12 months in a mental hospital / what’s it really like? // PICU, NHS

[@emilyadeline1046]

Part 2 please! (I really want to hear more about your reintegration back into normal life, and more so the steps you had to take in order to get more freedom day to day) loved this, thank you Marie xxx

[@marieroseeee]

WHAT AN IDEA okay yes!! this is something i would love to talk about, as no one ever does! i will definitely make a video on this! xxxx

[@emilyadeline1046]

marieroseeee I’m so glad, thank you xx

[@curtisbemis6640]

Hospital food in the ward i was on on our snack was saltiness crackers. People couldn't have sugar and caffeine .I lasted 7 days on an attempted murder and was out free . Family insane wealthy ans paid my way our. Nevr been back until now. My dr is trash refusesbto increase meeded meds. I'm gonna go before I wnd up doing something bad ro someone else. I cam self harm no issues. At all but once I snap . Itsbwasr ans I haven't list yet getting shot in the face I count that as a draw cause coward shot feom a distance we neve Seen him .

[@coralmore3568]

Getting out of hospital is such a weird feeling. I think short-stay should be the norm, I totally agree that the extended stays are detrimental. People make their home there. And it’s almost like they don’t want you to leave? Like when I was there I was lucky that I have the cognitive ability to ask to be discharged, and explain why I wanted to be discharged. But otherwise they don’t try to help you make progress. It’s just a holding cell. Thank you for doing this video! Lots of love

[@marieroseeee]

I agree so much coral!! Thankyou! Xxx

[@chalronbjork4766]

I'm a mental health RN and the purpose of CAMHS inpatient units is short term assessment and containment. The only pts who benefit from longer stays are psychotic pts. Studies have shown for pts with personality disorders, long term stays are detrimental to health. Our age ranges is 5-16 with most being females around 14

[@katelynspencer8392]

Coral More i mean I was formed because I was hearing voices . But the doctor was so sweet . He wanted to do a MRI to make sure it wasn’t something physical. I was able to sign myself out after a couple days .

[@carltaylor4942]

Coral More - Yes, "holding cell" is a good description. You get no therapy, no real treatment, no education, no guidance and there is absolutely nothing to do. Complete boredom and a total waste of time.

[@AuriellaMonroe]

I was hospitalized in psych for 10 days & even that was enough to make me lose all sense of normal life. When I got out it felt like I had been there for months. I had a really hard time integrating back into the regular world again with no transition period, & even my friends were like even the way you speak is different, like you sound like you just came out of prison. I was like no, you actually have more freedom in prison. It was an awful horrible hospital too. Kinda traumatic even. To this day I start panicking at the thought of even stepping foot in a hospital. I can’t even imagine being in there for 5+ months.

[@ClandestineGirl16X]

i wish the united states would get their healthcare together like the uk. so many people need help but cant afford it. great video

[@ameliawiseman1158]

ClandestineGirl16X Marie had an excellent Experience like 99.9% of the uk is like the USAs health care system and worse in some parts

[@TheMarkedGirl717]

As messed up as the american health system it's not always better in countries with free healthcare. A lot of pressure on the system so even if you're in crisis and seek help you could easily get rejected unless you're psychotic, manic or actually try to end your life.

[@laurenbear4670]

So true, it's sad... :-(

[@pugtato2196]

It’s like jail but worse in the USA

[@thehypest6118]

I don't think you understand how crippled the NHS is, something 75% of people who apply for mental health related treatment don't get treated and only 17% of the 25 that do come out the other side feeling better

[@NNichols10]

The sadness in your eyes omg. I pray you find people who light up your life and treat you with healing kindness. You deserve everything.

[@filippogigliozzi]

Hi, I am struggling with mental illnesses too and your videos are so helpful... I just wanted to thank you for everything you are doing (just a suggestion, I found the background music quite distracting, especially because I am not a native English speaker, if you could just turn it down a bit...or even just don't put it because your voice is very soothing)

[@marieroseeee]

Yes of course!! Thankyou for the feedback, sending you so many hugs! Stay strong!

[@goshkabrainard1775]

What is the problem? If I could ask....Depresja Bipolar? It is so hard bc those drug sellers(docs) are not helping Maybe you have a chronic neurolyme...Yes . Maybe I could answer your question to help you a little. People suffer bc the psychiatrist cannot even recognize the co-symptoms of the medications. in some cases they need to be in the unit...So sad but real

[@Accurate.Toy.Story.Collector]

Only found your videos a week or so ago but I'm hooked. I'm 32 and although my mental health issues aren't as serious as yours have been at times I really admire your honesty and you should be so proud of that, I know how difficult it is to allow yourself to be vulnerable and by doing so you are undoubtedly helping so many people. Also I just wanted to say that you have the most amazing eyes and teeth!

[@meljstephan]

Although obviously a hospital stay is never ideal, I am so so glad for the people with free health care who can utilize those services if they need it. As an american, I worry about how many people lose their lives/families because they're unable to get emergency treatment. Those who do seek help often end up in crippling debt and lose everything because of the cost, essentially, of keeping themselves safe. It's a horrendous system and I'm glad that you weren't burdened with it.

[@louisehickey5892]

Only watching this now. I’m shocked there’s no therapy or grouped therapy - you can’t make people better via medication alone. Very very surprising!

[@DaniB1978]

Louise Hickey this is unusual, I work in a psychiatric hospital in the UK, we have group and individual therapy, occupational therapy, mindfulness, psychosocial education group and school for under 19 year olds. I totally agree, medication is only part of any effective treatment plan.

[@Youtuber-mc2uv]

@@DaniB1978 then why wasn't it offered there? Is there no standard with such things? In Sweden there is barely anything but meds in psych wards. You have to go to a treatment center for something more specific.

[@MargaretBelle]

I agree having been admitted

[@goertzpsychiatry9340]

Louise Hickey kzbin.info/www/bejne/mWnSnqWvfaihZ7s

[@Katiejane196]

Hi Louise, I’m currently inpatient and I’ve been making some videos about what it’s like in a mental health hospital too if you’re interested? I do heaps of different group therapy sessions at mine and I’m surprised other people don’t??

[@isla4535]

I’d really like a part two where you talk all about how you got in in the first place! Talk about who made the decision, or what was the final straw that made you go in, where you went, just the whole process of how you got in!

[@lolarella2295]

The ammount of times i had to explain to my friends that no, its not just like girl, interrupted!! And i get you with coming out after a long admision, i had 9 months inpatient and started sixth form two days after discharge!! So surreal! Anyways hope you are well 😊

[@hollyabbott3953]

thank you for doing this video. you don’t understand how much your videos help people. i’m proud of you 💗

[@marieroseeee]

Omg holly Thankyou so much girl ❤️

[@finnwilliamson6969]

Sometimes I just binge watch your videos or look through your Instagram to see how your life changed throughout the years and how you show off your scars and how you don’t care. It inspires me so much (I too have BPD, I’m 18 only just been told that) thank you for being inspiring! Love from Manchester ❤️

[@imogenwillis291]

Omg yay another mental health Monday’s I love you so much you have helped me through thick and thin thanks for the video you are the reason I am still living today and I feel alright about myself thank you so much xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

[@SajSajidmk]

be positive, happy and thankful to your creator for everything you are blessed with. being thankful, will create positive hormone and keep you calm, happy, content. read Quran in English

[@imogenwillis291]

@@SajSajidmk awww thank you, update on my mental health I am sh free for 10 months, and haven't been in a mental hospital for 1 year and 1 month which I am so proud of x

[@leannejones7080]

Just seen this video. My daughter is 19, has BPD and PTSD, ASD, she self harms horrifically and has tried to take her life many times since the age of 9yo. She has been inpatient on and off since 15yo, from a few weeks to 11 months. A week ago she was admitted to St Andrews hospital EUPD ward, on a section 3 for an intensive locked DBT rehabilitation program. We have been through so much with her and hearing you talk is like listening to her talk. This treatment is the only treatment that works for her condition, medication doesn't work, I fail at the moment to see a light at the end of the tunnel, I just hope this treatment works and she sets on the road to recovery.

[@LB-fg2ph]

Leanne, I’m so sorry you are seeing your daughter go through this. I was diagnosed with PTSD, anxiety, major depression and OCD when I was 19 as a result of a workplace incident. Things DO get better. I’m 29 now. I still need to manage my Illnesses - they will never go away, they just ease with time. If I could go back and hug 19 year old me, I’d tell her that she is going to be ok, and life is worth living. Please hug your daughter from me, an internet stranger. But just know that I genuinely wish the best for your daughter, and also for you. You all need to heal. I hope things look up for you and your daughter soon xx

[@leannejones7080]

@@LB-fg2ph thank you, maybe once she has internet access or when I visit one day I'll show her your video and your comment. It breaks my heart how much she hates life and herself. The demons are real dark and nasty, I pray that at 29 shes saying the same as you. We know she'll never be rid of her illnesses and that sometimes she may need a hospital stay to retune but if shes living life and is happy we can cope with that x

[@hayleylucypoole7585]

This comment was a while ago but how is your daughter now? Much love ❤

[@leannejones7080]

@@hayleylucypoole7585 still very poorly, only this week she cut her own throat for the 9th time this year. Well actually because her neck is so scared she “ cut the scar out” she now doesn’t have enough healthy skin to close the wound so it’s having to be packed every other day. She also severely cut her arm again. She headbands to the point that she has a permanent hole in her forehead. She spent 13 months inpatient in Doncaster ( we are in Northampton) but had to be moved to a PICU where she spent another 5 months. She’s been outpatient since March this year but it’s never ending for her and for us x

[@MirageandReality]

@@leannejones7080 why does she have PTSD? I’m angry at my parents for never protecting me, so part of me really wants to ask you a related question…

[@user-ns9nh3bl2c]

Hi Marie I just wanted to say that I am super proud of how far you've come and that you're uploading frequently again. x

[@lydiachilds4389]

I was so close to being put into a mental hospital if it wasn't for my therapist. I kinda have a weird wish to want to but at the same time I don't want to.

[@moss7837]

Yeah I get that! How are you at this time cuz it’s been 2 years?

[@Katiejane196]

Hi Lydia, I’m currently inpatient and I’ve been making some videos about what it’s like in a mental health hospital too if you’re interested? Obviously being hospitalised isn’t ideal but it’s really been helping me- something to consider if you’re really unwell. Hope you’re doing better now xx

[@FelishaS]

@@Katiejane196 how long did you stay? how was it?

[@lanaroberts9929]

Recently I was in a&e overnight and was told by a cpn that people with BPD don’t often get allowed to stay in a mental hospital because it doesn’t really often work as an effective treatment! But I’ve seen so many people like you and others stay in them for a long time!? Confuses me!

[@pugtato2196]

Lana Roberts did you meet Michael Myers

[@theoneonly3711]

hmm I cant even get help... Im just dying alone in my room everyday and no one cares.

[@alisontunny9362]

Lana Roberts the medical fraternity decided about 15 years ago that admitting people to hospital with BPD was “ rewarding” them. So if they fronted up to the ER as potentially suicidal of having self harmed, they’d attend to them and send them home. Really compassionate!

[@SebastianBlackwell94]

I was in a ward with a chick who had bpd

[@MamboJambo55]

Alison Tunny explains why I was fobbed off so many times in acute distress and now have almost zero trust medical professionals regarding my mental health. While this may be a helpful strategy for some with BPD (I can’t think of many) it’s utterly devastating and invalidating for most.

[@rhiiiianna]

I am a HCA in a CAMHS hospital in the midlands, and it’s really interesting to hear about your experience both during and following admission, because we never get to see that side with our own patients. Thank you x

[@usamarafieck1715]

What does hca stand for?

[@jmk1962]

@@usamarafieck1715 Health Care Assistant

[@jmk1962]

@@usamarafieck1715 - I have no idea because I'm not one. I suspect not that much as it is in the caring profession, so not as much as a nurse, as a nurse has a lot more qualifications.

[@daeseyeeen9281]

I have been in psychiatric unit for long periods of time. I think i got PTSD from my experiences. Its really not easy and all they help with is meds. Even being prescribed meds is very confusing. I was very sick for 4 years straight. I now have 12 years of being mentally well. It has changed me forever and i work hard on my life. Even if i am doing nothing. Thanks for sharing.

[@lynnhobby32321]

Raven Garbe I’m wondering how having no therapy or help sessions did any good? Did you have regular help?

[@Charlotte-yo9bc]

Your videos always help me so much! Thanks so much for making them. Whenever I've had a bad day with my mh I can always find one of your videos to watch to calm me down! ❤️ Stay strong xx

[@marieroseeee]

Thankyou so much Charlotte! That means so much to me ☺️❤️

[@zoeb1891]

I too got sectioned at the age of 17, put into an adult ward. I was in and out up till I was 19. I'm 32 now and haven't been back since. I still struggle but I try to avoid getting to that point again. I agree with everything you have said Marie and it's crazy to see things haven't changed from 15 years ago x

[@usamarafieck1715]

Being sectioned, how did it feel like?

[@joycewyatt2550]

There may be many different problems, but having them together, you tend to help each other.

[@pip9733]

Eyyyy 2 years and still strong as evaaaa 👯‍♀️ love you so much 💞

[@marieroseeee]

ALWAYS ❤️

[@mattierutledge7173]

You’re one of the most beautiful people I’ve ever seen... I’m not making that up

[@ikaeksen]

totally agreed , i got lost in her in half a second.

[@ashleighmasimbarasi9207]

Most amazing eyes ever 😍

[@marieroseeee]

omg ashleigh, thankyou so much!!! Xxxx

[@ashleighmasimbarasi9207]

marieroseeee it’s okk ! xx

[@dscheaffer]

Just want to say, I think it’s great you’re sharing your experience in dealing with mental health issues and your stay at a mental health treatment facility. Many people will benefit from hearing your story! Especially, other young people who may be experiencing their own mental health issues, and are unsure if a mental health treatment facility is right for them. Keep up the great work!

[@jessicawhite7328]

I wouldn’t have got through my hospital admission on Friday if it weren’t for your beautiful videos, love you so so much Marie ✨💓

[@marieroseeee]

Oh jess, I’m so sorry to hear that you needed to be in hospital. I’m sending all my love girl! Keep going - we got this!!! ❤️

[@dazzledarren1271]

@@marieroseeee Yep wee got this ❤️

[@LucyGem98]

I like the analogy you used of being at your friend's house and it not feeling like home. I've never been into a mental hospital so the only idea I have of what they're like is from movies which is usually completely not true. That analogy really helped me understand. I hope I never get so bad I end up in one of these...

[@marieroseeee]

Thankyou lucy! It’s very strange and I’m happy that it helped you understand ❤️

[@pugtato2196]

In the USA it’s like the movies you dumbass

[@curtisbemis6640]

I just have to say your eyes are the darkest blue yet so bright . Totally breath taking eyes ,and your just an absolutely beautiful person !!! I hope you are ok and having a beautiful life you deserve the best .🙏🙏🙏💯💯💯

[@1992disneyprincess]

completely agree with EVERYTHING u said about misconceptions.i was the youngest on my ward the eldest was 70 and the sweetest woman ever she was like the ward grandma ❤

[@usamarafieck1715]

How was the food?

[@tori5532]

i appreciate you making this video. i'm going into an adolescent facility in a few weeks and i'm so scared. It's great to know that i'm not alone in these experiences.

[@Ap-wv9zp]

Did u still get checked in even though lockdown and corona is going on?

[@MindVelvet]

I find you really comforting. I've been through a lot of stuff with mental illness, self-harm, and various traumas and am recovering from PTSD.

[@markb8037]

The truth is the unit sorted you out. Don't be afraid if you need to be hospitalized. We all have likes and dislikes but the truth is becoming well.

[@marieroseeee]

so true!

[@Itsanangell]

damn considering your story you are SO strong. all I had has anxiety for 6 months and it really fucks with your perception of the world. sometimes I question if anything is real etc bc I swear to god we really have the power to impact those around us and its concerning how much power we hold within

[@Mac_Ann555]

This is a late comment.. i am a minor. I am not diagnosed with anything but i do know and many friends know that i need help. I have an increasing problem with cutting and self doubt.. i have had breakdowns almost every night. And i have gotten panic attacks a lot as well.. I can’t seem to get any help.. my mother and other family members fail to believe me whenever i try and tell them.. my mom threatens me with saying i will be locked up in a hospital with nothing and nobody and it would be miserable.. i guess she tries to convince me i am fine.. so i have been looking at these videos to get some guidance on how they actually are and just to see that i am not alone and that my mom is wrong.. this video helped a lot with how mental hospitals work. Thank you.

[@TinselFairy]

Really love this video. I feel like I've become a revolving door patient as I'm on my 8th admission in 3 years. I completely agree with how difficult it is adjusting to coming out of hospital. I've become institutionalised to the point where I miss it when I'm out and it's horrible.

[@LeyahJo]

Whoa. So different in the US. On my hospital's inpatient psych unit the average length of stay is 6 days. There are not facilities you can stay a year unless you are extremely psychotic and resistant to treatment. Even then you would have to be at a state hospital because no insurance will cover 1 year.

[@toobossforchuck]

There definitely are places that take people for that long in the US without the patients being psychotic. Insurance is the hard part.

[@goertzpsychiatry9340]

Leah Tunningley kzbin.info/www/bejne/mWnSnqWvfaihZ7s

[@kelseyreid9338]

Insta sent me x your videos are actually soo calming and so is your voice, you’ve made my day. I’m glad you are uploading more. Xx

[@daynajadex4993]

😀I look forward to your videos so much I’ve Liked before watching🙊. Your videos help me alot. I find your videos really comforting because it makes me feel understood. They are really comforting when my heads all over and in a dark place,You help me. Also you have better ways of explaining things which I’ve used sometimes to help me explain things to my care coordinator/cpn. So thankyou for being such a amazing big help and for being you! I love the fact that you‘re so real honest and open about everything!💗So glad someone recommended me to search you and watch you videos💚

[@marieroseeee]

omg Dayna, thankyou so much for this comment!! wow you don't know how much this means to me, people like you are the reason i make these videos, you help me!! im sending all my love to you angel, keep going, keep talking - don't ever like the dark side of your brain win, you can do this xxxxx

[@daynajadex4993]

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[@beckyf4503]

Hi Marie, my care team is considering sending me to a psychiatric hospital and I’m terrified, but I love your videos because they always calm me down and make me feel less alone. Thank you ❤️

[@pugtato2196]

Becca S escape well you still can

[@bluedm2305]

@@pugtato2196 dont say that! Becky: it will be okay i promise ml :)

[@notanotherspiritualguru1215]

I was only in for 2 weeks and it was absolutely traumatizing for me. I can't imagine staying in as long as you.

[@food4444lyfe]

Same ... 14 days of effing hell.... neverrrrr again !! 🤬

[@sophiedorrington]

i really really appreciate all these videos your putting out for us marie !! x

[@ainedolley5438]

Can't wait to watch. We both know it's cray-cray in there at times. 😂i love you millions ❤❤

[@thomaswycihowski3555]

Cray cray..CRAY CRAY..insanity IS Sanity!!

[@Daisy-zh6gb]

loved this video, ur sooo strong for going through all of this n I hope one day I’m as strong as you 🖤 lots of love girl x

[@Katiejane196]

Hi Daisy, I’m currently inpatient and I’ve been making some videos about what it’s like in a mental health hospital too if you’re interested? I know I loved watching videos like this before I came into hospital xx

[@randyhall1518]

Your eyes are spectacular. Really beautiful and the accent I'm stuck like glue.

[@renae9301]

I personally had to go to an inpatient area in the hospital, because of depression, si and sh. I was there for 5 weeks and I honestly loved it. I felt like I was being listened to, and it was great to finally be-- happier ig. I did develop an ed in the ward though, so that sucks, but I'm in recovery atm. I think the hospital was the best thing that could have ever happened to me. :)

[@justmadeit2]

I spent 3 weeks in one voluntarily with severe depression. It didn’t help, my sleep was still poor and I was left to it. No therapy, bright lights that are too bright and not a place for me that helped with recovery

[@tattoosbysaoirsewells5204]

American who lived in the UK here. Her experience is incredibly lucky and the majority of people in the UK who suffer from mental illness don’t get treated with NHS. I have a skin condition called HS and struggled for 3 years with doctors ignoring me, not showing up to appointments that were booked 4+ months out and cancellations due to being overbooked. Since the NHS is so flawed, it takes months to seek any sort of treatment if you’re lucky enough to get any. I had to move back to America to seek treatment for my HS since the healthcare was so bad in the UK. I also want to say I had private insurance as well and still could not get any treatment because of the NHS system. Free healthcare does not equal good healthcare and those with private insurance are just paying for nothing. I just wanted to point out to all the Americans in the comments that this scenario is highly uncommon and anybody there can’t just check themselves into a mental health hospital for 12 months for free. There’s also many things that NHS does not cover and the person is responsible paying for the treatment out of pocket.

[@morganconti]

Sorry was doing prep for my exam tomorrow!!! Or would have watched it sooner!!! Your amazing for doing this, im so proud of you! I love You soooo much. You inspire me everyday to keep fighting everyday! Your amazing xxxxxxxx💗💗💗

[@marieroseeee]

Don't apologise!! I hope your exam went okay, (u should deffo put that before me waffling for 30 minutes ahaha) love you, keep going! xxxx

[@morganconti]

marieroseeee Message me on insta!! @morgan.conti xxxx

[@joshgoncalo6621]

Im currently in a mental health ward, thank you for this watch

[@h0m04H0mu]

They let you bring your phone?

[@curtisbemis6640]

I remember coming back from detention after a year. And when I came home. I was totally institutionalized its horrible and I understand where you are coming from and its so. Sad to have to know someone else experienced this .glad your better now.🙏🙏💞💞

[@kelseyreid9338]

I learnt so much from this video, also love your jumper it really suits you xx. 💓

[@charlottegisborne2319]

I really loved this video! It was really relatable, especially when you said about feeling like a stranger in your own home! OH MY GOD RETWEET!!!! You look gorgeous btw!! xx

[@mcfc2528]

It's mad how accurate your video is even with it being made 3 years ago. I got sectioned unfairly recently while I was in hospital for something really soft and I was watching your video in my hospital bed in the night time just days before going into the psychiatric ward and it really gave me a good idea of what I was gonna be dealing with. Thanks for sharing this video. Those wards aren't even as bad as people think but my god it's so boring in there however it was an experience that I'm grateful for and one that I'll always remember I'm sure you think the same, I met a really good friend in there like you did too thankfully I was only in there for 15 days because I wasn't mentally ill

[@Botoshel19]

Then why were you there for? What was the explanation for the sectioning?

[@mcfc2528]

@@Botoshel19 they tried to paint me as a delusional person with psychosis and when I got transferred to the psychiatric ward the clinician knew straight away from my first chat with him that I wasn’t mentally ill it was doctors abusing powers

[@Botoshel19]

@@mcfc2528 So why did he not discharge you then? Why keep you there for 15 days?

[@mcfc2528]

@@Botoshel19 not sure it was all fishy as soon as I got a solictor and had a tribunal booked to appeal my section they brought me in for a meeting and discharged me

[@Botoshel19]

@@mcfc2528 I never understood why people aren’t straight away asking for a solicitor. You have the right to ask for one the moment you arrive to your detention facility. Also people should as they have the right to appeal straightaway to hospital managers as well as a tribunal. All of these should be demanded for the moment you arrive. Don’t understand why people just don’t do this..

[@benrogersdevon]

I have paranoid Schizophrenia and was sectioned for seven months. It was ok in the psychiatric unit. The bad parts was when I got dragged to isolation room which was sparse; there was a sink with push button taps, a toilet , a soft chair and a two inch thick mattress on the floor. No bedding - slept using my shoes as a pillow, no quilt?was allowed. It was almost totally suicide unsuitable. I spent ten or eleven days straight in confinement, but got out when I stopped head butting the walls and door. They put my food in the room by just slightly opened the door...placed it near the door. Four members of staff were required when ever anyone entered the room. They wore visors and once I nearly got out the room. As they were closing the door, I pushed it back and they had to get 4 staff to prevent me escaping. My mate, Remi escaped by using a chair standing on the back on it, he clambered onto the flat roof then jumped off the nice side (the outdoor side) I got told off cos I helped him escape. In my hospital, Barnstaple in north Devon, the tv lounge was locked at 11.30pm and I’d take my meds at 10.30pm then again at 9.30am. I slept with a woman whilst sectioned: she was sectioned too. We both got into trouble but it was worth it. I had a fag every hour as this was the time schedule for ciggies or fresh air breaks. 12 months must have been extremely stressful, I did 7 months on level 2; checked me each 15 minutes, or quarter of an hour. Zero privacy. I got heroin into the ward, just percy; just a gram for 60 quid; put it down my boxers. Used to hide crack in the toilet paper thing, in the bathroom which was on suite !! Hooray lol!! Now I’m clean from all illegal drugs, including cannabis.

[@Four9sFineJewelry]

Thank you, Marie.

[@lindajohnson9282]

I got 10 minutes in and couldn’t watch any more. I have avoided being put in a psych ward (apparently I wasn’t ill enough, which makes me laugh), but I’m eternally grateful for not having been sent to hospital. I’ve watched others go through that hellish roller coaster ride, and have been made someone’s “nominated person”, an advocate for them without being next-of-kin. A lot of good it did for either me or the person I was trying desperately to protect. From my observation, it may be a good thing to have a psych ward, as long as the nursing staff, psychologists, occupational therapists and doctors gave a shit about their patients, i.e. being present with their patients, paying them attention and interacting with them as human beings, not jailers. My observation indicated that no staff member was willing to come out form their glass-encased fortresses unless it was to let people in or out of the locked ward, to administer medications, or to quieten down (usually by chemical means) agitated patients. I would like to think that a bit more love would go a very long way. Sending love, light, laughter, prosperity, peace and good health to you all ❤️❤️❤️

[@analece]

I went to a mental hospital twice when I was 13. It was no help whatsoever. Yes, it kept me from weapons to harm myself but they never taught me about self worth . It’s been 3 years since and I still hurt myself & feel like I don’t deserve to live

[@patricialong2803]

Yes you do deserve to live you wasn't bought in this world for nothing the good lord your savior he loves you.I don't know you but i loves you because we're both from.God and we're his children's please, believe this earth that we all lives on is just temporary please,hear me out it isn't you that hates yourself it's the devil thats messing with your head you see.When we don't have a relationship with.God to pray to him only to give us strength, and to be strong,our lord he will guide you through this life he would take all your pain away and wash you clean as snow you see without.God the devil himself will take over your mind and he will mess with you he would put bad things in your head to make you feel as if you don't love yourself he knows that you don't have a relationship with your father in heaven that is why he sent his son down her to help us to come home to him.When we Lea this world if you take your own life don't you know that you can end up in hell thats what Satan wants is for you to feel unloved and crazy.When you are not please,get yourself a Bible, and read it talk to your savior ask him to get to know him so

[@bunnypot5238]

At the moment my self harm is at its peak I love 💗 ur vids keep going there’s so many ppl here for you boo 😊you bring real life stories facts and fun to ur beautiful channel that glitters in our community ✨we’re all proud of you and were you have come ti’l this day u are amazing 🙂and glamorous keep believing in ur self cause we believe in u bye booo

[@MikJames-d1g]

"I just don't see how it works" Yeah, that's about right. All it does is keep people who are dangerous off the street and traumatize people who aren't dangerous into never coming back.

[@louise768]

You are so brave ❤️ I have just been through a horrible psychosis and have had no impatient treatment.. have been excercising, sticking to routine, and just ordered focus medication to help with cognition.

[@louisefromscotland3336]

I would have really liked to listen to you but couldn’t get through more than five minutes of that music. Just feedback that I’m sure it will make your videos unwatchable for some people and I would really have liked to hear what you had to say.

[@Hiforest]

I was putting it down to me lol. I don’t dislike the music - I just can’t concentrate on the talking because of it (it keeps distracting me and I realise I’ve not heard most of what she’s said lol).

[@goertzpsychiatry9340]

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[@taylorg2765]

Love mental health Monday's! You're such a strong person 💜💜 and that sweater looks so cute on!

[@marieroseeee]

Awh Taylor thankyou so much girl!! ❤️

[@chloenorth5549]

You're honestly so brave and inspirational ✨😊

[@drescorpio1114]

When I was in a psych hospital It was dryI just slept most of the time because I was so depressed. I got there because voices where telling me to end my life. The psychiatrist was not too pleasant but the rest of the staff was fine. They were going to keep me longer but thanks to my psychiatrist said it was ok to discharge me.

[@imcookk]

Ik this video was ages ago but omg your eyes are so mesmerising

[@alliecary.]

I hate myself for not getting help earlier before my eating disorder wrapped itself around me, but it’s so damn expensive in the US.

[@marieroseeee]

Allie this is so sad, I totally get you - I wish I had got help earlier too. But I can’t imagine being in a situation where you the expense out weighs your ability to get treatment, it must be so awful. I’m sending all my love to you xx

[@alliecary.]

marieroseeee love you so so much Marie xxxx

[@LollyisaWolly]

I'm so proud of you. You're so beautiful. Go girl! ❤️❤️❤️🐰

[@1992disneyprincess]

love you princess stay strong ❤

[@yourlocaltransboy7051]

Heyyyyyy! Love you vids girlie ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ this made my day honestly. It’s been a hard one. I nearly relapsed after 30 Days. But I didn’t. I’m still going. I’ve got this.

[@luciefrance7545]

Kaci Sherman so proud of you xx

[@yourlocaltransboy7051]

Lucie France Tysm! ❤️❤️

[@miasmith6179]

first like and comment 💕💕 you are so strong, keep it going love 💕

[@marieroseeee]

LOVE YOU MIA

[@miasmith6179]

@@marieroseeee you have literally made my entire year 💕💕

[@cloud.observations]

Loved this video! Totally relate have been in hosp before and they aren't too bad ! I made friends there too and it's the nicest thing understanding each other on a whole other level xxxx

[@marieroseeee]

I completely agree, its like you can make friends because there are no barriers at all. You all understand each other and its a whole other level of friendship x

[@usamarafieck1715]

Did you ever had a library?

[@sashathorpe]

so happy to see this video in my sub box :) stay strong gorg and I love your jumper !!!! It’s so nice I think I need to buy it 💓😍

[@marieroseeee]

LOVE YOU SASH

[@sashathorpe]

Can you tell I’m an emotional wreck seeing as I cried when I saw you replied - lowkey thought you completely forgot who I was hehe x

[@velocitygirl8551]

I’m so sweetheart but I have to say you are so blessed to have free healthcare!! I have really good insurance and it was thousands for a month ... and a month here is a long time. They usually try to release everyone after 2 weeks regardless of how u are. What wonderful parents u have!! Keep going sweetheart xoxo

[@laurensanders4387]

I spent 5 years in and out of similar sounding wards, currently I’ve been inpatient for 3 years and I’m terrified about being discharged!! xox

[@ashleeS6929]

You are such an inspiration Marie! And Marie is my middle name!

[@slowpoke96Z28]

The coloring is therapy.

[@helenalena6193]

I've stayed in a mental hospital for a week and a half... I thought I was going to go crazy! People were very thoughtful there, very helpful, food wasn't too bad but I'm BPD and NPD I can't be without my caretakers without going bonkers. They saw I was In too much sepparation anxiety and sent me out.

[@lar.8168]

Wait, so you can have both borderline and narcissistic traits at the same time? I've always thought that's my case, but my previous doctor totally dismissed it

[@AlchemistOfNirnroot]

I was sectioned (2) in 2017; some guy set his room of fire then stabbed a staff member (woman) with a pen (my pen). In the same day...

[@josephg1125]

Karma

[@hxpnxs]

♡♡♡ I love that new jumper! + I learned a lot ty

[@marieroseeee]

thankyou so much emily! and im glad! xxxx

[@usamarafieck1715]

I like the sweater.

[@Iron678Maiden]

I was in one for a week and hated it I can’t even imagine

[@maryelizabeth6347]

Its been seven years exactly since being hospitalized... Im scared everyday that's where ill end up nearing the end of my life.

[@SajSajidmk]

be positive, happy and thankful to your creator for everything you are blessed with. being thankful, will create positive hormone and keep you calm, happy, content. read Quran in English

[@lozzels]

Love the start and love the real estate watcher 1.30 sec that's it, U stay strong girl. These are bullies in these units........

[@larsonstoewer5792]

I remember being in a psychiatric hospital I didn't know the rules of what we can do and what we can't do so I feel ur pain Marie 🥺

[@qasimkhan-bf9ys]

I had a friend who was sectioned 3 years ago for schizoprenia.its true what people say the longer you stay in there it can change you as a person when you come out.

[@Botoshel19]

For the worse

[@bushrahsumayyah3437]

This is really how I felt and its really is hard coming home because I was at a psych hospital for 2 months and I didn't want to go home for a while. 💙

[@Botoshel19]

That’s what they do. They first break you and then make you swallow the victim pill. Before you know it.. You’ll want to be back there . They don’t have to extend your stay. Or through the constant abuse present in most mental hospitals.. Chances are you’ll break at some point and get back inside.

[@paulmatejka7371]

So beautiful and intelligent … I can fully relate to this subject, extremely well presented and described x

[@fisharefriends598]

When your come to the end of treatment, you should have. Staggered release.. it does happen in many places. But depends . When your there and treat it like home, that’s what’s needed. You need to do the therapy and work with the the nurses to help yourself get better. If you don’t treat it like home, and immerse yourself it becomes a harsh experience And when your in there… always ask what you can do… phones allowed.. chargers probably not And omg admission on the graveyard shift is the worst… there’s not enough staff at night for admissions… or more accurately… the consultant in charge is never around

[@claireelaine550]

I can totally relate to this. I was in hospital for like 3 months with encephalitis. I think you can only go through the experience to know what it is really like. It would be great to be friends with you 💕

[@Katiejane196]

Hi Claire, I’m currently inpatient and I’ve been making some videos about what it’s like in a mental health hospital too if you’re interested? I know I loved watching videos like this before I came into hospital xx

[@claireelaine550]

@@Katiejane196 hi there. Sure, I'd be interested :) Hope you're ok xx

[@ilovejclove7516]

Light colours really suit you, you look so beautiful.

[@atwaterpub]

Thank you so much for uploading and sharing your honest experience. You are a champion of humanity. You are a hero.

[@soph5413]

You look stunning in this!!💗💗

[@ikaeksen]

You are EXTREMLY beautyfull, i see stars now.

[@serinat2181]

I wish I kept my self to myself as I feel like I am a bit too open without realising it sometimes

[@ellaharris262]

I’m honestly scared. I am a self harmer and I also have mental health issues My main ones are Anxiety and Depression. I’m really anxious because my Mum said she will take me to a mental hospital if I self harm again... it’s so hard because I’m trying not too. But i can’t stop. so I honestly don’t know what’s going to happen to me. Tbh I’m hardly going to school either which is effecting me, over the last 3 weeks I’ve been in 4 times.. I swear to god I’m freaked out.

[@pugtato2196]

Escape well you still can

[@charlottehooton6710]

I love you so much x

[@marieroseeee]

Love you too bbyg!! xxxxx

[@helenchrisriminirand]

I’ve been sectioned on a few occasions and I personally didn’t think it was the best treatment for me.

[@foolcatcher8900]

The background music is really distracting.

[@SebastianBlackwell94]

Ive been in the ward twice, once in the adolescent unit and the second time in the adult ward. I couldn't imagine being in there for 12 months, i almost ended up in there again last year due to my eating problems. At this point i might end up in there again this year Honestly part of me misses it, idky

[@justinhoward6384]

You look like a garden of roses in this video. I like roses.

[@marieroseeee]

Wow thankyou so much