My whole life is a mess

[@SamuelBoschMIT]

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[@zoonpolitikon1648]

This is your best video so far. I loved the vulnerability that it took to make. I applied to Two PhD programs and 3 fellowships at Stanford University last year and got rejected from the fellowships. This is my academic channel and I been putting off uploading an update on the process. I commend you for the courage that it took you to upload this. I admire you no matter what you do and I whish you al the best in all of your endeavors.

[@ekjotnanda6832]

Most of the time we see people faking about how good their life is, just to make an impression that they're doing great. It takes courage to come out and convey your life problems the way you have done Samuel. Really appreciate the effort and also best of luck for your future endeavours.

[@SamuelBoschMIT]

Thank you so much! 🙂

[@theharshtruthoutthere]

@@SamuelBoschMIT Souls, remember this verse: 2 Timothy 3:16 All scripture is given by inspiration of God, and is profitable for doctrine, for reproof, for correction, for instruction in righteousness: Which clears out the question(complains) that bible is man written, IT IS NOT. Our sinful nature allows not to write any which were written into the bible. Nor can any man see future, unless GOD has given him visions. Therefore there is nothing else then just PRIDE of man which keeps them from reading and studying the bible (B.I.B.L.E - BASIC INSTRUCTIONS BEFORE LEAVING EARTH) Joel 2:28 And it shall come to pass afterward, that I will pour out my spirit upon all flesh; and your sons and your daughters shall prophesy, your old men shall dream dreams, your young men shall see visions: Acts 2:17 And it shall come to pass in the last days, saith God, I will pour out of my Spirit upon all flesh: and your sons and your daughters shall prophesy, and your young men shall see visions, and your old men shall dream dreams: Galatians 3:22 But the scripture hath concluded all under sin, that the promise by faith of Jesus Christ might be given to them that believe. Galatians 3:8 And the scripture, foreseeing that God would justify the heathen through faith, preached before the gospel unto Abraham, saying, In thee shall all nations be blessed.

[@jakoblandbrecht726]

I personally believe this is your best video you have ever uploaded. It helped me a lot.

[@SamuelBoschMIT]

Thank you! I was really nervous about putting it online, so I’m glad you found it helpful :)

[@JegErN0rsk]

@@SamuelBoschMIT I've got nothing but love and respect for this video. I watched one of your videos a month back and it painted the picture of a flawless individual, almost inhuman. With this video you gained another subscriber. The internet is riddled with people showing their best (and often fake) side, not many have the guts to be humble, vulnerable and honest about their struggles. As for your age and coding; give it a try. Do 20 minutes a day of a course for a month or two and see if you enjoy it. There are plenty of people that transition in their thirties, forthies and even fifthies. You have the credentials to get a job at any company you'd want as a SWE if you take the time to learn how to code.

[@SamuelBoschMIT]

@@JegErN0rsk Thank you so much for this comment! :)

[@hony1717]

you really portrayed your life on social media as perfect. i liked this video, felt real

[@SamuelBoschMIT]

Glad to hear this! 💪😊

[@PyLinX]

This is a typical pattern that I observed during my PhD studies. I also felt for the most part of my PhD to be daydreaming about something different and was about to leave on several occasions. Every time this feeling was strong I applied to industry positions and I noticed that our skills are still in demand, provided one is willing to undergo some self-study. But now, at the end of it, with the possibility to choose between two job offers, one in a top bank and one in a top US university, I chose the latter. Indeed, I will for the first time have the freedom to do research on what I want, with the only duty being some teaching activity. Halfway through the PhD one is commonly frustrated and fed-up, but in the end, it will be a huge success.

[@davidkim8375]

This has been a tremendously relatable and illuminating video. The timing is also impeccable for my life. I've recently also been struggling with major life decisions and general "happiness". Seeing you (who I had cast in my head as this stereotypically perfect guy) open up and discuss their struggles was oddly comforting. Thank you for your excellent advice. It couldn't have come at a better time! Watching this video inspires me to take quality relationships and general quality of life more seriously. Again, thank you! I wish you the best of luck in your life!

[@SamuelBoschMIT]

I'm glad you like the video and found it relatable! :)

[@justenergy1724]

Deine Erlebnisse kann ich total nachvollziehen. Ständig nur produktiv und dann vergisst man ernsthafte Freundschaften aufzubauen oder zu halten. Ohne Soziale Kontakte gehen wir unter. Die letzten Jahre haben das nochmal verstärkt gezeigt. Es wird aber wieder schöne Zeiten geben und bis dahin muss man standhaft genug bleiben durch den Frust zu gehen sowie neue Erkenntnisse in die Planung bzw. Ziele des Lebens einfließen zu lassen. Finde deine Videos echt klasse und gerade deine Affinität in Mathematik hat mich motiviert nochmal kurz vor dem Ende meines Masterstudiums die alte Leidenschaft für Mathematik neu zu erkennen. Danke für alles und mach was dir langfristig Freude bereitet!

[@SamuelBoschMIT]

Danke dir und viel Erfolg! 🙂

[@LucidProgramming]

Hi Samuel. I completely understand your predicament. I was your age when I was also pursuing a Ph.D. in computer science that was focused on quantum information. Like you, I often felt lost, uninspired, unmotivated, etc. I will echo your sentiments that personal relationships are the actual currency that matters. Yes, it is important to work hard and push yourself hard. At the end of the day though, be sure to keep your eye on the ball and enjoy the struggle as you are going through it. One quote I keep in the back of my mind when I am going through something particularly challenging is "One day you will look back on today and reminisce". You'll forget the problems you had at the time and look back and wish you were back with these "problems". Understandably, these things feel like problems now, and they are. However, life always has curveballs to throw. It's all about how we get back up from setbacks. Sorry to throw so many platitudes and cliches at you :)

[@Ikigai747]

Thank you for this Samuel,even though it's not out yet the description says a lot.. I couldn't thank you less for doing this since many of us feel this way the truth is half the time I'm doing stuff I always feel this way and looking at other people thrive it always feels like what's wrong with me... I have always been running to fill that void within me whatever that means self love or more practise in what I do but nonetheless I always end up screwing things up for myself and others. This video I hope will be a breath of fresh air amidst all the chaos. Also, since I remember taking that challenge with you the one year one on your previous video..this video will show us another side of you and I can already feel inspired by it, thank you for putting it out there, it does take courage to do this and I can't be less grateful..more power to you 🙏

[@philippschuler7155]

Please don’t end your channel, you are my favorite KZbinr

[@SamuelBoschMIT]

I think I will keep pushing through :)

[@ICavalcadeI]

As a postdoc at MIT, this video helped me out more than you know.

[@SamuelBoschMIT]

Woww, I’m very happy to hear this! 🙂

[@TheMasterPlus_]

Wow, what a deep video. You were always an inspiration for me, I just started my masters in particle physics at TUM, but I also just realized I want to continue more down the start up road as opposed to research. So it helps to see you are having similar thoughts and problems. I guess what I want to say is thank you for the insights and for sharing.

[@SamuelBoschMIT]

Thank you for your comment and best of luck! 🙂

[@sugoiedits8694]

Thanks for sharing dude. Just got rejected from Cambridge (my dream school) and feel like a complete failure. But its comforting to know that someone as smart and talented as yourself still deals with struggles like the rest of us. I genuinely believe that you will succeed and hope that you can work on something you are passionate in soon :)

[@miehaga7444]

Amazing three takeaways! Embarrassingly, I only recently realized the importance of building meaningful relationships. I’m in mid 20s and I am living a very lonely life. Recently, I went to ER taking Uber by myself because I had no one to rely on when I need help. I am taking the baby step to form support system.

[@SamuelBoschMIT]

Thank you for the comment 😊

[@Moreoverover]

I remember thinking about my own life and a thought came up that compared my life to yours and I felt like I was way behind in everything in life. It's refreshing to see that everybody has to go through their own struggles. Thank you so much for this video!

[@nolanalexander8696]

Thanks for sharing this with us, some note worth sharing, from my experience and others: 1. Getting bored and doodling is normal, after I stan much of top notch researcher, they always said theres always some time in their week that seem not getting anywhere. They said they often discuss it, attend some meetings, talk to their student or advisors and sometimes new or small cloud will part and show them the way. Don't beat yourself too much. This maybe sounds cliche, but often, repetitions means importance. 2. There will be always gap, especially for researcher in multidisciplinary fields. Computer scientists who studied learning analytics often had difficulties understanding philosophical discussions in education field, it sucks, but they have no choice but to build a bridge and cross that gap. The bridge does not necessarily be as brilliant as Golden Gate or Tower Bridge, sometimes just a piece of log that can make you cross that interdisciplinary field safely is enough. 3. You already on the right track, talking with your friends, sleeping, partying. But dont overdo it lol. 4. Just because you are a graduate of EPFL, Harvard Uni and currently researcher at MIT, you need to be the most brilliant, the best, the most perfect, or else. I often walk to market to buy food supplies and theres this vendor who only a graduate of elementary school but can count really fast and accurate the weight and prices of vegetables and eggs, remembering hundreds of recipes that she can only ask the buyer what they want to make that day and give them exactly what they needed. I am a Uni student and even can't decide what to eat today lol. Imperfection is what make things perfect. If you reading this entirely thanks, good luck for you, sorry for cliches or too long answer. I am not a native speaker and have difficulties express myself in english as 2L. :)

[@Sibeliu]

Since I saw you the first time in your interview with Niklas, I regarded you as the perfect incarnation of a young successfull high achiever. Even if it should be clear, it's a good refresher for me to hear that you are dealing with the same kind of issues like to all of us no matter what we have achieved or not. We can't escape our human struggles regardless of how hard-working and ambitious we may be. All the best!

[@SamuelBoschMIT]

Thank you :)

[@AmmoBops]

I went through this not too long ago, I couldn’t figure out that it was loneliness until I healed. After realizing this, I’ve put forth effort to making sure I am hanging out with people I trust and love, and making sure I’m having fun. The side effects of loneliness are rough, I almost convinced myself to give up on college becuase of it. But now that I’m happy again, I’m passionate about my studies once again, it’s strange how that works. But it makes sense.. I recall the pyramid to happiness which states that humans need the necessities before they can indulge in the extra parts to life!

[@galacticparrot8173]

Real talk! Hang in there mate, we do not always know what is best for us. Sometimes you just have to let life find you.

[@alvinnjenga5782]

I never comment, but your honest and raw review of your own life made me really look at myself. I've never seen that before on this site, thank you.

[@SamuelBoschMIT]

I’m really glad you think so. Thank you and wishing u all the best 😊

[@GlatHjerne]

This video was extremely helpful for me. I started learning math after your videos, started at the pre-algebra problemsolving books, and I've begun thinking of you, how many years it'd take to ever get close to a position like yours, it's nice to know that you're still struggling like everyone else. I appreciate your thoughts on loneliness, an an autists it's something that is on my mind daily, it is perhaps the hardest thing to overcome. But, the honesty in this video is beautiful, thank you.

[@SamuelBoschMIT]

Really appreciate your comment 😊

[@kitstudent4446]

Thanks for sharing, I think we all experience this and talk to less about it.. Often I get the same feeling, specially in terms of comparing myself to me during my bachelors being so focused on my studies, which I'm not anymore. But forget all the progress I had in my private life, making more time for family and relationship, friends, sports and own health. With my father passing away lately, I remembered, how more important this is... Keep it up and all the best with your research and future steps! Best regards, Edis. 🙏🏽 :)

[@ishakawade9100]

felt sad to hear about your father, rip also all the best for your future endeavors may you achieve success but all the more happiness

[@Joshua-rp2nq]

Thank you for this video! I can somewhat relate. During corona I decided to study data science additionaly to my master in mathematics which made me very busy. But as I was motivated, it was quite an enjoyable time. But as soon as it was time to write the final master thesis, I lost all motivation (for the same reasons as you) and I noticed that apart from my girlfriend, I haven't developed meaningful relationships and while I am not deeply sad or anything, I have lost much of my positivity and optimism. My days are much more "grey" nowadays. I hope that my life is going to become more colourful again in the near future. Also vielen Dank für deine ehrlichen Worte :)

[@SamuelBoschMIT]

Gerne 😊

[@rodrigocalixto470]

Hey Samuel! Just wanted to say, remember that struggle leads to growth. You grow as a more complex being in face of uncomfortable situations. And you're already helping and inspiring a lot of people out there by being open about your feelings. Thank you for that!

[@edwardmitchell6581]

Growing up I often became friends with people that were ostracized by everyone else. There were usually reasons others avoided them (random violence or intentionally making people feel uncomfortable for example). I spent so much time thinking of their happiness, I didn't consider what I was getting from the relationship. I'd like to model good friendships for my children. Once you are a parent, it is VERY hard to make new friends.

[@thesocialtones]

Thank you for your honesty, passion and motivation are extremely important in our time, especially because we have so many more opportunities than our parents. This is also the reason why I decided to study sociology, because I really feel that I am learning something that interests me and brings me further as a person. Even though I was extremely advised against it. Through you I got more interested in technical methods in my discipline. I plan to study computational social sciences in the master's program because you really made me want to program. Especially because through your video about learning methods I have the feeling that I can learn everything :)

[@danscatalogue]

I think there are some similarities between your story and mine. I am also currently in my undergrad studies, majoring in architecture. Back in high school I thought this would be the perfect decision as it would allow me to be creative while also maintaining a certain aspect of technicality. However, as the first semester is coming to an end I notice that I am very unsatisfied with the last few months. I noticed that the curriculum has a very heavy focus on design and the more technical aspects are left out. A few weeks ago I started to contemplate changing majors and to study civil engineering instead, as it would have a stronger focus on the technical details of construction. Through out the last few months I noticed that I started to feel increasingly more interested in Physics and mathematics, perhaps largely due to watching Samuel's channel. However, I do still have my doubts. Even though I feel interested in Stem I am still afraid of not having to ability to excel in my studies. Failing horribly at civil engineering and contemplating changing majors again.

[@SamuelBoschMIT]

Thanks for the comment! And glad to hear this! 🙂

[@the_ace248]

What video is that, please? I'm trying to find it

[@thesocialtones]

@@the_ace248 "Best Study Method if You Struggle to Focus | How I got into MIT despite ADHD"

[@nikolp7701]

So comforting to know there are people with the same problems as you out there! Thank you Samuel!

[@SamuelBoschMIT]

My pleasure! Glad it was helpful! 🙂

[@olaalman4565]

Probably my most favourite video of yours, people are rarely so transparent and honest about their life. Thank you Samuel.

[@SamuelBoschMIT]

You’re very welcome 😉

[@warriordx5520]

I never took your channel seriously, you were always some youtuber trying to be relevant to grow their channel, but this video just helped me understand my feelings even better so thank you very much Samuel!

[@SamuelBoschMIT]

I appreciate that! 😊

[@eightysevenf]

Some important real talk that really helps this sad academic. Thank you. 🙏

[@SamuelBoschMIT]

My pleasure! 🙂

[@calvinrob4068]

By far the best video you've made. This was more authentic and honest than most of the internet personalities. This would provide ease and insights into people in similar academia positions but also to people in different situations facing similar core plateau issues. God bless and hope that you find your way ASAP

[@SamuelBoschMIT]

I’m glad you liked it and I hope it helped 😊

[@basstscho1400]

Takes guts to publicly have a realtalk about struggles, given your channel mostly showed you overachieving your goals. Thanks for sharing! Personally i would even reduce the third goal. There is no shame in downsizing. The body is getting older and priorities are shifting. Running hyperproductive to the next goal may just be the very reason to run past the feeling of having a good life. Those were my learnings during times of health issues that forced me to give up former academic goals. My truth doesnt have to be anybodys but id like to think someone needed to hear. Best of luck finding a path thats fullfilling

[@daria.746]

I highly appreciate your honesty! It's hard to see the problems of others these days which makes you feel like the only one facing them. I really liked that talked about your thoughts man, Thank you.

[@asdf_600]

Hey Samuel, thank you for this video. I understand the many frustrations you can feel and it feels good to hear someone put words on them. I have had a similar chain of thought, I moved quite a bit over the last years and I feel like it really isolated me as I started to see less and less people. Regarding the topics of your videos, I personally enjoy that you're talking about anything and everything related to your experiences, it's actually a good thing to me and your channel feels much more human than most others, hence it's definitely one of my favorites! Maybe one option to meet people is to start a weekly/biweekly meetup around MIT, informaly meeting ppl around there just to chat. Im not in the US at the moment but I hope to apply to MIT in December and I would be happy to give a hand with that (assuming I get in) Regarding time management/startups etc, I also got involved into quite a few projects on the side and they definitely slowed my research activities so maybe its worth giving that up for a bit, maybe just 6month-one year, to see what comes out when you focus 100% on research, maybe you don't have to stay on quantum ML, maybe other ML areas can interest you. My point being, to make a startup, you first need a problem to solve and I think every lab has a ton, so if you have time to work with a different advisor, maybe you can come up with ideas for future startup while still doing research and publishing. On the other hand, Im obviously not in your shoes so if you feel like dropping out, you have your reason. In any case, you've probably acquired many useful skills during the PhD, so even without completing it, it still brought you something. Also, I know some universities allow to pause your PhD if you want to explore something else for some time, I guess MIT also offers such opportunity. In any case, I wish you all the best, I definitely learned a lot of interesting things watching your videos, hope you'll still have time and energy for them in the future.

[@fabianhauser8912]

Man crazy. Been an overachiever in my bachelor's degree, started my master's degree at TUM in Maths this semester, was okay-nice for the first couple weeks, and then... I got food poisoning and suddenly felt loneliness and the fucking void. Now bought a camera and convinced my brother and best friend from school days to start making short movies, since art and especially movies have always my biggest passion, and I want to feel progress at fields that actually matter to me again.

[@colemanroberts6827]

I respect your ability to open up in this video! It's helping me a lot in assessing where I'm currently at in my own life.

[@AlbertKimMusic]

It's comforting to know that we don't feel this way alone, we're all too human

[@SamuelBoschMIT]

We are!

[@patri9752]

Broh, Brazil here, dont stop, YOU is inspiration for me. NEVER Give UP.

[@meenooahhh4238]

"You should never quit something just because you don't feel like doing it. You should only ever consider quitting something, if it is stopping you from doing something else which would allow you to became a better version of yourself" - Thanks Sameul 💪🏼

[@SamuelBoschMIT]

You're very welcome :)

[@sukd2669]

That honesty is going to get you far, samuel. These hard periods is what will transform you to do meaningful things later. Honesty is a way to speed the transformation up. All the best. Look forward to any videos you do now i see the real you, and well done. Growing on emotional quotient.

[@SamuelBoschMIT]

Thank you 😊

[@florianm5639]

Thank you for the honest reflection. It would be really sad if you shut down this channel, as it provided me and many others as a source of inspiration. It is important to me to emphasise this point as I deem it very meaningful that you are inspiring hundreds of young folks out there. All the best!

[@rafi2611]

Great book recommendation for you is mindset, written by Carol Dweck. As like you I always succeed in school and was very "gifted", I started to feel very bad when I wasn't brilliant like you descripted in the video. This book really helped me to not always try to look intelligent and proof myself but see everything as an opportunity to learn. It might help you if you can also see the long time that you invested into topics that maybe are not as important for you now as something that helped you learn what you will avoid in the future and what is actually valuable for your life. Thanks a lot for all of your videos! Greetings from Austria

[@paulgwydyon2388]

Probably your most meaningful video so far. It will help many people, including myself. Thank you for having the courage to share this with us.

[@SamuelBoschMIT]

Thank you 😊

[@igorciganovic4647]

Hvala na iskrenom videu. Velika si motivacija i želim ti puno uspjeha. Pozdrav iz Zagreba 💪

[@SamuelBoschMIT]

Puno ti hvala! Pozdrav iz Cambridgea 😊

[@M1and5M]

Thanks Samuel! reminds me about 2 years of my life were i moved to a city where i startet my studies, but did not know anybody and struggled thorugh those two years. Lonliness really made a mark on me. Now i am happy with what i do now but feel like i am competing with younger people all the time, since i started a new bachelor and finishing your age. Still, it tought me how valuable close relationships are and how empty those ambitous goal can be. Ultimately i try not to define my self worth through my performance, but perform because of my self worth!

[@DesTorix]

Sharing honest struggle is true strength! Watching the video and reading the comments gave me a reality check. Apparently everyone is struggling in on or the other way. Thanks for sharing. Viel Erfolg, du wirst intuitiv die richtige Entscheidung treffen!

[@SamuelBoschMIT]

Danke dir!

[@davidbosch5079]

Stay strong, bro!

[@SamuelBoschMIT]

😂💪💪

[@sapanee6677]

I love you.

[@SamuelBoschMIT]

Very charming 😊

[@MrCatsbrown]

Interesting take, we all feel like shit sometimes and life is tough... but what is most important is we are all fighting towards a goal! I hope your decision making is well thought out and im sure you will make the right choice. You helped a lot of people online and will get support no matter what!

[@arnauchuecosvilaro5373]

I am an undergrad at Aerospace Engineering and I often think that maybe this is not my place nor where I want to be, most of the times after that I'm watching youtube and I see the amazing things that made me enter my career path but my point here is that it is normal to lose motivation sometimes. So thanks a lot for this video, kept me motivated towards my goals and I really appreciate that people that have achieved what I want to achieve feel the same way sometimes.

[@FTLC]

Thank you so much for this video,before watching this video I was talking to my sister about people who are better then me in terms of profession or relationships will always be better then me but after watching this I realised people might look happy from outside but everyone have a fight going on inside ,you have always motivated me I wish you do really amazing in your life which makes the most sense for you thank you so much ❤

[@SamuelBoschMIT]

Thank you 😊

[@petrupascu6356]

Samuel, thank you for being so honest and sharing with us your struggles! It helps a lot reminding myself that I'm not the only one with lots of uncertainties at an academic/career and personal level. I wish you all the best in making the right decisions for yourself!

[@gauravrathi5877]

I noticed the bright light from the windows in the beginning of the video (probably noon) to the evening scene in the middle and drawn curtains at the end (probably night). Dude you put so much time and effort on a single video, that too the one which highlights an important but somewhat a personal issue. Hats off.

[@SamuelBoschMIT]

thank you! Yeah, I am not very fast at recording these. Even after a year of practice. So it usually takes me 5-6 hours in total to film a video 😬

[@jonathanbollig666]

I barely ever comment videos, but this really hit home on so many levels. I'm just finishing my physics bachelor, and wondering what I should do with my life. It's crazy that most people I know more closely who do a PHD in physics usually have a lot of doubts on there work.

[@BaliGoat]

Bin gerade im Austausch und habe auch gemerkt dass Beziehungen enorm wichtig sind für ein glückliches Leben. Tolles Video!

[@akshatrastogi9063]

I am exactly going through the same situation as you described in your PhD. Glad you took the the right decision to leave and have some idea what to do next. After four years in my PhD, I haven't made any progress, I have no vision of what I want to do in future, people have also given up on me as I always have a vibe of hopelessness around me. I just day dream throughout the day what to do next if not PhD as PhD life is providing me a bare minimum stipend which makes life easy, but this is unsustainable. After spending almost my entire life in the route from bachelors, to masters and now PhD, I have become unemployable.

[@TheBruceKeller]

Thanks for being open and honest about it all. I felt the same way about not having anyone to care for me when I had a surgery back in the summer, if I had stayed in my home town I'd have had people, but I moved to the Denver area a few years ago and my night shift plus COVID and subsequently working from home all the time really screwed up any decent local relationships. Really hits home!

[@owent159]

Hey Sam, I'm also debating leaving my physics phd at a high-ranking school. Thanks for really echoing my sentiments and I hope to see you around the Cambridge area!

[@y_social_]

bro this is the most inspiring Video you’ve made

[@SamuelBoschMIT]

Thank you Kevin :)

[@freshjakob33]

Hello Samuel, thank you for sharing this honest video. I am also doing my PhD right now at Humboldt University in Berlin. So I know how you feel about this task. I think that's just part of it, I often feel the same way when I'm sitting alone in front of this work and I don't make any progress for weeks. Like you said, whatever you do, do it with passion and you will go the right way. Often when I am stuck I watch your videos, they inspire me and help me refocus. So thank you and keep doing what makes you happy. Greets from Berlin

[@SamuelBoschMIT]

Thank you 😊

[@turnblue4you]

8:57 is a great point. I see it as; challenging things are rewarding, just beware that whatever you're doing, do it with the intent of building towards some type of goal and not an intangible ideal that you (falsely) believe matters.

[@mrmarmosetbc4506]

Thanks for saying this, you're always an inspiration for motivation, now you're an inspiration to live a healthier type of motivated life, knowing that being unmotivated is normal.

[@SamuelBoschMIT]

You are so welcome! Even Richard Feynman had such phases in his life, and he went on to win the nobel prize :)

[@maxheitmann2961]

I love the „do things that make you a better person“ - sequence. Especially the part where you refer to the reflection of ones development in the context of a degree.

[@SamuelBoschMIT]

🙂

[@zsoltharai1226]

I am in almost exactly same situation. In all aspects mentioned in video. It's hell! It is sure that there is a solution.

[@watchup1171]

This is unbelievably valuable. Thank you for sharing this.

[@SamuelBoschMIT]

You're very welcome! :)

[@phil7741]

Thank you for making this video! It really hit home for me. I recently left a medical doctorate program a little over half way into it. For around 12 years it was my dream to be a doctor and much of my identity was built around it. Unfortunately I did not find the happiness or satisfaction in this field like I expected, so my passion and all desire to study vanished. I became extremely depressed, especially seeing so many of my peers become successful while I felt stuck. I finally have a new goal that is giving me a purpose and an incredible drive to study. I love learning again and I'm much happier than when I was in medicine. You are extremely bright and no matter what you choose I know you'll be successful. Keep your head up and best of luck with everything!

[@meenooahhh4238]

This video is very valuable for a person like me. You opened my eyes to know that people like you, who are among the best in society, also have a bad time and human feelings like normal average people. Before, I thought that a person who is so successful and has the best life like you have different feelings and mentality. But in reality, we are all the same in terms of our feelings. Thank you, Samuel! And I know you will be successful anyway! Cheer up!

[@tomzzx]

Beat regards from Zagreb, Samuel.. first time stumbling across your channel and you seem very down to earth, good luck in whatever you do 🤗

[@SamuelBoschMIT]

Thanks so much! Glad to hear i have viewers from my home town :)

[@NiklasSteenfatt]

Great video, very relatable! Regarding your life decision, check out the book "When to Jump" by Mike Lewis who quit his prestigious corporate job to become a Squash player.

[@SamuelBoschMIT]

Hey Niklas, good to hear from you! Thanks a lot for the book recommendation - appreciate it! I added it to my reading list :)

[@danscatalogue]

Thank you very much for this Samuel. Although logic says otherwise, it is often hard to understand that everybody has to deal with their own struggles. Its refreshing to actually see you address this issue. Personally, I believe that this channel has helped me a lot throughout the last few months! Judging by the comments left behind by various viewers I think that a lot of people feel the same way. I would be very happy to be able to keep watching your videos in the future!

[@xZinio]

Ich erinnere mich sehr gut daran, als ich, nachdem ich herausgefunden habe, dass du jetzt auch einen YT-Kanal hast, mir dein LinkedIn-Profil angeguckt habe und naiverweise genau das gedacht habe, was du im Video angesprochen hast. Ich hatte oft das Problem, dass ich mich konstant mit anderen Leuten verglichen habe und deswegen ist es für mich sehr wertvoll zu sehen, dass bei anderen auch nicht immer alles glatt läuft. Ich hoffe aber natürlich vor allem, dass du noch viele bedeutende Beziehung zu allen möglichen Personen schaffen kannst und das du es schaffst bezüglich deines PhDs, die Entscheidung zu treffen, die dich auf lange Sicht am Glücklichsten macht. Ich würde mich auf jeden Fall auf weitere KZbin-Videos freuen :)

[@kameelamareen]

Such a beautiful video ... just discovered the channel and much respect. Best of luck buddy ! Kinda a much needed video , as also started masters degree and all these questions start popping , loving what I do ... but what do I even wanna be ?1 Again , much love from Munich !

[@SamuelBoschMIT]

Welcome aboard! 😊

[@stefanosadane977]

Thanks for being honest. I have been hard on my self but has not yet seen any big changes. Seeing this gives hope ): imnot alone

[@amranhossen3109]

You have framed it very well. Going through the same phase.

[@SamuelBoschMIT]

Thank you!

[@Addicus_brown]

This is my favorite video of yours by far. Thank you for this.

[@SamuelBoschMIT]

Glad you enjoyed it! 🙂

[@playakilla4513]

I can totally relate. I started my Bachelor's degree in Engineering Management four years ago, and unfortunately, right before I graduated, I realized that I hadn't really learned anything that truly interested me. I kept hoping that the next semester would offer something better, but it never did. Now, I'm at a point where I've switched to a "university" (for those unfamiliar, there's a difference between universities and universities of applied sciences; the latter focuses more on practical learning, while traditional universities go deeper into theory). I was thrilled to be accepted and ready to dive into the subjects that really excited me. But sadly, I’ve come to realize that my math and physics skills aren't strong enough for the courses I truly want to take. So now, in order to finish my Master's in Mechanical Engineering, I’ve had to opt for subjects like "Production Engineering" that don't require as much of a technical background. It’s devastating because I thought this was my chance to finally learn what I'm passionate about. Instead, I’m just pushing through subjects for the sake of graduating, with little real interest in them. At this point, I’m not sure what else to do except finish as quickly as possible. It’s not that I’m "stupid" or incapable, but the amount of catching up I’d need to do to really dive into those topics would take at least another year. And honestly, I need a job and some income soon to support my family.

[@murilogomes4567]

Greetings from Brazil. Your channel was a great find for me! About meaning and motivation throughout life, I recommend two books: "In search of meaning" and "The Alchemist".

[@fatemehb3166]

This is by far the best , the absolute best video on this channel, it's so relatable, I needed this video, your honesty means alot to us (the audience) 👌👍

[@SamuelBoschMIT]

Thank you 😊

[@umbpic98]

This is one of the most beautiful, deep and sincere videos I've ever seen. I thank you for every single word and for every single feeling shared, I know it hasn't been easy but believe me videos like this mean so much to so many people. I wish you the best and to be happy. Remember, those who dream arrive before of those who think.

[@davidlakhter]

Totally relate bro! I say keep up the hard work on the different ventures you're doing and start journaling about your experience. Your intuition will ultimately guide you and you'll feel much clearer on your decision. Please don't stop posting content, I think you're also at an interesting point with yourube where you're testing out content and how to rebrand yourself within a niche. Keep pushing bro and I think whatever form of content you find the most passion in, like your podcast, will lead to success bc your authenticity will shine. And as long as you're consistent, it should do well. Keep it up bro, I really value and appreciate the content. Best of luck in making your decision, ultimately your intuition will guide you and you just need to find what way to channel and express it (like journaling), which may help you sort things out on what to pursue.

[@SamuelBoschMIT]

Thank you so much! 💪😊

[@oneoakconsultants4531]

No you haven’t messed up - the phD idea you have could be a few years ahead of time .. but so was Thomas Edison , if it wasn’t for his tenacity we would still be in darkness today I suppose; btw I am a 3rd year PhD candidate like you (only my uni is not in the same league as yours ) in exactly the same position facing a lot of push back ‘rejection’ and lack of interest . However I will keep going to the end and I hope you do too

[@jeswynnn]

Thanks for uploading your take. It hits home hard. You might be dealing with all sorts of problems inside, but the way you presented this so charismatically- absolutely love it. Kudos to you, and best wishes for your future. Stay strong King.

[@freshkid5081]

Very honest and important video for your followers!!! This will motivate people in similar situation 🙌🏻

[@SamuelBoschMIT]

Glad you think so!

[@ragibshahriar187]

I am very glad that you decided to talk about this. thank you!

[@SamuelBoschMIT]

Glad it was helpful! 🙂

[@totoman999]

Danke für deine Offenheit! Irgendwie finde ich mich selbst in deinen Schilderungen wieder. Ich wünsche dir viel Erfolg auf der Suche nach deiner persönlichen Erfüllung!

[@SamuelBoschMIT]

Vielen Dank! 🙂

[@arthurchadwick1468]

We’re here for you Sam! 😊

[@all_in_art]

Totally I here you there :) Also funny note: many people are passionate (like in following their dreams) without being too emotional (just a reserved type of character) 😅

[@nosferatu5500]

Liebe diese Offenheit. Fühle mit dir. Diese Zwiespaltung in der Akademie hat mich auch getroffen. Es gibt so viele schöne Bereiche, aber im Doktorstudium fokussiert man sich für mehrere Jahre nur auf ein Thema. Ich bin auch bald in der Phase und würde mich gerne in Richtung komplexe Systeme fokussieren, da viele Physikprofessoren an den Schnittstellen arbeiten in der Neurowissenschaft oder Informatik. Ich glaube aber die Skills die man lernt, um ein Problem zu lösen sind sehr wertvoll und können auch außerhalb der Forschung gut verwendet werden, außerdem weiß man auch wie man in anderen Problemfeldern Forschung betreiben kann.

[@anonymousperson5794]

I feel like we are our own personal demons worst enemies. But we sometimes get burnt out and then feel not as motivated to do things. I do feel very 5-10 years we mentally change as a person for personalities and change of plans. I feel with some people writing a diary or journal even if it's dreams or nightmares can held one reflect and come to a conclusion to ones person underlying issues.

[@aryansudan2239]

great advice samuel! I am a physics major and importance of practical skills is something every pure science major needs to understand

[@thelatifproject]

I love this channel Samuel. Thank you for the honest no filtered snippet of your life and struggles. I share your thoughts and pain, but I know the path I am on is the right one.

[@mrjamo100]

very good and relatable video - keep it up!

[@SamuelBoschMIT]

Thank you Alfred! 😊💪

[@PrudentialViews]

I really hope you get through all of this!

[@SamuelBoschMIT]

Thank you! 🙂

[@PrudentialViews]

@@SamuelBoschMIT You are welcome. I also want to appreciate the fact that you have made many videos on your channel to help us. I am really hoping I get into MIT and you are one of those people who is helping me :).

[@benediktyt6466]

Wow. This is a really awesome authentic talk! Thank you man

[@SamuelBoschMIT]

Glad you enjoyed it! 🙂

[@giialiinh]

😢 I do really admire you, why can one be this productive and intelligent. if only i could live a life like you do and feel how it does feel like being so intelligent and bright in every aspect. ❤

[@patryk6769]

This was a very important video for me. Thank you for touching this topic

[@SamuelBoschMIT]

You are so welcome!

[@teabaya3792]

Thank you for this video, I relate so much. I feel like I wasted so many years studying something that is now hard/impossible to get a job in. I chose a topic for my thesis that was unnecessarily time-consuming and difficult. Just making the project took me 6 months of 7+ hours per day, and I still need to write it. I've been moving around so much in the past years that I feel like I don't have any real friendships. Now, I am leaving everyone behind as I am moving from Slovenia to Boston next year. Anyways, sorry for my rant. The point is that I decided to delete most social media a few months ago because the life I was showing on there was a lie. I think that videos like these are important to show that no ones life is perfect

[@nicohambauer]

The first four sentences i can really relate to: "I am not happy all the time. Nor have i been very productive over the past two years. And for quite some time i haven't made any progress in getting closer to any of my life goals. In fact I do not know what my life goals are anymore." That summarises quite well the struggles after as a scientist you tried to understand the whole world from a certain perspective, because you holistically wanted to know your stuff. But most of the time life is a bout being fully present and making the most fun, random and sometimes best choice based on your past knowledge and situational awareness.

[@PBL-50]

Great video! Very interesting to hear this perspective from you, arguably one of the biggest overachievers one can imagine. Shows it again - everyone struggles. There is one thing I want to add. What we often forget about education on the theoretical side (like Theoretical Physics, Maths etc.) is that we maybe don't use the exact methods we learned. You won't need to work with differential equations when founding a startup (in most cases at least). But during the time you spent learning these difficult methods, you trained your brain and literally altered your brain structure to equip it for analytical tasks. You'll rely on these skills for the rest of your life, often without noticing. Imo the value of that is immense. That's why I think theoretical education in the sciences is never wasted, even if one winds up doing something completely different.

[@lksmac1595]

Please never stop making KZbin videos. You’re a huge inspiration in every way!

[@SamuelBoschMIT]

Thank you 😊

[@HT-rq5pi]

Appreciate this honest video.

[@SamuelBoschMIT]

Thank you :)