Is Your Anger Depression or Anxiety?

[@MedCircle]

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[@RobertGilliamHurwitzNeal]

Thank you Kristi

[@thomasmaxime2340]

It’s so difficult to describe depression to someone who’s never been there because it’s not sadness....

[@jefferyscott8148]

The Trips I've been having have really helped me a lot,I finally feel in control of my emotions and my future and things that used to be mundane to me now seem incredible and full of nuance on top of that I'm way less driven by my ego and I have alot more empathy as well...feel less angry and depressed

[@sherrimandel6983]

This whole thing is pretty new to me, heard that psychedelic do have effects on these issues

[@allybee342]

Psychedelic’s definitely have potential to deal with mental health symptoms like anxiety and depression, I would like to try them again but it’s just so hard to source here

[@hazeemakhan5301]

Came across some comments about myco_louiis..i had to hit him up ...I must recommend he is good at what he does

[@hazeemakhan5301]

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[@everydayfun9531]

I'm stressed not even taking life seriously and trying to get help but when someone shouts at me I just get so angry that I burst with anger screaming.

[@jeanag3279]

I wish I could have listened to the video, but the background noises were extremely distracting.

[@DJ-jc9il]

Read the transcript instead

[@Schiffon]

I found the music very calming

[@Journeyoflove13]

Same. I read the transcript one mute. :)

[@jeanag3279]

@@Schiffon That's good for you.

[@jeanag3279]

@@DJ-jc9il How do I get the transcript?

[@_PL_]

I think there should be a third category: the innate anger-proneness that often comes with being on the autism spectrum, in the context of which one often hears of autistic "meltdowns" in (over-)reaction to frustration. Speaking as a 50-something who was diagnosed with ASD only recently (and who never even considered being autistic until a year and a half ago), I went through most of my life not understanding why, from early childhood onward, I was always so quick to anger despite having a relatively good upbringing and nothing to be particularly angry about. The notion of anger as being _either_ completely healthy and justified (which mine often didn't seem to be) _OR_ a kind of unconscious defense against depression or fear (which mine also didn't seem to be, usually) just never rang true to me. But now I understand that in the context of autism, the root of anger can be neurological rather than exclusively psychological.

[@insertnamehere9309]

As another autistic individual who's managing a meltdown currently, I resonate with this. So much of my anger and depression stems from what I cannot control around me; the things thay actively cause the world to be more difficult for me to navigate but that I've just "struggled through" for so long that I thought everyone felt like that. Guess most people don't have a crying session every two or three months and then go nonverbal for a day and be functionally incapable of doing anything more than eating food and watching television for a day... that's my standard "work and life broke me for a bit and my body reguses to put up with this crap" response, it seems. My depression and anxoety fuel my anger because if I didn't have my anger, I would be running on fumes.

[@artemischo3500]

As another Autistic here also going through managing meltdowns, I solidly agree.

[@rileyhoffman6629]

Interesting, but the elevator music in the background's gotta go. Are you making a commercial? I can't make it through five minutes of listening.

[@antenna8620]

Personally i found it very relaxing, and those 5 mins were a breeze.

[@jeanag3279]

I had the same problem.

[@SophieBird07]

I do find the background sound distracting.

[@annemariehunt6414]

T he eyes an irony with your complaint. Your disproportionate irritation about it is referred to in the piece! Hope you feel better

[@jeanag3279]

I don't understand why the speaker and/or MedCircle didn't realize the background music would be a problem for some people with depression.

[@cellostrings2522]

Background noise interferes with being able to understand you. I’m sure you have good information to share. Too bad I can’t hear you.

[@mirananaim5971]

Very interesting, thank you. I only wish there were no music de fond.

[@tracy3812]

I thought anger was unmet or unrecognized needs. It’s an incredibly exhausting emotion no matter what it is.

[@KaranKumar-mw3wt]

😊 😅😊😮😢

[@cheesecakefan4880]

Im so exhausted from my anger I feel completely drained but out of control too

[@tracy3812]

@@cheesecakefan4880 it causes terrible headaches after, too.

[@kujo62]

So this is why I hate everyone and everything

[@edelweissdebergbaldrian7696]

Could also be that you are overwhelmed with stress. Happens to me, sometimes it's difficult to realize that.

[@mistersc2tt]

I’m unemployed and uneducated with no family and have trouble keep jobs due to depression and anxiety. A perpetual feeling of uselessness and hopelessness haunts me

[@Bomber411]

I really struggled to focus while trying to listen to this. It seems like really important information and I'm finding the background noise to be too big a distraction. It's all I hear as it acts as white noise to her words.

[@SunburntComposer]

Sensory issues? Neurodivergent?

[@user-yf4mc4lp6s]

@@SunburntComposer bgm volume too loud

[@hollowgrand]

Same for me. I think part of it is that the music fills in all the gaps between words and it all runs together.

[@Bomber411]

@@SunburntComposer yes, definitely some sensory issues. Though I think it is a common occurrence as I'm seeing many others here mentioning the same thing, it's a real issue for me. I've never been diagnosed, but feel I'm somewhere on the spectrum of autism to some degree, unless there is something else that carries that same marker. I know nothing, but if there is any kind of white noise, I can't take anything in.

[@shawnaford5540]

I really wish that my depression irritability was asked about and mentioned earlier in my depression treatment. As it was a sign that the antidepressants were not working and I have TRD , so now when I notice irritable behaviour this to manage my depression. Along with sleep etc.

[@Bomber411]

Looks like you missed a word or something, I'm just wondering what you were trying to say that you use to manage the depression, thanks!

[@shawnaford5540]

Lol: antidepressants, in my case were depressants as I was sleeping 15-18 hours a day. Thanks

[@Bomber411]

@@shawnaford5540 sorry, I mean at the end of your original comment it looks like there's a word missing.. you stated, "this to manage my depression. Along with sleep." What do you use along with sleep? Antidepressants don't work for me either.

[@shawnaford5540]

@@Bomber411 my method to manage my depression is tracking; irritability, sleep quality and even emails that are needing attention. I have learned over time that if I notice earlier signs I can take steps to manage my depression. It really is seems that antidepressants do not work for so many. I recently have been prescribed Modafinil and it is the first time since my depression I have had a positive result. I still have fatigue and depression, but once I get up I can do things without running out of energy by noon. Thanks for being persistent I am not the best at writing. I was just so happy to see that my irritable behaviour was not a character flaw but a sign of under treated depression. I really wish that mental health providers used patient reported outcomes to mange depression.

[@Bomber411]

@@shawnaford5540 that's greta that you're taking control of it and seeing results. I'm currently using the sun for pain management and have reset my circadian rhythm using sunlight. Check out Andrew Huberman here on YT. He is a neuroscientist who teaches at Stanton? Medical and believes this information should not be limited to just those who can afford to go to medical school. The information he is sharing has changed my life. Wim Hof (the Ice Man) has also changed my life. I still have dealing with depression and anxiety, but I've taken my power back and refuse to medicate for this. I believe it stems from other health issues I'm dealing with, lack of vitamins and nutrients, as well as unprocessed trauma and issues from childhood. To me, medicating is like sticking a bandaid on a broken leg with the bone sticking out. I need to go through it and not around it to get to the other side of it. I'm very open to what others are using to help them. Thank you for sharing your experience 💜

[@mariettehamel12358]

Interesting... I always thought that my depressions were ACTUALLY repressed "anger"!!!

[@rleclaire87]

Definitely can be.

[@MrDcrules]

Well done Dr. Lamb. I'm very impressed how you shared your own experiences with anger and managing your internal thermostat. this was very helpful. thank you.

[@RobertGilliamHurwitzNeal]

Kristy, when this exhibits in my partner, who often feels and reacts this way, and it’s being directed towards me, what would be the most constructive response? It can be hard to divorce from what feels like an attack and rise above it but with the right language I may be able to create a more helpful space and not feel so guarded and self-protective…just not entirely sure how such a response looks. Thanks for this, btw. I listen to this kind of reel often but there are certain voices and styles that resonate better. This one did that. So, genuinely appreciate the effort it took to share this.

[@mtmg3648]

Very good question. I would like to know as well.

[@suemarivanderwalt3003]

I suffer from anxiety since I was very young...and my depression has become too much...now any loud noise makes me go in spiral of anger and rage and I feel so guilty and alone. I also lost a cat I raised since birth for 17 years.

[@caleuxx9108]

This is all true. BUT, for those of us stuck in very dysfunctional or even toxic relationships (can be family of origin or people whom we met during life), this is NOT enough information. In very dysfunctional relationships, talking is many times not enough, setting a boundry by words does not work - often even back lashes: can lead to ridicule, shaming, even aggressive or passive aggressive behavior from immature people including revenge. Many codependents overfunction in their relationships while the people around them underfunction which causes bitterness and even burnout; these underfunctioners often do not change. So its many times not about setting one boundry, but for many many people it is about setting many boundries and using limits and consequences to enforce the boundries. Enmeshment is often part of the problem (being so intertwined with other peoples lives that their irresponsible behavior and toxic actions can actually damage us, harm us, endanger us eg. financially). Disentangling oneself from enmeshment is a lot of work, a lot of meticulously thought out boundry setting often with geographical boundries necessary - moving away, limiting contact, including digital boundries, getting ones own bank account, or even divorce.

[@wexpmedia5889]

You seem to already have it figured it out?

[@sarahlamb2333]

You have to be free of situation to get better..go no contact

[@datsuntoyy]

What if a person does have depression and is triggered by actual anger stimuli such as chronic pain. Where do you start in the mental aspect then?

[@dk1828]

Background music is too overpowering

[@jeanag3279]

Totally agree.

[@heidiperez1387]

Please get rid of the background music. It was very distracting from your message.

[@Me-zr2xi]

The music is way to loud, and not necessary. As someone with A.D.D. things like that make it to distracting for me to continue watching.

[@sarahlamb2333]

It should lessen when people are out of situation causing it

[@liliana83181]

Thank you this is so hard for me to combat. I lashed at my bf due to a video game and being stuck in the game assimilating it to being stuck in my real life. This is hard to hear but it’s important to figure out how to stop it.

[@georgemusic4all4seasons]

Great info and helpful, thank you

[@MedCircle]

Thanks for supporting mental health education!

[@natzen4322]

We need more psychiatrist that are psychotherapists. Is this common practice? How easy or difficult is it for an MD to add on the psychotherapist track?

[@carmonwallace1715]

The music keeps going? Bummer, it is much of a distraction to me.

[@mariasan847]

I needed this video. So glad I found you thank you so much.

[@scarletme1845]

very, very helpful! Thank you so much!

[@Bookthoughts92]

What to do when gaslighting has happened to me my whole life?

[@vestertrippsoninstagramsel7000]

☝️☝️☝️ hit up my name he got interesting stuffs ...

[@endofdaysnewbeginning]

Yeah not about the shoes but it’s having fam and never seeing them, doctors that don’t help, pain that doesn’t go away and the only person who is most present is a narcissist and I’m the supply. I can’t move no money and I can’t find anyone to help me. So with fear anxiety depression it’s no wonder why I go from crying to anger.

[@nicolewilliams6404]

this was the most helpful video i have watched in a really long time.

[@SusanReeves-ft1sg]

I have a problem with Silence and it is making me angry alot.

[@LexiLex2629]

How exactly do you go about setting boundaries? I've just moved out of state and for the last 4 months I was homeless and living in my car. Now that I have a place to lay my head at night I need some time alone to recharge and to breathe. Ever since I've moved in friends have been calling my phone, texting me, needing something, then they have the nerve to comment on my lack of response by saying "oh so now you're not talking" or they'll just call with no warning which I hate. I've made it painfully clear I have hated talking on the phone my ENTIRE life, it gives me anxiety in a way I can't describe. Also, the more they text me the angrier I get and the more likely I am to continue not picking up or replying and this point it's so bad I'm ready to block them. I feel like I haven't had time to breathe because this process was not easy for me. I find myself feeling super angry because it feels like they feel they deserve my time which they don't. I can't seem to control my anger and in a way it makes me feel even more depressed because I'm sure they hate me now but they don't seem to want to understand how I feel when they text me or call me back to back. My anxiety makes it hard to respond, my depression makes it impossible to want to be bothered, and at the end of the day instead of explaining myself I just go ghost and deal with the aftermath of that....

[@marymaples132]

I listened to this 3 times before I realized the title should be is your anger anxiety and depression. I was getting irritated over a coordinating conjunction.🤦🏻‍♀️ But I also understand I'm in a very distracted state right now.😂. I need to get back to my musical list now🧘‍♀️ & chill.

[@cloudyloudly2404]

My anger has been slowly growing, I don’t know why I’m upset.

[@ians6263]

This video really helped me a lot. Thank you

[@exovit6348]

having bpd is annoying cos i don't get irritable. just rage

[@HananGrow]

Wow, that was insightful Thank you so much.

[@PasqualVossberg]

I know you screen comments - thank you! So this is off topic for this video.. however: Dear Dr. Ramani, I want to identify the levers we have as a society. Please help identify the systemic levers we need to push. How would you recommend changing the system(s) s.t. narcissistic people don't end up at the top? Is there something that we can do to change the systems of leadership/government/democracy for them to get less power? Or will they always adapt/evolve to work the system in their interest? For instance would you say Merkel is a narcissistic person? My goal is to move the system(s) - even if it's only a business at a time - into a direction that does not "prefer the egoistic, empathyless narcissist" above every other good and empathic person. Maybe the levers start in schools? I'd absolutely love to come work for you after I've finished my postdoctoral project. Where could I get in touch in case something of the sort would be something you are per se interested in? Thank you so much for all your efforts!

[@lindaarthur8385]

Me too. Between the background music and the grating voice of the psychologist, I felt I had to tune out.

[@cara0405]

I really like the Dr. Kristy segments. I appreciate the way she speaks clearly and undistractingly, within her comprehensive delivery of the messages. They are golden.💎

[@jonanon8193]

Please don't twitch the Zoom on the video. It means I cannot watch the video as it messes with my head, instead I can only listen to the audio.

[@billc3114]

How do you practice medicine and therapy?

[@anagha2084]

I am always anger towards my mom...and i know she is kind and loves me a lottt but i don't know what was happening to me I am feeling low

[@scarletsummer3526]

I like this brother but can you redo it because of the pause and freezing of tech. It makes it hard to understand your message.

[@elainebezak7158]

Hi Dr Lamb. Love watching your videos on med circle. 2 things. . First I like the fact that you’re an MD, a Psychiatrist and a psychologist. You’re exactly the Dr I’m looking for. A Dr that treats the complete person. . Body, mind and emotions. And second, if you’re in constant fight, flight, freeze or fawn ( I am constantly in freeze) is this the same as depression, and would antidepressants help in that situation?? Is there another solution for FFF&F? I would appreciate any thoughts you have on this. Thx! 🌺

[@LadyhawksLairDotCom]

Anti-depressants destroy your health. They're also addictive, but doctors won't tell you that. I wish I'd never taken them.

[@chocolateoverdose]

I liked the video. I agree with the other comments - please consider taking out the music because it's really distracting. I lowered the volume and it helped somewhat.

[@Bookthoughts92]

What do you do when you can’t set a boundary?

[@rod287]

( FACTS OVA FEELINGS) 1. WEN SOMEONE HURTS EU EU BECOMBS ANGRY. ANGER COMBS FROM BEIN HURT. ANY PERSON CAPABLE OF ANGERNING EU BECOMBS UR MASTER. HE/SHE CAN ANGER EU ONLY WEN EU PERMIT URSELF TO BEE DISTURB BY HIM/HER

[@hellohaveaniceday7553]

I got a question about narcissist behavior. can someone with it ever change and both in the marriage happy? I know the narcissist never will be truly happy but can he change

[@claireadcock1111]

It’s so hard to explain depression to my parents bc they just think it’s sadness.

[@appleicloud6877]

this is the way i often feel

[@Amadelynee]

FYI: The video keeps freezing on and off through out the video.

[@theheaterguyryan5052]

Irritable and anger are a major part of depression.

[@Rageowl]

Thank you ❤

[@john92415]

That was helpful.

[@SeasonedCrouton]

I just started feeling irritable and angry trying to watch the video about being irritable and angry (from the b/g music and all the laggy parts)! Yeahhhh, I might have some issues... 🙁🤬🤣

[@Bookthoughts92]

What do I do when I can’t be left alone ever, even while I am alone?

[@cassiestevens8382]

Thanks🕊💗

[@forddriver8827]

Parents relationships and interactions are the reason most kids develop issues.

[@Fl4ngerr]

I know cases of kids who had the best parents possible, still developed issues

[@nenadcubric2663]

Anger is more close to Anxiety then Depression

[@billc3114]

Ruminating over things that happened 20 and 30 years ago and I can't stop worrying about it. Can't hardly walk down the st some times.

[@EveryoneneedsaGary]

still going over misjustices I’ve endured at the hands of family members. If I had the energy to open a conversation Chanel with the responsible members I would, I’ve just had too many negative experiences with them justify the energy I have got, especially when the past experiences have ended with that person gaslighting.

[@tiffytoo]

Please I'm having anxiety anger depression etc the noise makes it literally impossible to listen too. It's over stimulating and making me want to throw up. I know it's me but if most ur viewers are like me it might be something to think about.

[@laurieberry162]

Like duh. My dad used to call me slut and whore. I was shamed from having sex. When I got a possible boyfriend, my mom said that I wasn’t ready for a black boyfriend. My dad talked about touching me. I was from a dysfunctional family. My dad shouted a lot. Sometimes I wonder if I loved him or not. I used to get out knives and said that I will hurt you if you touch me. Put it this way, I didn’t have a healthy family life. And it was good that I was going to do interracial dating. My mom didn’t seem so happy that she is part Native American. She didn’t want me to share it. My dad was white. He was am Ashkenazi Jewish person. Sometimes people don’t look like their ancestors. I used to Tasman well. Now I don’t. I do have an anger problem. It could be borderline personality and I could care less. I just want a proper diagnosis.

[@ericfry6751]

Fix the video static!

[@MsCaterific]

The back ground music is so irritating. Had to stop watching

[@nicholaspitts9561]

I like being angry. Honestly. I'm not being funny or trying to offend anyone. I spend my life trying to be honest. Trying to be safe, trying to make sure others are being observant of their surroundings, especially at work. However, mother fudruckers be acting stupid as hell. Unsafe, and just all around ignorant. I like being alone, and I think being around others upset me because I'm not in control. Boom. I'm a therapist.

[@SeasonedCrouton]

Exactly! Wow... I may have found my Soul Mate! Where have you been all my life? 😂

[@SeasonedCrouton]

I avoid people the majority of the time these days and really value my peaceful bubble of solitude bc, especially as I get older, I have ZERO patience anymore for fake ppl, stupidity, or willful ignorance. I don't and won't dilute myself for others' comfort, and I keep it raw and honest, always. They typically don't like it or think I'm just aggressive. Maybe... but I consider myself assertive and efficient. We're only here a finite period... let's goooo! Lol, road rage too... but that's a whole other convo.

[@georgehaslam6780]

Miss you. Lov e you...

[@iamgoddessoflove]

If you don’t have a healthy relationship with yourself, you won’t have a healthy relationship with others. 💙KZbinr That Helps People Overcome Toxic Relationships

[@cruzredeyes]

I Get more information from the comments

[@rubbertire6608]

I'm more angry now

[@sophiafakevirus-ro8cc]

Horrible background noise made me angry and depressed

[@tenthdimension9836]

The video is glitchy. 👎

[@tvdb6153]

The background "droning music" make this unlistenable.

[@iiiTzBAM]

This music makes me angry 😡

[@catherinelancaster3265]

Difficult to assess the usefulness of the information presented here due to the truly horrible and intrusive loud background music, ( enough to trigger anxiety and irritability!), and the fast and hurried speech patterns of the psychologist. Such a shame and a wasted opportunity 😢

[@velvetindigonight]

Terrible background music cannot stay........

[@songsforsale427]

Can we put the two finger synthesizer nonsense to bed already

[@elzabethmcarthur3154]

Music being played when someone is talking gets me angry. Think of your audience

[@lochan8180]

"And I saw the dead, small and great, standing before God, and books were opened. And another book was opened, which is the Book of Life. And the dead were judged according to their works, by the things which were written in the books. The sea gave up the dead who were in it, and Death and Hades delivered up the dead who were in them. And they were judged, each one according to his works. Then Death and Hades were cast into the lake of fire. This is the second death. And anyone not found written in the Book of Life was cast into the lake of fire." (REVELATION 20:12-15 NKJV) Today, while you are still alive and able, may you repent from your sins, believe in your heart and confess with your mouth that JESUS CHRIST is your Lord and Savior, so that through Him, your name will be written in the Book of Life. "For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life. For God did not send His Son into the world to condemn the world, but that the world through Him might be saved." (JOHN 3:16-17 NKJV) JESUS LOVES YOU. HE DIED FOR YOU. Please don't ever forget that... ✝️

[@rosierose6008]

Nope

[@intelektshualday3496]

@@rosierose6008 haha😂 egzaktly

[@rosierose6008]

@@intelektshualday3496 😂

[@oisnowy5368]

You saying the dead in the seas were not eaten by fishes, sharks and all sorts of other creatures and that they lie full and whole on the seabed? Sure.

[@leschgordon2350]

U lost me after 1 min. Who wants to know this???

[@tamilackey8446]

Your not good at this!

[@walternicolas6927]

Hi Tami how're you doing and your family

[@Kanatshi]

I'm so sorry, but she's a pretty lady but the thumbnail. Makes her look like she should have dental implants on bit she doesn't have it.

[@bdrm2009]

Good job on making someone feel self conscious over something they cannot control.

[@edelweissdebergbaldrian7696]

@Esengo Has anyone ever told you that it's not necessary to say or comment everything you are thinking?! That was a little unkind, you know?

[@deloresa.mcguire3995]

It’s not her looks, but really hearing what she is saying, is what is important!!

[@quillpen815]

She has teeth so why should she get dental implants? What a silly thing to bring up.

[@405OKCShiningOn]

Hi, I like the music. I listen to layered presentations for neuroplasticity. At times I'll play two or three different binurals at a time. Music is a serious addition to my mind and environment, as is art. I'm at Jessica Heslop, vortex success, Micheal Sealy, Jason Stephenson, vortex success, Teal Swan, Ralph Smart, even pragmatic sad guru, Dr Todd Grande, Dr Judy, Dr Sportnelli... Dr Sportnelli talked on how pple are called crazy/ the stigma. it was a uplifting affirmative life changing upload. I felt deep powerlessness or dark sad fogs of depression, moroseness, lessened. Then he covered Geriatric psych care and I thought, after 42 I'm there😂! Uplifting affirmations work. Inner child work. There's Dr Judy, Dr Lamb, Dr Tracy marks, I'm stuck on this idea I need to study A thru Z if I hope to understand life, others & myself. I felt /feel sadness my mom died, dad died alone. I'm afraid of Faith topics. I'm worrying faith is a trauma bonded thinking about very traditional homes. I love pple, so I love their gods, why can't I do that?. I never have normal adult problems it's always mom, dad, survival. Today, goals, charted accomplishments, got down "I'm a failure to thrive. I failed, I spiral", and think, nope, hug thismood, do the opposite of any dsyrelgation, any depressing attitudes...I feel upside from TMJ. If I saw the cat scan it confirms abuse. I can't face pain mgmt. They might shatter my realities. I struggle at dichotomous realities are ok. So I'm sad at momdads suffering. And that chapter is closed. Linda, both are at peace. Place this issue on a leaf set upon the water. Dr Judy meme💛🌏💛🌎💛🌍🥝🥦🍄🥛🍵☕🥡🥠🍉🍅. She does the "do opposite of" coping skill. I am trying to tell myself Linda your best support system is yourself, fortify inner child with nutrition, loving caring healthcare. I was writing "the helping point is if I fail to self care I let my inner child down. My energy is a response to powerlessness. Then I think of my fearfulness of rage, anger. anger is ok I work thru why so it's not a part of my mental space. Teal Swan has a few good uploads. I love her messages of integration, discipline, gratitude, stewardship, Christ consciousness. Is this ok? I do Care about Jesus but a hurt mind sometimes needs STEMS not magical thinking. And of course Faith important, I felt sad dad died alone it doesn't matter what he did. I think I had no chance, lucky to be alive. The mental space returned to me and my astigmatism fixed!! Thank you. Pandemic eye and dental care are tough to book. Eye Lab Store found astigmatism! And not drinking alcohol??!! FREEDOM! JOY! I can do this! In 2015 to 20192020 I didn't see life w I t h o u t booze. A health nut with alcohol that uses moisturizer 😂🍅🍉🥠🥡☕🍵🥛🍄🥦🥝good calories replace uglydrinks. How good it is but I feel minor shame I research shame, read a teal swan article on shame. I deeply believe in trying all methods. I'm unhappy my friend is at conversion therapy. I disagree with those ideas. Then I tell myself Linda those ideas are theirs for their life, work on my own life. I needed to hear I was ok, correct, because I get Faith shamed over gay. I bought a car again after saving then dad died I got three tenant default letters in five months. I had to accept it's my dsyrelgation. Not them. Housing trouble but case mgmt is helping. So I take my hands off the issue. I started calling my overthinking spirals catastrophic thinking N"arcissism ", seeking to further understand. Nope. Simplfying life. Calling alot of my words about words, mania. I get so into words,📚📝✍️🎨🖌️🗃️🧺🧼⛑️ I learned wash my mind with binurals, peaceful music at KZbin. The responses I have are to totally minor things I'm doing. Yes, unequal for the stimuli relation. I'm disappointed to bereft to lost to stuck in calcified pain. I can baby step and uproot calcified thinking. Or can I? Radical acceptance helped💛🌏💛🌎💛🌍📝✍️📚🖌️🎨more art, less words. More joyful art less walls of text, I labeled that ruminating. And every quarter I seem to remove or have less stress from what used to botherme. I felt shame I needed to be here at first drunk, today sober. Environments are everything! Thank you! I'm sorry I drank over family systems.why are family systems so tied to current events? I want better leadership and I believe in Biden. I believe everything IS, has or will recover. Baby steps to undo/rebuild/restart after Covid but wow! Pple pull together and want to be well🍄🥦🥝🍅🍉🥠🥡🍿☕🍵🥛being here at KZbin, medcircle, psych to go, teal swan, Patrick Teehan Anna Runkle school of life!! 🥰😍🤩🤗Alan watts. These teachers made it impossible to stay in dsyrelgation. AGAPELOVE, RESPECT, JOY!! Impossible to drink. I hang out at IG. Everyone at the KZbin circles all share memes, uplift, care about, share links. Supportive, collaboration, everyone is learning together. I'm learning I'm not meant to be at reddit I get upset at 1.6.21. my mind goes from family system to politics like zero to sixty thinking. I call that mood, "slow down" breathe, things are good. Brighten my perspectives by education, art. I'm antsy to face old frens or family with fixed beliefs, Vortex success youtube, corrects limited thinking. It's subliminal reparenting, reprogramming retooling what I can. I do believe in trying therapies. So I raged out my fren over pride month because my old circle the one I was at after mom died. Is now pushing a wrong therapy. I told them all I'm sorry I'm choosing my care plan no more words about current events, more Scribal art. My art returned because of here & KZbin. I'm fighting the anahedonia. It's a beautiful June day, art, walks, pool, education, went back to the library art history. Less tech because I get too far in rabbitholes of thought, more art! That's a huge turnaround. If I went to pain mgmt for trigeminal and maybe vagus nerve trouble. I'm angry at admitting abuse. I'm angry I runimate I get so confused in trauma bonds. There's a time when my caregivers shook me as a infant, neck never the same. At 19 I began massage therapy, other therapies, cold water, sauna, new self care routines. I feel guilty for being much. Dr Ramani got me thru i think, two father's days or the holidays of lack joy. I feel mad at unmet needs I rethink self care. I began adding it's ok to be in lack because I can chart each pieces of lack and my anger then brainstorm how to get Resources. Food banks, kitchens, goodwill. Oh sad. Goodwill is costly I wish I could or I will at some point get a few yellow sundresses. A few nice items to let go of past items. I got stuck on day on keeping stuff. I took a picture of items, posted to IG, let the original go. So much there but thank you Medcircle. Your outreaches are immense. Journal prompts posts!! Thank you! Livestreams! Thank you. I have a medcircle playlist I add too. Archive info, 🎨🖌️📚✍️📝 💛🌍💛🌎💛🌏⛑️💛

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Thank you Dr Ramani getting everyone thru father's day. I feel certain god, my parents don't like me and avoid me. All three are passed on so to speak or god isn't. Can I give my 0-40 faith a break? Gods are often men and they are cold. I'm sorry I feel that way about some, just minor aspects of my limited thinking about masculinity. I love dad. I love father's, moms, all those holidays. But I'm kinda ready to let that go to just enjoy each event. Photograph. Archive, don't forget to live life outside in in my head. What I can I tell myself to let faith go a bit? The laws, codes, controls, why? After 40, I need to prepare for 50. Thank you also for changing my goals. 💛⛑️💛🌏💛🌎💛🌍 Love earth, love healthcare. I told myself do not neglect self care as I say before. I'm also having flashbacks to dad hitting himself begging for death. I saw that for four years. It broke me and I'm here today with a better way to understand why frustration can be managed by hitting his head. I disliked it and had no voice at nursing home. Moms sisters wrecked those relationships. Dad's care went down hill after moms cruel funeral. That's 7, 7 years ago. Dad died 11/11 11/1 tenant default letter, 12/1 tenant default letter, 12/15/21 hospitalized anorexia, depression, acidosis, phosphate potassium magnesium all off. I told myself any drinks are Narcissism because drinks altered cardiac fluids!