NO ROOM FOR NEGATIVITY| CANCER VLOG

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[@julespowell4896]

Emily talked about being a happy blogger. Well not only was she happy, she was the biggest inspiration who was a complete angel. She was funny and kind. I don't know another KZbin who makes better blogs than Em. She was a warrior and she fought and fought to the end. Heartbreaking.

[@jessej.m.e8430]

My lil brother is over the moon you read his picture & put it on your wall haha & my Mum did the Nando's cross stitch I made her do it 😅 I'm glad you like it and keep going... Love Ya Guys xx xx

[@emilyhayward4726]

Jessie Reid thanks so much jessie....it’s on my wall and will stay there! Xxx

[@jessej.m.e8430]

Emily Hayward Awww awesome, he thinks he's famous now bless him xx

[@elastronaute1198]

wow that was very nice of you and your brother

[@leanderthal2689]

I was at the Spring Equinox ceremony at Stonehenge today and my thoughts were all directed towards you and your healing. Emily, Queen of our Hearts ❤

[@MB-yz2vc]

I still watch Emily for inspiration and I just ask God why these two beautiful souls were torn apart too soon. I want them together married as they should be. Amazing and wonderful people. Life is unfair, but Emily was always positive. She’s my hero, honestly. And so is Aisha. Amazing amazing amazing people

[@wongawonga1000]

Speaking as someone with Terminal Brain Cancer (Glioblastoma Multiforme - more commonly known as GBM), it's extremely difficult to stop negativity from creeping into my life. When I was in hospital in 2021, all I could think about was returning back to New Zealand for a holiday. I've been there twice and would love to go again.Unfortunately, I don't have a driver's license anymore. This means that staying where I've stayed previously is not possible. I always stayed at Amberley Beach which is about a half hour drive north of Christchurch. The house where I stay has a back gate opening out onto a large mostly empty beach. You can hear the waves in the bedroom!! The thought of saying farewell permanently to doing something I love kills me inside. When I ride a bike, I realize that I will most likely never drive again. It would be too dangerous. Of course this also kills off doing other things I used to enjoy. I've got photos which, unfortunately, only cause me pain - they're supposed to bring back happy memories. They now only bring sadness. Lots of people are lucky enough to have their lives fall apart after they die. For me, my life fell apart when I was diagnosed and also thanks - in large part - to the brain surgery to remove the tumor - or in my case, a small part of it. There is still a fair bit left lurking up stairs. With GBM. the question is, when will it pop back into action? I had tried a Keto Diet to try to prolong my life. It just made me incredibly tired due to the lack of carbs - particularly for someone who goes to the gym 6 days/week. I've now realized that my life isn't worth prolonging. Nowadays, I long for death.

[@stephroseblade4336]

I think your outlook and attitude towards life, is really inspirational and I personally don’t see your emotional vlogs as negative or dark. Cancer isn’t a dance in the park and it’s important for us all to understand just how stressful your journey is. Reference summer coming.....pffft we’ve got snow for Easter lol.

[@sarag2809]

Emily, I felt compelled to tell you to live your life to the fullest regardless of what any doctor says. My grandmother was diagnosed with stomach cancer in her sixties, the doctor gave her less then a year to live.....she went onto to live another decade 😊. She just decided to try and live as happily as she could with my grandfather. She ended up passing away of something completely different in the end. Funny how life turns out. I got to go to Italy and see her many times over those years, years that we thought we wouldn't have:) So just keep on going because I foresee you having a wonderful life with Aisha ❤️😊

[@ohmeandmybigideas]

Ignore the negativity Emily! You give as much to your viewers as we give to you. You literally flood us with positivity and its amazing. Love you gal!

[@vickybikes]

Err, you're both wrong! Aisha's dressing gown is purple 😂😂😂! Great vid, love your refreshed positivity. Keep rocking and fighting xx

[@bevbailie4544]

The reason for the negativity you receive, is they feel insecure because you have such a strong positive attitude to life. Stay strong! You have so many supporters who care and love you both!!

[@Lightworkers.]

Go Emily, despite everything you're still grabbing life with both hands. Ignore the hate... people who hate need to hurt people to feel better about themselves. You and Aisha are so far above these people. You come from love and positivity in everything you do. Much love to you both xx

[@trishloiacono8524]

Thank you yet again, your vlogs are very well balanced thats what keeps me watching, you have a great way of saying whats going on good and bad without being dramatic, there are alot of vlogs out there that are just so over the top and makes them sound like they are whinging over and over which is so sad, that really brings me down, but yours are open , honest, sad, bad and funny, loving, never worry about saying how you feel either way as you say it from the heart and as I've said Your Volgs Are Balanced. Have a great dayx

[@mysterymom9944]

I still watch you Emily for inspiration daily. ❤ you ....sweet angel

[@kingdom5454]

Under ten brain mets in the US they can still do SRS or cyberknife. Your in my prayers. I’m stage 3c and thank God I just got clear scans last Monday. I’m so happy for your engagement. Stay positive! ❤️

[@Carla_1234]

I'm 3c too! It's so nice to come here and feel like I'm not the only one going through this

[@adalineproulx9773]

I miss u emily and your strength! Your vlogs i watch daily bc you have a strength and bring peace and calm. You were so special and your vlogs a precious gift to us xo rip earth angel 🤗

[@Foxandfizz]

You are amazing Emily. So full of strength and positivity. Cancer has no idea who it is dealing with! We’re all with you!! Xx

[@Val-e7v]

So happy to see enjoying life you are so inspirainal for cancer peoplewho are so scared thinking of you emily and ashia

[@phylwilson2308]

Hi Emily, thanks for these vlogs. I find myself thinking about you during the day wondering how you are and what your doing! You make me want to be a more positive person like you. It’s strange.... to worry about someone I’ve never meet and feel I like you are a friend to us all. All I’m trying to say, is you are great thank you so much for being you 💕💕

[@Greenthumb-420]

i love ur personality ur so magnetic!

[@traceysimkins3504]

Anyone can see you’re about the support and love! Sending love positivity and huge hugs to you both xxxx

[@BOBBY1976100]

All the best for Thursday/Friday. You’re an incredible girl. The life just buzzes right off you.

[@ksc9954]

Watching all these blogs again I do miss your confidence so much.

[@wendysherbert3257]

You are teaching us all how to deal with facing adversity with grace, fun, and grit. Thank you Emily!

[@elizabethkessler7029]

The original brain tumor did not respond to radiotherapy to begin with which is likely why they told her to prepare do do what she needed to do suspecting these would not either. The brain has a blood brain barrier that prevents many medicines from crossing into the brain and offers some protection against cancer. Once it’s been broken it’s hard to treat anyway. Imagine the increase in pressure from one tumor and she had six. It’s no wonder she had a headache. Tumors encapsulate themselves with a bed of fluid and at some point like mine did that fluid bursts or leaks out depending on the pressure in it. You get relief at first cause it seems to be smaller due to less pressure by the collected fluid. Unfortunately that fluid is loaded with cancer cells and in the head it’s only got one place to go the brain hence numerous metastatic growth in a small area. So sorry that happened to you Em. You are missed.

[@whowhatwhenwherewhynow]

That does make sense...

[@samgordon3450]

Literally will never stop laughing at your little face and pink nose poking out from your furry hood. Love u xx

[@meganlovesdisneyandcrafts4780]

lol, the only thing I could think of was Kenny from South park! HA HA

[@SheBendsNotBreaks]

Hi Em. I Don't want to be negative or overly picky but given your popularity (including with me) I hope you will allow me to correct some of the misunderstandings you stated about radiotherapy (I'm a radiotherapist/university lecturer that used to work at the Marsden, so I love seeing the place again via you). Cyberknife is a pencil-lead-thin x-ray beam (6MV energy) delivered via a robotic arm, which is indeed targeted at a small point/tumour from many beams at multiple angles. Whether you can have cyberknife really depends on the size of your tumours (it's best on small volumes) plus, in your case, how much dose your brain received last time. Radiotherapy from a linac (the machine they treated your hip on) can also treat the brain with a 6MV x-ray beam but is designed for larger volumes. If you have a technique known as IMRT or VMAT then the targeting of where the dose goes is still very very precise (which can help reduce side effects). The lasers (set in 3 planes) are what we use to ensure that patients are correctly set up in the same position every day. They don't treat or cause any kind of damage (unless you want to stare directly into the beam...that will hurt your eyes). Hope that helps.

[@emilyhayward4726]

Michelle Ryland hi Michelle....I hope I don’t come across acting like I know everything about RT because I definitely don’t. Thanks for this it was interesting. I was just repeating what I had been told already. Thanks for your support xxx

[@SheBendsNotBreaks]

Hi Em. You didn't come across as acting in any way at all, and never negatively - I just thought you should know that you weren't treated by lasers! That would be a bit James Bond and rather painful. As a profession, we spend a lot of time dealing with patients worried about their treatment because of either misunderstanding information or actual misinformation they read/heard on the internet (not you! - but sometimes in your comments) and so where I can, I try and correct errors that might scare people to try and reduce stress in an already stressful situation.

[@joannlovespapillons]

Michelle Ryland I appreciated your comments because I am that patient that doesn’t grasp all the lingo the first time, especially with complex, scary treatments. I’m dealing with an issue now between a cardiologist who read the diagnosis one way to my husband and I, yet wrote a report to my primary that showed no reason for alarm. As we get more medically ‘futuristic ‘ it’s key to understand all the details, down to specifics. Knowledge is Power Thanks for the clarity!

[@illonarebar8639]

You are a little legend. Surround yourself with love, laughter and positivity. Love you and the beautiful Aisha. You got this👍🏻💕

[@marthacarrigan8349]

Emily, you are amazing! Aisha is too ! I'm lighting candles for healing and peace of mind while watching the snow & ice outside here in New Jersey ❤💋💋❤

[@spendynana6858]

You are so freaking amazing and inspiring! I'm a 55 year old cancer patient and never had the mental fortitude that you do. I can't thank you enough for sharing your life with us! Look forward to the next video 💜

[@staceyday5051]

You have my support Emily, if you ever did a meet up I’d be there 100%! You’re such an awesome person x

[@vanityfair5823]

You need to have your own show, you are hilarious! I pray for you each day and want you to know you are a ray of sunshine🌞

[@Staceym123]

Your enthusiasm makes my day thank you for giving us a piece of that enthusiasm

[@gillyana]

Haha I see the dressing gown purple/mauve pml this could turn into 'what colour is the dress thingymajig' xxx

[@raduvalentina8781]

you are one of the most beautufil and brave girl that i ever saw...........be strong emily and always hope

[@ChaiChai1965]

Your tiny little face in that furry jacket is so cute

[@lynnhamps7183]

I only have one critiscism of your vlogs Emily...you make people fall in love with you so easily and then we bloody worry..lol...stay strong lovey but don't feel you must be cheerful all the time...we understand (especially those of us who've had the horrid big 'C' ) ... stay warm... dressing gown is grey by the way.. :D

[@erinklein5615]

I just found your channel and your enthusiasm and positivity on life is amazing. It’s made me realize how short life is and how much I take it for granted. Thank you for sharing your journey with us!!!

[@moonjg4418]

I just started watching you and im so blown away by your strength! You two are incredible :3

[@moonjg4418]

Wow Thank you for all the likes o.o have a nice day!

[@olivedog1880]

Amazing that she had SIX brain tumors and was still so much herself. It’s crazy. She fought to the very end. Sorely missed Emily

[@jennak8712]

so proud of how you're dealing with this girl. Lots of love x

[@libbylou9343]

It's a lilacy-grey from my eyes and that cat ('fluffy'-really?) is gorgeous. Still loving your blogs xxx

[@Katie2sWeightLoss]

I'm so glad you had a great day! It's good to see! But I will be here and support you through any kind of day. I read the comments from that person, but I didn'tt respond to them. I just reported them, and moved on. A lot of times if you respond they just get worse and worse, and I didn't want you to see them and get upset. But I did see others comment to them, and it actually made them delete their comments and leave! I was shocked and happy! I hope today is a GREAT Day!!!! Hugs!! ❤️🙃👍❤️

[@2010Aveen]

Still watching your vlogs, miss ya lots hun. I hope you are looking down thinking "people are still watching" :) Never forgotten Emily

[@linda2468lou]

Dear Emily, I've been watching your vlogs so long that I really want the very best for you. I want you to beat this cancer and live a long time! You are included in my prayers! Get well and stay strong and always remember that you have our support!

[@gabrielsnotdead6912]

As shit as cancer is....it always brings out the best in people ....everytime! I had a mole in the same place you did and I realised it went funny (swollen turned purple) turned out it was a wasp sting but I think I did more in that week than I did in a year!!! I can't explain how amazing you've been throughout its phenomenol!

[@daria4183]

Emily, you are an amazing person! I really can't believe how strong you are and on top of that you have such a wonderful, big heart. Every time I watch your vlogs I feel loved. I hope you feel that love, too

[@colliesworld6380]

I'm just so happy you are engaged have you guys set a date yet, I bet both families are soooo stoked eh!!!

[@PurpleLuci]

You are so fucking awesome! So glad I’ve found this channel and you! Will be thinking about you on Friday. Fingers crossed for everything!! 💜

[@moeyruth8056]

Girl, you are such an inspiration. You got me motivated to work out and I wish you the best mind over matter I hope!

[@rosemarys2465]

Love and hugs to you. I'm glad that you have such a good team of doctors working on your case! If you ever need a "MOM" hug....consider yourself hugged bigtime!

[@FallingForward2023]

I am so glad you are not stopping long enough to dwell on your cancer!!! You make every moment a beautiful memory of how beautiful you are. And the inspiration that many people have become addicted to is YOU!!! I just love you and your gal... ML ♥♥♥ GOD BLESS !!!

[@emusedone]

The power of the Vlog and the incredibly strong Emily sharing her journey. Ten years ago I had melanoma on my leg, not even classic mole, just a feeling. Surgeries later, clear lymph nodes, I’m foolish enough to begin missing check ups, I’ve not been for a check in 3 years. What is wrong with me?! I’m stupid and possibly in denial that’s what! But Emily, your vlog has shaken the sense back into me. Sending love to you and Aisha from the Northwest of America. 💜

[@hazeleyes1976]

Congrats on the engagement !!! You are such an inspiration! Love from New York xoxo

[@cori020065]

Don't address the hate comments they don't matter. My twin brother was gay back in the 80s, it was so much different. But nowadays the people who are against it are in the minority so leave them there, and yes I'm only assuming that was so negative I apologize if I'm wrong I guess it's because I don't see any other negative when I see you guys

[@Narlee2226]

Hi up there in Heaven Em I sill love watching all these years later i can only imagine what's going on in heaven lol love from Lee ❤💙💚🧡💜❤🇦🇺

[@cori020065]

Its about time. #1 love your cats....NOW kick off all of those people who can't see the IMPORTANT things through the unimportant things. It's Your walk ,and there's a lot of different paths, yours does not have to be like anybody elses. You create your own!

[@fudgey1235]

Emily, your strength is absolutely admirable! Wishing you all the best x

[@kimberlyrichardson3746]

My husband & I are with you on this journey all the way dolly. I pray for Aisha & you nightly since I found your Vlogs. Can't wait for the wedding; so exciting!!! God Bless. Much love & respect from Canada

[@billmonthy]

You are so strong! I am 45 I beat cancer almost 5 years ago, and your attitude is going to help you beat this this time.

[@Toffee146]

I don't think you'll be leaving us so soon, Emily! You're a fighter, and a fighter with a positive mental attitude! I have a feeling you'll be 'bothering' us for a long time yet!!! It's always so lovely to see you in every vlog, doing everything you can to stay healthy and upbeat. Of course there is the serious side to all of this, but I think you're doing so well, considering your current predicament. Keep plodding on and keep vlogging! You're brilliant!

[@marybeazley7741]

Hi Emily im so glad i found your channel last year. I have come to love you like a sister, your vlogs are fine if cry so what we all do and also for being so honest, to let use see everything throuht your eyes, tell Aisha hi, she is also loved ok sweetie take care, and i saw that vlog, i went after her but no luck ok xoxo love you both...Mary.....Canada

[@devonmarie6770]

I can't even imagine any Person with a soul leaving a hate comment. You are sorely missed and you and Aisha have been the best inspiration for me. Love always♥️

[@emmajoesbury6649]

So inspirational em as always. No room for negativity on this channel. Love you both ❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@iramaria_]

Your energy and positivity are just amazing!

[@oceanmist6114]

You are amazing Emily, so positive, bubbly & inspirational. Sending love & healing to you & Aisha from New Zealand xx

[@Sandybeaches07]

Salt in porridge is the scottish way! Sugar is the English way, so I’m told , I’m scottish and I have sugar in mine , your English and you have salt lol xxx

[@sabrinar.3917]

Emily I'm so happy that you're starting you feel more positive again! Positivity and good energy can do wonders when it comes to health. I'm continuing to root for you, girl!

[@xCheerBaby]

I would love to see a day in the life of cookie! Or where you and aisha go on adventures? ❤ you guys always make me smile watching your videos, you are incredibly courageous and life loving and motivating! All the best with you ❤

[@beckyg927]

Love your positive outlook and awesome personality. What an inspiration you are!!

[@elynrebels4535]

Your vlogs are always positive, even in dire circumstances-your positive spirit shines through even these toughest of times. 💜

[@donnafrance9608]

Positive energy brings positive results. Ignore the haters nobody has time for that negativity. Love your spirit and attitude. Keep living life to the fullest having had stage 4 colon cancer has taught me to forget fear and just live each day none of us has guarantees so just choose happiness. Congrats again to y'all💞💍💞

[@grammylove5083]

I love your channel you are so inspiring and so absolutely adorable

[@claricejones1766]

Omg on the weekend I literally went and got everything I needed to make a cross stitch and was going to do the Nando's sign with your names! Damn! Back to the drawing board

[@emilyhayward4726]

clarice jones ahhh bless you! I mean another one won’t hurt!!! Haha so much love to you xx

[@lindagardellini6321]

It looks cold there! G'day from sunny Australia! Your attitude and personality just warm my heart. I could listen to you talk for hours. Just keep on doing whatever it is you are doing....you've got this, girl! Also, the robe looks purple to me! LOL

[@waystobebucket]

Still an inspiration. Amazing woman!x

[@lashawnablanton4649]

I love the strength and positivity you show while going thru the hardest stuff. You inspire me to keep fighting thru it all. I'm praying for you. God bless!

[@SnoWhiteSally]

We have your back, my lovely. Just know that we love and support you. How anyone has anything negative to say about you is beyond me. You are such an inspiration. Thank you for sharing your journey with us xxx

[@airbear832004]

You are amazing person. I discovered your page about a month ago. I just think you are inspiring! I was so into fitness then I got lupus. It knocked me down but seeing you working out all the time with cancer let’s me believe I can do it too. So thank you for that! ❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@Living_a_spoonie_life]

connor Klepeis Me too!

[@annieboat9932]

Don't worry about us Em. We are with you 150% You are so lovely and you spirit is astounding and contageous! Sending much love and prayers from across the pond! ( Florida!)

[@denisecoates-conqueringcan9206]

Hi Emily! Your energy is incredible, your attitude is effervescent...I’m post breast cancer and your determination inspires me even more to create awareness of cancer.. sending you lots of love and kick cancer!! 💓 ps... you’re both so lovely 💜

[@lunis471]

Your right about London! That city is full of life, vibrancy energy and all that you emminate! Xxx

[@HKaasWorship]

Praying for you and Aisha xxoo You give me such inspiration and I'm happy you are being looked at by that hospital!!

[@moeyruth8056]

Amazing !!’ You are amazing!! I love your energy and I can’t stop watching

[@spoonermum]

You seem like such a positive person, it's inspirational😁 I've been ill recently and in pain but you inspired me to keep going and have fun😊 I travelled to London for the weekend, took painkillers and had a great time😊

[@dizzydaydream9647]

You keep doing what your doing. Stay positive, keep spreading your sparkle. I’m still waiting to find out about my tumour but I’ve had my op now. Arm in plaster, lots of pain but hospital putting me on the magic Oramorph....I need a daily dose of your vlogs to brighten my day. Have everything crossed for you AwesEM 💕💕💕

[@angelaroberts1278]

My mother has been fighting and winning her battle against Melanoma for 1.5yrs her treatment is Opdivo and recently she just had gamma knife for 7 tumors in her brain. Her MRI showed NO cancer activity! Emily is gamma knife available in England? We are in the States. It is so much more less invasive then whole brain radiation. Stay strong! You got this ❤

[@motherofmany_4414]

Thinking of you always Emily 🙏🏼❤️ Sending you and Aisha all the love & prayers right now 🦋🍀🌟💎💓😍 Wishing you all the very best for Thursday in this big meeting xxxx

[@barbarashaw29]

Watching your Vlog Emily, stay positive and strong. You're such a gorgeous, funny and amazing woman. Am ashsmed, feeling sorry for myself cos got bad cold and you're brave and strong. You're in my thoughts, sending out positive vibes to you. You are full of life. 😚😚😚

[@susan8000]

You are freaking hilarious and inspirational! I love your vlog post! You guys are such a cute couple! Congratulations on your engagement! Keep being positive and thoughts/prayers from Florida!

[@kathmerryweather4128]

Stay strong lovely , we’ve got your back 😊 xx

[@christinebrown1787]

I too think you are awesome and so inspiring! You have a right to have down days and express it that is why you are my #1 vlog to watch, you are so real. praying for you honey, cant wait to see the wedding!

[@ronanwalsh7024]

Jesus! What kind of a pathetic person would send hate mail to a terminally ill girl who's only goals were to inspire people... spread love and try to stay alive to spend time with the love of her life?... it couldn't be jealousy because who would have wished to be in Emily's position except they are jealous of the fact that Emily was such a beautiful young woman who coped so well with everything thrown at her... it makes me so annoyed to hear this... they couldn't even be happy for her to be marrying her true love.

[@heatherhurwitz3359]

Emily YOU ARE LIFE. most inspirational person in the entire world. I just wish I could be half as positive and filled with LiFE as uou. You are beautiful

[@thedrewbear4]

I'm new here, man your full of life, so hope they can help you more i enjoy watching your vlogs. :)

[@PeachyOutlook]

What a inspiration you are! you keep smiling lovely - lots of love and prayers x

[@lagoskids8011]

Nearly 1000 views in 1 hours yeaaaaaaah boy 👏🏼🔥

[@evab.6240]

Miss your videos, Emily. That kitty in the beginning was so cute..

[@loveoftheladel]

Emily you need to get yourself a ring too?? 😬😬Xx

[@mstubeornottube]

I love what you said about not giving the tumors credit for the poor way you feel. I'll try that today. Not being scared that the glands throughout me are lymphoma...can just be an infection that can be treated. Maybe I need an infusion of London!!! ☮️💜

[@susanweistart8980]

Can't wait to see the wedding! Wishing you both all the best!