life updates | taking a (temporary) break from Google & my job

[@sarahpan]

thank you everyone for being so patient & kind with me despite not being active on this channel for the last month 🥺 i've been going through all the ups & downs of life & I hope that this video gives me an opportunity to share some of what this last month has been for me ❤ as always, I hope you guys are doing well ~~

[@Lahlasa]

I really emphasize with burnout - I work in healthcare and have been feeling it for so long :( I can't imagine picking up a camera and adding content creation on top of everything else! Personally I want you to be able to take breaks whenever you feel the need, and we will still be here to support you ❤

[@richardottley4611]

Hey Sarah great to see you again, on this channel.. and thanks for sharing the updates 😇

[@nattelluh]

When I finally understood that big corporations, at the end of the day, don’t really care about you as an employee and if push comes to shove they can replace you in a heartbeat, I learned to not care too much about work and to put myself first. Someone can always pick your work up because there’s always going to be work. I used to take my laptop home on weekends and stay more than 8 hours a day, but for what? Being tired at home, not investing in myself, etc, only to repeat the next day and always living for the weekends. Being dedicated to work is great for people whose life is work, but otherwise it’s stress inducing and a constant feeling of not doing enough or being enough. The new mindset took the pressure off.

[@frogiwthoutahat]

on the other hand, being irreplaceable and needed for long hours in a small company can be really stressful too

[@BESTLinYoga]

i just realized this a few months ago and I'm still trying hard to get through this period to shift my mindset. It's really not easy. I still feel under pressure if I fail to reply to work messages promptly. Thanks to your comment that remind me again that I don't need to push myself so hard and I'm not irreplaceble at work. I should spend more time to care about my own life and invest in myself!

[@Tashas_Travels]

Sadly, even small businesses. I am working for a small business, and I'm going through a lot, overworked, underpaid, not appreciated, and I've ended up starting a side hustle that i hope will soon start giving me enough money to support myself without a full time job (i am a nail and lash tech).

[@StaciaBielka]

Yeah, exactly because Google, Meta, Microsoft, etc do not care they offer sabbatical up to a full year as a perk for long-term employees 🙄

[@PurpIeCiCi]

Also a Googler that recently took leave. Was shocked by how busy I felt even without the 8 hours of work during leave. Rooting for you and hope we find our direction :)

[@DBlaze99]

The ONLY lifestyle and career vlog I follow on any platform. Happy to see you’re taking care of yourself, and happy you’re back! 🙏🏾

[@believeume122]

I've gone through this type of burnout too. Take all the time you need. I took 2 weeks and realized that I wasn't better at all, and it was a little bit more serious than I originally thought. I love that you're always so real, and you don't try to come off as being perfect. Hope things get better for you. Maybe you guys should plan a getaway to clear your mind.

[@zhangwenying0927]

Welcome back Sarah! ❤ you are my fav “adulthood comfort” KZbinr because we are in the same age and everything you do I found so relatable and echoing (also repping DMV) - all your podcasts are amazing and definitely so good to hear someone our age to talking about our struggles at 20s . WLB is so hard especially with your extra content creation and everything we are so proud of you❤ make sure you take breaks and do stuff that can help relieve ur work fatigue!! Also get more tattoos (jokingly but seriously)

[@Sakurambo]

Burnout is so difficult. I remember I had to take leave and even after two weeks I felt horrible - it was really at the 1 month mark I started to be able to relax a little and detach from work. The anxiety coming back was hard too. I hope you continue to take care of yourself 💛 sending you love

[@WesleyAnna]

You're doing SO much and you should be proud. Sometimes you have to go slow in order to go fast and that's okay!

[@cerievans1980]

So glad you have taken some time for yourself. IVF can be hard on your body, it is a lot to go through. Physical and mentally. Wishing you the best of luck on your IVF journey. Xx

[@BeBlessed70]

Welcome back! It's so important to take time off and thanks for sharing this with us. Much needed reminder. And good to see time away at the Coney Island beach.

[@celeste-is-building]

You are such a diligent person! I appreciate your videos and authenticity. I pray for all the best for you! Enjoy every moment of your sabbatical!

[@marccolomayt82094]

Welcome back Sarah & love your cozy “taking a break” lifestyle vlog, I’m always here to support you❤

[@hiyotammy]

much respect to you sarah. milestone wise - you're doing fantastic. stay strong

[@subtleamytraits]

I felt the need to say this in case you need a reminder for how amazing you are! you are the most authentic and thoughtful KZbinr I watch, and I love everything you produce - from your podcasts to your vlogs. That being said - please take all the time you need to recuperate :) we will still love you no matter what

[@devonkennedy1386]

Honestly she has a rack

[@devonkennedy1386]

Honestly, she has a RACK

[@hannafromatlanta]

welcome back sarah! happy you got to rest and recharge for a few weeks, sometimes it's hard to put ourselves first in our 20s, but it's super important especially when working a 9-5! Keep being you and take all the time you need to recuperate, u come first - don't forget that 💙

[@rhome8673]

welcome back love!! I was checking your channel yesterday to see if I'd missed any of your uploads and then I realized you haven't posted in a while and got a tad concerned :( but I'm glad you're doing better now! Wishing you all the best and a speedy recovery and may you continue to heal

[@rainerk.8554]

I know that feeling. I need a break too. The last two to three years were so hard for me and my motivation is on a low level.

[@maggiezhuu]

rooting for you! take care of yourself, its easy to relate your self identity to work when we spend so much of our time there and we sometimes measure our self worth by corporate achievements and promotions or recognition in that environment but we are so much more as people than how much shareholder value we increase!

[@tannle]

Sarah, can you do a podcast on co-dependency? i think it’s gonna be a very interesting and relatable topic i’ve always grappled with and tried to not let spiral into a mess in my life later on. wanna here it from both James’ and your perspective.

[@KeianaByfield]

Happy you took the time to rest!! Hope you’re feeling better 🫶🏽

[@alischrot]

LMAO at the Uber driver, James is literally the funniest person alive and both of you are the cutest 🫶

[@jinsu0504]

how lucky is it that an uber driver is with a woman like that.. she has the heart of gold..where she is able to look beyond whats on the outside..i feel once you find a woman at a young age and build attachment with them, they will stick with you...especially when they start becoming less and less fertile.

[@sarahecho]

I'm glad you're taking this time away from corporate life to focus on yourself. Good luck!! 💜

[@dianebaker5243]

Welcome back.take care lovely.👍🥰

[@imaturtle65]

Im not finished yet with the video, but I recommend you taking time to reflect on if you are happy at google and what makes you happy working there. In a prior video you mentioned feeling behind because your friends at other corporations had moved jobs/ventures multiple times meanwhile you remained at google the 5 years. It’s easy to compare ourselves to others and feel societal pressure. But if you’re happy, then don’t question it. Listen to what your body and mind say. Thanks for sharing ❤

[@BigBooUK]

Life is hard and doing what’s right for you can be even harder. Kudos to you, Sarah, for making the right choices. The world will keep on turning while you take a break and we’ll be here to welcome you back ❤️

[@naturallynobay5850]

BRUHHHH 8:11 I had a physical reaction to how big that needle is. Omg 😭😭

[@friabili]

Don’t feel like it’s necessary to do all of the things you do. You need time for your self, just breath and take time. You don’t own anything to anyone but yourself❤

[@jessicazhou6909]

Good for you queen

[@brandonwilcox3307]

I'm a SWE at Google as well and I'm planning on taking a long break after I wrap up my last two major projects of the year. As someon attempting to get their social media off the ground, I understand the burn out.

[@steverhinehart9794]

Glad you're back & take of U. 👍🏾👍🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾

[@melirioscr]

Hi! I want to share with you this: I used to have a chronic back pain for 3years and half and it was until my chronic pain moved to my hip and knee that I decided to do acupuncture. I did it for a year and I noticed the difference so much now. I get pain here and there, but it isn’t chronic any more. I want to share because maybe acupuncture will help you as well. Hope you feel better. And last year I was planning to go to IVF and at the last minute I changed my mind because I know it is a lot for the body and mind so I am glad you took a month break. ❤

[@sunshinemindset8497]

Sending love Sarah xxx so glad you are coming out the other end xxx ❤

[@moonshin3jay]

YAY SHES FINALLY BACK 🎉😊❤

[@akirecat13dreamweaver45]

Love you and James 🤍 best wishes to you both 🤍

[@Random_ZZ]

i am going through something similar and I am really happy that you took the time to care for yourself ♥

[@anlay.8924]

Hi Sarah ! I think it's my fisrt comment on your channel. I just love your content, thanks you for all the work you do on KZbin. Take care of yourself it's the most important thing. I send you Love from France ❤ 🥰

[@Jibril_Abdulkadir]

Welcome back Sarah we all get burnt out in life definitely it’s good to take time away from work and recharge In a sense 💕💕

[@aminibrahim5218]

Best KZbinr ever

[@Lemonade_353]

You are amazing!

[@allesae]

love your energy ❤❤❤❤❤❤

[@sunnysideup33]

Maybe that will help with your back. Sit on a gymnastc ball (needs to be the right one for your hight) on your desk at home or at work. For me, that was a game changer.

[@sunnysideup33]

And ja nobody on his dead bed will say " Wouldn't it be great, when I had more work done in my life!" NOBODY!

[@ankitasuman2978]

i actually cried watching your this video. firstly after knowing IVF session, it got me into thinking how much women have to go through in life. and just after that I received my blood test report today which got me worried. so I started crying. i stay alone and not taking care of myself so I'm getting weak day after day. and my prolactin came high in report to which google said I cant have babies?? idk I need to see a doctor but which doctor(?) and I don't want to go anywhere alone.

[@ankitasuman2978]

anyway tale care of yourself. im burned out too so I was thinking to take leave last week but now I think I will take this week leave and do nothing.

[@NgelChristyy]

I hope you find the space to take care of yourself and know as an internet stranger, I’m rooting for you! Sending you ❤

[@ankitasuman2978]

@@NgelChristyy thats very sweet of you. i wish you all the love ❤

[@amandamorrissey2844]

90's snack = DUNK-A-ROOS!!! :)

[@StaciaBielka]

How long do you have to work for Google to be eligible to claim a sabbatical break?

[@LegendarySkyHero]

Does Google do paid sabbatical leaves?

[@_silentrose]

The way James looked at you when you still had the nerve to ask "How many kids?" DYINGGGG 😂 The whole "uber driver" part was hilarious y'all are too funny 😂😂😂

[@ekkonomicalxd]

Question: do you still get paid on a sabbatical?

[@Videoboy45]

Hey, I work at Google and can answer. It depends-- they don't have real sabbaticals, so your options are to use your vacation time (paid) or unpaid leave time.

[@andile_]

❤

[@jeffreyd23]

Matthew 11:28 “Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavily burdened, and I will give you rest. 🙂

[@YuqingChan]

but you weren't doing any work?

[@Divyv520]

Hey Sarah, really nice video ! I was wondering if I could help you with more Quality Editing in your videos and also make a highly engaging Thumbnail and also help you with the overall youtube strategy and growth ! Pls let me know what do you think ?

[@WatT328]

I think it's important to establish the difference between IVF and Egg Freezing. IVF is literally for those who have struggled to get pregnant and have been diagnosed with infertility and after egg freezing will get the fertilized egg implanted to get pregnant immediately. You are just freezing your eggs which is fine but I feel like you are using the term IVF for sympathy and drama which is sooo wrong on so many levels considering there are so many people who do not want to go through the process but are forced to, to have kids. This is a choice made by you. As someone that is so privileged in life and probably makes multiple six figures at Google, I don't know why you would try to act like you have infertility for views.

[@ashyapeachie]

I wanna start by saying never apologize for taking time for yourself and your health 💕 (this is something I've been learning the hard way as another 20 something dealing with burnouts) I'm happy that you've been getting the rest you deserve and hope starting back work goes really well 🫶

[@LiquidJay]

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