Therapist Reacts To: Heroin by Lana Del Rey *from my LIVE*

[@aaroncaru2193]

"I'm gonna be doing Heroin" is a wild way to start a video 😭😭

[@caprareyaveto1070]

POV KZbin in 2013

[@chromaticaking]

one of her best songs, in my opinion. so dark deep and emotional but beautiful and euphoric.

[@zs02]

I've never been on hard drugs in my life, but this song touched me deeply.

[@JoeHartman80]

I’ve abused alcohol years ago and this song is so deep to me

[@jonathanlorenzo4211]

It’s hands down one of my favorite songs. This was probably my least favorite album overall, but this and “get free” are two of my top favorite songs. They’re so creative and elicit so many intense emotions

[@aianio4932]

“But the facts of life can sometimes make it hard to dream.” One of lana’s best lyrics

[@katebretusch3752]

Times are hard for dreamers

[@chrystianaw8256]

​@@katebretusch3752 le fabuleux destin d'Amélie Poulain?

[@ache4u]

I see “heavy metal that you wear” as maybe jewellery, specifically rings. going back to ultraviolence “he hit me and it felt like a kiss”. I think this is a similar idea. “life rocked me ultra softly like the heavy metal that you wear”. another hit that felt like a kiss

[@ache4u]

this one not necessarily being a physical hit from another person and just being rocked/hit by the situation or life in general

[@ryan-kane]

I mean given in the next verse there’s the line but with hear instead of wear. Not sure why she heard wear and thought music..? This is not her best take

[@cocobot90]

I see it as her taking the drug, zoning out despite trouble in her life (that now feels far away), she's rocked to sleep "ultra softly" because she's high and numb. The "heavy metal that you wear" part is slightly foreboding (and shows that she's not a novice, but already deep in it or looking back) and refers to the all the 'heavy" or hard aspects of the drug that come with the "soft" effects: heavy withdrawals, side effects, increasing social isolation (slowly loosing your energy, interests, personality - which I usually associate with the "took your life away" part). MARZIPAN because people in withdrawal crave sugar/sweets as a substitute. This woman surprised me with her...almost random interpretations, most seemed way off the mark. Maybe do some research before filming yourself interpreting lyrics about such a specific topic. And SHE'S a therapist AND wrote a book about/related to addiction??? Kinda worrying.

[@chrystianaw8256]

​@@cocobot90 the song is about watching a friend lose themselves to a drug addiction

[@hotsaucewhorror8701]

i think she mentions Manson bc she feels responsible in this persons OD, like how he didn’t kill anyone but he was complicit

[@R4CHEL__]

Definitely agree. Such a deep sentiment

[@thytuz]

The sound of a gun being triggered in the background by the beggining and the end of the chorus actually makes so much sense now.

[@holdmacat9932]

So you didn't try to listen the the lyrics before?..

[@shilohgoes5544]

@@holdmacat9932if you don’t analyze them or know what Topanga Canyon is it can be confusing. I thought it was about a girl named Topanga who was addicted.

[@katherineauber]

Omg finally!! The song that helped heal me. Been in recovery since it came out

[@michellebastiani6470]

Likewise. I actually got out of inpatient rehab after 6 months and this was the first song I listened to off of Lust for Life. I was in a place thayt you're not even allowed to have a phone at any point in your stay. I got out and that first month was pretty hard but for some reason this song helped me big time ❤

[@katherineauber]

@@michellebastiani6470 wow that’s absolutely amazing. Congratulations on your sobriety. I had a very similar experience. I went in to a 90 day treatment program and three days before I went in she released the love video. I remember her talking about being young and in love and I remember it being a goal of mine because I’ve always been a hopeless romantic, and all I wanted was to be healthy and find love (spent way too long in an abusive relationship) And in the song the way she says “don’t worry, baby“ it just made me ready. I had no more fear. All of a sudden all my worries went away, and I just dove straight in and went into a program.. not too long after I got out, the whole album was out. I heard heroin and it was incredible how relatable it is. When she talks about winter in the city and how that can effect you rang true to me. I remember going to San Francisco for work in February very early on in my addiction when i was just dabbling. It was February but still hot out. I met people in the haight/ashbury area and the way I saw these people and the usage of drugs stuck with me. Ive never seen drugs so accessible. Still never seen anything like it. When I returned to Boston where I lived my addiction spiraled. I feel being in the city contributed to that. So finally I came home to small town Ohio in beginning of 2017 to leave the atmosphere that was making me worse. I remember after I got out of treatment (couldn’t have phones either) i listened to this song a few times a day for a year at least. It’s crazy because after thousands upon thousands of times listening to it I still choke up and sometimes full on bawl my eyes out. I cried pretty heavy watching Mere’s reaction to it.

[@marihaf]

i’m so proud of you! well done lovely

[@pauline6092]

❤

[@JoFitts]

Same here. Congrats to you.🎉

[@emilyb.8219]

I'm pretty sure the "writing in blood on my walls and shit" is another reference to the Manson m*rders, where the k*llers wrote things on the walls in their victims' blood. Definitely a dark song, but so dreamy and ethereal sounding at the same time

[@cocobot90]

I always thought it refers to Nikki Sixx from Motley Crue literally writing all over the walls with his own blood, during the darkest days of his heroin addiction. It's a relatively well-known fact, in relation to him especially and to Motley Crue in general. Because it also works as a callback to her "Motley" line, I never considered that it would mean anything else.

[@R4CHEL__]

Man… this one hits hard. I had a very close friend… partner, we cared so much about each other. She was so talented, she lost her physical therapy license due to drug use, and I couldn’t get her out of the seedy motel she was at. The last time I saw her was outside of that motel room. I was a fresh recovering addict at the time. I am glad you clarified that Lana didn’t “let” this person use heroin. I didn’t let her use it. I couldn’t force her. We kissed one last time and that was it. She was gone. It’s happening over and over to families everywhere. Thank you for covering this song.

[@elspeth5652]

my favorite song ever since lust for life came out. perosnally, not my favorite album of lana but somehow heroin had such strong grip on me that past those 6 years i've been listening to this song daily. the lyrics just are so emotional and dark and incredible. i used to be so obsessed with it, id listen to it while falling asleep. thanks for reacting Mere

[@estebandelaserna4905]

Same here! One of her best songs ever imo

[@julio2496]

One of my favorites 😭 it's so deep

[@AbandonedOnes]

Dark paradise is a classic. Great song

[@PhillipedeSousaSilva]

I'm so glad your liking the songs on Lust for Life! It's probably my favorite album for how it is about change. It has that hopefull lenses about the future and you can really feel the message of "taking your life where you want to". I also always find "Love" to be a really conforting song about how it's okay to feel like life is too much and that everything will about alright at the end. Hoping you react to that one someday, I think you'll like to see this more hopefull side of Lana 😁

[@Abalam-v3r]

Back in 2017, this song really helped me in very very bad moments of my life. I remember each day going in the woods next to my house for a walk and humming this song. I was looking at the cloudless blue sky above my head between the branches and taking every paths in and out of the woods to delay the moment i had to go back home.

[@eduardojefferson8736]

i swear this is one of her darkest lyrics

[@_beatngu_]

“Bad beginning to my new year” has been the saddest lyric of this song for me since I found out it’s (allegedly) about her ex who overdosed at the end of 2011. You’re absolutely right when you said she’s been through so much. And yet she still manages to be such a bright light for so many of us ❤️‍🩹

[@kadinmay]

Where did you hear that? The Aaron Greene boy?

[@_beatngu_]

@@kadinmay No, his name was Rob Dubuss. If you look it up there’s quite a bit on him.

[@laincoubert7236]

@@kadinmay there has been a fan theory about the song for years now, idk if it's commonly known or agreed upon in the fandom but there are some coincidences in the lyrics.

[@Dave-vb4nd]

You people are so arrogant thinking you know it all. WELLL

[@_beatngu_]

@@Dave-vb4nd We’re arrogant for sharing theories, that we acknowledge could be true or false, to someone making a video reacting to the song and its lyrics? Go be dumb elsewhere.

[@kariscrimson]

It’s my favourite Lana song. It resonates with me so much. At first it stressed me out so much because listening to it felt weirdly invasive, even though I could relate to the themes. I respect the fact she didn’t glorify any of it, too many folks are quick to romanticise heroin. The melody is beautiful but she kept it real

[@dannydavid5268]

Hello, I hope everything is fine. I just wanted to say that it's interesting that in this song she talks about how she was tired of it and about wanting to change and the song that follows is "Change" which you reacted to a while ago.

[@nat9407]

i think " how it gave you everything and took your life away " is also in the context of how a lot of stars around the 90s in particular peaked in their artistry when they were actively doing heroin. a lot of people say it has heavy influences on a lot of the things they created

[@FrenchRedHawk2011]

I love, love, love this song as it is my favorite from “Lust For Life.” I love switch up at the end from being about someone else to her since she is the one getting on that plane and hoping to come back changed. This song, while heavy, does have optimistic elements like “Change” at the end. Enjoyed your thoughts and reaction as per usual.

[@SummerDelReyboy]

This song is special ! Thank you for reacting to it !

[@derianmaya8912]

React to Living Legend by Lana del rey please! (it's my favorite song)

[@stargirlhaze]

yesss

[@CinnamonBoy96]

LOVE THIS SONG!!

[@esiisa3861]

The Song is a memorial of one of Lana's best friends, who passed away due to an heroin OD. It's not a conceptual song, it's completely real story. If you Google it, you can even find a photo of her and the mentioned friend in a car, looking happy and all...

[@user-hf6cd7bc7t]

It was her ex

[@aamonsekhon]

omg finally!! Yayo and Herion are my fav songs from Lana

[@LaurenBrokees]

Hello Mere, you should get up 'Oktaf Kanis - Starlight' thank you Mere 🙌🏻

[@leyonibrooks9250]

Hi mere, such a wonderful reaction, thank you! From what I've learned (and this could be false) Lana actually has struggled with drug addiction in the past, specifically heroin, which she talks about a little bit in her song "Fuck it I Love You". Thank you again I love your videos

[@JesseLarrian]

Starlight by Oktaf Kanis, I hope you enjoy this Mere

[@rxqueen1618]

My mom let me live with her while I was using because she didn’t want me out on the street getting assaulted and r@ped while killing myself. Her letting me stay with her is the reason I am alive and clean today. 19 months clean. If she had kicked me out I would’ve lost hope and died on the street. Just some perspective.

[@stargirlhaze]

crazy that you just posted this because I was just thinking today abt how you should do this song!!

[@thecoolburro6240]

I love so much mere recently found out about your channel ❤❤❤

[@jonathanlorenzo4211]

I wish I was able to be present for this live! I have this theory and am super curious if anyone else has seen it this way. I listened to this song so many times before I even thought about this, but it makes sense to me. Pretty much every time she references shooting up (drugs), there is a g*n cocking noise in the background. To me it adds so much meaning to this song because she starts out talking about sending someone on an airplane (getting h;gh). Toward the end, it sounds like she starts using herself because of the regret out of what happened with this other person, or wanting to join them, or for several other possible reasons. Please let me know if anyone has any thoughts about this! It could be totally off, but I listen to Lana all of the time and always find random things in her songs that seem to connect with other songs or themes. Thanks for reading. :)

[@harleydarius4195]

I used to think that when she says "I put you on an aeroplane, destined for a foreign land", it is about getting high with heroin. But now when I know that her ex died from overdose, and looking at the lyrics again, it kinda sound like she was doing heroin, and with the ex, or she could be the one who introduced it to him. And it eventually killed him. Therefore she said SHE put him on the aeroplane, and thought/hoped that he would come back (either from the ecstasy or from death) to tell her everything's ok.

[@AnitaRoman9]

Mere you must do 'Oktaf Kanis - Starlight' 💕

[@Shivagalaxina]

hi mere im rewatching ur lana reactions and i have to say ur so amazing and help me understand her lyrics so much more, im italian and i love english but i feel many times i miss lots of meaning of lana and u just open my mind so much and make me get it so much more❤ also on another note i only went to a therapist once and got scared cuz she said i had to take meds after an hour meeting… ur the only one that i feel i would be comfortable talking to, u seem soooo much supportive and helpful and kindhearted and gentle but also telling u like it is, ur so special and im so happy for the people ur helping i wish i was one❤ love xo

[@codythomas1208]

15:15 I don’t believe the lyric is actually “jumping off from the walls into the docks and shit” following the “writing in blood on my walls and shit” im pretty sure the next line after is “dripping off from the walls into the ducts and shit” meaning the blood on the wall

[@brookespangler]

IVE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS

[@alexisschultz4925]

I took “hot” as like the streets are hot with crime. But I think she uses it both ways. I was assuming she gave all of those examples of the things happening around her and why she should probably leave but won’t for a while. Anyway! Love your videos and I always get excited to see a new post 🤍 I also deal with/love an addict (my mother) who is currently staying with me so I resonate hard to what you say!

[@R4CHEL__]

It could also be a “hot shot” reference possibly. Perhaps somebody giving this person a hot shot.

[@thytuz]

Rewatching every single one of your Lana reactions just to say that you are amazing and I love you

[@monio.9444]

"ultrasoftly" is a refference to the word "ultraviolence" which the character Alex in A Clockwork Orange used a lot in his speech, and which lana refferenced before in songs. So, here "ultrasoftly" is to say actually not so softly, since the next line is "Like the heavy metal that you wear". So it's a poetic way of saying he hit her and she probably she was too indoctrinated to mind it, since she talks about this guy like he's Charles Manson or some other cult leader.

[@pedrosa486]

I'm majoring in Portuguese/English here in Brazil and one of theses days I've read a critic about an portuguese writer, "Florbela Espanca", saying that she "used her blood as ink for her poems" (not quoting) meaning she 'exhausted' her life onto her poetry... That got me thinking if maybe, both in "Heroin" and in "hope is a dangerous thing", this what Lana means by "writing in blood": that she's tired of pouring every bit of her life onto her songs, wich would make even more sense in "hope" because she talks about being "24/7 Sylvia Plath", that is another woman-poet that "poured" here actual life in to her art. This also resonates with her poem "Salamander", where she says that "she doesn't want to sell her stories anymore". Florbela Espanca was deeply criticized at her time for making her poems "too biographical", she was treated like she wasn't an actual poet/writer and for a long time she was forgotten for it; Sylvia Plath also is in this category of "autobiographical" poems/stories but on both, and on Lana, there's so much more than that.

[@thytuz]

Amazing reaction as usual

[@y2kbaby]

I think the rumbling could be how she is going crazy and how her world is falling apart. She says it sends her to sleep, can sleep be a way of saying she is drinking and it used as a coping mechanism? This is the aftermath of losing someone she was so close. Again, I can be VERY wrong!

[@xhappyponyxwasmyoldname1395]

I love your unedited reactions!

[@Rie_TheQueen]

Finally somebody suggested this song it’s one of my faves

[@user-hf6cd7bc7t]

Taste

[@JonathanRojas1993]

There’s more to this song than we think great analysis btw (:

[@brookemcgilvray3781]

I am here. :) Love this song.

[@aleksR18]

What I love about Lana's music is how all of us relate to the same song on so many different ways. For example for me heroin represents my childhood town (where I still live, unfortunately) It's very small, toxic a lot of drug and alcohol use. Here people often start drinking at the age of 12. It has the highest drug use (by percentage of citizens) in the whole country. And yet sometimes it's all you have. It can lure you in that world and make you the worst version of yourself. I'm 16 I have good grades, nice behavior and all that stuff but my parents have no idea how many times I was wasted not knowing where I am and how I got there. I stopped drinking but when you live here sometimes you just can't escape it. And I am living for the moment when I can leave this town for college and hopefully leave this country as well. Cause deep inside I know I'm not the way this town makes me look like. And I know that I can only become better person when I move somewhere else and have new start. Edit: also we all know how many addicts started with: "just wanna try it" to see how it feels saying that they won't get addicted, that they can control themselves etc. And the same thing happens with this town. All the good kids be like it's just one night in club, then it's just one drink, one cigarette, "that won't become their lifestyle", they won't get addicted to it. But they do. And even if you wanna quit it it's too late cause you already surrounded yourself with people who wouldn't let you go like that.

[@vamankumar5619]

her best song

[@Freezerbride5]

Lovely reaction 👏

[@derianmaya8912]

I love your reactions

[@sebastiandrews4816]

You should totally react to pretty when you cry from Lana. Would fit really well into you Lana series! Loving your takes on her music! ❤

[@lostkelceboy]

Could we maybe have Dark Paradise? I'm really curious to see your takes on it.

[@tinkerthetinyrobot]

no remedy for memory

[@a.a677]

@@tinkerthetinyrobot amazing line

[@sarinaazari3187]

your face is like a melody

[@katebretusch3752]

It won't leave my head

[@Canyoutakemebackwhereicamefrom]

She has another lyric "dope shoot it up straight to the heart plz". Maybe she tried heroin experimentally but i doubt she could be as functional as she is if it had lasted a long time. If it's not a metaphor then im guessing she ditched it pretty quickly. Its a terrible thing to go through i have a lot of emparhy for addicts i know what opiate withdrawl feels like because im on prescription pain management and if i miss a dose it is a horrendeus feeling, you feel hot flushes one min and cold shivers the next (maybe that lyric "its hot even for february" could be a refremce to that) also sleep is impossible you get leg cramps and body tremors (she talked about a rubling making it hard to sleep) but there are so many ways these lyrics could be intetpreted so who knows. I liked your analysis.

[@JoeHartman80]

Beautiful and so powerful. Really puts you in a trance like state of mind listening. Highly recommend wildflower wildfire

[@mendwithmere]

It does! I’ve already reacted to that song. It’s probably in the lana reaction playlist. Love it so

[@kingdylchicken8780]

Hey queen , you should listen to dark paradise. That song has a special place in my heart ❤

[@TodayWithKyle]

Ok stop. Stop it Mere. Stop…… seriously I’m beyond shook im deceased🤣 I literally commented on one of your videos two days ago for you to do this song, and meanwhile you actually were already doing it🙃🙃🙃 we are too connected and it’s freaking me out….so much love for you tho🤣💜💜💜

[@edmarmagalhaesc]

I love this song

[@jjamsterr]

Yesssss❤

[@EMOTIONBIGLIFE]

This one hits hard

[@AbandonedOnes]

4:57 meaning of could have been worse. Ultra softly

[@ryanarhlee5800]

The song sounds like a person who can’t feel the temperature, like she’s about to be cold to death but she still thinks it’s so hot.

[@chrystianaw8256]

True

[@gibrp]

“Jumping off from the salles and sht”….cant understand that, im not nativo speaker…. Can someone explain that pls 😅

[@johnathanmcvey874]

Ultra softly: Ultraviolence

[@Freezerbride5]

Lana

[@LisaEvelyn08]

Please do Starlight by Oktaf Kanis :)

[@leoanderson6705]

Omg the start “I’m going to be doing heroin” imagine a blind person watching this

[@alisatheinvestigator8329]

she did go to rehab

[@hebeeeeert]

I don't know if you have done Change by Lana del Rey too .. thanks for this videos

[@bmacd13]

Hope your son was ok xx

[@Ultraviolence14]

Yosemite please or 13 beaches

[@deonhideki]

Ur facecam is so small, i didn't like that streamyard thing, it is kinda bother me n it's blurred your pretty face

[@sidhantkalia2556]

Black beauty next pleasee

[@shelu451]

can you do sweet carolina please ??

[@pedroserrano8077]

please react to some Marina music. I recommend "obsessions" or "teen idle"

[@MsAlyssaMaria]

Very random song to recommend but could you listen to the song Poachers Pride by Nicole Dollanganger? I first heard it about a month ago and have been thinking about it since.

[@michellebastiani6470]

I had said something a few weeks ago about Nicole after I watched a reaction of hers to an artist who's name escapes my mind RN. But I had commented that it was very reminiscent of Nicole Dollaganger. Honestly I don't know if she would be able to handle Nicole's music. And to be a hundred percent honest, I think she might have a couple opinions that wouldn't sit well with me. Especially since she has had the reactions and opinions to certain lyrics of Lana's and choices for some of the men in certain videos. It just gives me pause because I think she could quite easily be "too" judgy when it comes to Nicole's music. Just imo.

[@Jejejejeje-e7z]

I the it’s fucking hot thing is talking abt global warming bc that whole album was for her fans talking abt real world stuff going on

[@n3ll.delrey]

Lana was talking about her ex boyfriend that died because of overdose

[@inorial5960]

did you know if she reacted to Mitski ? i would love to see that

[@therealpeppa3091]

Can u plz do living legend by lana

[@nyxanth247]

Lmao the intro could be taken wayyy out of context😭

[@sadhoneymoon]

listen dark paradise

[@lucymeltsmyheart844]

Heroine is good but only if you mix it with cocaine for a smooth speedball❤otherwise it makes you puke

[@Alexellis738]

I love this song but there are rumors of her over using pain medication

[@tinkerthetinyrobot]

everyone knows lana has been a drug addict and alcoholic. that doesn’t take away from her art

[@Massimo96120]

Hello Mere! Do you think Lana suffer from depression? Many of her songs are very sad and depressives and I just adore her pure sadness.

[@angela33841]

Next is nectar of god

[@fransciscoo]

Heroin in my opinion is just a metaphor for fame

[@amandacooper3465]

I personally get from this she is referring to a man as heroin and he is her heroin and she knows he is not good for her and he is her heroin. Bit that is just my personal thoughts on this...

[@lucymeltsmyheart844]

You prefer fentanyl 😂

[@lucymeltsmyheart844]

You talk too much with little sence.Take another bump because you’re not being featured.❤

[@NGCS-ej4lz]

Lana gives off serious BPD former hard drugs/sleeping around vibes.

[@katebretusch3752]

People are too stupid for her music, no offence to them, she is just way too clever

[@elizabethbednar6338]

Yes it’s been obvious since the first album

[@acidgage]

loved this vid 🖤 , i should be getting your book this sunday !! can’t wait to read it. 🧚🏻‍♀️🫧🦋

[@lanareydotcom]

tysm for thisss it's one of my favs