Dean + Castiel | "It's in just being" (+15x18)

"Happiness isn't in the having having. It's in just being. It's in just saying it."
So, almost two years ago, I made Permission To Be Happy to show the theory that Dean would send Cas to the empty, and...here we are. I cannot believe they actually did it. Our boys are CANON! Of course, I had to make a sequel to that video, so here we are. I hope you enjoy, and feel free to come yell your feelings at me on Tumblr!
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[@arrineka]

Idk. People keep saying that Jensen’s acting in this scene is emotionally constipated, but I think it’s fitting. I think just like us, Dean is slowly realizing that Cas is in love with him and you can see it around 1:31 as his eyes start to seriously tear up. This is honestly how I felt watching the episode. The sudden realization that Cas is ACTUALLY saying it. I was in disbelief and shock and so is Dean here. In this exact moment, it would’ve been so out of character for Dean to react in any other way. Though I wish we’d get more of his breakdown next episode (doubtful though), which I think is something we get from Dean a lot and that would reveal his true feelings. It was wonderfully acted on both ends.

[@littlecoconutinc]

100% to all of this. I think the people who made those comments either haven't watched the show before or haven't watched it in years, and don't understand Dean Winchester. Jensen played this EXACTLY how I'd expect Dean to react. The man is so repressed and doesn't know how to process his emotions, and his best friend of over a decade just told him he's about to die but is also in love with him in one breath. He simply cannot process that right now. But all those subtle expressions that you pointed out are so telling. The thing that really caught my attention is the way he gulps after Cas tells him he loves him, and you can tell it hit him hard. Anyway, I think Jensen nailed it, and people should either watch the show or shut up lol.

[@littlecoconutinc]

Also, as you pointed out, I also hope we get a more in depth look at how Dean feels next episode, but given the writers of this one, it probably won't be exactly what we want. Then again, they wrote the "we're real" episode and the episode before the prayer, and those both had great destiel moments, so hopefully they surprise us lol.

[@robertwhyte4979]

My misses mostly said she knew it cas had feelings for Dean she always had a feeling that cas fancy dean

[@robertwhyte4979]

@@littlecoconutinc yes your right it would not be Dean if he reacted differently that's what you would expect Dean reaction to be

[@madilious2213]

I just realized that cass went from emotionless to all emotion. Best character development ever!

[@ruthn01]

Your video is perfect. I cry everytime I see the tears in Cas's eyes when he's saying goodbye. True love.

[@littlecoconutinc]

Thank you! His poor face hurts so much 😭

[@veganandspicy765]

😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

[@kiranfasel8786]

Me too man

[@ElenathTinu]

Am I happy that destiel is canon? Yes. Did we and the ship deserved more? Definitely. But your video is definitely beautiful as always!

[@littlecoconutinc]

Totally get what you mean, but I’m still holding out hope for the finale. I don’t think this was Cas’s end. If I’m wrong, then I’ll be disappointed lol. Thank you!

[@totallynoticarus]

@@littlecoconutinc Oh boy did that comment not age well

[@elenabaek3004]

@@littlecoconutinc well its kinda dissapointing about the last episode,okei cass was saved but i expected dean to say smt about it,that means that they maybe met up in heaven again?

[@littlecoconutinc]

@@elenabaek3004 Yeah, it was confirmed they were in heaven together, but that's just not enough. It was lazy as hell. Also, I LOVE your icon!

[@elenabaek3004]

@@littlecoconutinc but did they really met up again?:( i wanted to know even though offscreen :( You like Baekhyun? :D

[@jcksparrowfan]

"Destiel" is the kind of the slowburn that reflects Ten/Rose.

[@nadezhdagluchshenko8]

The emptiness has taken my soul with Castiel's life...

[@ureignhere]

It truly is just being. I have family members who are gay and yes they're scared to come out, but just being themselves around people that matter and care still, does make them happy. I know this has nothing to do with destiel but I find that it connects a bit. These too are finally canon and if they aren't saving Cas, the tears are gonna come in sobs.

[@littlecoconutinc]

They're definitely connected! Cas's love confession was also him coming out, and by doing that, he was able to just be happy being himself. I have high hopes Cas will be back, but if not, I'll be a wreck lol.

[@littlewolf2703]

When the Empty told Cas that it would come when he had a moment of true happiness, I thought: oh Cas and Dean are gonna be together and it will come for Cas, but this thought was just a little fanfic in my head, I NEVER thought that that's what would ACTUALLY happen!!!! I'm freaking out 🤯 DESTIEL IS CANON finally

[@littlecoconutinc]

Me too! It made the most sense to me plot wise, but I didn't think they'd actually do it! Being right feels so good lol

[@littlewolf2703]

@@littlecoconutinc Ikr, it was the plotline that made sense, but they denied Destiel for so long it seemed impossible!! I'm just SO happy it's canon

[@Todoroki_Touyaa]

I thought Cass would never be happy bc his situations and the empty wouldn't come get him

[@littlewolf2703]

@@Todoroki_Touyaa I tought it was going to be something like Cas saying to Dean they couldn't be together because of the Empty, and they actually could not 😭😭

[@elenabaek3004]

@@littlewolf2703 but guys he died,im not happy for this,but in last episode we know that he was saved,that means that they maybe met up in heaven again?

[@francescabordi5700]

This is so HD I could see myself in Cass tears 🙃

[@littlecoconutinc]

lmao 😂

[@Kboss66]

This is officially the saddest ship I have ever shipped and they just so happen to also be my absolute favorite one. If Cas really is gone I will be completely devastated. It can't end this way after all this time. They both deserve to be happy after everything they've sacrificed. I can't cope. 😭

[@elenabaek3004]

do you believe that they met up in heaven again? :(

[@xIchinii]

in every possible way he dies he will confess his feelings

[@Kboss66]

And was that montage of all the times Cas has died and Dean's been devastated necessary?! 😭😭 My heart.

[@torment6369]

I actually think this is a tragic romantic relationship because it fits Supernatural theme of being sad and dark. Cas loves Dean romantically makes sense but it is one sided as Dean shouldn't. As a brother yes but not as a lover. His love was with Lisa and Ben who I do hope makes an appearance again because if they stick true to Deans character, that's all he ever wanted was a normal family. Love isn't always two sided sadly and this fits the dark theme of this show because as of now most major characters in this show have never not gotten a happy ending.

[@andmin5894]

Lisa e Ben tiveram suas memórias sobre Dean apagadas, isso foi um adeus, eles foram importantes para mostrar a Dean que ele não pode se relacionar com pessoas fora do âmbito sobrenatural. Cass, Sam e Jack são a família dele, a família normal dele.

[@mollykaur3260]

this was everything!! the ending where we saw dean's reaction everytime he lost cas was so powerful!! people think dean doesn't love cas back but thats not true so thank you for highlighting it

[@littlecoconutinc]

Thank you! I'm so glad you caught my intention with that whole sequence. There's been so much debate over whether Dean reciprocates his feelings or not, and I wanted to show that it's not even a question. Have you seen him? Of course he does.

[@mollykaur3260]

@@littlecoconutinc PERIOD!!!!!!

[@pipperrytook2314]

That part tipped me over the edge and I just sobbed...😭😭😭

[@ZxChrono]

There’s no question that Dean loves Castiel. It’s just not the same kind of love Castiel has for Dean. Everytime Dean lost Castiel he reacted just like if it were him losing Sam. Dean loved Cass as a Brother, like true family, the fans just want it so badly to be a romantic love but it’s not. What the actors say to please the fans shippings doesn’t matter. It’s got nothing with being homophobic on why everyone denies Dean being bi, it’s just not what was portrayed in the story. For Cass it’s also different because he is an Angel so he is genderless, also he used to occupy a female vessel as well.

[@nuktedoesarts]

It’s such a beautiful vid... thank you for making this it’s one of my favorite. One thing I always find myself drawn to with these two is how Dean hugs Cas. When everyone is watching he acts like he doesn’t want to, but when it’s just them, it’s him going for the hug. He’s so touch starved and loves Castiels hugs but can’t let people know that... and when they are alone he allows himself to just be real. To be open with Cas and that says something.

[@SimbiAni]

aahh you included the "we're just better together" line ♡ also how much do I love the "we're making it up as we go" one lol it just fits so well with how they've all apparently been "ruining" Chuck's idea of entertainment ie death & betrayal endings ever since our Castiel joined them.. my heart! ♡

[@e.veleal]

I was expecting a video from you! Can't believe they're finally canon! This is perfect!

[@littlecoconutinc]

I still feel like I'm in a dream! I'm so glad you like, it thank you!

[@thatsgaiman]

this is perfect, thank you. this should have more views - the quality, the talent, the pain!!! 💔 i'm so scared of what's going to happen in the next episode tho oof my heart

[@littlecoconutinc]

thank YOU! I'm cautiously optimistic. I feel like all signs point to endgame destiel, given how much they've been building dean's side of this too. at worst, maybe an ambiguous ending, but i have hope!

[@x.multifxinstagram9355]

This is a truly masterpiece

[@mariyam695]

Damn it. It's so heartbreaking and hurts so much that I wanna cry

[@ureignhere]

Ps, I love this, it's so beautifully edited and thank you for sharing 💙💜

[@janeallan838]

Their friendship was so real and cadtiels eyes showed his true feelings towards dean as true friends do castiels eyes show the tears where mine follow as I watch this video love it

[@juliad4]

I need you to know that i have watched every single video like this since That Scene came out and this one is the absolute best so far! It's perfect!! 🥺 Now excuse me while i'll watch it over and over again so i can hurt a little more

[@littlecoconutinc]

ahhhh that’s so sweet, thank you!

[@Chchommi]

Im gonna write a synopsis real quick about a few destiel related issues and topics I’ve seen, so...get ready for a wall of text ig The confession scene I thought was overall accurate on all accounts, I’m not completely sure why everyone sees deans reaction as blank and like he doesn’t care when it’s the opposite? When faced with great amounts of grief and sadness it’s overwhelming and you can’t really process it,. Dean was tearing up that entire scene, his movements showed his disbelief of what was happening, and what he said made sense as well “Why does this sound like a goodbye..?” “Cas...?!” “Don’t do this Cas!” Those all sound like a desperate call for something he knows he can’t stop, you can SEE the desperation on his face and hear it in his voice. His movements were all mirroring it aswell. Deans always been known for not showing emotion, letting it build up, it’s what he does. Deans reaction is confusion, disbelief, sadness and guilt, he’s overwhelmed and he doesn’t comprehend everything yet. Also when Sam calls he throws the phone to the side and starts crying on the floor, how is that in anyway not showing remorse.? Not to mention the next episode he basically surrenders in return for Cas coming back, dean was giving up...dean....the dean who refused to give up even in the darkest moments. It’s been a common theme that he gives up after Cas is gone, like when he met with Billie, in the future when he had to bury Cas after the mark made him go insane, and that moment there. Even back in like season 5, future dean continued fighting with Cas and some others even when Sam was possessed by Lucifer and they’re in the middle of the apocalypse. We’ve seen dean in some of his darkest moments when Cas is dead. People get the idea that Dean would right away mourn like he did when Lucifer killed him in like season 11 or 12, except that was abrupt with no words spoken, dean only had to process that Cas was dead, in the confession scene he not only had to process the fact Cas loved him (where he previously presumed angels couldn’t love like humans), but also his deal with the empty, the fact Literal Death was banging at the door, they’re in the middle of an apocalypse against god and the fact Cas was sacrificing himself to the empty. He didn’t have time to react (and this was confirmed by Jensen aswell.) This reaction was completely in character and made sense in the circumstance. The only part that aches me is his reaction in the next episode but you can also say he was planning on getting Cas back via giving up so he didn’t react that way because he was hoping Cas would return. Overall the scene wAs really well acted on both accounts and I feel kinda bad about all the hate Jensen got for it. Anyways it’s basically been confirmed that it’s reciprocated anyway, (Via Jensen and misha confirming certain things, plus the somewhat open ending) and Jensen himself said that Dean was overwhelmed and that’s why he couldn’t reciprocate it back in time. Overall I do think the ending was supposed to be different but because of COVID and CW and certain producers I think it got changed a significant amount from what was originally planned, though I think a Cas confession was to be included anyway because of The Whole “Cassiel falls in love with the idea of the righteous man.” And Cas is based off Cassiel with dean being the righteous man. The foreshadowing was there since the beginning and I feel like a lot of shady shit was going down behind the scenes, not just for this but for multiple seasons and panels. There’s been evidence and speculation for a while now and it could explain some behavior of the cast which seem out of character. It could also explain why the “I love you.” Scene that was originally scripted for season 8 was scrapped. But that’s that

[@littlecoconutinc]

Wow I LOVED this, and I fully agree with you. I've also seen all the background info and theories swirling on tumblr. First of all, I 100% agree everything you said about how Dean reacted to the confession/how Jensen acted it, and it's all EXACTLY how I think Dean would react to this situation. Also, as Jensen told us, we're actually missing a lot of his reaction, because it was apparently edited out, so we're probably missing some of the more emotional responses he included. Bottom line, based on things Jensen and Misha said, I think it was intended to be reciprocated, but then a lot of bad bullshit happened, and the plan changed sadly.

[@nairylai9304]

OMG..... I Love it!!!

[@Mrs0Purple0Shots]

Brb sobbing for the rest of my life

[@kissmrule]

such a good video it so good

[@littlecoconutinc]

Thank you!!

[@veganandspicy765]

Omg perfect and heartbreaking 😭

[@hzlcats8414]

I can't stop crying and I think I'll never stop crying.

[@drewrucker3221]

This is one of the best videos of supernatural ever I love all your videos they make my day every time I see them even though this amazing shows over I can’t stop watching all of your videos thanks they help me

[@littlecoconutinc]

This is so sweet, thank you so much! I'm so glad my videos were able to help you

[@miabella3916]

Out of all the Cas and Dean videos I've been binge watching since episode 18 came out, this one is the best so far ❤️ great job.

[@littlecoconutinc]

Oh wow thank you so much!

[@fubuki5hiro764]

Not Dean doing everything out of love but think he doesn't deserve it yet Cas loves him for all he is 🥲♥

[@fadiaaliwa1794]

These two taught me what the meaning of love is My heart still broken until this day and I can’t move on ever from this💔

[@charlenerafferty3534]

It's on the dean character TV trope even the guys want him Balthazar said you have me confused with the other angel you know the one who is in love with you it's confirmed castiel admit to have long been in love with dean also states on Cass wiki that castiel had secretly always been in love with dean but believed it to be unrequited therefore never admitted until circumstances force him to speak it out aloud allowing him a moment of true happiness Cass always wanted dean

[@emrys8047]

I love this video, I’ve watched this show for years and it was truly heartwarming to hear Cas tell Dean that he loves him.

[@Martina95ism]

Dean sobbing at the end is my spirit animal ps. this was beautiful !!

[@fluffycucumber5874]

i stopped breathing when i heard the first line i-

[@fictionallove_2416]

Cas's confession scene was so unexpected and heartbreaking.. I sobbed, rolled over my floor, punching the air 😭. They deserved better. CAS DID.

[@littlecoconutinc]

I don't think I'll ever experience such an intense physical/emotional reaction like that ever again. I legit felt like I was going to throw up lmao. I'm still so angry they gave us that scene and then crashed and burned.

[@callmearya]

This is one of the few Destiel videos that really left me breathless, tears are streaming down my face. It's so beautifully and perfectly made... Thank you ❤️

[@littlecoconutinc]

Thank you so much!

[@tsuna1982]

Best video ever. You’re an artist! I love them and I love this video so much 😭❤️

[@littlecoconutinc]

This is such a sweet comment, thank you! I'm so glad you liked it.

[@lollypop2414]

Beautiful! ♥️

[@nialljamesgallagherhoran4270]

Ohh shit. This hurts 💔

[@littlecoconutinc]

Niall is that you?

[@nialljamesgallagherhoran4270]

Yeah. I'm a shipper of destiel 🤣🤣🤣

[@littlecoconutinc]

@@nialljamesgallagherhoran4270 I KNEW IT

[@persephonenovak932]

Watching this after the finale is so fucking bittersweet. Not gonna spoil....but they all deserved better. And I can't forgive that. This show has been ruined for me. This ship, however, will live on.

[@littlecoconutinc]

I’m totally with you. I don’t think I can give up on it completely, because I just love the characters too much, but they really ended a 15 year legacy in the worst way possible.

[@persephonenovak932]

@@littlecoconutinc I keep going back and forth with it. I don't think I'll stop loving the characters, but I know if/when I try watching the show again, I'll just stare at them like "they did you dirty" and then I'll get mad again.

[@littlecoconutinc]

@@persephonenovak932 (SPOILERS DONT READ) Big, big mood. I tried to watch an episode last night to see how I could handle it. It was the high school flashback episode, and all I could do when seeing teenage Dean was think about how he's going to die on a rusty nail...

[@persephonenovak932]

@@littlecoconutinc I know the feeling. And any sort of Destiel episode is gonna make me want to scream and cry (more) bc they did us dirty too.

[@elenabaek3004]

@@persephonenovak932 atleast he was saved in the end..that means that they maybe met up in heaven again?..

[@delfinayjoaquin]

OKAY IM CRYING FUCK THIS IS ART why is their story so tragic and yet heartwarming???? god i love them so much

[@jasminegill26]

Beautiful walk down memory lane

[@nataliemejia515]

They both deserved better :(

[@littlecoconutinc]

they really, really did

[@TvMovieSparks88]

This is beautiful

[@littlecoconutinc]

Thank you!

[@deancashoneypie186]

this is the one that has made me cry the most. it was beautiful

[@danterobbins7774]

You got me over here crying in the club. 😭

[@RachaelTheBlonde]

This is a great video! Although I’m a little confused at all the comments saying destiel is canon. Cas is canonically in love with Dean, but Dean isn’t in love with Cas. He does love him though. But even if the empty didn’t get Cas they would still not be together. That shouldn’t detract from the deep bond they have though.

[@littlecoconutinc]

Thank you, I'm glad you liked it! Regarding Dean's feelings, I'm just going to say we have two more episodes left, and let's just see what happens in those.

[@mariyam695]

Holy crap...Ludovico Einaudi - Nuvole Bianche and Destiel is something wonderful. Thanks, I needed it

[@littlecoconutinc]

I’m so glad you like it, thank you!

[@sarina.m3766]

It's been nearly 4 months that the show has ended and I sobbed with this edit... I sobbed hard. DeanCas love changed me forever.

[@littlecoconutinc]

Time doesn't change how hard that confession hits

[@Dulceaphel]

A+!!!!!! your videos are always on point!

[@emiliesawatzky9739]

Can you please edit some thing where it’s the first time they met and cas says you don’t think you deserve to be saved and then it goes to season 15 episode 18 where he lists off all the reason Dean is good and deserves his sacrifice and then mix other stuff in it that would be so cool

[@littlecoconutinc]

ohhh that is a GREAT idea! thank you! i'll definitely do something with that in the future!

[@whexeverX]

Whoa this is one of the best Destiel videos I've ever seen. I'm left sobbing on the floor just like Dean

[@littlecoconutinc]

Ahhh thank you!

[@PatyTWD]

4:26 I'm crying here ... This moment, this moment right here was when it's the moment Cas realizes that Dean had something more to say and he was probably going to say that he loved him, but he doesn't let it happen because he would die right there if he allow.

[@littlecoconutinc]

Ugh yes I had that same thought!

[@PatyTWD]

@@littlecoconutinc When Dean says "I need to say something" and Cas answers "I heard your prayer". Dean looks at him with the same face he did in the episode 15x18 when Cas is saying he loves him. I'm going crazy, paying attention to every facial expression that Jensen gave me in these two episodes. 😅😅😅😅