About my delusions

Hope you enjoy this short summary about my delusions, be sure to show your support by liking and subscribing, THANKS FOR WATCHING

[@KI-mk6dn]

Love how this guy’s talking abt his schizophrenia and EVERYONE is in the comments like: omg he is soooo cute

[@veronikahk1826]

im convinced the average viewers should be forced to listen to videos with their eyes closed.

[@mmmfun77]

KÆI totally

[@itsmeekers]

You are a hero.

[@stephanie1733]

I mean, they're not wrong. haha

[@Anthonys_S]

I just love how honest he is , he truly is a hero and he prob doesn’t know it at all

[@ptrck99]

Yes, I like your hat.

[@blifflomenda4163]

Heres 6 bucks

[@marx188]

That was a little bit creepy

[@ot9twicee117]

@@marx188 😭😭

[@DarkLink606]

Is that a pork pie hat? Cool, I have one of these. That's the iconic hat Walter White wears in Breaking Bad.

[@logiciansvlog5800]

"You are schitzophrenic." "Well DUH."

[@andrewgaylord5276]

Keep going kid you’re essential to this world.

[@ploprod2632]

Rip if thats your real name.....rip

[@andrewgaylord5276]

Ploprod it is and nah I’m still alive and good. Damn sure ain’t worried about what people would think about my name lol

[@ploprod2632]

In that case i must apologize for talking about your name in such a manner. I didnt realize.

[@SussurroTV]

The internet’s s funny place

[@naws69]

@@ploprod2632 he might had heard the same thing like 1000 time. be original.

[@misterrsmith]

When he said “even though I question if I should” and he started to stare at the window off camera. Before talking himself back down. Props on those coping skills.

[@remain___]

" I like your hat here's 6 bucks" haha! best wishes man

[@victoriabarnett242]

Your hat adds to your charm. :) You seem really down to earth, intelligent, emotionally aware and in touch with your thoughts which is a powerful weapon against schizophrenia and in general really confident-I'd say you're miles ahead of your teen peers actually- so your state of mind has it's benefits.

[@quaideswink3497]

I was friends with him in elementary school. I moved away so I can't talk to him anymore. He's the nicest person ever...

[@iamthatguyfromslipknot1137]

@@quaideswink3497 can't you talk to him online mate, ?..

[@emilys9293]

Thank you for articulating my exact thoughts!

[@djork6518]

NOT PEOPLE TRYING TO FLIRT WITH YOU IN THE COMMENTS WHILE YOU TALK ABOUT THIS DKFJSJSJ

[@LoreleiSiren277]

actually not funny.

[@lovelysonico]

@@LoreleiSiren277 ikr like it’s nice but like bad timing, those people should at least comment something abt the actual video 😭

[@TheMeganMayday]

Bro the $6 comment caught me off guard haha

[@Acore-ly9qx]

y? i mean like. who spends a bounch of money on hats

[@adolfog316]

@@Acore-ly9qx no dude someone just went up to him and gave him $6

[@Acore-ly9qx]

@@adolfog316 i don't remember when i commented this. i might have been drunk. so what was it i didn't understand?😂

[@theonethatgotaway6511]

Rare thing in life huh..to be caught off guard

[@lolamcd5829]

why's he so cute haha

[@uwuwu9]

noo haha dont have schizophrenia haha ur so cute ahhhha

[@TheStonedEvo]

Why’s it matter what he looks like haha...he’s talking about something much more important than looks.

[@gimme31]

Josue Villalta you sir. got me dead

[@arianatatira6418]

Bruh

[@twinsbrunaandbeatriz3829]

@John Pratt what do you mean?

[@o0OJessicaO0]

I heard spongebob laugh when I was lying in bed in the dark once but that was the only time I ever heard anything and it was terrifying

[@name-zv3vv]

Its a common thing to have audotary hallucinations when your in the state wich you are fslling asleep.

[@gutz323]

@@name-zv3vv yes! I suffer from sleep paralysis sometimes, just as I'm falling asleep, and I here people whispering and bickering and see shadow people in the corners of the dark room. And also a high pitched drilling noise. I can only imagine that schizophrenia is something similar to that but you are fully awake and it must be terrifying.

[@mivical]

@@name-zv3vv i have never had this

[@sita4545]

@@name-zv3vv sometimes I hear voices of ppl I know (mostly family) saying my name and chatting, I thought my brain was just storing info in front of me lol

[@thebr1ghtestst4r]

@@mivical its still not SUPER common, but it isnt a sign of psychosis if it does happen it just happens sometimes

[@jessevaisanen3853]

hey dude. got nothing to say here. I'm just leaving a comment on every video of yours I watch so that it helps get your message to.a bigger audience

[@brian36901]

Oh but you had something to say tho. 🙂

[@brian36901]

Are you from Finland btw? I was wondering because of your name. I'm from Finland.

[@NotAShawn]

@@brian36901 Norwegian if not Finnish

[@MrCoffis]

anxiety is such a common symptom of many mental illnesses. I remember one day when I was in a state of constant great fear, but not panic, where I was so afraid of the fact that I couldn't tell if the world around me was real or just my imagination; on that day I heard a classical concert in my head and I could control every individual instrument in the symphony and made real good sounding music. I enjoyed that and it put me to sleep. I never was able to do that again. This was triggered by my anxiety or fear. So I can imagine how schizophrenia feels like. Probably like constant fear and anxiety on another level.

[@poil0culs522]

MrCoffis I had the EXACT same experience a month ago wtf lmaoo do I have a problem?

[@MrCoffis]

Despacito not if you enjoyed the music :P wait you did hear music didn’t you? xD

[@danielalia239]

I had this experience when I was about 15... Now I'm 25 and have anxiety.

[@MrCoffis]

@@danielalia239 I would recommend to go check yourself out at a professional, if you feel like you can not take it under control. Anxiety, even though in tiny bits can be helpful, in huge amounts is definitely counterproductive and not healthy.

[@Emirhan-md4ze]

Damn man this is actually cool. So you have a classical music group inside of your head and you can control it i love it! I love music.

[@Hoganply]

I'm sure psychologists are onto this already, but I swear schizophrenic hallucinations and delusions sound exactly like how it feels when you're engulfed in a dream, only you're awake, and delusions are like those you have whilst you're both asleep and not lucid. I mean, it makes sense since it's obviously one's unconscious doing it.

[@sophiagrace6361]

Yesss I have thought about this so much

[@august8185]

Yeah... I constantly compared life to dreams. At one point I even had a delusion that the world is a dream

[@moonooze6171]

If you learn to lucid dream this becomes even more apparent

[@gayanehmandani1457]

When i was a kid i would check everywhere for mice and cameras or anything like that. I don't know what was that i didn't talk about it and it just disappeared. Im ok now. I was ok back then actually never had any violent action or something like that. And btw I'm happy you are getting better. It may be hard to talk about your situation and i appreciate that

[@lokai765]

Dude you have all of my respect and then some. To be able to go through what you do and turn around and share It to the whole world is a sign of amazing character. Just keep working your way through life man. Youre doing great keep it up.

[@bigidiotdumbstupidguy9329]

I had a super intense dissociative episode almost 4 years ago now. I thought my family had been replaced by robots or I was in the matrix or something. I spent hours trying to “break the simulation” or dream by doing stuff I’d never done before. After they finally convinced me to get into the ambulance, I spent the whole ride to the hospital hallucinating the Sphinx and great pyramids made of gold bars, then tried to convince the EMTs to either kill me or I could pay them to drive me around forever. I still dissociate every other month or so, but not nearly as bad as the first time. I think it’s cuz of my prescriptions. But every therapist I go to either refers me to someone else after a couple sessions or drops me with no referral because I can’t help but laugh at basically everything. C’est la vie I guess.

[@bigidiotdumbstupidguy9329]

Ava Essma Anxiety can cause uncontrollable laughter, however, mine is pathological. Meaning it just happens for no reason and over unfunny, neutral, sad, whatever stuff. As for the dissociation, I had two bad episodes and I’m pretty sure both were caused by bad mixes between my prescriptions and weed. Those episodes gave me minor-moderate PTSD, so any time I’m directly reminded of something from those events, I either laugh uncontrollably, get a panic attack, or slightly dissociate. In my case, I have genetic shit that causes mental and physical health issues. So I can’t say for certain what your problems stem from. Even if I did know, I don’t know if I would say just out of morality and plausible deniability.

[@betsybk11]

Don't feel bad! I laugh or giggle at everything & people think I am stoned.

[@jordaneisbjerg]

breaking down watching your videos dude. your so fucking inspiring. I suffer from mental heath deeply (not schizophrenia) but a whole bunch of other stuff and you putting this out there is incredble. Its going to help so many people and you are also probs one of the coolest people I have ever seen on youtube. Good vibes man

[@britaniihoeche6258]

You seem like an awesome kid with a great outlook on life. I cannot even fathom what you go through but its been eye opening watching your videos and learning more about this illness. Keep uploading because others with schizophrenia can relate to you and those who do not can learn and empathize with those who struggle with this.

[@siriusleigh24]

Schlaaaand! Started at 14 I thought I could control the weather.

[@mermaidodessa7067]

I like your hat and I love what you do, spreading awareness about mental health issues. Thank you very much and I wish I could be brave enough to do the same because in the Philippines, we definitely need more education. I’m a diagnosed hypo bipolar and I know many Filipinos would rather suffer and keep what they’re going through to themselves in fear of being called “crazy” which ends up to them not getting proper help and some ended really disastrous which is very sad. In this country even just going to the psychiatrist means you’re crazy so I really wanna be a voice like you. I even had partners in like who used my illness to insult me which was really soul piercing

[@5oncloverst86]

Your doing great ! God bless you ! I'm cheering for you !

[@ChanelROETV]

This makes me feel less alone. Thank you for sharing your story/experience. I never thought I had schizophrenia but I’ve had really bad delusions before, the worst ones being about spies/being watched by the government. (I’ve never talked about it w anyone before so it’s even scary to talk about it here) but anyway, I ended up in the hospital once because of it but the episode ended as soon as I got there so I was never really given any assistance with it, and my family said it was just hallucinations from sleep deprivation. But being aware that’s it’s more than what I thought it simply was makes me feel relief because I can finally start to understand why I am like I am. 😅 Thank you for sharing and good luck to you :)

[@SamirCCat]

I have bipolar disorder and ADD and a lot of other stuff, and I also struggle with showering and brushing my teeth. So I REALLY understand the diffculties you're having and I'm proud of you for showering more lately! I have planned days where I shower and when I have a day I'm not supposed to shower I don't need to feel the nagging guilt I'm not doing what I should, so that's a relief. Works for me at least.

[@jamesfroggattfr]

I am finding your videos fascinating and I think you're a very brave man for being on youtube and talking openly about this. I'm sure it will help others who are experiencing similar things.

[@sryburn641]

You're a good dude. More power to ya. I truly understand the battle. I'm going to pray for you, bud.

[@robinhawley8640]

Just wanted to let you know how much i respect and admire your courage . It’s really awesome you’re spreading awareness about mental health. .Just wanted you to know your awesome bro.. i wish you the best

[@weirdkind5887]

Your hat looks cute! 🥰❤

[@pastapanda4042]

Thank you for sharing. I'm not schizophrenic, but I do hallucinate when I have panic attacks. I can't imagine dealing with that all the time and never knowing when you'd have an episode. Stay strong buddy

[@donnasqueo6599]

I have so much empathy for the sufferer of any mental health issues I have experienced severe depression I have a daughter with bi-polar which has caused so many other issues for her (she's doing so much better now w/healthier lifestyle and taking her meds) my husband and two out of the three of his children suffer with forms of mental health instabilities you are so brave and awesome for sharing parts of your life on here very honorable not to mention informative btw like your shirt and the fact you mentioned in one of your videos here you really don't listen to country or rap music lol but just about everything else same here !

[@azuk689]

you are so young and so strong, truly admirable! wish you the best and sending lots of love

[@GonFreeccs123]

Thanks for sharing your experiences through life , you seem like an incredibly intelligent young man and I wish you nothing but success and good health in your future.

[@xerofuqs8139]

Love it! And thank you for doing this. We as adults have a hard time talking about mental health. I certainly am not so easy to open up about mine... good for you! Its kind of inspiring 😊

[@hannahkeene1647]

It's people like you who make others more understanding, empathetic and knowledgeable about others and their difficulties. I really appreciate your courage and kindness. I will share your channel. Thank you (:

[@hayrayna1314]

Liked and subscribed. I admire your bravery, honesty and willingness to be of service to help other sufferers and educate the blissfully ignorant. My generation are traumatized by the barbaric archaic old methods of dealing with mental illness's I too suffer seasonally. However I'm self managed now and functioning. You have my support.

[@vickiehoude9553]

You are rocking the hat! I sub'ed! Thanks for your channel. I had an employe in my team that had schyzophrenia and i always wanted to understand him. Sadly he left our world...

[@mengsou]

I think you’re cool. And intelligent. I’ve been waking meditating nearly every waking second for 11 years and once sitting for at least about an hour every day. I’m 32. I’ve learnt that hypersensitivity is insightful

[@kylah.8079]

Thank you for sharing your experiences. Your bravery is so inspiring!

[@bonafide5425]

You seem like a great guy. Awsome your managing your condition and inspiring and educating others. My brother has early onset schizophrenia its has been really hard for him.

[@kerrycissne6080]

Wow you would be a good one to talk to my daughter. She doesn't have delusions or schizophrenia, but her bio mom wants her tested for some kind of personality disorder, which I think might be a good thing so she can be on the correct meds to help her feel "normal". But for a teenager to have someone their own age understand their mental illness is so important. I personally suffer from depression/anxiety and have pretty much my whole adult life. Anyway, thanks for being so willing to put yourself out there like that about your struggles with mental illness.

[@marianag3784]

You are such an amazing, sweet guy! We are all cheering for you. Ignore those voices, You are needed. I wish You all the best!!! Also awesome hat 👌🏼

[@laadybee7752]

You are awesome. I am sure you are helping a lot of people sharing your story.

[@Jen-nemo1934]

I could just listen to you talk for hours...even if you say absolutely nothing. You're a pretty cool kid. I feel your frustration, and am appreciative of your candor and intelligence. 💕

[@wetpants96]

I just wanna go ahead and give him the biggest and warmest hug on the earth. He seems so sweet and lovely

[@wintergoat6612]

What a brave young soul. So insightful and down to earth. ♥️

[@andrewhazenberg3398]

This brave young dude is a hero and I love how he says it like it is . Keep on keeping on man ! 👍

[@floriniancau5766]

your description is almost perfect;appreciate your video!

[@emilyolfert]

Your videos are so educational and helpful! Thank you for sharing and educating people.

[@renastrickland2517]

You are super swear,funny and seem so kind! Thank u for making this channel and sharing your life with us

[@jaimeebrown516]

You are awesome to discuss this so ppl can try n understand!! I have mental issues too, and sometimes feel so alone..thank you

[@Definitelynotabot4]

I dunno why I laughed when he said....well that's some pretty strong anxiety u know what I mean😂😂😂

[@jenniferwilliams4447]

I really hope you manage with your condition. You seem to be a really nice young guy. Thanks for sharing. Your so brave.

[@tamigibbs7517]

I would never compare my mental health with anyone else's, because no one has a mind like anyone else. I really like to learn and you are such a smart brave young man

[@sweetlonggonetimes2433]

When u mentioned that part with the motivation and teeth brushing and showering, like, I was just smiling to myself and nodding my head in cz damn dat shit gets me annoyed!!!! I loveeee ur honesty!!!!

[@spoiledoatmilk]

just subscribed. i cant wait to see this channel grow. you’ve got a very interesting story and youre funny. hope youre doing good from where you are. stay safe!

[@goode2shuz1]

Your delusions remind me of the ones that John Nash experienced. I learned about him starting with the movie "A Beautiful Mind" where he was played by Russell Crowe. Very good movie and such an amazing life he had. John Nash was a mathematical genius and suffered with schizophrenia his entire life. He had an ongoing delusion about working for the government to help uncover Soviet secrets. Astounding life story. He was a winner of the Nobel Prize. I have panic attacks and anxiety but take meds for it and so it's not so bad now. Enjoy your videos. Keep them going!

[@rodrigoromao3216]

Yeah. The hat is nice. Thanks for sharing. That can help a lot of people on your age or older struggling with the same issue.

[@magdakazmierczak2010]

You're doing a great job for other people. Stay strong!

[@cheche9949]

Because of idk what I used to wake up at night sweating and thinking my computer was playin music super loud and I needed to shut it off. I did it like 13 times in one night and and my sister woke up and thought I was crazy... anyway the computer was always turned off and I was told all I did is went to get my computer rubbed the top like a genie lamp and went back to sleep lmao. But honestly the feeling was so horrible it was so claustrophobic and scary :(

[@dontme8174]

Sounds like OCD my step father knew a dude who tried to breakdown a door to check if his spoons where clean.

[@carolpeters7155]

I just found your channel and I think your just an amazing young man.

[@musicalex7046]

I love that your doing this and I think this will help more people with mental illness and I also think this will help you. Your awesome kiddo keep on keeping on

[@mohamedbenabderrahmane7273]

i feel you I'm experiencing that too you inspire me a lot

[@airashiitheempress5798]

Nice hat! I hope your okay you have so much to offer the world I know you can get through this God bless you always

[@eunicedabu709]

It's nice to see you getting more comfortable with each video you make keep it up :)

[@lavenderdemons]

Anxiety can cause delusions and hallucinations. Mostly hallucinations. But it’s out of stress. You would need to have a high level of anxiety in the first place to get to that point. But anxiety induced delusions and hallucinations don’t last long. Anxiety and schizophrenia also have different symptoms too. So a psychiatrist should be able to differentiate the two. I’ve personally had anxiety induced hallucinations. It lasted for a few seconds and happened several times. But it rarely happens, and it was because of stress.

[@TheKatarinaGiselle]

Anxiety does not cause hallucinations.

[@reducedtoatoms327]

I have suffered from anxiety for as long as i remember and never had any hallucinations so...

[@lavenderdemons]

gaming pomegranate then you’re lucky

[@lavenderdemons]

Katarina Giselle I’ve looked it up tho /:

[@dontme8174]

mine was audio hallucinations that lasted a few days max mild psychosis can come with BPD but mostly mild anxiety just leads to dissociation.

[@ilxaburgos513]

You sound really smart and you are so cute !! Like for real ! Keep your head up through these tough times you got this 🙌🏽

[@soundvector1]

You take it so light the same way. ❤️

[@linneaadelejagebro1850]

I can relate to the, not being able to take care of yourself. A side effect of my PTSD is major depressive episodes and it can go days where i forget to eat, or shower or just brush my teeth.

[@karlabc9251]

Amazing of you to share!

[@ptrck99]

And your shirt looks great, so keep using it. Ok, maybe not any more since this video is from 2018 :) No, seriously, I really appreciate your honesty and how open you are about this. Thank you so much.

[@CrispyJ83]

Hello, this is the second video of yours I watched, I'm trying to understand what's going on with me being so paranoid, I have an appointment coming up with my doctor. Videos like this are important, it could really help someone who may be experiencing the same thing. I was just wondering, how are you doing now? I hope you are good 👍

[@christafurden]

Thank you for your content. Keep posting!! ❤️

[@Maxy_9090]

Your great, great hat!! & i LUV your shirt..DEF LEPARD ROCKS!! Hope you still got this shirt..Rock music helps me get through EVERYTHING!!! 80S& 90S ROCK. KEEP BEING YOU..🙌

[@saraw4528]

OMG YOUR SO HUMBLE AND AMAZING 🥺

[@liddonburns8195]

this and you is so important . thank you so much, you are so wonderful

[@UnknowableThen]

Helping people understand schizophrenia since 2018, I respect the hell out of that.

[@svman102]

Your bloody amazing....putting yourself out there so the public has an understanding about it.. Your bright and brave kudos to you..John Nash the mathematician also had schizophrenia who was a genius so it does happen to The brightest..keep up the good work..😘😘

[@Xx-VSM-xX]

I just wanna hug you man..ur amazing

[@dekemason]

You'll be OK. The world is here to support you.

[@jeremiastobler4848]

I never comment in any video, but I felt commenting in yours. All my support to you. Keep it up!

[@biagiozingale6365]

everyone deals with something bro, just know that you are not alone and keep posting videos!

[@tamigibbs7517]

I just saw you for the first time and I love you and your girlfriend. What a beautiful soul u r . I love your hat! I look so forward to getting to know more. I have PTSD that was diagnosed schizophrenia. We have many of the same symptoms. I have the same delusions as you.

[@dankmemewannabe7692]

This video was really nice! I might come out about some of my own struggles with mental illness. I guess I’ll place this comment as a sort of reminder and see if I still care later xd

[@cursedgypsy3131]

You are fricking awesome! You are so strong man! That’s cool you can tell you story. I wish we could all meet you. You seem so cool. You should write a book someday like from your point of view I’m a subscriber and look forward to your videos. I have a mental illness to Borderline Personality Disorder

[@armiankavizcarra6214]

Maaan how did I just now discovered this guy, I’m not even two minutes in the video and already have a big crush on him (and I love your hat btw)

[@gppoem3344]

TY for sharing. BTW, nice shirt! I love that band!

[@frogking5298]

I'm so sorry you have to go through that, I hope your doing ok. And yes, I like your hat :)

[@chrissyquartly2893]

I can relate i have schizophrenia thanks for making videos about it!

[@jasperemory9178]

I had a doctor tell me it was just depression that caused my symptoms but it’s really schizoaffective disorder bipolar type. Basically schizophrenia with a mood disorder. It took forever to find a doctor that took me seriously and actually listened.

[@Miss_Sippy]

Rockin' Shirt! A fav band of mine and yeah...........Love the hat. And YOU.

[@shawnpeacock1037]

the mind charities need to fund and support a channel for you..you are a total poster child for the illness and give kids hope as you appear to deal with it really well, have your shit together and give a very good insight into it for people who dont understand.

[@Irishperson1]

You're 15 (Probably 17 now going by the upload date) and you deal with this mental illness but you deal with it with in such a way that's admirable man. I gotta give you such props and I hope you're keeping well and safe. How do you find quarantine? Has it been affecting your mental health in any way? I suffer from anxiety and obsessive compulsive disorder. Find it hard some times when I have an episode

[@bernadettehogan2921]

You are inspirational young man

[@stephanie1733]

Thank you for sharing your story

[@HealWithRRR]

love your hat! you are so brave to share...

[@jacobnardelli9905]

That’s good that your went to a doctor right away. I didn’t because I was terrified to tell anyone about what I was going through and I didn’t understand what was happening to me.

[@ronan3730]

omg he looks so adorable aww

[@ldh3306]

@@vanillacherub6847 He's 15 years old.

[@gio9128]

@@ldh3306 so am i

[@anonymoususer3888]

Agreed!! (Also I'm 14, nearly 15 so don't call the fbi on me, thanks haha)

[@dontme8174]

I've had delusions of being the antichrist I have bipolar 1 with psychosis. I literally always question my delusions I had before meds. I never told my psychiatrist I'm to embarassed to admit to a lot of things. As well as hurting animals as a kid and stealing around 6. I had hallucinations to of aliens on the walls talking to me. It doesn't happen anymore thank god. I'd never hurt anything now and I do community service but my heart pains when I think about how my young self had to have felt to be able to do that. I also heard voices of people trying to calm me down and support me while my parents faught and yelled at me. My latest breakdown helped me realise what I was experiencing.

[@dankmemewannabe7692]

I can relate to this a bit, actually. I don’t really know how to feel about that. I have a vague memory of me theorizing that I could be the second coming of Jesus Christ and all my sins were due to demon possession, but this made exactly no sense, and I even knew it when I was discussing it with myself. I was debating killing myself and stuff, I think. It was just this random occasion, though, so I don’t know how a professional in the mental illness field would declare the severity of this. I also have some thoughts related to animals that I’m too ashamed to discuss at the moment, and I’m not even sure if they’re always related to some form of psychosis, sadly. I don’t even know what my diagnoses are. It’s quite certain I have depression and anxiety, and probably social communication disorder, but some say I have ADHD primarily inattentive type and some say I have bipolar disorder with psychosis. I presume the bipolar is bipolar 2, given both my parents are this type of bipolar. I think I’ve derailed this comment to mostly focusing on me. I hope I don’t seem too self-centered. Thank you very much for this comment, though. It’s very nice to be able to come out about this stuff :)

[@logiciansvlog5800]

You're amazing.

[@winnietp596]

Love your hat, really suits you!