My hallucinations and flat effect

Please sport by liking and subscribing it would mean so much 😊
I hope you enjoyed and THANKS FOR WATCHING

[@changes2015]

Flat affect (the a is pronounced like apple) is when your voice basically stays the same tone and is expressionless.

[@rosepetal7995]

I don’t think you need to script. your personality it self is perfect can’t wait for your channel to grow more. ❣️

[@Jen-nemo1934]

Agree 💕

[@Leonicles]

I have the "Resting Sad Face" too. I'm really going to miss wearing masks, now that the pandemic is (hopefully) ending. With masks, there have been no strange dudes at the grocery store saying "why are you so sad?" or worse "you would be so pretty if you'd just smile." So I've sorta trained myself to fix my face in public- but it sure was nice to relax my face this year. Your channel is amazing and immensely helpful. I'm now looking at your older stuff (I can't believe you're only 15 here. So damned smart!) Thank you for sharing yourself. You're really making the world a better place

[@rinzler9775]

Yeah its annoying to watch, guys just going up and saying that to women and their intentions are clearly not driven out of genuine concern. Its cringy. Nobody likes "nice guys" as they are far from actually being nice.

[@ariharris9221]

“Now that the pandemic is ending” HAHAHAHAHAHA go next variant. In 2032 I predict we will have a new water transmissible pandemic

[@bigbeefscorcho]

I know it’s much worse for women as far as getting bothered by strangers in public, but I also have a very blank resting face that sometimes puts others off at first, which pains me because I swear I’m a very sweet guy underneath my less-than-bubbly appearance haha

[@jima.6456]

I like the way that you speak rationally about your affliction, you seem to do very well, describing this. I have great respect for your effort.

[@kizzyharding3529]

Imagine talking and having someone talking in your head at the same time, I'd be annoyed.

[@harryportfelikartakredytow8907]

I might have a crush on you (I can't believe I'm saying this, sorry, this is probably really awkward but please take it as a compliment), your personality seems perfect and I love your attitude. I feel like you're a realist with lots of acceptance towards what life brings you. You're absolutely not dull, I could listen to you for hours.

[@kass_G59]

I agree! He’s super cute too ❤️ Hope nothing but the best for him. He seems so sweet.

[@merandaoakes6250]

No I’m crushin too

[@fiji5554]

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[@tanjadahl941]

You are not dull, you are perfect as you are. That's a part of the authenticity that you don't have scripts :)

[@citizenofatlantis9707]

Im a bipolar disorder type 1 patient, I’ve been internalized multiple times and I have interacted with people with schizophrenia. Most of them had something in common, they had visual hallucinations of a man with a suit and a top hat. I wonder why different people that I’ve met through my life with this condition which have nothing to do with each other have seen this!!

[@abecerra3060]

Citizen Of Atlantis that’s creepy honestly

[@zoomer8367]

Maybe because of movies?

[@shaynaaak8169]

Before I was hearing voices last year. I think at the end or in the middle of dec of 2018. I was in my room it was dark and I saw a man in a suit and he was really tall and Had a hat on. But I just went to sleep.

[@Vox.n.keyzzz]

i have sleep apnea. its hereditary, im pretty sure...as my dad had it too & he actually died in his sleep back in 2011 from a heart attack caused by a severe episode of sleep apnea. the reason im telling you this is that living with a sleep disorder like sleep apnea, makes us more prone to experiencing other sleep disorders...things like sleep paralasis, for instance, which is something ive struggled with off & on at different times throughout my life so far. there have been times in my life where it has gotten really out of control for a bit, there have even been nites when its kept happened again and again, & everytime i fought through it and tried to go back to sleep it just kept happening to me over and over again multiple times over the course of the same night. imagine 8 hrs of torture...aka vivid hypnogogic hallucinations that soo convincingly mimic the experience of being spiritually & bodily attacked, the feeling of waking up to find yourself completely paralized, your helpless body being attacked by demonic entities, and youre powerless to fight back or do anything to defend yourself. its the most terrifying experience that you could ever imagine. and its soo vivid & real, that you genuinely believe it is. that its all just as real as it appears to be. anyways, i just found it interesting that you mentioned "the man with the hat" because ive heard about him before. alot of people who experience sleep paralisis see him regularly in their typical nightly hallucinations....not me personally, the things that i usually saw were far more grotesque & unsettling imo than a man in a suit could ever be....but i know lots of other people who have seen "him" before & im sure there are many of us out there who still continue to see him regularly at night. not too pleasant is it? the idea that "his" persona apparently has the power to affect the sufferers of not just one specific psychiatric &/or medical condition but multiple patients with different medical conditions? ughhh...not cool man. to anyone else out there if youre reading this & you suffer from sleep paralisis the best way ive found to combat it is to try your hardest to just ignore whatever scary effed up shit it is you happen to be seeing in that moment, just look away or close your eyes if u can. try to block it out completely and place 100% of your focus, all your energy, on moving one specific part of your body. like your big toe. your foot. a finger...dosent matter what it is just keep willing yourself as hard as u can to move it cuz as soon as you do, (& trust me, u CAN do it) it breaks the "spell" completely...and youll finally be able to move agai so you can get up. do that. then stay awake for a little while before you try going back to sleep. go get a snack or something. then put a bible under your pillow. and when you do decide to try to go back to sleep lay on your side or your stomach. avoid sleeping on your back. & if u ever get really scared, or u fear for your life, or if none of the stuff i just mentioned is working then call out to jesus for help. say a prayer in your head or even better say his name outloud if your can. try to speak with authority. say in jesus name i ccommand you to leave this house its a house of god. go back to hell from whence you came in jesus name amen. hope this helps somebody out there. remember "they" feed on lower vibrations. especially fear so dont be afraid. youll only be feeding them, giving them more power. stay strong & good luck! ill be praying for us all. 🙏😇

[@merlinhamsters668]

@@shaynaaak8169 I saw those as a child

[@napalmtomahawk]

I've had 1 psychotic break, I would not wish it on any person. 1 episode that lasted several months rocked me to my core, I cannot imagine having it as a permanent diagnosis. Good luck to you.

[@kerenzamerritt1562]

My friends used to call me paranoid all the time we could be sitting on her porch and id randomly say i think we should go or i think we should go inside or get down where people couldn’t see us because i would feel like there was something coming and idk what caused it but sometimes i see shadow people too and at school i used to see this nun but i don’t think it’s scizoprina but if it is it isn’t to bad i’m not sure how to spell it i just think it was anxiety, and i’ll search my room for cameras or the bathroom and living room when no ones home thinking there’s something watching me and recording me but you’re inspirational i’m glad i found your channel

[@marcspeirs362]

Me to, but I hear my name being called

[@rachaelrichardson5866]

GOD is always WATCHING #GODKNOWS #GODWINS #ONELOVE GOD BLESS YOU..

[@stephanie1733]

You fully deserve more views and subscriptions. I appreciate these videos. Please don't script it, your natural thought process and speech patterns help the viewers understand you even more.

[@fiona9728]

When im on my anti depressants I feel emotionless too. My friends started questioning if I was okay but I would jsut tell them yeah I'm fine I just dont feel anything. I get it

[@poppymoonpaw565]

I've been binge-watching these videos. I dealt with psychosis a couple of times, so I have an idea of what you're going through. This is so great when it came to information and such.

[@4r1mAS]

I'M AT YOU'RE HOUSE

[@dgames220]

@@4r1mAS Your*

[@SilviaHernandez-jf9nl]

U are a gift to life , such an amazing boy, keep it up kiddo , love ur videos, ♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️

[@prestondurnell5394]

I’m glad I discovered your channel. It’s really cool to see you open up about your life and what you go through. Really proud of what you’re doin here

[@adrianaangelidis4130]

You’re an incredible person. If you have Instagram would love to see your posts there too. You’re very wise and brave to speak on your experiences, never give up - you are so strong 🖤

[@Viera_xx]

Hey man I can’t relate to the other things you have but I do deal with depression and anxiety so I can understand that but I am very happy that you want to bring awareness to the subject of mental illness and very glad that you saw what was happening and wanted to get help it takes courage

[@liambelfast6001]

i feel your every word , my friend . i have been living with paranoid schizophrenia since i was 18 . your not alone mate ,keep up the good fight. sending you all my respect from ,Belfast Northern Ireland .

[@luvg_rose]

Stumbled upon your channel for my psychology class. Thank you so much for sharing. Helps a lot.

[@travisgaye8003]

Dude, your strength & willpower is light years ahead of most people - myself included. Thank you for peeling back the curtains for us and I wish you the best of luck moving forward 💪

[@spacecat3198]

Damn you do really well for all those meds. I think you did (and still doing) a great job here sharing experiences with the world because your videos got recommended. Your friends sound great. Thanks again!

[@nikkimcmurtrey8931]

Thanks for sharing your experiences,am sorry you have to deal with the things you do, but you seem to have really positive attitude and that's really great 🧡

[@TheKatarinaGiselle]

You sounds like you have a great group of friends that is all accepting and kind! I’m happy for you and I know this video is old, but I hope you still have a great group of friends!

[@powbangcrash8852]

I just found your channel. You seem live such a sweet guy with a great head on your shoulders. My sister was schizo. We had a shitty home life. Please keep a good support system and stay on your meds. I wish you all the best.

[@freepalestine7687]

I really hope you overcome everything that hinders you in life. Having illusions must be awful but Never ever lose hope and gratefulness as remembering all the good things, no matter how little. Greetings from Germany

[@renastrickland2517]

You are not dull you are funny and charismatic and very aware of yourself! Be proud!! U are a beautiful soul! And are taking time to reach and teach people about what you and a lot of other may be going threw! Thank u

[@Saikaxx]

I know this is older, but your videos make me feel better! Thank you so much

[@kass_G59]

I also have flat affect like the majority of the time. I agree with you “it’s not good, it’s not bad” it just is what it is, basically lol. Hope nothing but the best for you, you got this! 🖤❤️💛

[@martinmarcinkevic3893]

You're so strong man wow. So self aware. You're exceptional human man.

[@inkak3987]

i dunno if you read the comments, but i just wanted to say that you're not dull at all! i actually wanted to compliment you on your personality, I always feel super comfortable while watching your videos, it's like having a chat with a good mate. :) sending u love haha

[@Mannie455g]

Thank you for making this video. Could you please do a video on schizophrenia, stigma & misconceptions?

[@cowboyassass1n]

You're a strong young man, putting yourself out there, in the raw! Kind of a badass if you ask me, and its just you trying to survive the day! Keep on keeping on bro, you got this!

[@sjay9398]

You are very special... im a new subscription and you give me hope thank you

[@gppoem3344]

TY for sharing. 💙💙💙

[@ashleyraley8124]

Are the voices always the same ones? Like do they have names? Or is it always just random voices?

[@Kuijih]

Random voices

[@dyrefate]

For me one has a name, others don't, and some take names of people I know

[@KasinaMedeis]

@@dyrefate because it's literal dead people your hearing I'd assume it'd be possible for the voices to even have personality

[@dyrefate]

@@KasinaMedeis that one certainly has a personality. I believe he's a real person too.

[@KasinaMedeis]

@@dyrefate more like was

[@RobertRyanIV]

Bro, your awesome and I really hope for the best for you and I love your personality and I relate to what you talk about a lot. I know you’ve probably heard this a lot but would love to become friends with you bro. 🖤✨

[@Sneakyyy0]

I respect you so much for making this video man! .. I have schizophrenia and the flat affect symptom is quite new to me. Its starting to affect my friendships and my self esteem to a bad extent. Do you have any tips to help me out? I've been on the same anti psychotic meds for 3 years now.

[@paucosmos9050]

That's actually really cool. Keep the hard work

[@SAMsamSAMsam70]

What a brave gentleman and nice personality💞

[@valentinadiaz709]

LOving your vids, you are adorable xoxox

[@ivylulu6297]

Love uuuuuuy sending u love 💕❤️

[@alaskaislostk554]

Hey you! I really appreciate your content and respect your work, mental illnesses sadly are too underated to be discussed in our society! I'm dealing with Depressions and anxiety Attacks since I was 13. Now i'm 20. But what I wanted to add... your Videos help me a lot. I have a question: Does schizophrenia affect your ability to read? Lots of love from Germany♥️🖖

[@rachelbaisley9605]

You are so cute and so strong ❤ you'll get through this

[@aaquamarine777]

You’re so strong dealing with all the stuff I fucking admire you (also you’re sooooo handsome I know is meaningless but everyone likes to hear that sometimes haha)

[@triciaerica13]

I think you're such a cool guy, I wish you all the best in the world. Sending you my love 🥰😘💋

[@belindarosenheim2322]

I'm 52. I'm trying to help my hubby with blunt blunted affect. Thanks. More please.😊

[@arikcruz5682]

I love your content and your vulnerability

[@johnhauser8494]

Bro so many girls commenting on your videos you lucky dog. Best of luck man you seem like a good kid.

[@stephanie1733]

I'm quite interested in your 'friend' Victor. I'd like to hear the backstory and 'relationship' you've had with him. How do you feel about him not talking to you in a long time? Is it disappointing,? relieving? Painful? Hurtful? I'm curious if it feels as though a dear friend is mad at you. Please don't stop making these videos. I admire the courage it takes to "put yourself out there" so-to-speak.

[@vickystinson2135]

It sounds like you have great friends.

[@MagicandMantra]

I have had good effects from listening to mantras while I am sleeping . I listened to them very low and have had very good results.

[@claudia3756]

Hahaha the imitation of the voice was great ahahaha.

[@elizabethkrupski5424]

I would like to know more about Victor and what he would tell you.

[@engindzhanhalmi769]

After my psychosis i had the feeling that people can hear my thinking and i always was hearing negative whispers with the voices of diffrent people.

[@boonecheryl5]

I love listening to you. Are your voices male or female?

[@obo873]

U r the best Love you

[@teresawelcome8354]

Psychology student here...flat affect (affect has the stress on the first syllable, like the a in 'ass' and then fect...a-fect :) it's easily defined as "lack of emotional expression." Which is basically what he said.

[@martinrubio6538]

Love you an ive been going through the same shit you do. Still i have flat affect but i find it hard to motivate or just even find anyone or anything interesting, i used to think it was a super power but now its just paused time for me and turned into a curse. if you can help me a little bit and reply to me that would be insane.

[@dixiereed]

My son is autistic and episodes of catatonic schizophrenia, but I'm not sure hes been diagnosed correctly. You remind me so much of my son,at 13 he had catatonic episode scared of everything, not eating all that,and yes it runs in my family. He has tried to commit suicide a couple times PLZ can you do a video on how you handle depression, I just subscribed,and I'm gonna encourage him to watch you. Gabriel is 15 almost 16,his autism makes it hard for him to explain certain feelings, do you have that happen? Not sure if its truly the autism but he has,no friends,so lonely and sad,he says sometimes he can feel anything, he said I don't even feel love for you mom. That must be the flat episode???☺️idk but I wish we lived near your city,you and him would be great friends. Sweetie you are a blessing, and you are perfect just the way you are and that what I tell gabriel but he cant understand

[@TheWorldStageGeopolitics]

I cant deal with men and suits - I go psycho LOL! that gave me a chuckle because I can imagine

[@truewomanamerican7559]

I have taken actually the same medication for my anxiety and depression and im glad i did I can relate with the sad face thing! Lol! Im weird with depression i also have paranoia and i dont experience the sadness part i believe its just a chemical imbalance

[@alleveddet118]

Where did you buy this cool t shirt?

[@5oncloverst86]

At what age did you start feeling these symptoms? Sorry for all the questions . My lil brother is going through this and in trying so hard to get as much info as I can.hes not available at the moment as in his speech is very drowsy,mumbles , doesn't make sense and is mostly about the Illuminati, religious, or demonds seeing them. So makes things hard but I want to understand him and be his #1 support! Thank you

[@MoneyBoyCJ]

5onClover St he says in another video that he was 13 when he started having delusions, how is your brother now? I hope he is well.

[@nelsonmontijo6656]

Hes said in a previous video that he was diagnosed at 13

[@hihiz432]

My older brother has it so I understand how you feel. Stay strong and fight for him. I just try to remember it’s harder for him than it is for me so I don’t get angry at him

[@5oncloverst86]

@@MoneyBoyCJ my brother was able to get out of the psych unit in late July 2019. So it will almost be a year of victory for h, us! He's been healing very well and we're seeing so much improvement. He still wears a hat . But they managed to lower his medication so his hands aren't as shakey anymore. And he is able to have better conversations now. ☺️

[@spacecat3198]

@@5oncloverst86 what about a year later? Sounds like a tough experience. I know you are the supportive older sibling but remember you need space for yourself too. :) Hope you are all well and doing better now.

[@groom5520]

i have schizophrenia i myself also have an imaginary friend his name is armen havent talked to him since i started my new meds but i get what its like

[@ivyjacques251]

you remind me of leo

[@ashhamilton3989]

u have a happy face

[@dontmakepoorchoices]

In my lifetime i have heard of a character in a tv show with schizophrenia, a boy when i was a child with schitzophrenia, a woman i used to live with with schitzophrenia, and a man i used to date with schitzophrenia. I have often wondered if i have schitzophrenia as i am drawn towards people with the illness, at times i have been called a paranoid schitzophrenic, although in all my doctors appointments nothing has been detected. It's probably because i care alot about the human and have some of the same symptoms as schitzophrenia.

[@vanessathielemann3082]

🙋🏽‍♀️I pray for you...I know them.🤗❤🕊🙏🏽

[@PoeLemic]

One day ... could you talk about why you think that you have Schiphrenia. Did something happen to you? Does your parents have it? Sorry, I'm just curious. I'm new to your channel. Subbed yesterday.

[@whateverblah8052]

He doesn't think he has it, he has a diagnosis. He talked in another video (I think the one about delusions) about how he got to the point of getting diagnosed. I've been indluging in his videos all day, so just watch more videos and you'll find out everything you're curious about!

[@PoeLemic]

@@whateverblah8052 Thank you for clarifying and helping me to understand. Somehow, I was recommended to this channel, and I have really grown to like the content -- after watching a few videos. I sure wish that he would make more content. And, I wish that he'd focus on this type of content and that it wouldn't be merged with other stuff. Yet, he's young, and he's just now learning how to SHAPE his content for his Audience. So, I only expect great future content and more videos that really help me understand what he is going through. We all have our demons; mine are different, but mine are just as real.

[@anoushekaabhisaar5688]

You are so cute

[@olivergreen2458]

I know exactly how's that when parents ask if you're alright when theres nothing at all.

[@darktulip6379]

you do not look sad .. you look strong

[@device1742]

I’d say content? I used to think it was motionless, but I call mine “content in normality”

[@mechaluke]

God, I fucking hate being emotionally numb. I'll take being sad over that shit any day.

[@jemtbbb3223]

I love the name victor, but idk how you spell it

[@jayklink851]

👍👍

[@bink9113]

Beelzebub lord of the flies lol

[@ternolindeman7209]

Hi! I wonder if the dream state is same with schizophrenic and non schizophrenic?

[@kidigloo8137]

I’m a psychopath and I don’t feel emotions so I understand how you feel on that part

[@marcia697]

I Don't mean to sound rude but are you self diagnoses or did you seek a professional's help? Either way, hope you overcome any difficultly in your life!

[@kidigloo8137]

Marsha Bell I have no emotions or remorse for any people in my life I only care about myself and well being if I’m being honest, I like it though because I only worry about myself so I will successfull in life.

[@marcia697]

@@kidigloo8137 When the corona Virus rate slows down in your area please promise you'll seek a professional's help. I would hope to believe that you aren't a psychopath but I'll admit the symptoms do align with psychopathic tendencies... But you and I can't be too certain unless you seek professionals help and given a proper diagnosis. And remember to stay safe! ❤

[@marcia697]

@machete girl Sweetie... That's more like stereotypes than actual tendencies. Not every psychopath out there fit your specific label of what you think they are. I can only suggest for you get more educated on what a psychopath is and their tendencies then eventually realizing not every psychopath is those exact stereotypes you gave. I have no reason to offend but I just think you are misinformed on this topic.

[@marcia697]

@Joseph Connolly Stay Safe Joseph! ❤ I hope kid igloo's response cured your curiosity!

[@muizrahman4813]

what do you think about getting hallucinations which are very creepy? why dont we get lovely hallucinations? we are not that dark by our mind :/

[@jenniek7427]

I’m pretty sure I’m not schizophrenic but one time at the end of math class taking a test, after I finished and turned it in and went back to my desk, I saw someone holding something then throwing it at me and I flinched back SO HARD I drew a lot of attention it was embarrassing cuz I’m literally in the front row, when I looked back up they were gone so I was very confused and tried to play it off, this was 4 years ago but I also do c figures so idk what that is but ya, nothing scary tho I just convince myself it’s normal and move on

[@morganalabeille5004]

The outfit you're wearing in this video rules

[@kellwhi4766]

Do u have insta

[@Jen-nemo1934]

@undercoverxmoon lol

[@anointedplumber]

Bro hmu I wanna support you

[@jackiefriman8056]

I have always thought that people who are schizophrenic see the spiritual world. What are your thoughts on that? And when it comes to chip I would really like to know more, would you have anything against talking to privately, over mail or social media or where ever? Thank you for doing these videos

[@tarotdreamseverythinginbet350]

I agree with you on that. Obviously they are sensitive and may be seers

[@jackiefriman8056]

Shooting the Sh!t right. In the video he did in his episode and I don’t know if it just me but it looked like something came in trough his door just before he jumped. You can’t see it well but their is something there..

[@MaryTenney]

I have heard really beautiful things and awful things.

[@croissant4131]

Stuff like this is dangerous for people with schozophrenia, you are convincing people to slip back and believe their psychosis. If you have schizophrenia yourself and this is an attempt at rationalisations, ill give you a pass, otherwise this is HIGHLY irresponsible

[@matth227]

@@croissant4131yes completely agree. It’s sad how ignorant the general public is on schizophrenia. They don’t realize the damage this kind of comment can have

[@michelledivin-sharp757]

Your not emotionless, reason being? You have and get the same fear or lost look as my son? When these episodes start to happen? I hope that your parents are proud of you? But I know for a fact they are as I know I would be? Thank you for being the true you!!!!

[@brenguerra703]

Can you go to school? Are you home schooled?

[@jessehudson6229]

He mentioned walking to school in another video

[@albinajeta8882]

Schizophrenia may be bad. But I was diagnosed with pchycopathy,though I'm very peaceful and non sadistic my family is acting cold with me since I was diagnosed. I just look at people how they act how they show love to others for me all of this is stranger but I try to copy people to look like them. I can't feel nothing about other people,but I can miss something for example my family when I'm in travel I just want my family to be with me. For the moment I'm studying medicine one of the best students. I also love the animals when I see people hurting animals I wish them death. Also I'm a vegetarian. If there wasn't the law and the prison I literally would be able to kill people who speak bullshit or only a small insult against me. I also can do good deeds but that only to impress the others. I try to be the best on everything I think Im the best and can do everything. Trying to be the best it's the most tiring thing ever,but I can't stop it is in my nature. when I was a kid our teacher asked us what your dream future? All the students spoke about become teachers,lawyers etx,I said I want a planet to be named after me. And the teacher was shocked I was only 9 years old. I see everything as an opportunity If I could I would own the entire univers and still be hungry for more..

[@alleveddet118]

Oh i had fictive friends.all.my.young year s

[@alleveddet118]

Are you doing fine ?hopd so wish all god ?

[@legendandorima6300]

i think im the only brazilian who watches his videos

[@twinsbrunaandbeatriz3829]

No you're not. Me too. Oi

[@InfiniteDubz98]

I dont know why you were worried about not wearing a hat in your most recent video.. I would kill to make my hair look like that

[@sophiashamail8633]

Question: Do you have depression as a separate condition? Or did it take place because of your perception on life after you found out you have Schizophrenia?

[@gugu532]

When you clapped i jumped while i was making fried rice in the kitchen....boy that clap was LOUD

[@stikosstikos5131]

I take olanzaphine

[@mikemartin4900]

Yugoslavia

[@ABlackCountryWoman]

Flattened AFFECT?

[@IvanaKill.]

Do you ever get scared by your hallucinations?

[@judyhorsley1860]

Omg! Yes the communist thoughts, I have those also & Corona is making it worse my paranoia is off the charts

[@dorisday7570]

Your parents don't sound very understanding or supportive. What is wrong with them? Also, if you are still having hallucinations, what are all the medications meant to do? Do they just keep you from becoming frustrated or angry when the voices come? Thanks.