HTSM SO FAR 83 Nadia & Mark TALK Through His Mental Breakdown & Diagnosis of Bi POLAR

[@sawalhaadderleys]

Nadia here .. I’m sat in the car in my way home reading your comments with tears streaming down my face . Both Mark and I are so moved by your love and support . Thank you to each and everyone of you for your loyalty and support . You mean so much to us xxx

[@angelaknowles73ak]

While I was listening to you both being so beautifully articulate and articulated the way that marks breakdown started and manifested and I just broke down in tears Cos it brought back my sort of a breakdown I had back in November I love the both of you xx

[@beastieber5620]

Sending big hugs to you and Nadia

[@allyfraser3452]

Thank you for this honest, powerful and relatable video/insight. It’s so appreciated and comforting xx🤍🤍

[@zivilesikdher3437]

You are so lucky to have each other. Love you loads. 💕

[@bevhartnoll3004]

🥰🥰🤗

[@vickyhug969]

Imagine being brave enough to have this personal and detailed conversation with your loved ones - and then showing your subscribers the same respect by saying it all over again to them. I’m in complete awe of them both.

[@sawalhaadderleys]

Thank you 🙏

[@hope_25058]

The world needs more spoken and less shame on mental health. so absolutely admire those brave enough to speak out. An inspiration x

[@fishtail185]

Didn't know it was possible to feel such warmth and affection towards people I don't know, have never met. You both are such decent, loving human beings.

[@wickedloonuh89]

"I can't take a break from myself" there's so much pain in that and it's so true. We can escape relationships, jobs..the world...but we can't escape ourselves. Thank you for your honesty Mark, you are so brave and fantastic!

[@del_ecuras1836]

Couldn’t put this any better I’d love to leave myself at home at present Big hugs to you with these two wonderful open honest people we can bring each other up

[@wickedloonuh89]

@@del_ecuras1836 Hugs to you, you sound like a lovely person. I wish you all the best ❤️

[@del_ecuras1836]

@@wickedloonuh89 ❤️

[@shelleystojsavljevic155]

Mark you articulate what I have been struggling with the last two years. I have cried seeing you tell your story and feeling some comfort that someone else would understand how I feel. It is pure torture. The only peace is when you sleep. Nadia you are amazing how you cope.

[@karenjones6715]

You are not alone ❤️

[@gabrielle6326]

Sometimes I think there aren’t many good kind people in the world but you are one in a million mark and nads. You will always have each other and your love will get you through all the bad times xxx

[@jennyfraser-nash5923]

Nadia, I have also just helped my husband through an awful depressive episode. It’s so difficult for the partners of people with mental illness and I wanted to say how much I admire you and the way you have helped Mark through this. When I felt like I couldn’t deal with much more, I thought of you and your strength and it helped me. Thank you for talking about this and please keep the conversation going. Xx

[@robolam.6107]

Sending you lots of love and strength xx

[@sawalhaadderleys]

Oh sweetie . Big big hug .. Nadia x

[@KimberleyMJones]

I am in tears watching this. One of the most heartbreakingly beautiful sharings I have ever seen. I have been to similar places myself. Thank you so much both of you for being open and brave you lovely people you. Your love for each other is #goals. I am sure your courage and vulnerability will help others feel validated and less alone. Huge hugs and gratitude to you both. K xxx

[@clairestott8078]

My god… this is unbelievably moving… I’m in tears at the end of this incredibly emotional podcast… Words don’t suffice in trying to describe how I’ve felt listening to this… You have both so very eloquently described the absolutely terrifying ordeal that you have both been through…. The love, warmth, and best wishes I feel towards you both and your beautiful family is so genuine and you are both inspirational people… Your love through this that you have for each other will be even deeper than it already was….Mark…. feel so emotional….I don’t have the words… You are here and thank god for you… the Dad that you are, the Husband that you are, the son that you are, the son in law that you are, the friend that you are,….you are an incredible person and yes your life is a dichotomy… equal joy and sadness but it’s real and it’s the most absolute kind of love ❤️ Nadia…. I’m inspired by your love, strength and vulnerability that you show… you truly are one in a million… As a married couple… you both have the best deal…. Which is each other ❤️ Love you both and thank you for your bravery in baring your souls and trusting us with your most painful experience ❤️

[@clairestott8078]

@@sandimoo am just very moved by Mark and Nadia’s sharing of such a frightening time… they are helping so many by sharing such a deeply personal experience… inspirational ❤️

[@Cesar-sp3nx]

I'd just like to say a few things. Mark, I'm so glad you have finally gotten the proper diagnosis and are on the path towards healing and dealing with the constant battle that is our Bipolar. As a diagnosed Bipolar II, with ADD, OCD, PTSD and Social Anxiety, even before your proper diagnosis you were always a beacon of light for me in my travels down this bipolar path. I mean that wholly and truly; you have been the biggest advocate and guide, whether you realize that or not, for me and I think for a lot of us. Thank you for this. I don't think I can ever really truly put into words how much it has meant, still does mean and has helped me in absolutely desolate and dark times. You are an amazing man. I thank you for always being open and sharing and being the best teacher I've ever encountered. Nadia, thank you for your support, understanding and constant accountability. Both of yall have done so much. Much love guys.

[@Lola-gw2en]

Thank you for this chat. It made me cry. You are both such beautiful people and these open, honest conversations really do touch the heart and make people like myself feel less alone in their own mental health issues. Thanks again. Bless you both xx

[@gillygilly2069]

Wow, what a truly open, honest dialogue, I applaud you both I’ve never heard such a frank talk between two people. You are both an inspiration, have you ever considered writing a book of your life and struggles and your wonderful family

[@kellylody7928]

Oh my gosh - you both do this video with such honesty and bravery. I can’t tell u how much of a difference it has made to me hearing u talk about this. Not many people know this about me (and now I saying it publicly) but I suffered a break down in October and it took me 6 months to claw myself back and hearing that I’m not alone in this helps more than I can say. Thank you both for telling your story. Please stay safe - u both are truly beautiful souls

[@elliot_gonzalez]

This was such an incredibly brave, honest and enlightening conversation. Glad you’re in a better place now Mark. I’m sure this video and your constant talking about your mental health struggles will help many.

[@dawnboivin1970]

This by far is the most moving vlog I've seen thus far. Mark and Nadia I applaude you. The way in which you share so openly to us subs the struggle, the diagnosis and aftermath with true emotion and honesty got me teary-eyed (tears literally streaming down my face). Real feels in my heart for the two of you. Not only do you demonstrate true love to one another and those around you, but also to us on the other side of the screen or even just tuning in to your podcast. It shows great strength and empathy on your part. I am one who struggles with my own mental health, not only because I'm a single mom raising 2 young kids and losing my beloved Dad last August (stage 4 lung cancer), but also because I've never felt good enough in life. Life hasn't dealt me the easy cards, I've been struggling for so long that it's now my norm, but I continue to carry on, as my kids rely on me and they are the only ones I breathe for when everyday I've the weight of the world on my shoulders. I don't want to let them down. You are both very blessed to have the support of each other and I'm very blessed as a sub on your KZbin channel to know you. Family doesn't always mean by blood. Thank you for sharing this story with us. Lots of love sent from me in 🇨🇦💝💝💝💝💝💝💝💝💝💝

[@sammierichens6728]

That was heartbreaking and beautiful to watch. You can really feel the love and care between you both. I’m glad you are both in a better place than you were. Although, I know it’s a journey with ups and downs. Thank you for sharing and I hope you get nothing but support for doing so. You make a difference. It may be baby steps, but people’s understanding and attitudes are changing and you’re a big part of that. ❤️

[@clarelc5933]

So pleased you have got to the bottom of this problem and that you are in a much better place now. Need to put tissues on my shopping list, just finished the box watching this😢Sending hugs 🤗🤗

[@lucymiller2998]

I've followed Mark's journey with great interest and guidance from the beginning. My husband is very much on the same path and it's what made me find you both in the first place. Listening to this takes me back to Mark and yourself talking about how the anti-depressants weren't working. Those painful installments. My heart aches that you both went through that unnecessarily. We have too had the help of an incredible psychiatrist. I think too many people are directed towards councilors when a psychiatrist is what they really need. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for these very honest, personal chats. They have been life changingly helpful. Mark - incredible is an underserstatement. Nadia - to keep everything afloat while this was going on is almost insane!! You are both beyond words amazing! xxx

[@JZ-21167-TD]

Thank you so much for that💙 not often do you hear people talking so openly and honestly about how you really feel! I can relate to Mark on so many levels and to know that somebody else out there can relate to how i feel some days makes me feel so much better! I really appreciate you putting this on KZbin! Thank you!

[@lanadavidson6875]

So much of this resonates... its strangest comforting to hear as it shows what a lot of us go through. You're clearly the perfect pairing 🤗 you support each other so successfully

[@sabrinaneal6978]

A truly beautiful, honest , inspirational story of how love and support can help mental health issues. Mark you are amazing and although you can't love yourself you are loved by many. Nadia what a strong support you are and if everyone with mental health issues had someone fighting their corner for them like you do for mark so many people would get the help they so desperately need. Personally I've suffered since I was a child and am now 43 and each day takes work but my children keep me strong and fighting. Thank you guys for sharing such a personal journey , your love for each other is your greatest gift and will help mark to heal. X X

[@PsychicMediumshipSelkie]

I suffer from bipolar. I understand the blackness and the emptiness. The mental services are broken. I was about 7 years old when I tried to kill myself. But I was not diagnose until 46 years. It is hard at times. But I am 61 years and have learned to cope with it. Understanding yourself is a great help. But I do see someone once a month. I only get benefits and go private which really I cannot afford. My therapists helps a lot. My psychiatrist discharged me without any support what so ever. I am single and Live on my own. But I do like to see you both. You give me a laugh. Through it all I have never lost my sense of humour. I try my best when being with people. I can only truly be myself when on my own. Thank you. 💗💗💓💓💖💖

[@flossy8132]

Mark and Nadia, you have got so many people through so much, me included. And offer so much comfort to people. It upset me to see you both upset but its so brave to discuss such private things to yet again help others. I am so pleased you have come through the other side and are in a much better place right now. Wishing you both only the best. Love and hugs❤

[@jackievolino4657]

You two are so amazing !!! I cannot begin to think how hard that was for you both to talk about … well done !!! Your honesty and real ness is commendable… love you both so much ♥️

[@coconutisland3634]

Mark I think you are amazing. You’ve been white knuckling since you were 5 years old and trying everything you possibly could to help yourself. You are an inspiration and I hope you realise that by going through this horrendous “illness” or whatever you would feel appropriate to refer to it as, you are going to go on to help SO many people. Thank you for sharing this - it takes absolute guts to be so raw - I applaud you. I’m in awe of you. I love you all xxxx

[@belindaadams1471]

I have been following you both for all of lockdown and because you are really generous and lay yourself bare to help others we have got to know you I hope you can find your inner peace from what ever it takes to get you there but looking from the outside in to have Nadia by your side is the greatest gift x

[@nataliesmith2458]

Truly thankful that you are sharing your journey in an honest down to earth no nonsense way x Wishing you all the best x

[@bethdawkins2009]

This is so honest, so caring, so loving, thank.goodness you got help. You are such an open honest family. I'm sure this will help do many people who are suffering. Bless you and your family xxx

[@jillgracenicholson8243]

My goodness! I have worked in the field of mental health for decades. What u both have shared is so honest and personal, but additionally, I believe the impact on how people will understand mental health better is enormous. Thank u, sending loving vibes. Xxx

[@sarahjaynemelodie8675]

Good God talk about a hard watch guys! Was in absolute tears when you said the psychiatrist said Mark had been struggling with this since he was about 5......that's was it I was a blubbering mess. As someone who struggles with my mental health too I feel the pain in your voice when you're talking about it. Mark you are a bloody amazing person, dad goals and a brilliant husband as well as an intelligent, creative person. I wish you could see your brilliance like everyone else can. So lucky to have a loving and understanding wife as Nads is too. Love you guys, keep doing what you're doing. You've helped me massively through difficult times.x.

[@michaelkennedy4571]

these conversations help so much!! thank you for doing them ❤️ glad to hear Mark is doing well too

[@veenamudhar3047]

Mark - this was such an open and honest account of what you have been going through for so many years. Its heartbreaking to know that you have struggled on and off with these feelings for so long. No matter how much you are loved and cherished by Nadia, your girls and your mum - only you know how difficult it is to live with yourself. I am someone who has never experienced mental health issues and count myself blessed that I haven’t as it is so prevalent in many peoples lives. The one phrase that I come back to whenever I have any episodes of worry , doubt or anxiety is “Conquer your mind and you can conquer the world” - Guru Nanak. This says everything to me. Your tendency to live in your head - albeit a very intelligent, articulate and sensitive one - can be a burden. We all need to look at what it is in us that makes us follow and accept every single thought that rears itself to create such destruction. Why do we believe everything our minds tell us ? Not every thought is true. The darkness comes when we close the curtains {metaphorically). Open them and notice the light is shining all the time, whether you like it or not. Our normal state is calm and peace - we constantly allow the darkness to come. I feel that the darkness is the norm for you- you have become “comfortable” there. I really hope the medications you’re taking can help assist you out if the darkness (I am a pharmacist - I know how these can work for you). They are a good start- however I am an advocate of the holistic approach where other avenues need exploring- especially talking therapy and internal inquiry. Be mindful of the thoughts - any thoughts. Meditation helps. I know you have tried exercising meditation - allow the thoughts to come and go during meditation. Think of them as visitors in your home - it’s fine when they arrive but let them leave peacefully. We would not let visitors stay permanently in our home. “The happiness of your life depends upon the quality of your thoughts” Marcus Aurelius. I hope I have not written anything to offend, upset or demean anyone reading this. Thanks.

[@juliehilton3365]

Thank you so much for sharing this with us mark and nadia and thank you nads for looking after him we are so pleased hes on the mend now we all love mark and we love your family so much sending love and happiness to you all you brighten my day everyday thank you and by the way you've made me cry again lots of love julie family xx

[@heathercampbell2284]

Omg Mark my heart breaks for you, your such an amazing man. Stay strong, your the best xxxx

[@russsouch256]

Thank you, this truly was a heartwarming conversation, such a powerful subject and I’m so pleased I’m able to share your challenges and I do hope I get to meet you both one day to give you the biggest hug you both deserve. Lovely lovely people… you’re doing a grand job and remember try and ‘zoom in’ when you can, only you and your loved ones matter at the end of day. X

[@kimlakkides770]

Nadia and mark you are so inspirational. Thank you for your raw honesty, love to you both and your family xxx

[@Mbizcuit]

The love that you show each other despite the downs is so beautiful to watch. Unconditional love and authenticity. Sending love and light ❤️ and thank you for sharing!

[@anneswy3573]

Oh Nadia, I’ve experienced something similar and bless you, you can see the pain❤️ So glad Mark has a diagnosis x keep loving each other x

[@FrecklesFyo66]

You have both been so very brave opening up about this. You have such a wonderful support network behind you. I can’t believe that there is absolutely no emergency mental health support! Shocking! Sending you both love and hugs 🤗 ❤️🤗❤️🤗❤️

[@turbosmumma6867]

Hi guys from the “delta strained” lockdown in NSW Australia. This is my first time ever commenting on a KZbin video ever. So here goes……….. I’m writing this with tears rolling down my cheeks, as you have captured a terribly confusing time in my life as a viewer out here who has struggled with mental health & who has had also loved ones who have/are suffering (surviving). Yet, here you are showing the real life with great humility & vulnerability & compassion along with not only the mess that goes along with the journey but also the roller coaster of getting help, with both specialists & medications. You are truly worthy of some kind of recognition that your words, your compassion, sincerity, & empathy do touch the lives of others, as I can certainly attest to! As you have touched mine! I even had an “omg” moment when Mark said about the air bubbles being like an alka seltzer in his head feeling! I’m like yes that’s it, I’ve had that feeling and now i have the words & I can describe it effectively to my Drs/Specialists on my next visit. Keep on being the awesome people you all are. Sending air hugs 💕💕

[@robolam.6107]

Darling Mark, thank you so much for speaking so openly about this awful disease, you’ve no idea how many people this will help. Sending lots and lots of love, and please remember, you are such a special human being and your family are so lucky to have you. Xxxx

[@sarahdavies3735]

Wow that was so raw and emotional…. This has to be your best HTSM so far. It’s definitely the hardest one you have both got through. I’m Sat here feeling like a proud auntie of you all. The love and support you all give each other is so so special. You really give us all a view on exactly how a family should be…. Building each other up not smashing each other down ( which is very rare these days!! ) Thank you for telling your story, your honesty is incredible. 🥺🥺🥺 xXx

[@eamonn3863]

Such an important video. I’m waiting to see a psychiatrist. Been weeks now. Despair, emptiness and disassociation. I know so well. You articulate well a wordless pain. But I have a history to draw upon and I know this too shall pass. Keep talking Mark. Remind us we are not alone. You’re quite a lady Nadia❤️

[@ELEN1971-]

Sending lots of love and strength to you fellow sufferer ❤️

[@eamonn3863]

@@ELEN1971- thanks Elen.

[@wonderwoman5528]

You’re not alone, although it can feel that way. Like any illness it will run its course, I’m just sorry you have to go through it ❤️

[@dellanixon8770]

Such an honest and open chat, I am in tears watching this. You both inspire me in so many ways. Thank you for sharing this and for all that do. You are both truly kind and wonderful people x

[@heathergunn6044]

That was so lovely of you both to open up to the harsh brutal truths of mental health and share them with us all. I blooming love you guys so much you help me through so much and give me hope that there are beautiful kind people in this world 💜💙 xxx

[@rachelsayers4729]

I have just caught up on this and I just want to say thank you so much to both of you for sharing this conversation as I feel it will help so many. I really hope that your diagnosis will continue to bring some clearer understanding and meaning to the symptoms that you’ve been experiencing, and that things will get better. You are both so strong, and there will be ups and downs to come but you have each other and a wonderful family around you who will support you through. Thank you again so much for sharing this and being so open about what has been happening. It is so important that we continue to improve the understanding of mental health conditions, and this will have helped so many ❤️

[@louisecrawford7379]

Just wanted to say how courageous you both are to share your experience here. I’m sure it will help so many. I totally relate to not getting a break from myself after 13 years of sobriety. Up and down with twists and turns, but still sober and still working at it. Sending you both lots of love x

[@hazelmalbon4594]

This was so emotional to watch. Since I have been watching you, I feel that you are part of my extended family. You are both the most beautiful people I have ever had the pleasure to know, you are so strong together. The support you give one another is a credit to you. Thanks so much for sharing this. I don’t know what else to say as I’m not very good with words. Onward and upward, bless your beautiful family. Love to you all. ❤️❤️❤️

[@andreaawangku1782]

Thank you for sharing this with us and for the honesty shown in the process. Ive struggled with depression for over ten years now and that coupled with social anxiety phobia has made me feel very isolated at times. However, wonderful people like both of you speaking so openly about mental health issues helps lessen the sense of isolation for not only me but all the other souls out there battling mental health problems. The world is slowly opening up to conversations regarding mental health and its a wonderful thing to see and read. Again, thank you for sharing your journey with us. Stay safe and well x

[@shelleysilver6597]

Thank you for sharing Mark and Nadia.😘 I really appreciate you both, being so open and honest. I’m so glad Mark, you are in a better position and got the help you needed . 😘 Sending you both, lots of love. ❤️

[@brbrochford1]

So emotional after watching you both 😢😢 thank you for sharing your mental health journey. Sending hugs to you both xx. You are so strong Mark & such a genuine, lovely human being, bless you & your beautiful family. Sending love & Positivity ❤️ keep strong x

[@suek8177]

Thank you both for being so open, honest and extremely brave in sharing something so intimate and personal. Mark, I feel so sad that you've had to endure such torturous pain and am so glad that you have finally got the help you needed and, whilst there may be still ups and downs along the way, you are moving in the right direction which is such good news. It takes great strength to be vulnerable in sharing such intimate things with even friends and family and so I am so in awe of you for selflessly sharing it with us too. Thank you. Love and hugs to you both xxxx

[@clarehemming4033]

Guys, I'm in awe of your honesty and love for each other. This was so brave, and honest chat from both sides and you brought me to tears, my heart was breaking for you. Sending you big hugs xxxx

[@zarabarr6340]

Incredibly moving, thank you for being so open and sharing your story to help others 💙💙

[@karenjolly813]

You both are so inspirational. I didn’t know what mental health was until in 2013 my sister had a breakdown . As you say Nadia it’s not easy trying to get the help, we had to fight for months before my sister was admitted to a psychiatric hospital. She is much better now and has accepted that she will stay on medication for the rest of her life as she has an illness that is real . Thank you so much for sharing your story , the pain is indescribable watching someone you love suffer in this way and not being able to reach them . My heart and love goes out to you both 💕💕💙💙

[@deniseferguson6792]

Sending my love to both of you. You have been so brave Mark in speaking out it took me back to when our son had a mental breakdown I had tears in my eyes in hearing you both speaking. Well done Nadia for the love and support.xxxx

[@lambybb2937]

Well done on being so honest and raw xx so helpful to see how youve both managed to get thorough such a difficult time x sending best hopes for you both xx

[@Babylons123456789]

Thank you Mark and Nadia for being so open about your struggles. It's a real eye opener for anyone who thank god doesn't struggle with mental health 🙏 Sending you both love and hugs 🤗🤗

[@sandi4540]

If there's anybody who should be ambassador's for mental health it's you guys!! I suffer from panic attacks and anxiety and just listening to what you have to say has made me feel not so alien!! in my way of coping with everyday situations !!! Thank you from the bottom of my heart for being soo open and honest 💜😘 mental health is a silent killer and needs to be spoken about xxxx

[@melaniemorrison7855]

I was in tears listening to you both, it's been such a difficult and heartbreaking journey for you both. Thank you for being so open and so brave for sharing this very difficult time. I hope this has helped those who are suffering. I am so proud of you both. You are both two very beautiful people. Love and hugs 💕❤ xxxx

[@jilllister6493]

Don’t even know where to start with this. Firstly just amazing, so raw and honest. Cannot tell you how it resonates with my own situation. It’s my daughter who suffers like Mark and I feel just like you Nadia. Mark saying he was disassociated and doesn’t want to be here is just how my daughter describes how she feels and Nadia’s despair about the fear of losing Mark is how I feel. Had a recent episode just like yourselves and doctor prescribed diazepam for two days to get her through. However that is where the medical help ends. GP.s have no real idea. They have minimal training in mental health issues.No psychiatric help offered and cannot afford private help. The lack of any readily available help is outrageous, heartbreaking, petrifying and desperately sad. So happy that you now have a diagnosis and your medication is working. Thank you for doing this video it made me feel that we are not alone and i ish you all the very best for a continued recovery xxx

[@tanni1877]

Thank you for sharing your truth. fragile state of mind with us Mark. You are not alone there are many silent suffers out there who struggle daily as well, including myself. This was such a an important video to make, your openness and love is inspiring Mark & Nadia.

[@43greengirl]

You guys have helped me so much in the past 18 months to speak up about my mental health struggles and also get a handle on my eating disorder too, it’s been hard but I’m getting there, I am so glad Mark you have such a lovely supportive family around you and that you have got the help you need. Thank you Nadia and Mark and family for being such a great support to us subs and lots of love To you all ❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@janelouisesmith722]

God bless you both for sharing that❤️Your love for each other is evident and probably stronger now than it was before Mark’s breakdown. And through it all you continue to help lots of other people by talking openly about your experiences. THANK-YOU MARK AND NADIA. Be kind to yourselves. Xxxx

[@jogreen7764]

Dear Mark, I thanked you for sharing your recent mental health experience but now I feel able to say a little more. 11 years ago I had postnatal depression and it became very severe, I couldn’t eat, sleep, perform normal activities of daily living, let alone look after my new born baby. Eventually it became so severe that I had to take antipsychotics and antidepressants. Today I am very well although I still have to work on controlling my anxiety. I wanted to say such a huge thank you to you for sharing your story because mental health crises don’t get spoken about enough and I don’t think people realise that the NHS, although amazing, isn’t geared up to support people in a crisis. I spent 5 hours in a&e waiting for a very kind psych doctor to tell me that if I wasn’t in immediate danger of harming myself or someone else then I’d have to go home and wait for my appointment with a mental health nurse/psychiatrist which happened about 5 days later. When it happened to me I thought I was the only person who this had ever happened to and that I was going to die. What I was going through was played down by my family when speaking to friends and other family members, I think because they were embarrassed, and by talking more and more about these things I hope people who are suffering will feel less alone. You are bravely helping all of us get to this place by being so open. Thank you Nadia for sharing your experience as the wife of somebody struggling so much. I would imagine it was terrifying for you and quite a shock to realise that there is nowhere within the NHS to turn in such an urgent situation. My husband, like you, was unbelievably amazing when I was unwell and I can only imagine how difficult it was for him. I hope that one day there will be instant access support for people (and families) whose mental health is in crisis, just like there is for our physical health. Thank you both xx

[@rose_quartz_loveandlight]

Thankyou for sharing with such honesty and vulnerability, you are the most beautiful, compassionate people. By sharing you are opening up the conversation and helping so many people. We love you & wish you so much health and happiness. Thankyou ❤️

[@nicolayacoub9520]

Hi Mark and Nadia Thank you so much for sharing your difficult experiences so publicly. You are always trying to reach out and help me and others which means alot. I am so thankful you got the correct diagnosis Mark which is key to getting to a better place.Lots of love and virtual hugs. I'm always listening and comforted by your chats on mental health We can all get through our ments together xx

[@Marilinaa]

Mark & Nadia, you are so brave and generous to share this. It will help people. Glad you are getting some help. Sending good wishes from Toronto.

[@mariajosegajardo1679]

Mark and Nadia I just have to say how much you’ve moved me. The truthful story about how you’ve managed throughout the years and no diagnosis until now it’s just an eye opener how mental health can impact a person, and that Mark have had to fight the way he has felt inside. I can’t even imagine how that has been for you Mark but I send you, Nadia and the girls a big hug of strength for coming out so open about this and for you all to stay strong for each other ❤️🙏🏼 Xx

[@janetvincent8870]

Thankyou so much for sharing, just a light bulb moment for me , as a single mum of 2 beautiful children, I can't share with them, or anyone but just know you helped me understand what I feel . Keep healing mark , stay safe xxx

[@savanahgiles5546]

Mark you have a beautiful and supportive wife,a great mum,excellent cook and a bundle of joy,be strong for her and just remember the love that's around you,meditate and join a yoga class for your inner wellbeing xxx

[@AcanthaRayneOakMoon]

I am so proud of how you have both dealt with this breakdown and diagnosis and how you are sharing it with the public. I can't imagine how emotionally fraught and on tenterhooks of fear you've both been. You will both always have my respect for trudging through such difficulties. Huge, huge hugs and much love.

[@shannonsmith1811]

So very brave to speak openly about your feelings on what is a tough topic. I wish my Dad had your strength, he too suffers with bi-polar and was once a functioning alcoholic - now he’s a straight up addict on the back of being sectioned. Being sectioned made it worse and he was lead to meet like minded folk who he felt sorry for and he’s always been a man to try and buy your love. He has never chosen sobriety, so well done to you for being so brave and choosing your family above the easy option that will be always be drink or drugs. I no longer have a relationship with my father and will not until he chooses sobriety and that’s painful. Aah here’s to better times, counting blessings, riding the waves of life. Thanks for sharing this!

[@jbjb3179]

Well done guys sharing your experiences. We as human beings need to know we are not alone in our troubles and that compassion and love are wonderful gifts I wish everyone could be accessible to. Love from Toronto

[@sarahelliott3106]

Bless you both! That was so brave of you to talk about such a private personal matter. So pleased Mark you're having the correct meds now. You're like family to us subs. Sending much love to all of you. XX

[@eireannbullimore7763]

The mundanity of depressive disorders is the most difficult thing I feel; when your mood just stays statically low for a such long periods of time. You can still be happy but it feels surreal because the background unhappiness is ever present. The duality of those things just builds an unbearable friction until no emotion feels real anymore and you don't know how to exist in yourself. All of which, of course, will inevitably result in a breakdown and sometimes illness because our brains simply can't function in that state of stress. I'm always grateful that you talk about these things Mark, half the struggle is realising you're not alone and you're not weak for suffering.

[@Amydisney]

10 minuets in and this has really hit home. I remember feeling this way last Christmas. It was meant to be the best day, spending it with family. But all I remember is being there but not being there, does that make sense? - at that moment I didn't want to be on this planet. A year later things are slowly getting better with my depression but now my anxiety is at it's highest and I'm terrified of death. I can't get away from the feeling of depression and wanting to leave or having panic attacks and complete fear of death! I'm 25, have two beautiful children and often feel like the worst mother for having these terrible feelings. I thank both you and Mark for all your KZbin videos, your vlogs, coffee moaning, these wonderful chats where you open up. I don't have much support around me (find it extremely hard to talk to people about how I'm feeling) and these videos are my escape. You're so brave for speaking up Mark, thank you💗 and nadia what a wonderful wife you are. You're all extremely lucky to have each other. What a beautiful family xxx

[@karenjolly813]

I’m so glad Mark is getting the help , support and medication he needs with the right diagnosis. Lots of love 💙💙💙

[@lisayarham1796]

I’m so sorry I missed this live stream..... have just watched this and have a huge appreciation for you both going through what is a very invisible illness that only people who have this can explain to someone like me who’s haven’t ever experienced it from anyone close to me! I work with children who have additionally needs in secondary school so we support teens with mental health but then don’t see the personal home struggles! I’m grateful for you both being so open to us all! Much love Lisa Yarham xx

[@debbiefivealive]

My mom of 82 had a breakdown during lockdown. It was the worst time of my life watching her not know who she was and where she was. Not talking to me. It was heartbreaking. We had both Been though breast cancer over the last fees years. It was a fight for both of us. But moms breakdown nearly finished us both off. Mom is getting better by the day. Thank goodness. I am so happy mark that you got the help you so needed 🤗

[@robolam.6107]

Debbie I’m so sorry for you and your mum, and hope you have much happier days ahead. Take care xx

[@debbiefivealive]

@@robolam.6107 thank you so much for your kind words 🤗

[@robolam.6107]

Debbie Patrick ❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@filmfan3697]

Thank you so much for this and for sharing. You are both such lovely people. The drug trip feeling you describe is what I live with all the time. I’ve spent so much of my life in bed from numerous mental health issues. The love between you is beautiful. I’m so so sorry for what you have to deal with Mark. It’s so lovely that you are so open. So many people don’t really believe me or give me unsolicited advice and it’s so wonderful that you don’t do that Nadia. It’s rare to hear this kind of empathy. My dad told me it was all in the past and I can move on and get back to living a completely normal life. He lives quite a distance away and doesn’t know how I really am. I hardly ever get dressed. I could go on and on. I wish we could all be validated. My psychiatrist diagnosed me with depression, anxiety, dissociative disorder and complex trauma. I told dad and he said I must have persuaded the psychiatrist that’s what I had. It leaves mentally people with zero self esteem.

[@adeletaylor4327]

What a beautiful and tender chat between you both. It is both heartbreaking and inspiring to hear both of your experiences. I hope now you have more answers and new insight that you can access individual psychotherapy to help each of you process it all and have ongoing support. Much like love to you both xxxx

[@MidnightJaguar2]

Thank you both so much for being so brave !!! We have never met but the last year I feel like I have friends and care about you ... I suffer with PTSD and can sometimes cut of from my family... Sending you lots of love . Thank you xxxxx

[@SamSam-yb3ls]

I'm so, so sorry for you both. This was harrowing and heartbreaking to hear, and try to understand, but as you said, can one really understand it if you've never been in the void? I can only empathise with you, and also with the sense of fear and helplessness of those around the person suffering. I wanted to hug you both really hard yet thank you for this incredibly brave and honest conversation. I'm so glad, Mark, you've got a diagnosis at least, which may help with getting some answers. Well done my lovelies - I don't know either of you, but have wierdly connected with and learned so much from your experiences, and I think that's part of the aim of these podcasts. Sending good vibes always x

[@del_ecuras1836]

Thankyou for this most emotional chat to date Your honestly have blown me away . I’ve suffered with mental health for a long time Till recently I had it under control but the past few months i haven’t been in a good place

[@mandymeadows2632]

Your honesty and bravery is immense, and will undoubtedly reassure so many. Wishing you a Healthy onward jouney together ❤️

[@bridgeenskudayski2810]

You both are so honest,explaining all so clearly, Thank you. You both supported so many .

[@fionamesser3486]

I have just watched this and want to say how in awe I am of you both. Firstly Nadia for being so strong. Trying to put myself in your shoes I think I would have ended up in a heap if I had been faced with my husband being so ill. People say they find a coping mechanism when faced with such awful scenarios but my husband has always been my backbone when dealing with family situations and you’ve been amazing Nadia. Mark, what a giant of a man you are to feel able to lay your feelings out to help others and share your journey. My children love my husband for being a big softy but that makes him more of a man in their eyes because he isn’t afraid to care and be vulnerable. I cannot even imagine what you have been going through all these years and to finally have a proper diagnosis must also throw up other worries, all a total scarey minefield. Without people like you documenting your innermost feelings and what you have been through, people like me who have only ever had to deal with situational anxiety, would remain ignorant. Incredibly frightening that help isn’t readily available but publicising the lack of help and the true horror that chemical imbalances in the brain can do to people can only help to improve this awful lack of medical help. My love and prayers go to you all and thank you for being so open. My heart was breaking watching watching you both document your story but your love shone through which is truly uplifting. Xx

[@sarawatkins1086]

What a beautifully heartbreaking but inspiring talk. Thank you both so much. You mark for being willing to share this with people and you Nadia for sticking by him and understanding and showing such love and compassion. So many people walk away from people with mental health problems. I myself have had many friends drop me when I had my breakdown. The ones that stick by you are worth more than gold. My husband after many years finally understands my illness now and has been such a rock to me. Mark, I’m so glad you now have answers and are on the right medications. As a fellow MH sufferer I know it helped me to have a name for what I was feeling. Sending you both so much love. You are such a beautiful couple. You really are. ❤️❤️ thank you thank you thank you

[@lauralawler8385]

Nadia I feel your pain my husband cannot express his feelings like Mark ❤️Mark your helping so many giving an insight and understanding listening to you helps me understand some of what my husband goes threw

[@shelleystojsavljevic155]

This will help so many people. I admire you both so much. 💜💜💜

[@debbiemoorcroft6767]

Wow, such an eye opener. We follow you and have been worried about how you all have coped. The honesty in this is to be applauded,so well explained and openly spoken about. You two are so lucky to have each other and the family around you,there is more than great hope in your lovely family. You should both be proud as you can’t have a MARK!!!!! without a Nadia and likewise you can’t have a Nadia without a MARK!!! Just know we appreciate everything you do and stand for. Love and our very best wishes to you all 💕x

[@kerripayn3508]

Very brave to talk so openly about this. Well done hopefully it will help people suffering from this invisible illness.

[@Dan-rj7ww]

So so insightful and moved me to tears. Thank you for sharing, like many others I feel so much warmth for a couple I have never met. My ex husband managed anxiety for years, mainly self medicating with alcohol. He eventually had a breakdown, as an ex partner living with him was so incredibly difficult and it took three years to be seen on the NHS, by this time he had spiralled into self harm, further addictions and made the decision in the moment to divorce me. I was completely devastated at the time and never thought I would heal from it. He has been treated now and years later he is managing his conditions and has a good relationship with our teenage son. I subsequently met the love of my life completely unexpectedly four years later and I have never been happier. For people suffering with mental illness and partners just know life does and can get better, it feels like an all consuming black hole at the time but don't ever lose hope As things do change it just takes time.

[@zeef4136]

I RESPECT you both soooo much, the bravery I have witness whilst you share your journey with us. I deeply feel so much compassion for you Mark, I recognise this will be ongoing and pray you find some peace amongst the chaos 💕

[@rebeccaarcher1206]

I’m 18, I experienced exactly what Mark is describing last year and I genuinely thought I was crazy, I had no one I could open up to. Yous have helped me more than you’ll ever know by posting this video. I’m still on the waiting list for hell

[@lizmacleod4334]

Thank you so much for talking so openly about Mark's breakdown.I'm so glad you're now in a happier place. I fear I am approaching this black void myself following over 12 months of fearsome anxiety.Caring for my father, my father then dying at home and managing that , organising and speaking at his funeral and then moving house, with all the palaver that goes with moving. It resonated with me when you said its almost the horrible anxiety that keeps you going, and then when it ends, what then?....Feeling lost is so much more frightening than feeling anxious.

[@sazcarr]

God... Thank you so much for this. Must be so hard to share and be so honest. This will be helpful to alot of people. Love you both for being so genuine, very refreshing. ☺️ Thanks for all you do.

[@sarahcat4864]

Thank you from the bottom of my heart for the honesty and truth I feel so humbled listening to you both Truth is its so hard to get effective mental health treatment for some people its impossible...talking is not enough people need actual diagnosis treatment and help I envy you both your love for each other My OCD has been the cover for my deeper mental health distress So much love to you both 💓

[@helenbrannan5389]

From the bottom of my heart this is one of the most beautiful thing I have ever watched