Lonely

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[@Ihaveschizophrenia1]

So I made this video a few days ago, debating on whether I should upload this or not. Main reason I didn't really want to upload it is because I don't want people feeling bad for me. I made this youtube channel to be myself, to express myself, and try and help people with mental health issues. If you're in a similar situation, and feel similarly to how I do please remember that you are important, you belong here, you have a purpose, and you are not alone.

[@dave_goldcrest]

I don't know quite how to say this because I don't know you but I feel your pain and I could tell what you were going to say because I feel it too. I'm sorry if this is embarrassing to you but I genuinely love you. Please take care.

[@user-sy3nd8yz9j]

@@dave_goldcrest , well said.

[@ToniCarrington]

So I’m 28 with several MH struggles of my own and all I can tell you is many of us have never met you but want for you to be okay and feel the best you can. Existing in this life sometimes makes no sense. 💙💙💙

[@Eva-ik2ik]

Jacob both the stuff you post and your lovely wise kind gentle personality have meant the world as I have watched you for ten years or more. You have given such wisdom and turned mental health stigma on it's head. What you do and have done is wonderful and a genuine gift to many of us. I think I might be right in saying many of us love you dearly for letting us know you and for that being a support in our own lives in whatever way we meet and deal with mental illness health in ourselves and others including those we love...every single good wish to you. 💜

[@neonphoenixoriginal]

I went to the Navy right after high school, and could imagine id be in the same place as you if I didn’t . My advice is look into something like the Air Force for example, there is also coast guard, reserves, etc. You will travel, meet new people, learn a ton, work with others, while getting paid.

[@Wastedhours96]

You are SO gifted, Jacob. You don’t even realize how beautiful your soul & mind are. Your emotional intelligence is above average and that is precious!!! You are made to connect and resonate with others and you do it effortlessly throughout this channel. I observed how your thoughts instantly became empathic in this video, how you turned your pain outward and comforted us all - how beautifully gifted your sense of empathy is. The world NEEDS people with your intelligence and compassion. You are needed on this earth!!! I’ve followed you since I was 17, and I’m now 27 like you. I just got out of my severe agoraphobic isolation this year after being in it for almost a decade. My shirt is covered in snot lol, because I cried with you. I totally understand that pain and brokenness that comes from being alone like this. I know I’m a stranger to you, but parasocially, I truly see you for the amazing person you are and I love you. I have always loved you. The mind has a vast neuroplasticity and you CAN heal - this is coming from someone who has lived so similarly to you for the same amount of time. I am here for you. I am offering my friendship! ❤ We cry with you, not for you. This is not pity or feeling bad - this is true human compassion! We love you dearly!!

[@Ihaveschizophrenia1]

In the future I will be uploading more positive videos, I don't want to be negative all the time. This just has been bothering me so much for a long time. Life is not easy for anyone, and I want to help as many people as I possibly can.

[@LapisGarter]

It's not negative to express real aspects of life that resonate with a lot of people

[@Ihaveschizophrenia1]

You're right. I just don't want people to pity me or feel bad for me, that's the last thing I want.@@LapisGarter

[@user-ky7rt4hp1h]

Brother you help me all the time I've been watching your videos for a few years now I feel the exact same way with everything you talk about I tried to go hangout with a guy I work with but having schizophrenia I freaked out had to get away from him and his wife go outside and literally cry it's so stupid I have to go to work but everyday just leaving the house is a absolute nightmare and when I get to work I have panic attacks all day I miss work sometimes luckily I work with people who understand and know what I go through.life can be a literal nightmare living with this disease.i think people are always trying to hurt or kill me my latest hallucinations are one is I feel my phone vibrating in my left pocket while I'm watching it on the table which is actually funny to me because all the other hallucinations are terrifying or just annoying as hell sometimes I just want to give up it's just to much.when I say brother I really mean that the old video of you setting on your bed with the head phones I deal with that alot .it comes and goes as you already know .my name is Kane brackett if you want to text or talk hit me up my number is 580 222 5718

[@MrMuzacmat]

Can I just say, I work in a mental health setting in Scotland, I work with acutely unwell individuals and I’ve been subbed a while now and you have been an inspiration to me, you have helped me understand the rollercoaster of emotions you and people like you have to endure, you have taught me empathy, you have taught me to see beyond the illness and I 100% think you have made me better at my job. I know sometimes everything feels hopeless but you are making a difference my friend. And for that I thank you…

[@wendi2819]

Jacob, I've watched you for about 5 years now. I know seeing your raw and honest emotions helped another struggling person feel understood. You're a kind, sensitive young man with alot to offer the world. Everyone has a hard day, week, month, year(s). I wish you the very best.

[@leecorbin1839]

I haven't met you in person, but I'd love to. I lost my forever 20 year old son in 2016 , he lost his battle with depression . I love you as if you were my son.

[@jadarobinson6487]

I know it doesn't help much but I feel the exact way you do.

[@wendi2819]

Many people do. It does help to know we are not alone. I wish you and Jacob the absolute best moving forward!

[@jadarobinson6487]

@@wendi2819 Thank you! Wish you the best too!

[@sophieturner_95]

I'm around about the same age as you (28) and i feel the same way you do. I have really bad social anxiety (to the point of not being able to leave the house alone), depression and possibly autism (i'm waiting on an assessment.) I haven't had friends for about 8 years because i have a habbit of cutting people off because i feel overwhelmed around people and prefer to be alone. I do get lonely though. I've never been in a relationship and i still live at home with my Mam. I feel useless and a burden all the time. I can understand you not wanting people to feel bad for you, i feel the same way about my situation. You are brave for going to that concert on your own and you should be proud of yourself. You are not useless or a burden, you make videos that help thousands of people who feel the same way but are too afraid to talk about it. I appreciate your videos and i hope things get better for you 😊

[@beatemero6718]

Im 36 and also have what we call Social anxiety. I can leave my home but I dont want to anymore, especially After being ostracized and rejected for not taking an experimental injection. I did so well and then "society" denied me going to the gym, to redtsurants, to our Christmas market and so on. Since then, every day feels like a kafkaesque nighmare and most people Feel like robots, who only do what they are told. There is nothing for me out there to enjoy when it comes to the "social" world. I dont care anymore but I still have a few really Good friends and family. God bless you.

[@pythiapoe5639]

Hey man. I've been watching your videos for over a decade, from the very beginning. You saved my life. I was 18 at the time and I was going to commit suicide before I found your channel because I was in an insanely abusive home and couldn't leave. I struggled with panic attacks and nightmares and severe depression and I used to put your videos to calm down. Your old videos where you were singing, I played those when there was screaming in the house and they would help me fall asleep. I relate so much to all the things you say, you have no idea. A few months back I had an episode of severe psychosis for the first time in my life and I almost took my own life. I somehow managed to search your videos when it was happening and realize what it actually is and come out of it. Whenever I want to kill myself, I look up your channel and play one of your videos. I'm early in my recovery and have started helping in the community, giving clothes and food and help to homeless people and sick kids. I would have never done that if I killed myself. Seeing your videos saved my life and it's helping many others as well. I know what it's like to feel useless, you've been incredibly helpful in my life and those of others. Take care man

[@estrate_live3213]

You accomplished something that not many people can do and that is build a community through this channel. I discovered your channel five years ago and I havent watched your videos in a while but this video really made me sad. You re not useless Jacob. The fact that you put yourself out there through these videos is a huge victory in itself. Going to the concert despite facing all these hurdles is also a huge win. Hope you feel better soon.

[@silvermoonuk]

I have bipolar, bpd traits, anxiety, and mild autism. I spend most days alone and housebound. So I understand what it feels like to be lonely and isolated. I'm 40 years old and still single and have no kids or no proper friends. I don't know what the answer is on to overcome these issues. Keep making videos, dude. We all love you. ❤️

[@manonviotte7177]

Sometimes I tell myself I wish I was not born as I can not connect with others and deal with depression. The fight against the dark thoughts is draining and it's easy to want to give up especially when we feel lonely :( I think the world is shaped in such a way nowadays some people can't connect... it's a constant, painful fight. I share your pain, we'll make it someday , it will take time. I celebrate you for getting out of your comfort zone, it's a huge step and things will fall into place if you keep trying. Good luck whoever reads this, I'm with you!

[@smartiex90]

Videos like this are important so thank you for your vulnerability and transparency. I hope you are experiencing better days since this 🙏

[@vampyr_ooo]

You're so pretty

[@johnserra604]

I felt the same way too... it's not a good feeling at all. Embrace the hardship and find a way to live a good life

[@DafneMarchesan]

Almost 26 year old here with chronic depression. There's few things more reassuring than knowing someone else feels what you feel, even if it's negative. It's a connection. It makes one feel less lonely, ironically.

[@Adamisgood24]

I am lonely too. :(

[@elianaspain]

Thank you for posting this. I’m sitting in a hotel in Flagstaff, AZ thousands of miles away from home right now and I feel so alone. I’ve been where you are. Isolated myself for years with an intense fear of leaving the house, actually watched your videos a lot then. People can be stressful and scary. They can be good, too. I’m living a life I always wanted to but never thought I could, traveling and doing everything I dreamt of, and it’s still hard. It’s so wonderful that you went to that concert. A lot of “normal” people wouldn’t even dream of going to an event by themselves. You are brave and worthy. It will get better, and it will get worse, and you will survive. I hope you recognize all the times you’ve pushed yourself, going out, posting this video. You looked fear in the face and said f you! You made a bid for connection. That is worth being proud of yourself. You’ve been through worse and you will get through this with brighter days ahead

[@SpankyJR007]

I was told I was Schizoaffective I after having an episode in January 2022. Now on meds and lost a majority of my friends. It’s tough dude I can’t imagine how you feel but I do feel similar to how you feel sometimes. Good luck man. I enjoy the videos even if it’s a “sad video”

[@food4444lyfe]

Also diagnosed with the same thing as you. Zero friends atm. Sick of surviving….

[@autumnlindseyart]

I wish I could give you a hug right now (or whatever form of affection you're comfortable with.) I've been in the same boat as you for a very long time. I'm diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder (basically schizophrenia + bipolar disorder) so I completely understand how you feel. I've been dealing with full blown agoraphobia and I have those same feelings of loneliness and uselessness. I do have a husband but I've distanced myself so much from him that I still feel completely alone with him here. We're like ghosts just passing each other by. We are working on it in therapy but it makes me feel like such an awful person and awful wife that I am not there more, but I get so scared to get too close due to my disorder. I'm afraid if I let him see too much of it, he will change his mind about me and leave. I don't even spend time with my friends anymore either. Even the thought of being around other people, even though I crave their affection, sends me into a panic. I only leave the house for drs appointments now. I really feel like I don't have friends anymore bc of it. I wish I had someone else in my life who understands what I'm going through bc even with my husband here I just feel so hopeless and alone. He has never experienced paranoia or delusions so he just doesn't understand and it makes me feel "crazy" to try to explain it so I keep to myself instead. Anyway, I just wanted to let you know that I understand and you're not alone. you do have a purpose in life. Your videos help people. They help me. And even if you decide not to make videos anymore, you are just as worthy of a meaningful life away from the camera as you are in front of it. I hope you find some solace soon. ❤

[@riassatkarim586]

Phenomenal articulation of words flowing directly from the innermost sanctum of your soul! Hang on there man! Trust me, the vicissitudes of time shall witness the return of a harvest in your life, the likes of which you have not hitherto experienced!

[@user-jz6to8md3c]

I can relate im 56 im alone 24/7 no family no friends it takes alot of energy to get through a day.

[@liamercado87]

Jacob. I’m so happy you posted video. I love you so much and I can relate to every single thing that you say this illness is no joke and it sucks but we just have to keep on trucking. Please continue to make videos. I listen to you every night before sleep you’re the best.

[@chrissyquartly2893]

We love and care about you!

[@Aster_Risk]

I wanted to hug you so bad while watching this. It broke my heart and made me cry. I have a lot of these same feelings so often. I don't have issues with psychosis or schizophrenia, but I have other mental health issues. I appreciate you uploading this, and I wish I could help because this video helped me. I think you are a very kind, compassionate person and I'm glad you exist. Hopefully posting this was cathartic for you in some way at the very least. Getting things out sometimes takes the power out of it just a bit.

[@titusadeodatus674]

Nice to hear from you again. You are a great guy with your KZbin channel, so don’t give up. I would be, if possible, your friend, if we could meet in real life. Then you would be a little less lonely. Know that my situation is not much better. But I am stoic, so philosophy helps me a lot. (I hope to hear from you again soon. I always appreciate your interventions.) 😉

[@ALLINKNOTS]

I have felt like this for most of my life as well. I have gone out by myself many times and have felt exactly as you describe. However, after eventually getting people to like me enough to invite me out- I feel exactly the same in their company. I feel like I have nothing in common with anyone and all I want to do is go back home.

[@tammymorel1144]

Jacob sweetheart im praying 🙏❤️ for you. I myself suffer from mental ilness and I understand feeling alone. I wish I had a 🪄 magic wand for all of us, I Really Do! Please know you are loved. Ill be watching out for you.

[@sadjadasadi4575]

Loneliness is some kind of a global issue nowadays lots of people are dealing with it. It doesn't mean like going to the parties and bars makes it go away in fact some of them makes people even feel lonelier. There are lots of root causes to this problem including how today's world is basically functioning which is mostly through the internet and social media rather than in person interactions ... Tho regardless to the status there are lots of men and women who feel lonelier by each day. Tho I guess we gotta embrace it at some point ...

[@msaabneh1]

Jacob, I am ten years older than you now. My most precious life lesson I have learned is living on my own terms regardless of what others think of me. I just don't care. I do have friends to hang out with but I enjoy going out alone and even often decline offers to be accompanied. I find hard to understand why people are obsessed with being with somebody else when going somewhere.

[@k.ee.n]

Posting this video is VERY important. It's awful that you've been going through it and feeling like this, but posting this video can show anyone feeling like this that they aren't alone in the world. I see you Jacob ❤️‍🩹

[@Laura_Crawfield_Valo]

I have social anxiety and bpd and the same thing happened to me! I went to a concert by myself to see my favourite band called HIM a few years ago and the anxiety hit me so hard was so difficult to handle it and i have no one to come with me 💔 i feel so alone most of the time but it is also so hard to be around people because of my panick attacks that i rather to isolate myself in my house and i'm 33 years old... if you ever want to talk to someone i'm here for you! ❤

[@Mattmovies]

I have been in a similar position. Maybe not quite as long. You did the hardest thing, stepping past your comfort zone. You were brave enough for this. Now it is time to take another chance to go into the world.

[@Alan_Hero]

Always look forward to an upload from you or snapshots of your day on your socials. You're a great spokesperson for mental health and have helped a lot of people. You wont always feel this way and try to have a merry Christmas

[@user-vf5vt9bg9q]

Hang in there bro. I have schizoaffective and have also had periods of isolation. My Girlfriend pretty much didn't go outside for 10 years before I met her. So she would understand your struggle more than most. I've been following your channel for years and really appreciate your vids. Thanks for what you do Jacob. Your a beautiful soul.

[@honeyspur]

I have thought of making the same video 😞 I was diagnosed with schizophrenia late in life, age 47, and lost many of my friends. And I have felt so isolated for the past ten years. Not having friends for so long makes me feel like an alien.

[@shoconno]

First time I've seen you cry, dude. That's powerful. It shows that you're fed up with the status quo you've been living, and that you understand your true worth, that you have something to give. Keep it up 💪

[@TheMimikh3]

You aren't useless I feel the same way dude like everybody does even when they do things your not alone 😔

[@insomnia3239]

man i havent seen your face in years man glad to see youre still around, used to watch your videos years ago, where you talked about just started watching supernatural ^^ im re watching the walking dead at the moment to keep my mind off the bad man, just try to make some online discord friends man, heck if you want i would be down to just chitchat and play games from time to time if you want :)

[@philipmans9398]

as somebody who also struggle with schizophrenia i so feel this. the mind numbing loneliness and conflict i feel about people, i so want a friend but somehow i always find a way to push everybody away. fun to me feels like such a distant idea i almost don't get it at all. i also feel like i'm a burden. i feel sometimes my life is the most tragic thing ever, a life unlived...i so get everything you feel, is all i can say.

[@IslandGirlTCFamMember]

That was a great first step you took in going to that concert, Jacob. I think you’re a lot stronger than you realize. Keep trying to go out and it’ll eventually get easier. I’m sure you will have friends in your life again. It’ll be okay. You got this. 🙂

[@arjob]

Your videos and honesty in them help people in ways you can't even think. I found your channel may be 6 or 7 years ago. Then I had puberphonia (man with high pitched voice, almost female-like) and it was effecting every aspect of my life. Weirdly I started to mimicking the pitch of your voice. It took me years but now my voice is so much better and no one now addresses me as "madam" on phone. I never thanked you. So thank you very much brother.

[@TeamRocket2012]

I feel the same way too and that feeling became even worse when Covid-19 started and everyone's behavior made my life seem expendable. While it is lonely not to have the same support like everyone else the fact that most people cannot be trusted especially during an ongoing pandemic that they could care less who they spread it to I rather be alone than be around a crowd of fake people who will put you in danger every chance they get. Now I've made my peace I will never be loved by humans but there are many people that love Jacob Tyler such as myself.

[@KristyLynchTidesofsiren]

Maybe something around you is making you feel that way. As soon as you feel as certain way stop and think about what did it. Was it something you saw or heard. Maybe on youtube a video or someone around you. It can sometimes be a diet if you eat lots of sugar caffeine. Go outside somewhere and sit in the sun around trees and watch nature. Start eating lots of veggies and fruits. Stay away from caffeine. Dont watch videos that are dark or shadowy. Start watching videos that make you feel inspired happy. Lots of feelings can come from traumas. Sometimes, you can be tramatized with a certain color or song or even certain words. Then, later on, one of these things will show up, and you'll feel sad or something again. Just pay attention to really close attention to why you feel a certain way. I experienced a lot of trauma as a kid. One time, a certain song came on, and it made me feel the same back then when I went through the trauma. I caught it, and new this was one of the reasons I would feel sad or lonely. Anyhow, im not an expert, but I've had days where i would walk into a store, and a song came on that triggered memories of trauma, and I felt depressed or sad. I just left the store and listened to something I liked, and it helped. There's always a reason why depression sadness has happened. There's lots of things out there that will bring those memories back. You have to move forward and keep going. Find something you're good at, and keep admiring your talent and yourself as a person. Stop feeding yourself negative comments and start paying attention to the great things. Things to be grateful for. Be glad your alive to go outside and enjoy the sun and nature around you. All the little animals and birds things that are alive and well. Lots of people your age feel alone with anxiety. Staying inside only feeds it. I hope the best for you and know that you are young and things are possible in this world. If someone is telling you the opposite, thier lying. Stay away from them. Protect yourself and value yourself. You have to be strong for yourself. Heres an example I was almost kidnapped by a man in kmart in the 70s that had a van. Ever since then I hated kmart. When I walked in that store as i got older, it made me feel the same like that day the man tried to kidnap me. I CAUGHT the trigger of my feelings.So there's an example. Pay attention right then why you felt that way because it could be a memory that happened. Colors words smell songs, etc... all.those things can conjure up feelings from the past. Anyhow, if you can bear to go outside, then open the window and sit in the sun. Plus, I see you might have a pet. He'd probably like the sun to. 😅😄🌞🦎💪🫶

[@simm1992]

I am so happy you managed to get to that concert by yourself, you should be really proud of that. You should also be proud for say these things out loud, that is truly amazing. YOU are loved, YOU are not useless, YOU are here for a reason.

[@anam9751]

You will find a way, you are already helping other people with this channel and everyone has felt like this at some moment in their lives. Keep going. You are loved. You are meaningful.

[@Teachsee]

Hey man, I understand how it feels to be alone. Everyone has struggles in some aspect, so you shouldn't be ashamed of what you go through. You have a community of people who look up to you and root for you. Having online friends can be very different that irl friends, but those friendships are just as important. You've been extremely resilient through the years and I hope you continue to do so. We all appreciate you and want you to be happy. I know you'll find people who understand that your distance isn't meant to be taken as an insult. You got this man, keep going and keep doing these videos.

[@suzannealsop3394]

''It's always darkest before the dawn''. I pray you have a breakthrough. Wishing you love and light 💚

[@markwengert6453]

your the same age as my son, he has what you have, you function better and talk, he doesnt so much, I can relate. Push through the thoughts, your life is better than your thoughts...your family and friends care more than you think and love you. remember, regular guys your age have some of the same problems you have and they cant do what you can. good to see ya!

[@erwinzer0]

Being constantly pulled by the void is so heavy to bear, just so you know your channel helped a lot of people, and we will be a burden to somebody sometimes, we weak social animals that constantly need each other, hope you get well 💙 and your heart found it's comfort

[@lexusboy12]

I’m bipolar type 1 and have lost all my friends. I was even inviting to an old friends wedding, and I thought we were already disconnected. After the invite I started breaking down because I didn’t know what to do, as I haven’t talked to this friend in years. I did not end up going to the wedding and I struggle to even attend family gatherings. Maybe it’s just a part of growing up, or maybe I need a new med. Reddit helps a lot.

[@crystalrose140]

Sending love and compassion. I know im a stranger but I care about you. I struggle everyday too with anxiety, depression and an ed. Hopefully you find peace and meaning. You have a purpose. Even just spreading your message and awareness of schizophrenia is impacting others. You are making a difference in the world. I hope you feel better soon.

[@beautellelicious]

I've been watching you for 10 years, this is the first time I've seen you cry... which made me cry. Your videos have always made me feel less alone and you're most defenitely not a burden, you're worthy of everything. I know how it feels to be alone, I wish I could hang out with you and no not because I feel sorry for you but genuinely because I think you're interesting and a cool guy who has helped me so much with his videos. I wish you nothing but the best

[@serene8331]

our situations are eerily similar, I'm nearly 24 with social anxiety and I spend all my time inside, I understand where you're coming from completely. You are the only person I can relate to fully, and to hear you say that you went to concert on your own is mind blowing to me, that is so beyond anything I'm capable of right now, I know you might not see it as progress, but to me its so inspiring. Hearing those kinds of achievements from you, gives me a lot of hope for myself. Please look back on all your accomplishments big or small and ask your younger self what he would think, this really helps me put things into perspective. Thank you so much for sharing this vulnerable video.

[@pamdewall4588]

I’m mostly and completely alone too. My son just turned 28. He lives in a group home. He’s doing well❤

[@iwant2haveu]

Make whichever videos you want. I def know how you feel not going out and having friends for years.. our minds turn on us so badly. Good luck with everything.

[@mymayapapaya]

I care about you. I wish we could be friends. I have bipolar. I hope you feel better soooon … like tonight.

[@user-qp5ot2wm4u]

Stay strong brother.

[@Ravenwillowwood]

I feel like I know you! Of course I don’t. I would like to though. It bothers me a great deal to see you hurting so much! You don’t realize what a special person you are!It takes a lot of strength to make these videos! You really help other people. Many people admire you and look up to you. I’ve had depression for many years. Yes I’m a lot older then you. It is debilitating! You are not pathetic and useless! You are wrong! Your you tube alone helps so many people! Your ember a lot of people love and care for you! Thank you for being brave enough to make the video! Please continue. I for one look forward to them!

[@Laughing-Carly]

You’re not a burden everyone loves you

[@bjeff7]

Your not a burden to anybody, if lived near you I'd look after you, your ace, I suffer with the same kind of thing and socialising is really difficult, I hear that it's difficult for a lot of people so go easy on your self, pain is not meant for you.

[@jaronbarnes9547]

Thank you . I experience this to.

[@pollyseifikar7751]

You are good enough, and you are doing something great that impacts many people. Sending you love and letting you know that someone who appreciates you is thinking of you, Jacob.

[@NoMoreFunland]

Dude this video struck me hard. You have your set of struggles but are obviously useful given how the people on your channel are responding. I’m gripped by loneliness at the moment too. It’s hard to find a deep way 2 connect in this world right now. Love and strength to you & all here who’re feel’n this. 💪 ❤️‍🔥

[@dave_goldcrest]

I love you Jacob.

[@d0t_DoT_dOT]

Psalm 34:18 The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit. Seek Jesus. He will never leave or forsake you.

[@beatemero6718]

Amen!

[@DeeJaPhil]

Happy Christmas Jacob, stay strong and all the best.

[@Marius-Energie]

Do not let yourself be led by negative thoughts, act in a positive way and keep taking the pills. My father has paranoid schizophrenia and he got to have a family and share happiness. Love you!

[@pamdewall4588]

I know how u feel Jacob. I feel so the same way as you!!!!!

[@Kris98863]

I wish i could meet you and give you a hug i feel you and i hear your pain but u are great to listen to and i appreciate you.i hate going to social settings . Its horrible on your own sonewhere like that id feel awful Thanks for sharing from 33yr old female in NZ with mental health issue's. From NZ

[@Izitdeath]

It is incredibly tough to feel lonely and sad. you're braver than you know for speaking it out. you're not alone. We all carry shadows, even those who seem to have it all together. While I can't fully understand what you're going through, I want you to know that you matter, and you deserve to feel happy. You are not a burden, but a precious light in this world, and brighter days are ahead. Please take care of yourself jacob❤

[@Bilal_ale_]

thank you for the video i really like your content and honesty. it helps me.

[@Adamisgood24]

I don't feel loved, or cared for at all.

[@pamdewall4588]

Hi Jacob I’m happy to see this new video. I’ve loved u for many years. Hope ur getting better in ur old age❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

[@jmenavr]

necesitaba mucho escuchar este mensaje, gracias Jacob 🌻

[@franziskal.5666]

Keep trying your best, that's all you can do! There are new medications out there, dont give up trying to find meds that makes you feel better! All the best 💜

[@crazyeyes666]

them medications are killers man

[@user-cm8yo9th3y]

Brother I have schizophrenia for 15 years I started watching you since you had your Chanel I watched All your video brother what you are feeling now is normal its the illness who does this feeling ( false feeling and false thinking ) its the definition of schizophrenia falls belief and false thinking and paranoia... listen brother you must over come this though this feeling false feeling.... listen you need to be friend with yourself and love yourself you need to bring anything positive to your life you have to do this things alone by yourself...and Fuck people bro....listen you are not alone in this world...there is a lot of schizophrenic people like you and me and him...its a tough world...I Know its hurt.. you need to bring joy to your life you must change your mindset brother...and always know that there is people more sick than we are.... brother you are not alone... Happy new year.... don't over think...and keep doing this video..

[@r4h4al]

Know how you feel. I think it's normal to feel depressed at this time of year. I'll probably watch It's a wonderful life later that's a good way to cheer up. The film puts things into perspective about what it would really have been like if you hadn't been born.

[@francesthepossum1812]

I’m always here for you man. Big hugs (>•~•)>

[@silentsnow8033]

You've always seemed strong to me. You inspired me to create a life for myself in my room that I don't leave much. Like exercise and cleaning routines. Do you still read books? I'd be interested in seeing you do book review videos every now and then. You're not a burdon you are a lovely person.

[@samanthamatus9534]

Man I would like to hangout with you. We could cry together. I've missed you

[@kobyshinobi]

start martial arts training brother. train hard and you will find that love will come into your life. get out all of your pain in the gym, God loves you and you will find a soulmate bro. dont give up, youre still so young. God bless you brother

[@rickynorris1694]

Get out and power walk for about an hour every other day, it will burn off the negativity. It helps with depression too. Things will get better.😊😊

[@rebekahboseman2975]

you are a blessing

[@dave_goldcrest]

Jacob you inspire me so much. Please don't give up. I know what it feels like to be so sad and lonely and empty. If you want to talk to me ever I can give you my contact details privately and I will listen. If not then I wish you well my brother.

[@gilliandorran1298]

Hello, this video took incredible courage to make and shows you are stronger and braver than you think. Please know that every time you take one tiny step forward, like going to the concert - you will feel better, so although it is tortuous, keep trying to do things and get out, even if it's only for a few minutes a day. Chip away at your fears, one fragment at a time. Please don't give up, I know how you feel, I have been there...believe me, recovery is absolutely possible ❤

[@Psychoticsavage]

I wonder if VR headset will help. VR chat is fun. Don’t know if it will help or what it will cause but it helped me talk to people in a virtual world while I was bed ridden and not able to go out much. Hope you feel better dude. ❤

[@mars7639]

Hey Jacob. Thank you for sharing your thoughts, and for your vulnerability and candor, I’m truly sorry that you’re feeling so alone and that you’re hurting so deeply. Your work on these videos over the years has been an incredibly meaningful and humanising resource for many, and I hope that you can appreciate that just by making these videos, in some capacity you’ve helped others to not feel so alone. In turn, I hope that we can offer you help or company in some way if you ever need it. I realize that due to the nature of paranoia and anxiety connecting with others online may be riddled with its own issues for you, but I wonder if you’d ever consider taking up streaming or opening something like a discord community moderated by someone who isn’t you that might allow you to interact with the community you’ve created in real time? If hanging out with people in person isn’t the most feasible, perhaps the internet can offer workarounds for you to be able to have some of those interactions on your own terms and in a way that keeps you feeling st least somewhat safe and secure. This is a potentially odd thing for a stranger to offer, but if you’d ever like to chat or vent over the phone or play games, or even have someone carry a video call of you with them to a park or a museum or something Ironmouse-style, I know I’d be happy to volunteer. I’d even delete your contact info afterwards if it would allow you to rest more easily. I’m sure you have dozens of others here who would offer similar things. No expectations, no judgment, no pity as though you’re a charity case. Just an offer for you to be able to lean on somebody else the way you’ve allowed us all to lean on you for support. You’re a kind, strong, deserving person and I truly wish you all the serenity and fulfilment in the world. We love you, King. 👑

[@jameslee5191]

You're never 'completely alone' because you always have the 'me, myself and I' to keep yourself company..........😁. Cheer up my friend........🤗

[@Laughing-Carly]

Awww Jacob I wish I could give you a hug 😢

[@voiletwhitehorse]

Keep your mind focused on the light angel ,you are not alone ,theres alot of people in the world ,going through what you are going through ,i found healing in the bible ✨️ 🙏 see these panic attacks as breakthroughs, ❤you are the power and the light,you just got to turn it on inside yourself ,never let other people ,decide your moods,sending you love ❤and healing ❤mental health is not easy ,battled myself ,most of my life,keep on going ❤💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖

[@TheFlyingsky]

You're not useless. You're not a burden. You just have your cross to bear, just like everyone else does. Fight your fears - face them. I'm glad you went to that concert. Don't isolate yourself. It's a big step to talk to anybody you see - even in stores - but necessary. Pray to Lord Jesus Christ. He loves all of us, whether we love Him or not. Know that nobody in this world is truly alone. We all need to fight demonic attacks, whether we have a diagnosis or not. Focus on prayer and positive thoughts. This world is a battle. It was never suppose to be easy. Take care of yourself and know that you can deal with this.❤

[@crazyeyes666]

this guy is not afforded the liberty of praying to your god and neither is any schizophrenic, i believe in god and he probably does too, in the comfort of our own home,without prayer.

[@TheFlyingsky]

@@crazyeyes666 why does a prayer bother you so much? God has given him a free will. He can pray if he chooses. You're not the one to tell him that he can't afford it because he can.

[@verleden100]

im also lonely with my 3 cats,,the are my family,no friends,,not in real life,,my cats are my best friends,,the gave me a good energy,,the love me,,and i love them,,have you animals,? you are a special person,,,many people are awake,the are alone,,strange,,but it is,,we go tho strange times,,,you have a special vessel with the universe,,you are special,,dont forget,,also nature is our best friend,,going tho the woods,,and sit there for a while,,its medicine,,four the soul,,love

[@Laughing-Carly]

Stay strong bud

[@08jkhnor]

I hope things get better.

[@Kris98863]

You are amazing ❤

[@Jonathan_Freeloader]

"lonely" is a foreign concept when u a loner

[@kaylah9206]

Jacob, I want you to know that you’re not useless. Your videos have brought joy to so many people including me for so many years and that’s not something to be scoffed at or taken lightly. You are a gift and you help people more than you realize. I’m thankful you felt comfortable enough to share this video and be vulnerable. Just know you’re amazing and loved by many🫶🏼

[@jameslee5191]

We're ALL here for a REASON.........👍

[@playdoug12]

If you'd like a little bit of hope... I can already see you(reader) looking back at this page and feeling happier than you are now.❤

[@Coffeeisnecessarynowpepper]

0:00 that breath makes me happy

[@gregman1715]

Everything Your Talking About I've Been There And Still Dealing With Thing's I Can Be In A Room Full Of People And Still Feel Alone Good Video By The Way👍👋✌️

[@delicitymd6670]

I love you man