Kelli's Before and After Story: How I Lost 40 lbs and Overcame My Eating Disorder

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[@M.Monaé]

Kelli, u have absolutely no idea what you've done by posting this video. I've been subscribed and working out with you guys for years and I always thought you were just born fit and beautiful and probably never had to struggle with your weight or with food. Your story is amazing because so many of us have/is going thru this bad relationship with food, obsession with weight etc. this video is so real and it's going to help way more than 1 person, me included. Kelli you are officially superwoman in my book! Thank you!!!

[@claraadeniyi915]

hh

[@abbybehnke3198]

+Clara Adeniyi I was thinking the same thing and couldn't have said it better myself!

[@moodangkiku]

+meme I was thinking the same thing as you. to Kelli, after watching this video, I love you more. You are so strong and beautiful. thank you for sharing this story with us

[@jankibhatt2799]

Yeah me too.. I felt same like ohh she must be born with perfect body.. Thanks for sharing this

[@fitnessblender]

+meme Thank you for your kind words. Being so visible on KZbin, I have often seen comments like "what does she know about struggling with weight, she's skinny!". It's ironic! But I hope this video stands to show that you can't tell what a person is struggling with from the outside. Thank you for the Superwoman title, I will wear it while I'm doing my HIIT workouts :)

[@fitnessblender]

Hey guys, I just wanted to thank you. For the kind words & the support, and for letting me share my story. I've read all of your comments (literally) and I can't believe how many of you are sharing stories of your own personal struggles. You are all so brave! And you made me feel brave, too. I hope that all 1600 of these comments (and counting) make us all more aware that you never know what another person is going through, and I hope this ends up being a reminder to try and be kinder & more understanding to one another in general. I know it sounds like a "world peace" pageant response but I don't care. Thank you again for lifting me up and for creating a community where people feel comfortable and empowered enough to share such personal experiences with people around the world who are ultimately strangers. This is powerful. Love you guys. xKelli

[@rivky11225]

+FitnessBlender Thank you so much, I now enjoy doing your workouts even more! #inspiration

[@vanessabarbosa3681]

+FitnessBlender Kelli i admire you even more know

[@chrishawkev1809]

Thank you for being candid in addressing this oft-overlooked issue. Your gallantry may have saved some people, particularly young people from hurting themselves in the future. You're a role model, and a beacon of hope, Kelli. :)

[@ariadnasetentaytres2686]

+FitnessBlender I liked this video very much. You said that your story is ugly, and I totally disagree with that statement. Congratulations on being so brave and capable of turning around and overcoming such a tragedy in your life. There is no small or unimportant tragedy; your issues were really important. You couldn't see it at the moment while comparing your problems with the issues of war, world poverty, etc. But think abut this: how many millions of lives have you being able to touch with your workout videos that wouldn't have had the good influence of your example had you succumbed to your auto-destructive cycles? We are talking about millions of people here that would have been denied the opportunity to approach exercise in a friendly, smart and healthy manner. I think that although you did not know it at the moment, those voices that were calling you out of the hole you were in were the voices of all of us, longing for someone who could show a good way of approaching and facing exercise. In my case, I came across your site after performing hundreds of searches, tests and informal researches. It was me, every single day desiring to find someone who would show me a nice, easy, doable and enjoyable way to exercise -my way- ... It was me and it was all the 3+ million people that now follow you, and the many more millions to come who were screaming in your head, in your spirit, so you could turn around and create this amazing site, this great community, marry that wonderful man, get that adorable pet, love that amazing child. Thank you for sharing your awesome and beautiful story. Looking at your body in your videos, I always thought that you were "one of those" fortunate ones that are born with an amazing body and keep it by doing a little exercise here and there. After watching your photos, it is revealed to me that everyone has struggles, even those who look so perfect. Even you! And it gives me hope. Your site helped me to own that feeling of thanking myself for the body I have, no matter how different it looks from photos of supermodels. I love your phrase "it is not how your body looks like, it is what it is capable of doing". I am so proud of my strength, my endurance, my energy level. And I owe each one of those feelings to you and your husband, who make the greatest team ever. Anyway, this message is getting longer than your video, but I just wanted to thank you and let you know that I thought it was a beautiful story. Thank you.

[@Paylala]

+FitnessBlender At the end you said the story is "complicated and ugly". In fact, it's beautiful. It's beautiful that you pulled yourself out of that trench and established new behaviors so effectively and brilliantly that you're now a name in millions of people's lives when others ask them "How do you stay in shape?" or "What do you do to keep healthy?" Even though I do not directly relate to a lifestyle with an eating disorder (and it is a lifestyle), there are definite pathological similarities for alcoholics. I stopped drinking last year when I realized the magnitude of the damage it caused, when I realized that even the "cutting down" I did was not good enough, when I realized that ANY drink I took was doing absolutely, 100%-NOTHING to benefit me in any way... when I realized it is pure poison for the body. "I had already been doing your workouts 4-6 days/week for a few years!" I thought. But it was important to remind myself I had been drinking for a hell of a lot longer than that! Cutting that out of my life is what made the difference. Physically, I had plateaued, not just in the changes I was seeing with my body, but with what I was able to functionally accomplish in the duration of a workout. When I stopped drinking COMPLETELY, my life started. Within a few weeks I looked and felt different, and my diet (already healthy) and exercise frequency hadn't changed! It was simply cutting the alcohol. I think the point I'm trying to parallel here is that both conditions (alcoholism and eating disorders) are cyclic, and they will ruin you at a steady, unrelenting pace for as long as you'll allow it. All of your videos are REAL, but this one in particular sets you and Daniel apart from the rest of the fitness community. That's not to say there aren't other great people out there who have their trainees' best interest in mind, but you two clearly care about the community, you care about truths and myths, you care about your viewers, and you've shown this through years of being consistently honest and open with us. I'm proud to share your names with people I know, because it turns out that most of the people who ask aren't complete strangers - they're people I know and CARE about. I want to extend this to them. And if a total stranger were to ask me what I do for exercise or, "Who do you trust?" "....Kelli and Daniel!" :)

[@tricksie88]

"You can't abuse your body and expect anything good to come out of it" great phrase. Very inspirational - thanks for sharing.

[@sophiebromberger3313]

That was the sentence that got me most as well... truly inspirational

[@ninejot]

So true

[@bojanac7292]

Even though I yell at you sometimes when we're working out in my living room, I still love you Kelly :) Thanks for sharing your story.

[@stardollLoretta]

hahaha same :DD

[@saadnasir2922]

lmao same

[@carmynconnerley11]

Haha same!!

[@pluvial2]

Before this video I saw you as someone whose body was perfect and unattainable. I still think you are absolute beautiful (inside and out) ... but so much more relatable. Incredible story Kelli. Thanks you for having the courage to share it. You are making such a big difference in the lives of so many people. (From a middle-aged transplanted Jamaican working mother-of-two who struggles with her weight)

[@pluvial2]

absolutely*

[@stacehatters]

totally agree. ;)

[@hekatrisplays2046]

I love that they did this. It really informs you that the person behind the screen with the perfect body isn't just some caricature. They have their own story, struggles, fears, anxieties, and thoughts. It makes it so much easier to accept the fact that you're also on your own journey, hopefully towards health and happiness. Thank you for sharing so much. You're amazing. Please keep doing what you're doing.

[@ykphil]

As a guy commenting, I really hope this will not be taken the wrong way. You are a beautiful person, inside and out, and a real inspiration. Thank you!

[@taracarey7976]

YOU KELLI are an AMAZING role model for young girls EVERYWHERE. This video should go VIRAL. May you continue to inspire and encourage people every day. YOU ARE SPECIAL!!!!!

[@hassantarekkamel]

As a person who suffers from Anorexia, you have no idea what this video means to me. To me, my illness was actually arguably worse than many people suffering from anorexia because I actually happen to be a dude. I can't honestly say I was ever FAT per se, but up until the age of 14 I was kind of a chubby kid, right before I turned 15 however that's when I was actually approaching fatness and noticed an increase in what I ate. I quickly stopped what I was doing and decided to lose weight and become skinny as I always wanted to be. However, months upon months of exercise and healthy eating, nothing really seemed to work, in fact, I felt that I might actually be gaining weight if that even makes sense. So I stopped one day and thought to myself: Why do I gain weight? Where does the problem begin so that I can cut it right from the source instead of following useless diets that have no effect on me? That's when I realized that eating food makes me fat regardless of what and how much I eat. So, I took the starvation path. Being a muslim, I took advantage of the month of Ramadan where we fast all day, not eating or drinking anything until sunset. I slept thru the entire day and woke up at sunset to break my fast, not really feeling all that hungry from the sleep, so I ate little and was fine with that. Ramadan passed by quickly and soon enough the minimal food diet I took seemed to follow pretty easy. I started losing weight rapidly and got so many compliments from every one I know. It was the best feeling I ever had, the feeling of recognition and triumph. Fast forward to 2016 (one year ago), I am an underweight, skinny sixteen year old boy who is starting to get too thin. People start to tell me I should stop and eat more, and the more they complain about my excessive weight loss, the more I feel better about myself. I took their criticisms as compliments because I just got so damn used to hearing good things about my weight loss. December of 2016 came and out of nowhere, I gained what seems to be maybe a pound, and immediately, I started to freak out. Many people were aware at that time that I'm anorexic, so if they noticed any weight gain, they were smart enough to say nothing or else it would've backfired and I would have starved myself even more, others, they didn't know I was anorexic, and so they came up to me and told me straight to my face: Hey! I noticed you gained a teeny bit of weight! When I heard that, I freaked out. I went to school with my hoodie on, wrapping my face in the hoodie with a scarf so only my eyes were visible just so I could navigate. I never took off my jacket, and I completely stopped going out with my friends. This got worse and worse, and the more I grew depressed, the more I felt I was gaining weight. Soon enough, leaving the house was a wholly difficult task on its own, and I couldn't bare the thought of someone seeing my face, even though I didn't even gain that much weight now that I look back in retrospect. Starvation grew more, and I started doing really heavy exercises. I ate about 200 calories a day and followed Daniel and Kelli's 1000 calorie HIIT exercises practically seven days a week. I woke up feeling tired every single day. My concentration in school went really low, and so did my grades, and I didn't feel like I was losing any weight. Depression hit, and I realized, being an anorexic male, it was very difficult for me to let out my feelings to someone. To this day, I am still going through this hell of a life, however, after watching this video, Kelli's before and after pictures, her amazing words; I think I have to go easy on myself. I know what I'm doing is wrong, and I need to stop it before I get into some serious physical problems. Kelli, if you're reading this right now, I just wanna say, and I know this may sound kinda stupid, but watching you express your pain of the past was almost just as painful for me to watch because I am going thru it at the moment and I don't know where it will take me. I also wanted to say to you that because of this video, I will definitely consult with a nutritionist as well as a psychiatrist to help me along this painful lifestyle. Thank you so much for making this, I know it was really difficult to express yourself in front of millions of people, and for that I respect you so much :')

[@z.m.4331]

Hassan Kamel Thank you for your comment depicting ED from a male disorder. Really hope you can recover soon!! Wish you the best🐣

[@maryamtorabi5000]

i just wonder.. how you doing right now? :)

[@lovetoplayharp]

I am wondering how you are doing now too, Hassan. I hope you are finding a way to heal and feel more peace.

[@maryamghareeb4862]

Hello Hassan, happy Ramadan. I hope you are doing well

[@kirstenimperial6913]

I know it's already been 3 yrs, but would just like to say thank you for sharing what you went through and I hope you love yourself more now :)

[@melishapeters]

this video is a testament to how we can overcome dark times. I was obese during my high school years and I suffered socially because of it. I attended an all girls high school and primary school. Most of the girls were models and had perfectly sculpted bodies. I was bullied by them because I was the heaviest in my grade. I had no friends and it didn't help that my home life was also shattering. now I am a university student and beginning a new life. I eat right and exercise regularly. I've lost 55kgs in 5 yrs and when i see those girls whom used to torture me I high school I forgive and move on. Most of them have gained weight and have started living destructive lifestyles. Not that I wish that on any of them but I'm proud of the person I've worked to become. the stretch marks I have from being over weight are the scars that remind me of the battles I've fought and are still winning. Thank you kelli for sharing this vid.

[@jky522]

It really bothers me that people disliked this video

[@wormwood6424]

YES!! who the f does that!!??

[@ghufranalbakri7236]

I was just asking myself why would anyone hit dislike???

[@yuleforrest6290]

This video should not have just one dislike.

[@Sathasiless]

ikr, who would dislike it!?!?!!?

[@erin8133]

Same here, just trolls.

[@abbeyy27]

I watched this video when you posted it 4 years ago... When I first watched this video, I was knee-deep in bulimia and working towards loving my body and beating body dysmorphia. I remember feeling connected to you because of your story, ashamed of my habits, but inspired to heal myself. Today, I am in self-isolation and have been doing fitness blender workouts for the past two weeks as our gym is closed... I've been thinking the last time I was consistently doing fitness blender videos, I was in a dark place, but now I'm not. I searched for this video to re-watch and had an epiphany!! FINALLY I am in the stage of healing/healed that you were when you filmed this video. This is a good feeling. Thank you for sharing. I'm 28 years old and I can say I have overcome bulimia.

[@LisaRSetze]

hang in there..you can do it!!

[@messyhead3155]

I applaud you, you did it ♡♡♡

[@rhi2180]

I have a similar story!!! I’m glad I came back to this video today to see how far I’ve come. Best wishes! 💕

[@rahimakarim3593]

Well done! Really proud to hear you’re doing this.

[@maryseo.]

Thanks for your comment and congratulations ! How did you beat bulimia?

[@LazyChristy]

I've never had an eating disorder before, but I've gone through years and years of depression and being at the bottom of the bottom and being my own worst enemy, and I can see it in your eyes that you can relate to it all. You're a beautiful person Kelli, and it was so strong of you for sharing your story. You should be so proud of yourself for being such a fighter in every sense of the word. Thank you so much for sharing. ^_^

[@LifeeWitLisa]

I didn't even finish the video yet because I need to just stop and say THANK YOU for sharing this. I think that society looks at a woman like you, looks at your appearance and what you do here on KZbin and just ASSUMES that you've always been fit. You have a great body and you seem to love what you do as far as exercising and staying in shape, and I think no one would think otherwise. Thank you for showing that eating disorders and distorted body image issues comes in ALL shapes and sizes. So much of this is MENTAL and that's what people don't seem to understand. They think people who are overweight just sit around and eat all day and people who aren't must do the opposite. You sharing your story shows that it doesn't matter what you look like to others, it's what's going on in YOUR own mind that is going to ultimately decide how you treat your body. I know this took a lot for you and I shared in your emotional moments because I, too have a story that was difficult for me to share. But at the same time, it is very liberating and freeing to let it all out. And I can assure you, your story will most likely help MANY people who are struggling with the very same issues. Thanks so much for putting yourself out there!! Love your videos!! xoxo

[@stenodiva777]

I did her butt and thigh video and liked the expression in her eyes and she isn't annoying at all.... so I searched her out on KZbin. And I found this wonderful video! She's one of those people that seems so lovely.....

[@cineplexpass8620]

I'm only here today to thank you. About three years ago, this video was uploaded. I had no idea what to expect from this video, but I was hoping to get ideas on how to lose weight. Instead, I got a wake-up call. Your video was what made me think of what exactly was causing all of my health issues; and in addition to all of your symptoms, I had suffered from a lot of hair loss and no period for a year and a half. I remember crying as I watched this video and realizing that I needed serious help. I visited my family doctor to discuss my symptoms (I guess I needed the confirmation), and before I knew it, I was referred to an eating disorder recovery program in the hospital near me. Here I am now; it's been a year since I've finished from my program, and I just wanted to say; thank you. I wouldn't be here without you!

[@sweetiedahling8137]

I know this was posted a while ago but I just want to say that I’m so proud of you and I hope you’re doing well 🧡

[@cineplexpass8620]

@@sweetiedahling8137 I'm still going strong and healthy! And thank you! I hope you're doing well, too. It's been a tough year, and I hope 2021 treats you well!

[@ariadaintree6884]

I know this video is pretty old at this point, but I just now watched this and I want to express how much it has blown my mind. I also struggle with OCD, i used to be anorexic and over exercised and counted every single calorie I ingested- including mouth wash. Since starting college almost two years ago I’ve been really trying to refrain from counting calories but that’s resulted in binge eating and purging. I truly thought that I was the only one who suffered with issues like this- especially the way OCD comes into play. I still struggle with knowing how many calories are in things and tend to run over the numbers to make sure i had a “good day”. I’ve been trying so hard to get out of this mindset and just try to live in the moment and work out with you guys because I enjoy it but it’s hard not to get right back on that path of self destruction. This video was such a good reminder for me that I need to just focus on loving my body. Thank you for sharing something that was undoubtedly very painful to go over again. It’s so important to know that you’re not the only one dealing with an issue, and it can and will get better.

[@AmyMayHuntCFit]

the first 30 seconds and I was already crying. I had the same issues as you but never found a love of activity. There are no parks where I grew up and we weren't allowed to socialise with the public (long story). So I ended up piling on the weight and hating anyone who was slimmer or emjoyed exercise, jealousy over took me and I was just angry constantly. I eventually got bulimia and had teeth fall out, anemia and was really sick for a long time. I missed my sisters wedding in the sense that I wasn't present, I was in a daze and taking all types of pain medication (my gag relflex was so sensitive I'd throw up when I coughed) as you know.. coughing is a huge part of bulimia as your throat gets red raw. Even now I have moments where I fall into my bulimic purges, Luckily I had a partner who supported me through it and I started documenting it all. I now have a health and fitness site which has helped me for the past five years, I enjoy sharing positive messages and reading others.. with people in similar situations to where I was. - Thanks for sharing kelli, I know how hard it is.

[@AmyMayHuntCFit]

Sorry. That was a lot longer then I thought! :)

[@heloisa688]

I cried while reading your text. A child who suffered from an unhappy childhood till the point of becoming a bulimic teen... I could be, perhaps a grandmother for you, since i'm 70 already. A big hug for you from Brazil..

[@AmyMayHuntCFit]

heloisa688 Thank you, That's so sweet of you to say. It's a tougg world but speaking up means your voice gets heard. *hugs* :)

[@nowhereisfar]

thank you for sharing.. i, well, it just helped. thank you

[@kellybundy6553]

That was beautiful thank you for sharing ❤️❤️

[@maggiemusic777]

Through grade 11 and 12 I ate as little as I could, and when my stomach growled I had a weird sense of pride that I was successfully starving myself. But whenever I gave in and ate something, I would get angry with myself for not being "strong enough" to be anorexic. That is horribly selfish, I know. I had a friend (a very toxic person to my life) who encouraged me to not eat because it was making me slimmer. She was starving herself as well, and it was a horrible situation. It's hard enough when I tell myself that I need to lose weight, but when one of your best friends also encourages unhealthy weight loss it really takes a toll. My marks dropped because I was tired and dizzy all the time, I was weak and unmotivated (even 2 years after returning to my regular diet, I am still affected in this way), and I never actually felt proud of my body even when I lost the weight. I am so ashamed of the mindset I had then, and still have today. I need to get healthy, I need to love myself and my body, and I need to continue to surround myself with positive, compassionate people. Thank you Kelli, for sharing your story, and giving me hope for the future, that I too still have time to become a healthy person

[@merveshine]

You can do it!!

[@ellensvenson]

I recognize that feeling of being proud that i can be "anorexic", and the feeling of "not being a strong enough anorexic" when i press fat and sweets down my throat. I have always had this mindset, "i can start loving my body when this belly fat is gone, and my legs are slimmer", but the ting is, you wont love your body then either! You have to love all those rolls now, and want to change for the sake of your body, not your mind! And hey, You will absolutely do it!!

[@julietamagnetto7357]

I was in the exact same situación(and same age and years) a couple of months ago but I really changed thanks to FB

[@paulmccartneyifheslayed]

i am just starting to recover from a situation with the way i treated my body that is almost exactly like this. i know exactly what you mean when you said that you'd have this weird feeling of pride when your stomach growled. in the time period where i was harming my body by starvation, i would feel the exact same way for all that you said. and i dropped a great deal of weight in a very short amount of time starving myself, but even when i saw the weight i lost it didn't make my life any better than the way i envisioned it. i lost 10 pounds and would continue to set new goal weights for myself even though my body wasn't even unhealthy in the first place to be losing all this weight. i am very fortunate that i discovered the facts and stories of others who experienced the same thing i did to my body when i did, or else my obsession would probably still be going on. i am currently going through a long l, slow process to eat more as the weeks go on, and even though it will be a slow next couple months or more, i am proud of myself for realizing i need this.

[@robinjeffrey1009]

Love you, Kelli! I’m 63 years old and have been doing your workouts for almost a year and I had no idea how you struggled earlier in your life. You are even more of an inspiration for so many women and girls that struggle with the same issues by sharing your story. God bless!

[@LukaHayami]

Seriously, Kelli, thank you so much for sharing this. I'm so glad that I'm a part of this. You are a huge inspiration to us all. You are my hero and you are definitely someone I look up to as an idol. You are strong, nice and honest person who helped tons of people not only physically but mainly mentaly. Before I started FitnessBlender, I was active but I still had some problems and I was always discourage of my appearance which is NOT good in any way. When I found you two, YOU TWO who changed my point of view, who repaired my mindset, who improved my health and made a happier person, I felt like I discovered new me. Now, I love myself.. that ME that hated myself is gone and I already decided not to go back to those times no matter what happens. When someone asks me why I changed so much for better I always say proudly that I found two people who changed everything just by doing what they're doing. Fitness is definitely not only about how muscular one person looks but huge part of it is that right mindset and you two, Kelli and Daniel, changed a lot of people all around the world for better. I don't know how to thank you, seriously, there is no way how possibly I or any ther person in this community could Thank you.

[@Tuber1999]

this video made me cry, i lost many weight by starving lower than 1000cal a day and over exercising then i had health issues, lost half of my hair , yellow skin but im getting better now

[@amyk7375]

same omgg did your hair grow back after you started getting better?

[@Tuber1999]

+amy k yes it is after eating healthy food and green veggies but it still failing lesser than before

[@theladyscuttle]

This video hits SO close to home. I was almost 230 pounds in high school up until my early 20's. I had lost 85 pounds in 4 months by COMPLETELY abusing my body and it's crazy to even think back on it. It was a long, vicious cycle of number obsessions and prodding at what I didn't like in the mirror. I would go through periods of starving, binging, purging, eating diet pills, and over exercising. At 29, I still suffer from some body issues...but I'm the healthiest I've ever been by nourishing my body with clean foods and exercise. I don't count calories anymore, I won't even get on a scale. It's all about loving the skin you're in and taking care of your body from the inside out. Our body is our temple, we might as well worship it!

[@arshiachhabra4650]

Kelli, I have only been watching and doing fitness blender routines for 5 or so weeks because my school closed and we use these for PE and I just saw this. I don't struggle with this kind of thing, but I feel so different. I thought you were this picture perfect fit person that I could never be like, but now I feel so empowered! I know you probably will never see this, but if you're reading this, You are amazing, strong, beautiful, and you help so many people around the world. Thank you, Kelli, for sharing your story

[@biggreenbaby09]

Thank you for having the courage to share your story!

[@abiheathwoodogbomo1600]

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[@GamerGrl90]

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[@1999starface]

about 18 months ago when I was 15 almost 16 I decided to take up exercise and healthy eating with the help of your videos. I lost 56 lbs and went from a UK size 16 to a size 8. You're such an inspiration for so many!

[@diana.forgodsglory9224]

I had no idea Kelly went through so much. She always looks so confident and strong. Like she's me goals lol. Thank you for making this video so much, it really touched me and is helpful to so many people.

[@brianl174]

Of all the unrealistic, unrelatable videos that exist on this platform, this is one of the very few I have seen as unflinchingly real and honest when talking about struggle. You aren't trying to sell or exploit yourself for the sake of profit - that this was a message you wanted to communicate from the bottom of your heart - good for you. Thank you for being so brave to share your story. I too have always struggled with my body image (not to a huge degree but have always been unhappy with aspects of my physique). I started watching your videos on correcting posture, and I've noticed changes already. I only discovered your channel literally weeks ago but I already feel the honesty, compassion, and empathy you exude Kelli, and it is for that I will continue to use your workouts as a model of success. Can't get any more real than this. Thank you.

[@MrsBrit1]

This is why we love you, Kelli! You're awesome and so strong for sharing your story!

[@MrsBrit1]

Btw, you are such a beautiful person. Not just your body and your face....you have REAL beauty by being you! This video really made me tear up. Thanks for finally taking the plunge to share it!

[@gracep3984]

I'm 14 and eating right and working out healthy and I feel so much better now not abusing myself and I haven't seen much change yet but I'm so proud of myself

[@MileyLoverIv19]

This is my favorite video you've ever made. Kelli, you're one of the strongest and most gorgeous women I've ever come across. Thank you so much for posting this real, helpful, uncut video, it takes a lot of courage to post something like this. You two are a gem among the people trying to rip us off with quick fixes.

[@alightinthedarkages9494]

This is a real-life super heroine. The courage it took for her to share this with us. The struggle of overcoming what she did, the strength and determination. Bless you Kelli for sharing this. Like everyone else I always assumed wow, here's this smoking hot fitness woman who has it all together and inspires me during workouts, she's probably always been well-rounded and level-headed beyond most of us. Then you share something very personal and very difficult to even think about again, let alone confess to us. We are so proud of you, we think MORE highly of you by far for sharing this, and you have surely inspired many thousands of women and men to better themselves mentally and physically. I have profound respect for you.

[@elissa1660]

Frank V super heroine?

[@BenCadetThePastafarian]

Wow, kelli even though I'm a guy this video helps me a lot. I myself am a pretty skinny guy and I always felt ugly because I'm not a huge bodybuilder. But this video made feel comfortable with who i am and also at the same time motivated me to do better with myself! Thanks!

[@Aurorika2442]

You're probably not gonna read this, but this video means a lot to me. I also have OCD and I've struggled with several eating disorders over the last four years. I would like to say I'm better now, because I was until a few months ago. But I think like I'm breaking down again and allowing my obssessions to win this battle. That's why I needed to thank you for this video and for giving me the strenght to keep trying.

[@debbiechia]

Aurora Brunet so sorry u r dealing with so much! I hope u feel better soon. kelli found a way to overcome her problems and I hope u do too

[@kellybundy6553]

Just don't give up!! Keep going keep trying and be patient with yourself!!! Healing is a bumpy road and takes time but I believe in you!!

[@ellensvenson]

You will make it!! Its so much worth to keep fighting, but remember, dont blame yourself if you fall, its natural to have bad days and good days, even months, just as she said!!

[@heyitsmyry]

Who the heck disliked this video!? You are so brave.

[@michellehume7718]

I have been working out along side of you two for quite some time now, and am slowly discovering your story as a couple. I appreciate you opening up, and really respect how far you have come. You are a wonderful human! Thank you for being you. You both rock!

[@DianerBananers]

I lost 40 pounds by starving and over exercise. Guess what? Gained it all back. Hearing stories like yours keeps me working towards my goals, but this time, in a healthy way. My body deserves to be treated with love and respect. I deserve to eat good foods and I deserve to feel strong. Thank you for your strength and honesty

[@JessyTreal]

You're real, you're honest, you're so kind, brave and smart, you're beautiful inside and out, thank you for sharing your story, it inspires us all to be the better version of ourself. Keep up the excellent work! You and Daniel have made us all healthier and stronger and so much wiser!

[@Mel1KS]

I normally don't comment on youtube, I just follow or watch whatever I like, including workouts to get inspired. This time I had to say something because I think you did something really important and that matters for many people out there. Often people get too overwhelmed when they see workout videos because the person teaching or training has a great body, we didn't see how the person was before or the story behind it. By sharing your story it really helped to relate better to you, reminding us that you too had your struggles and you were able to overcome them. If that isn't inspiring I don't know what is. Thank you so much.

[@vs3463]

Melissa Almeida Well said!! Thank you Kelli!! 💙

[@DaniGXx]

This hit a lot considering I’ve used your workouts to over exercise before. I’m currently in recovering and you are a huge inspiration for me at this point. Thank you for being able to make this video

[@CkyBby]

Your story is not ugly. It's a metamorphosis, and it's beautiful. Thank you for sharing it. It will help many people.

[@pookieesy]

who would dislike this video, seriously people???

[@Als1822]

jealous losers

[@tinaaeeee]

You are so strong💗 thanks for sharing this story you are beautiful kelly

[@tinaaeeee]

*Kelli

[@jenniferswanson]

Kelli - I'm a big fan of the Fitness Blender programs. Admire your honesty and bravery in sharing your personal struggles in such a public forum in this video. You are a big inspiration for the rest of us and I appreciate your humility and your passion. Rock on, Girl!

[@GwenMotoGirl]

I'm 6 minutes in and had to stop to comment. I have never identified more fully with anyone. You are telling my true story. I'm still struggling after 45 years. Thank you so much for sharing. I've been hopeless about the damage I've done to my body, but I have hope again for the possibility of stopping the tracking, counting, judging, myself, all of it. Thank you thank you.

[@jacksoncarranco7091]

Man like, I was already about to just keep watching your guys' workout videos but now this. Way to go dude. I always felt like you guys put out a healthy, self-love oriented vibe and this is such confirmation. Personal development is where we have to start if we ever hope to create a more loving world, and so often it's the internal work that's hardest. I pray your life is free from further self-torment and hope that the fuel and freedom you found in these comments is never lost when you start to doubt your worth. It's hard out there sometimes, but amazing all the time. Much love, and much appreciation! Jackson

[@sjd2326]

Kelli, you have no idea how much you have encouraged me with this video! I got super emotional because I have been struggling with an eating disorder and OCD for many many years. I never would have guessed you had been going through the same type of thing. Knowing that you have been through it, and made such a success out of yourself gives me so much hope! I'm doing much better than I have ever been, and I credit a lot that to you and Daniel, and the FB workouts. You guys are both beautiful people inside and out. Thank you so much for dedicating your lives to helping others...I am full of gratitude!

[@gatocccatmao3530]

I'm currently recovering from my eating disorder... Sometimes I really want to give up but if I want to improve my health I gotta keep going. Thank u Kelli and Daniel for spreading so much positivity through your channel.

[@xpressionsta]

Kelly, I never knew the girl behind the wonderful and effective exercise routines. You are voicing many many peoples' fears and experiences. OCD. Calorie Counting, scale watching, self-critiquing. All of the above was what I did. Thank you for your inspirational sharing. I can never look at you the same again. Thank you for being my inspiration today, proving that anything is possible if you put your mind to it. meme is right by saying: you have absolutely no idea what you've done by posting this video.

[@jassi5794]

Before I watch this video: I can't even put my admiration and gratitude towards you in words: thank you for being such an inspiration and so brave to share your story with us! Love you!

[@CP-gq5fw]

I hope that your transparency, compassion and honesty would help others come forth with their fears and struggles. Thank you for your courage.

[@mind-wont-ize9702]

I feel happy to be following a channel that cares this deeply about what's really happening inside rather than just body goals. Thank you so much for this.

[@ariannaplacidi1973]

Hy Kelli, i'm Arianna and i'm writing from Rome. I feel you so close. You are an example. So strong and brave. Thank you for sharing your story with us. I love fitness blender it helpes me so much with my health. ❤

[@ariannaplacidi1973]

*helps

[@vetetima1]

ciao arianna! anch'io vivo a roma 😁 e fitness blender ti cambia la vita è vero 😁😁

[@ariannaplacidi1973]

+vetetima1 ciao!!! allora c'è qualche altra Italiana qui!!!

[@MartaSvetlana]

ciao. non sono italiana, ma, va be, parlo italiano xD

[@vetetima1]

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[@laurabonengel2369]

I was just looking for hamstring workouts and ended up on this video and i'm so glad I did! I subscribed because your story is amazing and I really like the workouts I see! Also, I honestly thought you were fresh out of college, you definitely don't look 32!

[@amymac41890]

But 32 isn't even old! It's young!

[@ansherinaDoll]

that what i thought so too, i thought she was only 28-29

[@elleobi]

Ansherina Mercado yeah, cause there's a HUGE difference between 29 and 32 🙄

[@julietabernal5448]

this isn't ugly... it's just your life and your courage, and is beautiful!

[@geraltofrivia287]

Always love it when people overcome their problems. Super proud of you.

[@daancer1997]

It is scary how much this mirrors my own story and mindset, although I am currently still fighting my way out of the violent cycle. I will watch this video over and over until I overcome this battle. Thank you so much Kelli.

[@prernaagarwal5517]

all the best.. u surely can do it 😊

[@FitBodybyJulia]

That took so much courage! Your story is not ugly...it is a real, honest health journey! Thank you for sharing it with us.

[@fairybale4578]

Thank you so much for this Video! I'm hating my body since I'm 15...now I am 26 and so sich of it. A few month ago I started to work out (I'm loving doing your workouts by the way, they are great!) and eat healthy. I'm feeling better right now..but the problem is...I did this before a couple times and usually it lasts only a few month before I go back to old habits. This Video encouraged me to stay strong and not giving up...so you did a really good job! THX! :)

[@esgehtimmerweiter5030]

You are quite lucky.... I usually return to the bad habits in a few days lol

[@ellensvenson]

I really know the struggle!! I usually get healthy for a week or two, and then i loose it. But as she said, you will have bad days, weeks and even months, where you dont feel like it, and its ok to take a break then! Or maybe you have the strength to keep on until next peak of "i want to be fit". The thing is, i feel worthless when im down because "i always try, but always fail", but its better being healthy 2 days than not being, right? So therefore - even if its just a 20 days of the year, its better than nothing!!

[@MathPiHanan]

Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing your story. It’s true that ED make you feel isolated an alone, when it’s actually the disorder is tricking us into believing these disordered thoughts

[@BackyardBliss]

You have no idea how many lives you touched. Thank you for sharing this!

[@BossladyShruti]

such a proud moment for u kelly.... :* me and my friend jut finished a fitness blender workout and were just discussing how fit you are and i bumped into this video.... keep it up and keep inspiring :*

[@arlh2309]

This video brought tears to my eyes, I myself have suffered from an eating disorder for most of my life. thanks for being so brave Kelli 😚😚

[@itwasnevraphase]

I just wanted to comment and let you know that you are still helping people with this video, even three years later. I had been severely restricting my food for the past 2 weeks (this is a disordered eating cycle I go through - binge, gain weight, severely restrict, lose weight.... over and over) and I came across this video after getting back into FitnessBlender workouts. This was exactly what I needed to hear. With the help of my therapist, I hope to get myself under control because what I have been doing for the past 15 years is not the way to live a long healthy life, and is certainly not the way I would want my friends and family to live. That was a vital point that I took from your video. I would not wish this on anyone I love, so why am I doing this to myself? A lot of it has to do with my own self worth, but I've got a good therapist to help with that part of healing. Thank you for sharing your story.

[@pentike5391]

I cried too. I never thought that you've come from this far. I just thought you were a lean body type. It's good that you shared your story, it gives motivation to so many people.

[@marievangelova2793]

Kelli, you cannot believe how much your story coincides with mine. I was struggling with body image issues since the age of 8 maybe 9. I was always doing sports and not eating unhealthy overall, but always feeling ´´fat´´. As teenager I stared dieting and exercising like mad. Then when all the over training was just leading to extreme hunger and binges I quickly developed bulimia. I was struggling with it for more than 5 years. Most of that time I was even gaining weight or at least not loosing any fat. This whole nightmare came to its end once I started loving myself. It sounds really naive this way, but you explained it well enough.

[@swinxfee]

You are so beautiful and inspiring. And I mean it. I'm writing this with tears in my eyes. You are so strong and it made me really believe in myself. If you find yourself asking what you did this for, well you just made a 16 year old insecure girl somewhere far away feel like she can do anything. I want to thank you for that.

[@SuperMelibelly]

I had no idea of this Kelli - really blown away by this amazing transformation! You truly moved me with this story and it further confirms my confidence in you as a trainer. Real, humble, honest, HUMAN. Love you 💓

[@malenadunn3749]

Thank you for being so brave to tell this story. You are right to say that u never know what a person is going through because i would have never guessed in a million years that you have struggled with an eating disorder and wasnt always fit and healthy. Its refreshing to see someone in this industry being open and honest in their trade. I owe the last 3 years of my fitness journey to you guys for constantly putting out information for those of us who just want an honest workout. I struggle all the time with being happy with how i look. I have two kids and my body just isnt going to bounce back how it used to after my second child. I have learned to give up counting calories and macros and just eat food. I still enjoy junk in moderation tho but i do get sick too when i push myself past the limits. Please continue to inspire us with your workouts and good sound eating advice. You guys rock at fitnessblender!!!

[@emilythompson1683]

There's so much misinformation around OCD, and your blog post described it perfectly (at least in my experience): knowing the logical facts, but not being able to believe/act on them; your brain acting like a skipping record; the tendency toward ED as a means to assert control (when really, you're spiraling out of control). I recently found your KZbin channel in an attempt to find better workouts, but I firmly believe that you'd be an asset to the mental health community as well.

[@KikiContrerasNyu]

Thank you for sharing this Kelly ♥ *Behind fitness instructors there are real people with real struggles!* I don't really get why people seem to have this image of fitness bloggers and a perfect life. I'm proud of you, posting this must have been very hard. Stay brave and strong!

[@juliaramos6334]

YOU HAVE NO IDEA how this helps. I chose to look at your workout videos because you look healthy and you give me a model that is much healthier for me to follow than other extremely skinny models. I have an eating disorder and it's hard, during recovery, to find the right balance between too much exercising and the fear of not doing enough and you help really really much with this. You were a good and healthy body model but now you're also a life and fighting model that inspires me hope and tells me I also can recover.

[@DeseoHair]

Kelli, you are brave and you are helping to change many people lives, mine included! You go girl!

[@yellowbmblbee]

People become more beautiful when one learns where they come from and how the colors on their 'life canvas' were painted. We need the browns, greys, and even blacks to bring to the forefront the beautiful reds, oranges and blues of our lives. Your strength in sharing this private part of your life will be passed on to many who need this strength to recognize that they are worth it, and they matter. Best vid yet. It must feel good to have a purpose. Don't label your story as 'ugly'. It's just your story, and the ending looks extremely bright. ~Namaste

[@Jessica-zw9kq]

I AM NOT GOING TO THIS TO MY BODY ANYMORE!!!

[@tanniamontes8424]

Bravo!

[@arshiachhabra4650]

Great!

[@HeloiseHambone]

I just started watching you guys about 3 months ago, and I was just doing the workouts. You and Daniel had such incredible presence and chemistry I said to myself, "Relationship goals!" I am in a 6 month intensive inpatient facility recovering from substance abuse and ptsd. My boyfriend is at another facility in short term treatment. I respect and admire you so much, and I wanted to thank you for your story and for creating Fitness Blender.

[@anthoniam8473]

Oh, Kelli...thank you for this. Just one word can fix it all. Balance. So proud of you !

[@plugged1]

Thanks for being so transparent. I am certain that it will help others.

[@javi.guzzy2390]

Seriously amazing testimony. Every woman here is a true Wonder Woman. Learned it from my beautiful mother. Respect and admire a woman's beauty. Inside and out. Y'all strong woman 👏🏼😄💪🏼🏃🏻‍♀️🏃🏼‍♀️🏃🏽‍♀️🏃🏾‍♀️🏃🏿‍♀️God Bless You All.

[@advlia686]

Javier E. Guzman you made my day..thank you your mother should be proud

[@rubinakochar5343]

You've been raised right

[@emperatrizayala3095]

Wow😉🥰👋🏼👋🏼🤝🤝👍👍👍

[@bethanlewis1876]

Thank you so much Kelli. I have struggled for 6 years, since I was 14. This may be my epiphany moment :) I am so, so grateful for your bravery.

[@janemcdonnell8737]

I saw Kelli's video yesterday and woke up thinking about it. I'm not one to write in comment sections. I usually just read, but Kelli what you said makes me realize a lot about myself and maybe it's time for me to share as well. I'm an older woman-almost twice your age. All my life I've been dissatisfied with my body. I've also struggled with depression. The depression was so much worse when I was young. I've worked on it all my life with the help of many self help books and very good friends and occasionally meds. Now at 62 I'm pretty happy. I still have SAD which I treat with light therapy in the winter but overall I'm pretty good now. But hand in hand with this, I've never been satisfied with my body and even now, I just have to believe my husband who tells me all the time I'm beautiful, but I don't feel that way myself. The sick part about it is when I look back at pictures of myself when I was 19, 22, even 30 I see an obscenely skinny girl and woman, yet I remember thinking, "my legs are too fat, my stomach isn't flat, my arms are flabby." My mind is now infested with ageism. "it's too late for me!" I am exercising, but less now then I ever did. I truly am overweight now according to the BMI charts, but only slightly I admit. I used to focus on weight training but now I'm obsessed with aerobics and calorie counting and loosing weight, which like you said, is not working. Kelli the part that you said about having only one body to take you through life is what really hit home for me. There is so much more I want to accomplish. I need to get over thinking about food and exercise is about how I look and start thinking about how food and exercise is taking care of my body so I can accomplish what I want to accomplish. I want to be healthy and strong. Thank you for all of your range of video's and support. It really is a gift.

[@dianab3005]

You are such an excellent role model Kelli. Thank you for sharing your story

[@amandasadia3521]

KELLY!!!!! omg. I am not one to comment on youtube videos but I feel like I have to tell you.. This video was so inspiring to me. I always thought you were just one of those genetically blessed people that are skinny no matter what and have never had to worry about weight, but I guess not! You're a real person too! I struggle with lack of motivation and hearing your story and how you overcame your distorted image of yourself (same problem here) and started a healthy lifestyle spoke to me!! Just what I needed for some healthy inspiration. You are beautiful. Thank you for sharing!

[@federicaiodice4383]

I know i m here four years later but THANK YOU, this is exactly what I need right now. I've been struggling with ed and dieting for 12 years and now I'm so tired and I want to change, I want to nourish my body and love it, but I needed this because I'm always scared of eating but I'm realising that I NEED to eat to feel better. Thank you xx

[@GG-kp1hb]

where was this video 10 years ago. Damn Kelli, you're really preaching the gospel here. body dysmorphia, eating disorders, OCD, unhealthy relationship with food...warped understanding of physical wellness and beauty, the uphill battle of reconstructing a healthy lifestyle... the miracle of strength training.... oh man... thank you for posting this. its not just your truth. it is THE truth for so many people, myself included.

[@TheDorkKnight727]

Thank you for sharing your story Kelli. I relate so much. I am recovered now too, mostly. When things creep up I do deal with them right away. I know it's been hard for you. I'm so happy for your healthy recovery 😊

[@zoellalover3030]

I teared watching this video cuz ppl I knew went throw the same thing

[@signmehappy5007]

A thousand MILLION thanks and a bucket load of gratitude and high fives to you Kelli for having the courage to tell your story. I am on the journey of recovery from my ED.... and am trying so hard to trust in and listen to my body, rather than to persecute and punish it..... it is a bumpy road.... and hearing from someone who has navigated it too is inspirational and makes it all seem that bit more possible. Thank you - HUGE kudos to you! Gemma :)

[@kazberryable]

Kelly I can watch this over and over again and get emotional with you. Thank you for sharing your experience, vulnerability, your skills, your love. It is complicated, but I love you and Im sure thousands of people appreciate you for this.

[@milyssagossom2996]

Kelli, Thank you so much! I began tearing up right along with you... You are an amazing woman, thank you for sharing your story... I have had the same psychological struggle you have had. When I was 9 i was taken to a nutritionist because i was 'overweight' and when i was 10 i can remember crying from some kind of pain i was feeling in my body and my mother yelling at me telling me the reason why i was feeling that pain was because i was FAT. I have been on every weight loss program, every diet, have seen multiple Nutrition Counselors since 9 years old, and could probably tell you everything you never wanted to know about food lol BUT, I am 36 now, about to be 37, and I am still struggling. At one point even, in my very early 20s, I had lost over 50 pounds! But when I would look in the mirror I would still see the same weight as before... it was the strangest thing, to be 7 sizes smaller and still see that bigger size. I am a mom to a beautiful girl myself now, and I really REALLY want to impart healthy body views and healthy eating into my daughter (shes 8) and my biggest struggle now is time and resources. I work full time and Im a single mom living in the PacNW now (originally from southern California) and i don't have a network of friends or family to really lean on, so finding the time to shop, plan and prepare for healthy whole food meals is really hard. I know it can be done, but finding the will to do it is the real struggle. I would love to know what a typical day of eating looks like for you. what do you eat? how do you prepare it? (My mom never was big on cooking and never taught me how to either.. lol) (oh, and also, I really do love my mom still!) Thank you again

[@xo9462]

Fitness blender has been my go to for workouts for over a yr. you have become my workout buddy. Thank you. I have currently lost around 50 lbs and tons of inches. I owe it to better eating and ur videos. Thank you again.

[@gabriellarodriguez5275]

i suffered from an eating disorder from the time I was 9, always trying to exercise, and eat less, overeating when I was sad. 2 years ago was when I started being anorexic. I was eating below 500-800 calories, I would cry if I went over or in general. I was so depressed and unhappy, especially because I was constantly criticized and verbally hurt by my father. He would constantly berate and belittle me, I remember him saying "Are you sure you want to get that plate?" and me putting the plate back, feeling bad about eating. I would purge too. i can relate to the counting calories over and over, i still do it sometimes... thank you for sharing your story, i still struggle with my body, but much less since i was introduced to you and blogilates. I feel so good knowing i'm not alone. Thank you ❤

[@gabriellarodriguez5275]

also, thanks to your workouts my body is in its best shape ever! I have more muscle than I ever did, and I've lost a lot of fat!

[@jessicafourie7133]

I went through the exact same thing. Kelli was one of the people who helped me get through my transformation. I started working out when I was 18 and I weighed 95 kg today I weigh 74 kg. She has been such an inspiration to me. Thank you so much, Kelli!

[@9enami1]

You know what Kelly? Thank you. I am so proud of you

[@peacevangogh]

I'm just speaking for myself though I am 99% positive I'm not the only one. You two have changed lots of people lives and I thank you for that,. Kelli you are awesome!!

[@sharonwagiella4778]

I know it's been a while since this video was posted, but I just want to say THANK YOU to you Kelli for sharing your story. I'm in a very bad place right now with an eating disorder, and I haven't been able to take in anything that anybody has said to me about the way I abuse my body by over-training and under-eating. Until right now. Until I heard your story. Until I HEARD you. I heard what you said and your words meant something to me, I felt them. Nobody has gotten through to me before, and there you were, telling me that I don't have to live like this. I believe you, I will fight. I will turn down the volume, I will start today! I am so grateful to you, you brave, brave and beautiful person. Again, thank you

[@derekmay9762]

Kelli is awesome. Not only did she overcome this, but shes an awesome coach as well. Also seems like an awesome person. Good for you Kelli!

[@furreekatt]

Kelli, you are such a brave person and I'm so grateful to you for sharing your experience with us. watching your videos and following your advice for the past year and a half has led me to be the healthiest I have ever been, both physically and mentally (in relation to my body). you are one of the realest and most genuine people in the fitness industry. THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING YOU DO. 💖

[@saraalo111]

This is one of the most inspirational and full of knowdlege videos I have ever seen. Thank you.

[@RAP-qb6cy]

Omg Kelly I LOVE you! I've never really commented on the videos before that I had to comment on this one. I have been watching your videos for the last 18 months it is what encouraged me to get my Group Fitness certification at 40 years old. I too have struggled with distorted body image my whole life I come from a long line of obesity so I was always terrified of being fat fear is not a good motivator for being healthy. As you were speaking I felt what I know you feel it is so hard to explain to people these feelings and for all of us their origination can be very different. You guys are my absolute favorite workout channel on KZbin and I wish you all the blessings and love I know many others feel the same!!!

[@Apfelw0rm]

Thank you, so much. I have a very similar story to yours Kelli. Started quite young at the age of 9 and it still is a problem at the age of 25. I cannot imagine life without these negative feelings and actions that I've lived with for most of my life to not be there. I know it will always be a part of me. Everything you said is true. I know it's not making me lose weight. I know it's causing major damage. I do not have the motivation to take the next step right now. Hearing this though, has helped. Thank you. Your story has made me not feel alone