My life after my son's suicide

A mom struggle to prevent a suicide.

[@rasmusbahnson9467]

I am so Sorry for your loss :( May He rest in peace

[@babbaruff1045]

Bless you so much dear lady 🙏

[@StephanieEntwistle]

I know exactly how you feel exactly, my only child 26 hanged in 2022, I found her, she was my left arm . "IF" indeed. 😢 our story , you and I are on the same ride . ❤ I too would welcome the worse day with her ,than this silence now. Thankyou .

[@StephanieEntwistle]

Thanks 😊 for your acknowledgement. ❤️

[@angelbit3s717]

Lost my father over a year ago to a drug overdose when I was just 16. Your pain is felt and it’s heard in all of us. You’re never alone. The pain really never goes away and every single day I waste away thinking that I should’ve done something and that I should’ve talked to him longer, and spent more time with him. I would go to hell and back just to get a minute to speak with him again, and I know you most likely feel the same too. I just want to let you know, you did not fail as a mother. Even though I know that this has occurred a few years ago now, we all know the grieving really never stops and it never will. I will continue to grieve for the rest of my life and I’m content with that reality because I never want to forget who my father was to me and what he was to me. Grieving shows the loss but also the love that is still there for the ones you lose. My condolences ❤

[@ifonlyi]

That I way more wisdom than any 17 year old should have. Please know that your father did not choose drugs over you. Someone only makes the real choice to take a drug the first time. After that, they no longer have control over their addiction. We are only now learning just how addictive pain medication really is.

[@EAP7708]

I`m so very sorry. Blessings and prayers to your family. Please take good care of yourself. ✝

[@SEROTONlN]

My condolences, sorry for your loss.

[@Toff234]

I’m so sorry for your loss your a strong lady making this video x

[@DavidBessette-o5m]

My sympathies are with you ,however did you notice the warning signs ,the way he acted ,what ultimately caused his suicide ? Was it lack of attention ,was a lack of a male role model ,was it because his dad was not in his life ,was it societal pressure, was he going through a bad time in school ,was it a combo ? Was it neglect ? Was he oppressed in any way ,was he given proper guidance? It is hard to see the signs if you are not paying attention to him !! Ask yourself these questions and you may find your answers !!

[@ifonlyi]

His father and I have been married for 33 years. He died at 28 years of age. We talked every day. He was newly married for 6 months to the love of his life, and they had a two year old daughter. He did suffer from depression when he was younger. However, as he grew into a young man, he learned to hide it. He was very much loved by everyone in his family. I do take ownership of the signs that I missed. The things I should have seen as his mom and as a nurse. If only I... I say that a million times a day. If only I had do this or if only I had asked that, If only I would have... Thank you very much for pointing out to me that I should have done more. Please watch the rest of my videos and leave me more helpful comments.

[@mcrlover75]

@ifonlyi I'm sorry you have to read this absolutely ignorant comment. This person seems to be lucky enough to have never experienced this devastating loss. I lost my brother a few months ago and I cannot imagine saying this to anyone. People who say these things dont realize that these questions run through our head on a nonstop loop. As someone who has now been on both ends, tried to take my life when i was younger and now this loss. I knew I was loved. I knew my family would be devastated. That only encouraged me to hide my feelings more, so I didnt hurt them. Sometimes the only thing keeping someone from doing it is the knowledge of how much it will hurt another. I've spoken with people who lost someone who went to counseling, took medication, spoke to their loved ones constantly and were always told they were loved. They still took their life. Depression is insidious and very convincing. A lot of the time it is an acted on very brief impulse that can never be turned back from. Nothing anyone can say could make this better. You dont even learn to live around it i think. You just somehow do. I'm so sorry that you are suffering so much. I can relate to wanting so badly to be something, anything, but knowing there is nothing really to be done anymore. It's a sickening feeling.

[@DavidBessette-o5m]

I understand the pain you are in !! But having witnessed 4 suicides and watched my wife go through extreme grief !! I am always in pain ,I longed to be with my lovely wife !! I know you miss your brother dearly !! ,I know you had a wonderful connection with him !! Nothing can replace him ,like nothing can return my wife !! The best thing we can do is cope ,talk about the experience ,and remember these people for who they were and what they represent in our minds !! The losses or loved ones are never forgotten as long as we keep them in our hearts and remember the wonderful memories they give us !! What I have found out over the years is through communication on their level ,relate to them on their level ,not to judge ,but to listen and let them be open and vulnerable and give them a shoulder to cry on and let them express their pain the way they know best!! I find you to be courageous and I say thank you for responding to my message !! I have helped other people with their issues and give them the floor to talk about their issues !! Let them open up and let them talk and encourage and support them as they talk ,let them talk and cry on your shoulder and offer the support they need !! Be there for them and always tell them they are loved !! We all need to ask the questions, what more can we do ? What warning signs did we miss ? What are they feeling ?,what is happening in their lives ? What is the possible cause of their depression ? Why didn't the mental health system help ? What did they fail to do ? By finding answers to these questions, we can find a solution to this problem and correctly identify the red flags that are causing their issues !! I take solace in helping others and ease my pain a little bit !! My wife would want that because she was a very giving person who helped many children for years !! By doing this I can have peace !! Your story and comment are not ignorant but necessary !! You are trying to help to cope and I respect you more for it !! What i said ,could be misconstrued as insensitivity ,but they are not what I really feel ,but I wanted to let you know my observations and insights!! This issue is a deadly issue and the only way to deal with it ,is to talk about it and discuss solutions and offer positive actions to deal with it !!

[@ifonlyi]

I am so sorry for your loss! Please please please keep fighting every day to live!

[@DavidBessette-o5m]

I appreciate your sentiments !! I do fight everyday to live and my new purpose has been to help others too ,by sharing our stories we let others know that there are loving and caring people out there !! I have this message for you ,I thank you for sharing your story and giving the same opportunity to share mine ,we are both devastated and I would hug you and wisher words of encouragement to you as you cry on my shoulder as I have for many suffering friends and strangers!! I miss my wife everyday and I keep a shrine in her honor !! I remember the best of times with her and I smile because of her and what she means to me !! She always called me a genuine and authentic man who loves to help others!! I am glad you are doing the same and I want to thank you for doing that ,you are helping others and trust me ,you are making a difference in so many lives and even as we both struggle we can take solace in that our message is getting out and people are getting help !! Hang in there ,be strong and get the message out !!

[@무희-i8r]

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[@thisprojectisretired2810]

Bro forgot to equip a totem