My Gender Journey 💞🤍💞

[@Hyathin]

So happy for you, Brynn! I always love the way you talk about your gender journey and open it up to us.

[@brynnavery]

Thank you so much 💛

[@Aquatendo]

Congrats on 2 years! Crazy it’s been that long already. I just had mine and am 6 weeks post op! I always like watching your videos since your journey with gender is pretty relatable to mine, so I hope you continue posting - even if it’s just every once in a while!

[@brynnavery]

Congrats!! I hope you’re healing well!! 💛 I think I may post more starting soon. I live with my mom and she’s home a lot so sometimes it’s weird filming because she can hear me lol, but she has to go back to working in the office twice a week starting in April, so I’ll have more alone time and will probably make more videos more often 🙂

[@Aquatendo]

@@brynnavery Thanks! I also live with my parents and my dad is retired so I get it. I never get any alone time in the house lol

[@gabrielraphael8084]

I can really feel your femininity coming through more and more. It's inspiring to me because I see it especially in moments when you smile and are happy.

[@brynnavery]

Thank you so much, that’s so sweet 💛

[@hannahroedder936]

Finished. I've been on HRT for three years, and I'm boringly binary, but aspects of my taste and presentation will always be colored by my half a century living as a male. Identity and presentation and sexuality are all different, and need not conform to any existing historical model or expectation. 🖤🤍💜🏳‍🌈🏳‍⚧

[@brynnavery]

That makes perfect sense, I totally agree. Nothing wrong with being binary, always be yourself! 💛

[@user-uo9kf1sx5o]

I love the "boringly binary". Had a good laugh at that haha

[@ChadPetersen]

I've appreciated seeing your Journey and it's helped me significantly in understanding myself. And also to not feel so alone in the world. Thank you for making these.

[@brynnavery]

I’m so glad my videos make you feel less alone. You deserve to feel seen and represented💛

[@gabrielraphael8084]

I resonate with how you say bottom surgery made you feel allowed to explore your femininity. I feel that very strongly and can't wait to get there even though I haven't yet started the journey.

[@brynnavery]

That’s ok, it’s ok to take your time. I hope you’re able to make whatever decisions you need to in order to feel most like yourself 💛

[@MadelynFraser-v9g]

Thanks, Brynn! This is exactly what I needed to hear. It’s really reassuring to hear your process. I made it to the end. ❤️

[@brynnavery]

Thank you so much for your support (and for spelling my name with 2 n’s 🥹) 💛

[@taatiklarian4516]

Just had my orchiectomy today (on path to the big one lol) but ty for uploading seeing this was really nice to see felt nice to see ❤

[@taatiklarian4516]

Not even my end goal but i am elated rn im only 18 and im so lucky to be able to have this but even then this journey was so long ive wanted this since i was just 11 yo

[@brynnavery]

Hope you’re healing well!! 💛

[@Winter__0]

I’m so happy for you!! I’m definitely coming into a similar realization!! I’m am so glad that you are coming more into yourself!

[@brynnavery]

Thank you!! Much love 💛

[@Winter__0]

@@brynnavery You’re welcome!💛

[@lobuk516]

Made it aaalll the way to the end ☺️☺️ It was good to hear from you

[@brynnavery]

Happy to hear that! 💛

[@harmony9341]

Hi! Always appreciate your videos, thank you. Been watching you for my whole gender journey (2 1/2 years) and your perspectives have always been interesting and helpful for me.

[@brynnavery]

That makes me so happy to hear 💛

[@studioghiblets958]

Regardless on if you continue to make videos, I just wanted to say that I really appreciate you making the ones you have. I am afab and about a year or so ago really started analyzing my gender. Your experience felt very validating to me, even though I am dysphoric in an opposite way. I am starting hrt in a week and I am very happy to be going down this path. I know it wont be easy, but I am not alone in my feelings and there are others that understand to an extent what I am going through and feeling. Thank you so much for sharing your thoughts. You seem like an awesome person and I love you vibe a lot! Take care out there!

[@brynnavery]

I’m glad you can find comfort in my videos. Congratulations on starting T, I hope it goes well for you!! You deserve to feel at home in your body. Much love 💛

[@colbyhill-nixon6815]

I love your videos, you are so open and honest and it’s lovely to see :). Also nice shirt

[@brynnavery]

Thank you so much!! 💛

[@michaeleberl2222]

Yay! New Bryn video!! Always good to hear from you. You sound and look like you're doing so well. Made it to the end as usual. Thanks again. Much love 💗

[@brynnavery]

Thank you so much 💛

[@PanhandleRunner]

I just caught up with this Brynn, and was moved by your transparency, sincerity, and your strong (but soft) feminine nature. I so identified with your journey. I’m AMAB, came out older (really older) and have only been on GAHT for 9 months. During that time I have been vacillating on the non-binary/ Femme spectrum, and questioning my identity. I say all that to get to “THANK YOU” for affirming that it is okay to question, to wonder, to work out who I am in my quest for my own authenticity. ❤

[@kayla8402]

Love hearing your check-ins, even infrequent. You look so pretty here! Just very... present as you, natural, a bit glowing actually. Over time I've starting directly relating to various pieces of your videos since I'm actually making changes and it's such a tricky process figuring out if something is who I am or just the closest thing my brain will allow at the moment. I was always super jealous of like, 90's androgyny and have felt a weird resonance to a fair number of things I've heard trans guys talk about. But it's like... I can feel something bigger, more fem (probably not like super fem, just more... "woman" feeling) looming somewhere I can't access yet. Just have so many things I have to process and experience my way through. I'm definitely she/her, but so many words are hard to not feel unearned. Not at all raised xian, but I'm 40 so like. Even positive trans rep had a very narrow range of stories to it, even where there was variation. Why it took me so long to realize I had gender issues beyond "just not a very normally masc-feeling guy". So it's been good seeing you take so much time to figure things out, cause I'm realizing it's going to be something of a long term slog for me as well, and it's another way to feel less alone when you're a bit different from a lot of the trans girls you see.

[@brynnavery]

Thank you so much 💛 I totally get what you’re saying. Gender can be a very complex thing to address, especially when you don’t fit the typical narrative. It’s ok to take your time. I started questioning my gender back in 2013, and I’m still figuring stuff out. I promise you’re not alone. You’ll find the answers when you’re ready to. You mentioned feeling like you haven’t earned certain words/labels yet: I can 100% relate to that. That can be a hard thing to grapple with, and I’m still working through that so there’s no judgement, but I just want to let you know/remind you that there is no way to really earn them. I know many times it’s more complicated than that and there can be feelings of shame or gaslighting or gatekeeping, etc. but at the end of the day if you like a label or a word, you can use it. Much love and good luck with everything 💛

[@all-the-spiders]

I relate to this hardcore. I feel that it can be very difficult to parse whether I'm truly nonbinary or if I felt it was a consolation prize for missing out on being born a girl. That being said, every time I think I'm warming up to binary identity, something comes along to give me dysphoria over not being androgynous enough, and vise versa. Perhaps every trans persons gender is in a constant state of flux. Or perhaps that's just me. But I'm glad to see other transfemmes speak on this experience, because it's common, yet very isolating

[@brynnavery]

That makes so much sense. It’s ok to be in a constant state of flux, and I know you’re definitely not the only one. People are constantly changing, and sometimes some things feel right for a moment, or a period of time, and then something else feels right later on. I know it sucks to feel isolated, but just know you’re not alone and you’re perfect however you are 💛

[@Rhyswithoutherspoon]

Thank you for sharing your experience. Seeing your trans joy brings a smile to my face 💛

[@brynnavery]

Omg thank you so much 🥹💛

[@beautifulgirl219]

Another great video Bryn, thanks. I've grown a bit fatigued of trying to label myself, especially my sexual orientation, though i'm pretty binary in my preference for presenting as ultrafemme. I think I identify with & relate to my experience of you as an evolving person. Cheers and blessings. :)

[@brynnavery]

Thank you! Honestly sometimes not having a label can be more freeing than finding a label. Glad to hear you can relate to me 💛

[@lou3893]

i have a similar experience (as trans guy) i think and i just want you to know (even tho you probably do) that you don't have to be a 100% sure that you're a woman (or bc you dont feel good enough) and still say that you are because it feels good

[@DarthRayj]

It's really funny you've added an "n" back into your name cuz I've been doing the opposite thing for the past couple years and I'm about to legally change it!! I'd been identifying as non-binary when I changed it the first time, and so I chose Kaelan because it's relatively neutral, but I've switched to Kaela pretty thoroughly for a couple years now. I'm also about to have bottom surgery (for the second time, I had only done a limited version at first because I wasn't ready yet) so I'm probably going to rewatch your videos about that. I can only hope that I have some of the experience of connecting back to that feminine part of me that you mention after my own surgery, because I think I'm still having a bit of an internal block similar to the one you described due to that certain body part.

[@brynnavery]

Kaelan and Kaela are both awesome names! And congrats on legally changing it soon! I hope your surgery goes well!! Best of luck with everything 💛

[@BobiBamlett]

Thank you for sharing. I'm happy to see you back. I really enjoy listening to prospective on transition. Take care and look forward to your next video. ❤

[@brynnavery]

Thank you 💛

[@Cable..0]

Bryn just post whenever you feel like it tbh youre video's have helped with my understanding of my gender aswell and id like to thank you. ♥️

[@brynnavery]

That makes me so happy, I’m glad I can help 💛

[@Bryn-f8g]

I started watching your channel several months ago when I was identifying as nonbinary (completely neutral) and using they/them pronouns, I really related to things you talked about and thought you were really cool and I ended up changing my name to Bryn because I was looking for a new name that was more explicitly not-male and thought it was really pretty - anyway a week after I started dating my recent boyfriend (the first partner I've started dating after coming out as trans) I realized I wanted him to call me his girlfriend, and felt more and more connected to womanhood and started using she/her pronouns, what's crazy to me is a couple weeks ago I started spelling my name Brynn because it felt more feminine, and I'm watching this video like wthh that's insane because you're doing the same thing and going through similar gender stuff 😭 Anyway I'm glad you're figuring yourself out and doing things that make you happy

[@brynnavery]

Oh my god I love that so much!! I’m glad you’re finding yourself, and I’m honored that you chose Bryn/Brynn as your name. 💕

[@Skye_Berg]

Finished the whole video. Thank you so much for sharing your story🫶🏻 I had couldn’t don’t any representation in the past that I could say: “hey that is in a way how I feel”. Until I gladly stumbled on your channel a while ago. I feel so much more confident to just be myself and taking the steps that I want as a AMAB trans fem enby. In a few months time I will under go bottom surgery and prior to that I have a lot of different connections with my internal and external gender expression. In a way that is clear that the whole transition, is the right step to create a fully connection with myself. Your videos help me a lot to put it all in words. So thank you so much again for expressing yourself. Also, with this videos I understand that is okey to be fluid, like go with the energie flow of life thats feel right at that moment. Right now I don’t think that I would ever change my pronounces or gender identity. But you know, maybe at someday. I know now that it is okey for having those thoughts and not directly to act on it.

[@brynnavery]

I’m so glad to hear how my videos have helped you! I know how impactful it can be to see someone represent you, even if not fully. You deserve to be yourself, and if that changes overtime that’s totally ok. Best of luck with your surgery, and thank you for your support 💛

[@maeveberlin]

I've always been able to relate to your videos and experience of gender a lot, and find your process so interesting... For me it feels like the opposite is happening, as a non-binary person who had bottom surgery last year. Before I felt like I had to perform femininity to validate my identity to myself or have any chance of 'earning' it in the eyes of others. Ever since surgery I care less about how people perceive me than ever and am less interested in femininity than ever - it's something I may perform aspects of, but by now the concept of womanhood feels as abhorrent to me as manhood. It does feel like there's something not quite resolved simmering under the surface though - curious where that'll be going. Curious where you'll be going too!

[@brynnavery]

That makes perfect sense. I think that’s awesome that you feel more comfortable in yourself and that you don’t have to perform femininity in order to feel secure. You deserve to be yourself! 💛

[@Aligarde]

Maid it to the end~! Thank you so much for sharing your journey, & in particular all your emotional analysis... it really is an important one. Should you stop posting videos, thank for all the time you took so far, & the best to wishes for you in the future! Congrats on what you've done so far, & take care. 🥰

[@brynnavery]

Thank you so much for your support 💛

[@Aligarde]

@@brynnavery

[@5o1ipticdrone]

Going there and back again is base AF! I was hanging out with a Transfem to masc. Some people just love the process. I sometimes go by they/them when I feel an a androgyne which I separate from myself as a she/her, Thanks for sharing your story.

[@brynnavery]

Thank you, I think the journey is so much more important than the destination 💛

[@iggy_the_enby_iguana532]

Made it to the end, I really appreciate and find it very insightful the way you discuss your journey and experiences. It helps me reflect on my own identity and ponder my own feelings around my gender journey as well, which always a work in progress lol You were also a huge inspiration in me starting feminizing hormones almost 2 years ago now too 🤗 sending you peace and love Brynn ✌🏼

[@brynnavery]

That makes me so happy, and congratulations on being almost two years on HRT! Thank you 💛

[@May-om7ck]

Finished. I really loved this for one reason: im a musitian and i struggle defining my " brand " style etc and literally as i was hearing your identity journey i felt less alone because sometimes its hard to define what we are .. If you know what i mean. Thank u❤

[@lensolla7777]

Always so nice to catch up with you! 🧡

[@brynnavery]

Thank you! 💛

[@emilie5135]

Thank you for your videos. You talking about your experience has helped me put words to mine.

[@brynnavery]

I’m really glad my videos help you 💛

[@mildmannered1086]

This is such a valuable video to people that you have shared

[@brynnavery]

Thank you, I’m glad people can relate 💛

[@felfar197]

I love your videos so much, you bring so much calm and comfort with you ♡♡♡ I am non-binary transmask, and I suddenly find a lot in common between us, you really do help me understand that I am ok thank you

[@brynnavery]

Happy to hear my videos resonate with you. You are more than ok. You’re perfect as whomever you are. Much love 💛

[@felfar197]

@@brynnavery thank you so much!!!♡♡♡ :,)

[@catoboros]

Brynn, I am glad to hear you are doing well. I made it to the end! ❤🏳‍⚧

[@brynnavery]

Thank you!! 💛

[@JubeiKibagamiFez]

Gender roles need to be dissolved. Everyone deserves to live how they feel.

[@brynnavery]

💛💛💛

[@pvazplasen5109]

Hi❤, I discovered your channel recently and I felt so reflected on your experience (I just want to thank you so much because I was getting crazy from loneliness and findimg your videos helped me so much) Im a 25yo amab nonbinary femme who came out 5 years ago and Ive had a rough time afraid of the health consequences of starting hormone therapy while Im not seen in most of my social interactions which is leading me to deep depression and social anxiety One of the things that scare me the most are terfs or women who see me as a man and feel afraid of me or treat me like an imposter To see how you managed to be with women like one of them in any way fills me with hope of achieving it one day How do you deal with terfs? I would also like to know more about your bottom surgery and how it helped you to embrace femininity and to start accepting the label "lesbian" even when you are amab I didnt even know that was possible and when I think about it I just want to cry and I want to be where you are right now

[@carolinegerrari8548]

Thank you for sharing! Love this! 💕

[@brynnavery]

💛

[@AbbyKuusisto-cl7lr]

​@@brynnavery❤❤❤❤❤❤

[@popando]

always loved your content

[@brynnavery]

Thank you 💛

[@purplxed1519]

Made it to end lol ❤ i love your insights i can really relate, especially in my current gender dilemma lol

[@brynnavery]

Thank you, I’m glad you can relate 💛

[@charlieb6210]

sometimes i wish gender wasn’t something i constantly thought about. i have been avoiding labels and just want to be myself and exist in the world in a way that makes me happy and comfortable- is that too much to ask?

[@brynnavery]

I totally agree. I hope we can get to a world someday where that’s possible 💛

[@znswanderer]

Hi Brynn, of course I made it to the end ;) I can relate to so much of what you say. But maybe it's just that I'm projecting my own thoughts onto what you say. I hope you'll forgive me for that! Yes, especially at the beginning of the transition, it was more of a performance for me too, as if I had to earn the right to be a woman. And then all these toxic TERF discussions got more and more prominent, so I often found it easier to not even try too hard. I can also relate so well to the dysphoria episode at the mall: just a few weeks ago I wanted to buy some new clothes at a mall here, but then had such a panic attack among all the girls and women that I would be seen as a man that I immediately went back home. Luckily it is possible to order clothes by mail order. Always nice to hear from you!

[@brynnavery]

I’m sorry to hear about your experience at the mall. Dysphoria sucks ass lol, but I hope you’re feeling better now! I’m glad my videos have been able to bring you a level of comfort. You’re not alone, even when it feels that way 💛

[@Christie-ut2eg]

I am trying to watch this type of content to try to understand. I'm not there yet, but I am trying.

[@brynnavery]

I appreciate your honesty and your willingness to step out of your comfort zone and learn 💛 if you have questions, you’re always welcome to comment them, or message me on Instagram (@_paraph). I tend to be a little slow to respond but I try my best 💛

[@riverchampeimont]

It's great you are able to affirm yourself in a changing gender identity. There can be a lot of pressure to stay "consistent" so it's very courageous. In your case you were always more on the feminine side though even before. I know someone who is nonbinary but feels closer to womanhood and identifies as demigirl: is it maybe sometimes you considered? (Not trying to convince you to identify differently to be clear, you are totally legitimate to identify as a "full" woman of course)

[@brynnavery]

Thank you! It’s taken a while to feel ok with changing, but changing is a part of life so I’m happy with it. I’ve heard the term demi girl before, for whatever reason it doesn’t seem to resonate with me (even if technically speaking, I fall under that label). I think as time moves forward, I care less about labeling my gender, and labels kind of stress me out lol. Even now, I’ll use the term woman when talking about myself sometimes (usually to close friends only) but overall I’m generally just like “I’m me,” and that seems to suffice lol (:

[@riverchampeimont]

@@brynnavery Yes I understand, I was just curious. In my case I don't use microlabels most of the time because it feels much harder to be sure I am that specific thing.

[@brynnavery]

@riverchampeimont that makes a lot of sense 🙂 The narrower the box, the harder the fit lol

[@gabrielraphael8084]

Also, I really hope I will become a lesbian after transition too.

[@brynnavery]

💛

[@James-n3p2u]

Really enjoyed this video!

[@brynnavery]

So happy to hear that 💛

[@dawnslack5515]

Got to the end. I watch all of your videos.

[@brynnavery]

💛

[@jimiwills]

Yeah, I made it to the end 😂 of course! Byeee ❤

[@brynnavery]

💛

[@JosephYeager-z3o]

Made it!

[@brynnavery]

💛

[@mudkip_btw]

will watch later but hope you're doing well 💜 here's a comment for the algorithm karma xd

[@brynnavery]

Thank you 💛

[@jaynalerta]

Hi Bryn (my english isn't this good cause of this i din't know if i should write with two "N" or with one) You look so good. Hey it's so helpfull to see a new Video of you. I too changed my Pronouns from (she/no Pronouns) to (she/her). I came out as non binary than as trans wmWomen than as Demigirl and know i feel very comftable to say im a trans Women. And i love to wear very femin cloths and mixing with tomboy stuff. In Decemver i have my bottom surgery and i can't wait. The topic to do things that i missed as a kid and in a christian family, i can feel you i was in the same situation, now i go to clubs and feel feminin/lesbian there, i buyed flower bed sheets (cause it helped me to feel girly and i have to cry as i do it on it cause it feels so right), i buy feminin cloths and feminin accesoirs, i do make up and Stuff. And with a enby Friend of me we plan a girl sleepover party with our friends who can realte with the frame girl. Just to do somthing that we missed in our youth.

[@brynnavery]

That makes me so happy to hear you’re discovering/healing your inner child. Being able to do all the things you missed out in growing up can be so healing. You deserve the happiest life you can live. Best of luck with everything 💛

[@jimiwills]

Super interesting ❤ thanks for sharing 😊

[@brynnavery]

Thank you for watching! 💛

[@thomaszermpoulis1280]

so cute ❤

[@brynnavery]

Thank you 💛

[@A_Me_Amy]

You are non binary and binary and feminine and masculine and androgenous. You can express anything for any reason. This is what I think. Even if I am a trans girl. Embrace your full self. I won't, my male self is in jail. Perhaps it ismore like... The one in front, is female. for me. I dunno... but I love this Suno AI song I made "left is right the middle way" "love and hate in tandem fight" "feel the dawn of hidden light"

[@stevie_M]

I love the tomboy girl look Bryn it suits you.

[@brynnavery]

Thank you!! 💛

[@Auggies1956]

I'm glad for you, something I didn't have the courage to do.

[@brynnavery]

It’s never too late! But it’s also ok to decide against it, whatever is best for you. Regardless I hope you find/have happiness 💛

[@ma.yf06]

💯❤️‍🔥

[@brynnavery]

💛

[@keyboarddancers7751]

You definitely pass as a non binary trans woman. Are there any women in the comments section?

[@hayleygullett]

[@brynnavery]

💛

[@HAMAZA-x7d]

😍❤️‍🔥🥰😘😘❤️‍🔥💯❤️‍🔥💯

[@thelemon5069]

I get such envy from you lol

[@brynnavery]

Omg that’s such a wonderful compliment 🥹💛

[@breekolean2758]

I know some people in your area. Ever heard of the Beveridge Brothers Band saw your guitar and keys

[@brynnavery]

Oh cool! I haven’t heard of them!

[@lucabrandozzi8867]

wait i can’t find your ig, i wanted to dm you

[@brynnavery]

Hey! My bad I forgot to update my link. My username is _paraph