but here on earth, we get to experience real life, an actual timeline, a story, a life, emotions, good and bad.... it's just given to us and we get to do what we want and it's so much better than being 'on the other side'. Knowing that life is a gift is beautiful, you appreciate it more and you experience it with more ease and playfulness.

[@CashMoneyMoore]

Would this be good to watch on a trip? 😂

[@LauraTryUK]

@@syproductions456 this is an absolutely wonderful comment! May I request you copy and add it to the main comments section please - I would love for lots of people to see and read it.

[@Lucy-ie8qw]

My 22 yr old son used to have anxiety. His mate bought over some🍄chocolate. He went for a nature walk with his mates and had it. He told me he now sees the world so different. He said the plants were shining their energy through him. He could feel their colours and feelings. He could feel our dogs energy...so deeply. He is now like a buddha. So relaxed, so calm, so at peace in his soul. He said it is pure beauty that he only sees now. He wants me to try a square of chocolate...I have been scared. But this video has given me some courage. Thank you Laura for sharing your experience. 🍄

[@atcgirl5034]

This gives me chills. Thank you for sharing this❤

[@susanlynn6545]

I'd love to try it. It's supposed to help depression, anxiety, ptsd etc.

[@user-dt9ep4ox6y]

​@@susanlynn6545if in UK go picking on the hills come late Sept early Oct

[@kirstywalsh1777]

Where do you get them Lucy x

[@renellep123]

This is beautiful! It is really amazing 😍 so glad for him!

[@wojohowitz5432]

Brilliant! I am a 55 year old father and husband. I never really felt like I fit in anywhere. I've recently learned that it's not MY job to fit in, it's MY job to CREATE the life/job/environment etc that fits ME. This video is hands down the clearest, most honest and simply the BEST explanation and information regarding psilocybin on YT. I am being called to this Adventure. Thank-you Laura for your courage and honesty to guide me and others to finding the truth within ourselves.

[@LauraTryUK]

Thank you for your wonderful and kind comment. I wish you well 💫

[@user-bv8hl8jn4x]

That made so much sense what you just said, I felt the same

[@MicheleMizu]

God bless your experience brother.

[@isabellarox8737]

How do we go to this place?

[@isabellarox8737]

@@LauraTryUK how do we go to this place?

[@smokejaguar67]

Disabled ex British squaddie with severe PTSD... Psilocybin saved my life

[@alainportant6412]

like you need to take that shit everyday or what ? some people need to learn how

[@jimit.4220]

​@@alainportant6412 not at all, one heavy trip can be enough for your whole life

[@baigish100]

I went on a "Hero Dose" three years ago: It was life-altering. I had many experiences similar to yours. Thank you for the observation! It is no panacea, but it was like 12 months of therapy that occurred in one day. One of the effects of the "Hero Dose" journey was the absolute and total loss of any appetite for alcohol. I had never thought I had an issue with alcohol consumption, but I realized how much thought and urge control was being spent on it. Some people view this as just another addictive drug. Nothing could be further from the truth! Doing another trip is about as appealing as my wife saying to me, "Honey, Can we have a talk?" While it's good to have difficult conversations, it's never fun. I have no desire to do another trip for many years. I had an ego-free look at myself and found things to change. But it was self-reflection with lots of self-love, forgiveness, and compassion. My family likes the change! I liked your thought that a psilocybin trip should be a pre-requisite for all politicians!

[@LauraTryUK]

ahaha, the bit about your wife saying..... That did make me laugh. Thank you so much for sharing your experience so others can read about it 🙏

[@spiralmoment]

It's called a heroic dose. A term coined by Terrence McKenna. It's 5 grams of dried cubensis on an empty stomach alone in the dark.

[@user-ev7vh2is6b]

I know what you are saying about larger doses and not wanting to do it frequently. Hopefully you can try microdosing at very small levels, if perfected, this can be more powerful than the larger doses over time. I am barely scratching the surface in this comment because I am very tired, but I hope you can research microdosing and see that it can be even more powerful if done correctly over time. It allows different types of changes to occur more slowly, which can be much more profound and helpful.

[@monchichis333]

As a practitioner, people have to reword "addictive drug" cause it is not a drug since it's in its natural form. It is also not addictive, as mushrooms have a compound that deter you from taking more of it or create dependency around it. Mushrooms are what we call teachers, it shows you template reality(our real nature) instead of the programmed reality that we know. It is an Entheogen, never a drug.

[@DianeClough-kh8ij]

@@user-ev7vh2is6b Been microdosing for about 8 months. 0.1g every three days and it has been life-changing. It has also made me lose my appetite for alcohol.

[@newpolarities2853]

This brought tears to my eyes! You made this such a beautiful memory for me! I am very happy that I agreed to be in this group of people with you and letting you document it 🙏

[@LauraTryUK]

I am so happy you agreed to be in the group also! Grateful beyond words 🙏 We get to share the experience and benefits with those who may benefit from it. I love the part where you say "Hmmmmmmm, I can try and talk" makes me laugh every time. You came out totally chill and zen and I was hyperactive 😂

[@newpolarities2853]

@@LauraTryUK haha yeah...the concept of the english language made no sense to me in that moment 😂

[@karate4348]

Thanks for letting your co-retreat-attendant do this video.

[@LauraTryUK]

@@karate4348 you are sooooooooooo sweet! 🥹

[@vihreelinja4743]

@@LauraTryUK It's weird how it is such an blissfull and euphoric existence that you never want it to end. But after the trip it usually takes a year or a couple before i have the urge to do it again.

[@DJ_Randy_B]

I gave some magic truffles to one of my work mates, the next time I saw him he thanked me while almost crying, he told me that he was colour blind and that he saw colour for the first time. 🌈

[@Artistbrits]

Not surprised by this story at all . I have perfect eye sight on shrooms. Off shrooms I have significant eye sight problems and wear glasses. It's unbelievable ..

[@Bel_leonie]

Awe ❤

[@danielboomers]

ur ego told u that...haha

[@btown8210]

As an ex raver I can honestly say LSD, Mushrooms and Ecstasy changed me completely. I had both good and bad experiences but even the bad ones had a reason or lesson. I was very open minded/aware, so could pull myself out the less comfortable spaces. I have always felt connected to spirit, Mother Nature and that we’re all connected. My best art and poems were a a result of such practices. It’s very hard to see how closed most people are, disengaged, and uncaring about the natural world. I think many people who have experienced drugs have a much more open minded and aware state - even years after, or when they’re straight. I still feel energy, I still feel others emotions and class myself as a healer. I do think tapping into your higher self is crucial to happiness. Lovely video Laura, your channel is so humble and honest. Thank you

[@paulmerritt2484]

You do not need drugs to do that though. It forces a door open but breaks the door and it can never be the same after. You will soon burn it out if you keep drugging and then the anxiety will come so strong you will not know what hit you. The devil is real and wants your mind in an altered state where he can start to use you against your own self.

[@lagringa7518]

As a very old hippy of 75 and one day after a lot of experimentation, I had decided that all of it was 'in my head' and never took another drug, and it truly has always been in my head for 55 years. I've always carried those lessons learned within me and I hear you loud and clear and agree completely. Perhaps in a less insane world than the one we are being forced to live today.... these experiences should be a right of passage for all of our youths, to learn how to respect this beautiful planet we live on and formed us and how we must respect her and that we are all stardust connected to everything and everyone.... what an exceedingly more healthy, happy and compassionate world this would be if everyone knew. Perhaps finally, there is on a certain level, an awakening happening now globally, for freedom is far too precious to lose.... I know that I yearn for it for all of our sakes or we will perish through these malevolent forces circling our planet if we don't.

[@Padraigp]

The worst thing that happens to me is I feel like I've wet myself and I feel like every th ing is wet and I'm wet and wonder how I managed to piss all over the walls lol! I can handle other people weird conversations stargange visions but my bladder never seems happy. 😂

[@Padraigp]

​@@lagringa7518I'm the same. I did coke one time and thought this feeling is already in me..now I don't even drink I just hold a bottle all night and get drunk along with everyone else without anything. I have never actually tripped off my nut without drugs though ..except one time I had alcohol poisoning and it was thw worst trip of my entire life... endless horror hole... so tippy and bad. I'd probably only take mushrooms when the situation was perfect now.

[@LauraTryUK]

There are so many wonderful comments here. I wish I could reply to them all. To let you know, I have read every single one up until this point, and I thank you so much for commenting 🙏

[@dawnholmes2136]

Love the way you told your story/journey 💚

[@dawnholmes2136]

It’s good too let it all out

[@HeyY.T.StopDeletingMyComments]

your open honest sincere intentions translates across the medium of yt video into the consciousness of those of us awaiting our own "signals" bidding us to open and enter the vast inner skyway that goes as deep as the stars are wide..both infinite and lovingly intersecting at this sacred point of, in and thru our awareness.. 🙏💜🕯💧🌱🐾👣🌿🌎🕊

[@listening2all]

Loved it, you could tangibly see the change toward yourself, the authentic you was given permission to shine and not feel "bad", the world needs your light so much, it was there shinning all along. I already loved you before your experience, but it really comes down to each of us feeling and seeing and believing that uniqueness and goodness within ourselves. I meet so many beautiful people who struggle with loneliness, fear, disconnection, addictions, depression or anxiety and they are awesome individuals but they cannot "see" it they only "see their shadow" as seen through past events or trauma. Stay in the light and don't hide it for it is who you are made to be.

[@leannehurst4260]

My partner and I have just watched this and both agree that this is the most informative and realistic insight in to a Ceremony experience. It's so thoughtful and raw. Psilocybin changed my life profoundly, helping me to get off Sertraline and assisted in my healing of my sobriety journey (5 years sober in August), I'm so passionate about it and grateful to you for documenting your experience so well. Mother nature surely provides us with everything we need on every level. I'm so happy for the progress you've been able to make, it made me emotional to watch. 🖤

[@LauraTryUK]

wow, thank you! I watched other videos about ceremonies and they didn't give me what I needed - the experience and the info. So I made a video myself. So your comment really means alot! Congratulations on your life changes 🙌 I don't know you but am proud of you!

[@leannehurst4260]

@@LauraTryUK thank you so much. You've created such a positive community here! X

[@JJ_Smilez]

Hey I am on sertraline now. I was wondering if you took a trip while taking sertraline? Or did you have to go off of it completely before you did the trip?

[@leannehurst4260]

@@JJ_Smilez I microdosed psilocybin 2 weeks on, one week off until I had reduced the Sertraline altogether but did take macro doses during this time as well.

[@MicheleMizu]

I agree Laura, the way you documented was realistic honest graceful and true to the experience. From the perspective of someone who also did it and wants the world to understand it instead of judging what they don’t know… I am grateful for your video.

[@rbm979]

This is the best KZbin video I've ever watched. The descriptions and editing is outstanding. It even brought tears to my eyes. Laura is my favourite youtuber by far!!!!

[@rich.fortune]

You took the words right out of my mouth. ❤

[@marykuhn337]

My mushroom retreat journey was overwhelming and entertaining. There was no huge spiritual revelation but in the year since I’ve made a lot of sense of it and integrated so much. My main takeaways are “I have everything I need” and to more freely express my love and gratitude. I thought these were big.

[@marykuhn337]

@JoyAkachi-rv2bw no you won’t. I’ve been ripped off before.

[@savannahweymouth7370]

Laura's experience of sadness following the retreat reminds me of people who had near death experiences and struggled to integrate them into their daily lives. Also, longing for the feeling of oneness and encompassing love they had during their NDE I think can sharpen the pain of any emotional deficits in the life they're returning to. I see parallels.

[@LauraTryUK]

I'm not sure I understand this comment...... would you explain it in a different way please?

[@Sasha-vs6sd]

I also found many parallels to NDEers accounts of their experiences.

[@aryanahartwell3801]

​@@LauraTryUK Laura, many people who have had died (NDE- Near Death Experience), came back to tell of their experiences tell stories similar to your 'journey' ... traveling through colors and light, the feeling of expansion into oneness etc. They also struggle with the integration of the experience ... the contraction after the expansion. It can feel like depression.

[@carolinebielby5924]

I get that , the contraction of being in the human body the heaviness

[@MrSidReal]

the gift and the blessing of having this human experience ​@@carolinebielby5924

[@susank580]

Dear Laura, what shines through, beyond the beautiful and stunning journey, is your humble and indefatigable spirit. As always, you share so authentically that you remove barriers for others along the way. Thank you! ❤

[@LauraTryUK]

Hey Susan, so lovely to see your name and comment, as always. Thank you for always supporting my work 🙏

[@susank580]

Of course! It is a pleasure to support your work!!!

[@Mark..P]

Absolutely amazing Laura. At nearly 58, I want to try this. A lot to unpack over all of those years. Thank you for making and sharing this 🙏

[@LauraTryUK]

Thank you Mark. If you do it. I wish you a wonderful and enlightening experience 💫

[@phoenixrising5088]

Me too. I'm 69 and have taken Magic Mushrooms a few times but I think Laura's experience is on a whole different level. I lived in Holland for a while, back in the early 80s. Happy Days.🏴󠁧󠁢󠁳󠁣󠁴󠁿 😅

[@thekeysman6760]

I'm 51 and my friend is the person who flooded the UK with the truffle spore kits and became a multi-millionaire around twenty years ago now. His greed meant that Blair became aware and changed the loophole. I'm surprised that truffles seem new to people here, considering you're all my elders.

[@Mark..P]

@@thekeysman6760 Not new to the awareness, but more the controlled and safe environment that Laura experienced. Personally I have never entertained anything like this before, I prefer a glass of wine and being in control. However, this experience, with these people, is attractive

[@thekeysman6760]

@@Mark..P Interesting. I don't feel so "in control" with alcohol! It's a depressant and potentially opens one up to energies I'd rather not mix with, if you get my drift? Yes, there were spaces held for this back over twenty years ago in the UK too, including for Ayahuaska. And "not new to " is pretty deep and I'm not sure what you mean.

[@nanc6987]

Holy guacamole .... or should I say psilocybin Laura!!! There's a reason why I'm subscribed to your channel. You're real, relatable, have interesting content and create great videos. This one knocked it out of the park. Thank you for your efforts and willingness to step into the unknown. Simply the BEST!

[@LauraTryUK]

Thank you for your kind words Nanc 🙏

[@suchaturi]

This reminded me of a few experiences I had when I was about 20 years old in the mid-70s. In the late 60s and 70s, taking psychedelics was a common experience for many youth. We didn’t have the danger of drugs like fentanyl and you could take these things for five bucks. On one psilocybin mushroom trip I took, I started out with some friends and I eventually ended alone up in my bedroom, which turned into a garden of Eden. It was so beautiful with colors that I couldn’t describe and waterfalls that came alive. I felt a deep sense of peace. I felt that everything I had identified with fell away at a certain point. I was a working musician at the time and it was a big part of my identity. This identification fell away like the floor falling out beneath me. But it wasn’t disturbing at all. I felt my essence without any need for attributes and it was a purely satisfying feeling. In this state, I started laughing at the fact that I had identified myself so strongly with my personality and with being a musician. My essence was interconnected with everything around me and the personality part of myself felt superfluous at the time. These psychedelic experiences had a profound effect on me that lasted. Although I didn’t do psychedelics again after this period in my youth, I believe these experiences were what later inspired me to become a spiritual seeker, and to learn to meditate. Through these experiences, I learned that the universe is vast and multi-dimensional, and that our usual experience of is very limited.

[@Yowie722]

Did you keep playing music after the experience?

[@shawnfromportland]

you did such an amazing job here, this is probably the best piece of content on KZbin about the topic. you nailed the calm welcoming presentation energy and approached the whole experience with so much respect. you really inspired me to make a KZbin video sharing my mushroom experience.

[@LauraTryUK]

Thank you very much for your kind words. This project has taken 6 months to make, so your words mean a lot.

[@shawnfromportland]

@@LauraTryUK the effect it had on you and the care and time you took is totally evident 🙏 not to give a spoiler for those still watching, but i think just about everyone who has tripped has the same feeling you shared towards the end, "if everyone in the world did this once probably lots of the world's problems would go away." it's unreal that it's treated as an illegal drug

[@leannehurst4260]

Agreed!

[@LOder-rd9rr]

Thank you for sharing this experience with us. Very informative and compelling. I find all your videos educational and inspiring. Thank you for all the work and time you put into them. You are a magical, amazing person!!!!

[@thisisme2681]

I love how you explore the after phase. It is so important that the science and medical community continue to research this. It would be amazing to have medically guided treatments.

[@LauraTryUK]

Of all the experiences I read and head about, not many focused on the integration, yet it's the most important part. So thank you for commenting about it 🙏

[@TheForestCrone]

@@LauraTryUK Agreed! I learned so, so much after my hero dose. I believe that it's because while in that space, during the trip, I experienced such a profound sense of peace and clarity around everything being perfect. Having experienced that peace, I had the mental structure going forward to create that space for myself once again for healing. Once you know everything is perfect, the ability to bring up traumas and work on them, to process them, becomes easy and second nature. There's no fear there any longer. What is trauma in the face of perfection and complete wholeness? This is the gift mushrooms gave me: The ability to heal myself. Such a beautiful plant medicine! Peyote works similarly, and I've had amazing experiences with nature, myself, the universe and others while working with Abuelo.

[@user-ev7vh2is6b]

yes and no.... big psilo would be a tragic disaster and we must not allow this to happen....so no, it would not be amazing to have medically guided treatments....not at all....what you are really saying here is that you are scared..... and thats ok to be scared, but own it..... and explore what is already here around you.

[@mirandaandrea8215]

Thank you for sharing Laura. I’m 65 and have been curious about this for a long time. I feel a deep sadness that involves grief

[@phormzlab1743]

You will only ever regret the things you didn’t do. Please don’t wait any longer. Your happiness is your birthright. Give to yourself what the world never will, which is to live your life fully with all your heart. You are loved …In fact, you are love itself. Happy travels! ❤

[@TraderChick]

I can’t imagine what it’s like to not have constant overwhelming negative chitchat in my mind. No amount of meds, talk therapy, meditation ect seems to alter it. Thanks for making this option not seem so scary. Congratulations on your breakthroughs 🙏🏻

[@TheSamBarrass]

Do you have any experience with cold plunges? I have used them when I am feeling down and nothing has ever come close to the immense and natural feeling of relief. Apparently it literally doubles the amount of dopamine in your system which I know can be desperately needed when mood is low enough.

[@annawilliams7568]

@@TheSamBarrassthank you for the suggestion! My psychologist recommended this but I’m let to try it. She suggested sucking on ice or using an ice pack - something to do with the brain not being able to stress or be depressed when the nervous system is being triggered by sudden temperature changes. I’ve heard there are many health benefits to cold plunging. I’ll give it a try!

[@TraderChick]

No I have not thank you I will look into it 🙏

[@thekeysman6760]

​@@TraderChickMeditation. Still the monkey mind. And it's et cetera/etc, not ect.

[@MicheleMizu]

If you are considering a journey with mushrooms, You will feel like called to it. It will be on your radar until the opportunity comes.

[@Cris.Arce-ru4eq]

Don't forget to respect the mushrooms, Golden teachers basically, they have some very powerful potential. . It can show you what you need to see within yourself and in the world around you, changed my life for good. In the most positive way possible.

[@Roy.Laguna2988]

Everybody is struggling with mental health and could benefit from careful therapeutic use of substances like these. Wanna try, but keep being told I can't do it alone for the first time.

[@Henryflores-mn6yu]

I do respect and believe in psychedelics as treatment, yet I’m reluctant about using them personally. Not sure about how “good” it may do to someone

[@MichaelLucas-eu8gf]

Since I tired psychedelics for the first time, I’ve been trying to describe the experience to others so there can try it as well, but i couldn’t find the right words to describe it.

[@PaulHelena]

I find it funny if there's any psychedelic therapy there online

[@JohnD.Brinich]

Of course , he is dr.martyshroom. Psychedelic vision is reality to me and always was".

[@judd7699]

What we need to remember is that everyone’s journey can and will be so so different - you come into this world with ancestral trauma ++ you also have portals open and entities that can confuse your thoughts whilst on your journey .. and lastly everyone is looking for that aha moment but what you need to remember is that you are the aha moment - inner work is the key ..❤

[@user-ev7vh2is6b]

You start by acknowledging peoples different experiences, and then you end by saying you know what everyone is looking for and how to find it. Universal is universal. Human beings are and will always be finite beings within the infinite. The infinite is knowable and we should try to know as much of it as possible, but at the same time we always will be finite and have limited finite connection/awareness/knowledge of the infinite. Meaning, a leap for many people is to understand it is not one or the other, it is all of the above, both the inner and the outer, the finite and the infinite. Unconditional love is universal and without ANY limitations.

[@judd7699]

I agree - you put it in a better way 🙏

[@Sabah_Ismail]

That ‘now I understand’ at the end gave me chills. SUCH a fantastic video, Laura - maybe your best yet! Thank you so much for sharing this incredible experience with us, thank you for your courage, vulnerability and open heart. Wishing more joy, love and peace for you. 🙏🏽💛

[@LauraTryUK]

Thank you for saying this may be my best yet - it took the most effort and time to make for sure!

[@user-mu4xn3vd3w]

Laura, Thank you for sharing and caring to include us in your journey. My story of silence started after being a victim of a mass shooting in the United States in 2008. Slowly I became isolated and extremely bullied, targeted and retaliated against. With no help or police protection, I became completely silent. I had dreamed, yearned to have dreams to take me away and to give me answers, but it never came. Until your video. Thank you so much for sharing your journey with us!!!! 🙏🌹 Peace, love and many amazing trips.😍

[@stevenshillingford]

This Laura has been a real eye-opener and is to date your best work. The unlock for you was full of turns and I'm so grateful to have sat here and watched this video. Thanks for sharing this with us 🙏🏾🙏🏾

[@LauraTryUK]

Thank you so much for your comment Steven 🙏

[@stevenshillingford]

@@LauraTryUK No thank you so much as its because I've seen your content that's got me started on KZbin at 51 years old

[@Ghostiesarah]

I’ve taken it many times, every experience is different, I’ve had ego death, it’s aided in my shadow work, it’s helped with my addiction and mental disorders, it truly is a beautiful experience and I absolutely love your experience 💗 it helps with so many things and made me change my perspective on the world.

[@traebee333]

I haven't been to a retreat, but I've been on a solo psilocybin journey since April because I'm very introverted by nature. Last Saturday was my 6th session and I was cosmically guided to take my very first heroic dose. There are no earthly words which can properly describe what I experienced, but it was extremely profound. It started out like any other trip, but then it quickly accelerated and I found myself absolutely bursting with Love. It was so overwhelming that I almost couldn't stand it. The light and colors that I saw do not exist on earth, I was on another plane which I can only describe as heaven. It was very similar to a near death experience and literally everyone was with me. We were all one big f-ing rainbow sourced from the same divine light and unconditional Love. I saw no human forms, only energy and color. I kept repeating over and over, "he never left. He never left us! He never f-ing left!" The Love filled me so much that I stopped breathing several times, but I was not afraid or uncomfortable. I felt very safe. I finally started coming down after around 6 hours, but did not fully come down until over 12 hours later. My mushroom trips usually last around 5 hours total. It's now 5 days later and I am still processing what happened and my gratitude and empathy is through the roof, as well as several mystical synchronicities. My severe C-PTSD and major depression feels so much more organized and manageable and it's actually scary to finally feel like actual progress is being made. All my Love to everyone who is on their healing journey or who are thinking about it. You got this!

[@LauraTryUK]

Wow, wow! I don’t know what else to say apart from wow! Thank you so much for sharing! The “I almost couldn’t stand it” part really got me 🥹

[@ericaawake9503]

I had my first experience, and the mushrooms showed me love. It was an amazing experience! They took me down deep into the earth…I felt like I was deep in the ocean, and at the same time deep into the earth…I saw colors and small creatures…loved it.

[@cleestacy]

Thank you for sharing. This was beautiful to read!!! ❤

[@traebee333]

@@cleestacy thank you so much! 🙏

[@suzannechance5876]

I so desire to re-experience my "trip" I had during early 80.s. it's effects and rellizations🎉have helped me cope with depression and anxiety . I cannot explain it . I am now toward the end of my life and want to live the rest of it without depression /anxiety. I can't afford retreats and hesitant to "pasture pick" the mushrooms. I will find a way. I must.

[@lisakruger86]

Wow. I smiled for the last 30 minutes of the video no stop. So emotional, filled with joy and empathy. I have had a similar experience 10 years ago but with another substance. I then got the message "I am you and you are me" nothing matters - in a humble way. Thanks for reminding me of this 🙏

[@trinabrugada]

This is so strange. I was just looking at getting a pair of these shoes. And then today on a course, I was talking to a lovely lady about this exact experience. I'm in tears watching this. All feels like it was meant to happen today. I'd love to know more about the place you went. And I'm so proud of you, as I could feel your anxiety about how it was all going to feel in my tummy. You make me feel like I could maybe do this too. Thank you. Sending love x

[@jodymooney255]

Just wanted to comment on the vivobarefoot shoes. I’ve been wearing them for close to 10 years and will never go back to regular shoes.

[@jerseyjoe8637]

Her experience of out of body flying is what I had experienced when I was a young boy at around 14 without taking any drug to alter my mind. As a matter of fact I couldn't wait to get home after school to do it, it was awesome while it lasted, then one day it stopped and I couldn't do it anymore. I'm 70 yrs young now. Thank you Laura for sharing your experience, I grow my own shrooms but I only microdose, I'm hesitant to go on a drug induced journey. Maybe some day I'll have enough courage.

[@MiddlePath33]

Did you have any trauma in your childhood? My husband could lucid dream when I met him. He didn’t have a great childhood. Slowly, he has lost the ability. He says he thinks it’s because life is so good now he has no need to escape to a dream. Melted my heart. I am so happy he came to be with us. And that me and my son could help him heal simply by being his tribe. People he came to depend on…and us him.

[@rotatoryrotisserie3619]

Interesting to hear this. I also had the same experience. I'd not really given it much thought since, funny how our memories work. It was tangible and went way beyond mere imagination. I wonder how many others have shared this?

[@kathycolvin7682]

I'm 65 and would love this. I imagine crossing over would be an awesome trip..and the trip would be eternity. Loved your video.

[@bronsondiamond2025]

Everything you said about thinking people didn't like you because you knew the old you and didn't like what you saw, and depression for life, and self sabotage were such relatable moments and I have gratitude towards that vulnerability as I really do believe videos like this need as much in-depth information as possible, and just wanna say you did an amazing job at that in the first 10 mins. I also have major depression and psilocybin seems to be the only thing that can help my depression, either micro dosing, or heroic dosing. Great video, thank you.

[@ushadigiacomo7213]

Hi there! I just went to a similar retreat last weekend. My experience was quite different. I had a lesson from an invisible being in how to use my new learnings with the psilocybin into my life. I called her “cogumelinha”, the Portuguese name for little lady mushroom. I think cogumelinha was the part of myself we call higher self. The voice told me that people are afraid of expanding their conscience because they are afraid of the void, and loosing their individuality. The voice told me we are part of the void, and everything else is our manifestation. We decide what to manifest, the shadows or the beauty. I saw very little. Just in the beginning I saw the light net. The one that takes care of nature. And learned we should do our own for the humanity. I drew whatever the voice told me, I read the books in the altar at the center, and I felt totally connected to nature and the people at the retreat. As I am in the path of learning about my real self it was a light trip. I do prefer mine without psychodelics. But it was a nice experience. It didn’t change me, but I learned more tools to go deeper within, and to be there for others that are willing to do this dive. The change will come after I use the tools. Conclusion: it was beautiful and insightful. BTW, it happened in Brazil.

[@ericaawake9503]

Wow, where in Brazil did you do it?

[@cherylschumaker1366]

I need to know ow too

[@ushadigiacomo7213]

@@ericaawake9503 Florianópolis. Check MICELIO Aviva June and Tabata

[@ushadigiacomo7213]

@@cherylschumaker1366 June Heiras and Tabata Gerk

[@toucan221]

Thanks for sharing, indeed we are all part of the void, we all share this world, and our consciousness will come together, but we will still know our as individuals, Joy and beauty to you 🌛🌛🌞🌞💜💜

[@heartsky]

So much baggage in the psychedelic term, so much negativity heaped onto mushrooms. Thank you Laura for helping to clean up this mess, thank you for helping to heal us all.

[@sheltonlovesr.8941]

“I want everyone to feel this feeling”. In my understanding, the powers at be does not want us to feel it. To be free. Thanks for making this. I want to try it. ❤

[@stephenroldan5107]

Look into microdosing

[@user-ev7vh2is6b]

it chooses you

[@jonzafira5949]

Don't even give it a second thought. The Mushroom has called upon you. You will learn several life lessons in one trip.

[@KeithRanney]

What an absolutely beautiful and profound journey you've taken us on. Great story telling and visuals. It really took me back to my experiences. I used psilocybin recreationally and often while at college in Texas, where shrooms and cows were abundant, especially in east Texas. The last time I journeyed was with a small group of friends a couple of years ago, and although much of the journey was directed inward, when I shifted my focus outside I became aware of a light behind me, consistently following me. I kept turning around thinking someone was shining a light on my back. Since there wasn't any artificial source, I assumed "I was the light." I'm very happy for you Laura Try. Aloha from Maui, Hawaii.

[@myvanworld]

As someone else that's 'travelled', you explained the experience perfectly. So much so that you brought the feeling back to me as I watched and listened. Smiled and cried remembering. I described it as the world is in HD after taking it. I agree, every single person should try it. The world would be a much more beautiful and magical place. This video is incredible, you should be proud of yourself Laura. Well done.

[@LauraTryUK]

Thank you for your wonderful comment 🙏 Do you get flashbacks sometimes?

[@myvanworld]

@@LauraTryUK thank you for your wonderful video! Must have taken so long to put together (coming from a fellow editor). Yes, I had several watching your video. The feeling of unconditional love came back to me as you were describing what you went through. I can’t tell you how eloquent you were with your language. I’ve struggled to explain what I experienced to others for years & you absolutely nailed it. You will require top up sessions to keep that magic. But my last one was 18 months ago & I’m only just feeling called again. In fact I’m taking this video as a sign I need to go on another adventure. Life can easily bring you away from that feeling & I think a dose every couple of years is a great way to maintain it. Incredible to see the after affects for you. There’s a reason this stuff is called magic 💫🤍 Thanks again Laura. Love your channel.

[@pintop1983]

I followed you from the beginning, I love all your videos but this one moved me to my core. Thank you for sharing, I cannot express or convey with words, all the emotions in me, watching this. You’re awesome x

[@adriannamatos865]

Thank you Laura for sharing your experience. I cried tears of happiness today when I found out that I was selected to partake in a psilocybin for depression clinical trial. Thank you for giving me hope, and providing me the confirmation that I made the right choice in applying for this trial two months ago. Blessings and love 💕

[@Sunnyday069]

That’s exactly how I felt after psilocybin, now I understand. It’s overwhelming a bit at times. But I’m so grateful for what has been revealed to me. Truly changed me and how I will live the rest of my life. TY for sharing your journey. 🙏🏼

[@user-ev7vh2is6b]

I do believe it is universal. This idea that people say that everyone has a different experience la de dah etc.....no....it is universal.....we are one.

[@ToniReviews]

Laura. After a break up and divorce tangled up with some narcissistic abuse and gaslighting I’ve been struggling over the past few years. I ended up pursuing reiki and understanding more about energy and the universe in a bid to rebuild myself. Part of that journey involved microdosing psilocybin in tiny doses over 8 weeks. What happened over the time was I became progressively more angry, more aggressive, literally ready to jump into a fight at any moment no bullshit. On the last day of dosing I found myself in tears sobbing and in a really dark dark place mentally. I never took the last dose it obviously stirred up a lot and taking such a mass dose like yours I don’t know that I could do it. I heard all the stories about how it would reduce my depression and increase my flow state where everything just works and I’m firing on all cylinders, but none of that happened. I set my intention to release me from what was no longer serving me and I felt like I got thrown into the depths of the pit of that emotion. It was a scary place and I didn’t like who I was at that time. I salut your bravery

[@LauraTryUK]

Psilocybin certainly reveals what is lurking within - the good and not so good. It's great you recognised what it was doing to you. Sorry you didn't get exactly what you needed. Perhaps it did more than you realised? I have travelled and micronised since - I can relate to what you say. The psilocybin find the cracks and opens them up, revealing all that is inside. It can be painful and agonising. It can also be a healing process. I hope that helps and you can feel better soon xx

[@syproductions456]

I'd like to share that the accute large doses where really helpful for me, but microdosing, not so much. For me microdosing kept me in a weird mental place all day long for weeks and during that prolonged period your setting is changing all the time so you are really susceptible to absorbing your environment, it's difficult to control the environment for long periods of time to ensure a positive experience. Personally I wouldn't write off a single large dose whilst discontinuing the micro dosing. Either way I wish you well.

[@tulinbeyduz920]

i think you kind of have to go through the mud to come out the other side. perhaps you are allows to feel angry and get that out of your system and then peace will the follow afterwards

[@InnerSun777]

@@syproductions456 Agreed. Large doses are where the big catalyzing messages and visions come through. Microdosing, I feel, is not very helpful at all without some big doses from time to time. Microdosing helps integrate the messages from the larger doses. If you look at cultures that practiced psychedelics for healing, it was almost always larger doses. If you go to a retreat like in this video, its usually moderate to larger doses or they work you up to it.

[@Here_Today_]

you’ve been through a traumatic experience and there is no by passing the grief, anger, etc al that comes as part of the healing…walking through the dark to get to the light. Nothing is wrong with your experience; perhaps finding support while going through your healing will be a welcome point. Much love to you; I’ve been through that valley and feel lucky I came out alive…it took time, longer than I had expected; perhaps the psylo will speed the process but it won’t bypass it.

[@karl.anthony]

Absolutely wonderful video! Love the longer form and amazed by the openness … thank you LT! ♥️ 🍄

[@LauraBentham]

I have never seen or watched you before Laura. In fact I really don't even know how I came upon this video. It must have been fate. At first I was just curious about this type of experience. Then I saw your name (we share the same) and heard you describe the reason you did this, I completely felt you speak into my being. Your sceptical approach and history of judgemental self-talk with bouts of depression is personally very familiar. The type of images you saw & continue to see (intense beauty of nature, ie the Lamas) filled my heart with a desire for the same for myself as well as the whole world- in particular, our leaders and our physicians and teachers. I cried tears of joy for you and am grateful that another being has experienced something so profound and beautiful that it has changed your life for the better- that you now are able to experience more joy, awe and wonder in everyday living. I honour your courage to be vulnerable and authentic... and open in your sharing. What you have done here is totally relatable and gives those of us who question what is wrong with us (as we are) to take an inward journey and trust that we may discover our inner being is fully connected and lacks nothing. I hope I too may have this type of freeing experience one day. Thank you sister! May the Avvatar-like beauty always surround and dwell inside of you.

[@user-gn4dq3fw3z]

Thank you for sharing this Laura, it touched me so much just listening to your experience. I was crying just listening to you. I have been so moved and honored that you would share this with others.🙏🤗💐

[@ruthmiller5740]

Laura, well what can I say, the way you tell your story of this experience is absolutely brilliant. I have used magic mushrooms in the past and totally understood everything you went through and at some points I was crying with emotion at how beautiful your 'travelling' was and the things you shared like 'I wish everyone could experience this', the world would absolutely be a much nicer place. Thank you so much for making this video, you smashed it girl!

[@aryanahartwell3801]

I admire you, Laura, for being so vulnerable and showing us, your viewers, your inner scape experience. You are in my heart....why am I crying as I watch you crying? Mirror neurons? Thank you for being a true journalist....a life journal. I learn more from these type of videos than reading a book. Again, thank you, Earth sister, for sharing your life journey.

[@raebird1797]

Thank you Laura, I appreciate you sharing this with us. I have been considering this for a long time and you have definitely helped me to make up my mind. All my support and love💚💚💚🕊️

[@diilain]

I think I was brought to tears line 4 times during this video. WOW, so insightful, inspiring and informative. Your candor was incredible. I know I’ve things deep in me that I’ve suppressed for my entire life, the thought of that box being opened is truly terrifying. I watch your content and you’ve mentioned a few times about editing this piece, now it’s here it’s amazing. I’ve been taking truffles without success (whatever that means) maybe a need to revisit them, but in the meantime, thank you, thank you for being real! 😊❤

[@JuriAmari]

Thank you so much for this Laura. I did a journey but with 5-MeO-DMT during my grad school days. It’s very true that the accounts often talk about the trip itself but not so much about the post trip integration. The trip itself was intense but the integration is way more intense. I had so much anger and fear I needed to address and I also observed that my inner voice didn’t sound so harsh - I was able to stop myself easily before I got to a super negative spiral, which I used to fall down so easily before. The kindness and the wish for everyone to feel the same way was huge. I have been thinking for a while about trying again, this time with psilocybin, and this video confirmed it. My dad (who went on the same retreat) also said the comment that potential politicians and leaders should try this before even thinking of going for a position - seems like we’re not alone in this idea!

[@cindyshotwell6690]

Wow Laura! Thank you SO SO much for doing this video..I've definitely been curious and drawn to trying this experience but honestly just never found anything like your video before. I've read the books and listen to many podcasts and videos etc. But your explanations truly put my mind at ease! I'm 61 years old and lost both parents in the past 2 years...I feel a bit lost & I think this is a great time for me to try this adventure,. Thank you so much!!

[@Audifan8595]

Absolutely beautiful video, Laura. I have never commented on your videos before but your experiments over the years have taught me so much and guided me on my journey to self connection and wellness. From barefoot shoes to acupressure mats, I've incorporated so many little things to help me feel more balanced and in-tune with the earth and my body. This, I think, is the best content you have ever produced. I have been interested in psychedelics for about a decade and have yet to try them. Up until very recently, though, I don't think I was ready. But now, I am looking forward to it.

[@susanharkema2888]

Just sent you a little "Thanks" Laura. Sensitive souls like ours feel so deeply from childhood and I feel so connected in many ways to the "other side"; however, my internal world has been very hard to navigate. It sounds very similar to your brave and gracious sharing. Needing to stay in control would make doing drugs very difficult for me. I wish I was courageous like you to "go for it." I think a trip like this could be very healing. Thank you for all your many months to create this documentary.

[@SpiritualForexFamily]

Great Documentary ! Really enjoyed listening to your Journey. Thankyou for sharing ❤

[@spiralsun1]

This is BY FAR the best video ever made on any psychedelic experience ❤ THANK YOU 🙏🏻 ❤ I took mushrooms with no effect, LOL. But I ALREADY cry when I see animals, insects, random families and children. Because of the BEAUTY and MAJESTY of life!!! I already am like that. I’m have a kind of synesthesia 🤷‍♀️ I already KNOW everything is one. I grew mushrooms myself, even the truffles or philosophers stones and yep. No effects. It would be interesting to test my brain for inner communication 😊❤

[@spiralmoment]

You didn't take enough. Try 5 grams of dried cubensis on an empty stomach alone in the dark..What Terrence McKenna called a heroic dose. If that doesn't work your brain is one in a million. Don't take it as recommendation though. Theres also dmt, which is way more potent and interesting.

[@alvinadesir5801]

Wow… I’m sure by now you realise what you did for us, without taking this journey ( Yet ) has already done something, at least to me.. I felt like you took me on a personal journey walked me through it with utter care and consideration… that was so powerful.. emotional and beautiful, seeing your transformation and just following through and trusting, even if I’m sure it got tough along the way.. c Can’t thank you enough ❤ for taking the journey and taking us with you…. This video is very honest and it’s touched many hearts 💕 Thank you 💕❤️💕

[@isaa3203]

This is phenomenal. Your narration/description/explanation and editing. All of it. One of the few times I wished I had a tv to watch it. Thank you for the work you do and for sharing it.

[@pearlhartney9]

What an amazing video Laura! You explained all your emotions and apprehentions so well. All the visuals you used were amazing and really gave us an insight into your trip/travels. I have taken magic mushrooms but a long time ago and only recreationally. There is always a come down after and a feeling of over tiredness like you explained. So glad that this all worked out so well for you and has had a positive impact. I remember having the same idea about the world leaders taking it after I took it! You really are one of the best KZbinrs! No BS just authentically you!

[@LauraTryUK]

You're so kind, thank you

[@Vitros463449]

Amazing , honestly your best video so far . Thank you

[@AnnemarieDoolin]

Laura you are a great documentary producer. You are so vulnerable and can read our minds on questions we have. Really helpful… me and hubby were glued as we`d considered this experience too. You are so absolutely adorable and such a warrior.❤

[@shaktiveda7041]

Thank you, Laura, for sharing such an amazing experience here! Although I never have done Psilocybin in my life, I have to say that in many instances I felt like you were describing bits and pieces of my own ND Experience. This video is very well done, great work! Ty! 🤗💗💯

[@jlvandat69]

Wow.......this was really, really well-done. And I am totally impressed with the results so far. It's quite surprising that some of the social barriers have melted away, allowing you to better enjoy people and form new relationships. The shrinks, I am certain, would say this is exceptionally healthy. Thank you, Laura. I need to think about this!

[@LauraTryUK]

Literally melted away - it's quite bizarre, but also greatly appreciated 😀 Thank you for commenting!

[@jlvandat69]

​@@LauraTryUK Laura, your experience and other studies I have done on the use of psychedelics for "improved cognitive function" really has my attention. I see the possibility of a "short cut" in dealing with persistent psychological/emotional issues....the type that prolonged therapy and medications fail to resolve (huge problem, rarely discussed). As I watched your video, I was thinking about a fascinating series of video made way back in the early '60's (I think) where a group of patients with fairly serious mental disorders, e.g., schizophrenia, severe depression, etc.) entered a very controlled study administered by trained psychiatrists. The patients were counseled before, during and after being given LSD in specified dosages. The therapists wanted to know if these patients could be helped via a combination of counselling and the hallucinogenic. Again, a very controlled process, with the therapist using verbal 'coaching' tailored to the individuals condition. After the LSD experience, the patients received continued counselling and were closely observed for a long time to determine effects over time. Results were miraculous, almost too good to believe. Post-treatment, even the patients who had disabling mental illness prior were able to resume a normal life, usually with healthy relationships and the improvements were sustained. I cannot post links, but a google search of LSD studies in the early 60's, late 50's will get you there. There's many reasons these results did not lead to use of psychedelics in mental health treatment, but the main one was a strong resistance to hallusinegenics by the government and pharmaceutical companies beginning in the early 60's. The mind tries hard to retain "ego barriers" that prevent significant changes in our thought processes.....and as you suggested, the psychedelics might have the unique ability to lower those barriers long enough for the "rewiring" to take place, over a relatively short period of time I'm totally excited about this recent video......and could almost see it spawn a series of similar videos delving into this incredible new possibility, since the potential is so vast for improving lives. Sorry for the book....and thank you again!

[@kevindouglasdunn]

Beautiful! Thank you for sharing. You're such a lovely person. Your theory about the box is right on. My experience has also been that psilocybin opens a box and you don't know what's inside, so don't take psilocybin in a healing context unless you're willing to face everything that's going to come up. The box is most likely the hippocampus, and what comes up are memories we repressed and that have remained hidden in short-term memory. As we face the memories following the psilocybin and process them, they transfer to our cortex where they are generalized in long-term storage. Neuroplasticity at its finest!

[@LauraTryUK]

Crumbs! What a comment!!! Thank you! 🙌

[@goingvenus5603]

Laura, this was absolutely riveting. I'm so grateful that it came up on my video suggestions and that I was able to watch it. You did a brilliant job of providing us with your beautiful story of how you experienced psilocybin and what it did for you. Just outstanding. As a a 65 year old mother, grandmother who has experienced magic mushroom 'travels' five times since November 2022, I can attest to the fact that it really is life-changing. I gained so many new insights which strengthened my relationships with loved ones and helped me to come to terms with the estrangement from my children and granddaughter. I do feel that the effect has faded, however, so I will be setting aside time to do another session again soon (and another...) with the intention to continue expanding my mind and my heart until my life ends. Because that's really what life is about. I wish you well on your travels through life, wherever they may take you. You are a wonderful story-teller and remarkable woman. I am inspired by you. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.

[@theblackestsuun]

Very truly, this is one of the best documented, high-dose psilocybin videos I've been able to find. Throughout the sea of "trip reports" I normally discover on KZbin, your transparency and thoughtfulness before, during and after so wonderfully captures the nuances of the experience. I think your analysis of what happened during the integration period, particularly in the box metaphor you used, is spot on. That aspect of the psilocybin experience is often neglected by others, which doesn't give newcomers a proper sense of what to expect in the aftermath (and what they can really get out of the experience). Thank you so much for putting this together!

[@PeteOnPurpose]

Yes LT been eagerly waiting for this one!

[@EricFoemmel]

I am so intrigued by your journey. It appears you really had a beneficial journey. I have these types of experiences twice a week with strobotropic brain entrainment. Sometimes, I see the universe unfold while I lay still. My mind projects fractals into my mind's eye...or the projector onto my eyelids. Much like your trip. Light can produce this effect. It calms me. Mind you, I work in the downtown bus station in Las Vegas. I see humanity as grity as it can be. These sessions remind me, I am not gritty. I am there to hand someone a clean towel to wipe the grit off their hands. Yet, I don't let them pull me into the muck. This takes balance!

[@user-ev7vh2is6b]

I like your wording, and your understanding is correct. Keep going.

[@JeremyLord]

Fantastic video, Laura. I have watched a lot of your videos and enjoy, but this was fantastic. Your integrity and honesty really comes through, as well as being a really fun and interesting watch.

[@1111om]

Thank you for sharing your after experience. I’ve experienced the exact same low energy, low mood, questioning if it was the right thing to do and then vowing I’m not going to do it again. It’s great you recognized all of that as a part of the integration and releasing of “old stuff”. Once you get through that phase the changes are nothing but for your higher good. They’re gradual and internal changes that ripple external. Like a change in negative thought patterns, ill feelings of jealousy/insecurity/anxiety/dreadfully deep sadness - things that used to make you shrink back will slowly release their grip on you to where you feel ok. You feel like you can handle things easier. There’s new space inside of you and you get to choose how it’s used. Thank you so much for sharing your beautiful experience. 💜✨ I also felt the same - during the ceremony i wanted everyone to try this but then no words can do your experience justice. The experience is so much in feeling and knowing over words. Spirit recognition of what’s true and real. 🤍✨

[@laureeeee]

Haven't watched the video but I already liked it because I know it's going to be a great one. Edit: oh my god Laura, what you express about your depression is the exact same feeling I have felt since I was a child. I'm crying. I understand that feeling and I hope this helped you, 🤗

[@LauraTryUK]

Thank you for 'liking' it. And sharing what you experience 🙏

[@zillamir8624]

Thank you so much for sharing Laura 🙏 I did 2 mushroom sessions 6 months apart last year and am still experiencing the healing and growth 12 months on! I found watching your travels confirmed so many things I experienced too. Especially the knowledge of how beautiful our world is and would be if everyone went on one of these adventures 🦋🧚‍♀️ Lots of love to you LT ❤

[@LauraTryUK]

wow, incredible - 2 sessions within 6 months. Kudos! Do you think you will go again?

[@zillamir8624]

I’m still experiencing benefits, ups and downs on life’s roller coaster 🎢 but just seem to manage things better so I don’t feel the need to do it again now. I would in the future because this is by far the most effective method I have ever had for managing depression etc 🎉 Love your channel and how much you Share ❤

[@JJ_Smilez]

beautiful video laura, I cried when you cried, explaining that unconditional love you felt. I would love to take a trip like this someday. I hope to find one more local to me. I appreciate your openness with your struggles and your whole journey. I love this channel!

[@lesleyd111]

Another amazing video, Laura ♥ I love how you share your experience in it's entirety. Excellent graphics too!! I will watch this again!

[@choiceblade]

“… it almost hurt. It was so nice…“ I have felt that.

[@user-md8wh6sx2l]

Sounds like a pdity experience

[@EmilySeeker]

Yeeeesssss! Finally I've been looking forward to this for months!!!!

[@LauraTryUK]

I hope it is worth the wait 😅

[@EmilySeeker]

It absolutely was Laura! I've been toying with the idea myself, i even grew some mushrooms from a kit I bought online, but haven't had the courage to do the heroic dose yet. I struggle with many of the same issues you speak of but was scared to dive into it. I've been micro dosing and it seems to have had a subtle but positive effect. I have a friend who does cocao ceremonies among other spiritual gatherings who has offered to facilitate. Now seeing your experience has made me less apprehensive about the whole thing. So thank you, i think I'll give it a try sometime this summer. I just want to say you are such an inspiration doing what you do. Xx

[@MicheleMizu]

Want to share with you that today in my meditation my higher self brought up one of the things I heard from your experience and I experienced that as first hand and it just made so much sense. It’s like I could integrate what I heard from you. Thank you. I’m so grateful. It was the vision of the cascades that were dropped in space and disappeared. Life experiences. Just an experience for the expansion of the ONE. Not to be hold onto or attached to it but to experience and let it go. Experience and let go… All of it. All the traumas, all the memories. Just acknowledging it, loving it and returning to zero. So simple and so profound. Thank you

[@phillipjennings963]

Thank so much for sharing Laura. The animation and video effects were an amazing addition to the retelling of your experience. Thanks again.

[@wenwoods]

Great video and explanation! I’ve always felt too afraid to try this for all the reasons you share and mainly the lack of control to get out of the trip if needed. Watching you share your experience has really helped open me to the idea of this kind of experience. Thank-you.

[@shawnfromportland]

the idea that there is a "grip" that "you" need to "get" is an illusion, as she presented. when you do try it, don't attempt to resist anything, like the professionals guided Laura

[@LauraTryUK]

I'm pleased you found it helpful 🙏

[@RoSario-vb8ge]

So true.❤ I am considering this, too.

[@delorisharrison6731]

Thank you for trusting us….❤

[@leslieblue8319]

What an absolutely beautiful video. Laura, your courage in sharing this vulnerable and intimately transformative experience is so inspiring and I think will have a profound ripple effect on untold numbers of people. I felt such empathy for you and joy with you in watching this it brought me to tears. ❤

[@yowie6747]

Thanks so much Laura for sharing this experIence. Once again you’ve done a brilliant job with this video. It’s something I’ve been wanting to try myself for a few years. Awesome work 👏 😊

[@Shannon71172]

I wonder if it’s a little like Ketamine therapy , sounds very similar. A couple of doctors have suggested I try Ketamine for chronic pain as I’m in end stage renal failure and on dialysis…..🙏🏼❤️

[@stephenroldan5107]

Different

[@KayeRobs]

What a wonderful video, completely out of my sphere of current knowledge or usual interest, and yet beautifully compelling. Good for you, Laura!

[@teresamay3063]

I feel so much joy, love, light and gratitude that I accidentally stumbled upon you and your video for the 1st time ever this evening. What a beautiful ray of light that you are @laura💖🌼💖 Your glow is radiant. I'm really looking forward to getting to take a deep dive into more of your content. Thank you for doing what you are doing. Respect, light & love 🙏🌼🙏

[@HeidiGelling]

No words can describe the experience, and no amount of research can give you an idea of what it's truly like. It is not something that can be controlled nor should be, and every time is different. You have to accept and give yourself to the mushrooms in a sense and accept anything and everything that comes your way.

[@vidz953]

So excited to watch this!

[@LauraTryUK]

Watch on your TV if you can. I hope you like it.

[@marklovoy1591]

Wow! Thanks for creating this. This is the best description/explanation that I’ve found!Thank you!

[@rhondasommer1]

You are so brave! And honest. I appreciate you showing the nervousness you had right before taking it. I’d be scared I’d bail bc my nervousness would create a bad trip. I was SO relieved to see you had such a life-altering experience, that keeps on giving. I have almost exactly the same thoughts about myself as you did and it seems inconceivable that I could change as much as you have but will be contemplating this now. Thank you for such a beautiful video. All the best to you…

[@Indoor-Cyling-Revolution]

Been waiting for this one, depression and mental health issues unfortunately have been things I have dealt with along with many people I care for who have dealt with them. It’s something I’ve wanted to do, and I’m glad you made the video because I might just take a trip to that place myself.

[@LauraTryUK]

I hope you like it!

[@Indoor-Cyling-Revolution]

Yeah, I added a little bit since you commented, I really am glad you did this one as I’ve been very curious about it. I take care of my 83-year-old mum and things are often stressful with no meaningful relief. Love her to death, and she’s my mum, but I’ve been curious about exploring new pathways mentally through psychedelics. I love cannabis, mainly cannabis oils, but psilocybin I’ve always been a little afraid of

[@gemcool16]

I feel a sense of sadness and deep anxiety watching this. For some it’s a beautiful experience for me it was different, I wish I could heal myself through psychedelics. I did try and it produced ptsd and panic disorder 15 years later I still have panic disorder. I’m so glad you had this experience but it’s not for everyone I dare say. I think a balanced and careful approach is always needed when considering this journey. Again I’m not trying to say they’re bad at all, but for me it did a lot of damage to my psyche, It can be great for some people and for others not so much. ❤

[@MiddlePath33]

If you don’t mind answering, what was the setting in which you took it? And how much? Where did you get it?

[@NyreeAlana]

I absolutely agree that it's a decision that requires a lot of research and careful consideration, it's a powerful medicine. People respond very differently to different substances, prescription medicines and even food, what is right for one is not necessarily right for another. My own experience was a positive one and probably saved my life. I did a lot of research, found a retreat with a private session (better for me, due to social anxiety) and prepared myself as much as possible. However, I believe that it's potentially safer to start with small doses and lead up to a heroic dose if it feels right for the individual. But the illegality in many countries makes it difficult to do multiple guided sessions over a long period of time. People either do it in secret, without guidance (which has risks) or go straight to a large dose at a retreat. I definitely think that safe use of this medicine requires legalisation.

[@user-ev7vh2is6b]

It is very difficult if not impossible to properly communicate on these comments and much can be misunderstood. With the best intentions and love towards you, your particular experience can be caused by many complex factors, of which psilocybin may be only a small factor. It depends on what exactly you used, how you used it, when you used, etc. I do not understand your intention making a negative comment that does not provide necessary information for anyone considering this type of therapy. Maybe you are being sincere, but please consider others and how your comment can impact others and mislead them. I very much disagree with making such blanket statements without any details, its like a smear on psilocybin (if thats even what you took). Also, if you suffer from these panic disorders, I very very strongly disagree that taking psilocybin gave these to you, this is simply not the case. There are many complex factors in your life which contributed to you suffering from panic disorders. It is simply much more complex than trying to reduce it to and blame a singular compound. Psilocybin helps the body to heal through neurogenesis, it does not cause damage. It is possible you had deep unresolved trauma in your mind and the psilocybin reconnected you to this and that is what causes your negative experiences.

[@hmudesign]

What an excellent video Laura! Super thoughtful and well presented, as always. ❤

[@kevinsupertramp27]

incredibly beautiful "documentary", i went 2 times in tears. I certainly couldn't explain it so nicely so soon after the events, it took me a few years. Here you can see once again how beautifully everything is connected, how important the intangible is to follow your feelings and thoughts about what you receive. it's so important to do what you need to do and say what you need to say (and that goes by the good and the bad). This way you know and see how everything works and you can watch what is happening and enjoy life without blinding yourself. thats the art of living for me. I even enjoy the little insects, my cat and my family. love is the key people, without love we will have no meaning. you'r a wonderfull person laura, you deserve this happiness! 🥰

[@LauraTryUK]

Thank you for your wonderful comment. I can relate to the insects. I have a fascination with the tiny new leaves of trees and plants 🌱 new life, renewing, ever changing…..

[@fifbadaki015]

It's a shame. I have 2 accounts - this one (where I post videos) and my main account (where I just watch). I'm subscribed to Laura on both accounts but I only got the recommendation for this video on this account (where I follow significantly fewer people). Usually Laura's videos are recommended to me on both my channels, so I'm guessing this video was suppressed by KZbin for some reason. And from watching her videos, I know that she put a ridiculous amount of time into shooting, scripting, storyboarding, and editing this (and it shows - her editing is leaps and bounds above where it was even just a few videos ago!). Again, it's a shame, but this really is an incredible video and even though it won't maker her as much money as some of her other "challenge-type" videos, I'm still just grateful that she took the time to edit this. Thanks Laura. Wishing you all the best on your KZbin (and Life) journey!

[@nickjesson]

The part about the socializing because of your old thoughts... That's what I am going through right now. And it's affecting my relationship with my partner negatively. I have such horrible inner beliefs and reactions to reality. But im very ADHD and extremely sensitive to the outside world. I reckon a heros dose might make me one of those stories where I'm changed for good but in not such a good way.

[@xandersmomsamby]

You are by far one of my favorite people to watch. The way you explain and explore just gets to me in a different way. Thank you for sharing this experience with us. It's one I really hope to have myself one day.

[@ATumblelinaTruth7777]

Thank you for sharing your experience with Us Laura🥰🙏♥️ I want to come there so much! Love and Healing on your journey !!

[@dukegust8818]

The great lesson is if you want peace and love cast no ONE out in your mind. You can't invite everyone over for dinner, but you can embrace or accept a love that includes all within yourself Unconscious guilt or the belief that we are separate from our source is the only problem and source of suffering we realy have. So we awaken in a world of illusion that we created as a substitute for what we threw away and like the prodigal son that wandered into a far country where everything rots and dies lost in a maze of sacrifice of pleasure and pain we learn once again that what we see outside is a projection of what we believe inside

[@mrlasttimer]

I found that after a shroom trip you have to put in the work and meditate otherwise you just fall back into bad habits

[@philup6274]

Meth got ahold of you brother?

[@mrlasttimer]

@@philup6274 what's meth

[@leannecampbell1429]

Thanks for taking the time and documenting your journey. This video was extremely well put together and informative!!

[@Frank.Citizen]

Thank you so much Laura for your amazing channel, your honesty, your vulnerability is inspiring. Watching you feels like having a cosmic sister ❤. 😊