Mixed Manic Episode After Long-Term Stability (Euthymia) | Dysphoric Mania

In this video, I’m in the early stages of mixed mania (also called dysphoric mania or a mixed state) after being stable for a year and a half. This is what life is like right now.
I’m talking really slowly and look sleepy in this video because I increased my antipsychotic (Seroquel) to combat the hypomania per my dr. Thanks for bearing with me.
Without the increased antipsychotic, I would be talking really fast. 😵‍💫
“That’s all I want, is to be myself. Doesn’t seem like a lot to ask, does it? But if you have bipolar, sometimes it is.”
Also I meant to say “neurodivergent” instead of “neuroatypical” but my memory is failing a bit right now.
-Jess
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[@ourbipolar]

I’m talking really slowly and look sleepy in this video because I increased my antipsychotic (Seroquel) to combat the hypomania per my dr. Thanks for bearing with me. Without the increased antipsychotic, I would be talking really fast. 😵‍💫

[@marniebrimhall986]

❤thank you, you're Awesome!

[@ourbipolar]

You are!

[@zienaroser.7152]

I just recently have started being treated for bipolar 1 and your videos are so helpful because it’s not an easy thing to go through and your words really do help make me feel like I’m not alone. Thank you for sharing 💜

[@ourbipolar]

I’m so glad to hear that the videos help you. Are you on Instagram? If so, find me there under the same name. There’s a wonderful bipolar community there. 🤍

[@_karinyo]

Honestly watching other ppl talk about their bipolar makes me feel like I’m not crazy. I know myself and my challenges, but it’s hard sometimes to be surrounded by ppl who don’t understand…

[@ourbipolar]

Same. It’s why I love KZbin and IG. ❤️

[@Brandyelyse]

Thank you for sharing. I have bipolar 1 with psychotic features. Your nice state seems similar to moms. I've been diagnosed for 22 years and am stable on needs. I don't have any support in my life anymore and even tho my kids are older I have shielded them from my illness. I think it's time to really talk to them about my illness and what symptoms to watch for. ❤

[@ourbipolar]

Good luck!

[@Yikeznell]

Thank you so much for your content. My partner is bipolar and is going through an episode it’s tough because she got her diagnosis and she doesn’t understand what it does to her and I get the brunt of these negative symptoms. It helps to see someone have bipolar and manage it in a healthy and proactive way

[@ourbipolar]

Those early years can be tough. It took me awhile to get a handle on the right lifestyle changes and meds and just to be accepting of my new life and willing to change. Be sure to take care of yourself. ❤️

[@keithbieberly6445]

Sounds like a tricky balancing act. Hope you get back to equilibrium soon (if that's the right way to put it). And have a good birthday! (no pressure!)

[@ourbipolar]

Thanks, Keith! I’m impressed by your commenting speed as well. 😂

[@amphetaminebunny]

so so glad i've found your channel!!!!

[@ourbipolar]

Me too! 😘

[@kellyely9113]

I feel for you, and I hope that you can feel balanced and normalized again soon! Thank you for sharing your experience while you are going through it, it helps to validate my own bipolar experiences in my mind and untangle the cogitive distortions that were created from having parents with bipolar that went unrecognized and untreated. Daily, I practice meditative movement, writing and cogitive restructuring by allowing myself to fully feel (and this is extremely unpleasant, but necessary to be able to have a normalized amygdala for me), so I wish you well on your journey and peace be with you.

[@ourbipolar]

Thank you. I’m doing well now. I’m so glad that you have found ways to heal. ❤️

[@jenniferfutch2356]

Thank you for sharing!!! Im constantly constantly struggling. I have a teenage daughter who is in competitive dance so i unfortunately cant do the right self care to keep episodes from occuring unless i tell her no to this extremely demanding extracurricular activity

[@ourbipolar]

I understand. That must be hard. Try to take good care of yourself and step away from the dance activities when you can.

[@stangss1]

Trying to be normal, is going to drive you mad. Nobody is normal, people just pretend to be normal, when they are around other people. When we are around other people they are all pretending to be normal, acting; thats pretty hilarious. Its like Shakespeare said; all the words a stage.

[@Gaba.Groove]

🙏🏼❤️🙏🏼

[@TheBenzooh]

i am so upset, my doctor thinks that this is what i am going through right now. im angry and in denial because it all fits so perfectly. met this new doctor this year and she thinks i am bipolar becuase of everything ive told her and experienced since 2016-2022. i turned 30 this year also

[@ourbipolar]

❤️❤️❤️ I’m so sorry. I don’t blame you. Acceptance takes time. In the long run, diagnosis can be key to living an amazing life with bipolar, but right now you have every right to feel this way. ❤️

[@GreenAndTheToe]

Mixed episodes are so hard. I am experiencing Irritability and that makes it hard to be nice to my family. I could feel a switch in my head going on(off?) when the irritability started. I try to sleep and be quiet in bed to avoid any more stress but I’m not sure if it’s helping.

[@ourbipolar]

Irritability is my worst symptom. It’s hard to keep under wraps even though I know I’m being irrational.

[@greggwoodall255]

Hi, I’m also bipolar 1. When I’m fairly stable I still have lots of paranoid thoughts. Is this something that you experience ? Thank you for sharing.

[@ourbipolar]

Hi Gregg! I don’t have many paranoid thoughts outside of mania. I’d mention it to your dr in case something more can be done. -Jess

[@rosemaryking6650]

Hi have so many plans in my head, like going on holidays. But my husband says I am not stable enough. I feel good, its always kick back. Someone else control my life

[@ourbipolar]

Is it hypomania? Traveling while hypomanic or manic is always disastrous for me. ❤️

[@desfer3984]

Yes, we went through that and it was disastrous

[@Richer159]

Do people hospitalized with mixed Mania apologetic after the phase is over or do they still feel animosity with family and friends

[@ourbipolar]

It would depend on the person and situation. Most people I know tend to be apologetic after mania ends, unless they were mistreated by friends and family during the episode.

[@andrewbuckley8452]

Is it true people with Bipoler do not live long. I have notice they seem to look very tired and burned out.

[@ourbipolar]

According to Healthline, “life expectancy in bipolar disorder is around 67 years, which is 13 years less than the general population.” For more, visit www.healthline.com/health/bipolar-disorder/life-expectancy-with-bipolar-disorder#tips

[@anhmuoibolsa]

How long you were stable between manic episodes ?

[@ourbipolar]

A year and a half

[@desfer3984]

How much seroquel do you take when you are hypomanic

[@ourbipolar]

Whatever my dr says. Usually 25-50% more than what I usually take.

[@henobani8039]

thank you for your videos, my mom recently got diagnosed with bipolar, i'm 30 and it all makes sooo much sense now... the symptoms and the feelings i've been having... it's been really hard

[@ourbipolar]

Sending love ❤️